#I’m just so scared and stressed

[skiitter]

Lmaooooo my dad is fully in the hospital and I’m actually extremely concerned he’s gonna die and my mom will be 100% fucked if that happens and like I simply have to keep functioning at life even though this is happening.

#he has Covid and he keeps fainting because his heart is fucked up #if my moms best friend can’t come get her tomorrow she will literally be on the street #spent the last two days ferrying her and their dog around and spending money I absolutely don’t have getting them hotel rooms and food #poverty is forever #it’s a cycle that cannot be broken unless by sheer luck tbh #because poverty begets more poverty by way of debt #my five year wedding anniversary was today and we spent it doing this #I’m just so scared and stressed #literally cannot take any time off work to handle this #suffering in hell etc etc #I also missed my last two days of nanowrimo so that’s fully abandoned #anyway if I’m MIA this is why

[pangur-and-grim]

it’s hard for me to feed myself right now (just in terms of physical ability), so my mom drove me and the animals to her place. she carried the cats in first, because I had to butt-scoot up the front stairs, and once inside, Pangur got scared and ran. she’s tucked herself away somewhere, and nobody can find her. I probably could, and I could lure her out and make her feel safe again, except that I’m largely immobile. I keep falling on the crutches and fucking my leg up further, and the likeliest hiding spots are up or down a fleet of stairs. it’s been 4 hours, and it’s killing me not to look for her. I’m so tempted to crawl down the basement stairs, broken leg be damned.

#I have bad object permanence and anxiety #so my brain is saying ‘she’s gone forever’ #she’s definitely in the house but I’m getting scared bc worst case scenario is that stress has brought on a medical condition #and that she’s stuck somewhere and needs help but I can’t get to her #I know she’ll probably just come out later in the night once she feels safe. but it’s hard to lie here like a lump waiting

[bleue-flora]

"He has friends, Tommy. I'm right here. I'm his friend... What are you gonna say about that? You think I'm not his friend?" — Punz —

Thought it was only fair that I do c!Punz after doing c!Dream, so here he is, ready to fight anyone who messes with his friend. And yes, just like with c!Dream all of his Minecraft skin elements and colors are apart of the design in one way or another.

#and on that note… speaking of punz XD #ah and now you see why I've had such punz brain rot I've been working on this for like months... #blue does art apparently #once again so insecure... i so despise doing people... but also I wanted to do a more unique punz design ya know #dsmp #dream smp #post people is so stressful…. but damn I’m pretty proud of the face. I was really scared of doing it #dsmp art #c!punz #staged duo #and if you’re wondering yes ideally it would be fun to complete wanted trio… but I’m honestly not sure I have the skill to do techno… #punz fanart #dsmpblr #c!stagedduo #c!drunz #dsmp punz #shoutout to the person who I can’t find the comment/post on about punz always being in just a boring hoodie #I hope you like the different take <3 :) #that quote still kills me… #pandora's vault

[chirpsythismorning]

Lover’s lake byler this. Eyewitness byler that. Aren’t y’all scared?

#byler #full disclosure I’m not scared #bc I love angst and I know neither of them are dying permanently #but the stakes are insane it’s gonna get really close to death for a lot of the characters… #I know some of y’all who aren’t as confident they won’t kill a main are scared as hell when this topic comes up tho #so just fair warning #lovers lake might be beautiful #like yeah maybe lord of the rings/killing eve hands clasping in the water beautiful #but it could still enter tragic territory #granted tragic with a happy ending so don’t get stressed over it 😭

[shepscapades]

When i very first started reading this I was really excited xisooma was in it but was a wee bit disappointed in how littel he was, BUT I TAKE IT ALL BACK YOUR SERVING ME SOME GOOD STUFF!! Like like him and doc prioritizing each other and him seemingly getting closer with him and eaaaahhhhhhh thanks :>>

EEP yeah!!! Yeah, I’ve very much fallen in love with xisuma throughout this process. It’s been a joy to have him so prominent in this part of the au, and I love him so much, so I must give him the special angst treatment >:]!! If this is any consolation, Xisuma strikes me as someone who doesn’t SEEM as strong or intimidating or scary as you might expect because of how soft he speaks and how kind he is and how DERPY he is, but throw him in a stressful situation and he does a total 180. Let me just say that, if it were anyone else being slammed to the ground like that by a blood thirsty corrupted android, they would not be doing so well. Xisuma is strong— way stronger than he lets on, imo. He’s holding Etho back from doing who knows what, and I think that’s plenty impressive. HES EVEN ASKING IF DOC IS OKAY WHILE HOLDING ETHO BACK!!! Idk man I have a lot of feelings about him

I’m also really happy people are noticing him and doc prioritizing each others’ safety. It’s really special to me 🥺 I just think they should be research partners who care a lot about each other!!! That’s all!!!

#dbhc #dbhc ask #ask #anon #dbhc xisuma #dbhc doc #listen don’t get me started #xisuma is goofy and kind and little bit empty headed when it comes to certain things but #again #put him in a stressful situation and he goes 180 #not that I’m currently writing him frustrated and stressed and scared and high on adrenaline #and am learning that he is so absolutely the type to get totally fed up with something and sigh and grumble and #I’m fine about xisumavoid #not that I think he would maybe do the occasional curse in mental narration #but yknow #I just think he’s a complex character and someone should (try her best) to do him the justice he deserves #DRBNDFGBKCGHN #okay I need to shut up now

[theguardianace]

it should be illegal to feel like this on your birthday

#i really loved my morning i got such nice gifts from my mom #and it was nice to just have a morning off #but that was honestly the worst class i’ve ever been in #i was trying to talk to my professor but my voice sounded so off #i’m so stressed bc i’m so behind i don’t know what to do it’s not clear at ALL #i think he’s assuming everyone’s done something like this but it’s not true!! i’m a sophomore and everyone else is a junior or senior #and i was trying to hard not to break down and i think i made it #but now i’m in my room and i need everyone to shut up #i want to take a shower to calm down but i can’t bc my roomate is here and she knows i already took one today #and i don’t like that i’m 20 i’m scared of growing up #and im homesick im always homesick in the back of my heart #i just want a hug honestly

[seraphicalsuccubus]

2024 is kicking my ass already ??? bro like fucking come on

#my heart is so heavy I just need a break #I’m so tired and stressed and anxious constantly #it’s like the pit in my stomach has embedded itself in there and the tightness in my chest won’t leave #I either sleep all day or not at all. I can’t eat. I can’t function. I just want some fucking peace #I had a meltdown for like 4 fucking hours during a bad bipolar episode last night and nearly sabotaged my relationship because I’m terrified #of everything. of leaving. of being alone. of having to rely on him and him only. I’m scared to do this but I want to #I’m excited to leave and start over but I am absolutely freaking the fuck out about it

[angeltannis]

A patient who thought I was “laughing and gossiping” about her came back today to speak to my boss, my boss’ boss, the director of the department, etc and said she’s going to go all the way to the president of the hospital to ensure I get fired. I’ve been stressed to hell about it, but the one upside is that dozens of people who work in my departments, some I don’t even talk to that much, have approached me to say they’ll defend me and that I have nothing to worry about. And it feels like the ending of MLP where everyone they ever befriended shows up to help them defeat the bad guys

#I’ve seriously been SO worked up about this that the stress threw my back out and I’ve had heart palpitations all day long #the stupidest part is that I was just filling my colleague in on the patient’s situation- #-what we were laughing about was my colleague telling me how she likes to torture and kill off her Sims lmao #the lady’s trying to invoke HIPAA which doesn’t apply at all in this case but hospitals get REAL scared about that kind of stuff #and my supervisor didn’t have my back at all lol #so like. I’m scared #at least a bunch of nurses and MAs and secretaries are on my side

[angelzai]

having a very rough time and i just want kisses and cuddles from dazai

#tw vent #relapsed last night and i just feel so so so fucking terrible #i am safe and okay #just #so stressed about everything i have to do between now and the end of the semester #sad about my life changing constantly #love my friends so much and i’m scared for our relationships to change #trying very hard to be excited and happy but i have so much anxiety #reid speaks.ᐟ

[sapphicsnzs]

started crying over a tik tok…turns out i have a low grade fever

#self obs #if you’ve seen the orange cat black cat tik tok which is so niche but oh well #anyways i cried and tears keeps rolling down my face like im so dramatic when i have a low grade fever #i’m so tired but i’m scared if i go to sleep im gonna have really awful dreams #i’m just overthinking everything right now and i’m so stressed i just need to cry it out lol #i’m gonna wake up in the morning and realize how dramatic i am like it’s barely a fever get over yourself

[allofuswantgwinam]

it terrifies me the way so many people keep living without even batting an eye about the genocide that’s happening right in front of our eyes. i will never shut the fuck up about this.

#from the river to the sea #free Palestine #im so fucking pissed rn #was just havin a conversation with my mom and it did not go well #and i want throw up and cry #she makes me so mad #she knows this is wrong #idgaf if she’s scared of trump. idgaf if this is stressful and scary to her it is to me fucking too #which is why I will not ever stfu about this #or ignore this or forget what is going on #and live in comfort #I think the fuck not #I wanna fucking lose my shit rn but I’m not bc that won’t help anything #she’s already said before ‘I don’t have to know anything to know that it’s wrong’ so fucking accept what I have to say then #i pay attention #I know wtf is going on. let me be your fucking tool to help with this instead of getting upset with me!!!!! #she is being a coward #she knows this isn’t right. she’s being selfish #i understand it’s hard but like that’s why we fight #that’s what drives you. the outrage and pain you feel watching innocent people get murdered #I can’t understand her rn. im so done with people her age

[swordmaid]

my pc is still ALIVE ….!!!!

#I was so scared that bc the power supply got jacked it cooked the motherboard but it’s still fine…!!!! it’s just the power supply that #needs replacing omg I’m gonna cry I’m so happy 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #finally a fucking win after a couple of weeks of STRESS

[dahldahlbills]

I really need to get serious about personal projects again

#I think I said something like this last year too lol #currently in a weird headspace about it #the biggest reason why I lost focus on them was bc I prioritized engaging in fandom #(something that I never really did when I was focused on publishing a few years back) #so part of me feels like in order to make considerable progress on projects again I need to cut myself off from fandom #and I kinda have been weening myself off a bit from animanga but not really for that reason #it was mostly bc I was getting overwhelmed by how much I was consuming and I wanted to appreciate things fully #I don’t think I’d cut myself off from fandom completely either I’d still try to keep up with stuff #but the idea of not engaging in fandom anymore kinda.. scares me? #idk I feel like a major loser admitting this lol #it just feels like I’d lose a lot of connections with people #and would lose a lot of the love I have for stories if I’m not actively interacting with them :( #and then there’s also that stupid feeling of being a ‘fake fan’ because I’m not dedicating every single second of free time to fandom #which is dumb bc like I have a life and need to make money yknow I got things to do #im just Stressed bc I’m at such a critical stage career wise and im getting closer to 26 so hhhhh healthcare coverage will be up in the air #so I really can’t afford to dawdle #there’s just so much I wanna do and while I’m not necessarily racing to get it done I still want to take advantage of the time I have #but it also sucks feeling like I’m giving up a part of myself to progress on another part of myself #I don’t think any of this makes sense sorry I just needed to dump my thoughts bc I am Terrified™️ #anyway personal projects! gotta get back to those ! #blahblahbills #delete later

[pumpkinpaix]

I have to eat something for dinner gbffhfhfhf but I’ve been struggling to do shit all day and it’s not getting any easier >< maybe I have a lot of crackers and cheese and jam and fruit?? That’s not a terrible idea

and maybe an egg??

#sob #cyanoupdates #it’s bc I’ve been dragging myself inch by painful inch through preparing for this trip #I’m going to have fun I’m going to like it everything will be fine #however: I am so fucking stressed oh my god #I want to stay home and hold my cat and not have to think about socializing for a week straight #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #it’s expensive and I’m scared and i feel guilty and I want to give up #this happens like every fucking time and it’s like come on #I know I’ll have a good time #I just have to convince myself of it for a few more days

[goldensunset]

kieran’s champion battle theme is a banger i’m literally feeling residual fear and stress listening to it even afterwards

#this will go down as my cynthia #if even the music makes me shake in fear even once i’m done #i mean it’s not exactly the same as losing over and over again as a poor scared child #but like i did lose twice before winning and like that first time man. paralyzed to death man. #it’s such a violent and intense theme and moment in the story #i had my expectations of what i wanted kieran’s revenge moment to look like and it did not disappoint #so like by the second two tries when that music came in i had to try my best to steel my nerves at the start of battle #only other time i’ve felt that is in my no-items volo run #i didn’t have stress and fear against him necessarily but i for sure started trembling at giratina each time #the real kicker with both those fights is how there’s no warning and free switch in between your opponents’ pokémon #which like frankly i think is wayyy more fair to the npc and makes the fight more interesting #sv dlc spoilers #teal mask/indigo disk #also i am forever gonna be peeved about the tera fighting hydrapple instantly killing my empoleon with tera blast #but like that just makes sense right? that’s smart #he was anticipating ice type moves against it probably #and even just in general fighting is a good type #ughhhhhh but like #for all other trainers with tera orbs without a specialized type team #they’re always just gonna tera into one of that pokémon’s types #for gym leaders they’re gonna send out random pokémon that don’t fit the theme but will tera into it #to be clever and mess with you #given that kieran didn’t have a themed team here i thought his ace was just gonna go grass or dragon #but of course he’s smarter than that huh. #dude i commend this man he had me shaking #pokémon

[un-pearable]

“your anxiety doesn’t show when you’re doing a presentations, you’ve done a good job working through it!” yeah cool thanks a) i get loud and fast when i’m anxious not quiet . so i come across as annoying <3 and b) that’s bc i’ve sublimated all my social anxiety into Unending Terror about The FutureTM

#and driving lol. high school me was 100% social anxiety now it’s all abstract and frustrating #anyway. didn’t apply bc i cried about it and it would be so so much monies just for me to be scared and stressed the whole time #AND i’m sick AND my brother is unrelatedly ill so it’s been a very fun 24 hours