#I'm sorry for everything

[waterwizardcat]

#happy birthday bravern #i'm sorry for everything #bang brave bang bravern #bang bravern #isami x lewis

[sonofshu]

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#I'll keep surviving #I don't know how I will #But I'm not stopping here #I'm still anxious and depressed and afraid of every person no matter what #And I'm afraid of myself for the pain I've caused to everyone who trusted me #But #I can't stop here #To everyone who is reading this: #I'm sorry #I know that it makes nothing better #I know that it doesn't help at all #But I need to say it #I'm sorry for everything #And thank you all #Especially my partners #I love you

[izzymoonbowluv]

[OOC:] I think I’m done with this account for a while...

I’m sorry... The MLP fandom is getting to be too much for me. My anxiety has been spiking really badly whenever I go into fandom spaces for years now. I’ve been really struggling to feel safe and comfortable around the MLP Fandom due to how... adult they can be. I can’t even look at fanart anymore without feeling uncomfortable because of how often fan artists tend to draw explicit adult content. I understand it pays the bills, and I don’t judge them for doing it, but it makes me feel super gross and uncomfortable to be around (I’ve tried to get used to the fandom being like this, but I don’t think I can control my anxiety and paranoia anymore unfortunately). So because of all that, I think I’m going to leave for a while. I’m still looking into getting therapy and I may have to experiment more with my anxiety meds, but continuing to be in fandom spaces is becoming too taxing for me to continue. The paranoia of looking at fanart and fandom users and figuring out if they’re safe or not is too much for me to handle. Maybe someday I’ll be back if I can get my mental state under control, but for now this is goodbye. I’m sorry again. Hopefully next time I see you all, I will be in a better state of mind. Izzy loves you, and don’t forget to drink water. <3

#Out of Character #Anxiety #Paranoia #Mental update #update #I'm sorry for everything #Life is hectic and my issues have only been getting worse #Goodbye everyone. I'll remember you all in Therapy. #Izzy loves you <3

[jslittlebirdie]

Please, I just want J... I wish he could take my mind off things for only a few minutes. I feel terrible.

#stress and mood swings are killing me #now I feel like crying again #this is so dumb #I'm so tense and tired and restless #could he please hold me forever? #I wish I could just disappear #things are too much #I feel like I'm screwing everything up and like I'm not working hard enough #there's always something new I need to take care of #I'm silently screaming for him #I'm sorry for everything #oh goodness what am I saying? #maybe he should tuck me into bed or something #today sucks immensely #I only wish to be with my two beloveds right now #please... #but both are too far away #please J #I need you #vent post #self shipping #probably delete later

[iamanartichoke]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -

I am fine with "the audience" -

downloading my fics

printing my fics

copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics

sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3

making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss

doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc

I am not fine with "the audience"

doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity

feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever

Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.

Enjoy the fandom things.

#fanfic #ao3 #archive of our own #fandom things #tumblr things #i may have said this at some point #i'm sure i have #but whatever - just in case #i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics #but just if anyone is so inclined that's all #ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog #i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting #but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen #not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy #at least of fics bc i save everything #not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about #that i've made or done and only posted here #anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today #i have plans to stare into the void now

[daisyries]

02/11

very very hard to admit that, but I've been kinda selfish this past month. i want so much to be myself that i forget im a daughter too. i suffer but my father does too, and is so easy to forget and set this aside but then it hits me and i feel so sad for the person i was this year. growing up is so cruel. is so confusing. i don't know what to do anymore. i want to live my life but i can't leave my father but i don't know how i could conciliate both things.

i wish i haven't forgot that my dad is just as human as me, and while i am so open about my feelings he is not.

#vent #everything rn is so so difficult #I'm sorry for everything

[audiophiliacfan]

니가 울던 날 안아주지 못했던 거 괜히 짜증 부리고 화냈던 거 바쁘단 핑계로 올해도 너의 생일 제대로 챙겨주지 못한 거

가끔 힘들단 너의 맘 몰라줬던 거 내가 더 힘들다며 피했던 거 심하게 다투던 날이면 헤어져 말했던 거 내가 다 미안해

어딨니 이 노래 듣고 있다면 내게 연락해 다시 시작하자 울지 말고 바보야 지금 나 달려갈게 용서해줘 내가 다 미안해

1년 되던 날 그 흔한 꽃 한 송이와 고맙다는 말 한번 못했던 거 니가 많이 아플 때에도 모르고 내가 그래 내가 다 미안해

어딨니 이 노래 듣고 있다면 내게 연락해 다시 시작하자 울지 말고 바보야 지금 나 달려갈게 용서해줘 내가 다 미안해

이별한 줄도 모르고 하루면 널 찾을 거면서 너 역시 그럴 거라고 나 없인 안될 거라고 미련하게도 믿었었어

잘할게 사랑할 자격 없지만 너의 곁에서 같이 울어줄게 어딜가도 그립다 니가 많이 그립다 우리 정말 헤어진 거니

어딨니 이 노래 듣고 있다면 내게 연락해 다시 시작하자 울지 말고 바보야 지금 나 달려갈게 용서해줘 내가 다 미안해 누구보다 사랑할 텐데

#Spotify #Lyrics #Song #Music #가사 #Korean #I'm Sorry For Everything #Lee Jinjae #내가 다 미안해 #내가 다 미안해 (I'm Sorry For Everything) #이진재 #이진재 (Lee Jinjae)

[narcan-necromancer]

#drake #doing it wrong #black dog #blackdog #music #Spotify #I'm sorry for everything #i hope that you're happy #and that the scars that i left have healed #because i love you but I've never loved you the way that you needed me to

[14dayswithyou]

💖 Day 3.5 is now available! 💖

For the last couple of months, only Server Boosters had access to the 3.5 update... Buuuuut now it's available for everyone to play in the 14DWY Discord — and soon itch.io once I'm happy with the QA and state of the game — so please don't feel pressured to join unless you want to!!

The full devlog + even more screenshots are under the cut ^^

What's been added to the 3.5 version?

📺 Streamer Mode!

I've been told that it's difficult to stream and monetise age-restricted videos on YouTube and Twitch, so I added an option to remove the sexual content and strong language used in the demo.

Now y'all can invite Ren into your bed for cuddles without putting your streamer career on the line /silly /lh

This won't affect the 18+ rating or dark themes/elements of the game, however! Although Streamer Mode will prevent you from seeing any "gruesome" CGs in the future, most of the core elements of the game will still be tied to the choices and decisions you make. So you won't miss out on the overall experience by using streamer mode!!

⚙️ Custom Pronouns!

It only took me one entire year to get around to it, but you can finally choose your own preferred pronouns (or use a set of pronouns instead)... At the cost of being able to change them mid-game ^^;

Since the original pronoun screen wouldn't update until a new scene was displayed, I temporarily disabled the feature. But once I find a workaround, I'll bring it back!

💗 Choose how others perceive you!

You can now choose how the cast and narration perceive you! Originally, the narration was kept strictly gender-neutral (outside of pronouns and genitalia picked by the player), but this will soon change in future updates.

For more clarity: you don't get to choose the words specifically, but you can choose between masculine, feminine, and androgynous terms!

📋 Separate top and bottom genitalia!

You can now choose your tatas and pps separately! >:3

Alongside that, you can also choose your preferred body type!

I removed the "both" genitalia option because a few players still assumed it was an obscure version of "intersex". That wasn't my intention and I don't want to mislead anyone, so I took it out for now ^^;

I also didn't want to include a screenshot of the new genitalia choices in action (because it's NSFW), so y'all get the same character menu screen for the nth time instead lmao

📱 Relationship Screen Overhaul!

You can now change your own status for more immersion, and long-term Server Boosters will eventually be able to submit and use their own icon within the game as well!

Stalking finding your friends has now become easier by using "Buddy Maps"; a new app that allows you to see the location of all the cast members!

I want to offer players more incentive to check the relationship screen since they tend to miss the status updates, so hopefully this might help ;v;

It also says it "updates every few hours" so folks don't go overboard and check every 5 seconds to see where Ren is gdsghf (also keep in mind that he's a hacker lol)

🖤 Additional Scenes Update!

Day 2 received a brand new CG!!!!! Originally, I planned on only adding a few CGs sporadically throughout the game, but it didn't feel right to leave Day 2 so... empty... so I added a brand new CG to (hopefully) make things feel more balanced and natural!

If you decline Teo's offer on Day 3, Leon will now call and try to convince you to reconsider. However, players are still allowed to decline, and if they do, they'll reach a dead end.

After listening to feedback on itch, I changed some of the dialogue during Days 1-3 to make it seem more consistent! They're only small changes though, so it's honestly not worth looking for sdgjssga

🎶 Updated BGM and SFX!

I wanted to try out a different style of music to see if it fits the vibe of 14DWY more! The BGM features more acoustics to suit the "beachy" theme of Corland Bay, though I made a conscious effort to include piano elements as well to stay true to the original!!

I figured it'd be better to give players a live example before I make a poll (to see if they prefer the change or not) and publish it to Itch.

Some new SFX have also been added, though it's very minimal and honestly not that noticeable.

How to download and play the update?

(warning: clicking on the following links will open Discord!!) To download the Day 3.5 update, simply join the 14DWY Discord server, verify your age, and visit the "14dwy-updates" channel!

Alternatively, you can also wait until the update is publicly released on Itch to play it as well!! (It normally gets released shortly after a round of QA testing/getting feedback from the server, though I may release it earlier if I feel like it hehe ^^)

Enjoy!!

#14 days with you #14dwy #💖 — 14 days with queue. #🖤 — updates. #🖤 — spoilers. #I'm not gonna say much about my current doxxing situation because I've got it under control now + it's being handled privately #Plus I don't wanna give it/the people involved any unnecessary attention. I just wanna announce the update and Get Back To It™️ #(''it'' bein the grind 💪 It never stops lmao /silly) #OG followers will also know that these topics aren't the vibe I normally have on this blog (or any of my accounts); so I don't think I'll— #—make ANOTHER public post about the situation and bring more attention to it (when I just want everything to be over and put to rest ^^;) #However I also don't want people to think that I'm... ignoring?? the situation entirely (because gettin doxxed is a very endangering thing) #So I DO want to quickly acknowledge it here and say that it's all currently handled + I'm safe and okay + this won't stop me from— #—continuing to work on 14DWY (and other future projects). I also don't want to give these awful people more power and incentive to continue #—this kind of pathetic behaviour; so the less attention and encouragement being shown will ultimately be better in the long run :3 #Aaaaaanways!! 😮‍💨 #My other accounts will be restored shortly and my askbox will be opened once I feel comfortable. I'll get around to following folks— #—again in my own time; so please don't feel offended if I unfollowed you during a moment of vulnerability and anxiety!! #This is all EXTREMELY overwhelming and scary for someone with SAD/AvPD; and I /gen can't handle seeing it all over my timeline ;v; #Sorry this got ranty and personal again hjdsgjsdh T_T I said I wouldn't say much; so I'll shut up now hehe #🖤 — shut up sai.

[sonofshu]

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#I shouldn't've worried people #I'm sorry I can't make things better #I'm sorry you had to meet me #I shouldn't've lashed out against her #She may have deserved a lot of it #But she's just scared #She's scared and doesn't have anywhere to run #I need to take care of her from now on #I'm sorry for everything #I'm sorry

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[secretagentspydetectiveninja]

posting this with absolutely no context

#am i a cryptid now? i log on like once in a blue moon to post cringe and then leave again #ace attorney #apollo justice #tikki #random stuff #my stuff #ooookay okay okay okay. anyone reading the tags can have a LITTLE context‚ as a treat #so. sitting on my ao3 currently is an unfinished fic with exactly this premise #i want to finish it so bad. it haunts me every day. people leave such nice comments and everything #but i just have no motivation. trust me i've tried #i thought that perhaps drawing it might finally kick my brain back into gear #i'm so sorry readers i'm sorry i WILL finish it i promise it's not abandoned #it was so much fuuuuun #tikki are you seeing this. cringefail author who keeps playing video games instead of writing lmao #anyway goodbye friends i am gone again. logging off once more

[suiheisen]

you think YOU had a bad day at work?

bonus: sid shrieking "no!!!! NO!!!!!" loud enough to be heard in the stands and on camera

#this is now my FAVOURITE game i've watched in real life knocking the game misconduct one off the number one rank #he was so annoyed the entire game and so annoying about it :') #he kept shrieking away on the bench and i couldn't hear a word from where i was seated #but you could just hear this constant yipping away dhfsgfkjshgfsjf PLEASE it was so funny your 36-year-old babygirl was BARKING #drew kept sitting there like... is mom okay... i don't think mom's okay... #also extremely good for me (since he wasn't really hurt) was the whumpfest of it all oh my god what ancient gods did he anger......... #geno kept Hovering in concern #po kept giving him little shoulder pats the way a sweet brave babyboy would try his best to soothe a rabid little dog #ek of course kept trying to slide right inside him and also kept skating up to him and STARING him in the face in concern/lust/both #also guys this is my first time in canada ever!!!!!!!! i'm excited #anyway. very good game for me sorry for this post but you know i love a #long post #sidney crosby #evgeni malkin #pittsburgh penguins #also!!! to all who celebrate #ramadan kareem/eid mubarak #<333 staying with a friend here through the eid celebration and they've been cooking and everything smells so good

[izzy-hands]

Dustin, to Steve’s face: *exasperated snarky teenager* Dustin, to literally anyone else: Can I tell you about my incredibly awesome best friend forever, Steve?

Bonus:

#stedit #strangerthingsedit #stranger things #dailystrangerthings #tvstrangerthings #userbbelcher #steveharringtonedit #steve harrington #dustin henderson #userbecca #userava #ughmerlin #arthurpendragonns #jemmablossom #useraurore #henderfam #* #*gifs #*strangerthings #i'm sorry but i'm rewatching the earlier seasons and their friendship is just everything

[meirimerens]

youtube shorts is just tiktok without being on the app the amount of "i'm a [qualification] and [misinformation]" could make one turn their skin inside-out in protest. "i'm a board-certified OB-GYN & it's only been about the last hundred years that women have actually experienced menopause. We didn't live long enough to experience it" how can you be so incredibly wrong about something so integral to your practice. King of the Hittites Hattusilis III was told in 1250 BCE that his sister was too old to reproduce at age 50+. Aristotle wrote in the 4th century BCE that women stopped menstruating between ages 40 to 50, common menopause ages today still. i cannot begin to tell you how 4th century & 1250 BCE don't really count as "the last hundred years" unless that -s is doing a lot of heavy lifting. waiter waiter more misinformation laws.

#do they just be making anybody an ob-gyn these days. #what ''board'' is certifying this. your car's dashboard? #life expectancy for the past millennia was heavily skewed down because surviving infancy was Not Easy #but if you made it past that you could live to your 50s if not later. #we have multiple hypotheses about PREHISTORIC WOMEN'S menopause and how post-reproductive life in humans could have been an #integral part of the life of the tribe with help with child-rearing; gathering; hunting; medicine. like hello. #prehistoric menopausal women GET BEHIND ME [wolf growling] #neigh (blabbers) #sorry. i'm insane. gyno health and everything about periods & menopause is already so little understood & the wider medical body kinda #dgaf about if you keel out in pain from preventable menstrual diseases so if i catch anyone spreading misinformation. i'm going beastmode.

[barghest-land]

ata tu corazón, mi amor, y arrástralo por la tierra

#this art hurts so bad #in a way i'd never be able to explain #also it just upsets me a lot because i don't like how i did it:( #idk how to make it better so i'm just gonna leave it as it is #and go to sleep good night #it was supposed to be cool and simple just like that #but in my eyes it's just missing everything and i don't know how to fix it #genuinely thought it was gonna be a good art but here i am oh well. that happens i guess #im sorry javier :(( i'll make more good art i promise #barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #javier escuella