#Live journal is great

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

Bonus tell us why in the tags!

#I'm sure your friend with 200 podcast listeners is a very serious journalist #tumblr polls #Journalism #News #News media #I used to get interviewed a semi regularly during my activist days #I once woke up hungover at 8am for what I thought was going to be a 10 minute max interview about an upcoming protest #And turned out to be an hour of live libertarian talk radio where I had to defend the core concepts of socialism to them #And I did great #Also one time a drunk driver crashed his car into my building directly below my apartment so I got interviewed about that #That was a great night. My super hot downstairs neighbor came out to watch the wreckage in these tiny slutty briefs.

[fictionadventurer]

Belle's first scene as a nurse in The Artful Dodger is a masterclass in how to get every nurse in the hospital to hate your guts immediately. They should show it to new grads as an example of everything not to do.

#newsflash: your attempts at change are not going to go well #if you come in the hospital and immediately start screaming about how everyone here is terrible at their job and patients are going to die #IN FRONT OF THE PATIENTS! #and then you take charge #despite never having done this work a day in your life #and having lived a life with nothing to do except read medical journals #i don't care how right you are #treating the people beneath you as ignorant peons instead of reasonable people you can educate and work with #is a great way to get everyone to resist and undermine everything you want to do #every single one of those nurses is talking shit about the uppity witch every second they're not onscreen i can tell you that much #the only reason i'm not totally writing her off is that the scene outside shows she does care for patients #now just learn any set of social skills beyond 'pulling rank' and maybe you'll get somewhere #but for now this is a disaster in the making

[actuallyafandomess]

I’m rewatching hunter x hunter for the first time in 10? years and it’s been delightful. My favorite thing is I’m reaching the point where Killua definitely has some level of crush on Gon and it’s so cute.

However, it makes me want fanfiction set 5-10 years into the future. Like killua has finally reached the point where he just can’t take how cute and oblivious Gon is and explosively confesses in anger.

Or Gon has been assuming they’ve been dating for years now because of x, y, z and has been struggling with the idea that maybe they haven’t kissed yet (or again) because Killua is ace or maybe that he’s just not actually interested in him.

Or Gon just assuming that being casually obsessed/codependent with his best friend isn’t anything deeper until the metaphorical 2x4 hits and immediately confesses.

Or Killua’s various methods for getting rid of Gon’s fans/stalkers

Or Killua testing the boundaries of platonic/ romantic and paying attention to Gon’s reactions

Or is about aroace Gon being queer platonic partners with Killua and how they make that work for them

Or just a case type fic where they’re working together and just casually are life partners!

if anyone has any fics on any site with any of these plots - but it’s set in a future au and not a no powers au - please send them to me

#Free fic ideas #I believe in the two cakes thought process when it comes to fanfics #killua zoldyck #gon x killua #gon freecss #hunter x hunter #I did go to this pairing on ao3 and filtered by popularity it’s just that most things were high school no powers aus and that’s not for me #I feel like there has to be a great fanfic set in the canon’s future somewhere #but it might be on sites like live journal and I don’t even know where to begin searching #I’m spoiled I found ffnet first and then ao3 like 3 years later #I’m too young for live journal and dedicated fandom sites

[feral-and-or-horny]

I love how I promised myself I was gonna go to bed early and try to start fixing my sleep schedule, but then my roommate came in and was like "do you want to hear some shit?"

#she's great #we actually dont talk much #but like once a month we fill each other in on all the drama in our lives #we're both super nosy but we dont gossip #so since we're in totally different social spheres and both know how to keep our mouths shut we just dump our gossip on each other #i hear the sorority drama and she hears the campus literary journal drama #we literally talk for 2-3 hours straight and then we barely speak for a month #we say bye when one of us is leaving #and we let the other person know if there's something in our fridge that's free to share #honestly a 12/10 dynamic #my post

[pondscummy]

the "also sick" comment isn't like "btw I'm SICK, how dare you not know" it's me saying I'm sick like how 2/3 of my roommates are

but like I'm so;;;; it feels so rich that L is like wtf do you want from me about me not replying for 45 minutes when I had to beg his gf over hours and hours of texts every so often to not force me to sit in unwiped shit after my surgery bc she had openly told me she just didn't rly feel like setting up the attachable bidet after telling me for weeks she would, and I never ever got a reply from her or L ever acknowledging that they were wide awake hanging out and laughing while I was like stuck in bed barely able to move begging for follow through on a commitment they made in advance and i eventually had to spend over $100 to hire someone to come out the next day and do it for me and I had to hold my shit for hours lmfao

like L is sooooo great at couching things in flawless tumblr wellness speak but only to talk about how valid they are for not showing up for you and how fucked up it is that you MIGHT ever have a moment where you can't be 100% there w them. like idk what to tell you I've been laying in bed with a sore throat and cough and fever passing out and waking up to roll over in buckets of sweat like the rest of the house. I do genuinely get being annoyed by a lack of response but it's also right back to this whole thing about Always assuming I'm mad at them which is legit one of the only things that actually makes me mad fjdkddhk like bro I do not THINK about you when you're not acting like I'm a bomb about to blow (also, as an aside -- we all take turns buying TP and it's usually me who does it like it's not out of pocket for me to say hey you are the One person who is out of the house already rn, can you get this on your way bc None of the bathrooms have back up rolls and one is totally out and I had to text our sickest roommate telling her to use the bidet and drip dry like.... "am I the first person you asked" yes bc you are the person who makes the most sense dumbfuck. I'm not being "overly needy" toward you or whatever jfc)

they literally told me at one point that the reason they're so scared of me is that my face is "triggering" for them when I'm angry or not feeling good and puts them "back in a really bad place" they have seen my face angry literally 3 times and each time it was on my way back to my room to decompress and each time I said nothing to them other than that I was in a bad mood and I was going to go to my room. I didn't yell either I just said it normal. like I genuinely feel gaslit here like I'm this horrifying monster of a man when it's like dude sometimes people are mad I don't know what YOU want from ME!! I do all my venting here where they can't ever see it even tho we've blocked each other, I censor their name like anyone even knows who they are, I isolate to chill out and it's literally been less than a handful of times like should I fling myself from the roof??????? would that fix it???

I literally know it's bc I'm a man too. none of this was like this until my facial hair came in more and it got crazy worse after I got top surgery and they're so so vocal about how much they despise men and think men should all fuck off and die and there's only a handful of acceptable men that they've personally vetted. despite them pretty clearly having a trans woman fetish bc they only date or look at porn of trans women and they do the whole step on me mommy thing about it even tho their gf has complained like. lmfao you're just a baby te//rf even tho you ID as trans masc yourself. like that's all this even is. I'm a big (5'3") scary (spent the whole weekend w my coworkers asking if I was 12) man who's obviously going to snap and kill you all bc sometimes I *checks writing on hand* get frustrated and go lay down about it

#pond.txt #and again i'm not EVEN mad rn (well. obviously i am *now*) i was SLEEPING like fhekdjdkddjl bro let me live i'm SORRY #should i whip myself should i kiss your feet my lord and savior jc. should i fall upon my sword for you. #is my t dick too big and scary to live together does it cast shadows in the hallways that frighten you HDKSDHKDDHDK #all the time i wish wish wish there was some way for me to move out early without me fucking myself financially #but i'd be on the hook for $11.400 and i do NOT have that to drop dhskddhhfj and i would need to pay that PLUS buy a car #it was so night and day the difference in my mood when i was on my work trip tho. even when i had moments of like feeling down on that trip #it was so fleeting and so like. well I'll do what i need to so i can care for myself #whether that was staying in my room and getting some sleep or rallying and being like hey @ self you're making shit up about no one liking #with no proof so let's get back downstairs and hang out w someone new and prove ourselves wrong. #life felt so bright and happy and it was so easy to talk to strangers and laugh and just let loose and like myself #even on a 13 hr travel day i was like taking notes on mental health things in my journal and reflecting and feeling so positive about makin #changes like not letting excuses stop me from going out and living my life even in this interim period between moves #and then i got back home and was like oh right. this place that makes me miserable with people who openly dislike me. great lmao #my plan is still to try to not let myself get in my own way of living life bc if i can get out & meet people it'll keep me away from here. #ANYWAY!!! *eats cough drops like candy*

[lesenbyan]

There are few things worse, I think, than reading a call to action memoir that is so close to right but really should have been shelved for at least 5yrs before going to print so the author has time to learn enough to see all the false equivalencies that really hinder the point

#personal; #yeah fatphobia is bad but dont you dare act like people aren't asking disabled people to medically alter themselves every day??? #you compare bariatric and gender affirming surgeries in such a way that makes the latter sound easy to get?? #and in fact don't at ALL go into the struggles for transition care except for a nod at FL while comparing us (trans people) #to fat people like our lives are Much Easier instead of /oppressed by the same white colonial structures that enforce fatphobia/ #but go off i guess #i was giving a lot of leeway when i was just side eyeing the comparisons with racism bc i'm not fat and i've not experienced enough racism #to say either way on those #but the MOMENT she started using trans and disabled comparisons i about lost it #and also randomly started calling it antisemitic (sure as much as it's violnt to all poc) in the last chapter with nothing supporting it #like you can tell it was written over the course of the last like 2 maybe 3 years without enough space to breathe #i have listened to a book on writing memoir so often i've got some of it all but memorized #and i agree that if it's more recent than a decade you're probably too close to be writing it #and this author's writing mostly about during pandemic times. this is more a journal and call to action than memoir #but its not polished enough to be a proper call to action bc there's not much it gives you to do other than 'stop dieting & dare to be fat' #which isn't an effective call to action when only those most harmed by fatphobia can act on it you know??? #lots of complaints #3/10 #edit: reiterting that i'm not saying it' #*it's not anti-semitic; just that a good published work of this kind doesn't make last second claims and certainly not ones #they haven't already explicitly supported in the text #i feel the need to clarify with the very very vocal rise of anti semitism esp in the left #like yes there are anti-Semitic ties. she didn't name them. just said 'they exist lol' and this went to print #great study in poor research slipping onto shelves bc topic matter is relevant

[yuukimiyas]

happy mon friends!! ☆٩(｡•ω<｡)و its a fresh new wk!! wooo!! i might be goin on a lil roadtrip to see the eclipse w some internet friends!! <33 im so excited!!! (੭ु ›ω‹ )੭ु⁾⁾♡ I LOVE SPACE SM!!!

#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals! #i’ve been twt moots w this girl for over 6 yrs & we might finally be meeting today!!! im so so excited!! i hope i can make it !! :3 #they drove in from another state to get a perf view of it & everyth!!! :o #she lives ab 5 hrs from me so its not too bad!! but EEEP!! YOU GUYS SHES SO SO COOL!! like…WAYYY cooler than me!! #granted thats not v hard but STILL!! ૮꒰ྀི ´∩∩` ꒱ྀིა i hope i make a good first irl impression!! #& i got me a lil iced latte on my way home from my bfs!! :3 what a great start to my wk!!! #i am picking you all so many fresh flowers & puttin them in your window!! have a GREAT DAY!! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و✧*｡

[actual-changeling]

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#alex yells at the void #bpd is such a fun disorder and by fun i mean one of the most painful mental disorders to live with #sometimes i feel bad for projecting so much one ellie cause she will be going through it tm #but then again my therapist said projection is good and helpful so there's that #love being caught in the dilemma of tell ppl you're struggling and risk annoying them #and dont tell them and risk the same #like bestie my options arent really great here isnt there a secret third way #you wont get too much they say and then leave because i got too much like ok how do you expect me to actually believe anyone telling me tha #my therapist said it's fine and understandable that im scared etc. etc. #as long as i try to take good experiences as they come #but bestie i am very tired of getting like one good experience every two years and nothing but horrible shit for the rest #also very tired of passive aggressive bullshit and indirectness like if there's something bothering you just fucking tell me #dont be like my ex or my parents or anyone else ever #the world isnt all like that they say as if it hasnt been that way my entire life because the universe hates me and i dont deserve happines #i dont do diaries or journaling i just do vague vents in tumblr tags but it is what it is

[witchcraftingboop]

(Coming back to add: I don't know if this needs trigger warnings. Almost-SA, I guess? More like just sexual harassment, I think.)

Talking about my life is always wild, because I barely share anything with people I'm close to, so I had the amazing experience of telling my favorite cousin about that time a man called Freebird, stepdad to my aunt's not-yet-fiancè-boyfriend, kept trying to lure me back to his confederate flag decorated house in swamplands to "watch his dog," for months, which eventually led to his wife outright threatening to shoot me if I ever tried to be more than a mistress (already, arguably, a lot to unpack), and then my aunts had to come rescue me from their empty house after the lil biker gang man stood in their living room, hand on his gun, and tried to intimidate me into going upstairs to "play doctor" (which, can I just say, is so Comically bad, like wdym I, as a 21yo woman, had a grown, known gang leader in my aunt's living room asking me to "play doctor" in full view of their security cameras???? Bizarre) So yeah! She had an eye-opening look into why I don't let men in my apt, and I had the revelation that yeah, I have been through some shit and that maybe talking about it all would do me some good! In short, either my journal is gonna get Real Colorful this year or 2024 may be the year I actually get a therapist, though I am heavily leaning towards just journalling.

#honestly I only perceive that things were damagingly bad when I look back #in the moment or just living my life I lean heavily into 'nahh that's just a one-day funny story!' #my cousin was of course Horrified #and that kind of helped me realize that yeah that time in my life wasn't great #if I were to ever write out my entire life it would read like a really really bad fiction novel #my screenwriters are gonna get canned for writing trauma-porn-esque plotlines #honestly someone should can whoever's in charge of plotting out my life #I need some new writers #maybe one inclined to drop like 6yrs of peace on my ass for a change 😂🫶 #boop's rambles #the importance of journaling I guess

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

So you mentioned how you leave Hawke in the fade, do you ever bring Varric with on that quest? (Maybe I'm just a sucker for angst ((which I totally am cuz for my canon warden I have her date a soft Alistair who is pissed and dumbs her when she makes him king and then she makes the ultimate sacrifice and Alistair is devastated he never got to talk it out with her)) so I always take Varric and Cassandra with cuz I think it's nuts that the game doesn't have him react in the fade to leaving Hawke. So I picture a dramatic speech like fuck this Hawke let someone else be the hero for once, you deserve to live. And Cassandra is there seeing someone she put on a pedestal and saw as an unstoppable hero met their end.)

I've brought a few different combos into the fade but my favorite combo is definitely Varric/Cassandra/Solas; Varric because of Hawke, Cassandra because of Divine Justinia, and Solas for the fade itself.

I love and hate the fade quest for a number of reasons, but the part of me that revels in angst just adores it, it's such a heartbreaking part of Inquisition's story. I keep Alistair a Grey Warden, so it becomes a final choice of either making him stay behind, or my Hawke, Ed... it's a brutal choice that ends with Ed staying behind.

The meta reason for making this choice is I love Alistair too much. I want him and my warden to remain together until the end so I'd leave nearly anyone in the fade just to save him. And I don't want to make him king just to avoid the hard choice; he never wanted it, and Rose wasn't ever going to force it onto him.

But from a story-telling standpoint, Ed staying behind hurts so much because that's literally his fear; if he had his own fear engraved tombstone in the fade, it'd say something like "Abandonment" or "Being Left Behind." It's one of the reasons he stays by Anders' side after the events of DA2 despite ending their romantic relationship, he can't abandon the man he's loved for years even when everyone tells him he should....until, of course, we get to the fade and he feels he no longer has a choice.

Ed never wanted to be some hero or champion, but it's so engrained in his identity now that he constantly feels the burden of sacrificing pieces of himself for others. He feels the guilt of every loss he's suffered, whether it was actually his fault or not. In his mind, no matter how much it hurts, or who it hurts, it's the "right" choice to leave him behind... he's read enough of Varric's tragedies to know how this goes.

I also headcanon that when Carver's made a warden, he goes back to Fereldan to serve under the Hero of Fereldan and becomes best friends with Alistair. So I imagine that's another reason Ed insists he be the one to cover them. He went to great lengths to keep his brother out of this mess [even though Carver protested every step of the way] and doesn't want Carver to lose his best friend, even though he would also be devastated to lose his brother, but y'know.... Ed's just like, "Tell Carver I'm sorry, and that I always thought the world of him."

Even as Alistair, who never got to know his brother and dreamed about meeting his sister only for her to reject him, argued back... it's no use. Ed made up his mind to face his greatest fear to save them, and Ash begrudgingly agrees with him.

As for Varric, it hurts to watch him ask happened to Hawke... and then to listen to him recount a story about the kind of person Hawke was... and to give him a comforting hug... it all hurts.

But... that being said, I have thought about possibly doing a run where I do leave Alistair behind in a worldstate where Rose made the ultimate sacrifice. Alistair lost her and became disillusioned with the Grey Wardens, only remaining because what else is there for him? When it comes to someone staying in the fade, he insists it be him. He faces the nightmare as Hawke and the Inquisitor escape, and mutters under his breath, "Wait for me a little longer, my love," before attacking.

...because why not break my own heart some more, y'know?

Whether I'll be brave enough to attempt that is yet to be seen.

#asks #dragon age #dao #da2 #dai #varric tethras #alistair theirin #carver hawke #da2 hawke #edgar hawke #oh also i have a theory that hawke doesn't die in the fade #or maybe it's just another plot bunny that lives rent free in my brain but whatever #i think ed would survive the fight and eventually find his way out of the fade #and y'know how we find sandal's journal in trespasser but no actual sandal? plot bunny includes sandal showing up at anders' hideout one da #and being like 'come with me please' while refusing to explain further. anders already got the news of ed and isn't exactly in a great plac #but eventually follows along where they find and collect carver for this little adventure that ends in finding a rift that ed falls out of #how did sandal know? i dunno he just did and then he disappears to go do more weird stuff in the fade or something #that's as far as the plot bunny goes but it's there... maybe i just want an anders and carver bickering road trip story or something sksksk #or i just want to feel better about leaving ed behind.... it's probably that one

[talesfromthebandgeekmafia]

I’ve always wanted to be the kind of person who keeps a journal so as a birthday gift to myself I bought a really nice one with an embroidered cover off Etsy a couple weeks ago, it came yesterday and I finally sat down to use it today and I’ve discovered that I absolutely love it. I wrote 6 pages (2 of which were about OFMD lmao) and I feel great

#it’s very centering #idk I had a little princess diary when I was like 7 and I’ve cherished the handful of entries I wrote in it since #it’s nice to have a record of how it was to actually be living through a certain time in your life rather than just looking back on it #with the added veneers of hindsight and context #I wish I’d started sooner but yknow best time to plant a fruit tree is seven years ago second best time is today #I was not expecting to write that much though it’s gonna take me way less time than expected to fill this journal apparently #which!! great!! I’d love to have a whole shelf documenting my life someday! #spilling the Tea

[aajfa]

personally i wish movie adaptations continued to be made but like it was accepted that theyre gonna be bad and its more for the fun and the love of it. you know. i love movies. i love adaptation i think people dont have enough love for adaptation around here. sometimes it worse! often! usually! but theres can be so much charm and insight into whats important in the story to the person adapting it. but i think we should ban big studios from doing it.

#where would i be without ace attorney (2012). lost. alone. a very different place in any case #personally. as a guy who loves a lot of live action movies. and stageplays. and stuff. i think its great. even if its worse #journal

[soldier-poet-king]

That post about consumption and not journalling for the future was SO correct but also I think I need to start again because the thoughts are less insane when they're out on paper and not trapped in my head even if I'm the crazy person who put them on paper and it's not really objectively less isolationg but subjectively it is and as annoying as I am on here I post maybe 5-10% of my horrible mental stuff and the least bad stuff at that and it's just. Hm. Hm. Life is so good and wonderful and beautiful and full of joy except when there's The Agonies and they only show up when I'm not constantly distracted and left to think my thoughts for longer than five minutes. So y'know. Peachy

#franposting #i am going to dig up a journal rn #i will spare you all this #could not even pay a therapist to listen probably! just like! ho ho holy shit #it rlly is the duty and the obligation. the only constant. the only promise ans guarantee other than death and taxes #so i keep going. i always have. but there just. really isnt any other promise for me. no hope. and i have to make space and live in that #and my stupid fuckin emotions just don't seem to get the memo #also i live in constant low level fear that i am actually losing my grasp on reality #it is up til now unfounded. i have other mental illnesses but not that one #but yjnow. great uncles ans genetics and the feeling of displacement

[rexscanonwife]

Ok I just saw a post about holding f/os love handles and ouggghhh that made me think about Rex after Order 66 when we hide away and start making a new life for ourselves and him gaining a bit of weight and filling out bcs of it 🥺👉👈💖💖💖🥺

#jane journals #self insert talk #💙 oh captain my captain 💙 #ive definitely talked about this before but idc youll hear it again!! #the clones are on such a barebones fucking diet you KNOW they are #and constantly training and fighting and pushing their bodies to the limit #to actually let his body rest and retain the nutrients he gets from REAL food #weight gain shown as improvement #as emotional health #I LIVE FOR THAT SHIT #and him getting a little soft in the belly would drive brea insane!! #maybe shes not a GREAT cook when she leaves the order but shell get better with time ajfkgg

[freebooter4ever]

I gotta say one more thing about this playlist and then i swear im done. But tumblr made it sound like mostly Classic Rock so i went into this expecting more Greatest Hits Of Mullet Rock and instead found music from my high school/early twenties years. And then it dawned on me. No longer is my dad's longhair/grunge era considered CLASSIC rock. No. MY MUSIC era is 'classic' now.

Im not really sure what to do with this revelation. Except to add that i also recognized a lot of the newer music on the playlist. And i remember being like 11 and thinking my dad was one of the 'cool' dads because he was in his 30's and listening to n*rvana. So maybe im at least one of the 'cool' 30's. LOL

#Journal shit #What im saying is maybe the key to staying young is still enjoying finding something NEW ^_^ #In addition to taking the nostalgia route #Is my era of rock really truly great though?? Like it was GOOD but it wasnt as...groundbreaking and Classic like the 70/80s #Like i listen to some of italianikisix's stories about his parents living it up on the sunset strip during its rock peak #And my dad has all these stories about seeing some of the famous 80s bands in atlanta before they made it Big #It just sounds so much cooler than like...going to see a commercialized giant concert at a staduim somewhere

[vulcanhello]

#IM ON ANOTHER ROLL! SHELL GAME WAS GREAT’ #mccoy main character moment sooo good i wish he got this much time in every book #and him and spock and chekov and ensigns side mission was so fun i really loved it #theyre having the worst time but not as bad as kirk and scotty who in their friends absence decide to self destruct the enterprise #and its insane #big recommend #anyways enjoy these mccoy moments i love him #captain’s log #tos #trek books #doesnt he not have a canon death date. he really never died in canon good for him. #so he really is living forever #this book as prophecy #sorry for reading in sepia 😔 im trying to protect my eyes and switching up the screen is helping #ok spoilers time. THE CREATURE WAS VERY COOL AND DESERVED MORE TIME! #and the intro of the romulan doctor paying off the way it did GOT me okay. i wish it was confirmed they got his journal back to his wife tho