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ipusingularitae · 9 months

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stop having a crush on people who doesn't reciprocate your feelings stop having a crush on people who doesn't reciprocate your feelings stop having a crush on people who doesn't reciprocate your feelings stop having a crush on people who doesn't reciprocate your feelings stop-

#from me to me #I'm saying this to myself over and over #like STOP PLEASE #you DON'T have the energy to worry about this right now or to be sad about it you're already putting your shit together #it's been OVER A YEAR MOVE ON PLEASE #like i thought o was okay i genuinely thought it was cool when thinking about it JUST THIS WEEK #and now i see a fucking tweet for which I have no context and I CAN FEEL MY CHEST STINGING #i PHYSICALLY FELT #i hate it here honestly #OKAY?????? JUST CALL IT A DAY AND STOP MAKING ME HAVE THOSE FEELINGS I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE #fucking hell #feelings #personal #venting #personal life #life stuff #unrequited love #unrequited feelings

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allthewhumpygoodness · 4 months

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Big fan of when a character's grief/trauma/guilt manifests as physical symptoms. Big fan of characters keeping things so tight inside them that it makes them sick. Big fan of when the line blurs between a character's mental trauma and physical illness until it's hard to tell which is which anymore.

#whump #k once i did a fic where a character had pneumonia #and also was in Big Mental Distress and mentally going over all the people he'd lost in his life etc #and i gotta say i'm proud of myself for bringing up the recurrent motif of his chest being pianful...like is it from being sick & coughing #or bc he's grieving so badly it's putting him in physical pain #ANYWAY

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uncanny-tranny · 6 months

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Basically, my philosophy around disability fakers is: I would rather a thousand people fake a disability than have one disabled person suffer without care, aids, compassion, or any help.

#disability #disability advocacy #and there's a difference not many people seem to recognize between faking and realizing you don't have [x] problem...#...such as realizing you don't have [x] disorder because it is instead [y] disorder...#...or you haven't completely understood your care needs/your symptoms/what helps you...#...and some people see ANY change in your understanding of your disability as proof of maliciously faking...#...when i suppose in my personal experience people don't *maliciously* fake disability...#...i'm not saying it could never happen but that i don't think it's the *only* thing motivating people called fakers #i just think (like most everything) this is complex and nuanced because it's a *human* experience #like for me personally i /know/ i still have a lot to learn about my disabilities...#...like... i realized recently that my hands shouldn't be in AGONY when warm water is ran over them when it's SLIGHTLY cold inside or out...#...and i realized that i likely have a Noticable limb difference that needs checking out. does this sound like i'm faking...#...or that maybe i just didn't really explore my own needs and body because of a variety of factors?#i can assure you it is because i haven't really thought before about how i deserved to understand how to best help myself

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heartorbit · 5 months

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a fool and a sinner

#heyy WATCH REVUE STARLIGHT[TRAIN PASSES OVERHEAD] I SAID WATCH REVUE ST [FOGHORN] [SIRENS]#revue starlight #revstar #hikari kagura #kagura hikari #shoujo kageki revue starlight #Girl you're so damn dramatic get your ass up and continue the cycle #STFU AND START ONCE AGAIN BUILDING THE TOWER THAT WILL INEVITABLY FALL 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣#i'm back in my bimonthly revsta haze. Oh my god starry session revival was SOOOOOOOOOO.#i missed seeing kukugumi performing together. And oh my god mayanana sirius. OH MY GODDDDDDD #PRIDE AND ARROGANCE WAS ONLY SUPPODE FTO BE KAORUKO AND THEY WERE LIKE THATS CRAZY CAN WE MAKE TOXIC YURI OUT OF THIS? IKUTERU GET UP THERE #i screamed. all i can say #semester AMOST OVER assignments MANAGEABLE status: ALIVE #pretend i didnt post a drawing of myself coughing uo blood on twitter 24 hours ago. teehee #i need to rewatch gekijouban. Will be a little treatfor me after my last assignment gets handed in #Also theres this rpgmaker game ive been following that finally came out this year and inknow it will give me brain worms im so excited to #play it. ALSO I HAVE AN EMU TO POST I DID AN AGGIE WITH MY CLASSMATE but i gotta clean her up. maybe tonight after homework. amen #its her n cinnamorolllll so cutessss SOOOO CUTES

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onesidedradiostatic · 2 months

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vox saying alastor

that's it that's the post

#osrs.mp4 #radiostatic #staticradio #onewaybroadcast #hazbin vox #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor #I could not allow myself to cut the “oh” from “oh alastor...” it's just that fruity.#I'm not over it why did he say it like that

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yardsards · 8 months

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hot take but you all NEED to stop telling people to kill themselves.

yes, even *those* people. i don't care if you're talking to some monster who puts live puppies into a wood chipper for fun, don't say that shit.

because mx. puppychipper isn't gonna be affected by your words.

but you know who might be affected? some innocent third party reading the words you said on a public website.

because telling people to kill themselves says "suicide is a punishment for being a bad person. bad people, upon realizing they're bad, should simply commit suicide instead of working to atone for their actions."

and that is NOT a message you wanna be normalizing to anyone, but ESPECIALLY people with depression (who, let's be real, make up a higher than average chunk of this site's userbase). whose mental illness is already telling them that 1: they're an inherently terrible worthless person no matter what they do 2: death is an appealing option.

is reading "kill yourself" once or twice gonna make them do it? nah, probably not. but reading it multiple times a day every day is gonna make their mental health worse. it's probably not good for your mental health to be saying that kind of thing, either.

just knock that shit off. the world is already so hostile to people with mental illness, and managing mental illness and unlearning unhealthy thought patterns is already so difficult. you don't need to be out here making it worse.

#eliot posts #suicide mention #animal abuse mention #i guess #ive said similar before and i just said this in the tags of another post but it deserves its own post #i am fucking TIRED of reading this shit so often #i frequently block people for saying it #sometimes i report ppl over it too if they're shitty in other ways too #i luckily don't have the ''i'm a worthless piece of shit and deserve the death penalty'' flavour of depression #but i do have the ''life is endless suffering and i want to euthanize myself'' variety of depression (or. technically bipolar.)#and reading the phrase kys Feels Bad Man w my mental illness #and i have froends w the first type and i worry about them #and one of em has told me it does affect them quite negatively to read kys #so yeah! fucking stop it!

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demi-pixellated · 11 months

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a redesign: to sate my personal sensibilities

#Legend of Zelda #LoZ #Tears of the Kingdom #TotK #totk spoilers #Yona #Fanart #MSPaint Draw #mostly-- i pulled it into sai for colours but yeah #incessantly muttering to myself over the last two weeks 'I Can Fix Her'#i don't have any strong feelings to her as a character but as a design....#i enjoy the choice to make her a manta ray but I DESPERATELY wish they gave her a flatter head #-- not entirely like Muzu but closer to it #and also I'm severely allergic to saturated colours and she is unlookable #feel free to disagree and disregard this - it's a thought experiment #but Saki is next 😤

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morganafata · 5 days

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Can't wait to see modern day Sun Jae, K-pop idol at the peak of his popularity and the world at his feet, revert back to his hot mess loser self once Sol comes back into his life, like some sort of insane comet of longing and awkwardness.

#it'd be especially funny if he tries to play it off as 'oh that girl i had a crush on?'#'no dude i'm totally over her'#and someone probably in hyuk after they make up become bros again says 'you are currently writing a song about her now'#and sun jae replies with 'well maybe stfu before i throw myself off a balcony again'#lovely runner #kdramas #kim hye yoon #byeon woo seok

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kikker-oma · 19 days

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Fan Joy July!

Coined by the sweet @isasan347 , Fan Joy July is an art challenge I've created for myself!

I will be drawing one piece of colored fan art every single day of July that corresponds to a scene in various Linked Universe Fanfics.

This challenge is meant to push myself to draw daily, give back to writers who make this fandom so much fun, and give others a chance to read something new they may enjoy 😄

I will be choosing some fics myself that I've read and enjoy, but I would love if others recommended their favorite LU fic. This way I can pick one LU fan fiction to draw for all 31 days. Feel free to self promote as well!

To recommend me a fic, please comment or reblog this post with the link so that I can see it easier. Please avoid sending asks if you can, just because I tend to get overwhelmed when my inbox gets full 🥴🥲 hehe

I'll be taking recommendations from April 11-30. After that I'm going to start drawing so that I can be ready to post in July! ( This is gonna take me a while so I need all the prep time I can get haha).

**I'm not asking anyone else to do this challenge, but I would ADORE if anyone wanted to join me! Even if it isn't for the whole month. **(I can be your excuse if you've ever wanted to draw for a writer but were too shy hehe)

I've also seen one or two writers interested in how they could participate. I think that maybe if there is an artist you enjoy you could write something for a drawing they've done? I know there are a ton of very talented LU artists in the fandom, so that could be a good challenge for writers 😀

--- General Notes:

Please note that I will only be doing 31 drawings and a recommendation does not guarantee I will draw for it ( I love you all, but I can only do so much)

I will be tagging my challenge as "FanJoyJuly" and will try my best to note posts appropriately

I will be tagging writers (if they have a Tumblr and I can find it)

I will be linking the story for each day in the post

I will not be releasing which stories I'm drawing for until I post them (for the DRAMA😉)

As we get closer to July, I'll create a master post and update it with each post I make in case people are interested in following along ❤️

Thank you all for the initial feedback for this idea, and I'm excited to get started!

#FanJoyJuly #linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu fanart #art challenge #tbh I feel kinda pretentious making this #since this is only a challenge for myself #but I'm a strong supporter of communication so I'm gonna get over myself lol #I'M SO EXCITED THO!!#This will be tons of fun #I laugh at myself saying I'd take a couple days to think about this #and then make this post the next day lol #but I've been thinking about this NON STOP #and I know I'd only be delaying on something I've subconsciously already decided to do #and I need time to read all these fics #pick the scene #and then draw everything #so yeah.. hehe

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genericpuff · 3 months

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vent post

#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once”#i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO #anxiety is a hell of a thing #and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever #i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up #and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken #but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship #i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it #i am cringe and i am free #self post #vent post #altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read #too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll #i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made #i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol #i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim #i think both things can be true #i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like #while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium #“perfectly balanced as all things should be”

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lino-nyangi · 6 months

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um, i'm gonna say this as someone who's been watching less than pleasant (to say the least) scenes of war and death across the world but especially in palestine since a very young age that definitely did fuck me up: you don't have to consume graphic media to stand with palestine. some clips and pictures are highly triggering and not everyone can handle that. it's a privilege to look away because they can't, but if looking does more harm to you and your ability to support them, don't expose yourself to too much of it. read, educate, spread awareness, boycott; everyone can help in their own way.

a study has shown that people who are exposed to violent media may be less able to help those in need due to the effect of desensitization.

also if you feel guilty for not being able to cry or react as passionately as you did in the beginning of this aggression, that's your body coping through emotional numbness. it doesn't make you any less human. you just need to consume a different kind of media relevant to the cause and give your body a break.

#i'm saying this because i've only noticed in the past few days that i'm coping differently and it's affecting my health #i too am trying to stay away from triggering content even when i find myself obsessing over the news #but that doesn't change my position one bit #stay safe everyone #free palestine #palestine

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catwafers · 5 months

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11/23 is good big brother day in japan (11/23 = ii nii-san) so, with that, after one and a half months of working on this, i present my very self-indulgent scenario of vash and knives being brothers and taking that first step to heal.

if you want to throw some support my way i have a higher-res pdf version on my ko-fi shop for $3 - no pressure obviously, this will remain free to read here on my blog indefinitely!

also i would like to give a quick thank you to @/nimpnawakproduction for their references on vash's scars which were pretty much my bible when drawing this LMAO

(not ship art)

#trigun #trigun spoilers #trimax spoilers #trigun fanart #trigun maximum #vash saverem #knives saverem #millions knives #vash the stampede #plant twins #saverem twins #my art #artists on tumblr #nitpicked over uhhh. Literally every aspect of this #PLEASE be niceys i've never undertaken a project of this scope before lol #literally i'm so self-conscious LOLLL #very nervous to post this for a variety of reasons but i drew this for myself first and foremost so!#yes i've continued this in my head and have an idea of how the twins' relationship and nai's character arc would progress from here #but will i draw it? almost certainly not. sorry.#technically this isn't postcanon but it's easier to say LOL also this is def an au where knives doesn't. you know.#could talk and talk and talk about all the choices i made with this but i won't

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uncanny-tranny · 8 months

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Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.

#disability #this is a callout post about myself #i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned #turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly #i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack #(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way)#(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle)#anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you...#...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition]#i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀#even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭#it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker #and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller #and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected...#...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)

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astudyinfreewill · 3 months

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✨ a perfect all-american bitch ✨

happy birthday to THEE all-american bitch, dean winchester!!! 💘

this vision literally came to me as soon as i listened to guts... it was a long road getting here but i'm glad i was able to get this done by the best boy's bday 🫡

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#spn #dean winchester #deansbirthdaybash #birthday party for dean 2024 #spnamvarchive #spn amv #are these even the right tags to use anymore. i haven't made a video in over 2yrs and it's always a fight for my life #anyway i'm so past my work bedtime. don't let this flop 😵‍💫 (i say knowing i made this for an audience of 2 including myself)#IF YOU SAW ME ATTEMPTING TO POST THIS 3 TIMES BECAUSE TUMBLR KEPT CHOPPING OFF THE END. NO YOU DIDN'T.

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fisheito · 27 days

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