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enduringsea · 3 years

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( rules: you can usually tell a lot about a person by the kind of music they listen to! put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people! no skipping! ) / tagged by @yellowcrumpet ╭( ･ㅂ･)و )))

Thanks for the tag! I LOVE these things-- I don’t rlly have a playlist either though, just a mess of music files on a device I haven’t updated so I’ll be checking my YouTube history too lol. There’s a uhhh.... pattern to be found, mainly relating to Code Vein or other OCs.... which isn’t surprising ._. ;; I made it a separate post bc I knew this was going to get long and rambly with lyric snippets and crying about fictional characters, sorry :D

1. Repeat Until Death - Novo Amor don’t go / you’re half of me now / but i’m hardly stood proud / i said it, almost oh i’ve been low / but damn it i bet it don’t show / it was heaven a moment ago oh i can’t seem to let myself leave you / but i can’t breathe anymore This one gives me Loubeth vibes ok, partially bad end route ;-; While Elizabeth is a very strong person, her friends are the most prominent reason she tries to do anything at all & isn’t living day-to-day in a monotonous grind to survive without a solid purpose other than ‘help random ppl bc it’s the right thing to do’. If she loses them, it’d ruin her & hammers into her head how everything she’s ever done has been a failure. She suffered a major betrayal by her boss before the Collapse, she was unable to fully participate in proj. queen despite her incredible test results, she failed to defeat Cruz and take her blood during Operation Queenslayer, and if she fails to protect the people she’s finally found meaning with? She’d break down completely & destroy herself to save them. She’s always had some level of abandonment issues, and without her family around it’s so much worse, even if it isn’t the most obvious because she’s generally seen as very well put together-- I really can’t express how much it would hurt her to lose Louis, Yakumo, and the others. She’s just not one to show just how bad it can truly get for her mentally and emotionally-- she’s resilient as hell, she’s been through hell repeatedly and survived it all, so it’s easy for others to assume she’s fine all things considered. It makes her feel weak and ashamed of herself if she shows any level of vulnerability, so she doesn’t; she swallows it down and is afraid of disappointing those who look up to her as a fighter and friend-- of course, no one at Home Base would blame her for being vulnerable, they all have their moments, Bethy just sets herself to such a high standard it’s difficult for her to talk about her own suffering in spite of how well-versed she is in getting her thoughts and feelings across otherwise. Louis is the one most keen to how deeply she’s hurting, but he doesn’t understand just how deeply until she finally does fall apart. The final swell of the song and its desperate lyrics really relays the pain they both feel-- Louis too would not fare well if something happened to Elizabeth, because he blames himself she was even involved in Operation Queenslayer for a long time, I honestly did so bad in explaining coherently, this song just has so much emotion and hurt behind it adklfjdfdff </3

2. Looking Out For You - Joy Again this is a love song for a girl who will never know it’s about her she's beaming that smile / all the while i’m all tripped up on my own throat i guess there is no hope This song reminds me of Elizabeth & my friend’s character Takashi Fujioka, who gets-- vERY...FRIENDZONED, for lack of a better word, by Elizabeth in his story, it’s really summed up best as tragic (;﹏;) Before the Collapse they were hitting it off, then the Collapse happened, they were separated, he lost his sisters, Mido happened, he was experimented on + became a revenant, etc, etc; years have passed since then & she’s gotten her life together as much as one can in a world like Vein, but for Takashi it’s like no time has passed at all. Elizabeth is subtly older in appearance, she’s been working w Lou & Co. for a long time; Loubeth blatantly have a connection, & rather than bringing up his feelings + making it awkward bc he values their friendships, he just kinda. chokes on them & does his best to help out the team. It doesn’t help he can’t even be jealous bc Louis is a really solid friend to him too, IT’S JUST A MESS OF A SITUATION & the death of what could have been if things were different.

3. Closer - Teagan And Sara ( no lengthy explanation for this one thank goodness, I’ve just been watching BoJack Horseman again and I really like some of the songs they add in, I like listening to this one on loop when mindlessly coloring something )

4. Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo all I did was try my best / this the kind of thanks I get? they say these are the golden years / but I wish I could disappear ego crush is so severe / god, it's brutal out here I have it on a playlist for Elizabeth somewhere, not all of it applies to her but it reflects some of her struggles she has both before & after the collapse. She’s-- always kind of been a mess while under immense pressure + has serious self image issues, this song hits that side of her well. She’s been held to humanly impossible standards by both herself and her family bc frankly? She can reach them, she’s NOT exactly human. She was born into her position as a hunter & intends to keep it for as long as she lives (like revenants, her kind is very much ‘either gets killed or lives 5ever), even if some days she really feels how heavy the burden can be. She didn’t have a normal childhood and she’s fine with it for the most part, but it alienates her from most of her peers-- she never got to date anyone, never had a close group of friends, never went to parties that weren’t formals, etc., while she feels a little childish about it, she does envy ‘normal’ and understands the pressure she’s lived under her entire life has caused damage-- she has been exploited for her abilities, there’s just not much she can do about it but to keep going, rlly.

5. Freaks - Surf Curse don't kill me / just help me run away from everyone i need a place to stay / where i can cover up my face don't cry / i am just a freak / i am just a freak UhhhHHH this song really makes me think of Oliver Collins :D;; thank TikTok for showing it to me. It makes me think of how scared he was, of both the world and the revenants who captured him. The song’s use of the word ‘parasites’ really makes me think of Revenants and the BOR parasites XD I’m hoping when I poke my video editor again, I can record some Oliver footage to make a short video to this song. Oliver deserves so much better, I wish you could save him, but that’s what AUs are for, hahah.... The second half of the lyrics make me think of the AU I have where he lives and has to grapple with the guilt of surviving and the things he did to other revenants to get by too.

6. All Eyes On Me - Bo Burnham you say the ocean’s rising / like i give a shit you say the whole world’s ending / honey it already did you’re not gonna slow it / heaven knows you tried got it? good / now get inside I haven’t seen the Netflix special yet but I’ve had this song on repeat since my move started. The lyrics hit too hard & resonate with my existential dread, covid exhaustion, and extreme burnout in my 20s, but bc I have Damage I can also relate it to CV ._. ‘you’re not gonna slow it, heaven knows you tried. got it? good now get inside’ makes me think of--;; the bad end route again, and Elizabeth’s desperation to keep her found family together. It’s not like her to completely stop caring about an issue, but in the moment she realizes what’s being taken from her? She doesn’t want to save all of revenant-kind if it means she’s going to wind up alone all over again, her world is effectively over if she’s forced to be alone again. The MC frenzying means the only immediately identifiable hope she had of saving everyone else is gone, so why not just go home? If they’re all doomed, she wants to at least be together for a little while longer, it’s fine if they use her blood to survive & everyone else in the mist is out of luck, it’s soul-crushing bc I’ve never had her in a situation where she’s been this reckless, despondent/hopeless, and thinking irrationally where it’d impact more than herself-- especially when she’s normally goal-oriented, organized, meticulous, so on so forth: she’s not one to act without thinking something through first, but that last breath of light just got sucker-punched out of her. All she wants is home, comfort, and family, and ultimately in the bad end route she does manage to preserve their lives, maintain the mist, and supply blood beads, but her own condition leaves her on the throne-- it’s a mix of the bad, neutral, and true ending rlly ldkfjdf BUT YEAH enough rambling on that :D;; This song’s really good and touches a lot of different thoughts and ideas both in real life and my ocs, kind of embarrassing--;; thank u bo burnham for ruining me with this beautiful song

7. Yellow - Coldplay look at the stars / look how they shine for you / and everything you do your skin / oh yeah, your skin and bones / turn in to something beautiful do you know / for you I'd bleed myself dry Does this song make me think about JackEva? Yes. Yes it does. Star / night sky symbolism? Bam. Sappy lyrics about love and finding the person you’re with absolutely mesmerizing and worth dying for? BAM. If JackEva were capable of using their own blood to save each other, I can see it-- hJNGn they just care about each other so much, Jack cries for her even though they both knew that eventually one of them would succumb to their duty, and if the roles were reversed I can see Eva doing the same, I adore them beyond human language. On my CV RP blog, my Jack’s not shippable bc-- Eva, my friend even have them looking after his nephew (an oc--) at one point. I should seriously drop some headcanons down eventually....

8. Louder Than Thunder - The Devil Wears Prada are we meant to be empty-handed? / i know i could, i could be better i don't think i deserve it / selflessness, find your way into my heart all stars could be brighter / all hearts could be warmer

LMFAO throwback to my middle school playlist, I’m old-- I’ve applied this song to a lot of things back in the day, but I really connect it to Loubeth now, especially Louis. Lou & Bethy are both functional idiots who are too hard on themselves & have trouble recognizing their worth beyond what they can do for others. They’re trying to be better-- to make up for what they perceived wrongs they’ve done, but it’s hard, they don’t believe they’re worthy of the love and support the other gives, but they still yearn for that sense of security. After Louis’ memories are returned, he finally understands the guilt he’s felt since he became a revenant and it really skews his self-perception; he blames himself for so many things & Elizabeth, who has always been able to kill when necessary, sets it straight-- “It’s not your fault”, and it takes Louis some time to properly absorb that message. He thinks she’s just trying to comfort him, which she is tbh, but she’s not wrong: “It’s not your fault you couldn’t kill someone. It was never your job to kill anyone.” It’s up to people like her to do those sort of things-- Elizabeth may not have been present when Cruz frenzied, but if she had been? It would have been over before it started, that’s something she has regrets over, even if nothing could have been done since she was already on the field. Actually, she’s actually really quite angry that security failed to monitor Cruz properly and has a few select words for the ones there who could have actually done something before it got out of hand-- civilians and doctors are exempt from her shtlist bc they’re not meant to be killers (so don’t worry Artorias, she’s not ready to bite your head off!), but they had to have some kinda security detail rite o-q??? They’re probably hiding from her wrath-- BUT ANYWAY, she insists she’ll never blame Louis for not being able to do something as serious as killing another person. He was a normal human being who cared about his friend, not a failure, and he couldn’t have been expected to do something that shouldn’t have fallen on his shoulders in the first place. As many times as it takes, she’ll reaffirm that it wasn’t his fault, she’s not angry, he’s always done his best and her opinion of him hasn’t changed. He’s a good person and she loves him through all the hurt, though she doesn’t drop the word ‘love’ for a long time. It just-- takes Louis a while to accept she views him as someone worthy of the love and respect she has for him. It’s kind of ironic she’s so adamant on Louis not blaming himself considering she’s the one privately blaming herself for-- wow there’s too much to unpack, she feels guilty she was even born?? im so broken over these two. I love them and yet they SUFFER...

9. What I’ve Done - Linkin Park i'll face myself / to cross out what i’ve become erase myself / and let go of what i’ve done today this ends / i'm forgiving what i’ve done

I have Louis Amamiya brainrot and I’m so glad I’m not the only one who thinks that this song fits him super well & it needs to become an AMV dsjfkldsfd. I’m a near life-long Linkin Park fan and this fits with Lou so well thematically. As much as I’ve gone on about Louis’ guilt, he does steel himself to keep going forward in spite of it and make things right, for everyone. Maybe it wasn’t really his fault, but at the end of the day his inability to kill Cruz in that moment left a disaster in its wake that got a countless number of people killed-- the MC included with Karen and Aurora. He doesn’t want to run away from the truth, doesn’t want to make excuses, he wants to take responsibility for it and he’ll work himself to death if it means things will be better-- it’s both admirable he’s got a strong resolve and VERY concerning with how willing he is to die for the cause, please don’t overdo it, Lou, you’ll break mine and Bethy’s hearts ._.;; It won’t always be easy, there are moments the grief gnaws at him, but in the end he does overcome it (and uh. as in the bad ending, we know he can actually do it this time). I know we can’t see everything, but I would have loved deeper character interactions, especially with Louis with an emphasis on grieving + forgiving himself properly-- but this song really is nice with the whole ‘I’m going to face my mistakes head on, forgive myself, and keep moving forward’. It’s what Louis deserves: self forgiveness and a damn break ‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )‧º·˚

10. Call of Silence - Hiroyuki Sawano you will know you're reborn tonight / must be rough but i’ll stay by your side even if my body's bleached to the bones / i don't want go through that ever again so cry no more / oh my beloved ngl idk if those are the correct lyrics, buuuuuuut....... im a weenie and am internally weeping abt loubeth after midnight, what else is new lmfao- i’ll at least try to be brief :D I also used to really like Attack on Titan when I was in high school, I dropped the anime years ago because I was waiting for s2 and never got back to it once it started airing again, I thought I’d finish it once the anime was complete since I eventually caught up with the manga, such a good series BUT ANYWAY-- I think it’s a really pretty song and Loubeth fit with the tender lyrics. IT’S LATE, idk what to say about them other than what I’ve said already dsklfjdslf im sorry I really ramble a LOT and I’ve been so busy lately I haven’t had the chance to >w>;;

#i do not know how 2 b quiet #long post #personal text #yellowcrumpet

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jeontaeh · 3 years

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〚THIRTY TWO〛

Jungkook didn't know kinda-dating-not-gay-but-straight Taehyung was going to be HARDEST thing ever.

Monday morning- the morning after a night full of kisses and embracing, where Jungkook said he had to go because they had classes the next day and Taehyung kissed his shoulder blades and whined at him to stay- Jungkook saw Taehyung in the hallways, walking to class.

"There he is," Jungkook let out to Jimin, who knew of their thing. "V-" Jungkook began with a small smile, but Taehyung walked right past him, bumping their shoulders and making Jungkook stumble back.

"Oh." Jungkook let out, and Jimin frowned. Jungkook turned around and saw Taehyung walk away, and then gulped. Jungkook ignored that. "He must really have to pee or something," Jungkook said, and Jimin hummed.

Later, in their lesson together- Chemistry- Jungkook sat down on his seat next to Taehyung which is his assigned seat. "Hey V. Can you give me that pencil you borrowed from me last class-" Jungkook began, dancing his fingertips on Taehyung's forearm.

"No," Taehyung said quickly, and then got up and rushed to the teacher- mumbled something about needing to go to the nurse, and then ran out.

"Wow he must really need to pee or something," Jimin mumbled to Jungkook, who elbowed him.

Jungkook ignored that too! Maybe Taehyung really WAS feeling unwell! Finally, in Lunch, Jungkook walked over to the grey-haired-boy and sat down beside him. "V~" Jungkook whispered into his ear, and Taehyung looked at him. "Stop ignoring me..."

"I'm not," Taehyung said quickly and then looked back at Yoongi and Namjoon, who were sitting beside him, having their own conversation.

Jungkook gripped the bottom of Taehyung's shirt. "No but you-"

"Stop touching me, Jeon." Taehyung snapped, and then stood up from the seat. Jungkook's eyes widened.

"I-I-" Jungkook stammered and then saw Namjoon and Yoongi looking confused. Taehyung stormed out of the lunchroom.

"Wow he must REALLY need to pee-"

"Shut up, Jimin," Jungkook mumbled, standing up from his seat and rushing out of the lunch room as well, following Taehyung.

Jungkook saw Taehyung standing at the end of the hallway, and wondered if he did something to piss him off. "T-Tae-" Jungkook breathed out. "What was-"

Taehyung looked around, grabbed him by his arm and took him into the Janitor's closet. When they were in there, Taehyung locked the door from inside and then wrapped his arms around Jungkook. Jungkook frowned.

"Hmm..." Taehyung said, hugging Jungkook tightly, squishing his cheek, the other boy standing in his embrace, confused. "I like this whole kinda-dating thing-"

"What?" Jungkook asked, and then pushed Taehyung away slightly. Taehyung frowned. "Why were you being so mean to me all day?"

"Huh? Oh- I don't want people getting suspicious." Taehyung explained normally.

"That- oh my god, Tae- that doesn't mean you have to ignore me completely and be rude to me! We can still talk!" Jungkook snapped.

"Yeah but... what if, like, someone thinks we're dating... I mean, literally, we're not- and- and I don't even want people to think that y'know?" Taehyung said, and Jungkook's shoulders dropped.

Taehyung looked at him. "Baby," Taehyung said. "Hey, look, you know I like you a lot, right? I'm just scared, you know that-"

"I know," Jungkook said, and then got a kiss on the cheek. He got another kiss on his nose, one his other cheek, and then giggled lightly, getting peppered with kisses.

Jungkook grabbed Taehyung by the shirt. "Don't worry too much, okay?" Jungkook said, and Taehyung nodded.

They both (after making out) walked out of the janitor's closet. They began walking towards the lunch room, and then Jungkook saw Lisa walking towards them.

"Hey Jungkook-" Lisa began, and Taehyung hesitated.

"Oh hey, Lisa. You look hot as fuck today," Taehyung said with a little smirk. Jungkook felt his stomach twist and looked at Taehyung in disbelief. Lisa blushed slightly, frowning.

"Um. Thanks? Anyways- Jungkook, we're meeting to work for our art project later, right?" Lisa asked, referring to the art project her, Jungkook, Jennie, Jisoo, and Rose were working on. Jungkook nodded.

"Wow Jeon, you do art stuff? Pussy," Taehyung scoffed, putting his hands in his pockets and walking away. Jungkook frowned.

Lisa rolled her eyes, walking closer to Jungkook. "Don't listen to him. I'll see you later, K?" Lisa smiled, and Jungkook gave her a quick smile, and then looked at Taehyung.

"Tae, seriously?" Jungkook snapped, and Taehyung looked at him.

"What? Oh come on, we just walked out of the janitor's closet together! What if she thought something was up??" Taehyung asked, and Jungkook rolled his eyes. He began walking away, and Taehyung sighed. "Don't get mad, Kookie."

Jungkook walked into the lunchroom and then saw a group of girls walking out. "Kookie come on, you know I-" Taehyung began, and then Jungkook heard- "Hey girls. Lookin' good," Taehyung winked at them, and Jungkook felt even more jealous and rushed off.

Jungkook reached their lunch table and saw it completely full. He sighed and then saw Jimin look at him upset. "Hey, everything okay?"

"Yeah, it's fine," Jungkook mumbled, and Taehyung walked up behind him, texting on his phone. He grabbed a chair with one hand and pulled it towards the table, sitting down.

"What're you doing, V?" Hoseok asked. Taehyung bit his lip, texting rapidly. "Texting some girl back who sent me nudes," Taehyung mumbled, and Jungkook looked into his phone and saw him messaging some raunchy shit to some girl.

"What the fuck?" Jungkook snapped in annoyance, and Taehyung looked up at him in confusion. Jackson gave Jungkook a smile.

"Oh Kookie, right, you're gay so you don't know this. Girls are people with boobs and they sometimes get horny so they send straight boys nudes-"

"Shut up, Jackson!" Jungkook snapped and then saw Taehyung still texting that girl. He gulped. Jungkook looked at Jackson. "Make room."

"What?" Jackson asked, and then Jungkook walked over to him and sat down on his lap, putting one arm over his neck.

Taehyung looked up from his phone. Jungkook made himself comfortable on Jackson's lap, and Jackson was just looking at him in confusion. "What? Keep texting your girl," Jungkook snapped, and Taehyung bit the inside of his cheek.

"Wow. I really need to pee." Jimin said, and then stood up and walked out of the super tense super awkward situation.

"Yeah, me too," Jungkook said, getting up from Jackson's lap and leaving.

"Dude," Jackson let out, eyes wide. "His ass felt just like a girl's! That lowkey turned me on." Jackson said, and then got a smack on the head.

"Shut the fuck up, Wang." Taehyung husked, and then stood up from his seat and walked out as well.

"Jeez... do they all need to pee?" Jin asked, and Jackson just looked down in shame. Bambam patted his back.

Taehyung followed Jungkook out, and midway through the hallway, grabbed his arm. Jungkook pulled his arm back. "Don't touch me, V. Someone might see us and think we're getting married."

"Jungkook-" Taehyung began, and Jungkook turned around, angry. "Don't make eye-contact with me, V. Someone might see us and think you fucked me on the floor of the boys' locker room!"

"Stop speaking so loud," Taehyung hissed, and Jungkook let out an ugh and turned around. Suddenly both he and Taehyung felt someone grab their arms. Both turned and saw Jimin, and got dragged down the hallways.

"Both of you are going to SHUT up," Jimin said while dragging them down, and then kicked open a classroom and pushed them back in, and then walked in himself and locked the door. "And SIT down."

Jungkook sat down in confusion, and Taehyung sat down as well. Jimin grabbed two pieces of paper from a shelf and smacked it down on their tables. "Both of you are stupid and dumb."

"Thank you."

"Now you two are going to write down the rules of his relationship and what you want out of it. You can't proper date? Fine. But stop pulling each other's hair out by this no-communication shit. Make two colums of DO's and DON'Ts. Am I clear?" Jimin snapped.

"Yes. Question- am I the only one turned on right now?" Taehyung asked, and Jungkook kicked his leg. Jimin took two pens and smacked them down on their tables.

"Now write," Jimin growled. Jungkook gulped. "Y-you gave me a crayon-"

"Work with what you have!" Jimin shouted and Jungkook nodded wearily.

Jungkook drew a thin line in the middle and began writing the DO's and DON'Ts. He looked to the side and saw Taehyung peering over from his seat, but then Jimin hit his head with a ruler.

After 15 minutes, they were both done. Jimin hummed. "Show me," Jimin said, and grabbed both their sheets and took a look at it.

Jungkook's looked like this

DONT's flirt with others text sexual stuff to others ask ppl out to hook up/ date / etc ignore the other be mean to the other equate being artsy to being a pussy

DO's kiss, hug, make out, etc in private be friends, hang out, talk in public give each other support and attention- private & public listen to each other and still act as a couple would just without the pda

"Okay Jungkook, yours is... well written." Jimin said, and then looked at Taehyung's and gulped. Jungkook frowned. He grabbed Taehyung's sheet out of his hand and looked at it.

DONT talk much be 2 friendly make others think ur dating let jungkookie <3 sit on jacksons lap

DO sex

Jungkook's shoulders fell. Taehyung looked confused as to why Jungkook looked upset, and Jimin hummed. "Okay, so Taehyung's DONT's list is bad, but-"

"N-no, that's not why I'm upset," Jungkook mumbled and then tightened his grip on the paper. He looked at Taehyung, eyes wavering. "How is this any different to when we were fuckbuddies?"

Taehyung scratched the back of his head hesitantly. "Because... um..." Taehyung trailed, and then looked at his desk. "Um... we... we can talk more? In private," Taehyung mumbled.

Jungkook left the paper on the desk and stood up to walk out of the classroom. Taehyung scowled and stood up from the desk to follow him, rushing. "Jungkook-" Taehyung called out and saw him walking quickly. "Jungkook come on, don't be up-"

"No, Tae, I am upset!" Jungkook said, turning around. He took a deep breath, looking at Taehyung skeptically. "You told me you liked me."

"I-I do!" Taehyung said, and Jungkook snickered to himself weakly, looking away. He shook his head.

"I'm dumb. I'm so so dumb," Jungkook let out, covering his face with his hand. Taehyung stepped close to him, grabbing his waist.

"Hey, no- no listen. I do like you. I like you a lot, and I want us to-"

"You want us to have sex, Taehyung." Jungkook snapped, and Taehyung paused. "That's what you want. You want to fuck me in your dorm like you used to and then kick me out before I got too close. You want to hold me close at night and kiss me but then push me away when things get too gay for you." Jungkook said, and Taehyung gulped.

"Kookie, I want you. I don't know how, or-or to what extent but- I just know I do." Taehyung said softly.

"I don't know, Tae. Am- am I stupid? I mean, is it just me??" Jungkook asked, looking at him hopelessly. "I spend all this time trying to get you to pay attention, trying to- trying to get you to like me back- trying to get you to want me as much as I want you, but-" Jungkook began, and then dropped his fists by his side, clenching them tightly. "It just- i-it never works with you."

Taehyung opened his mouth to say something, but Jungkook put his hand up. "You can pretend you want me, Tae- you can. But if you really did you wouldn't even be looking at other girls or having that apprehension." Jungkook said and then took a few steps back.

"You haven't changed, V. You just want my body and everything that comes with it. Everything but my heart." Jungkook said, and then turned around and walked away, feeling his eyes get misty.

Taehyung looked at him walk and felt his shoulders drop. He sighed, seeing Jimin walk out of the classroom, looking tense. "I-I'm sorry." Jimin squeaked.

Taehyung gulped. "Dude I- I like him. I really do, I just- I thought he didn't care about the straight stuff,"

"Do you really, V?" Jimin asked, looking at him. "Do you really like him? You should be honest with him if you don't, you know." Jimin said.

"I-I do! Why do you guys think I don't?" Taehyung asked, and Jimin sighed. He hummed, looking at Taehyung.

"You know why you scored 4 goals in the championship, V? And why you're captain, and why you're so bloody good at the game?"

Taehyung was paused. "Because you're so passionate as fuck about it. And I see that, hell- everyone sees that. You might piss us off, V, but we know how much you care about the game- that's why we don't say anything."

Taehyung looked down. "If you care so much about Jungkook, why is it so hard for you to let go?"

"I-" Taehyung began, and then scrunched his nose, as if he was trying not to get too emotional. "I don't know."

"It's fine, you know." Jimin said, tilting his head slightly. "If you don't like him the way he likes you. He'll understand."

"I do like him, Park-"

"So far it seems like you like him when other guys like him too." Jimin cut, and Taehyung tensed. "It seems like you like him when he's willing to have sex with you."

"Why does the part of you that cares only come out when you're high?" Jimin asked, and Taehyung looked at him.

"I don't fucking know, Jimin," Taehyung irked, and then looked away. "Fuck off."

"Sorry. I didn't- I didn't mean to be overbearing-"

"It's fine," Taehyung said, and Jimin hummed softly, nodded, and turned around to walk away. Taehyung just felt his insides tear away at each other. He does care, he cares so much about Jungkook. He's just... too scared. He's still too scared.

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Jungkook saw the note in his hand. It had neat handwriting on it saying what's wrong?

Jungkook took a piece of paper out of his notebook and wrote down it's V- he's being annoying. he said we could be a thing (like more than just fwb) but he doesnt wanna do any of the relationshipy stuff which :/ irks me. Jungkook folded the note up and passed it under the table to his side.

A little while later, he got the note back. v's so fucking annoying. i'm sorry. one day hes gnna get whats coming 4 him. xox. Jungkook looked at the note and giggled.

"Jungkook, Eka, no passing notes in class," The teacher snapped, and Jungkook looked up, blushing.

"Yes Ms.... sorry," Jungkook said, and Eka looked at him and giggled. Jungkook smiled at her.

"Anyways, kids! We have a new kid joining us for the last semester." The teacher said, and Jungkook looked up. New kid, that's always exciting. "He's Korean, but he grew up in London. Be welcoming."

"Ooh. New guy. This should be fun." Eka said, and Taehyung scoffed from behind her.

"He won't want to crawl up your cave, Eka." Taehyung gruffed.

"Why, do you want him to crawl up yours?" Eka asked, looking at him with a raised brow. Jungkook giggled, and Taehyung frowned. Taehyung looked at Jungkook giggled, and Jungkook shut up, biting his lip.

Taehyung ripped a piece of paper from his notebook. He scribbled something onto it and passed it to Jungkook. Jungkook rolled his eyes and opened it.

you're the cutest boy in the whole world <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 i would draw all the hearts that beat for you but i don't have the time to draw a BILLION hearts

Jungkook blushed wildly and then scrunched the paper up in his palm and looked at Taehyung. "S-shut up."

Taehyung smiled at little at him. Jungkook soon received another paper note. He opened it with a small smile and saw.

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when u smile you've never loved ur stomach or your thighs ): the dimples in the back at the bottom of yr spine but I love them endlessly~

Jungkook looked at Taehyung. "Is that a fucking One Direction lyric."

"Shush." Taehyung kissed softly, and Jungkook giggled.

"Who was your favorite member? Mine was Zayn. Always wanted to suck his dick." Eka said with a sigh, and Jungkook was going to say mood, but then heard Taehyung grimace.

"Shut the fuck up, Eka. We weren't talking to you." Taehyung snapped, and Jungkook frowned at him.

Eka looked away. Jungkook saw her look a little upset and try and talk to her friends. But her friends all ignored her, so Eka just looked down at her desk, playing with her fingernails.

"Here he is, class." The teacher announced, and the class doors opened and a boy walked in. He had darkened eyebrows and jet black hair. He looked kind of scary. "Introduce yourself." The teacher smiled.

"Um- hey. I'm Sehun. Just moved here from London." Sehun said, voice deep. Eka looked at him with a small grin.

Taehyung couldn't look less bothered, and Jungkook didn't care much. Maybe he could make a new friend- or not. It didn't matter. Taehyung continued writing cute love notes to Jungkook, and finally, after class, Jungkook got up and rushed out. Taehyung followed him.

"Babyyy~," Taehyung said, following him inside the boys' washroom. Jungkook ran away from him.

"Nooo- you're gonna be mean again," Jungkook said, but Taehyung grabbed his hands. He began kissing them, and Jungkook giggled.

"Stop- Taehyung! You're-" Jungkook began, but Taehyung leaned in and pressed their lips together. Jungkook hummed into the kiss, trapping in his arms. Taehyung pulled away finally and looked down at him.

"I know you're upset. But- but I'll show you how much I care, okay? I promise. My list was dumb as fuck. I'm sorry. If you feel better about this situation, then come talk to me. If not, then I'll understand," Taehyung said softly.

Jungkook looked up. "You'll wait for me to make my decision?"

"Of course I will, baby," Taehyung whispered, kissing Jungkook on the nose. Jungkook smiled.

"Okay. I-I'll see you later. Maybe." Jungkook said, and Taehyung kissed him one last time and then rushed off to football practice, while Jungkook had to go for artwork.

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"Um, V?" Mark said, going up to Taehyung, who was walking back from practice towards his dorms. "Some dude was here. Said he was from Daegu, looking for you. I told him your dorm room number,"

"Oh. Okay." Taehyung said, having no clue who it could be. Taehyung walked towards his dorm. He finally reached and then pushed the door open. When he did, he froze.

Taehyung felt his grip tighten around his door handle. "F-father?" Taehyung let out, voice dry, eyes wide. His father was looking around his room. Taehyung walked inside, dropping his bag down. "What- um- what're you doing here?"

"I came down here to talk to you." His father said, voice gruff. Taehyung saw him holding his phone tightly in his hand. "I think there's something we should discuss, isn't there, son?"

Taehyung walked forward towards his desk, trying to clean up his mess, feeling his stomach tighten. "Um- yeah," Taehyung said, clearing his throat. His father was always so busy with work, this must be something very important. Maybe a second wife, or something of sorts.

"Do you remember what your mother told you? What she told you before she died?"

Taehyung struck still at his words, gripping the side of his desk. "Y-yes."

"She said to make her proud, didn't she?" His father spoke, voice gruff, dripping with something... something which scared Taehyung.

"Yes. Yes, she did- why are you here?" Taehyung asked again, knowing he didn't like when he spoke of her. He turned around to look at his father and then saw his father scrolling through his phone.

"I don't think she'd be quite happy with you. Do you?"

Taehyung froze. He didn't know how to answer that, so he just kept quiet.

Suddenly he saw his father look at him, his eyes practically red. He didn't come here for no reason. He never came to the school. This had to be serious. Taehyung saw him pick up his phone and show it to Taehyung.

It was an email. An email from the school.

"Do you want to read it, son?" His voice said, voice still calm. Taehyung looked at it closely, trying not to waver.

"T-the school has issued-" Taehyung began, and then gulped. "The school has issued many- m-many complains against- against Kim Taehyung for his o-overuse of abusive language, recklessness, bullying, and inappropriate a-activities."

Taehyung paused, and then looked at his father. "Dad, I- I swear it's just sometimes-"

"Finish reading the thing, Taehyung." His father said, and Taehyung turned his eyes back to the email, feeling his insides whirring in fear. Taehyung saw down the lines.

"We h-have received accounts from the staff o-of the hotel which the students s-stayed at for the ch-championship," Taehyung read, voice dry. "T-that Taehyung punched a-a boy and sent him t-to the hospital," Taehyung said, and then looked at his father again.

"He- he was trying to hurt one of my friends, dad, he-" Taehyung began, and saw the anger in his father's eyes.

"Finish reading the damn thing!" His father shouted, and Taehyung flinched and looked at the phone, reading down.

"A-and accounts of-of Kim Taehyung pe-performing in s-sexual... sexual activities with- with one of t-the students... Jeon Jungk-" Taehyung began and then froze.

His father looked at him closely, but Taehyung was frozen still, looking away with a pale face and wide eyes. His father turned his phone around to read it for himself. "Jeon Jungkook. An email has only been sent to you as your son has been seen bullying Jungkook before. The school chooses not to speak on the fact of two boys doing such things-"

"F-father-" Taehyung let out, weak.

"Are you out of your mind?!" His father yelled, loud, loud and piercing Taehyung's ears. Taehyung saw him move towards him. "Doing things with a boy- what the fuck has gone wrong with you?!"

"N-nothing-" Taehyung shook his head. "I d-don't even know what-what t-they're talking a-about, Dad- s-some kid spread a rumor, and-" Taehyung began, and then saw his father looking increasingly angry. "I-I'm not gay, father, I-I-"

Taehyung's father slapped Taehyung harshly across the face. The noise that the slap had made radiated off of the walls and back to Taehyung's ears.

"No son of mine," His father growled lowly, and Taehyung looked down. "Will ever be gay, do you get that?"

Taehyung nodded faintly. "I said do you get that?" His father shouted.

"Y-yes sir." Taehyung let out.

"If I ever hear this shit again, Taehyung. If you so much as think of any boy after this in such sort of a way- I want you to think of how fucking disappointed your mother would be of you." His father growled into his ear, and Taehyung felt tears in his eyes.

"Y-yes father," Taehyung said faintly, voice barely coming out, the image of his mother in his mind.

His father turned around to walk out of his room. Before his father could open the door, it opened itself. "Taehyungie!" A bright voice came, and Taehyung looked up with widened gleaming eyes to see Jungkook there. Jungkook looked at his father and grew silent.

"Oh- hello. I'm Jungkook. You must be Taehyung's father." Jungkook said with a smile, and Taehyung cursed internally, digging his fingernails into his palm.

Taehyung saw his father ignore Jungkook and walk away. Taehyung walked after his father and then saw him walking out and down the stairs. His father looked up at him one last time.

"Tae what's wrong?" Jungkook asked, not knowing his father was still looking. Jungkook put his hand on Taehyung's shoulder. "Hey, did something happen-"

Taehyung looked at Jungkook. Jungkook frowned. "Oh no, T-Taehyungie- you have a mark on your face-" Jungkook let out, reaching his hand up to touch his cheek.

"Don't fucking touch me-" Taehyung shouted loudly, and Jungkook's eyes widened. Jungkook opened his mouth to speak, but Taehyung reached forward, grabbed Jungkook from the shoulder and punched him ruthlessly in the stomach.

Jungkook let out a sound of pain and fell to the floor, gripping his stomach. He let out a cry at the shooting pain, tears reaching his eyes. Jungkook looked up at him with widened eyes, widened fearful eyes.

"T-Taehyung-" Jungkook squeaked out in confusion and saw with teary eyes as Taehyung looked down at him, hair falling on his eyes to hide them.

"Shut the fuck up you faggot," Taehyung growled, turned around and walked into his room, slamming his door shut loudly, making people walk out of their dorm rooms to see what was going on.

Jungkook felt some tears fall down his eyes and the pain in his stomach grow ten times in size. He coughed out and then felt his mind wallow in confusion, in pure utter confusion. Faggot. The word rung in Jungkook's ears, coming from Taehyung.

"O-oh my god Jungkook, are you okay?" A voice came, and Jungkook felt the pain in his stomach worsen, along with his anxiety.

"Help me take him to the nurse-" He heard the voice say, and then felt himself get picked up, but just closed his eyes to not cry further.

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excorcismic · 4 years

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ALRIGHT SO HERE’S THE DEAL ; if misa is my first favorite death note character , this angy kid right here is my second - i adore mello to pieces and he’s very close to misa in terms of how much i love him , but ultimately does she remain queen . but ! the cool thing is that in the series they never actually interact ( the closest being mello spying on her for a brief period of time ) which means i could play my two blonde fashion icons and voila , here they are . so here’s the gist on mello in canon & alucard and most importantly the plots i am digging bc my muse for him rn ?? is off the charts . LESGO !

IN A CANON NUTSHELL ( HUGE DEATH NOTE SPOILERS ) : So Mello’s introduced during the latter half of Death Note ( or maybe it’s more the final third but either way there’s a part where it significantly breaks in two ) - or , the very end of the first half , takes center stage during the second . He’s from the original home of the detective L , an orphanage of gifted children known as Whammy’s House - and essentially , the goal of the children is to maybe one day live up to L , one person taking his place . Mello !! Is one of the candidates . But he has a permanent chip on his shoulder since Near - the other candidate - always managed to beat him at everything . So when Light Yagami gets his way & L dies , Near and Mello are told that L didn’t choose a successor between them . When the idea that they work together to do just that is brought up , Near ( who honestly really liked Mello ) is like ‘hey! let’s do it’ and Mello ( still angy that Near is always right in front of him ) is like ‘FUCK you I’m gonna catch Kira myself’ and leaves the orphanage . Five years later , he works with the mafia , even getting his hands on a Death Note & with the help of a shinigami ( that he scared the living piss out of ) concludes that a rule that states a human will die if they haven’t written in the notebook in thirteen days is fake . He also like , blackmails the president and orchestrates an explosion that Soichiro Yagami dies after but he gets a wicked ass scar afterwards so it’s okay . Now working with L’s third potential successor , Matt , he spies on Misa Amane and makes connections between the second L ( Light Yagami ) & Kira , deduces that Kiyomi Takada is an accomplice , and kidnaps her to try and expose Kira as Light Yagami - but . . . he dies in the process , and so does Matt . The cool thing is though his discoveries led to Near’s breakthrough in the Kira case ( as he and Near met one last time , where he gives Mello the photo he has here in Alucard ) and Mello kind of gets the last laugh post-mortem . And also a kind of neat thing , his last appearance is as the narrator in the Death Note prequel , the Los Angeles BB murder cases - I’m gonna quote the whole thing in my eventual intro but ! It’s an awesome book and Mello is an awesome narrator . ( dn spoilers end here tyvm )

IN AN ALUCARD NUTSHELL - So Mihael Keehl ( his real name in canon , mind you ) is a twenty year-old runaway from the foster system - also sometimes lived in an orphanage but when he wasn’t , the constant tossing around because of his rebellious tendencies wrecked him . He isn’t employed , not does he actually have an actual home - living in a beat down truck most of the time if he can’t get a motel / hotel room for a night or a few . He makes basic expenses and fills his basic needs by doing odd jobs in exchange for money or favors - stuff like ‘if I do this for you for x amount of days or I get this for you you’ll pay for my phone bill for the next two months’ and that stuff . Basic arrangements . And he knows he can like , maybe try to commit to a job or a home but he’s actually . . . way too fucking scared of being tied down or in a worse situation that’s somehow more stable so the nomad life is kind of what he sticks with . But he’s homeless & it’s not good for him . At all . He’ll never flat-out admit that though which is why he calls himself a drifter . His main reason for being on his own , and refusing any extensive help from anyone outside of these favors , is because he has a point to prove - because that inferiority complex kicks in because the other kids he grew up against are doing amazing things and he wants to do better , and not receive any large amount of help . He just ,,, doesn’t understand he’s not doin’ any good for himself .

BUT OOOOOOOH YOU WANNA PLOT WITH MELLO SO BAD OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

so the biggest connection in the sense that it’s the most open , i mentioned that mello mainly pays for his own expenses ( or more so , gets other people to pay for them ) by doing favors or small jobs in exchange for either money or other forms of payment . so obviously , people he has these arrangements with - they can range from anything , mello is extremely smart ( a thing that comes up is that he has a shit ton of wasted potential ) in the books , technology , the streets and has a bunch of small talents he’s picked up over the years of living on his own ( saving money , sewing and mending / caring for clothes how else is he gonna keep that amazing fashion , cooking with very little ingredients , cleaning with little tools , fixing the kinks / souping up automobiles , ahem sexual stuff , tutoring , sometimes even mild illegal shit , you name it . ) so he can offer these talents / skills / etc . to other people who could use them ( most of the time repeatedly ) and in exchange , the other muses will pay him in cash or by doing things like paying his phone bill , car insurance , health insurance , food / groceries , hotel/motel room for a few nights , or even just offering him a place to use the shower or bathroom or even a bed for certain days of the week . This can also lead to many of the other plots I have listed here in the sense it’s a start , and it can happen with anyone , anywhere , for any reason .

literally the thing w/ mel is that he knows no limits and will do anything for anyone and is hardheaded as fuck about it because he’s got a point to prove and things to do and he won’t waste time refusing but the moment you offer your help in exchange for nothing or you’re trying to hold his hand a little too much and he catches on , the arrangement’s over and you’ll be lucky to see him again .

okay so uh . in that sense ?? maybe ppl who kind of helped him out and he did like . one thing for them and once he got his payment for that one thing he kinda bounced n they never heard from him again for whatever reason . nothing against them but he rly isn’t gonna make a habit of staying in one place for too long .

obviously , those people that really think he’s gotta give up the ghost of trying to survive like this bc it’s wearing on his health & he doesn’t wanna admit it . and he’s tried shaking them off but he won’t leave and sometimes he’s forced to give into the help they offer but tries making them take a payment back .

old peers that felt whatever way about him back then but feel pity for his wasted potential ( at the moment ) , bc this dude was like . . . a straight-a student and was rly good at a bunch of things and now he’s living the way he is . whatever they wanna do and however they felt about him and how he interacted with them back then Differs but . there’s kind of like ‘damn u live like this’ now . gimme some kids who had crushes on him , kids he was rivals with , kids he got into fights with and maybe socked in the jaw a few times , kids who always admired him , kids who hated his guts - it always comes down to what life is like now vs. what life was like then .

i’d like some friends who were formed from the favors - and maybe they’ve stopped whatever they had with him but they still regularly hang out or something , maybe offer a place to stay for the night .

just in general ?? people who keep their home open for him and whether he takes them up on their offer on a rare basis .

pls some folks trick him into accepting their help like leave him basket of chocolate candy and trap him or something like just . make it ‘wait what’ deal bc they all know he’s stubborn .

also uh . he’s been arrested for minor offenses a few times so some ppl who’ve bailed him out pls and he’s tryna repay him back .

mentor figures . mentor figures pls he’s trying not to accept their mentor-y guidance from .

so maybe the hero . . . maybe the one person who was like the l to mello of alucard ( maybe even the Man himself ) that he just . looked up to forever and probably still does .

. . . favor idea ?? maybe he’s a stand-in boyfriend or date for events or somethin’ like mello kinda has that bad boy reputation but maybe he dated them for show on their whim at some point or they have that kinda thing ‘pls pretend to my boyfriend and i’ll let u use my shower every weekend for the next month’ or so .

also , one night stands or friends with benefits he uses only for the bathroom / a place to sleep . folks he’s dated for a period bc he did feel something and therefore he had them as an outlet but then broke up with them ( most likely ?? he was the one who ended it bc he has never known love stability & got spooked on it ending and just - did it on his own accord before he could further get hurt BUT THAT NEVER WORKS and he has hella commitement issues ) and tried to shrug it off as ‘ just another fling ’ even tho he’s highkey sad over it . ppl he’s slept with and then disappears with only a ‘thank you’ note as the evidence he was there . and do they accept it ?? are they pissed over it ?? that is up to You but it’s probably gotten around that mihael keehl has never had a stable relationship and never , ever stays .

lots of ppl he probs has the above two arrangements or scenarios with bc again , gotta get shit done somehow .

enemies . . . he has an endless grudge with for some reason like maybe they screwed him over ,

i want . . . folks he can eventually get soft with and maybe actually seek that comfort in even tho u gotta chip at the five thousand concrete walls to get to that stage . i want to see him become better and that’s an ultimate goal for him in alucard ( even though it’s gonna be a bit more difficult with his memories returning ) to get better , commit to something , accept stability and get his life on a better track .

and yes , that includes an eventual ship ! really it can build off of any of these dynamics just . give me sneaking in through windows late at night , soft words and gentle kisses and protective hugs and please stay i know you never stay but please stay with me and the thought that maybe he should leave but he doesn’t and they wake up with him after a night and he’s still there and maybe there’s a scare he left like he always does but he made chocolate chip pancakes and he feels safe & alright which is . . . a rare occasion in his messy ass life . maybe something like friends to lovers , fwb to lovers , an old flame , anything this could be fun to do !! end goal though , i’d like something on the softer side that’s healthy and loving because that’s really what he needs .

( some notes tho bc he’s only twenty i’ll sayyyy max i’ll do the more romantic / spicier stuff with in that aspect is . . . 23 - 24 ?? bc he’s almost 21 like if we put the fact we’re in october into account and his birthday is december 13th that isn’t too far away so . That’s That . he’s also pan as fuck . )

BUT , yes . the main connections / plots there are what i can think of . ik a lot of these are so wordy and i’m sorry bt as always ! i will take literally anything i love plots and i think with what i have for mello there is so much potential in what we can do here .

and as always . give me other death note characters . near or matt specifically would fucking make me cry and i’m here for it .

#dhq.plots #░ ★ abt . ❛ ɪ·ᴅ ʀᴀᴛʜᴇʀ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʟʟ ᴛʜᴀɴ ʙᴇ ɪɴ ᴘᴜʀɢᴀᴛᴏʀʏ / mello #homelessness tw

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neonwizardheehee · 3 years

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personal rant & brain dump bc I’m listening to bigbang and feel emo:

so i have a few topics that are circling my mind thus this will get messy (as usual hahaha)

- music as I said I’m listening to bb and the way I wanna cry??? mainly bc i miss my sis talking about them and being all happy and proud.. and just her in general v.v I feel like i overdid her with kpop and that doesn’t feel good. i was supposed to be the baby but i got too invested and now i am so damn invested i scare her :((( it makes me so sad :( but idk how to stop.(current mood & playing: let’s not fall in love)

- romance the new girls i met here are so different from the friends i have bc they are extroverts. i never had extroverts as friends before so i feel blessed now. we only met recently but they already were so open to me about things no one ever told me. like 3/4 girls i met talked to me about their first time and BOI i was so glad that we casually talked about it bc my other friends wouldn’t do that in a million years bc they are too shy. it really felt good. also no one judged me which was very reassuring. albeit me feeling a bit dumb bc i couldn’t really add to the convo but apparently I get better at listening ig? also that made me think that sex and dating shouldn’t be such an “important” topic as it is with my friends before. one friend sees it as an achievement to have a s/o but doesn’t talk about it or either brags (kskssk giiirl that’s so funny yet annoying XD yes u can be proud of your boi and brag bc i’m here for that bc i’m just so happy for you but ... not at random moments XDD). this made me realize how ppl refer to their s/o when talking to others. bc my friends who are very chill with their relationship always say their name while said friend (and ofc some others where having a relationship is important) always say “my bf/gf” or “ex” when that specific info is not relevant to the story they are telling XD

anyways it also made me realize how BAD i am with talking about my own feelings and wishes. since talking about my worries feels like complaining and i am good at that - but it feels random and uninteresting for anyone to hear i think to myself (it prob isnt). i feel so smol when asked about that topic and all i wanna answer is “???”. even if there is no pressure. idk why I’m like this and it makes me feel sorry for the people around me :( I’m so confused and idk what the question is. i can do better with writing but idk why but i wanna find out one day hahah. maybe i should just ask my new friends for advice since they are not judging me and i trust them and want to learn to be better with that. altho there’s this thought that I’m uncapable of love which frightens me a lot. I know i’m okay without it and i don’t mind but i feel so sorry for the people who like me? it also might be natural and I’m just stressing myself over nothing so idk what to ask and do -since you can’t force love right? i mean i don’t really believe in love at first sight i guess but rather spending time with that person and liking them a lot. so id why I’m pressuring myself so much with this :( maybe i am just too scared? or maybe i am anticipating too much? it all could be possible bc for everyone love is different and every relationship is different. so it’s mostly me feeling sorry for not giving back as much as i should and could :( - that’s also the reason why I’m so pro polyamorus relationships bc I know I’m not enough and idk how and if i want to fix that bc idk the rules bc there are none hahhaha - but also that makes me feel good bc i know i’m not responsible for someone’s happiness. i am too egoistical and these thoughts work as a self-protecting mechanism I KNOW that’s why i do this. so i’m not stressing myself even more. i just feel so unfairly precious when someone genuinely praises me when we’re just two ppl and no one else :( might be bc i don’t understand that feeling yet. i def want to know that but also i’m scared that it’d take me down a road where i loose myself (for some foolish reason idk why). so in the end ig I keep trying and get used to that (i already made loads of progress this year so ig i shouldn’t feel like I’m being too slow)

- studying okay so next topic is also just me feeling like i do too few. this week went quite okay and i managed to study on out study server everyday (ofc i had my bad days but i still at least smth). well yesterday i hastily did some vocab and then teh whole day i spend with friends & kpop... like LITERALLY until the night. a friend of mine was proud of me for taking a break (me too yesterday) but today i don’t feel good about that :( i missed so much. i’m scared it’ll kick me out of my study routine (since it was so hard to get my ass down to study itself!). i really want to be the person who’s studying every day and feel good about that. so since i have another thing planned today i don’t think i’ll get much done today as well :(((( i just wanna be a wise guy who knows a lot T.T i already made progress i know but... i want more.. i really wanna do well here and not be stuck behind like i was for the past 6 years :( i wanna have ambition again and not just pass... i kind of hope i can manage to study at nights on days like this but also i need my sleep so i stil have to find a solution for that. bc even tho i regret not studying as much i don’t regret hanging out with people. that’s smth i missed out in my first semester and so important in times like this were I’m stuck on my own.

- religion so i have one christian friend here and yesterday we talked about church services and stuff like that and it was cool learning how it’s with her bc she goes to a very modern church (instead of me going to a traditional one 4 times a year). Suddenly i got sad tho and felt like crying :( even tho she was just stating her opinion i felt attacked and wanted to cry. after some thinking i think it’s just the way we are used to talking about religion bc we both grew up in an area where religion is looked down onto. for me .. i turned to myself and made up my own thoughts and beliefs bc i am too scared to talk and ask someone about it bc of all the accusations around me. religion was not smth to be discussed and only smth for yourself and maybe your family for me. the girl had to fight her way through all the “churches are old and fucked up and scary” things and since she goes to a modern one has good reasoning against them - that’s perfectly understandable and I’m so proud of her for speaking up like that. but like... it hit me on thw wrong side bc i am used to these old traditions and kind of like them even :( so it felt like she was insulting me. even tho she wasn’t. i just dont know how to talk about religion and how to practice reading the bible or praying and hearing her talk about how she does all these things.. makes me feel invalid :( it’s like the only thing that i have is that i was raised a christian. but y’know for me it was okay since i learned in school not to practice or show my religion.. so idk how to do it... and i feel baby and sad if i have to ask her for some reason. i tried to look up this on the internet but ofc everyone is even more crazily involved there and it scares me SO much. so i unfollowed everyone hahah. i also have this one podcast but i still feel bad bc i’m not able to really read the bible on my own ig :( these days I’m just blaming it on the translation that i have but deep down i know it’s me who’s not able to ask questions at the text. maybe i should try to talk to someone... my sis who’s also in the same situation as me... or said girl to take me along and feel like a complete newbie and a little bit like an outcast bc religion for me is so different than to her.

- christmas i really enjoy the christmas spirit but i also already wanna cry if i think about gifts. i hate that i have so many people i love and will prob get smth from them so i have to make smth in return. i am overwhelmed and scared already. i didn’t even make a list yet T.T feels like i should block time to figure out gifts in my schedule bc I’m just putting it off more and more :( and also i already feel sorry for everyone bc they will get shitty gifts bc I’m so bad at this :(

#now i feel drained and want to cry in your arms just bc #what am i so gloomy for today?#anyways sry if you read this #i truly am sorry #NOT @ SPOTIFY FOR PLAYING BABY DON'T CRY #not okay i just

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kpop-rambles · 4 years

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Goodbye 2019. Hello 2020.

To celebrate the new year - which a lot of people are celebrating right now, I’m sure, unfortunately not me yet - I decided to create this post. I don’t know how to explain it but if you like kpop, keep reading!

My Top 3 Songs of 2019

1. SKZ - Miroh

This song got me into my now ult group, Stray Kids. Those 9 boys have honestly made this year 10x better for me. Chan’s VLives definitely helped me when I was upset, and the members made me feel emotions by their side. I’m so glad that add of Miroh appeared and I chose to watch it because I may have not gotten into Stray Kids without it.

2. ATEEZ - Wave

Again, another song that got me into the group. I heard the song in a video where they played huge jenga at Kcon... I think? Anyways, this song is another banger and you completely fall in love with it first listen. You won’t regret listening to this.

3. TWICE - Fancy

I got into TWICE when they released YES OR YES, but FANCY is the song that you can’t not fall in love with. I did on my 2nd listen and man, if you’re saying you didn’t learn the dance and bopped to this song, you are LYING because- let’s be honest - everyone said FANCY SOTY.

Groups I began stanning in 2019 its felt like forever tho

Stray Kids - March 26th. You think I would forget?

ATEEZ - August 18th. Another date I remember, because I spent a good 2 hours getting to memorize the members name and faces. Was so happy when I finally did it.

iKON - Honestly, I was more of a Double B stan since January until Hanbin left. I loved their songs but I never got to know the rest of the members, except for Jinhwan.

ChungHa - Snapping dragged me in. That’s all I gotta say. Although, ngl, Gotta Go was something I always tried to dance to.

KARD - Again, Bomb Bomb just pulled me into the fandom. The rest of their discography made me stay. I sang along to Bomb Bomb everyday for a good 3 months. It was honestly EVERYTHING to me and then Dumb Litty came and stole my heart and KARD did it AGAIN.

Mamamoo - gogobebe. Do I really need to say anything else?

GOT7 - I’m pretty sure I got into them because, well everyone knows GOT7. They’re a name everyone knows if you like kpop, so I just wanted to get into them. Eclipse and You Calling My Name are songs I’ll dance and singalong to in the right mood and right part of the song. But their personalities dragged me in. I’m pretty sure BamBam also attracted me when he was on Stray Kids reality show.

Day6 - Time Of Our Life. I decided to listen to it because Seungmin of Stray Kids was a big fan of them and I was like, it shouldn’t hurt to try. Seungmin made me want to watch and Day6 made me want to stay. They don’t make ANY bad songs.

Everglow - March 18. Listened to Bon Bon Chocolat when it came out, and I was honestly scared ppl were gonna sleep on them cause ITZY debuted a month before. Fortunately, everyone noticed their talent.

BigBang - I dunno just listened to one of their songs. And, of course, I fell in love. Too late to stan them while they were active, but I’m expecting something in 2020... just saaying.

NCT - All of the subunits. Honestly there were so many of them, I spent time taking tests to tell them apart. The struggle to stan these boys. Instantly fell in with the Dreamies. And then I found out they weren’t a fixed unit... My heart shattered. It’s still breaking because 4 OF THEM ARE LEAVING. or left. I dunno.

Tomorrow by Together - They were probably the most anticipated group of this year. I remember ppl hyping them up in October of 2018! Predebut stan right here. (I just remembered that I thought the preview of each member was coming out in age order and thinking that Beomgyu was the youngest. And I was just like WHERE IS HEUNINGKAI FROM?!?!)

ITZY - remember when everyone thought that itzy’s debut was rushed because info about them was leaked. yeah, i forgot too. anyways, again I was a predebut stan.

(G)- idle - i always listened to their title tracks and I began stanning them during Queendom after their Fire cover im listening to 2ne1 2015 mama fire performance rn lol.... omg bom’s han cover just started playing. spotify is watching me guys.

Somi - Birthday was a bop. fight me. outfits sucked, gotta agree with that opinion I didn’t rlly know much about IOI but I started stanning because Jenchu were fangirling to it i mean jennie twerked for it!

Jimin Park - I’m out here still streaming STAY BEAUTIFUL. honestly she’s so loveable. her personality and her voice are everything. how can you not like her

My Top 5 Groups of the Year

1. STRAY KIDS - A lot of the reasons I luv them are the same as ATEEZ. That’s why ateez are close to being my number one, but honestly these 9 boys are everything to me. 9 or NONE FOREVER. They have been through so much this year and I hope they STAY strong for 2020. In their 2020 seasons greeting they announced a full album next year, so I’m ready to follow these boys on their journey no matter how many stay or leave. I’m a STAY for a reason.

2. ATEEZ - PERSONALITY. I’m also a sucker for groups that shove their love for each other in your face. 8 makes 1 team, y’know? Hongjoong and Mingi are amazing rappers, Jongho, Wooyoung and San’s vocals tho, Yunho and Seonghwa’s deep voices are the death of me, and Yeosang dancing. They’re talented and luvable and that’s all I need for an ult group. also all their songs are bops

3. Mamamoo - Honestly would’ve tied with Twice but these I’m a sucker for them as ppl as well, and I need that to luv a group. they ain’t fake, they slap information in your face and they are POWERFUL WOMAN. (Not saying twice aren’t ofcourse) And these girls vocals are on POINT. Moonbyul is rapper material, but have you heard the girl song? What an angel. Their songs are all slaps, especially the most recent ones.

4. TWICE - This was their year? yes or yes. Fancy soty. Feel Special was a great title track, don’t get me wrong, bUT HAVE YOU HEARD THE FULL ALBUM. Every song is my AMAZING. omg rainbow is playing

5. NCT DREAM - These boys stole my heart, I only stanned nct because of them. Honestly seeing the 00 line leave breaks my heart.

My Top 5 girl group and boy group songs

gg songs were honestly so hard to pick, they thrived and SO many good songs were made in 2019. But here is my list.

1. Fancy - soty

2. Hip - this song was everything from the choreo to the song itself to the girls energy performing it

3. Psycho - came out like last week but it’s in everyone's top 10 of this year. Beautiful song that won’t get outta my head. getwellsoonwendy.

4.Violeta - this is another song that won’t get out of my head. honestly none of these songs will. ok so the final dance part after the drop of violeta pisses me off because the dance could is so powerful and that part comes and it’s such a disappointment but it’s the only part I can do so i shouldn't complain but the song itself is very catchy. I don’t want these girls to disband even if the votes were rigged because they make a good group and sing bangers. i don't want them to leeeave.

5.Lion - the song is just so powerful. other songs they’ve made are good, but the chorus is usually a disappointment because the pre chorus is so good but EVERYTHING is great about Lion. Didn’t like it at first for some reason, i dunno why, but once you give it a few more listens you’ll fall in love.

Now onto the boy groups. They made quite a few bangers this year as well.

1. Miroh - It’s my no.1 of the year. watchu expect?

2. Wave - and this is my no.2. Again, what else would I put here?

3. Run Away - what. a. bop. still can’t get out of my head. Crown was a disappointment to me after 1000 listens but not Run Away. A bonus is the Harry Potter references. With that I just was head over heels in love. Txt didn’t fail to disappoint with their comeback even if it was pushed back.

4. Boom - This song made me fall in love with the talent that NCT DREAM holds despite being so young. Sang along for a few months. Actually, it’s still in my head.

5. Make It Right - I was doing title tracks for all these but then I realised there has to be an exception because I just really like this song, especially the one featuring Lauv. Boy with luv wasn’t it for me but every other song on Persona is a straight up masterpiece (ok an exaggeration but u get what i mean)

Now onto the soloists (they’re all female, sry not sry)

1. Chica - I was debating whether to put Snapping or this but decided with Chica. Honestly the vocals, the song, the dance, the MESSAGE, is everything. I love it, it empowers woman, it makes ME feel good, and it’s what some people really need sometimes. So, thank you ChungHa.

2. Gotta Go - another bop by our queen ChungHa, she really ruled this year. I didn’t stan her when it came out but that doesn’t mean I didn’t do the ‘deulshi’ part whenever I heard it. iconic.

3. Twit - Again another iconic bop from this year. (i thought this masterpiece came out last year, i dunno why but it just is so 2018 for some reason? I dunno) Hwasa’s solo debut really was everything. So was Moonbyul’s which unfortunately didn't make it on the list but I would say it’s in between 5th to 7th for me.

4. Stay Beautiful - Such a beautiful song, it was a shame Jamie had to leave but she left JYP saying that they lost smth PRECIOUS and they would regret it and she conveyed all that in one song without hinting at it. So many quote worthy lyrics were in the song and it just bring up my mood and my standard for vocals. Don’t sleep on this girl, y’all.

5. Birthday - the song brought out mixed reactions from everyone but i LOVED IT. It did get a bit old but it’s still something you’ll find me singing along to every now and then.

ARTISTS THAT STOOD OUT TO ME THIS YEAR

1. Bang Chan of Stray Kids. I love him. He’s such a great leader, he’s a loveable person, he’s all rounded and he fucks up sometimes but he acknowledges it and fixes it. He went through so much shit this year and he deserves so much more. I, along with many other STAYs are gonna make 2020 a better year for him and all of his group. Stay strong Chan! But besides his personality his stage presence, his rapping, his singing, his producing, his energy, his personality, it all made him someone who was always on my mind.

2. Yeonjun of Tomorrow x Together. He’s also very well rounded and he really stands out to me from all the other 4th gens. Whenever I see a performance by TXT he always grabs my attention even when he’s not the main focus. I love his dancing, it’s very eye catching to me, along with his stage presence. He never loses his energy on stage and I expect a lot from him in 2020! His rapping and singing are amazing as well, especially for a rookie. Also when they first debuted he cried a lot, which was very heartwarming to me because idols showing emotion other than happy is something I appreciate, because it lets me remember they’re human too.

3. Seulgi of Red Velvet. She’s, again, very well rounded. I’m not really a Reveluv, but Wendy and Seulgi are vocalists who really stand out to me so those to kind of make me want to listen to Red Velvet’s songs. She’s an amazing vocalist, like words can’t express how much a love this woman's voice. Her stage presence is amazing as well, she’s just a really good performer imo.

4. Jihyo and Nayeon of TWICE. First of all I really like their personality and how powerful they are. Honestly a wink from them and I’m falling of my chair. Secondly, I don’t know if anyone's noticed but I really like powerful female vocals, and these two have extremely POWERFUL vocals. Have you heard them sing? Just... POWERFUL, that’s all I can really say to describe their voices.

5. Mingi and Hongjoong of ATEEZ. They are rapper that are gonna blow away the whole industry with 3racha, I mean they already have. Did y’all see their performance in MAMA. The RAWEST vocals I heard that whole show. They were obviously not lip syncing, you could hear Mingi panting and he didn’t rap a whole line, and I LOVE that because it is RAW and we need more raw vocals or atleast breaths heard when the artists are dancing because it makes the performance more REAL. also stage presence is amazing from these two, they really know how to hype up a crowd.

ROOKIE GROUPS I EXPECT A LOT FROM NEXT YEAR

sorry my expectations are high for them, but they have stood out tome so much and i couldn’t stand to see them flop.

1. TOMORROW X TOGETHER - they’ve been on this list quite a lot, and I really appreciate their individual talents along with them as a group. I REALLY want to see them improve and grow more next year because they were really pushed this year, being BTS’s juniors. I’m sure they were really stressed but I want them to become TOMORROW BY TOGETHER not BTS’s juniors. Probably won’t happen in a year but hopefully in the next decade.

2. ITZY - another group really known for theing the juniors of TWICE this time. The title tracks they released so far have all been listen to it the first time, you don;t like it, but listen to it the 2nd time and it’s stuck in your head for the next 7 months. Honestly if they keep going like this, it would be like a ITZY thing, and I honestly wouldn’t mind.

3. EVERGLOW - i think everyone just saw bon bon chocolat, gave it a listen, and loved it. but i also heard it was produced by someone who helped produce Crown by TXT and Spring Day by BTS, so there’s another reason ppl may have liked it so much. Adios wasn’t a disappointment at all. Of course, I would also love it if Everglow kept up the “nanana” thing in each of their title tracks.

4. ATEEZ - I don’t think they’ll flop at all next year. I know they just had their 1st year anniversary, but I wouldn’t mind a full album... either way, Imma stick with them because they’ve only released that good shit so far and I’m honestly expecting a somewhat mediocre song at least once in their career next year. Not expecting it though.

5. ONEUS - I haven’t’t talked about them yet but all of oneus’s title tracks are absolute gold. I am a mess for Valkyrie, Twilight AND Lit. They’re all just AMAZING songs. I mean, what did we expect from Mamamoo’s juniors but. They are REALLY good. Just go listen to all their title tracks rn.

And finally, wishes for 2020

- Of course, Wendy to recover after her tragic incident at SBS. Again, I hope she recovers well

- Mina to come back from her hiatus, only if she’s ready to, of course

- BLACKPINK FULL ALBUM. ROSE SOLO. PLEASE.

- Of course, 4th gen to thrive along with 3rd gen and 2nd gen groups

- A full album from stray kids (which was confirmed) and again, maybe for ATEEZ? just maybe?

- More attention for Mamamoo. They are underrated queens.

- Less hate for Tomorrow By Together. People bash them just because they’re BTS’s juniors. they would be praised a less but definitely not doubted way more if they weren’t under Bighit. Yeah, they get luxuries other groups won’t but that doesn’t mean people should degrade them for it.

And with that

I wish everyone a Happy New Year. May your next decade be filled with happiness and joy! omg fancy started playing

also i didn’t have time to properly edit this. then again i am a rambling blog, so what are you expecting?

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bad boy! byounggon

a long but cute and fluffy bad boy bullet scenario :’))) pls read

this is my bullet scenario debut so im rlly gonna try and make it pop let’s get it

OK SO mr byounggon is a little bit of a bad boy, mostly because he’s not super loud, and he doesn’t necessarily make his presence known all the time... so he’s kinda just ,,, in quiet disapproval of everything

u could be laughing rlly loud with ur friends and being rlly obnoxious in the hallway but when he walks by ur kinda like.. O shit be quiet!!!212!!... bc ur not tryna have him roll his eyes at u (bc he will)

I think he’s partially so reserved bc ppl dont talk to him bc they’re scared,,, but bby just thinks ppl dont like him so he’s a lil :’((( about it

Lowkey but highkey everybody thinks he’s rlly hot!! One time a girl tried to impress him by vaping in his face and he was just like... bitch Tf... ಠ_ಠ... pls step away

He’s ALWAYS late to class bc he’s polishing the handles of his motorcycle and somehow none of the teachers are bothered

He’ll just pop in like 30 minutes into class, in the middle of a class discussion about why technology is ruining the planet; the teacher will give one look, smile at him, and then it’s all chill & dandy

Which is fucking RUDE bc one time u were late to class bc u got the RUNS at the end of P.E.,,,, and she was merciless!! She hit u with the “30,000 word essay due tonight” bitch!!!

Injustice™

So he’s late for the 3904390th time one day, and you’re super mad!! The second he walks in you feel urself fuming, and u turn to ur friend Junkyu who’s already giving u the 👀

Ur SO MAD u start going off,,, and ur like “that fucking jerk he’s always late and ms. johnson doesn’t give a single fuck... in FACT ! she loves his ass. This isn’t fair, honestly im gonna bring this to the principal”

And junkyu’s just cackling away bc ur doing The Most right now, and honestly ur kinda loud, so ppl just are looking @ u like “ .....? ...? are u ok ?? ?”

The answer is no

So ur talking ur shit storm all the way thru your teacher’s instructions, and she introduces a partner project (#cliche am i right)

Junkyu’s already grasping ur hands bc ur his ride or die

But before y’all can start giggling in harmony bc best friends forever, Ms. johnson gives u this rlly fat smirk, and she’s like “hehe... im making partners”

Thats when ur soul dies bc u happen to have the Worst Luck when it comes to partner assignments

Ur always partnered with that one dude that excuses himself to go to the bathroom, but then just vapes outside for 46 minutes,,, and u have to do the WHOLE thing urself,,, and ms johnson just bats her eyelashes and gives u one of these :-) “is there an issue?” and ur just like “:/// no im ok”

(ur not ok)

THIS TIME she’s looking around the classroom, and she starts pairing ppl up

When she pairs junkyu up with this other girl u feel like ur about to have a stroke,,, he gives u a sad lil frown and now ur in ur #feels

Suddenly ms Johnson points right @ you and she’s like “YOU!”

And right at that moment, mr byounggon gets up so he can go polish his bike handles for the 89th time this morning

And she’s like “(y/n) and byounggon, u guys are partners”

Ur like :o

He’s like :o

Ms. johnson’s like XD lolz :P!!!

Junkyu squeezes ur hand one last time, and he’s like “pls dont kick his ass plz, u don’t have the arm strength”

And ur like “PLS~~~~he might LOOK tough but he’s probably a rlly lame loser....” and then junkyu scurries away to another table group

Byounggon walks toward u

And as he’s walking ur crossing ur arms, and mumbling under ur breath, ‘god why ME, WHY’

Ur interrupted from ur sad hour bc byounggon yanks the chair across from u and finally sits his ass down,,,,

He’s looking outside the window,, probably @ his bike, honestly they’re a ship, #byounggbike

U kinda just look at him, absorb everything,, ur like “o dam... he DOES look tough”

His hair is jet black and messy but somehow perfect? He’s got this silver cross earring that dangles down from one ear, and when he lifts his hand to scratch his face, u notice the silver rings on his hands... and ur like... hmm kinda sexy...

Ur in ur own world, just staring at his VRY plump lips that are literally the perfect colour... no lip products needed damn

And the longer u stare, u realize his eyes are kinda sparkly? And his teeth are perfect? And he as a rlly cute long neck

In the middle of ur trance, byounggon’s so confused, honestly a little bit offended, bc ur just staring at him with ur eyebrows knitted, rlly intently, like ur analyzing him

He narrows his eyes and he’s like “what!”

U kinda jump in ur seat and ur like shit fUCK, he must be so weirded out by me rn (he is)

Ur mouth is agape, and u dont rlly know what to say, so u DONT SAY ANYTHING

And that makes him MORE frustrated

He’s like “WHAT are u looking at!”

And ur like

“SFOSJDFIOS... ur eyes are rlly pretty!”

For a second he thinks ur joking

But u look at him so expectantly, and ur cheeks are FLUSHED, so he thinks u might be serious; ur heart is beating 3430430 miles per hour, and u gulp,

But listen -- u HAD to say it-- bc ur mama taught u to give compliments when u think them! She’s a nice lady

Anyways back to the story

Ur definitely about to go into cardiac arrest

And ms johnson’s just sitting behind her desk like 👀🍵

Byounggon’s quiet for a moment

And for a Hot Second™ u think ur about to get ur ass BEAT (not physically, but verbally ;))

But then u notice the tops of his ears are turning a rlly deep red, and he averts his eyes downward

He mumbles a rlly rlly rlly quiet “ .. thanks”; and he says it so fast u almost miss it, but he sAID IT!

Then it’s quiet again and the level of awkward is so intense u want 2 die

Junkyu looks over to you from his table and he’s thinking ‘shit some real shady business must have gone down bc they wont even LOOK @ each other”

Little does he know.....

So u clear ur throat suddenly like “AHEM ok,,, we should probably work on this”

And he’s like “aight”

he seems so tough when he says things like that, but he was such a shy boy two seconds ago

So you guys get started

And it’s basically a project where you introduce the other person to the class with a video... so u rlly gotta get to know each other, and bond and all that cute stuff

And u already KNOOOOO if u dont do well, ur gonna face ms. johnson’s wrath, so ur really invested in doing a good job

And as an added BONUS!!! Ms. johnson says the group that does the best job on the project doesn’t need to take part in the final exam

And ur like BOOOOOYAHH!!! Bc final exams always fuck u over, and u go down like 5% just bc u momentarily lose ur mind and suffer

So ur #dedicated

In this beginning, byounggon rlly doesn’t open up that much, and ur genuinely concerned because it seems like ur going to be making a five minute video about how much he loves his bike (hint: A LOT)

But then u make a rule!! Ur like “hehe... no more bike talk.. Okay?”

And that’s when the Good Stuff comes out

You learn all this wild shit about byounggon

U go down the list of questions miss johnson gave ya’ll and you’re learning all about how how he likes writing songs, and composing music, and for some weird reason, he rlly likes bowling

Then ur like “whats ur fav body part”

He looks @ u rlly funny, and he’s kinda chuckling, giving u the “uhh are u sure that’s a question, or are u just curious?”

Ur FLABBERGASTED

You shove the paper in his face and you point at the question like a crazy person and he puts his hands up and he’s like “DAMN ok i get it”

Ur not rlly mad tho... homeboy’s got #jokes

He forces a smile, and then he juts out his finger at his cheek

And he’s like

“I like my Dimple.. It’s pretty impressive tbh”

U kinda just wanna bug him so ur like “mmm nah i dont think it’s all that impressive... not that cute” (ITS RLLY THAT CUTE THO)

He pretends to be rlly offended, and he sticks his tongue out and kinda bites it

Like tHIS:

Mr byounggon is NOT having ur sass today !

Ur trying to keep a straight face but FUCK he looks rlly hot in this moment, and suddenly, ur thinking... “fav body part.... Every part!”

He laughs it off, and he’s like, “nah dude, u have to see it in The Moment! That’s when you’ll respect The Dimple”

U deadpan at him bc.... LMFAO did he rlly just say “respect The Dimple”

Yes queen he did

U guys continue like this for a while, until the bell rings, and after, he scratches the back of his neck, and he’s struggling to make eye contact

When he looks like this, u rlly start to wonder how ppl could think he ever looked intimidating,,, bc GOD when his cheeks are a light shade of pink, and his eyes are wandering, and his hands are shaky, he looks so frickin CUTE

He’s like... “so u want start filming @ ....atmyhouselater...?”

Ur like w o t did u just say sir

And he’s like: “do u want to start filmingatmyhouselater!!!”

The classroom is loud bc ppl are shuffling outside, and he’s talking so fast, and honestly, ur just distracted by the hair that’s shifting in and out of his eyes... sparkly eyes... ANYWAYS

Ur like... “byounggon... pls enunciate” !!!

FINALLY,,, smoothly and clearly,,, he says “wanna start filming at my place later?”

And ur shook

But SO EXCITED

Bc u’ll see the Home of Byounggon

Ur like “hehe... yeES”

And then he’s like “ok cool” and fucking BLASTS OUT THAT CLASSROOM LIKE NO TOMORROW

For a second ur kinda shook bc damn.... Does he not have whiplash???

U turn around and u have this fucking goofy smile on ur face

Junkyu slowly walks up to and he’s like “... is it just me, or do you look happy after talking to... byounggon?”

U look @ him in distaste

“It’s just u bitch!”

He can’t know... . ... . . YET.

***TIME SKIP BBY*****

During lunch, u spilled to Junkyu about all the shit that went down with byounggon, and how u were feeling kinda gushy

When u told him u were gonna go to byounggon’s after school, he lost his damn mind

He was like: “take pictures and send them to me PLZ”

U were like: “TF NO!.... hehe ok maybe”

After school, u give junkyu a fat hug bc he’s a cuddly koala bear, and he wishes you good luck!! Then u run to ur locker and try and act cool

Byounggon pops into the hallway a few seconds later, and he raises his eyebrows @ u, and gestures toward the door

U try not to RUN over to him, and restrict urself to a respectable speed walk

He kinda chuckles bc ur .... cute.

U guys both walk outside and ur anticipating his mom to kinda just appear and drive u both to his place,,

No bitch

That’s not happening

U guys walk out to the side of the school, and u see the world famous #byounggbike

He shoots you a thumbs up and he’s like “mm ok so just hop on!”

Ur like

“Ha a ha .. wh at?”

He smirks all cocky, and he’s like “what? You’ve never rode a motorcycle before or something?”

Ur like. “HA! Whaaaaaaat? Of COURSE i ride motorcycles... in fact, i ride them... . . allllways...”

And he’ s like .......... ok shutup and get on

So u pop ur cute butt onto the seat, and he gets on, and he’s like: “okay, make sure u hold on rlly tight, ok? It can be dangerous”

U kinda scoff bc damn... he’s doing The Most rn isn’t he? So ur all like “PSSHHHTT... i dont even need to im a natural--”

And suddently u dont even have time to let out a breath bc homebody just GOES

IMMEDIATELY u latch ur arms around his waist and ur shutting ur eyes rlly tightly and screaming like “WTF HOW COULD U DO THAT WITHOUT A WARNING”

When he slows down @ the red light, u can FEEL his smirk from the backseat, and he’s like “o well u said ur a pro so i just... went?”

U want to smack his stupid mouth,,, but also,,,, k*ss his stupid mouth

Honestly byounggon was right

When u see The Dimple in the moment,,,, u really fall for it

The ride from then on is mostly smooth, and now ur kinda relaxed, so u just feel the breeze flying threw ur hair

U lose ur hair tie but its ok

Bc u do that everywhere

Ur sort of just enjoying the moment, and honestly it’s kinda peaceful??? U kinda like #byounggbike... now u guys are a ship... #(y/n)bike

Byounggon notices ur vibing with his bike, and it makes him smile rlly wide

At one of the stop lights, he looks at you in his peripheral vision and ur laughing and in ur own lil world

Ur so cute

He likes it so much

He starts riding again, and then just to keep u on ur toes, the boy SWERVES on the road a little bit and ur like “FUCKING STOP DOING THAT ILL KILL U”

And he’s LAUHGIGN so hard, and the laugh is deep, and it vibrates through his whole body

U feel it when ur arms are wrapped around him

and there’s this devilish look in his eyes

It’s really fucking cute

But u wont tell him that.

U guys finally arrive at The House of Byounggon, and you rush into his place bc damn... it’s cold outside! And he’s wearing a sleeveless black top AHHHHHHHHHHHH bicep palooza

U guys get warm inside!!!! And u meet his mom!!! The cutest woman in the entire world!!! And she brings you guys carrots and celery as u work

You ask more questions, and you learn about byounggon’s friends: seunghun, yedam, mashiho, hyunsuk

He shows u pics!!! Damn they’re literally all cute

Hot Squad

U tell byounggon u like to bake, so he comes up with a brilliant idea

He’s like “oh!!!! My mom’s about to make some cherry pie, make i can film u helping her out or smthh for the video”

U guys pile into the kitchen to help his mom, but she’s got the TEA!!!!! She’s like “hehe kids, i’ll be right back i need to do... something.....(y/n) knead this dough while im gone”

She YEETS tf outta there!!! And she’s nowhere to be found for a suspiciously long amount of time... hmmmm

Byounggon films u kneading the dough, but honestly, u dont know what tf ur doing

When u said u liked baking,,, u meant like...box cake

Ur playing with the dough like it’s a slime video, and byounggon is laughing his fucking head off while u just suffer

“Ur doing a rlly good job” he says with his mouth full of cherries

Ur about to tell him tf off for eating ur ingredients when ur hair falls out ur hair tie and it’s all over ur damn face

Byounggon’s like.... O shit

And ur like..... He LP

He comes to ur rescue

“What..... do i do”

U tell him to take the hair tie off the ground, and grab ur hair into a ponytail

His hands are so tentative, honestly a lil shaky, and for a brief second, he skims the skin of ur neck with his fingers

Ur body: shook

U have shivers all over and he bounces AWAY FROM U and he’s like “i- im sorry it was an accident”

Ur like... chill tf out brother... it’s cool

He comes back, ties ur hair into the ugliest side ponytail u ever saw, and u guys continue filming

“U made me look so ugly byounggon ur shady af” ur whining to him as u guys watch the clips back

Byounggon gasps!!! He’s like !!! “u did that urself!”

Then u wanted to kill him bc... did this bitch just call u ugly

U laugh and hit his shoulder!! And he’s like “nah im playing u always look cute”

IT COULD’VE BEEN AWKWARD

But u play it cool!!! And u smile at him, and he smiles at u

Then ur like

“Hey can i tell u a secret?”

“... what?”

“Honestly, ur not as bad as ppl make u seem”

He looks @ u with the stupidest smile but he knits his brows and he’s like GEE thank u (y/n), that is so kind of u!!! Ur so kind!!!

And ur like “NOOO hear me out, okay? You’re really nice, and smart, and sweet, and cute.. Ur rlly not as tough as u look....”

He’s kinda hurt, and he puffs his chest out, and kinda pouts

“Im tough.....”

U guys both just laugh

Moments like this continue for the next two weeks as you guys work on ur projects

Somehow byounggon convinces you to go bowling???

You finally go!!! and surprisingly, you beAT HIS ASS SO GOOD???~~~~ for someone that talked such mad shit about his skills,,,, ur rlly thought he’d do well

He got like.... 64 points

U got 107

He BEGGED u not to put that in the video!!!!!!!! Like so so so so badly!!! He offered to give you a ride home on #byounggbike everyday

U told him u wouldn’t put in it

And then the day of, when it popped up in front of the whole class, u were like SIKE BITCH I PUT THAT SHIT IN ANYWAYS!

He was choked up ! but dw he was ok

The whole time the video is playing, u guys are smiling at each other

Junkyu’s looking at u both with the most incredulous look on his face and he’s like... “am i interrupting something, here?”

“Shhhhhh.... Im looking at The Dimple”

“W h a t”

When ms johnson announces that u and byounggon had the best project, u just about pop out of ur seat, and u run ALL the way to byounggon, and u wrap ur arms around his neck, and u swing a lil bit off ur feet

He’s smiling so hard, The Dimple is #out, and the rumbling of his chest makes ur heart flutter

In that moment of excitement, u feel really bold, and u lurch forward and just plant the sweetest little kiss on byounggon’s cheek

He kinda does the :o

For a second, ur like... fuck SHIT,, i just fucked all the shit up

But then byounggon looks down at u

And he’s 4290290% heart eyes

He crouches into your ear, and he’s like, “hey can i tell u a secret?”

Ur nodding ur head like ur in a fucking trance

“I like you, (y/n)”

“I like u too, byounggon”

You guys are both smiling, junkyu’s gagging in the corner, ms johnson is loving every minute of this

U force urself on ur tippy toes, look into this sparkly eyes, and u crash ur lips onto his

His lips are soft and sweet, like strawberries

And when u pull away, he’s just as red as one too

While everyone else spends the next couple days studying for the final exam, you and byounggon are straight chillin

U guys spend ur time at the House of Byounggon, kissing the days away, and eating the carrots his mom provides for u both<333333333333

No bowling tho yikes :/// he’s scarred for life

thank u for reading and i LOVE U pls follow me im new

thank u guys for reading if u did!!!!! im a new ygtb blog <33 i plan on writing here and there, but im super dedicated rn bc there’s such little content. also, pls reach out to me, i want some friends <3 ok bye

#silverboysnet #ygtb #yg treasure box #ygtb imagine #ygtb scenario #byounggon scenario

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xp-egg · 4 years

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paranoia/mental illness/disturbing tw.. related to the post i made on my main blog

So im about to drive up to see my mama for hanukkah, alone as i do each yr. redacted THING happened a few summers ago but essentially bc of it she believes ppl from [Japanese automobile corporation] tried to m*rder her on the job nd now cant keep a job or a place to live so she lives w my baba . i havent talked to her in a year for reasons i will explain ...so we r texting abt my travel plan, cooking plan, talking for the first time all yr besides birthday wishes n stuff, shes talking normally, we say our goodbyes/cantwaittoseeyous. bht 12ish hours later she sends me, un-explained with no preface, a cryptic list of what i slowly figure out are license plate numbers out of nowhere n says ppl are trying to run her over n cackling (this is not new.. just i havent had to deal w it all year and i was hoping she could let it go for just a few days....), i ask if she has gotten to a safe place and ofc she says shit like 'well unfortunately natasha i will never be safe. they follow me at all moments and one day you will read abt ur mother having been killed, etc etc.' like omg i just cant talk to u. At all. Anymore. can i not have one day.. without this... please g*d... she cant be around ANYONE bc she thinks they are all working w [car company] conspiring to m*rder, slander, whatever her.. shes lost 12 jobs in the past 4 years. everytime we go out in public she screams at people for even glancing at her/smiling at her and claims they were [doing some weird threatening thing they certainly werent ? .. like sometimes ppl with certain names or wearing A CERTAIN COLOR is enough to be a SIGN and she loses it and starts telling them loudly to fuck off and stop looking at her.... my non-hallucinating brain as a witness] and im mildly concerned someone WILL kill her in retaliation for her being insane in their face.. (she had some guy start yelling back at her and she recorded it as 'proof'. He was clearly very annoyed at her saying terrible accusations at him when he was trying to mind his fucking business.....it was indescribably scary but like can i blame him? she was being highly inappropriate publically.. SHE was prob scaring HIM. she scares me lmao) like she has been so mild mannered and rational her whole life.. she has a degree in chemistry and a literal genius IQ. its like watching a loving animal slowly go violently rabid. It Sucks

last year she finally accused ME of also being paid off/threatened by [company] to conspire against her JUST bc i went to visit her older brothers family (my aunt n cousins who are the family members ive been closest to our whole lives aside from my mother nd baba) w my bf at the time bc i wanted him to meet my non-insane family members..... JUST FOR VISITING MY OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS BC THEY ARE EXPECTING ME TO VISIT N THEY LOVE ME ? Like they love my mom too but multiple years of being accused of being bought off, or [company] threatening to m*rder my cousins (she always says the most brutal and disturbingly specific details too) if they didnt do whatever thing would intimidate my mom, [in this case purchasing the most affordable reliable new family car they could from [company] ..it WAS right after she told them about her initial event but likethey needed a new car and her claims are literally delusional. i rly dont want to disown my other family for that but its a hard decision.. terrible situation], but being accused to conspire to m*rder her gets tiring so they gave up a while ago. when she accused ME even tho i have been the literal last person to stand by her for the past 4.5 years.. i never made her feel like her claims were impossible even when literally everyone else did bc i figured she needed a buoy.. i said fuck it i can't talk to you anymore. i will start going insane too . we have all tried to comfortingly reason w her (well i didnt for a while, i just wholly accepted her story without trying to reason with her INSANE JUMPS IN CORRELATION.. fully bizarre and delusional.. bc i wanted to support her), i spent so much more money getting a less reliable car just to avoid buying from [company], supported her contacting the authorities (obviously they can't help bc she is making insane claims), make her feel as safe n protected.. did as much as we possibly could but like... theres a limit. this is year 4.5 of this, every day, every hour. EVERY year she says well the dirt on [company] will get out this year.. youll see.. ill be validated (essentially). she went to inpatient treatment and she said they accused her of having barbituates in her system when she arrived (what) nd the only diagnosis they gave her was 'rule out paranoid delusion' (bro come on... she thinks EVERYONE is trying to k*ll her.. help) so she wont get any more help. i want to at least try and save my baba bc she is old and puts up w this every single day. but on top of having my own problems, by saving my baba id be damning my mother, or myself. i never know what to do....

but well anyways i love driving hours into a fucking hornets nest each year. at least there are latkes ig

#i cant imagine what its like on her end but i just cant take it anymore #shes the only one im close to and this is so much worse than her dying.... i feel very alone #she says TERRIBLE things too #like in a normal casual conversation just forcing erratic phrases containing m*rder r*pe #insanely violent and disturbing phrases #its so embarrassing bc she does it around strangers... the two boyfriends ive tried to let her meet... our landlord in 2014..#idk what to do.#tw disturbing #on a personal level its miserable isolating n combined w my own personal failures contributes to my own s**** ideation #but on an impersonal level omg i want to write a book SO bad the things she has tried to accuse this company of are like otherdimensional #its very sad and almost hilarious bc it is SO insane #whatever i hate everything

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lewyn-martell · 5 years

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rules: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to know better

tagged by @laurels-things thanks! you seem like such a nice person!

i. nickname?

lui or simply lu

ii. zodiac sign?

scorpio

iii. height?

165 cm... I'm not sure if I'm below average height on my country, but I believe brazillian people are pretty short. I may be the shortest amongst the boys in my class but I'm the tallest amongst the girls (except one girl who is nearly 180cm i stg) and as a nonbinary person this is a good place to be, i think.

iv. hogwarts house?

hufflepuff :D

v. last thing I googled?

amongst or among — i was unsure if i was using the word correctly sjbshsbshsvs

vi. fav musicians?

THE BEATLES (all 4 of them, but john lennon speaks to my soul in ways i can't describe... the way he makes me feel is something out of this world)

david bowie

elton john

brendon urie from panic! at the disco

the boys from green day

aaand i have mad respect for some soundtrack musicians bc i eat these up constantly. i like ramin djwadi, michael giacchino, ennio morricone, danny elfman, jonny greenwood (yeah i know he's from radiohead but i haven't listened a lot of stuff from this band yet and his phantom thread compositions are SUCH A BOP), hans zimmer and i've been also listening to the score of the shape of water by alexandre desplat (i like him, but jonny greenwood was ROBBED) so maybe that'll be a future fave. also i love a lot of composers for disney animated musicals but if i start i won't ever shut up. but i love almost all of the disney soundtracks.

i would say some time ago whoever wrote the songs for the smiths which i believe includes morrisey, but i recently found out he is extremely right wing and i don't think i can still like someone with these kinds of inhumane views on people&society... i'm disappointed

vii. song stuck in your head?

currently bad boy (the beatles' cover of the song), john's vocals make my pulse speed up since the first verse

viii. following?

2234 nfbdjdbjdsbjshs but i think most of the people i followed years ago are no longer active, i must go through the list and try to do a spring cleaning or something

ix. followers?

408... and like half of these i gained only the last two months or something... and i don't know why shdbsjbshsbs maybe it's the beatles thing

x. do you get asks?

i don't, but that's ok because i don't know if i have a lot of interesting things to say... but if you wanna get something off your chest, go ahead, i love to listen to/read drama 👀

xi. amount of sleep?

tricky question because it constantly changes, sometimes i don't sleep at all bc i have to leave the house at 5h20 in the morning to go to uni and i stay awake until late and when i realize i have to go shower already dhsbshbshsvshs and then when i come back i sleep for like... 10 hours or smth or i don't bc i got stuff to do and i accumulate sleep and then there will be a day of the week i'll just shut down for 15 hours. mostly i try to go to bed around 23h and wake up around 4h45, so that makes it almost 6 hours .

xii. lucky number?

never noticed any particular number that favors me

xiii. what are you wearing?

t-shirt, shorts, it's hot as hell here

xiv. dream job?

don't have one, just want one that won't consume me so i have time to do stuff i'm actually interested in

xv. dream trip?

also don't have one

xvi. instruments?

flute, some percussion, some guitar, i wish i had actually studied music besides the basic stuff... i still wanna learn to properly play something and not just beat some bongos during carnival

xvii. languages?

portuguese, english, bit of spanish only cause of the similarities with portuguese and 4 years of classes in middle school...but still, can't speak or write, only read and listen

xviii. favorite songs?

oh my god... ok...

i was making this in list format but it got way too big... it's still big i'm sorry

the beatles: i want you (she's so heavy), strawberry fields forever, across the universe, oh! darling, and your bird can sing, tomorrow never knows, mother nature's son, yer blues, golden slumbers, i am the walrus, i me mine, long tall sally (little richard cover), you can't do that, what you're doing, ticket to ride, rain, eleanor rigby, happiness is a warm gun, i'm so tired, blue jay way, for you blue, in my life, anna go to him (cover).

david bowie: time, cygnet committee, unwashed and somewhat slightly dazed, tvc15, life on mars, young americans, queen bitch

panic! at the disco: that green gentleman, she had the world, build god then we'll talk, nearly witches, emperor's new clothes, bittersweet, nine in the afternoon, northern downpour, behind the sea, stall me, the piano knows something i don't know

green day: jesus of suburbia, brutal love, hitchin a ride, blood sex and booze, give me novacaine, whatsername, last night on earth

the smiths: this charming man, panic, how soon is now

elton john: goodbye yellow brick road, bennie and the jets, rocket man

queen: somebody to love, killer queen

strawberry swing - coldplay

welcome home - radical face

joão e maria - chico buarque

barbara rose - jonny greenwood

bachianas brasileiras no 5 - heitor villa-lobos

le festin - michael giacchino, camille

rains of castamere - ramin djwadi

unchained melody - a lot of versions from a lot of artists

another day - paul mccartney

meu erro - paralamas do sucesso

flor de lis - djavan

love the way you lie - rihanna&eminem

man! i feel like a woman - shania twain

xix. random fact?

well, it's not really a fact i think... i'm moving (again) but this time is to my father's house because my mum is moving to the south of the country... and i'm so fucking scared because we aren't close at all (i met him when i was 14) i mean, he seems nice enough, all of our interactions have been mostly pleasant but his wife (and probably he himself too) is a bit conservative in the brazillian traditional white family way (she's white cause she's a southern. i know yall think all latinos are poc,,,, but that's not true) but then again, that's something i had to live with all my life so i can handle casual homophobia and racism and sexism... but it will still be so weird cause i never been away from my mum too long (i'm... a momma's boy). i'm going next week i think, wish me luck.... (also he's got two dogs who won't leave me the fuck alone, i get out of the shower and they drool all over me, they know i'm a beta so they keep getting on top of me and since they're HUGE and i'm such a weakling i can't even get them off me and i can't scold them with a strong voice, i just can't do it... i mean, don't get me wrong i like them... but... they like me way too much and keep making me dirty.. i hate being dirty)

xx. aesthetic?

farm aesthetic..... idealistic farm aesthetic habshabaha like marie antoinette's pettit chateau. also the whole pretty odd aesthetic and strawberry swing by coldplay aesthetic

i'm tagging (probably less than 21 ppl) @zutaralesbian @ekscelsior @benstolemyhearty @lannistermartell @tyrionlannysters @avatars-legend @cerseiofhouselannister @falconsredwing @gendryayaya @glittering-snowfall @agirlandabeast @bugband @alittlebigpotato @vairemelde @charmeilon @jawn-lemon @antilennon @im-only-sweeping @ssimsass

i hope tumblr actually notifies you guys, i had problems with the last one...

#nfr #abt me #long post

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nylenol · 6 years

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tagged by @dxlighted, thank u!!

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 other blogs to answer as well. @youriko-is-my-jam @jhaskii @bearsketches @bingobanjo @radonodera @friskbitz @boy-o @nekekur @nyaalien @tsuru-yo @originalbookwormninja @scytherion @minichen123 @o-h-k-a-y @honking-honokas-honkers @teabeanssss @catonatrain @prxttypeach @featherpaws

1. Last drink: arizona tea

2. Last phone call: my mom xd

3. Last text message: “we need all the clubs to reply before i can make the flyer” (to my club president, we’re coordinating a multi-club event for school)

4. Last song you listened to: closer by tegan and sara, that song slaps

5. Time you cried: last friday over my grades lmao

6. Dated someone twice?: not even once r u kidding me

7. Kissed someone and regretted it? kiss whom!!! i dont have anyone 2 kiss and its a crime against humanity

8. Been cheated on? nope and i hope never

9. Lost someone special? ya

10. Been depressed? always B)

11. gotten drunk and thrown up? nobe

favorite colors

12. turquoise

13. pastel pink

14. neon colors in general

in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends? yes!!

16. Fallen out of love? lol

17. Laughed until you cried? yes multiple times

18. Found out someone was talking about you? yeah

19. Met someone who changed you? yeah? everyone i meet changes me a bit i think

20. Found out who your friends are?: i been knew i think

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list?: nah

general

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl? like 80% lol

23. Do you have any pets? nope :(

24. Do you want to change your name? no, it has a lot of significance 2 me

25. What did you do for your last birthday? School, got boba w/ friends, nothing much

26. What time did you wake up today? like 8 AM but i didnt drag myself outta bed till 10:30

27. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleebo uwu

28. What is something you cant wait for? April in general! have a school trip, district convention for one of my clubs, seeing a friend :)

30. What are you listening to right now? closer by tegan and sara again lol

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom? Ya

32. Something thats getting on your nerves? MYSELF im dumb af and have the work ethic of a rock and i need 2 change it within the next few weeks

33. Most visited website: Tumblr/Facebook r tied

34. Hair color: dirty blonde ? its brown in some places and blonde in others

35. Long or short hair: looooooooong its almost at my knees rn, probably gna cut it in summer

36. Do you have a crush on someone: as if i can read my own feelings! ha! you fool!

37. What do you like about yourself: im pretty weird but its not bad weird (so im told); it’s easy for me to talk to ppl and i stand out a lot

38. Want any piercings? yeah but im scared of them ripping xd happened to me once as a kid so now Never Again

39. Blood type: dunno

40. Nicknames: Sanders/Bernie, Sandro, Sondre, etc., any of my handles on social media

41. Relationship status: emotionally unavailable lmao

42. Zodiac: emo pisces

43. Pronouns: She/her

44. fave tv shows: Love Live!, PMMM, Aoi Hana, etc., love live is my main hoe tho

45. Tattoos: not rn, but i wanna get something small on my ankle or something one day

46. Right or left handed: Right handed

47. Ever had surgery: pls no

48. Piercings: used to in my ears (asian baby earring piercings), one closed up tho

49. Sport: water polo/swim

50. Vacation: every few years to VN

51. Trainers: pokemon? yes

more general

52. Eating: just polished off an entire tray of blueberries in 10 mins

54. Im about to watch: new citrus ep

55. Waiting for: me to finish this so i can work on the 190274147236 things i gotta do (a welcome distraction tho)

56. Want: a gf! hit me w that gay shit financial stability

57. Get married: ya eventually

58. career: i wanna do concept art for gamez xd

which is better?

59. Hugs or kisses: both? but hugs preferred

60. Lips or eyes: eyes but also both

61. Shorter or taller: either is fine, same height is optimal

62. Older or younger: same age

63. Nice arms or stomach: nice bonus but neither required (i want 2 be ripped tho)

64. Hookup or relationship: relationship

65. Hesitant or troublemaker: im a huge troublemaker tbh

66. Kissed a stranger: no

67. Drank hard liquor: no

68. Lost glasses: no but i WILL once i get them made

69. Turned someone down: yeah

70. Sex on first date: nono

71. Broken someones heart: yeah

72. Had your heart broken: xd

73.Been arrested: no but the one time I thought i was gonna be i had a stroke almost

74. Cried when someone died: no

75. Fallen for a friend: :) ya

76. Yourself: very much so

77. Miracles: yes!

78. Love at first sight: i think it’s possible, in a sense

79. Santa claus: never really believed in him but that man did exist at some point

80. Kiss on a first date: depends on who?

81. Angels: pretty thought but no

other

82. Best friend’s name: benjamin he a thot

83. Eye colour: dark brown

84. Fave movies: the handmaiden is an all time fave

85. Fave actor: all the ll seiyuu! literal rays of sunshine

#tagged #dont feel like u have 2 do it if u got tagged! ik its kinda long lol

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osetljiv · 4 years

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hi i am doing this solely for myself/my own records so please feel free to ignore!!!!!! i wanted to challenge myself by making a top 10 albums list from the last decade - it was rly difficult because my ass truly cannot cut things down and be decisive, but here it is!

i know many ppl r not into this kinda thing, but i really really love symbolic gestures - i love the idea that a new year (or a new decade!) can wipe ur slate clean, can give u a chance to be hopeful and excited and look forward to things - i hate change and i hate endings but the one good thing to come of them are beginnings! i love new starts, i love freshness, i love blank slates. i know that the end of the year/decade is arbitrary and doesn’t rly mean anything in the long run but....... it is important and super special to me!!!

i’m really not good with words/proper descriptions of the music itself, so i mainly just describe memories/associations i make to the albums, so don’t expect a proper music critic’s review or anything LOL… i am also not ranking by objective quality, but influence - these r the albums that personally made the biggest impact on me since 2010. i started off the decade age 13 and finished it in 2019 at age 23..... so clearly that is a very big difference in stages of life!!! i completed my teenage years, graduated from elementary school, high school & university.... i went thru many different friend groups, many different personality changes...... several big life events occurred…. many many hours were spent listening to music. and now i’m here!

my only rules were 1. had to be on repeat for a significant amount of time, 2. preferably only one album per artist (to force me to pick between them), and 3. i had to consistently listen to the album as a whole (as opposed to just a few songs out of it)...... some of my fav songs in the world aren’t on these albums bc they were either released before 2010 or i didn’t listen to the rest of the album except for a handful of songs (as is usually the case for me). so the albums on this list are markers in my life, and i could (and did!) listen to them front and back. and ALSO they are not ranked from 1-10...... it was literally difficult enough choosing just 10 and i truly would not survive having to rank them as well. in release date order, here they are!!!!!

owen pallett - heartland (jan 12th, 2010)

okay i know i just said i wouldn’t rank these but........... well this one is #1 regardless lol!!! the rest are not in any sort of order but this one has to be first (and how lucky that it was released first too!!!) this is the most important/special album to me in the world - it’s the first album released by my favourite musician under his real name, it has some of my most favourite songs of all time on it - it’s probably the first album in my life that i loved and listened to as a whole! when I was younger i never used to have favourite singers or favourite writers or favourite artists - i would have one favourite song/book/painting but never look into the creator’s other work, never had any interest in organizing things that way. but this is the first time i thought - “i adore this song..... and i adore all the other songs this person makes.... so i guess i like this whole album?” not to mention it’s a whole story and world - heartland tells a whole fable and sounds so beautiful doing so. owen was also the first concert i’ve ever been to! he is so beautiful and wonderful and this album is perfect and has my heart and can do no wrong! and as a plus it was released right at the beginning of 2010 so it truly started off the decade and set the pace. i really don’t know what else to say! heartland was a constant throughout the last ten years - i can’t tie it to one specific moment or feeling the way i can with the other albums. this one was really just the background of my whole adolescence, i guess, and i’ll love owen and this album forever!!!! love love love

gorillaz - plastic beach (march 3, 2010)

i honestly didn’t listen to this album as a whole until the summer after grade 11/before grade 12 when i had to take summer school for math bc i failed (first class i had ever failed :’)!!) and needed the credit for my grade 12 courses (many of which i ended up failing anyway lol) BUT i still had hope at this point so this summer wasn’t that bad..... i remember i had to buy my own bus pass for the summer w my own work money for the first time and walk to the mall bus stop every day all summer to take the city bus downtown to the highschool that used to b a prison (RIP, it got torn down this year) to take summer math from 8-3, 5 days a wk. i loved those classes surprisingly? i remember that summer i dressed so cute every day, i would wear my extra ass dresses and knee high socks and do my hair all cute...... i’d steal my mom’s old lady sweaters w mini skirts and make my own coffee to bring w me and felt so adult..... i didn’t make any friends bc i thought they were all too cool but later learned that the girls in class rly liked me and remembered me the next year when i’d see them at their highschool when visiting for a trivia tournament (don’t judge!!!!) also the first time i got hit on bc a 30 yr old man in my class somehow got my email from the teacher and sent me a creepy email asking me out and i was too scared to go to school the next day lol..... truly feels surreal. but yes i would listen to this album (and demon dayz!) on repeat cuz i found the full albums uploaded to youtube so i remember i would just listen to the entire album all the way thru for the duration of the bus ride while looking out the window and daydreaming bc i couldn’t skip any songs and I couldn’t go on my phone bc the music only plays if u keep the youtube app open…. so it’s hard to listen to the songs individually now because i just picture the transitions every time!

caribou - swim (april 20, 2010)

this was my summer between grade 8 - grade 9! up until this point i only had a handful of western artists that i listened to (before highschool i listened almost exclusively to Japanese doujin groups that remixed video game music…. do NOT judge!!!) and i felt soooo cool when i started listening to this album/others like it… had odessa downloaded on my zen creative mp3.... so freaking good!! got so embarrassed of my music taste after this LOL cuz my brother saw the album cover on my phone in highschool and asked what hipster shit i was listening to. little did he know.... its GOOD!!!! such a great album to just listen to all the way through. perfect background music for studying/ /walking/smoking/literally doing anything to! i can still listen to it and pinpoint different/new melodies in the back in certain songs. so good!!!

crystal castles - (II) (april 23, 2010)

so many 2010 albums wow but LISTEN....... i first heard crystal castles in either 2010 or 2011, immediately after i first made a tumblr in grade 9.... this was the era when offensive bloggers and hipster british bloggers were like the only 2 sections of tumblr...... one of the first ppl i followed was this one super popular british blogger, this kid from london who was probs 15 and he had like, a pale grunge aesthetic and rly long bangs that covered his eyes.... i forget his name omg i wish i could see what he was doing now! but ya i loved him i thought he was the coolest thing ever, i went on his blog and he had autoplay and pap smear was the first song that started playing...... i remember being like wtf is this??? first time i heard music like that, with the video game sounds mixed in and the vocals so distorted. i literally was enamoured like i remember thinking i should hate it and wtf r these british freaks listening to but like..... i could NOTTTT STOP and i remember i wouldn’t even bother looking up the song on youtube or anything, when i wanted to listen to the song i would just go to this guy’s tumblr LOOOOOL god!!!! on the outside i was a cutesy girly girl but on the inside i was a pale grunge hipster british tumblr user!

beach house - bloom (may 15, 2012)

this album is just the sweetest, prettiest memory…. it’s so.. crisp? and clear and pure and loving! beach house was (unsurprisingly) my spotify artist of the decade and i don’t care what rep they get or how similar their music may sound i love them with my entire heart! discovered them from tumblr (as i did most of my fav highschool albums) - first beach house song i ever heard was wild - i remember the first time i started being (SLIGHTLY) less mortified of talking about my music taste to other people, it was maybe in first year? i had gotten into my friend’s car, before we got super close, and she was playing a song off of bloom i think! and i remember my heart just stopped!!!! and i was so absolutely terrified of saying anything, but even moreso excited to see someone whose opinion i cared about who was listening to music that i liked, and so i gathered all my strength and tried to be super casual and say something like “oh, you like beach house, too?” (meanwhile i was literally shaking with nerves…..) and she just so easily said “yeah, i love this song!” and it was the most validating, comforting thing! and a while after that, one of my favourite memories: my other friend got hired at a local café/tea shop, the teeniest little place – it was like 3x4 metres, max – and she would close the store alone, and it was always completely dead, so the group of us would go and sit with her for her entire shift in this sweet warm little store – we’d have tea and coffee and scones – and over the store speakers, she would play whatever we wanted – and for a while i didn’t make suggestions, let everyone else choose, but! i worked my way up to suggesting she play bloom – and she would play the album all the way through, and she surprisingly really liked it?? and then it became the default soundtrack to our tiny hangouts in the tiny café :’)

toro y moi - anything in return (jan 16, 2013)

WOWWWW truly such a throwback....... this is the first time i felt cool, TRULY cool listening to music LMAOOOO SO EMBARRASSING!!! i remember the day it came out, grade 11 i guess??? but i swear it must have leaked way earlier cuz i remember listening to this way before.... my fav tumblr user at the time (kiki deerhoof LMFAO now THAT is a throwback!!!!) was always posting abt toro y moi and made a mixtape w his music on it and i fell in love..... and i wanted to be cool too! so i would obsessively listen to this album when it dropped. the album drop also overlapped w the moment my grades/effort in school went on a steep decline (not that it caused it ofc but this was like…. the background music to my demise, in a way!) i’ll never forget listening to so many details on my chilly walk past my old elementary school at 6am to get to my bus stop - way too cool for school

mac demarco - salad days (apr 1, 2014)

how fitting that chamber of reflection is playing in the coffee shop as i type this :’) this album was the soundtrack to my late grade 12/entire grade 13 experience. i was SO thoroughly and unbearably depressed LOOOOL it was really awful… i’m laughing now thinking back at it but honestly the feeling of being left behind by all of your friends and having to come to terms with not meeting ur own expectations of urself… having to repeat a year and being the oldest one in ur classes…… SO AWFUL!!!! really truly idk how i did it! but the whole time, all year, i would listen to this album. i would always play it on my walk to the city bus (in grade 13 i never made the actual school bus and i don’t even know how much money i must have paid taking the city bus every day bc i truly could not get out of bed early enough to take the free school bus but ALAS……) and i swear to you that entire year was grey and foggy and cold and damp… and i would play salad days (the song itself) and my emo ass would associate 100% with mac singing “oh mama, acting like my life’s already over….. oh dear, act your age and try another year,” and i swear he was singing it just for me, trying to slap me out of my stupor by saying “calm down, ur fine, ur life isn’t over, it’s just one year and you’ll be back on track!” and sometimes, SOMETIMES!! it worked!

azealia banks - broke with expensive taste (nov 7, 2014)

i know i know..... i’m aware how we feel about azealia now....... and i know how overstated it is when ppl say “she may be problematic but she was an artistic GENIUS!!!” so i will not add more to the conversation but....... is this album not pristine? like what a masterpiece????? this album straight up defined my highschool experience even tho it was released at the beginning of grade 12..... all of grade 12/13 i was blasting this album while walking down the hallway hating literally everything! i grew up idolizing my bro and all he listened to (techno/house/etc) and loving it but being too embarrassed of copying him to get too into it, but then hearing azealia sound cute and sexy and scary while interpolating all these house beats. LITERALLY chicken soup for the soul… it felt like she made it just for me!! and even before bwet actually dropped, listening to 212 and all of her other singles waiting for her to finally drop the album she was tweeting about for years, like i don’t remember the last time i anticipated an album for soooo long? and she dropped it days after my 17th bday which really was such a perfect gift. listening to this w my friend who also loved azealia, pretending we were cool as SHIT and so grown up...... beyond influential

frank ocean - blonde (aug 20, 2016)

ur lying if this album wasn’t a pivotal moment for u......... blonde is the sole reason summer 16 is viewed as a cultural landmark. i SWEAR!!!! i may have spent 8 hours a day on tumblr in 2016 but my ass was NOT cool enough to have been listening to frank ocean prior to blonde..... no i never listened to channel orange before this, yes i know i was behind the times! 2016 was the summer after my 1st year of uni, august i had just finished my summer school course so my summer was just starting (i was re-taking 1st year math bc i failed..... some things never change huh!!!! lied to my dad and told him i was tryna get ahead by taking bio in summer school... he believed me till he caught me in a lie by chatting w my friend he bumped into at walmart LOL.... and yet he never said a word :’) an angel) this was also the summer my dad left for a few months to go travelling across canada, he was gone all summer and my bro was busy working and so was my mom and i had the car all to myself for the first time. went on SOOO many drives this summer blasting this album. not to mention that since my dad wasn’t home the responsibility to drive my mom to work fell on me and wow i LOVED it? i realized i love having little responsibilities and having ppl rely on me in little ways like this..... i loved going to bed at 3am and having my mom gently wake me up at 5:30am, having a coffee with her before leaving in my ratty pajamas to drive her to work, the sun was just rising but it was already sooo hot, that summer i remember i couldn’t even hold the steering wheel cuz it was burning and my car didn’t (still doesn’t!) have AC, i’d drop her off to work up on the mountain and as i drove down the escarpment i would roll down the windows and blast pink + white right as the sun began to peek over the clouds and i would take a pretty sunrise pic every time before driving around for a bit, listening to this album, going home, and going back to sleep till 2pm

blood orange - negro swan (aug 24, 2018)

i fully expected this list to be mainly albums released earlier in the decade, which makes sense – they would’ve had more time to have an effect on me – but as the final/most recent entry on my list, this album was beautiful enough to be a consistent part of the most recent year-and-a-half of my life!!! it’s also unique in that it’s one of the only albums on this list, i think, where i had already been a big fan of the artist’s previous work and was waiting for the album to drop. not 2 sound like one of THOSE people but i often find myself liking the first albums i heard from an artist/their older music better than newer work they release (not always!!! but often!), not from any kind of elitism or anything but honestly probably just nostalgia fogging my taste? especially for my first listen of a new album – it usually takes some time and a few re-listens before i really enjoy a newer release – BUT! from the moment dev released the album cover (which is so beautiful? one of my fav album covers off the top of my head) and dropped the first 2 singles, ESPECIALLY charcoal baby, i was so so enamoured with the album, right from the start. that whole summer i had it on repeat – early the next year i saw dev play in Toronto, and it was one of the best concerts i’ve ever been to – the lighting and colours and his dancing and demeanour, the other vocalists, plus we were right up at the stage, it was so stunning!!!!! this album has consistently appeared on all of my various spotify playlists, it rly can suit all moods and occasions, i love it very much and it’s the perfect album to round out my past decade in music!

honourable mentions: SPEED ROUND

yes i’m a CHILD that cannot commit to cutting things down...... but tbh i’m surprised enough that i was able to preen my list into a top 10 anyway. so these r the honourable mentions that i couldn’t live with myself if i didn’t mention in some way!!!! all also very good and important and special to me, in no particular order!

mount kimbie - love what survives: i won’t lie this one hurt to not include on my top 10 :( i’m surprised too.... my friend rly fought for this to be included but i had to listen to my heart!!! however ofc i HAD to include it here at the very least. i was so shocked when it dropped, it was nothing like the rest of mount kimbie’s stuff i had previously heard.... i discovered them randomly when i was studying and spotify did that annoying thing where it plays “artist radio” or whatever so one of their older songs came on shuffle and WOW it was so good! and then i properly listened to them after hearing their songs with king krule... anyway this album is stunning and i am SO sad i didn’t get to see them when they came to toronto but i promise myself (and u!) that i will go the next time they come by!!!! u have my word!

foals - holy fire: this one also hurts a lot to not include :((( a LOT a lot! this one i’m really fond of, my fav foals album and one of the main albums i associate with highschool! so pretty, i’ll never forget hearing holy fire (the song itself) for the first time, so angry and satisfying and GOOD!!!

king krule - 6ft beneath the moon/the ooz: love both these albums soooo so much, i think 6fbtm came closer to almost being in the top 10 but others had it beat juuust slightly - these albums defined the beginning/end of my uni career, respectively, and i’ll cherish them forever! love archie’s ugly ginger ass with my whole heart

james blake - the colour in anything: was such a fan of james and was so excited when this album dropped - it was the start of summer i think? and i would always play it when i went for bike rides to the beach with my dad! such pretty music to drive ur bike to beside the water, all the way down the waterfront until we got to the next city over, riding past all the rich ppl’s mansions and trying to sneak a glance into their windows as we rode by

beyonce - self-titled: obviously the day this dropped - w no promo whatsoever - was a critical moment in music history!! we played this obsessively in high school, blasted this album the entire Europe trip in grade 12 and it just reminds me of travelling and planes and France…. so sexy!

solange - a seat at the table: rly truly a gorgeous album!! we played this in the car when my friends and i trekked to Toronto early one fall morning right after it dropped, we skipped school to go to some event at a café, and we had to wake up DUMB early, like 4:30AM, and i went to go pick them up and we were all way too tired to talk to eachother and stressed cuz we absolutely COULDN’T miss the train so i played this album the whole drive there while the sun was rising and it was so calming and pretty and special

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the-casbah-way · 7 years

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Here’s a Tag :3

I was tagged by @donttalktomewhenimreading thank u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ik this is so long but cba putting a read more in soz

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

im not tagging twenty bc fuck the police but i always tag the same ppl so just do it

THE LAST

1. drink: idk im in my room but i cant leave bc i have so much work to do and if i do i’ll get distracted pls send help ive forgotten what liquid is  

2. phone call: my pal big daddy dave  

3. text message: i think the same person  

4. song you listened to: no clue lmao  

5. time you cried: yesterday but a guy gave me a permanent marker to do eyeliner with so it didnt smudge but i only did a little bit bc i was scared but its all good bc it came off

 6. dated someone twice: i guess but idk what my life is

 7. kissed someone and regretted it: YES lmaoooo

8. been cheated on: not that i know of lmao but probs

9. lost someone special: it’s my entire villain origin story so yes ?

 10. been depressed: have you met me

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: who do you think i am 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. PINK 13. yellow 14. idk man

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. made new friends: yea! fuck knows how tho!

16. fallen out of love: u avin a giggle

17. laughed until you cried: yea like every five seconds

18. found out someone was talking about you: yea but not in a bad way..im sure they have been tho lmao

 19. met someone who changed you: big daddy pollitt

20. found out who your friends are: i already knew bc im woke

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: yea tryna work my way thru the lot feel

GENERAL

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like almost all of them

23. do you have any pets: i used to :(((((

 24. do you want to change your name: kinda but i dont use it as much now so idm

 25. what did you do for your last birthday: i genuinely cant remember but im sure it was wild

26. what time did you wake up: no clue probs bout 7/8

 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: praying of course

 28. name something you can’t wait for: i could use this opportunity to make a really edgy joke but im not going 2 be that gal

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like five seconds ago she threw a melon at me

31. what are you listening to right now: the sound of time running out god i will die in this place

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i had a dream i was on a train w tom jones can i count that thks

33. something that is getting on your nerves: literally everything woops

 34. most visited website: idk

35. hair colour: blonde boyz rule the world

36. long or short hair: BOY she long (i need 2 get it cut urgently its becoming an issue)

37. do you have a crush on someone: cringe lol

38. what do you like about yourself: next question lol

39. want any piercings: i was gonna get my seconds done but our school r being right crazy about it and sending ppl home who have more than one piercing lmaooo.....i also kinda want to get an eyebrow piercing bc my cousin has one and it looks killer but my doctor said i shouldnt get piercings bc of my skin/allergies and i ignored her and my ears were infected for a year lmaoo

40. blood type: idk i asked mabel but she didnt say

41. nickname: big bopper how many times do i have to tell you

42. relationship status: mentally dating james spader, irl repulsed by everyone

43. zodiac: aries

44. pronouns: big/bopper

45. favourite tv show: all of them! :)

46. tattoos: none but i want one....but like....a rlly small one...a little star or anchor or sth cute...no biggie....but i wanted it on my ankle and we wear tights 2 school so they’lll see and kick me out and i need ma grades lmao

47. right or left handed: right bc im mainstream

 48. surgery: WHAT ABOUT IT

49. piercings you have: just earrings

50. sport: im rlly sad bc the only sports im actually good at are tennis and badminton and kinda golf and football and the weather is too shit for most of that

 51. vacation:what

52. pair of trainers: why do ppl call them trainers theyvee not trained you in anything don t give them credit for sth they havent done

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: pussy (insert laugh track)

54. drinking: i drink 2 forget but i always remember

55. i’m about to: nut

56. waiting for: a reason2 be ablive

57. want: A REASONT O BNE ABLIVE

 58. get married: i love weddings and dresses and pretty things but like getting married?? no lmaoo fuck outta here

 59. career: i literally want to do everything

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: please do not touch me girl

61. lips or eyes: eyes but when u like someone then u look @ their lips youre like hey there

62. shorter or taller: taller  i guess

63. older or younger: depends what we talking bout

 64. nice arms or nice stomach: personality am i right ladies

65. hook up or relationship: nothing fills the void

 66. troublemaker or hesitant: dont b hesitant its boring

 HAVE YOU EVER

67. kissed a stranger: dk

 68. drank hard liquor: NEVER GAIN 

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: i lose them every day lmao

 70. turned someone down: turn down for what

71. sex on the first date: ive only been on a date once i think...like a proper date...and no

72. broken someone’s heart: yes but its the price you got to pay for looking this fly

 73. had your heart broken: i break it myself. in lots of mundane little ways. my dad taught me if you want something done right do it yourself  

74. been arrested: talk to my lawyer bitch

75. cried when someone died: yeaboy

76. fallen for a friend: idk i dont understand feelings at all and it scares me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

77. yourself: who he  

78. miracles: you sexy thang

79. love at first sight: no

80. santa claus: why would u ask that he real

81. kiss on the first date: u do you

 82. angels: i didnt til i saw steve buscemi

OTHER

83. current best friend’s name: idk i dont categorise my friends

84. eye colour: like bluey grey i think but idk i dont look into my own eyes

85. favourite movie: dont ask i’ll die

#tag #my best yet #ive hit peak #yet again

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carolightpenvenys · 7 years

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THING I HAVE BEEN TAGGED IN

Thanku Theo for the tag @tiffanyachings 💞

THE LAST:  1. DRINK - Orange Juice  2. PHONE CALL - My mum ditched me in Truro for a friend so had to find her like  3. TEXT MESSAGE - dad  4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO - can’t tell you off the top of my head but either the way i are by bebe rexha or new rules by dua lipa  5. TIME YOU CRIED - ok so i live on a wee island and it sounds so dumb but i thought my plane was gonna get cancelled the other day and i need a break and i got hysterical this was wednesday

HAVE YOU EVER:  6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE - no never dated  7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT - no never been kissed  8. BEEN CHEATED ON - no because i don’t trust people  9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL - 30th March 2015  10. BEEN DEPRESSED - i have had minor depressive episodes but not really  11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP - drink water kids it’s saved me so many times  12. LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: purple, blue, pink (like caroline penvenen’s dresses)

INTHE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:  13. MADE NEW FRIENDS - Yes and they’ve proved to be some of the best ones!  14. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE - No I had a crush but got over it lmao  15. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED - ive never  16. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU - aye this happens to everyone!!  17. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU - everyone changes me from my customers at work to my closest friends!  18. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE - i mean yeah it’s been a rough year

GENERAL:  19. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: yes two dogs manuel neuer and hildi  20. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: i would but i am such an anna  21. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: it was just over a week ago and i went to a beach cantina with friends  22. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: like 9 and went to holywell bay home of carolight flanter  23. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: asleep for once  24. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: university and carolight  25. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: she’s hoovering and making an absolute ruckus  26. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: my luck is so bad it’s laughable so good luck!  27. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: rooting for you- london grammar (my taste is eclectic)  28. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: talked he’s talked like flirted no  29. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: my constant bad luck  30. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: actually twitter whatsapp or here or even google docs to write my fic  31. HAIR COLOR: poo brown imo  32. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: growing out a bob  33. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: i did and he liked me back but didn’t have the confidence to pursue anything bc i didn’t trust him  34. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: my eyes and the fact i NEVER give up  35. PIERCINGS: none i am scared   36. BLOOD TYPE: idk :/  37. NICKNAME: can’t youse jus call me anna it’s easy enough  38. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single foreverrerr  39. PRONOUNS: she/her  40. FAVORITE TV SHOW: poldark/skam  41. TATTOOS: none and i don’t want any  42. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right  43. SURGERY: no  44. SPORT: island champion high jumper 2014  45. VACATION: Paris or Vienna!  46. PAIRS OF TRAINERS: black new balance 410s, adidas superstars black with white stripes, traditional black converse high tops (used to work in schuh ok)

MORE GENERAL:  48. EATING - duck spring rolls!  49. DRINKING - tea with a dash of milk no sugar sorry milkytea!dwight  50. I’M ABOUT TO - watch an episode of it’s always sunny in philadelphia  51. WAITING FOR - the heating to come on it’s like fourteen degrees in cornwall  52. WANT - everything jealousy is my tragic flaw  53. GET MARRIED - if i can find the right (dwight enys) man  54. CAREER - labour mp  55. HUGS OR KISSES - both trigger my anxiety quite bad so if someone did it to me without triggering me i think i have found my soulmate  56. LIPS OR EYES - always eyes  57. SHORTER OR TALLER - taller  58. OLDER OR YOUNGER - i am an only child  59. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH - body positivity!  60. SENSITIVE OR LOUD - both depending on the company  61. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT - hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:  62. KISSED A STRANGER: no  63. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: yes  64. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: no i don’t wear them  65. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: in a way  66. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: no  67. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: i don’t know  68. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: i don’t know  69. BEEN ARRESTED: no  70. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes  71. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: nope they’re all girls so unfortunately i am not attracted

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:  72. YOURSELF: yes and then i break my own heart when i fail  73. MIRACLES: waiting for one to happen to me  74. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: if it happened to me  75. SANTA CLAUS: nope  76. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: we will see on my first date :)  77. ANGELS: haven’t really thought about it

OTHER:  78. CURRENT BEST FRIEND’S NAME: Emily/Emilia (2 different ppl)  79. EYE COLOR: blue  80. FAVORITE MOVIE: 10 things I hate about you

i tag my followers!!!! love u all

#personal

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itskimtaehyung · 7 years

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question tags

I've been tagged in a few of these so I'm just gonna lump them together

if i tagged u in one of these and you want to do the others just do em and say i tagged you

Rules: Complete the survey and tag five people when you are finished

i was tagged by @baekhyeun 💕 (a lot of our answers are the same n i was just like did i tag myself???)

1. Are you named after someone?

nope

2. When was the last time you cried?

um i think it was last week but that was the first time i cried in like 2 years

3. Do you like your handwriting?

sometimes when its neat

4. What is your favorite lunch meat?

what classifies something as a “lunch meat”?? idk i dont really eat meat that much

5. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?

um idk sometimes I'm annoying af

6. Do you use sarcasm?

when do i not lmao

7. Do you still have your tonsils?

i think so?? is everyone born with tonsils?? because i never had mine out

8. Would you bungee jump?

um no i can't even do rollercoasters

9. What is your favorite kind of cereal?

Oreo O’s and French Toast Crunch!!

10. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

If I don’t have to then i won't but if i can’t take off the shoe without untying it i will

11. Do you think you’re a strong person?

i guess? I dont lift or anything but i can draw a bow with a 40 lb draw weight. that probably doesnt mean anything to a lot of ppl lmao

12. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

Hazelnut!!

13. What is the first thing you notice about people?

hair? face? idk

14. Red or pink?

Pink!!!

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself?

um. I've changed a lot of myself to be how i want it so i dont really know? probably my legs

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now?

Im wearing black pants and no shoes

17. What is the last thing you ate?

mac n cheese

18. What are you listening to right now?

i have my headphones in but nothing is playing. I should change that

19. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?

pink? or maybe black

20. Favorite smell?

👀 noir tease from victoria’s secret aka the one that jungkook used

21. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

someone called to ask me how much I'm paying for electricity each month

22. Favorite sport to watch?

I used to be really into baseball but i haven't watched a sport in like 5 years

23. Hair color?

black and pink

24. Eye color?

Brown

25. Do you wear contacts?

nope

26. Favorite food to eat?

carbs and sugar

27. Scary movies or comedy?

comedy

28. Last movie you watched?

hidden figures

29. What color of shirt are you wearing?

grey with the nasa logo on it

30. Summer or winter?

they both have appealing aspects to me??

31. Hugs or kisses?

both?

32. What book are you currently reading?

omg i haven't read a book since like 2015

33. Who do you miss right now?

my friends. kim taehyung

34. What is on your mouse pad?

i have a laptop so i dont have a mouse pad??

35. What is the last TV program you watched?

Cheese in the Trap

36. What is the best sound?

Jungkook’s laugh, tae’s giggle

37. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?

i only know kpop lmao

38. What is the furthest you have ever traveled?

Im from california in the US and the farthest I’ve gone is Vietnam

39. Do you have a special talent?

What’s considered special?? I'm a girl of many talents I'm p much Jungkook except i can't dance

40. Where were you born?

the US

i tag: @sonshinejimin @taenity @jungkookbunbun @hobikookie @vanillalattaes

5 things tag~

i was tagged by @bbangsthetic 💕

5 things you’ll find in my bag

lip tint

tissues

wallet

a granola bar or pack of trail mix

lip balm

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom

my bts shrine (i mean what I'm not crazy)

my bed

bts posters

a pile of clothes on a chair

5 things I’ve always wanted to do

travel

get a tattoo

be able to drive on the freeway??

be good at everything

eat whatever i want without getting fat

5 things that make me feel happy

kim taehyung

bts

my best friends

food

boba tea

5 things I’m currently into

kim taehyung

food

kpop

writing

drawing

5 things on my to-do list

draw things !

write things !

get a job at school

become an engineer!

love my friends

I tag: @qtaes @ttaegiis @slutlingar @jungkookpd idk im shit at tagging ppl

Get To Know Me Tag

tagged by @aichan11 💕, and someone else i can't remember who???

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

THE LAST: 1. Drink: coffee 2. Phone call: this lady called to ask me how much I'm paying for electricity each month 3. Text message: to my friend bc i saw a Rude Jimin™️ 4. Song you listened to: Without You (chinese version) - NCT U 5. Time you cried: like last week

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: no. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. Been cheated on: no 9. Lost someone special: uhh i dont think so 10. Been depressed: constantly tbh 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: No

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: black, pink, blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Yes! lots of tumblr friends and i made a couple of my irl best friends in the last year 16. Fallen out of love: I've never really been in love with anyone but tae tbh 17. Laughed until you cried: yes. a lot 18. Found out someone was talking about you: like in a bad way? no 19. Met someone who changed you: yes 20. Found out who your friends are: yup! once i graduated high school only a few people stuck around 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: um no

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23. Do you have any pets: no 😢 24. Do you want to change your name: i used to hate my name but in third grade my teacher said it was fancy so no 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i went to see BTS with my best friend!!! 26. What time did you wake up: this morning i woke up at like 6am bc i got the notification for namjoon’s vlive but i went to sleep after and woke up at like 10 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: talking to my friend. probably about memes 28. Name something you can’t wait for: moving in with one of my best friends!! 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like 10 mins ago before she walked out of the room 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish i enjoyed exercise!!! I'm lazy af!!! 31. What are you listening right now: the Cherry Bomb mini album from NCT 127 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: not that i remember?? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: tbh my friend and i are trying to work out the furniture arrangement for our apartment and its very frustrating 34. Most visited Website: Tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: i have a bunch on my arms and a few on my face. 36. Mark/s: um i dont think i have any? 37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be a singer or actress 38. Haircolor: black and pink 39. Long or short hair: Long. as long as possible 40. Do you have a crush on someone: does a thirst count? bc I'm currently thirsting after someone but idk if it’s an emotional attachment 41. What do you like about yourself: idk I'm vain af so almost everything 42. Piercings: i have three lobe piercings in my left ear and a double helix and 3 lobes on my right ear. so a total of 8. I'm planning on getting a helix on my left soon 43. Bloodtype: i actually dont know?? 44. Nickname: Kiwi, Adri, A 45. Relationship status: Single 46. Zodiac: Aries 47. Pronouns: She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: i dont really watch tv 49. Tattoos: no but i want one!! 50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: just wisdom teeth 52. Hair dyed in different color: yup! pink. and i used to have red hair for like 2.5 years 53. Sport: i dont move very much but I'm pretty good at archery 55. Vacation: I'm going to hawaii in august and possibly LA for KCON 56. Pair of trainers: i have a pair of Nikes

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: I'm really picky but i also love a lot of things?? idk 58. Drinking: tea or coffee 25/8 59. I’m about to: catch up on all the things I've been tagged in 61. Waiting for: moving!! 62. Want: $$$ 63. Get married: only if i like them enough 64. Career: my dream is to be an engineer at nasa

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: both!! 66. Lips or eyes: Lips!! 67. Shorter or taller: Taller 68. Older or younger: i prefer people my age but I'm open to anything as long as its not too big of a difference 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach?? i guess?? idk 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive i guess 72. Hook up or relationship: depends on my mood tbh. 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant. I'm scared of everything tbh

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: No 75. Drank hard liquor: No 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes omg i can't find my glasses but thats okay bc my optometrist says i dont need them anymore 77. Turned someone down: Yes 78. Sex in the first date: depends on the person 79. Broken someone’s heart: id like to think i haven't?? 80. Had your heart broken: nope 81. Been arrested: No 82. Cried when someone died: no 83. Fallen for a friend: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: sometimes 85. Miracles: sometimes 86. Love at first sight: sometimes. 87. Santa Claus: No 88. Kiss in the first date: yes 89. Angels: idk

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: I have three but i dont wanna be putting their names on the internet 91. Eyecolor: Dark brown 92. Favorite movie: i dont really watch movies

i tag: @sonshinejimin idk anyone else I'm too lazy to tag

82 Truths

i was tagged by @sevenkookiejars 💕

name: Adrienne blood type: ??? nickname(s): kiwi r/s: single zodiac sign: aries pronouns: she/her favorite tv shows: um i dont really have one long or short hair: as long as possible height: 159-160 ish cm

do you have a crush on someone: i dont think so??

what do you like about yourself: um almost everything tbh right or left handed: right list of three favourite colors: pink, black, blue

right now: eating: nothing drinking: nothing i’m about to: eat dinner listening to: Cherry Bomb - NCT 127 kids: no thanks get married: right now?? no but maybe in the future if i like them enough?? career: right now?? no

most recent: drink: coffee phone call: some lady asked me how much a pay for electricity song you listened to: Summer 127 - NCT 127

have you ever: dated someone twice: no… been cheated on: nope kissed someone and regretted it: no… lost someone special: i guess been depressed: constantly been drunk and thrown up: nope kissed a stranger: nope had glasses or contacts: glasses for like the first 18 years of my life before i got a new optometrist who told me i dont need them??? had sex on the first date: no broken someone’s heart: not that i know of turned someone down: ya cried when someone died: no fallen for a friend: no

in the last year have you: made a new friend: yes!! fallen out of love: nope laughed until you cried: yes met someone who changed you: yes found out who your true friends were: yup found out someone was talking about you: dont think so kissed someone on your fb list: no

which is better: lips or eyes: lips hugs or kisses: both shorter or taller: taller romantic or spontaneous: both sensitive or loud: idr what i answered earlier but sensitive i think?? or a little bit of both hookup or relationship: depends on the person troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

first: best friend: her name was marie i was in kindergarten surgery: wisdom teeth sport i joined: archery vacation: canada

do you believe in: yourself: sometimes miracles: sometimes love at first sight: sometimes heaven: dont think so?

extras: how many people from your fb list do you know irl: all of them do you have any pets: no do you want to change your name: no what did you do for your last birthday: went to see bts with my best friend!! what time did you wake up today: like 6am and then i went back to sleep and woke up at 10 what were you doing last night at midnight: talking to my friend last time you saw your mom: she's sitting across from me right now what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i wasn't so lazy or scared of everything have you ever talked to a person named tom: no what’s getting on your nerves: i answered this earlier

i tag: idk anyone who wants to do it

#mine #text #tag thingy #about me

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Tagged by @snowcatmoon ayyyyyyyyy nice thanks i lo v e doing these things

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 people. (but not rly bc i’m a nerd who never knos who to tag so basically if u see this and u wanna try it go for it my dude!)

LAST: 1. Drink: Water 2. Phone call: i mean if this is like personal calls it would be my mom calling me @ work but if not it would be a person calling @ work to talk to my boss 3. Text message: uhhhhhh i don’t have a phone so i can’t text but my last fb message was abt my follower count 4. Song you listened to: tally hall - & 5. Time you cried: I frustration cried a little yesterday

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: what is this word, dating 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: kissing? completely foreign concept what’s that 8. Been cheated on: No 9. Lost someone special: yes 10. Been depressed: Have u Seen Me i am a Wreck At All Times 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: never

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. vibrant or saturated Reds 13. greens across all spectrums 14. warm metallic colors like gold or bronze but not silver bc it’s ugly imo

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yah! a precious girl who comes into the library p often, she told me abt the story she’s writing and it’s rly cute nd funny and she’s sweet she gave me some of her ar 16. Fallen out of love: nope 17. Laughed until you cried: often lmao 18. Found out someone was talking about you: idk man i’m boring what would they have to talk abt? my sleep patterns? lmao 20. Found out who your friends are: nah not so far this year 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: there’s that word again!!! kissing what is?

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: can’t remember bc i unfollow them and soft block them from all my posts when it happens so honestly i forget they exist lmao ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 23. Do you have any pets: Yah!!!!!!!! archie my love, and two betta fish! 24. Do you want to change your name: yes plea s e 25. What did you do for your last birthday: uhhhh 26. What time do you wake up: a brief moment at 5 to feed my son (archie) and then usually anywhere from 10:00 AM to 2 PM. Depends if i have work 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: FIGHTING A FUCKING CHEATING AI IN A GAME 28. Name something you can’t wait for: leaving this fucking hole of a town i live in rn

29. When was the last time you saw your mom?: this morning 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: FDAHS;KJL just ONE (1) thing???????? 31. What are you listening to right now: Tally Hall - & idk man i just rly like it

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i..... don’t???? know????? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Being POOR(tm) 34. Most visited website: TUMBLR, YouTube, and fb so i can talk to most of my friends

35. Mole/s: idk 36. Mark/s: idk???? 37. Childhood dream: veterinarian but i gave up on that bc i’m super squeamish 38. Hair color: brown 39. Long or short hair: medium 40. Do you have a crush on someone: what is this crush thing you speak of? 41. What do you like about yourself: i am a god damn fiLTHY TRASH GOBLIN/DEMON AND IT’S FABULOUS 42. Piercings: the standard ear piercing you get when ur little but i’m allergic to metal so i can’t actually wear earrings (however, despite years of never wearing earrings, the holes haven’t actually ever closed so i still could if i wished which i don’t bc no thanks it gets itchy and hurts)

43. Blood type: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 44. Nicknames?: hoo boy okay any and all variations one can spin on my name (rachel) and: squisheebug (nobody calls me that anymore but it’s become my art handle so i still use it for myself), one friend sometimes calls me kitten, and a bunch more tbh i have so many 45. Relationship status: Single Pringle Not Looking To Flamingle 46. Zodiac: libra scorpio cusp 47. Pronouns: She/her 48. Favorite TV Show: mH i am bad at picking just one favorite lmao 50. Right or left hand: Right-handed 51. Surgery: Not technically? i almost had surgery once when i was like eleven bc the doctors srsly thought i had gallstones but it was actually just acute stress and emotional trauma related pain (i also had a lump of tissue removed from my neck but idk if that counts) 52. Hair dyed in different color: i’m scared it would mess my hair up too much 53. Sport: i don’t sport but i love watching ice skating videos 55. Vacation: i have never been on Vacation(tm) unless you count the trip the seniors took after graduation which was just to make sure that we didn’t Do Drugs. However, ideal vacation would be going across the world visiting abandoned and really old (or haunted) places bc i love that shit i eat it up W/ a S p o o n 56. Pair of trainers: is that like... tennis shoes/sneakers? bc?? i have a pair of converse??

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: hot cheetos 58. Drinking: an otter pop 59. I’m about to: get ready for work 62. Want: A house in my very own forest and for nobody i didn’t like to ever visit me and also the complete destruction of capitalism and world peace and the complete deconstruction and rebuilding of our government and far more time in one life than currently exists and abt a billion other things but on the more “realistic” (yeah right not in this economy) sidei just want to not live in an apartment anymore, i want to live in a house (also to meet a bunch of my fav youtubers i’d LOVE that) 63. Get married: maybe idk i’m not violently against it but it’s doubtful 64. Career: i wanna be an animator ahfsdlkjsdafagdfs 65. Hugs or kisses: currently: neither! Hands Off Pls 66. Lips or eyes: both preferably but u kno we can’t be picky 67. Shorter or taller: aaaa who cares?????? 68. Older or younger: doesn’t matter idk 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: both! tummies are so cute and arms are Good for Hugging (when i’m not touch repulsed) 71. Sensitive or loud: what is the correlation between those two they aren’t opposites what 72. Hook up or relationship: bitch miss me w/ hookups if i ever do date somebody it’s gon be ride or die it’s gon be Commi T m e n t(tm) 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: why

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: No 75. Drank hard liquor: No 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yah 77. Turned someone down: probably? if so i wouldn’t have known 78. Sex on the first date: St O p 79. Broken someone’s heart: Probably not? i’m not the most Lovable(tm) person, as far as i kno nobody has even liked me lmao 80. Had your heart broken: yah but like?? platonically 81. Been arrested: No 82. Cried when someone died: only ppl i didn’t kno that well have died around me but if i even THINK one of my friends might die i start bawling my eyes out and can’t stop 83. Fallen for a friend: ??

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84: Yourself: sometimes 85. Miracles: yes 86. Love at first sight: nope 87. Santa Claus: yesssssss but the concept of him not the actual jolly fat guy who brings presents. 88. Kiss on the first date: I DON’T UNDERSTAND DATING (just leaving @snowcatmoon‘s response bc i’m laughing rly hard and same)

OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: what are u just supposed to have one? 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movies: *rolls out a mile long list* okay do u want this alphabetically, in order from the first time i watched it? in order of How Many times i’ve watched it or?

i am not going to tag anybody bc i am an eg who doesn’t know ppl to tag so!!!!! if u see this and u wanna try it like i said before!!!! feel free to pls!!! also if u do i’d love it if u tagged me in it bc i’m curious abt who all follows me aaa

#have fun peeps

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