#NOT GONNA BE NEGATIVE AT THE END OF THE YEAR

[lunarspiral1127]

*sigh* I was gonna wait till later, but screw it. I gotta talk about the ending of X-Men 97 episode 9 and what it could lead too. *SPOILERS*

So, I'm mad. Because, in the end, Magneto tore the adamantium out of Wolverine's skeleton. And, yes, this did happen in the comics (X-Men vol. 2 #25 "Fatal Attractions").

Now, I hated that they had to do that to him cause I like Wolverine. But, next week's episode might lead into some other things that happened in the comics too. I dunno which ones, but I'll tell you what they are.

Xavier gets so angry at what Magneto did to Wolverine that he mindwipes him, putting Magneto in a catatonic state. Like, it could be the last straw in the show, and Xavier does this.

This leads to the origin and the first appearance of Onslaught, an entity created with both Xavier and Magneto's consciousness. He's a combination of both their dark and negative thoughts and feelings (Xavier's was suppressed for years). Now, Onslaught would be a "holy crap, we're screwed" moment if he did show up or hint of him in the finale.

Wolverine survives, but his healing factor gets burned out, but he gains his bone claws. He might leave the X-Men like Storm did when she lost her powers. However, he does go feral and becomes more of a beast due to his mutation. If this does happen in the show, I wonder how he'll regain his healing factor and his humanity if the show gets a second season.

Wolverine, in the comics, does get his adamantium back into his skeleton, but the one to do that was Apocalypse, and that was just to brainwash him and turn him into the Horsemen of Death. I don't think that's gonna happen cause the show has been leaving so many hints of Gambit being the one who'll become that Horseman.

And, that's all that I can think of that could happen in the finale that are from the comics. Again, I'm not sure which will happen next week, but it'll be a doozy.

#x men 97 #xmen 97 #x-men 97 #x men 97 spoilers #xmen 97 spoilers #x-men 97 spoilers #marvel #magneto #magnus #wolverine #logan howlett #professor x #charles xavier

[homochadensistm]

Hello. I know this will sound super weird and probably rude because why tf would I come to a stranger with my personal problems? But I wanted to ask for advice, if that’d be okay? I remember you saying you suffered from depression, and managed to deal with it and work on it enough to get somewhat past it. Depression ruined my life completely. I’m 30 with absolutely nothing to show for it, not even a degree. I have tried so so many things, but nothing seems to help me. I promise that I keep fighting with all I’ve got, and I’m not really asking about what to do or something like that, but I want a sincere opinion, if that’s okay. Do you think I can still turn my life around somehow? Do you think I can still try to start over at this age? Start going to uni again even with the pressure that I need to have kids soon as well before it’s too late? With the pressure that I might fail again if my menthol eelness gets too bad again? Is it too late for me to have big dreams of ever living up to a potential I could’ve had if not for this stupid disease?

Hi anon, I think you're completely fine. Life is not a race, there is no medal at the end of it for all the XP maximizers. You're not gonna get a Goodest Girl award for doing uni at 20 or for not having Being Sad Debilitatingly DiseaseTM. It's really OK. Your pace is your own and the amount of progress you can have with yourself in 1 month can be equivalent to the progress a 20yo girlie has in 5 years, it's all good. Time is not the most important factor in the Happiness and FulfillmentTM equation.

That being said, I'm sensing a lot of fomo/expectations stress(?) from ur text. What do u mean "I NEED to have kids"? That's not something you "need" to have, it's something you should WANT to have. You shouldn't feel pressured by time (or anything else) to have kids, you can have them later in life if that's something you aspire to, it's fine. iirc nowadays around 25% of births are by women who passed the age of 35 (and the rate+age is increasing), you have absolutely nothing to worry about.

You can turn your life around at any given point in time. You can do it at 20, at 30, at 50, it doesn't matter. Again, the universe won't hand you an award for getting your shit together sooner than later, we're all going to die as the same, medium quality slab of meat. Will you maybe feel like you could've done it sooner and save yourself the time and misery? Sure, but that isn't going to get u anywhere, yesterday is over bestie there's only now and tomorrow, and that's plenty of more time!

From my experience, depression is informed by both internal and external factors, and, most annoyingly, the internal factors are informed by the external factors as well. You feel the way you behave and live. If you treat yourself like shit you're gonna feel like shit. If you behave in ways that encourage negativity (angry, resentful, spiteful, selfish, lazy etc) it'll affect you negatively. Depression also encourages you to be comfortable with yourself (ironically) in a way that inhibits growth and learning: I don't have to hold myself accountable to doing chores or taking a shower or eating well or doing homework or working on my project or even going to work, I'm depressed! This doesn't happen consciously imo, you don't actively decide "I'm not gonna take a shower cause I'm depressed", you sort of slip into the mood of not taking a shower, and the excuse your brain gives you for that is "oh well, that's depression for ya" and the cycle continues. The uncomfortable zone is the place where YOU ACTIVELY catch yourself doing that, and doing something else, uncomfortable, instead (like taking a shower despite feeling like you REALLY don't wanna). This ofc applies to literally everything in life, not just showers. Depression actively keeps you in your comfort zone, where you don't have to do anything that makes you feel anxious, nervous or UGH-y, and provides you with a wonderful excuse.

Your life will start taking a turn for the better once you free yourself from the prison of comfort your brain put you in, and start actively seeking out and completing activities that make you uncomfortable. Start taking care of your skin daily. Put those moisturizers on your face. Clean your place, declutter your surroundings. Dont eat food straight from the fridge like an animal, put it in a bowl and sit down and eat. Cook for yourself, stop relying on the comfort of instant trash. Move your body more, take walks outside, preferably around nature/parks, even if it requires a bit of travel to get there. Invest in your own fucking stocks, your looks, your health, your well being. Nothing will ever happen if you won't actively make it happen, and you will never feel good about yourself if you don't start taking yourself seriously. You give your Sims the best lifestyle with food, health, clothes and hobbies, why not yourself?

Make a routine for yourself and stick with it. Eat your meals at the same time every single day. Wake up and go to sleep at the same time every day. Give yourself a structured framework to live by so that your brain can feel like there's order in the chaos, trust me it's a big deal. Start working out, and make it a routine. For the love of God, PLEASE start working out! It doesn't have to be super long or complicated, but moving your body is essential for both your mental and physical health, and if ur so worried about the time "wasted" on being Sad SickTM then the solution is in prolonging the time and the quality of time you have left, and that can be done optimally through exercise and good food habits. You have no idea what kind of physical and mental changes a well structured workout program (that you stick to as part of your routine) can bring, at any age. It can also count a hobby and give you measurable little goals to reach.

In short: taking responsibility over myself and owning up to my (in)action, having a set routine and bedtime/waketime, a good diet, working out and taking care of myself are what eviscerated years of depression for me. I obviously don't know your personal situation but I (and the field of cognitive behavioral therapy) feel like these factors^ are the most common denominator in all of us feeling like shit, and play such a huge role in every human person's wellbeing and they're universal across the board.

I highly encourage you to watch this, and take notes:

Hope I helped somehow and Goodluck anon! There's absolutely nothing wrong with you, I promise.

#dobetter

[dawnlotus-draws]

Art Summary 2023! Template here ^^

#I’m gonna be honest lads. my art went downhill this year ueueue #nothing I can do but KEEP DOING ART #I peaked in the first 4 months and it was a slope from there RIP #NOT GONNA BE NEGATIVE AT THE END OF THE YEAR #I AM GLAD I MADE ART THIS YEAR #I WILL MAKE ART NEXT YEAR #NEVER STOP IMPROVING!!!!! #dawnsart #art summary #art summary 2024

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so* #and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this. #love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

[orcelito]

As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.

#speculation nation #bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!! #well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol) #but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad. #i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning) #he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay #but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and #thats my dad. Thats my Dad. #im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go #dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone #so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant. #and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one? #take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say. #but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did. #seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him. #makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me #we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad. #sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today. #negative/ #death/ #hospitals ment/ #idfk. sorry

[astro-inthestars]

.....

Mm.

#rennikorambles #/neg ... sigh #no she didnt reject me #no i didnt mess up #no ididnt even CHICKEN OUT. #i had everything i had my courage i had my words i had my loose plan ready i was ready. #i wasnt gonna chicken out. and the worse that could happen i knew was that she wasnt ready. #i had high hopes. youve seen a glimpse of the hype havent you guys? #but of course. the one . ONE thing that could ruin everything. isnt me. isnt laurel. but the world it-fucking-self. #the auditions were canceled and we didnt know. our teacher told our class prez but he didnt tell us. or the very least laurel #didnt send it in any gcs and everything. and im not even upset about the auditions ofc im not. sure i care about it but #it could all move to a year later and i wouldn't care . or well i would of course but just.. #but the fact that i had all this hope for this one moment for this one CHANCE and it all goes down the fucking drain #her friend (and by extension mine) lets call her Brash Girl which you can expect how she is. was literally just caught up in the whole thing #and of course with her stuck with us i couldnt do anything. #dragged me to 7-11 to mope about our teacher who canceled the auditions and. #.... yeah. no shot. nothing. laurel asked her mom to pick her up. i watch her leave. i leave. the end. #after all that effort. all that dreaming. all that hoping nothing. #i know it's not the end of the world. i know i'll get another chance. but god does it fucking suck. #im exhausted and disappointed and tired and i. i dont know. #i need a breather.

[fakeoutbf]

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#my grandma fell and broke her hip in october last year #and basically the end of 2023 was a whirlwind of really negative emotions all around for her and me and my whole family #of course there were good moments in between but overall it hit us all pretty hard #i got to her house just now and she walked all the way from the office to the kitchen to get the door for me and i saw her walk all the way #back with minimal difficulty and also going kinda fast with her new walker #and i’m in tears writing this bc we didn’t know if she was gonna walk again #she was depressed her stomach was a mess and she barely ate and other conditions worsened and made it that much harder for her to get better #now she’s finally starting to look and be like the woman i know she is and it makes me feel so relieved #i never doubted that she could get better but god it feels so good to see her be better

[thisfairytalegonebad]

the problem with exclusively having hobbies that involve staring at a screen is that you can recognise that there is a problem and The Screens are probably making your mental health worse but when you decide to do something against that by not doing one of your screen hobbies your brain just starts fucking eating itself from the inside out and you end up feeling like absolute dogshit

#lads i am having a HORRIBLE day #a horrible two days really i was already feeling shit yesterday #because i'm not really playing any video game right now and ace attorney is too much visual novel not enough game to stimulate my brain #so i thought hey why not take advantage of that by simply trying not to play video games for a bit #but i didn't consider that the lack of OTHER hobbies means i just end up not doing anything at all #and good god i severely underestimated the absolute fucking depression pit i was gonna fall in by doing that #i'm not GLAD i'm going back to work tomorrow but i'm. hm. it'll be better than this i'm sure #anyway yikes i'm sorry for all the negativity this weekend #what a way to start the new year

[rosicheeks]

🌸🦖🌿?

-🌸

🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

I feel like it had to be something about my personality. Personality compliments are always top tier for me and then singing compliments are probably next 🩷

🦖 Favorite extinct animal?

Dinosaurs???? I’m sorry I’m awful lol

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.

Right now I don’t think I have a *favorite* outfit. My go to outfit when I want to look cute is usually a skirt and a top that is either a crop top or I crop myself 😂

#I actually have a box somewhere of a bunch of hand written compliments I got when I was in school #some were notes and some was from church #even if I don’t know the person anymore it’s still nice to look back at them #also my school had a Facebook page where you could anonymously post compliments about other students so I wrote those down somewhere too 🫶 #true and genuine compliments really hit me deep #the you’re beautiful or cool or nice or sweet #is nice to hear but it’s nowhere near the feeling you get when someone actually says something from the heart #sad thing is I don’t remember many personality compliments - I remember a few singing compliments but not many and I have a feeling that #my negative thoughts over the years just ended up drowning them out or ya know my memory sucks either way lol #my first thought was dinosaurs and then I was like nah they aren’t animals so I tried looking up extinct animals but then I got overwhelmed #so I was like eh I’m gonna just put dinosaurs but then I thought about it and was like……. if dinosaurs aren’t animals what are they #so I looked it up and I saw two different things saying either animal/reptile (I’m guessing depending on what type but who the fuck knows) #as for outfit that’s a hard one still - I don’t go out much so I don’t wear half of my closet #most of the time I’m just wearing some comfy pants and a some random shirt #but I’ve been trying to go out more so I’ve been going through my closet and trying different outfits #nothing is really *clicking* and tbh it’s probably cause I should get rid of all of it and start fresh #but that’s a lot of fucking money sooooooo not gonna do that lol #anyway thank you for the questions lovely 🩷🫶 #it was fitting for you to do the 🌸 it made me smile 🥰 #ask #🌸 anon

[daz4i]

guys i'm gonna be so fr. the idea i may actually live to an old age (or even just like. 40. even 30 tbh) scares me way more than dying 👍

#my body is already so shitty and it's only gonna get worse from here lol #also i feel like. already too old for any field i actually wanna work in #(tbf acting schools here likely won't accept you if you're 25 or older so. that's a part of why i feel that way) #i kinda do hope my tests end up revealing a deadly disease and i have like a year left or smth #might actually get me to start doing things lol #i'm fine dw i'm just Thinking. i'm sad abt being alive ig. i'm not a fan #negative // #ask to tag

[aelizel]

not saying i’m mad or anything but they really pulled two companions from the past that haven’t been mentioned this entire era and gave them all a long farewell from their doctors, devoted that episode to a question that nobody asked (whether the doctor likes being the doctor or not like WHAT) and ignored all the ones that did exist about the timeless child (which after going back and forth on it i’ve decided i hate it because they didn’t really DO anything with it they just have jo martin appear as a hologram for less than five minutes as a distraction thanks i guess) and for the doctor’s oldest friend, her best enemy, the one who’s supposed to be her equal, he’s at sanity’s end, he’s drowning and he gets one standalone vague line addressing her feelings for him. the Doctor doesn’t seem to care why and we can headcanon why that is all we want, it’s still not spoken and it absolutely should be.

every time they meet, the doctor and yaz put him down at every turn. nobody cares about why he’s like this and we can devote a whole episode to mental health and people not feeling like they’re enough and Yaz’s depression and we could easily make some connections with him but we’re not gonna do that because he’s just Evil(tm) and nuance doesn’t exist and the Doctor has to be right about everything and he deserves every bad thing that happens to him y’know including being handed over to the nazis which i will never forgive chibnall for thank you very much. every time there’s a chance for communication or atonement or to try and make things right they just waste it and want to spend that time focusing on some mediocre b plot that doesn’t even matter. again not saying i’m mad i’m just saying i hate it here and i want to off myself that’s all

#dw negativity #anti chibnall #anti dw #thoschei #dw spoilers #for ts #i will move on but i need to speak my mind first bc i can't overstate how much i'm hurting because of that episode #i invested two years here and i was relying on it during the pandemic when the world felt like it was ending #i feel sick and devastated #i'm gonna leave for the weekend and try to feel better #but god i just want to scream i'm so tired of being let down like this

[loremastering]

man i love the new avatar updates for the secondborn. i love that we can display race, gender, and body types (more or less) more fluidly and diversely and that more than half the human life span can be depicted. thank you devs you have my whole heart and soul now for this game (as if they didn't already) 

#txt #they might have been a bit hasty to put it live with the number of movement bugs but oh well #been looking through the forums to see reactions cause i hate myself but the negative reactions are #disheartening and sometimes funny #mY avA tar is SACRED hOW cOULD yoU Do THIS #is the funniest by far #but i can see how sad it is to see ones race and gender being invalidated by all these arseholes :( i hope it calms down soon #excuse my rambling in on powerful post covid meds and cant stop talking #i wish the eastenr kingdoms were included too for origins but i wonder if thats gonna be an end of the year thing with umbar coming out #and for the people crying BUT ITS LORE BREAKING like #as if runekeeprs and beornings and hobbits arent running around in mini armies already

[lmanburg]

dsmp is just like spn to me. you used to make me feel something but now all i can see when i look at you is the rotting corpse you ended up as. you used to be full of passion and joy but you bled it all out dry until not even the best of you could save the ship. i miss the things i loved about you i miss the characters i cared for i thought you loved them too i guess you didn't. if you had given a shit i would have followed you to the ends of the earth instead you Gave Me That. i hate that you'll be forever tainted by the memory of one scumbag who can't be bothered to be a good person. i hate that i don't even hate you i just don't care. the apathy that's left is worse than the resentment i felt while it was still going because at least back then i had something to dig my heels into. anyways. QSMP will have lore that is fun and doesn't hate their viewers and will not disappoint me beyond belief like to charge reblog to cast.

#i went through my old reblogs from like a year or more ago. #discourse #kinda not really but just for the overall negativity i'll tag it #i think i'm still gonna read dsmp stuff on ao3 but its really like spn because its simply not that anymore. #sorry for being so pessimistic or whatever my semester is ending and i fear for my life every second of every day /j

[cannibalisticskittles]

went to an appointment to feel out getting contacts, knowing that my eyes are fucked up and i would need to special order something, and knowing it would be bad

found out that it's extra bad, lads

i didn't even know they MADE contact lenses that last for a whole year in just one pair. lenses that you might need to take somewhere to get POLISHED?

#rgps #rigid gaspermeables #I've tried gaspermeables before bc my eyes are fucked and thats what they did at the time for fucky eyes #and i was 11 and they hurt and they got stuck once so that put me off them #tried again a few years back and managed to get over my fear enough to take them out and put them in consistently #but didnt end up getting more than the sample #bc i was told that theyd need to special order my prescription #and knowing that i COULD wear contacts was enoufb #enough of a victory for me #and i was content to stick with glasses and not pay more money #anyway my eyes are fucked twice so i need Extra Fucked Lenses #i have Real Bad Astigmatism and i have Real Bad Negative Vision (like -12.75 and -13.25?) #if it was just one and not the other theyd still need to be special ordered but they wouldnt be as weird #theyd be like. yknow. every other type of contact ive ever heard of. wear out after a month or so. #but bc its both. i need a special prescription for my special eyes. #and oh boy is it costly #but i think. im gonna try it. with hesitance and consternation.

[theflyingfeeling]

Robin was interviewed in the morning television earlier today and oh god I want to hug him 🥺

and not only because his (porko-like) leopard print jacket looked so cosy and soft

#the whole interview had such a...low-key negative vibe somehow? #the interviewer asked some interesting questions alright but it felt like robin was constantly asked to explain himself #first robin was asked why he's in UMK now when years ago he said he thinks eurovision/umk ''distorts the artist's image'' #(as in they will from then on be known as ''the artist who went to eurovision'') #then he was asked what he himself had to do with making of his UMK song (as if no one expects him to be in no way part of it) #then he was asked if he was expecting the song to face so much criticism #and it does seem like he at some point realised (before the song was released) that it's not what people were expecting of him #ngl i'm one of them but at the same time i feel a little sorry for robin who genuinely seems to love the song #and thinks it represents him the best. and like. if the artist thinks like that then who am i to argue with it? #robin: ''...and no matter how the song does in UMK i'm still gonna have a great song to perfom in concerts'' #the interviewer: ''so you're gonna keep perfoming it regardless?'' #(said in a tone that says ''oh so you're gonna be performing it even though it's crap'') #okay well then the interviewer talks about how lordi was not praised either when they were chosen for ESC #to which robin doesn't have much to say because he was so young that he can't remember so that was awkward as well 😂 #then he had to answer questions about why he was driving a car and filming a video for social media at the same time #''how did you end up with this decision to film while driving a car?'' (said in a tone that implies he's a little thick) #tbh was stupid on his part and he did apologise again #he said he's so conscientious that he wants to do everything he's promised he would (in this case answering fan questions i guess) #and he knew that was the only time that day that he'd have the time for that and that it was in an area with little traffic #and while i'm also judging him for doing it i also feel a little sorry for him because oh little one you don't HAVE to do everything 😭 #sometimes you simply don't have the time and energy. next time i'd rather you don't answer fan questions than do it while driving #then (with no transition whatsover) he was asked if he's planning on wearing mismatched shoes until the end of his career 🙄 #(said in a tone that implies he should grow out of it already) #a question i'm sure he's never answered before lol #then they talked about the incident at his new year's gig #and the interviewer asked if they ever found out WHY someone was throwing beer steins on stage #as if robin (or anyone) would go and ask?! 😂 like. come on. the person was drunk out of their ass probably. there is no deeper reason #but the question made it seem like the interviewer was expecting robin to go ''well they said my songs suck and that i'm probably gay!'' #just so that they could make a nice headline out of it lol #anyway. don't ask why i'm writing this all in the tags 😅

[orcelito]

I've kinda been existing in the realm of "everyone I know is going to die, many sooner than I expect" for the past few years. Considering. Ykno. But I don't register that's not the norm most of the time. I lived 22 years of my life not experiencing proper grief, after all. Only a few people I barely knew had died. No one I was ever close with.

One of the first things my new therapist said when greeting me (after having reviewed the preliminary questionnaire I filled out) was something about how sorry she was at my unimaginable loss. And I just had a moment of like. Huh. No, it really Isn't normal to lose 6 members of my family and 2 cats in the span of 5 years. No, that isn't normal at all.

I hope I don't have to experience any more unexpected losses anytime soon. I'd like to have faith in people's permanence in my life again.

#speculation nation #negative/ #kinda. ya kno. #i think my dad's death really was so very traumatic for me actually. #barely more than a day's warning. even he didnt know he was dying. #if someone can die so abruptly like that. someone who was the 2nd most important person in my life. #well. it certainly creates some doubts and fears. #in the end. im just doing my best to not join them just yet. we dont need another generation's loss in such short a time. #so im taking care of my health. going to therapy. getting new glasses. gonna get a fibro diagnosis. #finishing my degree. eating healthily (kind of). staying away from alcohol. #i need to exercise more. ill start going on bike rides again. soon. #the grief is immense and unimaginable. and i am a very different person than i was even just a year ago. #but theres something that such loss does offer: perspective. #time is not infinite. the march of death comes for us all. some sooner than others. #so im trying to do my best to live my life to the fullest. taking measures ive been avoiding for years. #ive had some hiccups. it's certainly not easy to stay positive rn. #but im trying. and ive made a lot of progress already. & thats what matters in the end.