#Like its just so filled with love!

[hythlodaeus-mynewoldfriend]

Dawn Walkers

"So you've saved me, saved the world-." "Worlds, my love. You mean worlds." He chuckles, "My apologies, Princess. In my defense I was distanced from the going ons, easy to miss some details. So what's the plan now? More solo adventuring for you?" She shakes her head, "I think I much prefer having company around, yours above all. So where you go, I go." She brings their lips together, pulling him closer, leaving the two breathless when they pull apart. "So make sure its something fun." "I think it's time I kept the promise I made on the Ragnarok. What do you say to us starting with lands containing lost civilisations?" "Sounds perfect."

For the second ffxiv swap I was gifted with these lovely shots of my girl Sib and Thancred from @bnuuywol and I am in love to say the least! Like the vibes are just so! !!!! So on point and I am just! !!! Thank you so so much! I am gonna be crying over them the rest of the day now thank you! Just look at them!!!

#I just love them so so much! the close up of their faces is just my favorite! #Like its just so filled with love! #okay I'm done rambling I'm gonna cry in the corner about them..... #x: lover you are pure light #dawn walker vibes #commissions and gifts #ffxivswap

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[mienar]

at the artist's loft

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#artists on tumblr #illustration #animated illustration #animation #backgrounds #scenery #animated gifs #plants #loft #workspace #industrial loft #myillust #hi everyonee! just wanted to share this artwork that i've made just fresh from the oven! #i really just felt like drawing some loft windows + its shadows on the wall + a specific peach-pink kinda sunlight lighting so here it is! #making this to be an artist loft was completely self-indulgent tho! #i had a bittersweet time filling the room up with clutter as if it's my own room huuuu living in a loft is a dream of mine - one day! #anywayss! i hope you'll like this and i hope you'll have a lovely day/night ahead! :D

[fungi-maestro]

Happy tdov to fat trans people. 🏳️‍⚧️ Biggest thing that helped me as a trans kid was seeing older fat trans people. There were a lot of really irritating "advice" posts going around early in my time on the internet with a lot of misinformation in them, but one that I constantly saw (in addition to people claiming you should wear your pants rediculously low or only wear button ups) were posts saying you had to lose weight to transition. Can confidently confirm that is completely untrue. 👍

#seal.txt #tdov #that 'sky and mike' image of the two old trans dudes hugging was one that I had saved to my phone as a trans teen #and i would look at it sometimes and just wonder how they had made it #idk its just nice knowing we live that long and its not a requirement to be skinnyin order to be respected and loved and get old #some of the old 'advice' posts i saw were really completely bizarre and a lot of them stick with me to this day in insecurities #this would have been 2016 ish tumblr so i know not that long ago but i would have been around 13 for reference #weird that i remember so many of the things i read back then. i could probably fill a post with things i was misinformed on due to Tumblr #specifically tumblrs run by people that i didnt really have the knowledge or awareness to understand probably didnt have my best interests #like 'trans rights ' blogs i would follow and not notice until much later were quite the opposite #this is the consequence of viewing social media before i knew all the secret codewords and my brain was much less developed than it is now

[loves2spwge]

Hey, thanks for going through all that to save my life, Stan.

Dude, you're my best friend. I don't want you to die until I do.

💙💚 @judgedarts did this incredibly gorgeous page for me for my two most favorite dudes everrrr 💚💙

#south park #sp style #waaaaaauugghhh 🤧 i love stankyle soooo much!!!!! #judge did such a touching and beautiful job creating this piece likee its filled with so much love and fun from the show but also!! #w some of my fav personal silly little things and its just so lovely and captures the sbfs relationship really well ;; #esp love the little giggling guys sm it reminds me of my fav stankyle moment from the christmas ep 🥺!!!!!! #danish kyle + hemp hat stan are some of my fav alt looks for them and im soooo happy to see them together; stans face is so cute!! #my melody & kuromi stankyle are SO much fun!!!! they look perfect ^_^!! 🩷 #💗💘💖 my heart is filled with so much love<3

[frenchfriedgiraffe]

from all-new hawkeye #5

this comic is so sad but this one line is too funny not to draw

#also this panel only covered like a teeny part of his face so i had to fill the rest with a few educated guesses #i have so many problems with this issue but love this part #also its just so sad :( #hawkeye #clint barton #clint barton fanart #all new hawkeye #dare i say hawkeye whump #my art

[kindaorangey]

jean should collect homoerotic codependent partners professionally

#jean moreau #thats zane in the back btw #what if we were roommates and i made up a nickname for u based off of the version of your name that your abuser says is too pretentious.... #and we coveted and vouched for each other until you betrayed me (except not really) and i betrayed you in the worst way imaginable.. #and we were both boys......... #kevin day #jeremy knox #neil josten #zane reacher #aftg #all for the game #the sunshine court #aftg tsc #everyone big up short kings neil and jeremy for carrying this art's composition #also i know its not necessarily canon that jean has a thing for neil or zane. i just think its interesting to think of the way that #jean gloms onto both of them #like he wanted neil to be kevin's replacement the same way he treats jeremy as riko's replacement #(to mentally fill the hole left by them because he had codependent relationships with both of them) #and yeah yeah the inherent homoeroticism of patching someone up after theyve been wounded #and also neil's killer speech at the end of tsc. i buy into it #oh and he calls neil 'another pretty face' lmfao #jean loves to put himself in positions of hopelessly pining for people hes addicted to it #and i mean that genuinely hes very used to subservience so he tends to perceive & idolise the people he's close to in a very particular way #and that bleeds sooooooo easily into attraction #anyway #thunder's art #described

[rocksalt-and-pie]

shout-out to the makers of NBC Hannibal for (clearly) reading all four books about Hannibal Lecter by Thomas Harris and going "hmm. actually we will make the gayest possible version of this" going on to COMPLETELY disregard the other main character and (canon) ?love interest? of the series and never even MENTION Clarice Starling. Like it's so funny to me that she never even appears on the show when book!Will Graham literally fucks off after The Red Dragon and wants nothing to do with any of this anymore and book!Hannibal is obsessed with Clarice in the same way that tv!Hannibal is obsessed with tv!Will. like they really took a whole book franchise, picked out the cherries, and made it their own personal little gay AU. that's so refreshing and should be a leading example in television adaptations. in this essay i will

#hannibal #hannigram #hannibal lecter #will graham #Clarice Starling #thomas harris #nbc hannibal #mp #i actually like clarice as a character though #but i do think that the red dragon is the best book of the series and they get worse and worse #also they have nothing to do with the show when it comes to aesthetics #they're literally just action filled crime thrillers. they feel very to the point‚ very technical and practical and sober #whereas the show is literally just art and poetry and emotions and meaning and simply beautiful #i also love that the show treats its female characters so much better than the books #the books feel very masculine which is just due to the time of publishing i guess #i feel like a lot of books written and published by men in the 80s/90s have this very brutalist straight forward no emotions style #but yeah. the people who made the show really went all out with it and i love how their interpretation is kinda just high scale fanfiction #like i respect that so much and also: goals

[haunted-xander]

So. Fatebreaker, right? Ryne's biggest fears made manifest, daddy issues personified, yes?

He's an amalgamation of Thancred and Ran'jit, his face, his voice and his weapon is Thancred's, but his body, his fighting style and his words are Ran'jit's.

Throughout the fight Fatebreaker constantly makes comments about how only he can protect Ryne, only he can provide for her, only he has even the right to so much as stand beside her, to be in her general presence. He's possessive and obsessive, repeatedly asserting that she is HIS and his only. Which is exactly what Ran'jit says basically every time we encounter him.

But this time it's in Thancred's voice. This time it's with the voice and face of a man she actually cares about.

Ryne isn't scared of Thancred, she never has been. Even when she first met him she was barely even nervous (as clearly shown in Thancred's short story). There's a lot of different feelings happening between those two, but fear has never been one of them.

But now, after things have gotten so much better, she is scared of Thancred becoming like Ran'jit. Because if Thancred was just a little further gone, if he was just a little less compassionate, he would've. It wouldn't be hard for him to go down the same path as Ran'jit did, to be incapable of letting go of the ghost of that girl he loved so so much to the point he'd stubbornly grip anything close to her he could. He didn't, but the fact he could've is terrifying.

It makes his final words, words that are Thancred's, so very important. This is her deepest fears made manifest, but he still says he wants her to be happy. Her happiness not only matters, but is important to him.

#Now we -the audience- ofc knew Thancred was unlikely to go down that path #bc if theres one thing hes been consistent in even in his darkest moments its living up to his loved ones' wishes and legacies #the only time he even speaks against it is his conversation w minfilia in amh araeng #and thats more a case of all his (poorly) repressed grief and stress exploding than him actually meaning what he says #and trying to control rynes life after minfilia literally told him to just let her live her life goes directly against that #i think about fatebreaker a lot. as i do all things related to ryne & thancred #and to me its so important to note that hes more or less ran'jit with just enough thancred in him to be *too* thancred for comfort #its so. her greatest fear isnt even the thing thats been haunting her her whole life (being forced to fill in for minfilia) #its having her free will taken from her by the person she cares about the most (thancred) #and for him to be trapped in endless suffering because he cant move on #just like ran'jit did and was #its not even necessarily that shes all that scared of ran'jit himself #what shes scared about is caring about someone like that #because then she wont say no or try to be anyone but minfilia #(thats also why this fear appears specifically after things get better) #(because she was already ready to forsake herself if it eased thancred suffering) #okay im gonna stop now i need to sleep gnight everyone #ryne waters #thancred waters #ran'jit #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #at this point i should make a tag for ryne ramble posts i make so many of them #tomorrow. maybe. if i remember #edit: i made it #xander being insane about ryne

[wynandcore]

Okay I wanna show my favorite piece of Uprising concept art, it’s been in the back of my mind ever since I saw it

Look at that.

#I can’t quite put my finger on why but I love it so much #theres a serenity here in its light colors. for once the use of scale doesn’t feel used to show how small and ‘insignificant’ programs are #instead it’s used to show how all of these programs have their own lives. and they filled up this vast world with their presence #LOOK AT ALL OF THOSE LITTLE DOTS. ALL PROGRAMS. ALL LIVING LIVES. #all of this data all of these little lines and shapes making me think of renaissance art and research and the homo universalis #ripping all of this shit out of my heart bc I’m certain that wasn’t intentional. idc tho #like. programs have added so much to this world there’s humanity and life showing in this structure #its something CLU or anyone else can’t just take away as an imperfection #idk I’m still reeling over it and I saw this first like last year #tron #tron uprising #save #wanna come back to this n see it over and over again #I ramble

[alilaro]

they look fucking DISGUSTING. i am in love with them

#furby #furby baby #furby 1998 #safe furby #also yes i did buy them yes they are probably a bio-hazard i do not care #furbys have rekindled my old childhood love of electronic tinkering; and i have a HUGE soft spot for toy repair #ive always been obsessed with taking old/broken/abandoned toys and fixing them up and giving them a home #and furby is filling that niche so well #I AM FULFILLED IN LIFE #im so in love with these guys the before/after will be so good #i can tell all of them except the second to the left #it looks like a snowbell but the fur looks way too long?? maybe its just fucked up?? idk lmao #*edit: i looked at some close ups and its deffo snowy she's just been through some crazy shit LMAO

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

drawing Barnaby is incredibly Detrimental to my health because it consistently finds me like this:

#MY NECK HURTS <3 #i'll Realize. fix my posture #lose myself in the Love and then BOOM shrimping once more #i hunch over my tablet face To The Screen like some wild beast defending its kill #but with... Delight and Whimsy instead of bloodthirsty viciousness #shoulders hunched back Curled head down and jutted forward- #snf sob... love truly is pain.... #absolutely unprompted #THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME TO SIT LIKE THISSSSSS #I JUST GET SO ABSORBED!!! HE'S SO!!!! #completely related but there isn't enough Handsome Barnaby art #well. every image of him is handsome in my professional opinion #but you know what i mean!!!! #i need to put him in outfits.... #no. you know what i need? #a very very tiny pixelated image of him framed and hung on my wall #tiny frame. tiny barnaby. really just like. three blue pixels #that way when i wake up in the mornings i can look over and see The Pixels #and be filled with enough strength to Get Up #i need the motivation to get out of bed... i have been sleeping until 3 every day.... #methinks. tis not healthy #but yes. tiny barnaby in a frame please and Thank You!

[momomallowart]

Imagine if you will... Ray with a tongue piercing ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ 💭

A more "messy" version under the cut bc I wanted to practice tears and stuff.. 👀

#Ok I may have put way more effort into this than I should've but I literally couodnt stop thinking about this #I used this as an excuse to practice rendering so technically its productive (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) #I really enjoy drawing tears and idk what that says about me as a person #I just love the idea that hes just talkin away and suddenly you see a little glint in his mouth and oh my god is that what i think it is? #and hes such a bottom that he would just let you open and pkay with his mouth to see for yourself #he's just my lil sopping wet meow meow I can't help but put him thru situations #I think often about his different sides clashing and being very gap moe #like Ray with a tongue piercing? please someone hold me back bc I'm going AT HIM #I want EVERY version of this man I cannot even explain how deeply the brain rot goes #the day I stop thinking about Saeran Choi is the day I drop dead actually #I wont fill the tags with any more salacious comments about how sl\/tty this man is but just know the thoughts are plentiful #anyways enjoy the food #more art to come as I'm getting back into my artistic groove lately #my art #mystic messenger #mysme #saeran choi #mysme saeran #mysme ray #mystic messenger unknown #unknown mysme #ray mystic messenger #mystic messenger fanart #mystic messenger mc #mysme mc

[biblicalhorror]

Has anyone addressed the fact that laszlo and nadja had matching hair highlights AGAIN in the finale but this time they were blue

#i clocked it immediately #i need someone to gif them for me bc idk how #but i feel like theres something there with color analysis and the red highlights showing up when nandermo is fighting #(night market + i think the most recent time was when nandor told guillermo they didnt need him? i could be wrong) #but then these new blue highlights showing up when nandermo fighting is what everyone expects #but instead we get an episode filled with nandor gently caring for and protecting guillermo #and overall just an episode about how much they all care for one another #but its tinged with longing and distance because to be a vampire means you have to keep everyone you love at arms length #i wish i knew how to make gifs so that i could do so much analysis based on the hair and wardrobe of this show. theres so much there #wwdits

[flyinthefreeeedommm]

absolutely obsessed with the way that gerald goes from calling shadow his son in SHTH (before Maria’s death) to referring to him as an “it” in SA2. Like holy shit man. holy fuck

#graci.txt #shadow the hedgehog #like did gerald ever actually see him as a person at all #or was he just so filled with hatred after the raid that he had no qualms with taking advantage of someone he supposedly viewed like a son #the way gerald just. reprogrammed his memories and set him in a capsule to be locked up for fifty years #messed with his head to make him think that the person he loved most wanted him to destroy the earth. and then called him an IT #and contrasting this with how he spoke in the message he left shadow in SHTH #idk its Something

[martyrbat]

harley quinn (2000) #35

[ID: a sequence of three panels focusing on an abandoned cup of tea as drops of blood drip down into it. Harley Quinn's internal narration boxes reads, ‘I was a tomboy growing up. Tackle football with the local boys? You bet. Under a car hood changing a filter? Sure. Dances? No. Pedicures? Pass. Sewing? You have to be kidding.’ The panels expand, revealing Harley hunched over. She's shown in a profile view and from afar, her face hidden by shadow as her blonde hair is in a slightly overgrown pixie cut.

The blood continues to drip as her narration resumes, ‘I remember watching my mother. Sewing. Sitting in this old chair with a pile of clothes my dad or brother needed fixing. A rip, a tear, a patch. Just kept a smile on her face as that pile got higher and higher. I resented her so much. Sewing. I vowed I'd never learn.’ Her hand comes onto panel, revealing she's holding a needle as she yelps, ‘Ow!’ We finally see her bloodied face when she looks up at the suddenly ringing phone, it being revealed that she had to give herself sutures to close a large gash on her forehead. END ID]

#i think thats a cup of tea?? it looks like it with the sugar cubes? maybe. its not the point #love love love this little sequence and when her character and background is expanded on #i disagree with some of the choices (like her sleeping with & blackmailing the dean to get into a college) #but im a sucker for messy homelife and having that filled out more. her own personal resentment to her mother for doing the needlework #and being a housewife with a (forced?) smile and how it plays out to harley wanting to be so fiercely independent but how she #still struggles with it. from staying with the joker and that toxic relationship and the way its different than her mother's yet is #repeating the same cycle just with different mistakes #to her and pam and wanting and begging her to go with her. to being scared of being alone in a sense #she can manage fine. shes smart shes strong shes clever. but the abandonment issues run deep #how much is she aware of? how much does she resent herself for it? telling yourself as a little girl over and over you wont be like #your mother just to find out youre her if not worse? #again. repeating the cycle just with different mistakes. #also love when women are cringefailures and damp and pathetic looking #c: harley quinn (2000) | i: 35 #crypt's panels #harley quinn