#I’m not sure I’ll ever get over this

[justasopearchive]

Something was in the water that day…

Hoseok said: “you know what? Being coy is for losers, I’m about to get very real right quick.”

And I respect him for that. This is also the most viewed moment from the YouTube video…

…and bonus because I love this so much:

#And hand claps for Tae for making this moment happen #you go glen coco #just a sope archive #sope #suga #hobi #hoseok #I’m not sure I’ll ever get over this #Unless they do it again 👀 #yoonseok #yoongi #jung hoseok #min yoongi #just a sope archive oc #Yoongi is better than me because we would’ve kissed #Fuck these cameras FR FR

[anna-scribbles]

h-how do you ever finish any of your work? genuine question because you seem to be productive despite your agreste syndrome and I need to learn your ways. but also how do you ever finish any of your work

unclear. last night i stayed up and finished a report worth 25% of my grade at about 5am, arrived on time for my 9am lecture, and spent about half of it zoned out while thinking about seventeen year old emilie agreste. and i was one of the most active participants in the class discussion

#in some ways it IS the move to go to grad school right out of undergrad #because your body can still sort of operate like a college kid #i’m on about 3ish hours of sleep rn and this morning it felt SO over but now i’ve eaten something and we’re so back #i also don’t really do caffeine. except sometimes i’ll go get one of those panera death lemonades #i might be able to snag a short nap before work #but anyway about seventeen year old emilie. i was thinking abt how she was in that movie solitude and adrien said she was seventeen #WAIT. NO. HE SAID SHE WAS SEVENTEEN IN THAT PHOTO ON HIS DESKTOP NOT IN THE MOVIE #well. okay whatever i’m gonna tell you what i was thinking about anyway #OKAY i’m back i just checked the wikipedia page and then i watched the end of gorizilla. to make sure i’m not lying. because i’m normal. #anyway i was thinking about the solitude film and how it’s super rare and old and obscure and whatever. and how apparently #emilie wrote it herself and andre produced it #and i’m thinking about how gabe was discovered by audrey and that’s how he got his start in the fashion industry #so now i’m like?? did gabe and emilie first meet on the set of solitude? because gabe was designing costumes or whatever? #and that’s how audrey found him? have people already thought about this?? #also i just checked and it doesn’t say emilie’s last name in the credits and also it’s ‘graham films’ with the twin rings logo m #so i’m assuming she’s still emilie graham de vanily at that point #anyway it comes back to seventeen year old emilie because i started imagining seventeen year old runaway emilie having her new life in pari #after escaping her british nobility life #and the first thing she does is write and star in an original movie. of course. #and she meets this repressed bisexual punk upstart costume designer who is so the opposite of everyone she’s ever known #and he’s immediately so unhealthily obsessed with her. which she appreciates. #and then they proceed to have the most toxic doomed evil relationship of all time #also she gets cheated because once gabe gets money he represses himself SO hard that he is now exactly like all the people emilie grew up w #but at least he’s still obsessed with her #this is what i was thinking about during class today. i don’t know how i get anything done either. #ml #anna rambles #asks

[alangdorf]

Oh ya speaking of sewing. Updates to old projects I forgot to post: new blouse & apron for the dirndl, and I added a smocked panel + some barely visible blue embroidery at the hem to Ephy’s pink dress

#sewing #dirndl #elfilin #I made the new blouse and apron like over a year ago LOL #I had originally wanted to make them out of eyelet cotton but got cotton gauze when I was buying materials because it was way cheaper #Mistake. Turns out I hate that stuff and it’s soooo bad for poofy sleeves #and I didn’t finish my edges all that great so I was scared it would disintegrate if I ever tried to wash it #so last summer I finally got some eyelet cotton and remade them #I think I never posted the finished Ephy dress because I wanted to also make a bow to go with it #haven’t done that yet though and it’s been awhile #I’m not sure how easily I’ll be able to wear the dirndl again nowadays without remaking the blouse again (for reasons) #but I did get to wear it on our honeymoon!! we went to a little German-themed touristy town and had a fancy dinner and went shopping #we also did hiking and an amusement park. and Pokémon go #and a lot of driving lol #also yes that smocking is incredibly tiny #I wasn’t sure it would even be physically possible at that size but it worked out yippee!!

[commander-gloryforge]

mental illness

#i think. uhm i think and this isn’t good #but i think my recent lows are like. affecting everything including my ocs #a ‘nobody will ever be able to love me’ is also turning into a #‘nobody will ever be able to love my characters’ kinda thing #i have this thing where i just randomly decide nobody likes me out of nowhere and just disappear because i think it’s ‘for the better’ #which obviously. this is not true. i know it’s not. but it’s still a thing that just happens sometimes #especially lately my emotions have been all over the place. there’s just a lot of loneliness but then i let myself be lonely because #some part of me still thinks i deserve it #not good! it’s not guys it’s not sooo good #granted ive had a busy last week so naturally i didn’t get to interact with my friends a lot #i forgor where i was going with this #anyways recent worries of me being unlovable have transferred to my ocs #i don’t think they have what it takes to be loved just like i don’t have what it takes to beloved #like father like child kinda thing #oh well it’ll get better some time i’m sure! #i’m confident that this will pass but for now i’ll just have to live through it. which is fine! #dios wisdom #vent #rant #i suppose

[alagaisia]

I’m reminded of that post about how goths and people who wear only lots of pink are actually the same because “wearing only one color” is a specific choice in opposition to just looking Normal

I’m flying to a friend’s wedding today, and I recently acquired from my neighborhood free page a very pretty vintage suitcase in like a brocade upholstery texture in all of my good colors, so of course I needed a coordinated airport outfit à la Midge Maisel. You guys don’t know me, but I usually dress very put together, in what my sister calls Outfits, with a capital O to distinguish it from just wearing clothes. And since getting a full time job I’ve been slowly adding to my collection of vintage and 50’s-vibes clothes, because I just really like that aesthetic (my bridesmaid dress for the wedding is a vintage tea dress I got from Etsy. The fabric is in great condition but I had to reinforce pretty much every seam with my sewing machine, because the structural integrity of the original thread was breaking down, so that was an interesting learning experience).

All of which is to say that I Dressed Up for the airport in a vintage-y outfit that coordinates perfectly with some of the colors of my suitcase, and my hair is curled, and I have a vintage leather purse that my grandma gave me that matches her watch that I’m wearing and the shoes she bought me last summer at the same vintage store that my skirt came from, and a teenage-ish girl with whatever you call the 2023 teenage equivalent of emo/punk vibes, like the dark maroon mullet and not a lot of makeup and dark comfy clothes but like, very on purpose, told me I look cool when I walked past on the way to security

And like, she Gets It! We have different fashion goals but I think we put a similar degree of intention into the way we look compared to just wearing regular clothes. Which is cool! It’s validating. Not that I really need validation, but it’s always nice to get compliments, of course. And the way I dress is really not terribly distinctive most of the time, other than being Outfits and a little dressier than maybe the norm is, like I think most people who see me one time in passing would see that I look Nice but not necessarily see it as a cultivated Look. But punk mullet girl gets it.

#struggled with not sounding *too* pretentious here #I don’t feel pretentious but I have a hard time talking about like. specific choices and things in any detail #like to my friends I just said what happened with a picture of my outfit and was like ‘and she gets it!’ and they were like ‘yeah!’ #but to strangers I have to go into much more detail to get the point across #even though really it’s not like I’m putting all of that into it every day I just get up and go ‘i want to look nice today’ #in accordance with my personal fashion preferences #and then having to explain those preferences like ‘my name is alagaisia midge maisel darkness way and I’m wearing vintage whatever’ #i do look so cute though #i got these shoes last summer and then lost the heel cap off of one of them the very first time i wore them #finally took them in to have them fixed last week so I could wear them to the wedding #needed a deadline so that I would actually get around to it #i hate flying it’s really a testament of how much I love my friend that I’m flying #instead of driving ten hours to Nebraska #but it made more sense and to make sure i won’t be late or run into car trouble or anything #and I’ll stay looking nice right away instead of getting gross and sweaty in the car or having to change for bachelorette activities #i only know the bride so I’m definitely going to make a very specific impression on all of these strangers lol #i joked with my dad about adopting a trans Atlantic accent for the whole weekend just for shits and giggles #turns out you cannot do it over the top. have you ever listened to JFK’s ‘we choose to go to the moon’ speech #it’s very silly sounding #we had a good time saying things one might say at a bachelorette party in a goofy voice #‘we cho~ose to ohdah thihs maiule strippah… ahnd the othah things.. nawt becahse it is easyh.. #but becawhse he is hahd’ #highly recommend #mine #personal

[overbearingstruggles]

Thinking about this and you know what’s fucking annoying is that I’m sure Mark almost never gets asked about Simple Creatures. Because it’s slated as a Big Deal for Alex to work with this influential star while it was some unimpactful, kitschy side project for Mark. A step up for Alex and a cute step down for Mark. I always understood that boring framing but I continue to detest it, considering it was mostly the ATL fans upholding the excitement, less of a leap for us than what constitutes your average elder male Blink/Mark fan, but just because those people didn’t get it doesn’t make it any lesser a passion project for Mark or uninteresting because those fans who are still allowed more credibility didn’t rally.

#I guess I’ll never stop rolling my eyes at the initializing of Alex in this moment #tbh I don’t follow Blink press and if Mark ever does get asked about SC lmk! but I’m sure a pull quote would trickle in if he had #I get that people go nuts over the og Blink lineup so that takes all the air too but ala Chad Gilbert’s annoyance of exactly that #let’s give credit to the bands that stayed consistent and didn’t have inexplicable drama actually!! #txt #seeing the world through ATL lense means everything blink is getting filtered through that I’m not sorry #Simple Creatures #rambles

[zappedbyzabka]

Ignore everything I said last night ty.

#idk i might unprivate it later when I will probably get worked up over everything ever again #I mean. it already was ignored but lmaooo #I’ve bitched and bitched all week #Do i feel that way? yeah. do yall need/want to know that? Nope. #Im going to shut up do my thing and hope people keep enjoying and that I get over things. And if people leave and my time is up #then I’m not sure. And if I get sad again. thats just how I’ll feel and no one else needs to know. #In the end. Kitchen Nightmares and my friends exist so I’ll be happy #I shouldn’t focus on the little things since its impossible to avoid on here. #I’m glad I have followers and likers that got my back #i am GRATEFUL

[buff-muffin]

Wrote 5K words in nothing but notes planning out a OP AU/fic idea from start to finish. Now all that’s left is to get my unmedicated ADHD ass to actually write it.

… were probably not gonna get past chapter 6 but t least I planned an ending this time :D

#none of my fics besides one shots ever get finished #im not even up to date on one piece #I might have to re write all my planning later #I’m not even sure if I’ll post the story #I’ll try though #I’ve been brain rotting over this story for like two weeks now #one piece #one piece fanfiction #my writing is super rusty #anyone got tips for writing cause I need it… #rambles #fanfic writers

[deityofhearts]

ya know it’s honestly funny and weirdly comforting when my friends call me a fake gremlin or green tea bitch because like despite that they still love me and like having me around

#deity dialogue #idk like I’m the past I’ve struggled a lot with like ‘performative positivity’ where I wouldn’t ever let myself be anything other than peppy #24/7 even when it was exhausting and I wasn’t happy #and then irl I deal a lot with being treated like an idiot and infantalized and so I’ve in an attempt to make myself feel better #started to lean into it like sure make whatever assumptions you want about me I’ll find a way to benefit from you treating me like this #I’ll pretend to be an uwu sweet angel if that pleases you or whatever. #but like it’s also nice because like around my friends and loved ones I can have actual emotions other than happiness 24/7 #that being said I still talk like an elementary school teacher I cannot change this I’m sorry #that’s not fake I just talk Like That I know I use and excessive amount of exclamation points and question marks this won’t change lmao #I also like to think I’m somewhat peppy and social? sure my social skills suck ass and I’m terrified of everyone ever #but I also love to talk to people and hear from people I’m just kinda at a point where I struggle to even reach out first to most people any #more. it feels like if I try to maintain contact or reach out first that I’m overstepping and should be killed in sight lmao #so again sorry if y’all don’t hear from me much or at all it’s not anything y’all did I just struggle a lot and idk how to not T-T #I have to hope that someday it’ll get easier #rn the main thing helping is the reassurance and patience from ny beloved friends <3 I love my friends sm #the tags r all over the place sorry I’m half asleep

[vcrnons]

thoughts on TWS, the new pledis boy group that's debuting in january?

i mean. the only thing i know about them is their name, so i was probably the worst person to ask this to im sorry 😭

#💌 - mailbox. #💝 - nonnie. #svt seem hyped for them and very brotherly already which is very cute #im still very new here in the grand scheme of things so like. I don’t know how this works #but I haven’t seen really anything about them at all so it’s difficult to have an opinion at this stage. ygm? #like. I hope they’re not all still actual children? or at minimum i hope if they are a young young group that they are looked after well #and if their music is good I’m sure I’ll give em a listen! I wish good things for them for sure #it’s just. and this has been the case with me personally for years. I struggle when artists are very very young because all I can ever think #about is like. this young person is surely very talented but they could not buy a glue stick or a pair of scissors #and then I get the yikes thinking about how much pressure they’re facing meanwhile when I was 15/16 I cried if I ripped my tights. yk #and the industry seems very competitive and people online can be brutal over the tiniest little things #I went on a tangent. anyway #sorry this is probably miles away from the answer you wanted nonnie😭 i just don’t know anything 😭🩵

[alexalbongf]

i may not know anything about astrology but i am a virgo (like esteban) who was in a codependent and eventually toxic best friendship w an aquarius (pierre’s star sign) as a child so. i do think i am qualified to give my opinion

#like yeah i get it i get a lot of it #when u go from being notorious for chit chatting and laughing in class to seeing each other in passing and not even acknowledging #that’s a different kind of pain tbh… #she was very bad to me that’s all i’ll say but also i know i could’ve been a better friend #and to make matters even more like pierresteban the reason we drifted was bc of competition but for us it was in school #yeah i mean i hate her and i’m pr sure she hates me but i think if she asked me to do her a favour or if i ever had to absolve her of a #mistake i would do it. and she would do that for me as well #like in crazy rich asians someone was like ‘when u grow up w people u tend to make excuses for them’ #ok sorry guys class over. good bye #beep.txt

[zivot]

What is YOUR Roman Empire?

»A little life« by Hanya Yanagihara

#like you don’t understand how much this book will break you until you read it yourself #I’ve never before slammed a book against my head while tears were streaming down my face #and I think I’ll never experience that with a book ever again #this is truly an… experience #about 10 months later and this book is still always in my head #always contemplating on starting to read it again - a book with almost a 1000 pages! #but if you think I’m recommending it to you this way: no #read the trigger warnings before starting it and be sure that those topics will be harshly mentioned especially sa #sh & physical abuse #way too long rant #but I’ve just thought about what my roman empire would be through a tiktok & now I see this ask #asks #thank you anon #I’m just sad that this book has put a standard on how I should obsess over a book afterwards and nothing got to catch up in any way #like yes I’ve read great books but did I look for fan art - went to a copy shop to get perfectly neat prints of scenes from the book that a #STRANGER HAD TO HAND ME WHILE LOOKING VERY ASHAMED AND CONFUSED WHY A YOUNG WOMAN WOULD HAVE GAY FAN ART IN HER HANDS - and then proceed to #tape them on every matching page where this exact scene was mentioned #and have like 200 book tabs in it #if anyone has book recs that made them this crazy ; please let me know

[seventh-district]

*puts a photo of me in between two random photos i took of the sky today, not because they go together whatsoever but simply so any poor soul that happens to scroll across this post won’t be jumpscared by one giant image of me taking up their entire dash* :)

also yes those are the Everything Stays shoes that i wear far too often and i thought about Moon and flustered my damn self when i was putting them on today and if you want to know why i thought of him specifically… well, you’re just gonna have to read Ch. 4 of ES when i post it on Thursday and you’ll find out 😊

#Seven.txt #my face #i love how i use the my face tag as my catch-all selfie tag and then. you can hardly even see my face in the pics #anyways. *wears my daycare fit to my root canal appointment bc i am a fucking clown for letting my tooth get this bad* 🙃 #also it’s just very comfortable and i like it. but yeah! 4th dentist appt. out of 7 is done and dusted!!! #yes it’s 7 now instead of 6 because of course it is. of course it is. #it’s fine tho. i think today was the worst of it and it was overall a very fine time! i once again had no need for the sickening amounts #of anxiety that kicked my ass for the last two days prior to the appointment. as soon as i got settled in the chair that weird haze #of Calm washed over me and everything went well! but does my anxiety care about that? does it learn? no! never! #so i’m sure i’ll be sick with fear again the next three times as well but oh well. what can i do but suffer thru it #anyways if u wanna know what burning trees smell like and hear a disconcerting sizzling noise coming from ur mouth just get a root canal #it’s fun it’s a really great sensory experience (/i am Lying it is Not a fun sensory experience. take care of ur teeth and avoid the pain) #it’s lighthearted though it’s really not That bad. like i could tolerate it totally fine but it’s also not. fun. it’s just. Unplesant #anyways on another note i think i’m developing a crush on my dentist’s assistant lmao #like not Really but like also that’s not a complete joke. like. do u ever meet someone and just feel like you’d be friends #like it’s not something you’ll ever act on but you can’t ignore the feeling regardless? #it’s wild bc they look So fucking similar to someone i used to have a brief weird thing going with #like they both have such distinct eyes/facial features that i’ve never really seen on a lot of other people #and they compliment my hair and i compliment their tattoos and they tell me about the latest movies they’ve watched while i’m laying there #in the dentist chair for 50 minutes waiting for the dentist to finish with an unexpected drop-in patient #and they open the blinds to see what the deal is with the screaming old people outside the windows and they crack jokes and ramble about #their travel plans and they struggle to mix the temporary filling paste into the right consistency and they apologize for their handwriting #on the appointment cards they give me and i tell them it’s good handwriting and i mean it and Oh No i’m romanticizing my dentist visits. #aren’t i. lmao ANYWAYS i’m that dumbass that falls for every single person that is ever nice to me at all ever it’s fine i’m normal #the dentist delay was nbd btw i’m one of those freaks that actually enjoys waiting and also it was a bit of an emergency #for this mennonite mom and her son with an abscessed tooth so like who could be mad abt that #i’m never making another afternoon appt. again tho cause holy shit they get busy. i was in the waiting room for 30mins alone #1hr appt. turned into a 2.5hr appt. :) but it’s fine i just read fanfic on my phone to pass the time. and you’d think it was a dca fic #based on my clothes but no it was BG3 Astarion x Reader Hurt/Comfort bc i’ve latched onto a new blorbo this week and can’t get enough #so i’m obsessed with this traumatized vampire elf now but that’s a story for a different post’s tags

[novelconcepts]

It’s really something else to try to focus on finances and yard work and whether or not we need a new roof, all while the constant threat of a fascist removal of any and all rights i hold dear just, uhhh, hovers stage-right of things. Really just. The kind of adventure that most has me craving boredom, tbh.

#current events #like yoooo not sure how I’m meant to hide? if it all goes to shit?? #I’m legally on record as being married to a woman #and even if I wasn’t I like. i look so gay dude #my entire online history is gay. my house is full of gay. my life is recorded in rainbow ink. #so I’m sitting here thinking about HYSAs and buying a new toilet and what kind of job I’ll get in the near future #and about the silly books I write and the silly things I love doing #and there’s just this omnipresent shadow over it all #until I feel like a human panic attack #and like. this is just it? i guess? this is living? because the people in charge sure ain’t gonna fix it #i crave consequences for awful people but jt just. just feels like all the consequences are saved for people who are just living their lives #and that is. uh. bad. to live through with no end in sight. #(so uhh yeah. begging US folk to vote blue. begging US folk to fight back. begging US folk to hold those blue folk accountable.) #(cuz I am. really beginning to lose…any sense of hope I had) #(and that plus the most helpless in my personal world I’ve ever been? bad. bad combo.)

[yuribalisms]

I think it is finally time to bite the bullet and begin the long and arduous process of getting my slew of illnesses (mental and physical) diagnosed so I can actually pursue treatment and/or accommodations with jobs because I uh, cannot do this shit anymore

#I am so tired of dragging myself to work in severe amounts of pain and misery #because if I don’t I’ll get fired #I hate doctors and any time I have ever gone none of my concerns have actually been addressed #(granted I have not gone to an actual doctor in like 8 years and they never listened to me because my mom would always talk over me and #claim everything was fine but ya know) #my migraines have become dibilitating and I’m like 95% sure I have endometriosis #not to mention the insane combo of adhd depression and ptsd that leaves me a mess more often than not #and obvi none of these things are being treated #plus my job literally DOESNT LET me take time off like it’s dead ass NOT ALLOWED #since I started there has been ONE time I got more then two days off in a row and I had to scrap and claw and beg and plead for that #so I can’t even call out because of these issues more often than not #because no time off and they only give me SIX HOURS of sick time a month #and when you work EIGHTY HOURS A MONTH that is quite literally NOTHING it’s not even a full day #and I…. just simply cannot keep living this way I feel like death more often than not #and I am too exhausted to do quite literally ANYTHING #so yeah…. I think I’m gonna have to actually find a doctor and a psychiatrist and get some of these things clinically diagnosed so I can #pursue some kind of accommodations #otherwise I’m gonna fucking lose it #kaz rambles

[fingertipsmp3]

The way I thought I killed my succulent when I dropped him but now he’s sprouting flowers/tiny friends (I’m not sure which) 🥹 succulents really give no fucks huh

#i bought this little dude from a farm shop just over a week ago and dropped him a few days later while attempting to repot 🥲 #mabel saw me with my vulnerable plant in my hand and decided it was a beautiful time to crash into me and try to capsize all of us #but i got him in a new pot and left him alone for a few days to come to terms with the trauma #i’m watering him once a week but i’ll gradually lower the frequency once the weather starts to get colder #because he doesn’t need any water at all in winter #i need to get him some siblings! now that i know what i’m doing i really think i should start a succulent garden on my windowsill #i’m sure i’ll go back to that farm shop soon tbh. they have the cheapest eggs ever #the only thing is i might not be able to resist buying that bell pepper plant if i go back there. #personal