#I'm actually so confused I don't remember the context haha

[arandomcat64]

I was going through some screenshots and saw this

This is so confusingly hilarious out of context

#dangerous fellows #dangerous fellows harry #harry dangerous fellows #df harry #harry df #I'm actually so confused I don't remember the context haha

[ofallthingsnasty]

I just remembered that one ridiculously cute thing in uni during the body donor class - for context: we dental students got pooled together with the meds during the pre-clinical semesters a lot, and that class was no different.

We were separated in two main groups, and one body donor was shared between 12 students - coming in from Monday to Thursday. On Fridays, you could come in until 12 and just look at the donors without any supervision, you just needed your coat and name tag. And I remember going in before the situs oral and trying to understand how blood flows through the heart and then one of the meds (super intimidating buff guy) saw me struggle and was like '... Hey do you want me to explain that to you?' and then we sat there - him with a whole heart in hand, explaining it all to me, more than happy to help. Not gonna lie, I had a bit of a crush on that guy for the rest of the semester. We weren't even in the same group, so we never saw each other during prep hours but I always had my eyes peeled for him during lectures haha tw.anatomical stuff (i'm german so if my translations are a little off then i'm sorry hah), cadavers, just fluff

Long story short - I'm thinking about that with Law. You and Chopper are at the same table, come in every Friday to review the material of the week, both a little on the not-so-studious side. (Don't get me wrong, you go to every lecture - but those suckers are two hours long and not the only class you have. It's easy to lose track, especially when all you wanna do is catch up on sleep during the weekends.)

You pull your donor out of the body bag, lay them down and go over your notes, some sessions more and some less successful. The two of you are usually not alone, either - there is always someone else rifling around on their own table. Today it's a guy with a severe expression and some earrings. You've seen him in the lecture hall but you and Chopper aren't in the same group as him, so that's really all you know. You get through this week's lecture notes just fine - until it's time for the heart. The way blood gets fed through the atriums and ventricles, how the pressure changes, systole and diastole, the coronary arteries... You two are feeling beyond lost and so, so close to simply giving up - it's just too much and too intricate (at least for someone who has heard all of that info only once, maybe twice). But then there is also that other student - and maybe, just maybe, he knows more than you two do. It's not unusual to ask - and so that's what you do.

Law can't be assed, actually.

He's reviewing his notes, trying to get his own studying done. He's really not the type to do tutoring, doesn't have the patience for it. But you two are loud - hemming and hawing over your own cadaver and if he has to hear you confuse the mitral valve with the tricuspid one more time, then he's going to get a migraine. What are twenty minutes of his time if it means that you get done with your little idiot session and finally leave the hall? So he sighs and motions you to come closer. He's surprisingly good at explaining. The heart of his donor in one hand, a tissue forceps in the other, he walks you through every fact one would want to know about the organ. You probably have stars in your eyes while he talks because finally, finally you're grasping the material - and really, it might be confusing at first, but it's not that hard. He even lets Chopper regurgitate it all to him and has the two of you giggling over it. Law is just glad you two morons are finally having your little eureka moment because it means that you'll be off in a matter of minutes.

But no good deed goes unpunished.

It's then that you notice his tattoos through the nitrile gloves and suddenly he's the most fascinating living guy around (the most fascinating guy is dead on table 5, with golf ball sized cysts in his liver, sorry Law). He gets bombarded with questions, you and Chopper all over him, way too loud, too excited, too fucking annoying. He's already regretting his little act of charity.

And not only do you have the audacity to ask him to explain fetal circulation (because, please, please it's so confusing) as well, no, from that moment on, you're all over him very goddamn Friday and he's been added to three different group chats the moment Chopper and you leave the hall.

#i loved that class lol... so good #some universities have free videos of the instructors doing the dissections if that sounds good you should def give it a try #it's fascinating stuff and i have only the fondest memories 😊 #/one piece #/law #trafalgar law x reader #law x reader

[iloveyouemanuelmarco]

Hmm, I've been thinking(Okay so for context, for all my life up to now aka since being born technically, I was raised into a family household that believed in Christianity but mostly leaned towards the Catholicism parts of such since I've heard there are many different types of people of faith with all different names and traditions, customs and cultures of said interest and everything which I think is pretty cool in its own right atleast but anyways- From what I can remember from being apart of my small and average main family system, my mom along with my grandmother from her side of relatives and such, are seemingly the most passionate and active in the church when compared to my dad. My father isn't hateful about such beliefs nor is he even considered an aethetist or agnostic, but he hasn't been following many of the typical "rules" or societal normaly that is considered when being apart of said group. For example, while my mom and grandma go to church every Sunday whenever they can so they can worship our lord and savior of God and his son, Jesus Christ, my dad is often uninterested in traveling to make the literal 5-10 minute journey though he mostly stays inside anyways watching old movies from different foreign countries sooo(No hate to him by the way, if it pleases him then I hope he has fun doing that^^). I'll admit, while I do make attempts to go with my mom, I often find myself unable to due to disinterest, but it's not disinterest in him ofcourse. I would never ad I love him very much and always have, but it feels like even though I do care about our Holy Father and that I haven't directly rejected him, my current daily life atleast as of lately has been feeling like I have currently abandoned him somehow or that I have somehow drifted away from the right path and have become deaf to his word. It honestly makes me very upset since I should be more loyal and honest to him now that I think about it. I used to be such a happy little girl who would pray every day in the morning before school and at every night before bed. I used to go to a private religious catholic school where I would go to church there sometimes too(half of the time it was mandatory on certain days during the hours but still)and even if I didn't understand everything due to my young age, I would quietly sit and listen I'm an attempt to learn more about the holy scriptures and such with my classmates and the other students from different grades/ages. I used to prepare for the moments during one's usual journey, being excited that I would become closer to God by wearing my white dress and getting baptized with other certain selected students(I don't remember what the specific event was called but I remember it being very important to me at the time)and I don't know...I sorta miss it. I miss being so happy and careless of all my anxieties but now I am stuck here...I don't want to stray away from God's love any longer, I don't want my true reality to break away because it makes me afraid of if I somehow commit some sort of unforgivable sin that'll destroy any sense of humanity I have left...(I know that sounds dramatic but please. I am really trying to make a solid attempt at explaining all of this right now so as complex as it may seem, keep in mind that my brain is starting to function again for once in the dying light that is my empty and boring life that while I am still grateful for, has been causing me much hurt and pain in so many ways). Currently I am a 16 year old eurocentric and privileged middle-class white-latino feminine presenting person who is actually a member of the LGBTQIA+ and neurodivergent community too according to doctors/psychiatrists or something(I don't know, that's what my dad has said since my late diagnosis at 12 which is that even late?? It's so confusing at times ughh but that's just how it is I guess haha).

On the internet, specifically here and on the couple of social media platforms that I publicly have, I have used these safe spaces to more accurately and honestly express myself when it comes to my identity not only when it comes to sexuality and gender but also with the intersectionality of my race and ethnicity, my hobbies, interests and talents, my wants and needs and etc. I have said before that I am a privileged and middle-class eurocentric 16 year old white-latino feminine person in real life but actually wants to present as more of who I am being a bisexual(male preference having)aceflux female to male transgender person who to be honest is probably more of a mostly male but still bigender or genderfluid person since I still feel connected to growing up in perceived girlhood but I don't know yet...who does know though at that point???Pfttt...I don't hate my body and I know God made me beautiful in my own way just like all the other unique people he created all through out the history of the planet Earth, but sometimes it can be hard since I think the most queer people see me as is just maybe a bisexual cis girl who might be on the asexual spectrum???I hope I am making some sort of sense with my explanation...somehow so with all that being said, I guess I've had some sort of short epiphany in my brain where I've realized something important for me that I've almost forgotten. I need to actively take steps to come back to God and I know somewhat of how to do it but I would appreciate a little more help from others with more expertise aka experience for those who don't have a big and fancy vocabulary in their inner-mind library haha- I do sincerly apologize if I have caused genuine annoyance for anyone with this post for whatever reason as my normal posts are coming back soon once I get back online but for now, I need to go study and do more research on how I can save myself and others for when he comes again. I know it sounds scary but it's actually wonderful so please don't be scared of him, because he loves us all no matter what and nothing can turn us away from him. Worship him and confess your sins because it's good to be honest and he loves you, after all he knows you best like you know yourself since he created the beautiful building of love and passion got the world that is your soul. It's never to late to choose him and to spread the good word of the gospel<3. Please stay safe and have a good day or night wherever you are and thank you if you've read the entire paragraphs of rambles I've written haha. I really do appreciate your support whether it be here, there or anywhere else!!:)You must keep surviving for you and I, for us and eachother but also for him too...

Also P.S: Hope you guys don't mind but I'm gonna put a nice scenery image here since I like being calmed down and enjoy embracing the beauty of nature, especially when we're lucky enough as humans to photograph the right moments atleast!!Other animals sadly only get to enjoy it in the moment which can be too fast since they're constantly needing to survive actively♡.

#Christianity #Catholism #Christian Faith #Catholic Faith #Christian #Catholic #Beautiful Moments #Faith In Jesus #Faith In God #Epiphany #Realizations #Realizing #Realization #Humanity #Animals #Plants #The Earth #Religious #Religion #Science #Technology #Modern Art #Hope #Staying Strong #Staying Safe #Relaxing #I Am So Happy #Jesus Christ #God #The Father The Son And The Holy Spirit

[cloud-somersault]

Hey, how are you doing? I hope you’re alright. 💕 I’ve been reading your status updates on Constellations and the Epilogue, and I just wanted to let you know that I think you’re amazing. Your writing is incredible and I love it. Your stories are so well thought out and the characters are ✨on point✨, and the plot is complex and detailed and aaahhh! It has me hooked! 🤩

And I understand how it hurts when you put so much effort and love into a story, only to post it and not see others be anywhere near as excited or invested as you are. I know how discouraging it can be. And it may be a little silly, but I do want to apologize for not commenting lately—life took some difficult turns for me healthwise around the end of last year and I haven’t been able to catch up! I’m still on Chapter 4 of Constellations! 😭 BUT Chapter 5 is open on my phone, and I am READY to read it as soon as I have the time (and mental energy, but that’s a whole ‘nother issue 😩). Don’t worry that your writing isn’t enough, or be discouraged if some readers don’t catch hints while others are figuring it all out seemingly too easily. Everybody reads and comprehends stuff differently, and it’s not a sign that your writing is bad if they don’t catch it! Honestly, I’m pretty bad at catching hints the first time I read a story unless they’re pretty darn obvious. I don’t usually notice subtle hints until the second, or third, or even seventh read-through, haha! (on the bright side, rereading stories and rewatching TV shows is always fun!) 😅

I guess what I really wanted to say is… don’t give up hope. Don’t lose your love and enthusiasm for your works, or feel like they aren’t worth writing because others don’t seem interested in them. At the heart of it all… at the end of the day… write because you love to. Because it makes you happy. And know that it doesn’t have to be “perfect”—the main goal should be that you enjoy it. That’s something I’m trying to teach myself, too. 💕

Thank you for taking the time to write this message and send it. I appreciate you're very kind words 💕I'm doing okay, I just had to take a step back for a bit from socials and stuff. I'm gonna keep that up for a while.

Please don't apologize for not commenting or taking your time reading. Your health always comes first, and I'm sorry if I came off as childish or needy, that wasn't my intention. Two things just happened that set me off and the timing of it was incredibly poor 😓

Please take your time reading; none of it is going anywhere, and don't feel obligated to leave comments either. i'm realizing that, even if chapters are short or long, finding the time to finish things is difficult, and everyone lives different lives. And I'm sorry about all the spoilers on this blog, I'll tag that better from now on.

But I really do think I got confused or disjointed in my perceptions; everyone here knows so much because i've been asked questions and given answers and people have interacted, so people following me here have more context than the average ao3 user. But I've kinda been expecting everyone to be on the same page, which will never be true.

I'm also the same way where it takes me a while to pick up on hints. I actually changed my writing style to prevent this. I got tired of reading books in college where you had to dive into every little thing. the hints and clues weren't obvious to me. I decided then that, when I wrote, I wanted things to be bold, obvious, but beautiful. I didn't want to make readers feel like they're missing something. I wanted them to trust that every answer, every clue would be answered in time. I made that promise to myself a decade ago, and being reminded of how different people interpret things just...made me remember.

I take writing really seriously, probably too seriously, but I've been doing it for so long and I love doing it. I want to be good at it. When it feels like I've gone back on that promise to myself, I get frustrated. I think of ways I could've fixed things. But I also remember that those books and those writing styles just weren't for me. I wasn't the target audience.

Sorry to go off on a tangent, but I wanted to explain why I got upset. I still love Constellations and I'm posting it on ao3 out of convenience, really. It's easier to reference and search there in one "Entire Work" than to have 5 documents open. The fact that others can see and read and have fun is a bonus. But I'm committed to telling this story, and I'm gonna finish with a bang.

Thank you, I won't forget why I'm doing this and that my thoughts/feelings come first! 😤I hope your health concerns are taken care of soon. Take it easy, and thanks again! 💕

#ask #this is very kind i'm sorry i worried people i was just REAL upset/mad #but i'm better now. i just needed to take a minute and refocus and remind myself of a few things #we're still chugging along #but seriously thank you for sending this. i'm really glad you like constellations! that means a lot to me #but seriously--health comes first. and DON'T FEEL PRESSURED TO COMMENT!!! 😤 #okay love you bye~ 💕

[callmeghoulshit]

For the 101 questions!

It’s so many imsorryimsorryimsorry but ily

4, 10, 13, 23, 31, 33, 44, 75, 88, 97

SHAKEY I'M SO SORRY IT TOOK FOREVER TO ANSWERRRRRR.

Made the mistake of opening it during work so I lost the notification and forgot :(

Everything under the cut cuz this was an essay.

ANYWAYS:

4. What's the one thing you feel like everyone knows how to do except you?

Oho. Literally everything. Life as a whole. Everyone makes everything look so damn easy and it leaves me wondering what went wrong with me (I know damn well what's wrong with me lmao but I don't wanna change it)

Oh but to be specific it's hard to explain so I hope I make sense but appearances. I know even the prettiest people have their insecurities but it seems like everyone else knows what to do with themselves. Whether it be hair, clothes, makeup. I have to ask my bestie all the time because it's the one thing I don't get is how people are like "imma do this! I think it'll look cool!" Like how are you SURE? How do you just know what looks good in you and what doesn't?

It took me five years to nail my eyeliner. Fucking eyeliner. And it'll probably take me another five to figure out if I can even wear eyeshadow.

10. What's your boring hobby (that you still enjoy anyway)?

This is another hard one cuz I do quite a bit of hobby hopping now. In the span of a year I went from jewellery making, cross stitch, painting, clothes making, and clay. I didn't have any hobbies prior to that, let alone "boring" ones so I don't really have an answer haha.

13. Tell a secret.

See my initial answer was to say my maladaptive daydreaming, except I slapped that in my intro post haha. And anything else that comes to mind is actually unwarranted trauma dumping I think. So we're gonna stick with the MADD but make it dramatic:

I've had seven (there's way more but they're the core ones) imaginary friends since I was 14. I'm currently twenty, and hoping they don't go away, there have been a couple times I've "lost" my ability to daydream and I felt so broken because they stem from a time I was so lonely I only had myself and I love them so dearly. So if you ever see me talking about my OCs (original characters), I mean them. I'm so unbelievably attached and can talk about them forever haha. Maybe if I see an ask game about OCs I'll answer about them hehe.

23. Do you believe in an afterlife?

Nope. No belief in any kind of higher power. My only fear is that you're still somehow conscious after death, just experiencing nothingness. It's mainly because I can't imagine everything just switching off.

31. What are you looking forward to right now?

Hmm maybe getting round to my project where I wanted to make a dress. Maybe it's my delusions of grandeur because I keep hoping it'll turn out perfect haha.

Being able to see my best friend for a proper hangout again too. I miss being able to see her whenever we wanted to <3

33. What's your favorite color in context?

Red. I just really like red. When I used to get up really early and the sun was rising it'd look so pretty and red and pink.

44. What's the earliest dream you can remember having?

I can't remember anything mate haha. It would have to be a weird lil nightmare I had three years ago I think, enjoy

75. What's that movie you know is bad but enjoy anyways?

Fast and Furious franchise. Admittedly I need to catch up with a few movies. And I know it's far fetched and everything BUT I DONT CARE. DAYDREAM INSPO. ITS FUN. GIMME MY STUPID UNREALISTIC DRIVING MOVIE.

88. What kinds of things confuse you?

Fucking LIFE. Money. Bills. My mum's council tax makes me wanna rip my hair out. I wanna figure out if I can live independently BUT I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH BILLS Are this is so fucking stressful.

Oh and attraction lmao I don't get that shit. I have an ace flagged pinned to my wall but it feels like a lie cuz I'd feel so bad if I realise down the line I'm not ace. Seriously what the fuck is romantic attraction. Tf is sexual attraction. The fuck is arousal. Anyways moving swiftly on

97. What's your favorite word?

Swear words. I can't think right now. Maybe shit, fuck, bitch, cunt or dickhead.

#im so sorry shakey #i received an ask but won't get used to it

[bisexualpositivity]

hey! I hope you're keeping well and are having an awesome day:)

Wondered if I could ask for some bi related advice...So, just for context I'm 24 y/o female and I've known for a while that I'm physically and sexually attracted to women, but never as strongly as men. Still, I've always endeavoured to be open and curious. Long story short I was out with my straight female best friend and we kissed...then we kissed again...and later that night in her room we kissed again. She treated it as a "haha that was so silly and funny of us" thing, which it totally was for her - she's straight as a board...but I wanted to keep going. Yet, at the same time, it didn't give me the butterflies or any emotional connection that I get with guys, even those that I've kissed that are strangers. Kissing a girl just didn't do that for me. I feel that I'm probably somewhere on the bisexual spectrum, but now I'm a bit stuck on what to do now.

I really want to explore things with women, kissing that friend only confirmed that I'm into girls, but I don't know where to go. I have a friend who's gay, very sex positive and has slept with several of her other friends on a purely casual, no-strings basis - do I approach her and explain I'm feeling a bit confused and want a safe space to explore? Or would that fuck things up? (She's said before that I'm attractive but not her type/she doesn't see me that way). Do I approach my best friend and say hey - remember when we made out in your bed? Can we do that again? But I do NOT want to fuck up that friendship she's the most special person I have.

To make it all a tad more complicated...I'm closeted. And I kinda have to be right now. I'm practising christian, super involved in my church and if anyone knew I just know it would have a bad affect on relationships. I know people will say that's their problem, but my faith is actually really important to me and I don't want to unearth all this trouble right now. I don't mind staying closeted rn, and both girls I mentioned have come from the same communities so understand. I'm almost 25, I can handle myself, my sexuality and the way I choose to express it is a private matter and I wanna keep it that way.

I know this has been a huge ramble. I'm so sorry for going on, I suppose I just needed to get it out somewhere and I've seen you reply to advice asks in the past. If you have any thoughts/advice I would really appreciate it 🥰

Sincerely,

A troubled lil bisexual twentysomething who's done the stupid classic movie mistake of kissing her best friend xoxo

Oh man, it sounds like you've been going through a lot lately. It never feels good to have your real, genuine feelings brushed off like that, even if the person doing it doesn't know any better.

Based on where you are with your questioning process right now, I think it's very important for you to have a support system--if you think your friend who's gay could be part of it, definitely reach out and test the waters with them.

Rambling is fine, don't worry about it. I'm only sorry that I don't have much more advice to give you. Stay closeted for as long as you like, and keep yourself safe out there, okay?

#asks #anons

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Still kind of confused, but I think I might have a similar phenomenon. For example, I don't really care about Mario and Peach all that much, but still feel that Mario x Peach is right and proper. I don't think that's quite the same as what you're talking about, but it's all I got, haha.

I'm a bit confused about the definition of hateship, but I don't hate Jarcaiah, I like it. Not necessarily in a very romantic context, but I think they're an interesting duo and like to put them together. It helps when it's one of my nonsensical Jarod redemption AUs.

Which make no sense, because he would never, ever reform. Dude is just too evil. But that's why we like him, right?

And would you stop liking the same things as me!? XD I like Hubernie, too! Not as much as Edelbert, but I am fond of it.

Yeah, that's basically what I mean! It's kind of like, I just accept it and see it as canon in the sense of, say, if I wrote a fic, it would be probably be there. If I was writing a Mario fic about whatever, Mario and Peach would just be together because even though I'm not really into it as a ship, I consider it something that's there and definitely not something I dislike enough to just ignore it.

Hateship isn't referring to the shippers! It's about the ship itself and is two people who hate each other (and typically in the sense that it doesn't get better, where they always hate each other at least in canon) but is for whatever reason someone's ship.

A redemption AU is interesting for him! I think it's possibleeeeee... but not something he personally would consider trying to do since at least in my mind, I don't think he considers himself evil. I think he sees himself as correct. Knows he goes overboard and stuff but considers what he's doing to be the right thing, since Daein was pretty horrible in the last war, so maybe to him this is their just desserts and they're getting what they have coming.

If you remember, the people of Talrega were pretty awful people. They may have been distressed, but they absolutely despised the Crimean army and blamed all their woes on them, and not the actual author of the war who caused all of it. They said some pretty nasty things, including the lady who vowed revenge for generations to come if she couldn't do it, and even made her sister go hungry instead of accepting food from the Crimeans. In Jarod's mind it's possible he's proud of being from Begnion and being a soldier there and just thinks this is what the citizens deserve, because the citizens were also pretty awful during the war. Obviously it's not that black and white, but maybe to him it is).

Also, I feel like Alder wouldn't have been so loyal to him or "felt a kindred spirit in him" if there wasn't anything there beyond just pure evil. A redemption arc could be interesting for Jarod because I think he actually saw the Daein people as scum who deserved what they got. Not sure if he needs redemption for killing some of his own soldiers though considering... they were also doing the same shitty things LOL.

He probably wouldn't reform himself at least regarding Daein. We don't know what he thinks of Crimea as far as like, would he kill their people and such too? Since their militaries are technically allies and the Crimean people aren't seen as "bad", etc, a sort of reform could be possible for him as just like... being better to others. To Daein people though, yeah, I think he'd always despise them and consider them below him.

BUT REALLY THOUGH LOL, he's just so funny when he's being an ass. I can't hate the guy when he's throwing out hilarious one liners like that.

Idk man, if it means us liking the same things means I can convert you to Shinaff, I'm all for it. :P

#DCB Ask #reneethegreatandpowerful

[bearinabandana]

Bro okay okay hear me out.

So there's a kid in my choir who's like... 5 years younger than me I think?

And I was talking to them, and they mentioned that they just started watching Doctor Who for the first time. Ever. With 0 context or prior knowledge beyond that it's the Alien Time Travel Show. And I went "oh I love that show! It kinda consumed my life for awhile haha." They've been essentially liveblogging it to me and I'm having a great time.

It is incredibly interesting to me to imagine that like... Some people exist who just Do Not Know About Doctor Who. That's such a novel idea to me because it's been such a fundamental part of my life for so many years.

I'm also having an incredibly fun time watching this kid go through the emotional beats of early NuWho for the first time. They'll send me stuff like this at 8:30 in the morning and I'm enjoying it so much

They just finished S1, and I keep having to bite my tongue and not immediately start going on about the Master.

Anyways. You're like... My oldest (or one of my oldest) DW mutuals, and I just wanted to share this moment with you because it is honestly low-key surreal. Feels like I'm passing my obsession on to the next generation.

Oh I KNOW what it is to meet people who don't know anything about doctor who, but actually meet people who haven't watched and are interested in watching?? surreal. Only people I convinced to go through a season got visibly bored and I got upset, so I gave up on that :')

I honestly can't imagine what would be like to watch series one with no context for the first time. I don't even remember watching it, I just assumed it always existed in my mind kgkkfhggjv

Also I definitely confused people while infodumping about doctor who and the master loll

ONE DAY I will too pass my doctor who obsession to the youngest, I just gotta find someone who is actually interested in the show and not only watching it because I like it

[olderthannetfic]

Hi! Anon here who asked you to clarify what the post meant: thank you so much! I really appreciate it. English isn't my first/native language so when I was reading the post I was just like "okay.. i know what all these words mean on their own :S but what is the point of the post". So once I read your explanation, it clicked.

And if I think about it, ultimately, I think I was getting confused because even though I was getting it somewhat (when reading the original op), I was already thinking with your 2 points in mind you listed that are missing and I was mostly just "what is this person on about? why can't we just exist and enjoy our porn in peace knowing it's porn and fantasy and stuff." Things along those lines.

"Plenty of actual fic content is regressive twaddle. That’s not the thing that’s special about fic at all! Many of the early acafans who waxed lyrical about how slash fandom was feminism or whatever literally just meant that women writing badwrong horny art and not apologizing was a big deal."

Yes, I agree. To me, fandom, fic and such things were always a place where I could go and be myself. Like I never felt bad about my fandom and fic stuff (or my kink stuff in general) personally but I knew that internet wise and IRL wise my experience of existence as a human being (I'm a cis female) was just different. On the internet, in fandoms especially, people just treated me like a person and I was listened to. And we could talk, exchange ideas/tropes and overall connect. In real life however, I would either be met with "you're being weird" or "hurdur it's always the quiet ones ;) ;) ;)" depending on the context, and with the first I can be like "ah whatever" but with the second one I gag every time. Let me just exist and vibe goddammit!

"But I will grant that I’ve seen plenty of idiots claiming fic is more woke than other types of iddy writing or calling fandom progressive or feminist or subversive without making it clear why they think it qualifies, and this post is a reasonable critique of those claims."

And I agree with this too. I've seen plenty of folks saying how sometimes fic is better than published novels for example, and while sure... someone could write a fic that reads better than some published novels... I recognize the fact that there's gonna be shitty (or whatever) writing both in fic and novels and it's nothing special. Shitty writing is shitty writing and good writing is good writing, whether it's in fic or novels.

Anyway, when it comes to the last part.. I'm aware of breeding kink haha, but like I already said. I think it went over my head because again, like you- I'm of the opinion that it's not transphobic because I assumed/knew that that specific type of fic was written by horny trans people who want that sort of content. I remember reading the quote and thinking "...but who else would be writing this? where are you going with this?"

I think my overall confusion is because I feel like I'm reading a comparison between two different things as if they're the same thing? Like in my mind, meta analysis and introspection all that is one thing and then porn you get off to is a different thing. BUT I guess I GET IT NOW (at least I hope I do, I'm so sorry if I sound like a moron), if they think those fics were written by people who aren't horny trans folks aka cis people who would be then stereotyping.

I'm so sorry this ended up being so long. But I wanted to thank you again so much!! I really appreciate it. You're amazing. <3

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Thanks, anon!

I don't know that poster, so they could mean plenty of things, but my guess about the meta vs. fic comparison is that they're thinking: "Man, people keep talking about fic like it can fix representation problems, only when I actually go to look for fic, all I find is porn I hate."

[rhythmgamer]

just very random out of context talking here haha

(TW FOR MENTION OF A PANIC ATTACK AND ANXIETY IN FIRST PARAGRAPH)

i. kind of just recovered from a panic attack. yeah my anxiety is really really awful and the thought of even facing tomorrow, facing life again was threatening enough to spiral me into an attack.

but im not here to talk about that.

i just. wanted to say that despite everything, despite having so many mental issues and not being able to do much about them (mostly due to financial reasons)....i....i have a lot of love in my heart.

yeah it's not at all related to whatever i said before but it actually is. i kind of find it incredible that im still able to love despite going through so much.

if you're reading this, i love you. if you're not reading this, (even if you don't know since you're not reading) i still love you. as long as you've had a positive effect on my life, as long as you've never purposefully hurt me, i love you.

it's not just people btw. i love trees, i love flowers, i love birds, i love ants, i love cats, i love foxes, i love almost all animals (except mosquitoes sorry i have personal enmity against them).

even inanimate objects. i love my plushies. i love my body pillow especially because i can hug it during my attacks to calm down. i love my collection of seashells. i love rice. i love rotis. i love ramen. i love garlic. i love water (this just made me drink some!), i love wind, i love earth and the feel of earth in my hands.

it's hard to say if i love what I'm studying, mostly due to shitty teachers who teach horrible and make me scared of the class. but the material? i love love LOVE it when i study on my own. i just. wish i had a better teacher.

do i love myself? that's an even harder question to answer. because....i simply don't really know who i am. it's hard to love a person when you don't know the person.

but I'll say this: the person residing in my body? they're an absolute badass for going through so much shit and still surviving. once upon a time they couldn't imagine even reaching the age of 16 (depressive reasons). they're still fucked up mentally, but hey, they're 20 now. I'd say I'm damn proud of them making it this far.

i know it's very very hard for them, even now they can't really envision a future. but they've made it this far. so i trust that they'll make it even furthur, and i hope they overcome their crippling fear of asking for help. hey buddy, if you're reading this in future, just remember that it's okay to ask for help ♡ nobody will belittle you or mock you or abandon you for it. and if they do, they weren't worth the time anyway. remember this okay? i love you ♡ (there i said it lol)

anyway, i got sidetracked.

in conclusion, i am so so full of love for EVERYONE and EVERYTHING despite whatever the fuck has happened to me all these years. sometimes i find it confusing, sometimes intriguing. but anyway, it is what it is.

i forgot the original purpose of this essay lol. i don't think anyone is reading it anymore at this point. but if you are, thank you for reading this. I'm gonna send you off with one of my most favourite mundane-seeming lines ever:

Goodnight, I love you. (~ Looking Glass)

#shashi rambling #♡ #put my soul into this #lmao

[wikiangela]

time for Lone star 4x01!

spoilers under the cut!

(some episode thoughts that got too long lmao)

aww I missed them so much

I agree with Paul, olives do ruin everything (like, fr, every single time there are olives I try one as if suddenly they tasted better, and every single time I wanna throw up lmao)

they're looking for wedding venues aaa I can't wait haha

not to be that bitch, but... oh my god Rob Lowe looks so good, the hair looks fantastic (like oh my god his hair 😍), and on a motorcycle?? wow, Owen has never been so hot 🥵

loving Carlos hanging out with his mama, and tbh this season all I want is to learn more about Carlos and his life outside of TK and the 126 (like, I've been wondering since at least s2 - does he have any friends outside of the 126, or Michelle in s1? like, does he hang out with his work colleagues, anyone else? what did he do before everyone moved there, aside from hanging with Michelle?? 😂 give me something 😂)

and here's Carlos!! the man I've been dying to see a whole 6 minutes since the episode started lol they could give him every single second of screen time and I'd be loving it tbh

tell TK what?? I'm so nervous lol but it can't be that bad if Andrea knows and isn't freaking out right? 😂

GRACE!!!! 😍 😍 😍 I got so excited when I saw her I heard and saw her I had to pause lmao - I missed her so much 😍

raining frogs... what the fuck is happening 😂

what in the apocalypse is this episode 😂

Carlos being married to Iris... I guess it might be an interesting storyline? not sure I like it though, and it doesn't make much sense in the context of s1, at least as far as I can remember 😂 (it kinda feels like they wanted drama for the sake of drama but weren't sure what to do with tarlos bc they can't break them up again, so they were like, fuck it, it doesn't have to make any sense) but whatever, let's look past this 😂

the frog in the throat is making me so uncomfortable I can't 😩🤢

well, I guess I'm happy that TK isn't mad or anything 😂 still, this came out of nowhere and it kinda doesn't fit to what we know - then again, we don't know much about Carlos🤷🏻‍♀️

that dude in the porta potty had some serious bad luck lmao on top of everything to land squarely in the tank of water lol

pls tell me that this season continues s3's Owen being just hilarious 😂 because I really enjoyed him last season, and I can't stop laughing at him now 😂 (also, he just looks so good? I'm sure it's the hair, something's changed idk 😂)

Carlos in that shirt with the necklace hanging out - oh my good he looks hot 🥵 that color looks so good on him fr 🥵🥵🔥

am i sensing something brewing between Tommy and Amenadiel from Lucifer? 👀😂 does that mean he's gonna stay? I kinda figured he wouldn't be a one off character when I recognized him tbh 😂

Iris looks so familiar and I'm not sure if I've seen this actress before or if she just looks similar to someone

not sure how I feel about her character yet, imma need more time to get to know her

what the fuck has Owen gotten himself into 😂 jfc that was..... lmao

so Catherine's gone? 😭 nooo, I love Amy Acker, I hoped she'd be back 😭

FBI?? now that's interesting - and where do I know this chick from??

sooooo, was that 1 tarlos scene supposed to be the "new fan favorite" like Ronen said? I'm kinda underwhelmed ngl😂

It was a great first episode, the calls really were something, and the personal drama is delicious though also confusing, I'm still not sure if I like the whole Iris storyline (not bc of tarlos, obvi, just in general it doesn't seem.... good? idk, maybe they hyped up the secret too much or smth but it's kinda meh - I've been waiting for more Carlos and his backstory since s1 so I'm kinda disappointed rn) can't wait for the wedding tho!

I hope Tommy will actually find love and happiness, and I wonder how this whole pastor thing will unfold

the most intriguing thing is probably Owen's thing right now and so far I'm not even mad 😂

well, those are my thoughts as I was watching, can't wait for the next one!

#911 lone star #911 ls #911 lone star spoilers #911 ls spoilers #911 ls season 4 #911 ls 4x01 #thoughts while watching #bucky barnes #long post

[moveslikeanape]

hey! it's been a few days again, since i still had a lot going on irl, but i'm the 🌟 anon--i thought i might as well come off anon since we've already been talking quite a bit through asks (which i didn't expect when i sent my first message haha, not that i'm complaining though). i hope you're doing well.

i agree heavily with what you said in your second paragraph. i don't know if you heard about this, but mark henn retired from disney last month, and he said on a podcast that he would've liked to stay until his 45th or 50th anniversary but ultimately his work just didn't feel meaningful anymore. and even though as i mentioned, i did enjoy encanto, i'm not really surprised. i think it says a lot about the quality of things lately that someone who worked for WDAS since 1980 and did so much important work for them would feel this way.

as for wish's songs, and specifically "at all costs", i read an interview with the songwriter the other day where she stated that she wanted that song to sound like a love song that could be played at a wedding, or a lullaby you could sing to your kids, so that when you see the movie and learn the actual context you're surprised by it. i suppose i can't say she didn't achieve her goal, but that's so far away from the purpose that songs in disney movies are supposed to serve! it just tells me that unlike phil collins or elton john, who wanted to write disney music, julia michaels just wanted to do her own thing and throw it into a disney movie whether it really worked or not.

some of the "art of" books are pretty detailed and have what i feel is a decent balance between production info and art, but others not so much... i've mostly enjoyed reading the ones i own for specifically disney movies, but the pixar art books i own tend to be very heavy on art and light on any other information. the hercules one is strange, though, because the author doesn't put much of his own writing into it, instead presenting the majority of the information by directly quoting the filmmakers, which makes it an awkward read. there are also comedic asides from the characters presented alongside lineart of them--for example, one page shows a reproduction of notes taken by one of the filmmakers, and below that is art of phil looking annoyed with text beside him that says "phil: yeesh, it's all greek to me! how am i supposed to read this chicken scratch?!". i've never seen anything like that in these kinds of books before. i did finish the art of animation book, though, and it was great! around 60 or so pages of it were dedicated entirely to the making of hercules and there were a lot of things in it that i didn't know.

to keep things on topic for your blog, i'd love to know your thoughts on the tarzan broadway show if you have any you'd like to share! i've always been a fan of broadway musicals but i don't know much about the tarzan one, other than that i remember hearing that terk was changed into a male character. which is interesting, because she was originally supposed to be a boy in the movie, wasn't she? also not the first time that's happened in a disney broadway musical, with the lion king again being an example here because of rafiki.

Hey, nice to meet you! I hope you don't mind that I followed you from my personal blog. And no worries, I completely understand life being busy… there never seems to be enough hours in the day. I'm doing well, thank you. Hope you are too!

I'd heard Mark Henn had retired, but I never heard what he said on the podcast! That's such a shame. It's hard enough watching this happen as a fan, I can't imagine being in his position.

Wow, that's completely insane about "at all costs". I'd probably be more confused than surprised, and even if I were surprised it wouldn't be a good one. And on top of that and the fact they're supposed to be written for the movie, they shouldn't be written with the intention that people would hear them before they see the movie… to me that seems like they truly did want them played on the radio, and have people want to see the movie to see what they songs about. I agree with you it seems like she just wanted to do her own thing, and also that she wants to deceive and trick her audience.

That's such a shame the Pixar books are like that. It definitely is nicer to have more info on the making of the movies. The Atlantis one is technically an "illustrated script", with a few notes here and there. Lots of great artwork, but I wish it went more in depth, especially about the Atlantean culture and language. I didn't know they did those comedic asides in the Hercules book! I've had it for years, but never actually gotten around to reading through it (really need to find some time to read through these books!) I'm glad you enjoyed the art of animation book though, and that you got to learn some new things about it!

As to the Tarzan Broadway show… I've been kicking myself for almost 20 years that I never saw it! I was in Albany on a trip during the Broadway run, but didn't have the time to make a quick side trip to see it, and been regretting it ever since. I also missed out on the production in Tuacahn, Utah last year (Josh Strickland reprised his role as Tarzan!) because I'd made a very big purchase around the time it was announced, and sadly couldn't afford to go. I did see a bootleg recording of it once, but it was so long ago I don't really remember it. Will have to rewatch it someday.

I know there were somethings that needed tweaking, but I'm not sure what could have saved it in North America. I know it's very popular in Germany (it's actually currently playing in Hamburg). Most of my experience with it is the album. I do love the new songs, especially Kerchak's "No Other Way" and Jane's "Waiting For This Moment". But my favourite has to be "Everything That I Am", when Tarzan learns about his human parents. If you only listen to one song from the broadway, I highly recommend it. The OCR has the one in the broadway sung by Josh Strickland, plus another version at the end of the album sung by Phil Collins.

One thing that's always bothered me is the song "For The First Time", a duet between Tarzan and Jane. It's basically Jane and Tarzan working through what they feel about each other and if it's reciprocated. There's nothing wrong with the song itself, I actually do love the song, it's just the subject and it's place in the musical. It comes after Strangers Like Me. In addition to the lyrics "Every gesture, every move that she makes…" etc from Tarzan, there's a new section in the song sung by Jane:

"I can't explain the way I feel Everything I wanted’s here And my heart is beating faster Every moment I’m with him I feel so complete I cannot deny what I’m feeling"

Which is sung to the same tune as "For The First Time". To me, that makes FTFT feel like going around in circles, it's basically an entire song to say what's just been said. I've always thought it would have been better to have a song where they both torn about what to do, a should I stay or should I go? song.

As for Terk, I've never read anything on why they decided to change her back into a guy. I remember thinking about Rafiki back when I first found out about Terk, they just can't keep their monkeys (apes) straight! I'll have to see if I can find out anything about that.

#strangers like me

[clotpolesonly]

hi! i hope you’re having a nice day/night. i saw your post about how having the same thought more than once means you enjoy thinking it, and i’m not quite sure that’s true. intrusive thoughts that are associated with trauma, OCD, ADHD, etc, are very distressing and also involuntary. it’s a tendency to be fixated on thoughts that distress you, which people with intrusive thoughts often do. i hope this doesn’t come across as rude, but i wanted to let you know that what’s described in that post might not be fully accurate.

as an AuDHD person with anxiety and prone to echolalia, i'm at least somewhat aware 😅 i had to go digging to find the (long-queued) relevant post cuz i was confused, haha, but yeah, you're not wrong. it's not the most inclusive post, intended more affirmationally (to make up a word) than anything else, and as a reminder to those who can (which is not everyone, but like those who struggle with anxiety and self-defeating patterns of thought) that it's possible to be conscious of your negative thoughts, challenge/reframe them, and practice replacing them with less damaging ones. that's a common therapeutic technique.

but it's not one that applies to everyone, every disorder, every symptom, etc. i can see why a post like that without caveats could be upsetting to some.

the post helps me because i tend to fall into self-victimizing patterns in my head where i insist i can't do things and think about what a burden i am to my loved ones. these are not compulsive thoughts, but i do have them a lot. and i'm trying to be better about noticing when i have them so that i can whack myself on the head with a metaphorical rolled up newspaper and remind myself that just because the temptation to self-sabotage and roll around in self-pity and self-fulfilling prophecies of helplessness is there doesn't mean that i have to give into it. i have to recognize the emotional benefit that i (feel like i) get from those thoughts and remember that it's not actually beneficial. helplessness feels like shit, actually, it turns out, when you really look at it closely. i don't enjoy those thoughts as much as i think i do. so i am training myself away from them.

basically, "when you catch yourself thinking things that make you feel like shit, knock it off, you don't need to be doing that."

so that was my mindset and thought process upon seeing and queueing up that post. for context 😅 but, again, i do understand why it would be unhelpful for people with truly compulsive thoughts. not all therapy techniques are appropriate for all problems. this one certainly doesn't work for that and can contribute to internalized guilt and shame for things that are not within their control at all.

sincere apologies to anyone who may have been upset or triggered by it. not all thoughts are controllable, you are not personally and morally responsible for every thought you have, and you don't secretly enjoy the ones that scare or upset you, even if they keep coming back.

#and the answer is #Anonymous

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #148

Have you ever seen an alligator? Yes, both in the zoo and wild.

When you first wake up do you check your cellular device? Yes, because I'll wanna know what time it is.

How well do you think you’d... work out, in a Christian school? Well this depends; my last college was actually a Christian college, but they didn't push any sort of doctrine onto students; I loved the school, even, they were great people. HOWEVER, if I was pressured into a religion by a school (isn't that illegal, anyway?), I'd get kicked out real fuckin fast.

Do you like Kanye West? Nope, not as a musician and DEFINITELY not as a person.

Do you have any lockets? No, I've always kinda wanted one though, haha.

Do you make kissy faces in pictures? ugh no I'd rather you just shoot me

Do you know your social security number (or equivalent) off by heart? At this moment, I do, but I very often forget the first three numbers.

Do you know a Stephen? I don't.

Green or purple? Purple.

Have you ever watched a meteor shower? No, I wish!!!

Has religion ever come between you and somebody? Yes. It's especially the reason I'm not friends with Mini anymore, because due to her faith, she was trans/homophobic and also extremely pro-life. Her selling pro-life stickers and stuff following the overturning of Roe v. Wade was the final fucking straw, like congrats for benefiting from women having their fucking lives ruined.

Ever have an ultra-sound performed on you? What was it for? Yes, something about my liver as a teenager, I don't remember the details. Everything was fine.

How long has your favorite animal been your favorite animal? Since 2005 when Meerkat Manor came out; I was nine.

When was the last time you spoke to your mom? Lil while ago in the kitchen.

Do you have an Instagram? I have three, one being a personal one and the other two for different types of photography.

If so how many posts do you have? None have a whole lot, but I don't care at all to count.

Can you juggle? Absolutely not, never been able to.

What’s your favorite color combination? Probably black and gold.

Have you ever seen your favorite animal in real life? Only once at the zoo in 5th grade. :( They moved them somewhere else afterwards.

Does your cat purr really loud? (if you have a cat) Haha yes, Girt refers to his louder purring as "lawnmowering" and it's so accurate.

What’s your mom’s name? Donna.

Do you have multiple friends with the same name? Not really "multiple," no. The only case where name confusion happens sometimes is when me or mom and Girt's family say "Ashley," because both myself and Girt have an older sister named Ashley. We kinda just have to use context clues to know which one, but even then there have been instances of not realizing the other Ashley was the subject.

Have you ever gotten up in the middle of the night just to talk to someone? No, but someone has done this for me, and I'm going to be pained for my entire life that I never got to hug and thank her.

Do you watch The Simpsons or any other cartoons? No.

What's your favorite kind of jam/jelly? Grape.

What have you last been diagnosed with? Hypothyroidism, officially, following some blood tests after being taken off my old thyroid med to get a baseline; it's apparently majorly severe, which explains a WHOLE fuckin lot. I'm on a different (and supposedly more effective) med now and will get more tests later to hopefully see it stabilize.

What was the last restaurant you ate at? Red Robin, for Mother's Day.

Do you believe in psychic ability? Absolutely not and it's infuriating that people are willing to scam generally vulnerable people like that. So-called "mediums" are even worse.

When did you last have pizza delivered? It's been a good while. I've been craving pizza actually, but I'm avoiding even suggesting it as best I can, especially after meeting my nutritionist and having fresh motivation to eat better.

What's your favorite decoration in your place of residence? I'm not sure, we have quite a lot of stuff up, especially in the living room.

Have you ever held a chicken? I know I've held a chick, but never an adult.

Are you hard to please? No.

What’s your least favorite genre of TV show? I hate those shows like Maury or Jerry Springer shit, stuff that puts people's private lives on display for ridicule and likewise purposes.

What’s your least favorite genre of music? Probably country. I'm not into rap either, but at least sometimes the non-vocals are fun or interesting.

What physical traits have you inherited from your father? Idk, nothing that is extremely obvious, at least to me. I'm pretty sure Dad was born dirty blonde though, and I was too, but his hair turned black and mine brown.

How about your mother? Height and general weight, but she's still smaller than me, especially post-chemo. Our skin is also similar, both in paleness and also freckling, at least on my arms. She has it more widespread and obvious than I do.

Which friend of yours has the prettiest, most unique name? I have always thought Alon was a beautiful name. I've never met or known another person with it.

When it comes to nose piercings, do you prefer a ring or stud? Studs.

Does your job have any restrictions on piercings and tattoos? What are they? I'm unemployed, and while I know there's plenty of people who would call it petty, I wouldn't take a job that perpetuated the "tattoos and piercings are unprofessional" shit.

Do you want or have your belly button pierced? It's not and never has been; if I had a certain kind of body, I'd absolutely get it done, but for some reason I'm really weird about me personally getting one at my size, despite the fact I'd cheer seeing another woman my size getting it done. I'm just very uncomfortable drawing attention to my abdomen.

Ever been in a physical fight? How did it go? Nope.

Do you like swimming? Do you have a pool? I like swimming a lot actually, I love being in water and even more I love the sound of it, I like watching light on it... but I don't swim a lot, partially because I hate getting changed out of wet bathing suits (and I actually wear swimming pants too because I don't want to show my legs, and THEY'RE the worst getting off), but also we don't have a pool. Growing up we did, but at this house and the last one, we didn't.

Is anyone you know racist or sexist? How do you feel about it? Oh certainly, especially here in the south; you see racism more, but both are fucking awful and I openly think you're fucking garbage if you hold prejudices like these.

Do you like mint-flavored gum? Yep.

If you house with your parents, do you pay rent to live at home? Why or why not? Do you know if your parents will ever make you pay rent? If so, when? I'm unemployed, so no. Even whenever I do get a job, I'm doubtful Mom would ask me to, but I'm immediately contributing whether she likes it or not.

Ever have sex outside of a relationship? No, that's not for me.

If a taken person pursued you and you were interested, would you do anything with them? No, I'm not going to be someone's second choice.

If you had a hot cousin, would you have sexual relations with them? Jesus Christ, no. Incest is majorly fucking gross to me.

Have your exes gotten better looking since you dated them? I don't know; I haven't seen most since we dated. I've seen a single picture of Jason in more recent times, in which he had full facial hair, but it was a candid photo at an angle so I couldn't really digest how different he really looked.

How often do you expect your SO to talk to you (either through texting, phone calls, etc)? I would be concerned if he didn't message me for an entire day, because we generally talk quite a bit throughout every day. I'd worry something was wrong.

How tall do you stand? Haha I found out the other day at the doctor I'm exactly 5'4.6'', so that's why I hear 5'4'' from some people and 5'5'' from others.

How many people are in your family? I consider my immediate/most base "family" to be my parents, two full-blooded sisters (I just don't see/interact with the halves enough... though I wish I did), my older sister's three children, and Girt, his sister, her son, and Girt's mom. Oh, and I guess Kim too, Dad's wife, but she will NEVER be what my biological mom is to me; I don't even call her "Mom" or anything of the sort, she's just Kim. AND THE PETS!!! Roman, Venus, and Cookie are all absolutely family in my eyes, and even Girt's dog Charlie that I haven't seen THAT many times is family to me.

What color is your keyboard? Black, but the keys light up red.

Do you have a laptop or a desktop? Laptop, it's a lot more convenient imo.

What were you doing at midnight last night? I'm pretty sure Girt left right around that time, but I was nearly asleep so am not totally sure.

What woke you up this morning? At some point my body did naturally, and I just barely dragged myself out of bed to go take my thyroid med (I have to take it at least 30 minutes before eating and my other meds), and then I didn't wake back up until Mom got me up for my psychiatry appointment.

Are you picky about who you give your number to? Oh for sure, I barely have any contacts in my phone.

Are you afraid of roller coasters? Yes, very.

Do you know anyone who suffers from depression? Yes, myself among MANY other people.

[TW: DRUG USE] Have you ever injected a drug? No, not into that whatsoever.

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? Definitely as a kid, as well as on Jason and Girt.

Of all your exes, which one is your least favorite? Sara.

Do you prefer to be cuddled or kissed? Depends on the mood; I'd always be up for cuddling Girt though, while I don't always want to kiss, but on the other hand there are cases where I don't just want to cuddle, either.

Your most recent ex says they still love you. You say… lol no she doesn't, this isn't a situation I can even picture.

Who was your first boy/girlfriend? Aaron was the first guy with the title, but Jason was definitely my first real significant other.

How did your first kiss happen? We were playfighting on his bed, he pinned me, so I kissed him.

Where did you meet the last person you were in a car with? She gave birth to me.

When was the last time you had a box of chocolates? What kind were they? Valentine's Day, from Girt. They were different flavors and fillings.

Of all your relatives & close friends, whose birthday is closest to yours? My youngest niece's, I think.

Did you have a cake on your last birthday? What kind? No actually, I wanted donuts instead.

Where do you think your best friend(s) is right now? He should be at home, unless he had to go out for something today.

What is your central philosophy in life? To act with love and that love is something worth fighting for, and that is in all forms, not just romantic.

What moral code do you follow and why? Treat others how I'd want them to treat me, and to never, ever hurt/kill someone unless in very literal self-defense.

What is the person you are most dependent on (your dad, the welfare office, your personal maid, your seeing-eye-dog, your mailman)? My mom. I feel like her kid that never truly grew up, and I mean that negatively. She never asked for a child that would always be a parasite on her.

What expletives do you use in surprise or irritation (swears, gasps, yowza, etc)? "Jesus Christ" and "fuck" happen the most I think, but sometimes "shit" or "god(fucking)damn" happen.

What are the five worst things possible to happen to you? Depression and mental illness as a whole + the suicidal ideation that comes with it, a traumatic breakup, way too many hospitalizations that didn't benefit me, my parents' divorce (in terms of how I handled it, it NEEEEEEEDED to happen), and honestly I think the muscle atrophy in my legs.

What is the worst you’ve ever been injured or sick (broken arm, cancer, hang nail)? A wicked stomach virus that had me puking relentlessly, I'm talkin' to where you're barely getting bile out and your abs are in agony.

What object(s) do you like to keep near you? My phone, more than anything else. I tend to like to have a drink of some sort too, I drink (not alcohol, just in general) A LOT.

Which one of your relatives is most likely to embarrass you? My dad.

#survey #surveys #random questions #personal questions

[nebelihood]

Hey arnold angst comic (written continuation)

Context: Arnold is on his room and called Gerald on th phone to understand better the situation.

How to read: "A" means Arnold, "G" means Gerald (disclaimer, sorry for my terrible grammar)

A: do you think I just started going out with helga cause she helped me save my parents?

G: oowwww, well-

A: Gerald!

G:What?!

A:Does everyone think that???

G:No! No,no! Your love seems genuine Arnold! I saw your kiss man! Fire! You don't kiss someone you dislike like that! Do you?

A: I guess not...

G: then? What's wrong?

A: Well- what if she was the only one with the "fire"?

G: what you mean?

A: I mean- what if it is true? What if the only reason why I ever began going out with her was because she helped me save my parents?

G: well- is it true?

A: I don't know, I don't remember- I was 12 and everything was crazy

G:You don't forget something like that...

A: My only past experience with love was lila, and that's was nothing, it's hard to know now...

G:... But a- well- what's wrong? What are you talking about anyways?

A: Helga and I had a fight

G: oww... And what happened?

A: Well, at first everything was going fine, we were feeding doves in front of my house

G: How sweet

A: ah- anyway... Everything was fine, but then suddenly she asks me to forgive her

G: forgive her for what?

A: that's what I asked- and then... You know... She said for... Bullying... For bugging me all those years

G:She did bug you a lot-

A: No- well... Anyways! The thing is I didn't know what to say, I didn't want to accept her apology, but not because I didn't want to forgive her but because It felt like if I accepted it, then I'd be admitting that it was a big deal how she treated me and-

G: Arnold- she did very crazy things to you

A: THE THING IS-! I didn't know what to say and I was starting to feel ill so I decided to go home and calm myself, but then she said that she wanted to ask me something

G: aha?

A: what I just asked you

G: Oh... What did you say?

A: I said no

G: Good! Way to go!

A: But then I sad I didn't know

G: ow...

A: And then she started going on about how I started going out with her out of responsibility because she helped me save my parents

G: And what happened?

A: I wanted to say so many things! She said it so angry at me(...)

A: And then she started going on about how I started going out with her out of responsibility because she helped me save my parents

G: and... is it true?

A: NO!... well- I DON'T KNOW?

G: Arnold, you know, you have to know, how wouldn't you know?

A: But Gerald- you are my best friend, do you think I would... do something like that?

G: Arnold... There are many things you'd do for the sake of others, but dating someone you don't want... I really don't think is one of them...

A: ...

G: I mean you did try to use my sister to be close to Lila

A: Sorry about that...

G: No! it's fine, I get it! But what I'm trying to say is that you are not a martyr! You do things that you want to do and you really like aswell!

A smiles: I guess... you are right

G: I remember you said you had this dream about Helga being nice and shit

A: Yeah... you know, Helga was so confusing to me back then! I really couldn't understand her! She could be so mean, but when you weren't looking, she could be so nice! And I never understood why, and that constantly passed through my head all the time…I guess… I’ve always wanted to meet that side of her… despite how confused I was with her… I knew she was really nice, and seemed scared to show it for some reason…

G: Bang! And that’s why you started dating her!

Arnold chuckles: I guess, haha… when I think about it… she apologizing after all these years... when things are going so well… says how much she’s actually a very nice person, trying to make things right!… I just didn’t know how to react

G: Yeah

Arnold slaps forehead: Now I feel like such an idiot!

G: You’d never catch me saying “I don’t know” if Phoebe asked me why we started going out!

A: UGh…

#hey arnold #hey arnold angst #arnold

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what's the weirdest stranger things theory youve heard?

Well there have been so many different theories over the years, ranging from the plausible to the outlandish. So since there are so many to choose from, I'm just going to pick three theories that I remember from my early days in the fandom, in the pre-season 2 days of 2017. So whether you're newer to the fandom and these are new to you, or if you were here to see these going around and these are giving you war flashbacks, here are the theories!

1. The first theory that came to mind when I saw this question was the iconic #pregNancy theory. Oh boy, this one... This theory came about after one of the trailers showed this shot of Nancy crying in the bathroom (which we now know is from the scene at barb's parents' house.) Soon a theory popped up of Nancy having an unplanned pregnancy in season two. Because obviously that's the only reason a woman could be crying in a bathroom. I think this one turned into a joke pretty quickly but it still remains a memorable early theory.

2. This second theory also came from a shot in a trailer. In the season 2 super bowl commercial, there was this brief shot of El crying, which was from the scene with the fight between her and Hopper. There was a cut in the middle of the clip, the two parts shown in these two images below. This was the first time we saw season two El, so there was some confusion, with people not sure if this was her or not. So a theory emerged that in that clip it shows both Mike and El, with there being some upside down alternate reality shifting stuff going on; with that being El in the first picture, but it shifting into Mike in the second one. Or was it the other way around? I don't quite remember. But anyway it was a theory for a bit but looking back now knowing the context of this shot, it seems a bit over the top.

3. I don't have any photo evidence of the third theory so I'll just try to explain it in a way that makes sense. So a bit before s2 came out, there was the launch of a ST mobile game, where if you managed to collect all the collectibles, you got to watch an exclusive new clip, which was that clip of the boys trick or treating as the ghostbusters (i beat that whole game in a day cause i wanted to see that clip so bad and i swear i sprained my thumb in the process or something haha.) But anyways, as the game went on, you unlocked different characters from the show to play with, and Max was one of the last ones, being a new character in the show. And all the characters had a special power/benefit to them (el had her powers, lucas had a slingshot, hopper had a gun) and if i'm not remembering totally wrong, Max also had these some sort of powers, which had a different animation to El's but still worked in pretty much the same way. And since we didn't know much about her backstory, there were a ton of theories of Max being one of the lab experiments with powers of her own. There were various theories related to this, one I remember well being that she was still involved in the government program and sent undercover in Hawkins by Brenner to help recapture El. Obviously this turned out not to be true (her having "powers" was probably just the game developers not knowing what to do with her character and just reusing El's power) but that was a theory I was on board with for a bit before the season actually aired.

So yeah, those are some early, vintage theories from back before season two. I'd love to know if anyone else remembers these too, if you have something to add to what I remember, or if these are all new to you?

#answered #anon #st theory #kaisa talks #it was fun going down memory lane for this #the s2 hiatus/promo season was the best time #we thought it lasted forever but now with hindsight... #we really had it easy back them lol