#I’m so fucking scared to go home

[nope-body]

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#I’m so fucking scared to go home #and that feels like a betrayal. #because my parents said that they loved me. that they love me. but it never really felt like love #I felt like a doll. a puzzle piece to complete their nice little family #and yeah maybe absence makes the heart grow fonder but I still don’t fucking trust them until they own up to how they’ve hurt me #and apologize. and mean it. and then change their behavior #but the thing is? I don’t know if they even remember all the times they’ve hurt me! #and so much of it is neglect too like. how do you get someone to say they’re sorry for not doing something when they don’t remember #not doing it? #and I know they’re going to just want to say a blanket sorry; blame my emotions on me; and want to move forward #because that’s what they keep trying to do any time I try to get them to acknowledge how they’ve hurt me #like do you know how fucked up it makes a kid when their parents never tell them that they’re proud of them until they win a medal #at a state competition in middle school? do you know how much that can fuck a kid up?? #especially when they’re constantly being told that they’re disappointing their parents or when their parents keep getting angry at them #and they’re always told to do better but never how? never shown compassion when they’re struggling? #do you know how fucked up it makes a kid when every time they cry in front of their parents they’re yelled at and told to stop #because they don’t get to cry about x? #or what about when the only two options when your parents don’t like something you did were too get yelled at or yell back #(and then get yelled at some more. and if you try to leave for any reason you will be physically dragged back to the conversation) #what about mistakes that you make over the years never going away? you get yelled at over the smallest thing by the time you’re in #middle school because you’ve already been making mistakes for years and it doesn’t fucking matter how long it’s been since you last #messed up- you’re going to get in trouble and it’ll be your fault because if you’d just fucking learn then you wouldn’t get in trouble #or what about being yelled at when you’re too quiet but not listened to when you’re loud enough but you can’t not speak because you’ll get #yelled at for that too #or just knowing that your parents don’t care about you. they care about your grades and your accomplishments. #or never feeling like they loved you or supported you #that fucks a kid up. that fucks a kid up a lot and even when they stop being a kid they don’t stop being fucked up #even when they get out they’re still fucked up and now I have to go back! #I am so so scared to go back

[thegaycousin-upgrade]

I am scared and mad and sad and tired. I’m not sure which I am the most.

Let’s say it again for those who didn’t understand:

No matter how bad you want to say Hamas is willing to compromise, they are not.

They are not ACTUALLY close to a deal with Israel because they will keep moving the goalpost.

This antiemetic terrorist group must be stopped.

A ceasefire will not happen!

A ceasefire CANNOT happen.

You don’t want a ceasefire do you?

You want ISRAEL to stop. You don’t consider the many ceasefires they have had with Hamas that Hamas has broke.

You will say that the Jews are colonists despite being native to Israel.

I am sick and tired of Jews again and again and AGAIN having to defend their right to exist.

I am scared but I will not stop.

I will not let what has been happening to my people for centuries happen again.

The world is filled with hate and antisemitism.

Jewish community and love can defeat it.

It will defeat it!

#israel #hamas is isis #fuck hamas #i stand with israel #free palestine from hamas #pro israel #Jews are native to Israel #i’m so scared #please #bring them home now #let my people go #destroy hamas #no ceasefire

[laniemae]

Could John start hurting himself in trial 3?

TW FOR SELF HARM

So I’ve got a lot of theories for trial 3 and stuff but this is the one I want to talk about first since it was the one that stuck out to me most yet I haven’t seen people talking about the possibility

I actually wrote about this theory quite a while ago which I’ll just link to but I definitely do think it’s very likely but hasn’t been discussed much.

For a brief summary of the post I made it’s a theory on how John may have self harming desires but doesn’t physically hurt himself as he’s afraid of hurting Mikoto. Basically it’s how the reason why Mikoto’s clothes are so tattered is because John has been ripping them apart in another way to harm himself but not physically hurt Mikoto. Heck, there’s very clearly bite marks on the clothes so I highly doubt it was from the fight with Kotoko. And as well as just ripping his clothing it probably explained the breakdowns John is said to have at night especially in that one minigram where Es heard on it and there was a lot of crashing sounds and stuff breaking, even ripping sounds which definitely matches with what I was saying. So John does all of this in a method to self harm as a stress reliever but not physically harm Mikoto.

So here’s the trial 3 theory. As of recently Mikoto has stopped denying John’s existence as everything he’s seen in heard it’s just too much for him to deny anymore. And instead of that he’s began to hate John so much and blame him for every bad thing that’s happened, even going as far to blame him for what happened to Mahiru even though it was very clearly Kotoko’s fault. And with John, he loves Mikoto. Dedicates his entire existence to him and despite all the constant trauma and suffering he’s endured the only thing that keeps him going is the possibility that Mikoto will love him and praise him for saving him.

“Hey now, I saved you, right? So why in the hell are you crying?

Cling to me, hoist me up as your "savior", stand up and sing out your gratitude, that'd be good.”

Judging by these lyrics, it seems John is somewhat aware that Mikoto is denying his help but still wants to believe it. Even Neoplasm he says how Mikoto’s entrusting him with his heart, which can either be he doesn’t fully know about the hatred or is denying it. But what I’m really worried about is how much Mikoto loathes John in trial 3 and what he could do.

As I said earlier John dedicates his existence to Mikoto and I couldn’t explain how John may feel after he would realise his hatred for Mikoto  aside from his entire existence being denied. I already discussed this in another theory but for John to so deeply love Mikoto and dedicates everything to protecting him and only holding on with the possibility of approval and being told he did a good job, only to be met with unimaginable hatred from the person who he idealises as someone who could never hate anyone must be devastating on so many levels for John and… you can tell where I’m getting at here.

So what would happen next? Could perhaps John feel so betrayed by Mikoto that he could go to actually physically hurting himself out of conflicting feelings around Mikoto? Loving him like that but feeling so betrayed and hurt that he just tries not to care about Mikoto any more and harms himself out of both previously established coping mechanisms and spite?

It’s hard to tell here, as John is one of those characters who it’s very hard to predict what would happen next so who knows what he might do. I just believe this may be the most likely based off things that have been implied and established.

And just to address a potential elephant in the room is I highly doubt John would disappear in trial 3. That’s not how it works, and just because Mikoto may not be Guilty any more doesn’t mean he would be relieved from all stress so John definitely would still have his purpose. And I think it’s most likely why John claimed that he would disappear was that he believed Es hated him and wanted him gone, so he claimed that he would disappear if Mikoto were to be voted Innocent as a way to sway Es to that verdict. And there are lines such as “I’ll play dead even if I’m alive right?” And “can’t get rid of me now” that definitely imply that he will stay or perhaps pretend to go dormant which perhaps would be interesting as we’ve seen him masking as Mikoto in the minigrams before so it would be interesting if he does that in trial 3 perhaps. And side note even though this is kinda cheating theory wise but it would be stupid to remove John from the story like that so uhhh.

#milgram #mikoto kayano #John kayano #john milgram #tw sh #tw self destruction #I just wanna say I’m sorry for bringing up such a dark subject matter like this in a theory sense #It’s just when writing about the darker themes in milgram I always get scared I’ll offend someone by how I talk about it so sorry #But trial 3 is certainly gonna be crazy #This theory is one I’ve had for a while and thus easier to write but I’ve got a lot planned #Like it definitely seems like how in trial 2 kotoko was the main antagonist/one causing conflict and it definitely seems #That in trial 3 amane will fufill that role #Which I mean I am uhh really exited about that because Amane’s my favorite and I love character who fuck up everything #But from everything we’ve seen the whole thing with fuuta and Shidou she’s going to be the one starting the whole chain of events #And there’s definitely a lot of theories on people who could suffer or be injured because of everything #Definitely Haruka but that would be from himself #But from the amane thing potentially Shidou if she or fuuta attacks him #Maybe mahiru if Shidou can’t treat her if she’s injured which could be really bad I’m actually very worried for her #And fuuta if he goes too far deep into the ideology and actually takes off his eyepatch but that’s kinda hard to predict #And as I said it’s definitely likely that mikoto would be hurt but at the hands of “himself” rather #And with kotoko I have absolutely no clue how she would react to the guilty verdict but that unpredictably makes it more exiting #I’ll have to talk about kotoko and the others in a separate theory because it’s so complicated but aughahhan hiatus brain no #And kinda off topic with the mood that I’ve kinda set with this post #But looking and analysing the lyrics of meme and double for this post #I found it pretty funny how John is actually really affectionate when referring to mikoto #Like of course the “snuggle together and say good night” lyric which is funny because how that does not fit John normally but does make sen #And in double he uses words such as basically “welcoming home” mikoto and in those freeze frames whispers of good morning #Which one again is really funny as edgy boy misanthrope John has said almost uwu fanfiction stuff canonically #But it totally makes sense to his character which makes it all the more funnier but kinda fucked up as from what I’ve said in the post #Why am I talking about something funny like this? Maybe I’m just too worried about talking about dark subject matters I’m sorry

[exhaustedwerewolf]

when the dnd session was so insane you’re like “damn I want to rewatch that bit” but you can’t because it was not an incredible fantasy film but just you playing make believe with your friends

#INSANE SCENES THIS EVENING #dialogue echoing in my head includes: ‘resurrection isn’t my strong suit’ // ‘then make it your strong suit’ #‘oh darling! don’t scare me like that. come here. let’s go home.’ // ‘what the fuck have you done?’ #‘(laughs) oh yes. I’m sure if all those people had just had a sword and a shield that things would have turned out differently. I’m being #lenient but my patience is running out. so spare me the insult of your sword. cunt.’ #‘ten million is a big number. it should feel different to one body in a cage or one hanging from the rafters but somehow it… it feels the #same.’ #genuinely stopped typing to do a despair event horizon stare into nothingness #our dm can cry on command lads and he was weaponising that today :’) #so many unbelievably fucked up things happened I cannot believe it and I am having a conspiracy theory board moment trying to make sense of #it #DnD #so many other moments I have written down but can’t remember verbatim but also WHY DIDN’T THEY ASK ME… IF I WANTED TO LEAVE #@CASUALAGRESOR IF YOU ARE READING THIS HOW DARE YOU I AM SO SAD

[sapphicsnzs]

im so grateful for this corner of the internet where i can just get my frustrations out

#self obs #i will delete this later but i just need to get it out #i told my two best friends about how i got rejected and they both were just like move on lol #like i don’t think they realize how awful i feel right now like literally that was my dream and im scared im never gonna be able to do it #i also somehow have to tell my parents and that’s a whole different problem #my parents are already up my ass about me quitinh my job for no reason #well basically i think they’re trying to get me to move home for the summer which doesn’t make sense to quit my job i’ve been working at #for almost a year to come back and get a job for a month #but like i can’t think of another reason that my parents would randomly want me to quit my job #so i’m stressed about that and now i also have to tell them i got rejected and now i can’t start the part of my degree that i need for my #fucking job and fuck i’m so stressed and don’t know what to do #and im just like so embarrassed and everyone is acting like its not a big deal even tho like if i apply again i probably won’t even get it #because i didn’t even make it past the interview phase and anyways im just so upset with myself and everything #i like actually thought my life was turning around and i was gonna be happy finally but nope #anyways this is just me sobbing and trying to let out my frustrations because no one will actually listen or validate that i’m upset #whatever im gonna go drink some wine and probably pass out on the floor of my room

[inusmasha]

Also side note if you come here (or anywhere tbh) and try to take a pic of someone else’s baby without consent best believe that I will be there to rip your stupid face off and eat it

#this fucking idiot who calls themselves an influencer because she has a popular fashion blog and mailing list #came out of treatment and saw the baby in the stroller #mom went to the br and left baby in MY care #the idiot approaches going AWWW (which scared the baby bc this idiot is being loud???) #THEY TAKE THEIR PHONE OUT TO TAKE A PIC OF THE BABY’S ONESIE #bitch lol no. #quickly I say ABSOLUTELY NOT and slap that hand away so fucking hard that phone went flying and weirdly popped out of its case #the mom comes out and the baby is upset and so is inflcuencer person #influencer doesn’t know what to say bc mom kinda saw I guess? she got the jist of what was going on and proceeded to tell the influencer- #in thee most polite way that she did not approve of HER CHILD BEING PHOTOGRAPHED BY A STRANGER???? #let alone a stranger with an audience???? THE FUCK???? #not on my watch BITCH #I’m LOOKING for reasons to let out years of pent up rage!!! GIVe ME A REASON!!!!!!!!!!!! #where is your common sense??????????? #I will literally devolve into a monkey and obliterate your ass #that child is not content #boss isn’t happy that it escalated that quickly but idc no paparazzi allowed here #take your cracked case and go home 👋🏼 and stay there #the fuck is wrong with people

[pumpkinpaix]

I have to eat something for dinner gbffhfhfhf but I’ve been struggling to do shit all day and it’s not getting any easier >< maybe I have a lot of crackers and cheese and jam and fruit?? That’s not a terrible idea

and maybe an egg??

#sob #cyanoupdates #it’s bc I’ve been dragging myself inch by painful inch through preparing for this trip #I’m going to have fun I’m going to like it everything will be fine #however: I am so fucking stressed oh my god #I want to stay home and hold my cat and not have to think about socializing for a week straight #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #it’s expensive and I’m scared and i feel guilty and I want to give up #this happens like every fucking time and it’s like come on #I know I’ll have a good time #I just have to convince myself of it for a few more days

[twinksintrees]

i’m so tired all i wanna do is cry

#i feel. Bad #i’ve felt off almost all day #i hate rhis #this #i don’t like change i don’t want my show to be over #fuck #i know i will go back and do more shows and i’m not scared of losing that #i’m just #attached to This show and the routine i’ve built around it and i’m prepared for That to be over #i’m gonna cry fuck this #saturday is going to destroy me #ramblings of a henry #in other news theater people are the best people #i love everyone so much #the crew is so sweet and welcoming and i feel so fucking supported and at home already #i’m going to miss everyone so fucking much #i know i’ll see them again but still. i’ll miss them :(

[paradisetemporarilymisplaced]

wow I hate everything abt the world

#this is about everything and nothing in particular. just one of those fucking days #I hate that there’s a fucking genocide and that joe fucking biden is going to lose this fucking election bc he’s fucking aiding and abetting #I hate that republicans are actively voting to make raped children give birth and that Trump is going to be fucking reelected #and that will be fucking national policy #I hate that some (white) bitches like to get up on their high horses abt how sexism isn’t a big problem for white women bc woc have always #had it worse #this is objectively true but it is also ok to acknowledge that white women have also been seen as property for hundreds of years #and have been blamed for being raped and forced to marry their rapists and been institutionalized bc their husbands said so #and have had no economic power and have been reliant on men for literally fucking everything until Extremely recently #YES this is all magnified for woc but it is so performative for white women to write screeds like this #on a fucking goodreads review (hypothetically speaking) #wow! I am angry about everything!!! #normally I can keep it in check but tonight it just one of those nights when I cannot. and here we are #also on a much more micro level! I hate that my dog was bitten by another dog and now is hurt and scared of other dogs! #and we can’t do almost anything to help her! #and I hate that all I wanted for dinner was pizza from my favorite spot in my hometown but that is 800 miles away #and I hate that I would love to be near family again but they live in a red state that is actively trying to overturn the will of its voters #and I hate that my husband wants to move back to his home state which is even redder #and I’d have to leave my job that I love and move to a state with much more existentially terrifying policy #and I love working for the state government but I sure as hell wouldn’t want to work for THAT state’s government #it’s just all bad I’m so pissed

[binders-and-beanies]

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#cops tw #bro I cannot handle one more thing happening istg #got pulled over on my way home after a 13 hour day #was already scared to drive at night and that just confirmed that I’m right to be scared #it was for running a red light n it was one of those situations of just not having time to stop on yellow #I was fully aware as it was happening that I was either going to slam on my brakes in the intersection or run a red and I could see the cop #so I knew I was getting pulled over either way I just hoped the yellow would be longer than .5 seconds. not so lucky #except I also Am so lucky bc he let me off with a warning #ig bc I don’t have any sort of serious history + with it being 420 once he saw I was sober he prob went easier #it’s the second time I’ve been pulled over in my life tho and it’s scary bc this is the first time since the accident #which maybe that was also ok bc it wasn’t my fault #I just know every warning or unlucky moment costs u more in the future if u happen to get unlucky again #like I know I got out of that bc I’m white. it was still a scary moment bc there were multiple cop cars #so it’s like is this guy abt to ruin my life am I gonna lose my license for being at the wrong place wrong time #when I’m already salty to be driving this late involuntarily #so it’s like I got unlucky And very very lucky #I just hate the confirmation that u can get pulled over at any given moment #I constantly rehearse every possible convo w cops in my head bc if u come off disabled u can die #or get arrested or whatever #and then they like don’t follow the script and u didn’t expect this to happen to u today anyway and I get flustered #anyway my point is. I’m fucking exhausted and too many things keep happening #it’s long day after long day w no end in sight rn and I’m like half asleep every day #I just want to sleep. without feeling like I’m already tired tomorrow #it’s too much. just all of it #and on top of it all. it’s 420 so the whole dorm building is basically a cloud of weed #happy u guys are having fun but u are physically harming me in my home #mine #txt #vent post #personal

[fellhellion]

Ngl, I’m not entirely sure where the “Miguel and Hobie hate each other” reading comes from, when from their like. One interaction i don’t personally get the impression they think much about each other at all shdhdjfjf

Miguel seems kind of exasperated with Hobie sure, but the tone of that interaction is relatively lighthearted. It’s more of a joke that by virtue of Miguel being a stringent rule follower, Hobie not caring overly much about those rules exasperates him. And Hobie knows it annoys Miguel and thinks that’s funny, thus prodding him again with the “I’m not even here/nah still here” routine. But there doesn’t seem to be like, genuine personal anger on either side. Just an ideological divide that actualises even further when Miles’ very existence provides another answer to the overhanging stakes.

#I have like. a different post I’m writing talking abt how I think miles actually gives hobie hope and that’s an interesting way to read #their little dynamic #but for the purpose of this post - I get the impression hobie and miguel clash ideologically more so than any personal feelings for one #another on both sides. miguel is vaguely exasperated by a guy who flouts rules but he’s not pissed at him or anything #whereas hobie seems to take specific issue w the idea of having to do things a certain strict way #and this is what he cautions miles about leading up to the intro w miguel #hobie is all about asking WHY you should be a part of certain structures and systems #but I think his beef w miguel and spider society is more on the level of going I don’t like the idea of bowing down to fear of a cosmic #force and not saving people because of that and I’m preparing to dip from that structure once I’ve made a watch for Gwen so if she wants out #she can still choose to help people. #it’s more concern and critique about the harm Miguel + the society stands to perpetuate out of fear by adhering so strongly to this framewor #framework* of canon (this hobie going 😬 at the go home machine) and how that harm stands to land directly on someone like miles by virtue of #the way the system operates. and it operates that way BECAUSE of fear of canon backlash #and of course someone like hobie is going to go fuck that I don’t want to be holding off on saving people and stringently pursuing canon #conformity because I’m scared #wow I’m just detailing the other post I’m making shdhdjfjfj #but yeah the tail end of THAT stream of thought for me is that I think while hobie was disillusioned and critical of this system its #actually miles that gives him hope of being able to change it when he saves the police officer #idk. a lot of extrapolation but I like to think on why hobie agreed to join and why he stays and how he interacts w the society despite #being deeply critical of it #it’s interesting #tunes talks spiderverse

[cetoddle]

GOD. this guy came in after i already ran his reservation as a no show and i’m trying to figure out what to do and he’s yelling at me like SHOUTING at me and i’m scared and my managers not helping and i don’t know what’s going on

#scariest thing that’s ever happened to me #i was doing everything i could think of to get him checked in and he’s just screaming at me #and i’m trying not to cry i was on the verge of having a panic attack i called my manager #and she was NO help and hung up on me #i was hoping she would stay on the phone with me cause i was so scared #she made ME call the systems customer service to fix the reservation so i was just holding back tears visibly shaking on hold with customer #service when the fire alarm panel starts beeping at me #and i didn’t know what to do #it was chaos it was hell i’m fucking miserable and still shaky #i wanna go home so bad i still feel like crying #snow.txt

[starlooove]

It’s not even voting Duke over Guy; Guy is crazy. It’s all these illiterate braindead bitches fighting to prove they’re THEE child left behind providing the shittiest reasons ever to excuse their own racism with themselves and their just as stupid followers. Like that person listing the reason every batfam member is insane and ending with ‘6. tim Drake’ I’m so sick of it you WILL be dealt with.

#yknow what tho #for the tim Drake thing #pretending tim Drake came from an abusive home is proof of lack of imagination and BORING #I think it’s so much funny when character’s like tim and Duke just go that route #even if they had never met Batman a day in their life it’s bc of who they are as people that you know they’d end up wrapped in this shit #at some point somehow #saying ‘oh tim was in an empty house and had to latch on to cope’ removes so much agency from him and his choices #and it’s so fucking predictable #and it’s worse that it’s predictable bc fanon chose that route and canon didn’t #CANON gives him more depth than y’all do it’s so embarrassing #it’s as if fandom decided widespread that dick should be scared of heights bc it makes sense #Like ur literally so fucking boring #also I’m not saying that person in the tags believes all this #just a note on fandom perception

[abigail]

how do people know what they wanna do honestly ? like even if they don’t know for certain what they wanna do they’re like.. oh I like doing X so I’ll do that for now.. or it’s like oh I’m interested in Y so I’m gonna do that !! like.. how do you know what the X and the Y is.. ??? for real ????

I feel like.. idk. I’ve always changed my mind too quickly to pick something and then in school/when I was a teenager when they were like right ok what’s everyone gonna do I was just alarmed because damn. I didn’t think about that ? I guess ??? and then I saw everyone else had some vague idea of something they might want.. but I didn’t have any clue.. and then because I was a teenager with bad anxiety and shit I just began to overthink and overthink and overthink

and here I am at my big adult age still overthinking it and telling thousands of people on my little blog because I’m scared that I still don’t know what to do,, and I’m scared I’ll never ‘figure it out’ or whatever and I feel like I can’t talk to anyone else about this because they just don’t get it. but I know sooo so many people can relate like I know it’s not just me !!!! but I still can’t help but feel lonely with these feelings and it still eats away at me constantly.

#like seriously how do people think ‘oh I enjoy this I’m gonna do something about that’ because idk … I get scared I over think #wanna quit my job and DO something but god WHAT ?!?!!!!!!!!! #and I feel like I don’t have time to explore anything I wanna do because I’m constantly working but I can’t have less hours because #I can’t afford to work any less than what I do #and yes ok I have days off I have time after work but like.. #I’m so exchaused after work it feels so exhausting #my social battery will be dead and then I have the fucking laundry or whatever and I’ll just wanna rest #and I don’t have time to work on .. whatever . #ough ‼️‼️‼️ #sorry for rambling .. feeling sad about going home tomorrow I guess lol #a

[rosicheeks]

💖

#kinda just want to have a bunch of friends and cool people over #and have a lil party #and watch xoxo #and get super fucking high #fuck maybe even trip on shrooms #fuck me that sounds so SO fun right now #I have shrooms in the trunk of my car and they are officially a year old now and I’m so so so SO sad I never used them #I’m kinda scared to use them now? #but idk I still might sometime #it’s just I don’t want to trip alone #I don’t think that would be a good idea #especially since I don’t wanna trip at home with my parents #and definitely don’t wanna trip in my car #the sad part was I bought them for my last bday #I was going to trip with my boyfriend at the time (ex now) #and he actually FINALLY asked for the day off #but guess what #he got sick #and we couldn’t trip #so again I spent my bday alone #that time I don’t blame him cause I mean you don’t decide to get sick #it just sucks so so so so much #I guess the part I do blame him is he never planned another day #like I was like ‘oh it’s fine we can just trip and celebrate another day’ #and then it just never happened #and now I have a BUNCH of shrooms in the back of my car #and I always think about how much money I wasted 😭 #that’s the main reason why I haven’t thrown them out #I mean obviously I wanna see if they are still good #but also don’t wanna throw them out cause that’s literally just money in the trash

[strohller27]

People: oh I love Albuquerque! It’s so nice here I want to raise a family here

Me:*gets held up at fucken gunpoint working at a hole in the wall pizza joint a few years ago*…*gets stuck at work tonight after 9pm because there’s cops with assault rifles outside looking for an active shooter* okay but consider this: fuck albuquerque

#it’s really going downhill here fast #I’m just chillin’ under my desk like a good shelter-in-placer #yeah this is happening to me right now #best part: we have an alert system that’s supposed to alert us by text if there’s a situation like this. #I received no texts #so that was fun trying to leave and being told to go hide #also: question. HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHEN I CAN GO HOME IF THEY DON’T USE THE WARNING SYSTEM #fucken A man #honestly I’m more mad than scared #I hate living here ​I want a refund #albuquerque #posted: 1 December 2022 10:02pm