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#I will get through this
enii 3 months
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I will get through this again馃挄
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Does anyone else when writing fanfics decide to write you have very limited knowledge on, and thus have to do research about said thing, so you鈥檙e writing and researching at the same time? 馃槀 Cause, yeah, that鈥檚 me right now with this new Zestmilla fic 馃ぃ馃┑
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cicaklah 9 months
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Finally cleaned my kitchen and cleared out my living room balcony which still had a dead Xmas tree from 2 years ago on it and tomorrow the man is coming to fix my dishywash and yes my flat continues to be unsuitable for visitors but: I will not let depression win. I cannot let it win. It cannot seduce me with its lies. I will do the things it stole from me through gritted teeth and tears. But depression cannot take me again.
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skybruises 2 months
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slowly but surely i find hope
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I hate working hard
I'm so tired. I'm so tired of how much pain i'm in and how much effort it takes to be happy. I know it's worth it. I know I have to do it. But God I hate it.
I want to wallow in my sadness and feel miserable and do nothing today and just listen to the sad playlist for a cathartic release of my emotions. But it stopped being catharsis after the first couple songs. Then it was just compounding my misery. I have to listen to the it's gonna be ok playlist. I'm gonna play just dance and do exercise that'll give my brain the happy chemicals and force myself to be better.
I don't want to. I want to cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and weep and wallow and be so very small.
But i'll do it. Because it's better for my body to be happy. It's better for my loved ones for me to be happy. I deserve to be happy. I'll treat myself the way i'd treat a little girl who's scared and sad and angry. And I'll help her be ok. Because aren't we all still children?
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hauntedkingdomprincess 7 months
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Sorry ppl - I know I promised part 2 very soon, but I've been having a bit of a rough time these last few weeks. I will get there but wanted to say sorry it is taking longer than I planned.
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alien-girl-21 1 year
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8 k4 from luzu's pov down, 150 to go
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irascible-iridescent 7 months
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Kinda depressed lately ngl.
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lunarpiscesangel 1 year
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lately every night my ocd is having me stay awake late thinking about things
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enii 6 months
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I will get through this 馃挄
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velv3tdream 2 years
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I鈥檝e been sober for for a long time, but the urge to relapse always creeps up on me every now and again. I鈥檓 always honest and transparent about how I feel on the blog and right now the intensity to relapse is off the scale. I just have to push through and know these feelings will eventually pass.
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i'm sure everything's gonna be fine. right guys
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tahdashi 1 year
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we鈥檝e made it to that point in tot hcs where i have to write vyn鈥檚. i need a shot or 2
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landofthingsandsuch 1 year
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Wow! It really do be your own people! Here I sit betrayed and two episodes behind cause no one could give me a heads up that Between Us was out! How can I ever trust again!?! 馃ズ馃ズ
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damnedreams 2 years
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My first day for the on the job training portion for my program is a little chaotic. Waited outside for like 40 minutes then was told to go to another school. Then found out the techs we鈥檙e supposed to shadow didn鈥檛 get informed of this until Saturday. Trying to remain calm and not let anxious thoughts get me though.
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laughingatlivedragons 2 years
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Seven years.
Seven years, that my boyfriend and I have been together. And he decided to dump within a two week span. No decent explanations. No second chances. He didn't tell me anything. Even though we've lived together for 3 years, bought a house. A dog. I thought we were happy. Turns out, he made his decision a long time ago, and he hadn't had the guts to tell me up until a month ago.
Today we had an appointment with our financial advisor. My ex cannot buy the house on his salary (it's too low). I, however, can. If I get a 10% raise (400 euros a month more). I can also put in my own money, that way I can decrease the mortgage.
So now, I wanna make that 10% raise come true. I wanna fight to stay in this house. My ex took everything from me, my trust in people, my heart, my happiness, my everyday life. I will not also lose my house, with my own studio, my garden, the place where I feel safe.
I will get through this. I will be sad at times, and that's okay. But I am strong, and right now, I'm standing up for myself. He took everything from me, but he will not break my spirit. He will see in due time what he's cast aside. And he will regret it. And once he realizes that, it will be too late and I've already moved on.
I will keep going.
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