#I still remember that bitch and her friends

[spiderziege]

haiii!!! ilove your art and ocs :] can you tell us more about them? they seem really cool <33

thank you... i always feel a little bad when i get questions about my ocs cause i dont really know how to answer those all that well, but ill do my best <3 the gist of it is its a story about a group of teens/young adults in some small rural german town, and slowly that town comes alive in a way. as in the streets change over night, windmills and powerlines grow out of nowhere and all the streets that lead away become longer and longer until its basically impossible to leave. its kind of a regular coming of age story about these five people, but set in a small town horror setting i guess? ill put some random stuff about each of them in order under the cut :]

first one is Lucky, she grows up on her families farm on the edge of town, and she's the youngest of five siblings. she's kind of a loner by the start, mostly cause she has this constant need to prove herself to everyone and everything and so she wants to do things on her own, always. she's very intelligent and determined in everything she does and also very interested in everything supernatural. her and louis only somewhat know each other by the start, but they click and become good friends pretty quickly. mostly cause louis is very willing to go along with everything she does. she's very energetic and almost always at 120%, and she does care deeply for the people she ends up close to. she also has a dog who is very mean

Louis grows up with his mother and his brother, his mom owns a small café in town and also does fortune telling and readings (though she might also be scamming people, nobody knows for sure). he works there as a cashier/waiter, but really he wants to get out of the town, even before the weird stuff starts happening. he's quiet and more of a thinker, but very straightforward when necessary. he's had very frequent nightmares since he was a little kid

Maurice is Luckys half-brother. him and Louis were friends when they were young kids, but they grew apart after one of their mutual friends died in an accident that they both witnessed (louis barely remembers it, maurice mostly does). he's only really close with one of his other sisters, and with the local veterinarian Dani. apart from that he avoids most people. he's very good with animals tho. he's also not exactly religious but he is spiritual, if that makes sense

Elias is Louis' best friend since forever and also the most easygoing person in the entire world probably. he works at a local gas station and he can fix your car. he's kind of the opposite to Lucky in the way that she's very intelligent and determined but kind of sucks at connecting with people, and he's a lot less academically gifted but very emotionally intelligent. he's just a very good friend. also he loves skating and is a bit of a theater kid. he's very scared of dogs which is bad for him cause most of his friends are dog people

Henrike is Elias' twin sister. she and Louis dated for a while in high school, which didn't really work out but they're still good friends. she's a lot more reserved than her brother but she's mostly kind. very dry humour. only occasionally has her mean moments (usually when she's with louis, they kind of bring out the worst in each other. they love gossiping and bitching about others every once in a while its very necessary)

#tsg #asks #this is just whatever first comes to mind for all of them so. yknow #also the various relationships here are just the starting point basically #they all become friends over the course of the story #oc art

[bizlybebo]

VIXENNNNNN!!! Before I return to the dishwasher I have a question. What are your PD boys + Ashe headcanons. Appearances? Idiosyncrasies? Anything? Please 🙏

HEHEHEHEHEHE HIIIII IT’S 3:30 AM HERE (4AM BY THE TIME IVE TYPED THIS ALL OUT) BUT AAAAA I CANT NOT ANSWER THISS !!!!

okok here’s some off the top of my head:

-Dakota’s got a lisp + a bit of a hard time speaking overall. However, it also means he places a lot of importance on what people have to say since those willing to listen to him even if he takes a second are ones he wants to hear from the most, if that makes sense

-Ashe is naturally blonde. She’s got the exact same hair color as Mark, but she bleaches it. She also has green eyes like her dad, but she inherited her mother’s complexion and facial features (also her mom was hispanic. trust i’m bizlybebo).

-Vyncent’s not a huge fan of haircuts on Prime (loud environment + the icky thing where all the hairs get caught on your shirt), so for most of season 1, Tide took care of his hair. Without Tide to really take care of it during season 2, it grew out significantly. William and Dakota take turns trying to braid it now.

-Since Fauna’s pretty cloudy (as far as I remember), Vyncent’s not used to a lot of direct sunlight. He goes to the beach once on Prime and gets sooo sunburnt cause he Doesn’t Get the concept of sunscreen entirely.

-Dakota’s the shortest. This one’s literally canon but I personally like to think that PD in order from tallest to shortest is: Vyncent, Ashe, William, then Dakota. Will’s still like a good head or so taller than Dakota

-Vyncent is scared of multiple household appliances. He has beef with ceiling fans and toasters especially.

-William gets the tetris effect but for like solving mysteries. Whenever he’s really sleepy he starts rattling off random criteria or a synopsis of his general surroundings/anything he notices under his breath.

-Ashe, oddly enough, is the member of PD who goes the most all out for Christmas/holiday season. She loves decorating and making cookies and everything, since it’s her first opportunity to do it with friends and family again in a long time.

-It feels like everyone on here is saying this which makes me so happy cause it’s so real but: Southern William. ouugigohiifih it’s so real to me.

and then some rapid fire ones:

-William has ehlers-danlos. trust

-Dakota Cole freckles. you agree

-Scenemo Ashe and emo William. You agree

-Dakota is terrified of spiders (scooby doo jumps into Ashe’s arms), Ashe is the kind of person to take the spider outside, William just kinda freezes and decides it’s the spiders house now, and Vyncent probably fucking eats spiders

-William does specific makeup to make himself look more alive/masculine (tboy William real. trust)

-William and Ashe are both the kind of person to have one (1) hoodie they constantly wear and basically nothing else.

-Ashe makes kandi and made PD matching bracelets during s1 (smiles. don’t think about Dakota accidentally breaking it during s2 and how bad he’d feel)

-Vyncent collects jewelry (elf brain likes shiny shit or something) but doesn’t wear it often. He just. Keeps it on him and pulls it out to look at it sometimes all proud of it

-Dakota “accidentally” leaves his flannels in Ashe’s dorm all the time when he visits her so he has an excuse to come back. Ashe gives him one back and suddenly two more appear

-Williams actually very beautiful/handsome he literally just gets no bitches because he’s Like That.

#vixen rambles #vixen answers #AAAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS ASKKK #i didn’t realize how long this got omg #i habe. a lot more headcanons on dakofa but they’re s lot sadder #jrwi pd #william wisp #dakota cole #ashe winters #vyncent sol

[kuromhiel]

hi Mei!! I love your stories, I have a request for you.😭 Can you do an angst to fluff bully to liver with crush and reader. But the crush is a male😭😭 please and thank you 🙌

˚ ༘♡ ·˚꒰ Bittersweet ꒱ ₊˚ˑ༄

⇢ ˗ˏˋ CRUSH X FEMALE!READER ࿐ྂ

WARNING(s): Mentions of bullying, blood, cursing, embarrassing moments

I LOVE BULLY AND BULLIED TO LOVERS TROUPE! I know it's sooo cliche but hey, it's adorable and the tension– I love it 😍 Thank you so much for loving my stories 🫶🏽 So sorry that this is VERY delayed, I just got back to writing and this will be the first I will write. 😽

"Again?!" I angrily slammed my fists on my desk, the teacher quickly shushing me.

"[Name], don't you dare slam your fist on the table! What if it breaks? Is it your property?" The teacher says angrily, placing the ruler she used to point on the whiteboard, on the table.

"Sorry, teacher. It's just that SOMEONE wrote some shit about me on a piece of crampled paper!" I said, glaring at the person seated behind me.

The teacher slams her fist on the whiteboard, angrily. "[Name]! You are not allowed to cuss in my class, and even talk back to me." She furrows her eyebrows.

"Detention, after school, for TWO hours." She grabs the ruler and points it at the male behind me. "You too mister, THREE hours for you!"

He rolls his eyes, "Ma'am, are you even allowed to extend detention? Isn't it only allowed for an hour?" He talks back, crossing his arms. I glared at him, his eyes connecting with mine.

He gets the hint that, that was a look of 'Please shut up, you're making things worst.' but he shrugs it off, ugh, the nerve of this guy!

"You want to make it overnight, Mr. [Crush's Last Name]?" The teacher bites her inner cheek, an act to try and stop her anger overflow.

He simply ignores the teacher as she tries to calm down. "Please be seated, [Name]. Do not disturb my class ever again."

I angrily sat down, reading the paper again. Yeah, okay, he may be annoying but him just simply writing down random words in paper makes me feel cared for. Just kidding (not really).

'Red is red, blue is blue, you got some red shit on you.' I furrowed my brows, slowly turning to look behind me. He slowly looks up at me.

God, he sure is a bitch but an insanely hot one— I shook the train of thoughts off my head and showed him the paper, pointing at it.

"What do you mean by this nonesense?" I whispered, yeah, if it was any other day I would ignore it because he would write things like 'You're looking mad ugly today.' or 'I hope a dog bites your shoe off.' But this one was new.

He looks at me up and down, he stares at my skirt, making me crample the paper again and throw it at his face. He grunts, rubbing his eye. "Ouch!" He says quietly.

"Why are you staring at me like that?!" I say angrily, as quiet as I could. "I think you're on your red day." He shrugs. I felt my heart drop. No way, no fu—

I quickly look through my bag, but I remembered that my last pad was given to my friend last week. Shoot, I forgot to get some more at home.

I could hear him laughing at the back, "Pfftt, looks like someone got their ketchup spilled." He says slightly loud, earning small giggles from the class.

I could feel hot tears form in my eyes, I raised my hand and excused myself from the class, trying to hide the red stain from behind my skirt.

I ran to the bathroom and luckily no one was there, I felt the hot tears drip from my eyes, to my cheeks, to my chin. I continued to weep like a baby and sat on the counter, trying to open the faucet but it was broken.

I looked around to find at least tissues or anything, but none was present. I stayed there for a few moments, and the bell finally rang. I still had detention so I sat there for a few minutes, I'd probably be alone in the room so—

I heard a knock on the door. That's confusing, why do they have to knock? The door isn't locked. I slowly opened the door and saw the devil himself in front of me. "What the heck are you doing here? Wrong bathroom!" I was about to close the door but his strong hand stopped it.

"This is the bathroom where the girl on her period is at, right?" He says sarcastically. He gave you a pad, staying silent. "I went out after you did. I got out of school to buy you this. Sorry for saying it out loud in class."

You stay quiet, getting the pad from his hand as you nod. "I'll be quick." A few minutes pass and you take longer than expected. You sat on the closed toilet seat and questioned his nice acts.

Yeah he is the worst person you've met but also the best. He may be attractive but his nice acts make him look more than what he looks like..

I get out of the bathroom, surprisingly but also not surprisingly, he wasn't there anymore.

I remembered the red stain on my skirt, leaning against the wall to hide it as I slowly walk sideways to the classroom. Someone poked my side from beside me, and I let out a yelp.

"Jeez! [Crush's Name] what the hell are you doing?!" He held a plastic bag with drinks and a cloth inside, I couldn't really tell what it was. He hands me the plastic bag he was holding and I took it hesistantly.

He's being way too nice today. "Why are you being sweet?" I blurted out. He stood there silently for a few seconds, making my hands sweat.

I look up at him, he really does look handsome, even more up close. He's always been a cruel person, but I could see that it was only towards me.. Does he have some type of grudge against me?

"[Crush's Name].." I start, my heart pouding. "Did I do something that made you dislike me...at one point?" I continued, looking up at him in embarrassment. There's no way I'm asking him stuff like this.

"No." He says, what an answer. "Then why do you always treat me like I did something bad to you then? Do you just hate me for no reason?"

I could tell that he was about to burst out, he started biting his lip roughly but after he sighed. "Well, fu— I'm.. I like you." He whispered the last part.

My heart dropped at his words. "W– Huh?" I blinked a few times, I could see that his cheeks were turning red from embarrassment.

"God, hurry up and stop talking. I bought you a new skirt, got some refreshing drinks too. Go change, we're late for detention!" He says while walking off, he didn't dare to turn back.

A small smile plastered on my face.

"What a gentleman."

#enemies to lovers #bully to lovers #genshin impact x reader #xo kitty x reader #crush x reader #crush x female reader #bully #school #lovers #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #mha x reader #scaramouche x reader #karma akabane x reader #bakugo x reader #min ho x reader #jax x reader #xiao x reader #aether x reader #ameijamsSPECIALS🫀

[kimboo-york]

Save what you love

The AO3 ddos attack made me realize that we have a whole bunch of people who do not remember the Before Times, back when fanfic archives were dicey af and likely to be deleted/destroyed at any time, or purges took place on the regular to make "unsavory" fic disappear.

DOWNLOAD YOUR OWN FIC.

DOWNLOAD FIC YOU LOVE.

DOWNLOAD FIC YOU KINDA-SORTA LIKE AND MIGHT WANT TO REREAD ONE DAY.

I get that AO3 is a juggernaut but nothing lasts forever and given politics and all sorts of bullshit there always exists the possibility that you might lose access to it.

Also, authors delete fic. It's their right to do so, no matter how pointless and petty it is. They don't owe you, the reader, anything.

DOWNLOAD THAT STUFF NOW.

Sob story from fandom history:

I was in one small fandom where our fanfic archive was erased one day. When we set it up, which back in 2008 took a lot of time and energy to do, the person hosting it assured us (the mods) that her servers would stay up, that she would be available to help if things went down, that she was invested in the fandom.

One day the entire archive went 404 and she stopped replying to messages, emails, socmed tagging. Hundreds of fic, poof, gone.

(I now think it was a whole psyop thing she did on purpose, but at the time I was simply heartbroken and confused...and naïve.)

From what I can tell, most authors in that fandom ended up posting to AO3, but I also know for a fact that some did not. And there is nothing we can do to find those authors or stories, because the archive was deleted with no notice.

#kimboo's musings #fandom history #I still remember that bitch and her friends #it was malicious #and effective #SAVE WHAT YOU LOVE #download that shit NOW

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Tfw your the only one in the family whose facebook hasn't been hacked right now.

#remember how i said our washing machine died? #yeah mom went onto facebook marketplace to try and find one thats nearby enough for dad and his friend to pick it up #and she found one and....yeah #after info given over #the bitch stopped responding #and now moms found out her facebooks been hacked #as has dads somehow #im the only one who hasnt which is funny #as i dont fucking use mine #but still holy shit... #and facebook is making it impossible to recover the accounts

[deus-and-the-machina]

xenoblade 1 is interesting because when I first played it I had really mixed feelings. mostly I think because it had been slightly overhyped for me. there were so many videos with masterpiece in the description and people saying it was their favorite.

there was a lot that first turned me off during the story (namely the way it handled its female characters made me frustrated at multiple points) and also how they handled the revenge arc because I have very very specific taste in revenge arcs and I just dont think it landed for me. 

I think I appreciate it a lot more now that im fully deep into the series. I do like a lot about it, from its gameplay to its environment to a lot of the little cast interactions, to just shulk existing. yeah. yeah its alright

#I remember when fiora died and dunban reyn and shulk were all talking about it I couldn't help but just be acutely aware they'd killed off #the only girl in the cast for their revenge quest and it put a sour taste in my mouth. at least we got sharla soon after who they ALSO did #dirty :(((( and they do bring fiora back but man. girl you've been through so much and have a GOD in your body but all you can think about #is how your bf will feel are you serious. its like they saw the backlash to shion and went ok women no more being realistically upset for #you gotta wait like another game or two :/// you get to never confront or be mad about the guy who stabbed you or the guy who wanted you #brainwashed and also forcibly altered your body irreversibly no your boyfriend gets tobe mad about it. be nice and optimistic darnit #and every lady in the party has their story tied to a romantic relationship in some waytoo. l'man. at least melia got her moment in fc #and its like. its odd bc I dont really DISLIKE any of the major 1 characters its on a scale from liking them to being upset on their behalf #like you have so many charming moments and interactions and I WANT to like you. but they just did you so dirty :(((( #idk ive wanted to get that out there for a while. I have very messy feelings on 1 which is kinda ironic bc a lot of people considered it the #less controversial one for a long time lol. and it is. but still. #siren says #xenoblade #xenoblade chronicles #im constantly on my hater arc btw but I only let it out occasionally bc I am constantly worried of backlash online. I keep my bitching to #friends mostly lmao and oh do they know all about it

[citizen-zero]

After years of my mom obsessing over my hair and forcing me to do various treatments on it and threatening punishment if I didn’t comply. I’ve come to understand why Britney shaved her head that one time. I know that was something she did as part of a mental breakdown but fuck yeah good for her. I get it.

#and the stupid bitch still doesn’t get it or maybe she refuses to #like you can’t pretend you’re just worried and you don’t understand why I’m angry when you’ve spent years strong arming me into #putting castor oil in my hair and attempting to put mayonnaise in it and I think the only thing that stopped her was my dermatologist #bc he said it wouldn’t do anything at best and also don’t put fucking condiments in your hair #but she really wanted to and I don’t remember this but she might’ve hit me over my refusal #and she’d threaten to take my phone away or deny me something else if I didn’t let her do shit #and then recently she FaceTimed me while I was at DND and tried persuading me to see an endocrinologist #like saying oh she had a friend with the same problem and went to an endocrinologist and the birth control was the issue #(never mind the fact that my BC is the reason I don’t have painful cystic acne anymore and do have a regular period again) #and she was trying to push me into going #and I kept saying I wasn’t having this conversation w her now bc I was busy and she was just like ‘so when are we going to have it’ #and basically trying to push past my boundary of I’m fucking busy and this conversation doesn’t need to happen now #I just hung up on her and went on airplane mode but fuck even thinking about it makes me so angry like I want to punch her kinds of angry #and honestly if she hadn’t kept ignoring me and hadn’t kept trying to have this conversation after I said I was busy maybe I would’ve taken #it into consideration and looked into seeing one sometime #but honestly now I absolutely fucking refuse unless my doctor and I agree it’d be a good idea #fuck off mom fuck off and mind your own fucking business #personal #erika's blog and bar

[bugfeelings]

Seeking an adhd diagnosis is like "bring someone from your childhood, someone from your adulthood, your 3 most recent report cards, $500, and your firstborn to an appointment you had to call the same practice 5 separate times to be given after following a breadcrumb trail of referring providers. you may or may not receive the diagnosis"

#chats #I mean the really shitty thing is like #I don't dislike how my brain works?? it's just bad at the one thing I need to do to survive under capitalism (9-5 job) #I mean it'd be great to be able to respond to emails and remember to eat and not miss buses because I consistently forget my keys phone etc #but I like how well I do with ideation #I like following whatever interests me in the moment #I like that I'm kind of good at like 80 things #I only want a diagnosis because that's the only way to get medication which is the only way to treat adhd #my therapist keeps talking about 'the meds won't help you still need to know how to prioritise tasks' I already do that #how does a bitch who regularly forgets to brush her teeth maintain straight As APART from prioritising that shit #also it's so expensive and now I have to worry about which friend to bring and whether they know My Relationship With My Symptoms #I mask!! a lot!! if my friend says 'oh nah she always seems on top of things' is that going to preclude diagnosis? #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[katyspersonal]

I don't understand how there are people still supporting your content after it's clear you are an emotionally unstable narcissist. I swear some people care about their dumb fandoms more than common human decency.

First - I refuse to let my lore posts, drawings and theories be called 'content'. I protest. It is a very soulless term that reduces creativity (the very expression of the soul, mind you!) to some sort of shallow and more importantly, replaceable good. "Why you consume the content from this PROBLEMATIC :( person" in the same vein as "Why you buy your car fuel from an unethical corporation" is absolutely absurd in any way, because creations are not physical goods but something unique.

Second, you seem to be confused on what the fandom entails.

Being a fan of something, in fact, doesn't... really entail all that much? Being a fan of something doesn't, and will NEVER mean that you subscribe to certain cultural, religious, political or humanity values or opinions, it will NEVER be only for the ones the loudest people in the crowd deemed "right" and "pure" enough, and certainly it will NEVER be only for people with clear history *cough cough* or people of "proper" mental state *COUGH cough*.

The only, and only, and only, and ONLY "requirement" for being a Bloodborne fan is - to care about Bloodborne. Ironically, this is something people I tend to become antagonists with often fail at, as there is a difference between 'Bloodborne fan' and 'Mariadeline fan that knows nothing about BB lore and holds only interests in how to shame men more and what kind of fans to declare "problematic"' *COUGH COUGH* god sorry guys, got a bad cough attack during this ask fhdhgfds

But, again, I think we the people that obsess with this or that media came to the conclusion that gatekeeping leads to another extreme - the whole thing with shaming artists that draw something not accurate, and think something not 100% correct to the canon is 'dirtying' the canon. You know, the whole 'oh you are fan of X band? name 40 songs' thing. So I think gatekeeping should be avoided unless someone appears who is both completely uneducated about lore AND tries to set their own rules.

*COOOOOUGH COOOOOUGH*

But, yeah. Your confusion is likely caused by the fact that people who like Bloodborne... love to read about Bloodborne, and not about what user should be blacklisted and what character is this or that identity and what this or that character is "problematic" etc. I object the idea that certain game/movie/book/etc is only for "right" kind of people and I think we as society at this rate are capable of separating interaction with the fictional universe and personality/personal lives.

#ask replies #personal #disco horse #/negative #i think my line of thought started with cringe statements YEARS ago such as the stuff like uhhhhh... #like people being like 'hey CIS MEN stephen universe is for women and trans men and nb folks we take it back!!!' #i then thought 'wow bitches really think enjoying a fictional thing is only for certain type of people????' #but by now it seems to have came the full circle #that said i welcome everyone in this fandom who likes bloodborne #because art is supposed to unite people not divide them #and certainly no game or movie or book is ONLY for 'certain' type of people #art is supposed to have default capacity of reaching everyone despite everything. #yooo you remember how j k rowling claimed ppl who still love hp support her ideals? NEVER do that shit folks #granted there is grey area of people not wanting to get money from people that are on polar different side of politic/humanity compass #which is valid? but i'd appreciate it if that wasn't forced onto people who do NOT benefit anything and just want to enjoy stuff #also emotional stuff is somewhat absurd tbh #i am making conscious effort ever since sp*de blocked me without explaining why to hold people at far emotional distance #so they do not have to be exposed to possibly questionable emotional stuff they don't know how to address #like... i do not in fact cling to people nor i make friends anymore unless they are PROVEN to be as chaotic as me #but again for some people bad once = bad forever and I don't play that game anymore lol

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

dealing with conflict in a mature way (saying nothing, removing them from my close friends instagram story)

#in a very grown up way. she didn't invite me to her birthday party #YES this is the same friend as before if anyone remembers #this is the last straw #i'm accepting that we're just not friends anymore #i guess my hopes that we still were friends the way we used to be were all in vain #but i don't know how to articulate that to her without sounding like a heartless bitch #(even though SHE'S the one who has been too busy to hang out for the past two and a half years so. u know) #so no more close friends for her #i removed her boyfriend too bc i don't want her to still be able to look at it on his account lol #🧃

[dickggansey]

do you ever suddenly very clearly n vividly remember something you had buried deep in ur mind. and it hurts oh so much. and suddenly the whole vibe around you feels just like the vibe from your memory and it's like you're in it but it makes it hurt worse bc you're actually so so far away. yeah.

#i just remembered when my ex best friend kissed me 10 years ago and broke my lip with her braces and she wiped the blood off her lips #and my lips were swollen for a week #and i told everyone it was bc she had kissed me #she was a bitch and a liar and a hypocrite and possibly transphobic too so it's not like. like i SHOULD feel bad. #but i still remember how she was so warm #anyways!!! offing myself as we speak

[rosicheeks]

🙄

#my friendship with my roommate is such a rollercoaster #I’m friends with her one second #and then she freaks out at me for no fucking reason #and now I’m like? #is it even worth being friends with her #like if I had a bunch of friends I feel like I would have left the friendship YEARS ago #but it’s so fucking hard to find friends #I think this is the time in my life I need to decide if it’s worth having shitty friends or if I’d rather just be alone #it’s just kinda ridiculous that I’ve been in this constant battle for YEARS now #we were best friends in high school #and I still remember talking to a few people back then #cause they knew my friendship with her was toxic #but I didn’t wanna see it cause I was in too deep #and now I’m stuck #do I keep a friend that has (kinda) been there for me #helping me with money cause she’s rich but not really being a good *friend* #like don’t get me wrong #I can’t thank her enough for all of the times she has helped me #but I need a friend who is going to BE THERE for me #who will listen to me when I want to bitch and complain about shit #who I’ll feel comfortable going to when I’m down #idk man I’m just rambling now #today just kinda really fucked our friendship #once we move idk how close we are going to be anymore #I just need to figure out how to make new friends #but how the fuck do you do that when you’re an adult #bahhhhhhhhhhhhh #shut up rosie

[evandorepart2]

ok anyway im leaving in. the day after tomorrow at like 2am so im just saying its tomorrow cause im literally just gonna stay up till then theres no point in sleeping. BUT two things. one i need to finish packing. my clothes are dry so i just have to bring them upstairs and pack. sort of stressed out bc like. i like my outfit i dont want to change it but everyones telling me its too hot for a leather jacket like i know!!!! but its my jacket :(

anyway i just have to do that so ill do it now and then…on top of that i wanted to get the draft for my ghost story done but i havent been working on it at all >_< ive just been reading comics the past couple days. so tomorrow. for sure. i will definitely work in getting the draft done totally.

but ugh im kind of nervous i havent seen these people in so long and im not great socially. also i dont go on trips in general so like. i hope i have energy for a full month yknow. i have a tendency of isolating myself when im stressed out but i dont have any space to do that…not that i should but whatever you know

#LIKE. im just eugh like im Bad at small talk. im better at dispensing information and leaving it that #or listening. ive been practicing listening a lot more so i dont overtalk and everyone gets a turn #OH RIGHT!!!! i hope. cause i have 4 cousins. two are toddler age #one is a little younger than me so like 13 but hes a boy idk how he is cause he might be annoying no offense <3 #and then an older girl whos around my brothers age so a few years older. and we never rlly talked cause it was always my brorher and her #last i saw them i was like. god idk it couldnt have been too young cause i got black out drunk before i stayed with them #so. 11? 12? definitely younger than 13 i know for a fact #im bad with times tho #anyway its been a while and im a lot older now. so i hope shes there so we can talk and be friends idk #apparently my brother isnt close to her anymore? he called her a bitch last time we talked abt her so. hope i do see her #and my aunt! i always liked her a lot and my brothers prob gonna be busy with our uncle. ill be stuck with the younger kids but thats ok i #dont mind since im used to handling my sister. apparently theyve wanted to meet me for a long time so i am super excited #i dont think anyones gonna expect what i look like tho lol i dont think anyone could have guess me being punk #not even me like i distinctly remember in elementary my friend. we were talking about mcr and emo / punk stuff and he was like. you coukd #never be like that. ummmmm well guess what dickhead!!!! jokes were actyally still close lol #ANYWAY i am fucking excited and nervous and have to find a normal way to bring up 18th century fashion or perhaps history of contemporary #folk

[muddi-gutz]

the way that i am so smart

#the way that i could absolutely doxx my abuser 🤪✌🏻 #muddi thoughts #i now know where he lives. the top apartment 120 in my building :) #he’s parked in the front now like that stopped me from seeing him come home from what looked like work this morning #and i alreayd know he’s an emt #like that will make up for what he did to me #fucking scumbag #i know what car he drives now and if he’s parking in the spot he’s supposed to be parking in then he’s in 120 1/2 (top apartment) #lol since his girly refused to even tell me the colour of the building (whoop de doo. i can walk outside and fucking look bitch) #now i actually was interested in finding out exactly where he lives #context for that last bit: i work with his girlfriend (who knows what he did to me and still associates with him) #and legit i don’t like her but she talks to me like we’re besties and it’s like girl do you not remember that i was literally the one who #kicked you out of the friend group ? like what #so yeah she’s a pos and he’s a pos and you know what i’m sure nico still talks to him too so they’re also a pos #fuck those toxic bitches they can have each other

[heartburstings]

what r ur guys's headcanons/theories for post-bare? mine is that matt has a sexuality crisis and has a crush on peter and is like, "how soon is too soon" but inflicts catholic guilt upon himself whenever he thinks like that so he just never makes his move, esp bc like. who the hell is he going to go for advice. bc the last advice guy he had made him homophobic so.

and u think this wouldn't be an issue bc like, after they graduate, how much would they see each other actually? but surprise! there's like way too much drama surrounding ivy's pregnancy and what she should do abt it. even tho it's like. nobody's business but yk how ~society~ can be. so the group sticks together and supports her in her decisions, so like, while it's tense bc. matt's there. he's also allowed to be there bc matt's valedictorian (allegedly) straight altar boy status helps them out in reasoning/arguing with whatever rando pta adult takes issue with ivy's decision-making, even when she hasn't made a goddamn decision yet.

speaking of. matt also has "how soon is too soon"-itus with ivy. he's like, well clearly she can't stand to be in the same room w me, but :( i wuv her :( [is repressing his gay realizations]. meanwhile ivy n nadia are eating chips and casually cussing out jason's dad for trying to pressure ivy into keeping the baby as if being the father's father even matters. he's like having 3 different crises in his little chair and everyone else is just chilling and bitching. he's like "how soon is too soon... no. i don't deserve him. not after what i did. and especially not ivy. they all deserve better than me... why am i here..." just brooding in the cvs aisle while peter asks him if he's got cash on him to help pay for ivy's shit bc he's a few bucks short. lucas takes a passing glance at him one day and is like jesus christ dude you need weed so bad and matt's like haha no ty :] i'm a good catholic boy. and lucas is like ok dude but lmk if u change ur mind i'll see u later. and now matt has 1 more thing to brood about even tho he has 0 qualms abt stealing church wine

#wynn speaks #bare: a pop opera #sorry this got long can u tell he's my blorbo. can u tell he's like a pathetic wet-limp hairball to me. #matt steals church wine and is like i hope i get to share it w peter again. as if somehow they will end up dancing even tho everything's #changed and peter is literally grieving his dead bf (whose death matt feels infinite guilt and responsibility for). #he's like well more likely peter will let me know how much he fucking hates me but i remember when we danced. #but i don't deserve him... n i can never tell him...... bc of jason....... #i don't think they hate matt tho. i think they think he's an asshole but they still look out for him. #they're not gonna throw him to the wolves. they're not gonna make him go it alone after everything. #mixed feelings definitely tho. #like nadia knows that matt is forming a crush on peter while also having a crush on ivy and just lets him. #she's like lmao suffer. bitch. #but when someone inevitably accuses matt of being gay himself bc why else would he continue to be friends w and support peter #nadia squares up w them #but she'll never let him know what bisexuality is. matt's gotta learn it from someone else but it'll never be her #u kno what i'm getting at? #the post-bare fic in my mind... it is so bittersweet and everyone is trying to live. live with themselves and with each other.

[princelyhelp]

okay idk how long you've been rping for but remember when rpc stood for roleplay critic and people would send their roleplays to be reviewed!! some people would go SO HARD and it was the juiciest thing to read like 11-year-old me was nodding to the comment about the orange being a hue too bright for the background when i am colourblind

i've been here for a while OAIJGAOIGJAOIGJA AND OMG YES I DO REMEMBER THESE!!!! i was actually one of those people who would do opinions or reviews for rps. but i was like actually nice and helpful back then

#rpt #the prince speaks #i want to say i was a much nicer person when i was younger #until i remember the time some girl fought me bc i told her we weren't friends #tbf she was a bitch and was arguing with my friends #not my fault she tried to drag me into that bs #anyways!!! i was nice within the rpc!!! #i'm still somewhat nice i just refuse to deal with a lot of people's bs teehee <3