#It's a fucking horrifying torture

[blue-kyber]

I remember what happened.

I'm Caesar on the Ides of March.

#Got my memory back #Memory loss is fun to play with in fiction but in reality... #-10/10 DO NOT RECOMMEND #It is fucking terrifying #It's terrifying to have emotions you can't connect to anything. #It's terrifying not knowing. #You feel lost and scared and confused and scattered and directionless #You have no point of reference so it's like flying blind without a way to determine orientation #so you feel that stomach dropping roller coaster effect constantly and throw up from motion sickness. #Equilibrium can't tell you if you're up or down and you keep shifting directions out of your control. #Conflicting sensory information in your brain makes you nauseous hurts your entire body and you barf repeatedly until you have a way to tel #what's up and what's down. #And you're crying because it hurts You keep barfing and you can't stop it #You're helpless to stop it. You're helpless to stop the pain #It's a fucking horrifying torture #I've thrown up since this happened. #This is why I haven't eaten more than a few bites of food in the past 2.5 days #I still feel trapped in a living nightmare. #Again. I do not recommend memory loss.

[andthebeanstalk]

Betty is so relatable I would do the same shit for my wife

#simon petrikov #original #at #the moment where she declares that she's jumping into the future to save him. just pure save-husband impulse #and maybe she made the wrong choice but I felt the emotion in my gut and that's good tragedy baby #I would do the same thing and then be in the future and realize I probably fucked up but also what else could I do but #devote my entire life and sanity to saving her after I have destroyed every other option?? #it's not healthy necessarily but a fucking apocalypse happened and her wife is in eternal torment. what else could she possibly do?? #I'm just obsessed with the attitude she has towards saving him and how it turns from joyful heroism to unhealthy obsession #I have a much healthier relationship with my wife. but also she's never been driven mad by a magical crowd for a thousand years! #and Betty did it!! y'all can argue about whether Ice King was better than Simon and I think he must make peace with every part of himself #but it is extremely consistent in the original series that being Ice King is basically this existentially horrifying Eternal torture #so the fact that someone who loved him decided they would save him from that at all costs is very sad and very beautiful #beautiful because no one deserves to suffer forever. tragic because she was far to willing to take his place if she had to. #betty grof #fionna and cake #golbetty #golb #*driven mad by a magical crown #you forgot your floaties #edit: upon rewatching every episode with betty in it i will say i don't think i would be so hellbent on murdering the person she had become #betty does act selfishly and it makes her character more compelling #but i like to think if my wife went banana-pants ice-king-level bonkers i would be able to love that version of her too #but who's to say whether this story would be the reason I responded differently? #it's a good story

[cyberdragoninfinity]

sorry to be the ygo dub's strongest soldier sometimes but i am getting really tired of tripping over this particular breed of "umm this is why the dubs are BAD!!" type bellyaching and i grumbled on twt about it earlier. embrace the interesting and unique ways the dub makes the most of the restrictions they're given re: being unable to show Blood and Death or go watch something else, my GOD!!!!

#ygo posting #I SHOULD NOT HAVE TO EXPLAIN TO GROWNASS ADULTS HOW AN ANIME CAN STILL BE ENGAGING WITHOUT DETAILING FULL CAST MURDERS. I PROMISE. #THE SUB IS STILL THERE. YOU CAN WATCH IT ANY TIME!!! YOU CAN WATCH OTHER ACTUAL GOREY ANIMES TOO THEYRE OUT THERE!!! #it is not that bad im sorry but it is not that bad a dub change. shadow realm rules endless torture dimension is horrifying. get good. #you can reblog this but if youre a fucking ghoul in my tags im blocking on sight lol

[inkydiamonds]

So when a soulbound's partner gets injured, they feel their pain but don't have their wounds. However, consider: light shooting out from the injured area

This was so much fun to draw I think I'm keeping this headcanon

#just imagine- it'd be so pretty and also mildly horrifying #but also imagine you're lying in your bed and trying to get some sleep while your partner is doing who knows what #and you just light up like a fucking glowstick #but anyways #dlsmp #double life spoilers #double life smp #dlsmp spoilers #dls2 #pearlescentmoon #scott smajor #those two are really so non-challant about it #like wow i really do wish you would stop torturing me 🙄 #inkyart

[soldier-poet-king]

ok i admit i dont really go for urban fantasy and the combat/fighting scenes in it were rough and i thought some of the plot was dumb but the first book in the tarot sequence got me??? like a solid 3.5/5 which given my innate distaste for UF is p damn high. it's about the RELATIONSHIPS. the rune-brand brother bond and how they understand each other and love each other and fight and cuss each other out and care so deeply and apologize and work around each other's trauma and triggers. addam's priority always being his brother. THE TERRIBLE DELIGHTFUL TEENS MAX AND QUINN. whatever the fuck is going on with ciaran i adore him. the 20+ yr recovery arc. the magic system with the sigils and courts based on the major arcana. the INSANE amount of plot bombs dropped in the book 1 epilogue. everyone is so traumatized and yet they get up and they try. ive only had max for a day and a half etc etc etc

like. it is dark and heavy and holy holy shit content warnings abound i would not actually /recommend/ it to most ppl because of that, but it's not grimdark. terrible unspeakable things happen and keep happening and yet there is tentative hope of ending the cycle or at least saving a few kids and building a home and there's love and accidental child acquisition and idk ik ive been real tired lately and it's no masterpiece. but it hit in some kind of way i wasnt expecting it to

#the tarot sequence #fran reads #i think the court/throne/magic system is also cool #even if urban fantasy is like. my nemesis for the most part #idk why!! i just!!! dont go for it!!! #anyway dont read this w/out checking out the triggers on the authors website #there is some. like. seriously major heavy shit both referenced and in flashbacks #not gratuitous i dont think. but horrifying nonetheless #also unforch a sex scene but given that it was a character trying to deal with trust and trauma after SA i like. can forgive it. #even if i would just. prefer. we didn't #i still think quinn and max are my faves. these teens r just too good and too sad and i need to take care of them ok #as much as the rune-brand bond gets me #and as much as everything about rune hurts me #and addam and his relationship w quinn!!! that's his brother!!! #i think max and quinn are my standout faves. where can i sign the adoption papers #ALSO LORD TOWER. FUCK. LIKE. #a father figure but also DEEPLY FUCKED UP but also WAS HE INVOLVED IN THE ATTACK?? THE TORTURE??? HELLO????

[eosofspades]

i know i said that "this is for KIDS???!?!?!?1?!?11?!" wrt scary things in kids movies is one of my biggest pet peeves and so i'm not GOING to say that they shouldn't have put it in there, but i AM going to say. the scream extractor from monsters inc is supremely more fucked up and terrifying than it had any right to be

#and like its fine its totally fine i remember watching this movie as a little kid and not being NEARLY as disturbed as i am by it NOW #but like. fucking HELLO #THAT WAS?? AN ENTIRE TORTURE MACHINE?????? IT NEARLY KILLED THAT ONE GUY????? #AND THEY WERE GOING TO USE IT ON SUPER LITTLE KIDS?????? #and ik ik ik exactly why this is sooo disturbing to me wrt my own personal triggers and whatnot and how in movies #little kids being hurt/in danger is one of my BIGGEST anxiety triggers. i recognize i am biased here #but like. i feel like that was maybe way more horrifying than anyone seems to acknowledge. does anyone else ever feel nauseous about that #this is the stupidest thing i could be blogging about but i need to put these thoughts out somewhere sorry #monsters inc #mine

[chaoticstabby]

I think what most people fail to understand is the sheer scale of not only the horrors but also the consequences of the dictatorship.

In 17 years of dictatorship, the official human rights reports count at least 40.000 victims of repression in all its forms, almost 3.000 of which were forced disappearances, and of those disappearances, several hundred victims were minors. There are still 1162 people whose fates and whereabouts are completely unknown, fifty years later. There were around 200.000 people who fled into exile, and there's probably countless more whose suffering we just don't know about. There are hundreds of people who were never born because their mothers were purposefuly tortured to the point of abortion. Schools, stadiums, hospitals, houses, all turned into concentration camps and torture centers. The Chilean dictatorship was one of the bloodiest in all of Latin America.

And the same dictatorship was the one who created the structures we live under to this day: they privatized the mining industry, the education system, the healthcare system, they set the precedent for the later privatization of water, they installed the current pension system at literal gunpoint, they completely redid every aspect of daily life in Chile and fifty years later we're still trying to undo the damage.

It's hard to convey how much the dictatorship still affects our life, it's hard to put into words how deep the wounds go, but it's there. It's everywhere. Wherever I look, wherever I turn, whoever I talk to, it's in the little coincidences that made the difference between life and death, and in all the unspoken family histories, it's in the endless wait lists for doctors' appointments, it's in the fucking wealth inequality that makes it so that the 1% of the population is sitting on over 50% (if not more) of the country's wealth and still have the fucking gall to tell us we live in one of the best economies in the world, that we're fucking lucky.

This is our reality, this is what we live with every day, and I wish I didn't have to give an entire dissertation whenever I want to discuss it. We don't deserve to be relegated to "the other 9/11". We deserve a way forward.

Ni perdón ni olvido

#chile #chilean history #9/11 #tw death #tw torture #tw abortion #and on top of everything else the right has been working double time to revise history and present the dictatorship as a good thing #well fuck them #the dictatorship was one of the most horrifying period of our history and no amount of negationism can change that #and for everyone who still doesn't know: the us and the uk were 100% backing it until they had no choice but to publicly condemn it #they were intervening in chile for at least a decade before the coup #so fuck them too #this is probably all over the place but i don't care #i'm sad and i'm angry #today is a hard enough day without people's bullshit

[demo-ness]

imo the second worst part of dying in a plane crash would be having to be on a plane before dying

#the first worst is obviously the uniquely horrifying death #but you ALSO have to deal with the airport and the fucking adhd torture sky tube first

[queerfables]

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#look sometimes you're reading a fic that is a delightful romp through all kinds terrible things #the rape and torture is just exactly what you are looking for #your fav is suffering so good and things could not get more dire #and then the author pulls out something SO MUCH WORSE than you even thought to imagine #something so horrifying you find yourself whispering 'no no no no no oh god no' at the screen #and yet the whole time you are just grinning with unrepentant glee #like oh god yeah just fuck me up #this is gonna be a MESS

[bitbrumal]

  THE DUALITY OF CLOWN

DOTTORE is at once a man who can: handle any fall-out / backlash / Consequences™ to his (human rights violations) Actions™ with aggravating grace, just out of sheer inhuman apathy toward anything but his own pursuit. he is also: a man who starts a 3 decade long plot to completely dismantle & appropriate a person for making him feel embarrassed one (1) time*. & it's a fucking toss-up which it will be.

*& will fuck anyone up for messing with that plan, which gets triply embarrassing when it's just old age. until he's busy cloning them from their remains just to torment them in the more practical, time-economic torture of living in his test tube. which does mean he has those standing around in laboratories across the continent like a curio museum a hoarder made out of their house.

#hc ✦ il dottore #he's so insane it's hilarious. except if it were real it'd be real fucking horrifying. i'd say we'r elucky it's not but humanity has alread #y been here & fucked this up too lmao don't look it up ANYWAY #get you a man who is less scary when u torture him #than when u make him snortgiggle hysterically out of sheer assclenching social anxiety #& skitter away through a tear in dimensions just to escape ur line of sight #sometimes it just be like that

[gloriousmonsters]

they/them with the torture scene and the (i do not use this word lightly) disgusting electroshock murder scene, midnight scenes: from the woods with a PROTRACTED electricity torture scene--can we please ban people from having scenes of queer teens getting tortured with electricity for like, 5 minutes? for my health?

#midnight scenes: from the woods was also (I DO NOT USE THIS WORD LIGHTLY) extremely fucking gross in the whole #'fat black gay boy's action upon his crush spurning him #is to GO TO THE LOCAL NEONAZI BULLY AND SET HIM ON HIS CRUSH' #which I appreciate that manlybadasshero (whose playthrough i was watching) was just like 'no' and 'he would not do that' instantly about #but like seriously ms:ftw makes you PLAY THROUGH like two long minutes of being threatened #and then you have to watch torture #and then the creature attack on the torturers is like 5 seconds long #and stopped before it kills them #and both tortured boy and boyfriend are all oooh that was horrifying oh no are they dead about it #which is just straight up not a normal human reaction #(also also ms:ftw was just badly written) #(but i digress) #we need to talk about horror

[burnbrighterthanever]

How much of my father am I destined to become?

#lehnsherr family things! #laughing and having a beer as you fuck shit up in a middle-of-nowhere bar #using a racist's gun against him #enjoying yourself while torturing a fascist #nearly strangling a prisoner with a metal bar as your bf watches in horror #staring dramatically at your target as you get ready to kill a nazi #horrifying your friends by choosing Violence against the people who want to exterminate your species #breaking a powerful mutant out of supermax and looking fly while doing it #shaping the fate of the whole damn world #marvel can have one (1) rights #x-men #magneto #erik lehnsherr #polaris #lorna dane #magnet family #the gifted #xmenedit #stel speaks #stel creates

[albatris]

quinn handcrafts stained glass windows for their house but what are they Of

#quinn is. good at art? #quinn is good at art which is fun #does quinn make a beautiful majestic surreal stained glass window of alex's likeness? #probably. is alex completely mortified? yes. in a flattered way. horrified and flattered #if pressed quinn will be like no its not alex its just some random person fuck off (its totally alex) #what else does quinn make tho #Quinns house is full of stained glass windows and quinn madddddeeee them. what are they #hey!!!! quinn's good at art!!!!! #quinn has hobbies aside from torturing and being the worst

[mejomonster]

I love the way Silent Reading goes to great lengths to paint rich people as just absolutely horrific, with no consequences for their crimes, and hammer in that horror so you want and desperately feel a rage that this kind of shit should not be possible

#silent reading #lb #i will say silent reading goes Way soft on 'kind police' but luo wenzhous a police captain so of course it does #it does touch on superiors in police being corrupt tho which i suppose is more than notjing #but in terms of the evil of the rich??? fei chengyu is considered NORMAL milktoast 'nice' rich and hes #just AWFUL. then theres wei and hes got assassins. theres director zhang (zhang donglais family) who maybe #is killing and letting all kinds die. and now im at zhou yahous reveal #and fucking wow he was a child trafficing rapist who then sold teens to human trafficking to die #youd be hard pressed to find a single morally Not Horrific rich person in this novel #like.... zhang donglai might be the nicest? since hes only punched people? #fei du watched his mom be tortured and killed animals so hes not e #exactly plain toast. and wei kid? did teen prostitution bullying hazing and hired an assassin #yeah... zhang donglai might be the most Decent rich person in this novel... no wonder fei du admires him tbh #what perhaps makes me mosg horrified is when i read Silent Reading i remember there was a real rich person island like this villa #that trmp visited and many others who never got arrested for it. but just also... the rrality that the very rich #likely can do all of this horrible shit and there is nothing to stop them #at least nothing that actually gets Done to stop the.

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

i keep having Thoughts about how in so many ways LL has so much potential to be a really hard-hitting, messy, no-punches-pulled exploration of what i call moral agency: not the agency to act on your beliefs, but the agency to have those beliefs at all. like, if you're being abused into internalizing a set of beliefs, or indoctrinated in such a way as to make you resistant to outside perspective, or having relevant information withheld from you even if you would be looking for it... you don't have nearly as much choice in the matter of what you believe as someone who isn't stuck in that position.

and like. the central antagonists alone are literally a massive, horrifically abusive cult that spans generations. and i really wish they had actually followed through on that, and done so with compassion for victims who might need to be held accountable, instead of treating them with hatred and dehumanization.

(and also, y'know. hadn't treated some characters who did bad things as if they had much, MUCH more agency, moral or otherwise, than they did at literally any point. COUGH FIVE COUGH COUGH COUGH)

there's just. so so so much interesting stuff to be dug into there, in a way that's deeply fundamental to the narrative where even a lot of stories about moral agency aren't, and i really wish i could scrape enough brain cells together to talk about it properly

#lorien legacies #LL mogadorians #LL number five #LL tag #LL crit tag #the really fucked up thing is how they only make the about-face to #'wow the idea that the mogs had their moral agency stripped away is tragic; evil; and violating' #when that is suddenly the ONLY bad thing that could possibly happen to them that Matters #they can go through genocide and starvation and horrific human rights abuses and be tortured in prison camps for the rest of their lives #explicitly INCLUDING THE CHILDREN. ALL OF THEM #but lol who give a shit as long as they believe the right things now. they deserve it anyway uwu #which gets a hundred times worse because what we see of adam ''giving them the ability to believe the right things'' in the end #SCREAMS cult. holy shit it screams cult so bad #and he explicitly says he doesn't care if his mom is in the camp because she'd suffer too #his reason for not wanting to see her again is that *she might believe the wrong thing still* #and rex fucks me up because his genuine compassion for other mogs and wanting to believe the best of them #ends up with him being presumably the first member of adam's fucking internment camp cult lmfao #which like. we see a dude's initiation involving carving off his head tattoos. rex has head tattoos. connect the dots 🙃 #the way this series handles moral agency is.......... very deeply horrifying. don't get me started on five or the vatborn #anyway. regardless there is so much ground to be explored here and i pray to the heavens for the brain cells to do it coherently #it is especially of interest to me as someone who grew up southern baptist lmao #the crit files #cults cw #religious abuse cw #genocide cw #mutilation cw #self-harm cw #fuck off adam #dyn: but i'm helping you anyway