#I really need to get a hobby

[the-solar-system52]

INK DEMON AND BENDY THEORY

So Bendy's official Instagram account just posted something very interesting, and I want to theorise about it!

For awhile the social media account for Bendy have been doing these posts where Bendy takes a photo of a location from BATDR and steals an item from that location, and people have to guess what he took. I thought it was just an unimportant game to give the social media managers something to do, like Steelwool's 'Guess The Sketch', but now it's actually important.

The picture shows that Bendy built all his stolen items in the shape of his Ink Demon form, with an interesting caption. Some fans have took this post to mean that Ink Demon ordered small Bendy to make a statue of him, but I don't think that's true.

I'm a big fan of the "Bendy is the Ink Demon with the mind of a child, and they are NOT seperate people" theory, and I don't think this post disproves that.

So if you know my past TPOH and FNAF theories, then you know its time for another round of:

SOLAR NEEDLESSLY OVERANALYZING THE GRAMATICAL STRUCTURE OF SENTENCES TO MAKE A THEORY EVEN THOUGH MOST PEOPLE DON'T PAY THAT MUCH ATTENTION TO HOW THEY PHRASE THINGS

Lets dissect this single sentence like a frog!!

"His inner Ink Demon is always on his mind-"

If Joey Drew Studios had phrased this as "IN his mind", then I see how this would be more literal. Meaning that the Ink Demon is a separate entity to Bendy and is literally living IN his mind.

But they didn't, they said "ON his mind". This phrase is usually used more metaphorically. If I'm hungry, I can say that dinner is 'on my mind', but that doesn't mean my dinner is actuallly INSIDE my brain. All this means is that Bendy has been thinking about his memories of his Ink Demon form, and therefore made a statue of him when he looked like that. Possibly to try and communicate his complicated feelings through art, or maybe he collected those specific items almost subconsciously.

Second of all, if the Ink Demon really was ordering Bendy around from inside his mind to make that statue for him, then I don't think it looks right. In BATIM, there are multiple shrines made by followers of the Ink Demon like Sammy, that look more demonic. As you can see, Bendy's statue doesn't look anything like that. Not a candle or pentagram in site! I feel like if this was made by the request of the Ink Demon, it would look way more like the ones from BATIM. But it doesn't! Instead, I think it looks more like it was made by Bendy on his own accord, like a children's drawing.

"His inner Ink Demon-"

Again, Joey Drew Studios decided to take the less-literal more-metaphorical route of this phrasing. If they just said "THE ink demon" then it would imply the Ink Demon as his own separate entity. But saying "inner" when referring to a buried memory of someone's past is not uncommon to do for regular use as well. For example, if I draw cats a certain way then I can say it's my "inner warrior cats fan" coming out. That doesn't mean there's actually a warrior cats fan inside my brain ordering me around, it's symbolic.

"on his mind, searching for an exit."

This also doesn't disprove my theory. The Keepers technology is preventing him from turning into his Ink Demom form. This means he can't use his powers and is weaker and smaller. It's clear he at least vaguely remembers what the Keepers did to him because of how scared he is of the GENT building.

Since he is in an incredibly hostile environment, it's no surprise he'd be thinking of a time where he wasn't as vulnerable. And he would also be trying to find a way to be strong again, in his own child-like way. Which explains the statue.

Personally, I find this all way more interesting then "rrr ink demon scary rrr", but to each their own.

I have more evidence for my "Bendy is the Ink Demon with the mind of a child, and they are NOT seperate people" theory outside of this instagram description, but I've already written enough for this post. I may make another post about it but we'll see. Please comment if you have anything else to add ^^

#I really need to get a hobby #I just wrote an entire tumblr post analysing ONE SENTENCE about my hyperfixation #batim #batim bendy #bendy #bendy and the dark revival #bendy and the ink machine #batdr #batdr bendy #the ink demon #batim theory #batdr theory #batdr the ink demon

[autisticlenaluthor]

20 upcoming fics???

okay so actually more but i give no promises that they’ll all be completed. this is how i’ve broken it down

•i have 20 prompts/requests in my inbox (including the matilda fic)

•one new multi chapter fic that i’ve started and haven’t posted anywhere and one multi chapter fic where chapter 1 is on my patreon and the rest is a WIP

•there is also a library au one shot im writing inspired by the song “the mute” about what it’s like for lena growing up deaf and non verbal

•and then cancer au which has upcoming stuff that will be posted soon if i can get myself together and actually finish chapter 20

•and also library au which i wish i had the motivation to update lmao

so yeah. way more than 20. i’m going to dig my grave out of unfinished WIPs

#fic progress #fic updates #i really need to get a hobby

[inkskinned]

one of the things about having an unstable parent is that it can so easily ruin your future. you want to get out, but getting out takes having agency. it takes the resume and the grades and the stellar community service history.

but you have to choose your battles. you know if you sign up for an after-school activity, it'll be okay for a while, so long as the activity is parent-approved and god-fearing. over time, like all things, it will become an argument (i can't keep carting your ass to these things) or a weapon (talk to me like that again, see if you get to go to practice). sometimes, if you love the thing, it's worth it. but you also know better than to love something: that's how they get you. if you ever actually want something, it will always be the center of their attention. they will never stop threatening you with it. telling you of course i'm a good parent, i came to all of those stupid events.

you learn to balance yourself perfectly. you can either have a social life or you can have hobbies. both of these things will be under constant scrutiny. you spend too much time with her, you should be at home with family is equally paired with you're acting like this because you're addicted to what's on that goddamn screen. you cannot ever actually win, so everything falls within a barter system that you calculate before entering: do you want to learn how to drive? if so, you'll need to give up asking for a new laptop, even though yours died. maybe you can work on a computer at the library. of course, that would mean you'd be allowed to go to the library, which would mean something else has to bleed. nothing ever actually comes free.

and that bitter, horrible irony: you could be literally following their orders and it still isn't pretty. they tell you to get a job; they hate that your job keeps you late and gives you access to actual money. they tell you to do better in school; they say no child of mine needs a tutor. they want you to stop being so morose, don't you know there are people who are really suffering - but they revile the idea you might actually need therapy.

you didn't survive that fall the way other people would. you've seen other people scramble and get their way out, however they could. maybe you were made too-soft: the answer didn't come to you easily. it wasn't quick. it was brutal and nasty. some people even asked you why didn't you just work hard and escape during school? and you felt your head spinning. why didn't you? (they control your financial aid. they control your loan status. they love having that kind of thing). maybe in another life you got diagnosed sooner and got the meds you needed to actually focus and got attention from the right teachers who helped you clear hurdles to get up out of here - but for now? here?

the effort of trying. the effort of not-dying. that kind of effort was absolutely agonizing.

#writeblr #btw i got out #even though i felt this way #i was undiagnosed and was in a particularly fucked up situation #(it's complicated lol) #i had no money and no way out #no car no license . i still had a curfew at 22 years old #and still. i got out. #you can get out too. #i wasn't allowed to literally do anything after school we were pretty much only allowed 1 hobby #and STILL i got out. #it wasn't bc i was particularly smart or capable or clever. it's that 1. i got lucky & 2. #i knew there had to be The Rest of The World #and I wanted to at least VAGUELY get to the Rest of the World before i gave up trying #sometimes it's the spite that gets u thru it. that sense - fuck u #FUCK YOU ACTUALLY. #im gonna make my own life u stupid bitch. since u seem so convinced i could never REALLY do it. #whenever ppl are like <3 just cut out ur parents <3 im like <3 have u never been poor lol <3 #<3 i needed them to sign my loans <3 #<3 bestie not every person who is struggling is going to be able to make the grades and hero status to get a free ride. #and guess what baby!! we still deserve to get out and have a good life.

[mrmosseater]

how fake brawl stars yaoi likers feel when REAL deadsilent fans come at them

#brawl stars #brawl stars fanart #brawl stars mortis #mortis brawl stars #brawl stars gray #gray brawl stars #gray #mortis #OLD MAN YAOI #god i love old men in love #SO MUCH #please someone needed to spread the propaganda #because im so tired of seeing gray shipped with chester #GRAY IS AN OLD MAN!!!!!!!! CHESTER LOOKS REALLY YOUNG!!!!!! ARE YOU INSANE!!!!!! #GET A HOBBY STAY AWAY FROM HER (about gray) /REF #uh anyways these two are gay as hell #their ship name is deadsilent i made it #what do you think

[thestarofcottonland]

i pray my bf never finds out how friendless i am its so embarrassing . i havent been sad about it in a long time. but i kinda am tonight

#i have coworkers i get along really well with but i dont feel any way i can connect with them outside of work nor do i feel they want to #i have ghosted every guy friend online because they were more like guys that hit on me and sometimes we talked about games #and ive been okay since then with just my bf. but sometimes on my days off when hes busy. i feel really alone #i dont want to be isolated but i always end up this way.....i wish i had girl friends....v_v #and as per my post im obviously not going to tell my bf im struggling with my loneliness lol hell no....ill just get over it by tomorrow... #i go to work and it takes my mind off everything else #need some hobbies need to get lost in something on my off days #squeaks

[late-tothe-party-07]

*ahem * *picks up notes *

Leo is strategy smart

Donnie is science smart

Mikey is emotional smart

Raph is support smart

In this essay I will-

#save rise of the tmnt #2012 tmnt #2012 leo #2012 donatello #2012 mikey #2012 raph #No cause I was thinking about it #Mikey is the best with navigating emotions #He's always the first to get through #whether that be to make friends #Or calm people down #Leo has a million plans and backup plans #He is quite literally always either on fight mode #Or planning for a fight mode #His main hobby us training #Come on #Donnie is very obviously science smart #I dont even need to really explain much for that #Raph gets overlooked but hes defintely supportive smart #no no no shut up #listen #He's the one who told Mikey he didnt need Bradford #Hes the one who has on multiple occations #pulled Leo out of spiralling in anxiety and overthinking #He's the one the boys looked to when Leo was out #He was the one who stood guard #Hes the one who whacks the others upside the head when they do smth stupid #but ultimately he just wants them to be safe #He doesnt know emotions very well #But he can be a physical comfort

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

What markers do you use and what kind paper? The textures are so Delicious

Very basic paper, actually! I find I overthink when using expensive stuff and it makes my sketches worse.

As for markers, I use Copics! Not that this is an endorsement (my first set were a very nice gift), but I have really liked using alcohol based markers over water based ones; lovely texture, good blending, and less streaking. However, the price can be *brutal*, and you can very easily get by with other markers + pencil crayons.

#ask #art faqs #fancy supplies are nice but the dont really help THAT much for art skills. Consistancy and persistance does. #I balked the first time I needed to go in to buy a few new ones to fill out my roster. #if you are going to invest; my strategy was to make those fancy new supplies a reward for drawing X amount of days in a row #that way one doesnt buy a bunch of stuff for a soon to be abandoned hobby #Art is a relatively cheap hobby at its basics. You do not need the fanciest and most expensive things. #I think watercolour is the only exception for me; that paper better be high grade. The paint mix also matters #but I digress. Buy what you need and not what you want. Save your money. #Guilt will make you stop drawing. Hoarding supplies and never using them is wasteful #when I drop money on new colours I'm going in with a list of what I want #and looking through the swatchpad for hours until i get the right colour. #cant emphasize enough how fortunate I am to have been gifted my copics. I never would have bought them on my own.

[relaxxattack]

wait are you anti endo :((

i had to look up this word to make sure i knew what you meant because for some reason i mixed this up with emeto and thought you were asking me if i was anti vomiting??? 😭

anyway no

#i was like 'is this about an eating disorder??' #but anyway #tbh i dont really care about the origins of anyones weird mental shit #being a fakeclaimer is like the dumbest thing in the world like who cares if someone fakes a disorder. get a hobby bro #if someone is genuinely spreading bad shit abt a disorder you have i can understand rbing to correct them but #everyone experiences shit differently so accusing someone of faking just because they dont seem disabled how you want them to be is dumb af #me personally i dont need 'proof' of anyones identifying of anything. if you want to be treated a certain way well #i am capable of being decent and respecting other peoples wishes and boundaries. its that simple 🤷‍♂️ #should i tag this as discourse or something. idk. ask to tag ig? #syscourse

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

The way I wanna learn so many silly hobbies!! Like I wanna be able to walk on my hands and contort and speak fictional languages, just so I can entertain people with a mystery bag of talents

But alas I am poor

no i know right. but. you do know that you don't have to pay to learn how to walk on your hands, right? or speak fictional languages? you should probably pay for a contortionist coach tho yeah

#many many hobbies... Dont need to be payed for #you can learn languages and skills #got printing paper? origami. got a pencil? fun fonts #birdwatching? go outside! there are online guides! #there are so many youtube guides and tutorials and tips and tricks and ideas- #Dont Trick Yourself Into Thinking You Can't Do Anything Without Paying First #this is why i hoard gift cards tbh #so that if there's a time where i really want to do something that requires Materials #i can buy what i need without paying #but seriously though. you can do a lot w/o needing money to get it done #can you do a handstand? you're halfway to walking on your hands already if yes #and if no - there are so many handstand tutorials! #rambles from the bog #juggling? get some eggs or small rocks or pet toys if you have em! #tape up crumpled paper balls! #DONT LET THE CAPITALISM LIFESTYLE FOOL YOU! MONEY IS NOT ALWAYS NECESSARY! #THE WORLD IS SO MUCH BIGGER THAN THAT #AND THERE ARE SO MANY KIND PEOPLE POSTING TUTORIALS AND GUIDES AND LINKS AND ALL! FOR! FREE!

[toxooz]

i Need to take up embroidery now rIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#walmart didnt have a starter kit and hobby lobby is closed RRRRUHHUERHRHRRRR #i was always like i love it but its simply somebody elses thing my whole life until like 1 am last night my brain unlocked #the things i could make with practice and patience i need to seeeE CONSARNIT shit would be SOOO COOL #i want to just have fun with it and be jovially shitty at it for a while until i pick up on things #ive forgotten everything ive learned throughout my life when it comes to sewing & that of the like but i feel like itll click after a while #itll definitely be a lil side hobby bc holy FUCK i dont have time to really sit down and invest atm but still #maybe my small new years resolution is get better at embroidery and see my progress bc i lov that shit #plus when im like 60+ yrs old imagine what crazy shit i could do if i start now #ANYWAY ill get to those asks eventually theres some that i simply want to draw for but brother im sniper focused on getting this damn comic #done and DONE so i might have to answer them way later tbh unless its super easy and quick to answer imma have to put off asks cause im #hellbent the comic should be done by early february

[cursedcola]

Sometimes I wish I knew how to art, because I’ve just been mulling over Adult AU the past few days in bed and the (like say late 20s - late 30s) brain rot for the TWST characters is real. Yet all I can do is pen down how I think they will look, behave, etc and how their lifestyle is….but I just feel like I will never get my image of 28yr old kindergarten teacher Floyd across. That’s right. I said Floyd. I feel like I could write paragraphs and no one could ever visualize what I see.

People who art. How do art? How do start art? Where begin? Me have many hobbies for distraction. Perhaps add art? Me used to failure so start art as old human seem not too bad. Art seem fun.

#yes i wrote that second paragraph like that intentionally #fr though i think art would be nice to learn #ive tried a few times but the perfectionism always got in the way #might be nice to learn now as a calming hobby though #i really need to publish some adult au stuff like you guys just don’t get it

[sarifel-corrisafid-ilxhel]

I wanted to share this even though it's not Animorphs related, because I'm just so excited about it. I finally, finally saw the Milky Way for the first time last night. I'll share more photos on my photo blog when I am awake, but here's the one I'm most proud of.

This photo was taken at... around 2:30 AM ish from the Great Sand Dunes National Park. I was having trouble sleeping (I forgot to bring a pad to put my sleeping bag on) and went outside, and... holy fuck. I spent an hour and a half taking photos of this thing because I was too excited to try to go back to sleep.

It's interesting how I couldn't capture the Milky Way as it actually looked to my eye, though. I got several quick shots, which are too dark and don't even compare to what I could see, but then i also got timelapse images which capture things like colors that I couldn't see. The difference between cameras and eyes is baffling. I think this interrupted timelapse below was the closest I got to showing how it actually looked to me, though the trees are still too bright.

#Not Animorphs #Sharing here because I'm too excited #I really need to get a sleeping pad for camping #the milky way #astrophotography #night sky #nature photography is a hobby of mine

[trashabilly]

i finally finished the cross stitch im gonna gift my fiance, it took like 3 weeks bc I could only work on it after he went to bed and i kept fucking it up but its done now, I know there's stuff that could be better but listen... it's done....

#cross stitch #hand embroidery #i still need to getbsome felt to finish off the back but the actual stitching is done #the text is an aunty donnas reference #i was gonna do “i prayed to jesus then i fucked him too” but he really loves this quote from the show #theres no way in hell im getting the other 2 done by the 25th #im 1/3 finished one of them but the other i havent even started #shouldve started doing this sooner but i didnt pick up the hobby till late november

[deathtodickens]

Pete: Shameful.

Helena: Say another word, Peter.

Pete: I have four for you: Full. Of. Shame. Wait...

Helena: Everyday he finds new and exciting ways to annoy me.

Myka: I told you to think long and hard about it before you ever came back.

Helena: Let's just say I had my reason and leave it at that.

Pete, laughing: Long and hard.

Claudia: Can we not encourage him so early in the morning. I'd like to be able to keep my breakfast down today.

Pete: H.G. is the one who keeps setting her room on fire, like we don't already know she never sleeps in there anyway.

Myka: Whatever you think you know, you don't.

Pete: Mykes, even if the walls weren't as thin as they are, you have broken the Univille noise ordinance every single night since that woman has been back.

Abigail appears.

Myka: I swear to god, Pete.

Steve: Every single night.

Claudia: The walls are so very thin.

Abigail: And the warehouse echoes.

Abigail pats Myka's and Helena's heads, then reaches for a bagel.

Myka: Abigail!

Abigail: What? I thought we were sharing.

Myka: Helena?

Helena: I take it as quite the compliment, actually.

Helena proudly sips her coffee.

Myka: Oh my god. Goodbye to all of you and especially you, person who is definitely not sleeping in my room tonight.

Myka leaves, glaring at Helena.

Helena: What did I do?

Abigail sits in Myka's chair.

Pete: Think you burned your room down a little too soon this time.

Abigail: Nonsense. She just did it for the chase.

Everyone looks at Helena.

Abigail: Are you not going to chase her?

Helena: As though I am some desperate scoundrel who so longs for intimacy that I'd allow myself to be lured in by acts of emotional manipulation?

Claudia: Right, no. Of course not. You? Hah!

Steve: That's definitely not a lie. Sarcasm font.

Claudia: Don't say sarcasm font.

Steve: Why not? It's funny.

Claudia: We all know it's sarcasm.

Abigail: Your loss, boss.

Pete: Shameful.

Everyone goes back to what they were doing.

Helena taps her fingers against the wood of the table nervously.

Helena: For the record.

Helena stands.

Helena: I dislike all of you.

Helena leaves.

Steve: She was definitely not lying that time.

Claudia: Ah, she'll get over it as soon as she sees Myka's gorgeous greens.

Abigail: If anybody's curious to know, the floor here is also thin.

Pete: Swabs in, ma'boys.

Everyone reaches into their pockets and pulls out ear buds, ear plugs and cotton swabs. Shoves those into their ears. And returns to their breakfast.

Their newspapers.

Their minding of ones own business.

#bering and wells #warehouse 13 #dickens draws #i need to spend less time doom scrolling on twitter #also more time getting my little stress relieving hobbies in order because wooooooo boy the stress is really stressin ya friend #in good news i've written two chapters of ages and only have one left before i can finally move on to the next era of ages #i had to get iron infusions because of my severely low iron and i'm saying that's helping my brain BRAIN but i'm not saying it's not helpin #still waiting to get my car back though #rip skelena

[standfucker]

not gonna lie yall, it feels like all I do is either work or recover from work and it's bumming me out big time

#I don't have a chronic illness. I shouldn't be taking this long to recover #idk why I can't get home from work and go straight to writing #it's like I have to spend a day mustering up the will to live in the face of ongoing capitalism #it's my own fault. I would have had a two day weekend but they asked me to come in to cover someone and my clown ass said sure #I want to be pissed at the coworker who called off but it's my own fault for accepting #I had a phone interview today and I am ANXIOUS to know if they're going to bring me in for a second interview I NEED a better job #I just want a job where I dont dread going to work and also maybe get paid more than minimum wage #feeling really depressed about capitalism and working forever and knowing I'll never be able to afford a house #I WANT TIME TO DO MY HOBBIES GOD DAMN IT ;A; #also im lonely as hell. how am I supposed to go out and meet people if I'm too tired to do anything #I wanna meet someone. I wanna be loved romantically.

[throttlegainwell]

You know, I've previously used Norwegian purling mostly just to get through a lot of 2x2 ribbing, but, actually, having used it now for the garter panels (in the round), I can pretty definitively say it's way easier on my hands and wrists than whatever the hell it is I'm doing when I purl with the yarn in front. Gauge seems more consistent with my knits, too. I mean, I was aware of the technique and knew how to do it; I would just forget about it because of habit. But it seems to work out better for me.

So I may just stick with Norwegian purling for, like, always.

#adventures in sweater knitting #knitting #btw this isn't a yarncrafts blog but i do kind of use it as a catch-all for hobbies #and honestly i really do think i just needed to work on a big project for a while #i am just not in a writing mood lately and need to get out of my head #it's definitely helping