#Such a long and heavy month.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

"See you tomorrow"

MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 4 [prev parts]

#better drawn mdzs #MDZS Disco Elysium AU #mdzs au #Lan wangji #wei wuxian #yiling laozu #Happy Belated Halloween! #digital art #Thank you all for your patience as I drove myself into a madness only known by those lost at seas alone. #I put a lot of time into this one! It's not perfect but I am very happy with it + I am so happy to put down the tablet pen. #Digital art has some nice features but I'm sticking with traditional! I need a month to recover from the 2+ weeks of torture. #Okay lets talk about the AU and the comic now #Disco elysium has some of the best existential-horror-dream sequences I have ever seen. #The dialogue here is heavily inspired by The Final Dream - A scene I'd love to talk about more were it not so heavy with spoilers. #My AU is a lot more complex than a simple character swap but I really felt like LWJ + YLLZ fit this scene. #The final dream is about being unable to move on from a lost love. From something You made holy. From something You ruined. #It is about realizing that no matter how smart you are or what you offer or how you try to change - #You will never be able to turn back time. You will never ever be able to fix what is broken. That you also have been broken for a long time #You are a fuck-up who worships the nail covered ground of someone who did not want to be holy. And even though it hurts- #You cannot let this nightmare go. The pain keeps the love close. It is worse to forget. You promised to remember. #WWX died thinking LWJ disliked him. LWJ lost someone he thought was revolted by his love.

[vaxxman]

Do you like red oktoberfest (like romantically)?

Aha! Interesting and very valid thing to ask! Thanks for your question!

I shall not answer straightforwardly!

Doodle (1) and rambles you didn't ask for below the cut. The answer is in the last paragraph.

Clown language.

I admit I personally prefer showing characters interact with each other and allowing their interaction to be interpreted as either romantic, platonic, or even nothing at all.

I think this approach makes relationships less framed by "signpost cues" of friendship/attraction/love (not that I do not enjoy seeing these either). I think it leaves more room for interesting human interactions, independent of what expectations the reader has for the two characters. Some people seem to search for actions like kissing, hugging, confessions, in order to confirm whether something was supposed to be romantic or not. But then, the absence of such cues make them arrive at conclusions that ignore other forms of relationship-building interactions all together :(

(Fig.1: The unparalleled amount of different flavours of intimate feelings that are evoked from "getting shot and dying on your shoulder" - disease)

So for me, it's Schroedinger's character relationships, with a generous amount of "the true value of this relationship is the collection of interactions we have made along the way" and it doesn't need a name. So with that out of the way:

I am not averted to the idea of Medic and Heavy finally getting their hot steamy Tf2 Sex Update thanks for readin-

#tf2 medic #tf2 heavy #tf2 #team fortress 2 #60 seconds till mission begins rambles #Generally I like Doc just “mein Freund”ing everyone and keeping it ambiguous what he means oh the broad road that is camaraderie and romanc #Its 100% ok if you want to tag anything I drew with a romantic couple tag even though I myself didn't tag it as such #Be free :) - just dont start to tag something unethical :( #This ask is from nearly 2 months ago apologies that it took so long #I wanted to answer things chronologically but alas impulsive posting got the better of me

[cptnbeefheart]

this old world may never change and sometimes i wonder: do you ever think of me?

#my art #ok to rb #christopher moltisanti #when that wizard cursed me and i felt indebted to his soul #sketchbook tour #sopranos #sopranos fanart #christopher your violent delights will undoubtedly have violent ends (are they even your delights to begin with?) #these are like 6 mo old now. at least the first two #i could prob make these look better if i edited them for longer but i cant be fucked. only uploading these now bc i figured if its been 6 #months i probably wont ever go scan these with the heavy duty 800 dpi scanner. this works good enough #i dont really draw like this anymore it got really exhausting #i miss watching sopranos so bad i felt like i was feasting on it for days every time i watched an episode. took so long for me to watch #bc anything that makes me feel that high couldnt be good for me. had to space the episodes out by a few days

[non-un-topo]

Thinking about Yusuf and Nicolò as young men again

#the old guard #kaysanova #yusuf al kaysani #nicolo di genova #siggy draws #it ain't much but it's more than i've drawn in months. i miss this sort of cartoony style. like a dreamworks movie almost lol #my brain conjured an anime ending apparently and i can't explain why #maybe they're too girly looking but i didn't feel like using reference pictures so i guess they're bishounen sdfghfds #ahh i usually have director's commentary in the tags #yusuf is probably around 23-25 and nico is 19-22? though i can't say confidently that yusuf would be able to grow a full beard at 23 #but maybe he can maybe he's just that powerful #they're either very sad and lonely or very pensive. or both. maybe they're longing for something more... maybe a true love #i also dk what these clothes are. yusuf has some good clothes on. is probably flourishing as a merchant but still longs for More #nicolo is wearing... a tunic? but it could be a thin gambeson instead. maybe he's learning how to use a sword #i try to capture their best assets in this doodly style: yusuf's eyelashes and cute ears and weirdly shaped eyebrows #and nicolo's nose and heavy brow and the fact that he has almost no lips from the side lol

[meatballsander]

Decided to get silly and draw the inverse of the iconic "Victory Soldier" poster. And make it Heavymedic, of course.

Inspiration, progress pics, and alt versions under the cut

This poster! Always been a fan.

Initially I was gonna keep the same setting & color scheme, but the original poster distinctly has the top two thirds warm tones/bottom third cool tones. If I wanted to keep the piece cohesive it'd have to be RED Heavymedic vs BLU Soldier. And the more I thought about that the less it felt explicitly like Heavymedic fanart and more like propaganda for the RED team.

So I set it on Snowycoast! Its sky box and layout let me have cool top thirds/warm bottom third. Also it's one of the most beautiful maps in the game and I love drawing night scenes. Literally no downsides.

Progress pics!

Textless version, and an alt text version I made at the request of a friend:

And finally, since you've reached the bottom, some memes I made while working on it.

:)

#meatballsander art #tf2 #heavymedic #red oktoberfest #heavy tf2 #medic tf2 #soldier tf2 #artists on tumblr #tf2 fanart #tw death #cw death #I guess? tbh I've been staring at Soldier's mug for so long it's nothing but funny to me. #hey now you're reading the tags I'm gonna tell you a fun fact. #about a month ago my wifi router went down unexpectedly and the only song I had downloaded was Kiss From A Rose by Seal. #and you know what happens when you're sitting for 35 minutes straight waiting for a wifi router to reboot #left with only Kiss From A Rose and your mind? #this heckin piece babyyyyy #anyway shout out to Seal and my shitty wifi provider for making this happen #lgbt #edited a few hours after posting because I spotted an error in the bg coloring... sigh

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

waking up means starting the day's long battle of fighting to stay conscious

#ough im so sleepy.... eepy even.... #i already slept so much but the couch is calling to me #'maybe a lil nap wouldnt hurt' < thats the demons talking #but honestly. what WOULD it hurt? its not like i have literally Anything going on in my life! #there is nothing i need to be awake for! #why shouldn't i doze. why shouldn't i.... #IM LOSING THE BATTLE #absolutely unprompted #i would like to scribble but im so tired... so sleepy... my eyelids are so heavy #just... just one little nap. an hour! or two. or five. lets go for a coma actually that sounds festive #a month long sleep should fix me (lie) #ill scribble some laughingstock later i prommy.... #awww wait tangent #my cat letti has started up a new game #where she shoves a toy under a shelf and then runs to the other side to try and fish it out from underneath #and then she shoves it back under rinse and repeat #she's so enthusiastic about it... practically throwing herself around as she bats the toy back and forth #oh nope she got it out and now she's tossing it around & playing cat soccer with it <3 #and i am going to go Nap. ive lost the battle <3 im waving a white flag <3 i surrender to diet death

[presidentbungus]

in a similar vein to my last post i very much think demo’d be so good with kids. i don’t know if he’d be a good dad necessarily with all that emotional baggage and undoubtedly enough generational trauma to permanently ruin a toddler within seconds but he’d be a great uncle, godfather, weird neighbor, etc.

consider with me here. uncle tavish with the eyepatch and the peg-leg. he looks scary but he tells great stories about wizards and wars and explosions and he leaves in all the gory bits. he’ll show you how to make a pretty good firework out of the cleaning stuff your mum’s got lying around the house as long as you won’t tell on him. he’ll help you pull pranks on your adult relatives and he’ll take the blame for them. he’ll let you sip on his beer and scrumpy if you swear up and down you’re grown-up enough and when you hiss and stick your tongue out at the alcohol he’ll tell you that means you’re probably more mature than him. he doesn’t seem that rich but he’ll buy you a dirtbike or a pony or a whole set of expensive action figures for your birthday and he won’t even act like it’s a big deal. there’s something so simply enjoyable to him about kids (kids that aren’t his), so kicking with wonder and fierce excitement about the world, and he does whatever he can to give them what he never got—the push to run around and discover and do what they want, and to spit and curse and play-swordfight in the backyard and everything else all the adults in his life never really let him do. really, under it all, at the end of the day he’s got the big dumb heart of an absolute bloody sap and he knows it, and it’s almost relieving to know he’s still got it after all these years. you know? it works out

#i can’t spoil too much of the postcanon fic i’m working on but i think a bunch of the mercs #left with basically no surviving family and very few connections #take up and move after scout who still has his whole huge family and go back to boston #demo comes with. i think it doesn’t take long for him to get just about as close with scout’s family as scout is #and of course they get frequent visits. engie comes up from texas every few weekends. #heavy and medic for a week out of every month with their own gaggle of children and siblings #soldier comes down from wherever he’s chosen to station himself in the midwest every so often #and one time he comes down and just. never goes back up. around the same time him and demo start sucking face in public #there’s so many plans. i have so many plans. you guys are not ready #sorry for writing basically a whole other post in the tags that was not my intention. probably #tf2 demoman #tf2 #bungus headcanons

[skyafied]

PRINCESS HEAVY IS SO BEAUTIFUL PLEASE DRAW MORE OF HIM

AY DAWG YOU DONT HAVE TO TELL ME TWICE [ also thank you so much what the hell I'm so glad you liked him!! ;-; ]

They are getting ready for Jāņi :') [ignore my pathetic excuse for a flower crown on Medic LMAO]

I am not Latvian myself, but thank you @beeengie for telling me all about this beautiful holiday! It was like a month ago but still-

silly bonus sketches btw

#eden art #ask #SORRYYYYYYYY THIS TOOK SO LONG #wow like 2 months a new record #THE ART BLOCK IS REAL AND IT HAPPENED TO ME THOUGH SO THAT'S MY BAD #also I'm still trying to figure out my style so pretty please bare with me I know it looks wonky T-T #heavy is the prettiest princess tbh #<- I’ve decided this will be my tag for all Princess Heavy drawings btw because I Said So #I literally can't NOT draw this man smiling it's insane #sorry for the same expression every time but like.....I just want him to be happy........... #team fortress 2 #tf2 #heavy tf2 #medic tf2 #red oktoberfest #heavymedic

[cucumber-icepop]

Oh hey this guy looks nice

#Cucumbart #Undertale #Undertale Fanart #Flowey #Flowey the Flower #Flowey Undertale #I did this because I wanted to do something simple with heavy lighting. Blorbo is there too #I was about to apologize for just drawing this guy for the past like two months but then I remembered that I can do whatever I want forever #dont look at the grass patch for too long

[deeva-arud]

Boo!

I'm the paranormal activity on your dash :]

#Udi posting in 2023? truly a christmas miracle #Now it'd be pretty funny if everyone seeing this collectively thought 'who the hell is this person?' I mean. UNDERSTANDABLE- #I've been gone for so long I don't even recognise this dash layout help?? #Excuse me while I have a grandma moment trying to figure out where things are #Anyway I don't have much to post since I've barely drawn in all these months. So many art blocks stacked on top of more art blocks #(among other things) #BUT I still have some drawings here and there. Not the best I've ever produced but hey it's something #and you know what happens when Udi has an art block? Exactly. Cateeva content (and silly drawings) (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #Now it's time for me to fill my room with sticky notes reminding me to take things easy #you'll have to bear with my slowness for a little bit longer. Life hit me hard recently and everything feels so heavy to me #but I just didn't want to let this year pass without saying anything... #I actually missed being on here. If I see art or an oc from any of my moots I'll probably cry on the spot #Moot reading this you've been warned (🫶) #I'll shut up now. I really hope everyone's doing as good as they can. This is such an awful world #Udi talks

[next-hero-in-line]

Last meeting with my trainer before I leave was today and lemme tell you he did NOT GO EASY ON MEEEE

I know it was because he wanted me to see how much I had progressed but holy shit- i don’t think i ever ended a workout literally wheezing before

#squid talks #personal #I know ive improved a lot in the last few months and I can definitely list heavy #my stamina is SOOOO much better than it was before #I still can’t run for long periods of time due to my heart but I can do other things that I couldn’t with very limited issues #I can hold a plank for a full minute without shaking now lmao

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter.. #i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

[jorvikzelda]

I started reading Lord of the Rings (bought Fellowship of the Ring like… last spring but never got around to starting) and I’d just like to say. Holy fuck what a slow book. You mean to tell me I’m over a hundred pages in and this man is only just leaving the Shire? Sign me up for MORE I love this shit. Tolkien said “I will take exactly as much time as I want to describe things and you will like it”. AND I DO

#i can already tell this is the sort of thing that’s going to be so good I’ll never recover from it #I’ve watched the movies like casually-in-the-background a couple times so I know the approximate plot #(they often run on TV somewhere around Christmas and New Year’s in Sweden so they’ve been on more than twice) #but there’s so much detail here that’s just… missed out on… in the films #Or I forgot about it lmfao #Either way loving the book detail #And also reading a book for the first time in months i told my mom id been reading today and she was like YOURE READING?! #It’s part of my social media healing process. Forcing me to like… sit down and take shit in #Used to DEVOUR books when I was younger #Just Kinda Stopped at some point (much like every other former gifted kid) #But it’s a well missed moment of escapism and calm and centering myself. meditative almost #I find lotr to be good also because it’s like… a little heavy. You can read a chapter and then sit with it for a little while #Im not quite reaching the heavy cliffhangers yet either #Each chapter feels pretty concluded #It’s a healthier reading method I feel than the ‘devour in one night then don’t read for 6 months’ thing I did in high school #the few times i DID sit down to read a book #God damn those are some long tags #z talks #not horse game #I feel so late to the party because I always see all these people enjoying lotr ;-; its so established and here am i…. #but alas

[boxwinebaddie]

happy february 13th, aka anti-valentines day ( esp. when its edgy boy friday the 13th ) aka when my style sons, jerseykyle and ravenstan celebrate valentine's day and in honor of that because i am feeling insane, even though i still don't like it/think it's poorly written, i am going to regift you the part of the og chapter six ravesey #hate where stan goes off on that tangent about hating valentines days, florists being butchers & kyle being like completely enamored by him <3 xx

#idk how the quality of this is gonna look so if its illegible #just let me know and i will link you it in a doc #i still havent proofread this and its been months #long live the ravesey hate #specifically this part where stan gets really nerdy abt plants #and kyle is like oh my god kiss me on the lips weird boy #so fucking funny to me #raven of cd: doing hot boy shit all the time #jersey: unimpressed #stan: brings kyle a plant and gets really nerdy and scientific and sentimental about flowers & cares abt old people so much he almost cries #kyle: breathing heavy #HDSLKHDLKDD #amazing lol #anyways happy anti valentines day #my old writing makes me cringe so im simply #not reading it <3 #whatever it looks like…sorry #OKAY JK IREAD IT AND I WANT TO DELETE IT AGAIN HOWNIS IT SPELLED #THAT BAD IM GONNA SCREAM #pls enjoy this for like 2 more hours lmao

[dreamingfoxproductions]

“I must keep these girls safe!! They’re all I have left!!”

Recently been thinking abt au where Aoi decides to take up the sword again. More specifically, Shinobu dies early on so Aoi feels she needs to do it for the butterfly girls sakes.

The haori she’s wearing I actually own!! Since I’ve started cosplaying her she’s quickly become my new fave. Tho, no one can replace Muzan as my ultimate fave… I will see myself out.

Also really wanted to give her that color fade in her hair, to make her look even cooler!! I really enjoyed doing the highlights on it~~

#hi long time not much draws #first completed drawing in months huhh #hopefully ill pick up the pace again #tho cosplay is still heavy in my mind #aoi #aoi fanart #aoi kanzaki #kanzaki aoi #KNY #kny au #kny aoi #kny fanart #Kimetsu no Yaiba #kimetsu no yaiba fanart #demon slayer #demon slayer fanart #Fanart #my art #art #procreate #butterfly mansion #Shinobu #kochou shinobu #shinobu kochou #kny shinobu

[crimeronan]

i ended up going out again and walking well over four miles between trains and buses and stores just wandering around taking pictures of the city and people-watching. my legs and hips are very sore now and i'm gonna sleep super well but. Hello Ability To Walk.

#the novelty of being able to walk long distances and lift heavy things means i'm gonna be frequently overdoing it for the next uh #probably several months. or. years #tomorrow i might be a bed slug. but today was nice. #autoimmune tag