#I think I'm stuck making tags now

[unfsys]

Hello friends, the Blushing Men cult has been absorbed into the Men cult and is now a subsect of the greater religion. We are now accepting more members yet again. Sacrifices are encouraged to our conceptual men constructs this winter solstice, from members of any sect of the cult.

#shitpost #cult #it's my cult #that I've had for too long #I can't beleive i thought i was straight ever #I'm so gay #the gayest #gay #well uhm #HAPPY SOLSTACE #solstace pog #happy holidays #i #I think I'm stuck making tags now #save me #what do i do #i thought i was a cult pr official or something #now I've been inprisoned #and i don't know what to do #i am afraid #and alone #and cold #i just wanted to give an update on cult proceedings #I didn't deserve this #wait #i think i hear footsteps

[pencilofawesomeness]

I was so caught up in the euphoria of making shit up, I forgot I wasn't uncontested. Wild that canon exists and is ongoing. Wild.

#this can to applicable to so much but its jjk #the new issue leaks reminded me that my initial headcanon is looking to be correct #even though I ignored every implication of it when I dived into my new fic #i'm 45k deep sukuna is stuck with this backstory no matter what canon says #but #jjk spoilers #ill tag that so my blabbing doesn't ruin anything #i DID forget it was implied he had a brother #completely forgot #i gave him nameless siblings to kill but I very much forgot that canon bit #hm maybe whatever they throw out me this weekend will not change anything #also Jin I put too much effort into this loving malewife he's mine now #i did always think he was related somehow because of resemblance #but I was so lost in the fanfic sauce it was unimportant #eh its an au anyways #i'll subject yall to it soon enough #just had to meme and make fun of myself for a sec

[lexicals]

[ID: 3 photos of a strabby (a strawberry with four leaf "legs" and big googly eyes) plushie with a crochet body and leaves, felted eyes and embroidered seeds. It's a few inches tall and roughly palm-sized. End ID.]

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Made myself a pet strabby for my desk :>

#wastepaper basket #knits #bugsnax #Its limbs are poseable!! Kinda it's a bit awkward but still #Was gonna make gramble's hat but I didn't have enough yarn for that so I made this instead & I'm glad I did tbh #little guy tag #Anyway I've been stuck in my room for 99% of my day for 6 days now and I'm starting to lose it a little bit I think

[corfisers]

i really need to finish this one day

#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully #anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason #incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up #you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot #he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him #in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened. #you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from #you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help? #doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance #proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long #yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him #yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that #and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do” #“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem” #(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.) #he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway #but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again. #something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh #for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been #which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad #but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence? #she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”. #wips tag

[x-adoringvoid-x]

Apparently that's called the 'irresistible force paradox'

#oc f/o #f/o art #fictional other #self shipping #self insert #oc #original character #they're patient with me #also I finally draw Hadri with a different form! #I want to do more with their shape shifting but I haven't made much that turns out well #small vent in tags upcoming if you don't want to read #Feeling bad about posting but I shouldn't just give up #In some way social media isn't for me because I take things too personally #but if I'm going to meet people I have some common ground with I don't know where else I'd look #common ground with something that means something to me #I want to meet people that don't suck to talk to #And actively have things they want to talk to me about that we're both interested in #Tired of being just ears. #I'm talking about my family here not anyone on the site btw #I just wish there were people who wanted to talk in the same way I want to talk #same level of energy I guess #Sorry to vent in silly drawings but it is what it is #Fun fact if you read this far...Hadri would like Evangelion #I don't know why that came to mind today but it makes total sense #They're a deity-like person so religion is interesting and they'd be drawn in by the drama #I honestly don't know how they'd examine media since their setting is basically medieval so Hadri's never really watched anything #Maybe a play? #I'd be nice to know what Hadri would think of things I like #But my tastes are very colorful... watched Ind/go Park for example and have it stuck in my head now #Popp/ playtime and Ind/go Park seem to both be going for fnaf Portal and I am feeling something

[massivementalitynut]

My Valentine's Day comm of Adam from @iwanttobeaseme

#adam taurus #rwby #<3 #was originally planning on something more villainous and bloody but realised Valentine's Day was coming up #So I ended up feeling soft and wanting to show him some love (This gives off such gentle giant vibes and I adore it so ;w;) #He may have a lot of haters but there are people who still like him (at least 4 xD) #Ribbon colours are a small Easter egg reference to the main girls from RWBY ^^ #I was all over the place with which design to go with his eye but stuck with unmasked and unmarred #cause I think I've only seen one fanart of him like that #(and also I wanted to see him happy since we never really get to see him smile but for really short moments in the show >_<;) #ok I'm done rambling in the tags (congrats on making it this far :3c) #It's still early right now but I could not wait (and who knows when you'll come across this so Happy Valentine's Day everyone~)

[shitty-check-please-aus]

I’ve read through two different series so far this year and I have to say I’m upset and annoyed that now I have to wait for the next book to come out

#I finished network effect two days ago and fugitive telemetry today #and this sucks now I'm just stuck here #and you know who would understand my plight of not having enough media downloaded? murderbot #it's like you make friends with these characters and then you don't get to hang out #also I think I might check out other books that Kevin R Free has narrated #because he hit it out of the fucking park with these #everyone has a distinct voice / accent and it's so easy to understand who's talking even when there aren't dialogue tags #and his voice is just very good aside from that! #I'm a Kevin R Free fan account now I guess

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

thinking about how there's a window of time where Tim and Cass basically had the same haircut and like, I know I've mentioned the Concept™️ of them getting mistaken for biological siblings as civilians before but now I'm thinking about like.... what if various goons and villains thought they were bio siblings, but like, in-mask. obviously nobody puts together Black Bat/Orphan and Red Robin with Cassandra Wayne and Tim Drake-Wayne, but Red Robin and BB/Orphan have the same color and style hair, same slight, narrow build, and pretty similar combat styles — is it really a stretch to think that some people might think the two of them are related by more than just paperwork and a father's love?

#i need to add a fic about this to my WIPs list #bc then i can hold myself to it lol #but for now... slightly braindead posts right before i go to bed #I'm very tired and thinking about this makes me happy #tim and cass 100% go with it btw #like at first it doesn't register bc they already think of each other as brother and sister #so it takes some rando making a comment about blood being thicker than water or smth for either of them to be like #wait. y'all think we're blood related??? #and then it's just funny sjjdfkfjskfd #Lu rambles #batfam #cass cain #tim drake #please note that i wrote this post+tags; stuck it in drafts to check for typos; and immediately fell asleep #I'm posting this in the morning but i don't want to redo the tags aldjskfjaknga #i always forget which of cass' hero identities are which???

[seithr]

Randomly remembered the half-reason i call my oc-verse by the name it has while laying in bed. One-half of the reason i still knew, but I had forgotten what had truly, really cemented it jointly until now

(it was a song from my favourite band I haven't listened to in a while.)

(the song fit so well at the time, still does, that i needed to hold onto it for the main protagonists forever, by partially naming their story in reference.)

Does this explanation make any sense? Does anyone know why I'm tearing up remembering this. Aahh

#(I'm emotional because I've been feeling bad about it all lately. enjoying things I make I mean—art or ocs or frivilous things.) #(So remembering that song and when it came out. That I couldn't see them in person. But i held onto it my own way. As something I loved) #(Something I still do love a lot... Parts of me saying no—you don't hate it. No. I'll help you remember more. I'm a little misty about it.) #The song is just The Killers - Run For Cover. I couldn't see them in person all those years ago—family went without me. #All my new oc rework with Zin and Hunter and Caia were like a year old or so. #It's a little silly. But the character Zin's derived from was a lightning mage so I stuck to it—I like monhun's zinogre for what its worth #So there's recurring theme and imagery. Thunder's not lightning but the sound and the feeling after the flash the flame and strike. #There's that meaningful thought—the story is the aftermath of a big tragedy. It matches what I like in monsters and other chars. #And at that time—my favourite band I missed out on puts out a really good song I download everywhere and it goes like: #He motioned me to the sky/ I heard heaven and thunder cry/ Run for cover/ Run while you can baby don't look back/ You gotta run for cover #And it goes on of course. The rest of the song's still really good. There's more that fits but point is; More evocative imagery. #So there. Why my bundle of OCs—Zinadia Hunter and Caia's story—is called Thunder 20XX. minus the 20XX. That's tongue-in-cheek #About some day I'll manage to make something tangeable or broadly shareable with them. I guarentee this century! #Thunder... oh my darling Thunder. Eight years man. More than that if I really want to count pre-rework INTO the complete original work. but #I like that it's definably 8. I like that I remembered I've always loved them a lot. Always been my thing to lean on even by name... #I need to get to sleep. Ive gotten a little more emotional over one song than I'd rather regularly be. Give it a listen maybe? Goodnight #Armour clanking #I need an oc tag #What have you gathered to report to your progenitors?🎶Are your excuses any better than your senator's🎶He held a conference #and his wife was standing by his side🎶He did her dirty but no-one died🎶 #I saw Sonny Liston on the street last-night black-fisted and strong singing🎶Redemption song🎶 #He motioned me to the sky🎶I heard heaven and thunder cry🎶RUN FOR COVER #What are you waiting for—a kiss or an apology?🎶You think by now you'd have an A in toxicology🎶 #It's hard to pack the car when all you do is shame us🎶Even harder when the dirtbag's famous🎶 #I saw my mother on the street last night all pretty and strong singin🎶The road is long🎶 #I said 'Mama I know you tried!'🎶But she fell on her knees and cried🎶RUN FOR COVER #Just run for cover - you've got nothin left to lose...

[bfilm]

after watching muppet tv series episodes basically at random for a bit, i finally finished all of the jim henson hour!!

some thoughts below, but overall i really enjoyed it, even though the shifts between tones in some episodes was kinda jarring at first lol. i feel like more people should know about this show, especially after seeing all the technology they used in the secrets of the muppets episode.

digit is still a character created specifically to my interests and i am still so so sad he isn't in anything else :( literally just a socially awkward semi-robotic latex puppet who loves synth music. he is perfect and they threw him in the closet never to be seen again.

all the other new characters were very nice, but i especially enjoyed the "bean bunny is there to be cute so no one else has to" bit. while i also appreciate him as "guy to throw around" it's a fun added layer to his character!

i think sci-fi -> ocean transition was the most jarring to me, after the sci-fi episode ended with turning louie anderson into a non-marketable plushie i was expecting ocean to be more silliness, and it was up until clifford tells the story of how ted danson ruined the ocean and kermit solemnly says goodnight. and then i still had to watch lighthouse island after this!

i did have to get used to the jim henson hour -> storyteller/other segments transitions but i am very glad i did not skip them or the non muppetelevision specials. my favorites were probably the true bride, the soldier and death, dog city (MUPPET DOGS ARE PERFECT!!!!) and the song of the cloud forest (as a dedicated member of dave goelz nation). i also got unexpectedly invested in living with dinosaurs even though i'm not sure much was explained or resolved that well, the human cast was really good and dog is such a good muppet (why is there no official plush of him!!)

i knew gorilla television wasn't in it much but i didn't expect them to only be in 2 episodes, one of them being in the batch that didn't in the original run. they could've done so much more......i liked their concept as being "above" muppets despite their segments not being that much more cool or complex lol

favorite episode was probably videotape? i might have to rewatch to define it but also like. the music just keeps on rolling along. all night party. the true bride. banger after banger

also jim himself is funny too. the concept of the thought lion for him to bounce off of is so good because in the true bride he's a mystical giftgiver and to jim he is just his really weird cat. awesome dynamic

i really wish more people had watched this show cause it has a lot of fun bits!!! it's so weird to me that so much muppet stuff is lost media or could have been lost media if it wasn't recorded, and this is one of them!! my ideal blu-ray now is a blu-ray of all the episodes of this restored/hd plus a selection of other movies/works by jim (i gotta watch some of his pre muppet show work, including his weird experimental films) but it will probably never happen cause of copyright stuff </3.

#muppets #the muppets #the jim henson hour #jim henson hour #i need to make clips or gifs or something just to make more people watch this show.....even in the very weird quality lol #maybe i'll focus on finishing muppets tonight next since i found some more higher quality videos of that #i. should really watch more of the muppet show i'm still stuck on season one but #(stares at the 108 episodes i still have to watch) it's a lot #page of rambles.txt #that will be my text post tag for now. maybe i'll think of something better later

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

Aspect of Order: Primordial & Present-Day

One of the first deities, part of what is known as the Primordial Triad. It created the planes alongside the Aspects of Chaos and the In-Between and held dominion over the Material Plane. It embodied order in the way nature has order: the life cycle, gravity, the tides, the surety that the seasons will change, the patterns that appear in flora and fauna alike, the symmetry of pinecones and butterflies. It was associated with the night as a time of quiet preparation where the world rests, and when one can see the remains of creation in the darkened sky. It is said that the two moons of the Material Plane are its eyes, watching over its creations.

All three members of the Primordial Triad are referred to with "it", so ancient and unfathomable that applying a mortal, transient concept of gender to them seemed almost blasphemous.

Almost.

The modern-day conception of Order is quite different. Though she still reigns over the night and natural laws, her followers have placed her at the forefront of the creation process, reducing the In-Between's role and rejecting Chaos altogether. Though most present-day cultures think of her in this way, many of them do not emphasize her: she is an invisible Over-God, keeping the other deities and forces in line and maintaining cosmic balance from behind the scenes. In places where she is worshipped heavily, however, she is placed at the forefront of the pantheon. In those cases, worship of deities with overlapping domains is either illegal (ex local gods of justice) or considered secondary to her (ex the god of the Wilds). The worship of smaller, local deities is usually discouraged or suppressed over-all in these areas in order to encourage a more structured, uniform religious practice. While both aspects of Order championed paladins, Primordial Order also championed druids and rangers while Modern Order champions clerics.

Ancient theologians debated whether or not Order and Chaos were two aspects of the same being (ironically, there was no question that the In-Between was its own separate force). However, following the iconoclasm that effectively forced Chaos out of the pantheon and created the modern conception of Order, such lines of thought were considered heretical, and then blasphemous.

The iconoclasm did have an unintended consequence, however. Crying motifs appeared in some art of Primordial Order around that time, particularly in the areas that resisted the iconoclasts more intensely. Some scholars believe that it may have been a direct reaction to the event: Order mourning the loss of its counterpart. Others have argued, however, that the lack of such motifs (or equivalents) in depictions of the In-Between prove this wrong. After all, why would it not also be grieving?

#irredeemed project #<- the working tag for this for now #i've been working on this project off & on for a couple years now #and the primordial triad has had a chokehold on me the entire time #i dont have names for any gods but the in-between (i think i'm gonna keep erasmus) #because i'd gotten stuck and wanted a clean slate. if i name a deity i feel like it has to have a solid form of some sort #and not all of them will #i'm not doing these in any sort of order. i have two other pages done #one of them is for a goddess that i've also been turning around in my head this entire time #i dont have many of the actual historical events fleshed out or any plot points for the 'present day' of the world #so stuff is going to be vague for a moment #i fucking. love the idea of writing/drawing about the world from the perspective of the people who are in it #so historical eras/distinct art movements across time & cultures/theological debates that people disagree on #and how that last thing works when the gods are undeniably & obviously real in some way #im sure the 'right' answers came through in this but that's okay b/c it's just to get my thoughts out of my head lol #worldbuilding #my art #character art #brainstorming #fantasy worldbuilding #my post #worldbuilding project #fantasy pantheons #the mortifying ideal of being known (talking about a creative project online) #hopefully this makes sense and isn't too silly lol

[toasteaa]

honestly though!!! kind of love how i find a kindred spirit in slapping bird symbolism onto our s/i's yes yes.

BUT AGAIN. I REITERATE IT!! I LOVE HER OKAY SHE'S SO SQUISHY AND I LOVER HER SWAN MOTIF AND-

EHEHE I'M SO HAPPY YOU LOVE HER 💕💕💕💕

It really means a lot to me when people get invested in my characters! As much as I love them with their other half, I love building characters that can stand on their own as individuals! I want to make them just as interesting on their own as they are in a dynamic with their significant other! I need to see them get into situations and figure out how they're gonna get out of it! And that's goes DOUBLE for Eclair!

ALSO YESSS BIRD SYMBOLISM 💕💕💕

I almost took her swan symbolism away but was reminded how much I love it for her and that I don't want to get rid of it! Her outfit was originally designed to look like she had tail feathers lmao (stole that idea from Kaveh my beloved 💕 their shirts are actually very similar!) I should probably break down her entire outfit one day and make one big ref for her but...that's so much work LOL

#toast talks #oc tag: eclair dumont #I LOVE HER TOO ANON I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I L #I don't think a day goes by where I'm not thinking about her emdjdkcj she's stuck to my brainfolds #I also grew up in love with ballet and orchestra (neither of which I was able to get into cries but I was in a symphonic band tho) #and one of my favorite ballets was Swan Lake and for some reason Fontaine was like 'hey remember how much you like this?' #and now here I am LOL #I was actually actively trying to avoid making her a dancer at first but it came back to bite me ten fold with symbolism nddjdj

[sygneth]

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#rant time #trying to figure myself out but this shit fucking impossible #only recetly i realised that half of my problems is probably undiagnosed adhd #but something tells me it may be asd and adhd together #although adhd traits are much more prominent in my case and looking at asd diagnostic criteria they don't fully apply but AGAIN #it looks to me more like they don't apply because adhd things come in way? like the typical spontaniety fucking question yeah #ughh i wish there was more audhd proper info because i'm going crazy trying to put this all together #i am planning to get adhd diagnosis as soon as i gather money and i could possibly try to get asd too but #a. good fucking luck getting a proper asd diagnosis as an adult trans dude in PL lmao #b. good fucking luck trying to find a place that does crossdiagnosis #well i'll try anyway but until i get a job i'm like. stuck with it in my own head #and as far as i feel like i probably won't get anywherw further with figuring this out on my own i can't. Fucking. Stop. Thinking about it. #my brain decided this is a Main Theme TM now and will make me do the research until we get sure that's It ot that's Not It #i... i'm tired. #not even gonna tag this as personal post because i just wanted to scream into the void thb

[zoekrystall]

Did I ever complain abt that publicly idk anyways I need to get to the big city (2h to and 2h back, not much for the states but sure for me) and next to not wanting to bc cold, they gonna stab bc blood test and my body hates making that easy to locate (dif place but I will never forget the time I got stabbed like three times and still no blood so new appointment had to be made, I have a fear of needles otherwise it would be whatev), and even more risky bc gatherings were recently do I prob hate the most that like. I'm hungry.

I'm hungry and I suck at eating enough so I often go out w not much in my stomach. I survive but it sucks really bad that I can't either buy smth once I arrive to eat on the way back or pack smth to like eat on the journey bc no-one wears a mask and the virus stays rampant so I can't take my mask off until I'm back home. At the inbetween stop I maybe could but I rather won't risk anything. Esp in winter I could bring smth warm to drink w me at least but I rather don't in the crowd I gotta walk through. Least people are when I'm only a few mins away from home and at that point I can always just wait a bit longer.

Tbh I dread going outside and limit it to only shopping and appointments bc even if I could walk here prob somewhere without many people do I rather just stay indoors and try to limit irl reminders of how many people can't be bothered to care bc that just nosedives my mental health. It doesn't help that I still try to nudge my irl friends to care more.

#a wild lux appears #I also feel stuck in am I ablebodied or disabled limbo reg physical. On record I only got vitamin deficiencies #Ik my body is weak but that could be due to things that change if I took more care and the right stuff #Idk idk my state feels like it changes biweekly or smth #I just know I relate to some things #And also that it sucks since it started having to wonder if covid or the usual bc some stuff do I have since forever randomly #Idk idk I just woke up from a few hours nap I need to slowly get ready. Why can't the train strike start today already #(I also know that when I'm already done going to the city where I just sit could I not deal w going to a strike or smth next to anxiety #making me feel like passing out n maybe actually happening. I leave that to the people that can actually handle that) #Anyways need to get ready now hn #I will complain the whole time but I need to go. Hnnnnn #I just need to think abt the refill that I can't get otherwise. And then the next appointment is anyways only in 3-6 months again #Plus I got another one tomorrow morning so today will force me to fix the schedule enough so tomorrow won't suck #Bc otherwise I would just pass out fully now but like that at prob like. 18-19 then. Hn. #Hate the cold bc layers hate the heat bc I could pasd out you can't win w my body #At this point I just use the tags to stall I'm really off now to get ready OTL

[ranger-kellyn]

told myself to take a break from getaway car so i don't burn myself out like i did last year, and of course my brain wanted to go think about my scarlet/violet fic, sooo have some rambling below the read more

like. one of my ideas has always been that i want juliana specifically to have quaxly not just bc he's my favorite starter in that region, but because it turns into quaquaval, a pokemon that is supposed to be known for its dancing abilities. i like to think they're a pokemon that only needs to see a dance once or twice before they've got it memorized.

i love the idea that a huge part of juliana's overall character arc is admitting to herself how much she wants to learn how to dance in some way because of course she happened to pick the pokemon that loves to dance. so she's basically learning alongside her pokemon throughout his evolution stages, mutually gaining more confidence until he's a fully grown quaquaval.

and!! not just him, but probably the three friends as well! it may not be something any of them are really interested in to begin with, but juliana and quaquaval make it a ton of fun. she probably even takes the time to learn an individual dance of some kind with each of them, and is the first to drag anyone to any festivals happening in the cities and towns.

(bc i am who i am) nemona's the first friend juliana ends up dancing with. while juliana quickly realizes how much quaxly likes music, nemona is the one who tells her about how he's going to turn into a pokemon that loves to dance. she mostly just enjoys having fun with them and learning whatever juliana is into. something that really helps juliana come out of her shell, which leads her to opening up to arven and penny around the same time

not 100% sure of styles apart yet but i mean...penny's has to be some nerd dance lol. i also kinda love the idea of arven learning a very formal spanish style dance with them.

idk i just want the core pillars of this story to be something along the lines of, music, song, food, and dance are all forms of love and connection and can be healing and--- AH i just want them to have time to really develop as a friend group throughout the treasure hunt.

#look my therapist has been saying this about me since the very beginning but i think i'm only just now really accepting it #writing is my therapy #i've seen so many posts saying you don't have to write as therapy / you don't have to write from experience / most people don't do that etc #i dunno. i internalized it all in a weird dumb way #the old bs take of 'if you share your trauma stories you're clearly trying to trigger other people and so ur just as bad'- #-was also stuck in my head #all of that to say i'm excited to work on this story one day since it's written entirely for my younger self #i can't change any of the bad things that happened to us in the past but we can live a little vicariously through fictional characters #let juliana have the friends and the love and support we never felt like we truly had #let my younger self who was traumatized by my mom's dance studio know that dance isn't a bad thing #it's weirdly healing and having fun is so much more important than being good at it #not everything you do has to be with the endgoal of turning it into a career or something that makes you money #at the end of the day i'm writing for me #the fact that other people have read my work and liked it is the biggest bonus i could ever ask for #writing tag

[forgetmenotsystem]

#\\ midoriya #there is. i think. something perhaps wrong with me. #(i say as an introject of a shonen protagonist in a traumatized system) #i do not have it in me to make a personal blog to be honest so forgive my silly tag rants? #i don't... jeez. i dunno! #i want to be who he wants me to be. i'm kind of worried i'm... not though. #it's funny. i think i originally formed about when kandi did. probably a little after. #but he stuck around and i didn't? #and now i don't really know if i know who i am. #i *do* obviously in that strictly literal sense. #but i'm worried i'm not what he wants. #and i want to be. really bad.