#I need to work less and sleep more

[chaos-le-mieux]

Error Chara Answers: 017

Error Flowey is a bit of mystery, but I'm sure that picture will give you some hints. Alternative Ink Characters are trickier to deal with, since there's not to much information on them, or, more accurately, if there is, it's not as well shared as the main Ink Sans. And even then, things can get confusing. Ink Sans will eventually show up (spoilers), but that's for much later on. As for the strings, according to one of the asks in the original ask Error Sans series, Errors Sans's Magic is pretty the same as regular Sans, and the strings are just an extension of his Magic. Error Chara can summon knives, create portals, and make strings like a Monster would, though, considering their base is human, there could be something else going on. Though, other humans in the multiverse also use Magic, so... I got room to play with on the nitty gritty of how that works. I mean, I could take the easy route and say it's Magic, or... I can create something overly complicated because, well, why wouldn't I? lol Enjoy~ Undertale © Toby Fox

#Error #Chara #Flowey #Error!Chara #Error!Flowey #Error!Tale #Asks #Feel Free to ask these Dorks Questions #They don't bite #Well Flowey Might #I need to work less and sleep more

[deoidesign]

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without' #I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk. #can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work... #for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well! #it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to. #but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end... #I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too. #but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk. #anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better. #but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much. #and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so... #I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better. #and I'm just crying because of all this combined. #I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

[quinn-pop]

sorry for the metadede flood lately um. anyway i think dedede officiates waddle weddings. if they even have them lol. it’d be funny and cute

#reason for the flood: thinking abt one idea means i get 50 more #one of these were drawn with the old pen! and my god it shows #one is also two sketches fused together (which ive had to do a lot lately) and…okay actually it’s still easy to tell but not bc of that #i am mad with power #meta knight #king dedede #kirbyposting #my art or something #i think my art ideas are probably very weird lol #but you know me i love a good shenanigan #if it’s any condolence i swear ive been working on less self indulgent stuff too lol #not…NOT self indulgent because it’s me and i like having fun #it’s my blog i do what i want or something #im juggling like 7-9 projects right now (and most of the time) so my progress on each is very random #i thrive off of goofiness #but yes that is why i do this stuff. and then the Big Serious Projects never get finished #half kidding. i have a lot of stuff at abt 80% rn #metadede #because i forgot if i need to tag when it’s already in the post lol #id probably save this for a few weeks out but i dont have anything else done and yeah im procrastinating on sleeping #wow i really do write an essay in every tag

[starbuck]

the thing is, i know realistically that full time jobs take up a lot of people’s time, but that’s also hard for me to put in perspective while working full time AND doing school AND volunteering a bunch. Like. i very literally have no free time right now and the idea of ONLY working 40 hours a week sounds so luxurious to me… Like. imagine if work (that stayed at work) was my ONLY responsibility… if i could just come home and lounge?? unfair. obscene, even.

#i would be SO much more chill and get sooooo much reading done! #maybe i could even watch a show or something???? #but nooooooooo #gotta work work work all day long #at least i’m getting enough sleep #early bedtimes ARE something i’ve stuck to #could i be getting more done if i stayed up later? sure. #but it’d be lower quality and i’d be even LESS coherent for it #so it’s much better to get the sleep #maybe in 2029 i will know peace… (planning to finish my Master’s degree by 2028 at the latest) #just give me a secure full-time job with benefits and NOTHING ELSE #i’ll keep volunteering as much as i can but like. i just need DOWNTIME… literally ANY would be great #i had 101 assignments due in eight weeks this semester - that is fucking CRIMINAL #LET ME LIIIIIIIIIIIIVE 😭😭

[mihai-florescu]

Im at a point in life where im emotionally dependant on a very specific pastry and now im reasoning with myself that i am ok with waking up tomorrow if i go buy myself one. The "save me *thing* save me" meme is not a joke to me it's very real. Save me cheese spiral from the supermarket near school save me

#i tried drawing. um. worst experience of my life. literally have less than zero progress as in i ended up deleting everything i made tonight #and giving up on the sketches from class too #fuuuck who knew that if u dont draw for months you lose the skill. whatever #I CANT EVEN BUY THE PASTRY ACTUALLY I NEED TO PAY MY TUITION WITH MONEY THATS NOT IN MY ACCOUNT... #i need 400 euros more and a pastry is like less than 2 tho. its not making a difference #everything will work out tho nothing is as big of a problem as it seems. i just need to sleep

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[a-study-in-dante]

Breaking news: local PhD student discovers she actually feels productive when getting up before 9 and getting to the office before 11 🤦🏻‍♀️

#my posts #studyblr #I used to be strong-willed and able to get up at 6 #but lately I've been sleeping so bad I can't get up before 8 #meaning I work less and achieve less causing more stress leading to even more terrible sleep #I need to snap out of it especially since I still feel like shit when I snooze until 8:30

[scionshtola]

currently cori has the emperors new fists for their mnk weapon bc the whole idea behind mnk cori is estinien was like “you need to learn to throw hands in case you can’t use magic or your gun.” but i’m kind of enamored by the idea of them engineering themself a pair of gloves or aetherically charged brass knuckles or something after enw

#i just like letting cori use any skills she might have picked up from working with stephanivien lol #also i’ve been toying with the idea of cori making rings or bracelets that help collect and channel their aether through their grimoire #and other weapons since they have a hard time with it currently #and i think that would be easier than making something for each weapon? but idk if that would work #i mean i guess technically speaking it’s not really lore compliant anyway so whatever but i like to stick to what i can #anyway i think estinien is like cori this defeats the purpose and cori just makes him a pair and just like the friendship bracelet #he cherishes them forever #also the conversation that exists in my head between them that’s like estinien telling cori he didn’t think it would be permanent when he #said they might not use magic one day he just wanted them to not die if they had to fight and cori’s like well. wistful glance into #the distance. you were right i guess so thank you. #is actually very heartwarming #they’re unexpected besties #i need a text post tag #sorry. i think the less sleep i get the more posts and tags i have to write

[trans-cuchulainn]

my fitbit claims i had 6.5 hours of sleep last night and i would like to believe it because that's almost reasonable but also i feel exceptionally bad

#no real change re: family news i.e. still waiting for details of further interventions needed and stuff #attempting to distract myself with work and continuing all my scheduled plans #but god my eyeballs hurt #i guess even if i didn't get less sleep i was reading 18th century irish until 2.45am #and that is inherently more tiring for your eyes than whatever else i might be doing at that time lol #personal

[guinevereslancelot]

job interview tomorrow 🙏

#working interview as an assistant prek teacher #i know kids are exhausting but its the only thing i have relevant experience in #and im tired of being rejected from every office job i apply to i need a job even if it pays 12 dollsrs an hour lol #anyway they'll pay for continuing education and the phone interview went really well #i think it seems like a nice place with nice people and she said she wouldn't start me at the bottom of the pay scale #so i might get more than i think #still probably not going to top sixteen an hour but its something #they called me in for prek even tho i didn't apply for that i applied for infant toddler teacher bc i have no relevant education #just lots of volunteer work with kids #but she said that one was taken and would i consider this one i didn't think i was qualified for so thats a good sign #and she seemed really nice #and the location is good its like a 17 minute drive and not too hard of a drive either #just one tricky turn #anyway #all job interviews fill me with impending doom and dread #even tho i interview pretty well i think i just never have the relevant experience to get the job lol #but this time it seems more likely #i have anotherdaycare job that literally pays twelve dollars an hour that wants to schedule an interview as well 😬 #but hopefully i get this one #the other one is closer but doesn't seem like as nice of a place to work tbh #anyway im so stressed!! #i took a sleeping pill which i may regret #i never take one before an interview bc im afraid i'll be super sleepy and tired and not want to get up and be less sharp at the interview #but then i NEVER manage to sleep the night before which i decided is worse lol #so hopefully that doesn't backfire #goodnight ❤️

[mariocki]

Anthony Ainley guests as medical specialist Josef Kerston, a doctor but also (shock!) a villain, in The Adventurer: The Bradley Way (1.4, ITC, 1972)

#fave spotting #anthony ainley #the adventurer #doctor who #the master #ainley!master #classic doctor who #itc #1972 #the bradley way #perhaps villain is a little unfair; it's briefly established that Ainley's doctor is a genuine medical professional whose involvement in #the villains' plot is because of pressure being applied on his family behind the iron curtain (so... does Gene defeating the #baddies plan get Ainley's family killed?? who knows‚ but i can't imagine it would lose Mr World's Greatest Everything any sleep) #he may not have been The Master yet but Ainley was a fairly regular face on tv at this point in his career. earlier in 72 he'd been a #co lead in ATV's spy thriller Spyder's Web‚ as well as recently guesting in high profile series like Elizabeth R‚ The Shadow of the Tower #and Out of the Unknown. he'd even recently made film appearances‚ with strong roles in The Blood on Satan's Claw and Assault #really this was his busiest period; by the time he was making Dr Who Ainley was more or less financially secure and didn't need to work #(famously he just absolutely loved being The Master‚ and it was more or less all he did from the 80s onwards until the end of the classic #series secured his retirement). i can't honestly say that he attacks this role in the same way as he did the Master‚ but then it's not much #of a part all told; he's just there to be doctorly and occasionally suggest sinister things are afoot. but always nice to see him pop up

[newtness532]

im so annoyed with everything today, i think i need some tasty food and a million hours of sleep and then I'll be back to normal

#the teacher at the first class today was so dibsjdhdhdhdhsgs 😫 #like she was teaching us things that are like unrelated to the class that shes teaching so idek why she was teaching it #but also its things that we have been learning since the 1st semester and we've done them in at least 10 classes and she was acting like #this was the 1st time we were hearing about it #like oh yeah we're on the 7th semester of studying nutrition but no one bothered to tell us how many calories are in a gram of fat #and she gave us homework 'to see if we know this' like #oh yes i can make a meal plan for a child with crohns or cystic fibrosis or celiac disease or everything else we've done this semester and #all the other semesters but i guess i cant tell you what micronutrients are in this one breakfast meal #like fuck off and stick to what you're supposed to be teaching #anyway i know im getting more annoyed than i should but she was just even more annoying than usual today #like she interrupted the lesson every 5 minutes to yell at someome to be quiet i wasnt even aware there were people talking until she yelled #anyway #also my new earphones aren't working well idk why ive definitely not been mistreating them that much for them to break in less than a month #like i had my old pair for at least 4 years until the broke and i dont think the wire got cut in them like the sound was coming out weird #but there was sound coming out. in the new ones you need to hold them in a very specific angle for sound to come out #and like im careful with how i put them away so what is up with them? #my theory is that they make wired earphones shitty on purpose so that you will spend a lot of money and buy wireless #also we had said from Tuesday that we would hang out with my friends today but i guess they forgot or idk and they made other plans #(to go home and sleep) and during the weekend the one friend wont be here and next week my family will be here so we probably wont hang out #again until next year and we have exams almost immediately so we wont be hanging out much then either #also my period is supposed to come soon and i hope that it will either come today or it will wait until after Christmas #ideally it will never come ever again but we cant always get what we want #anyway im gonna go eat the rest of my μεσογειακό and go take a nap #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[dontmeanyoudontmissit]

Literally going to go insane

#I had to go into the office where there was NOISe and people #then went to the gym where some asshole was had the audio on the bike on full - not on their headphones! and then they left and someone els #showed up and talked on the phone #and since I got home at 630pm my bf has been on the phone with his family (it's now midnight) #and I love him and that he can talk to his family so long but I can't escape his noise #and now he's fucking singing multiple songs into the phone and I don't know why AND I JUST CANNOT. #I have to go into the office again tomorrow and I'm like. Please. PLEASE can I have silence?????????????????? #it should not be too much to have twenty minutes of not having to hear a god damn voice #and that place should not have to be my CAR when I have to deal with PEOPLE on the road #I should go to bed but this man talks loud af into the phone #I showed up to work on the edge of losing it this morning. I got a new chair but I can't figure out what to do to note make it #AWFUL. and it was making me want to tear off my SKIN #so literally I have just been begging for quiet and less stimulation all day #and instead I'm having to blast music so I don't have to hear his stupid voice singing and doing voices and like ??? bro stfu and let your #parents get in a word or HANG UP. #sorry sorry I'm just losing my mind I need more sleep

[songsintheattic]

is 9:30 too early to go to bed?

#not that it matters because im doing it anyway #i do feel much better than yesterday #double dosing on the valerian was definitely the right move #though I'm not entirely sure why i needed to #definitely less dehydrated today and ate more normally #and got decent sleep last night too #so that seemed to be the missing piece of why everything else was imploding #but it's not like i missed a dose or anything #my best guess is it was just the fact that I'm making some big moves? but that seems stupid to somehow explode my entire brain from that #but i guess that kinda is how it works #but whatever the moral of the story is that when in doubt it's pretty low risk and potentially high reward to just double the valerian #m

[whentherewerebicycles]

the moon looked bigger in real life

#I’m tired and a little cranky #and fretful I won’t sleep well again #three good things: I made something for someone else at work today that will be useful to them #and it took some time #but I’m glad I took the time #two… I enjoyed my nighttime walk with the dogs. I think I need more fresh air and I’ll be less cranky #and the weather was cool but so mild and the moon over the trees was beautiful #three… I am growing a baby inside myself and I think I’m finally releasing some of my defensive anxiety #and letting myself believe it’s really happening to me #I can tell I’m starting to believe it’s real #because I had a total freakout in the car today #about what on earth I was doing and why had I thought this was a good idea or something I could handle alone #I mean it is a good idea… blowing your entire life up irrevocably is almost always a good idea #lest you calcify you know #but the panic means I’m letting myself believe it’s happening #IUI tag

[zoppzoop]

GAAHAHHHHH

#venting in the tags #maybe its just past darkness and the Bad Thoughts which i shouldnt listen to are clouding my brain too much #but i feel so fucking weird and inadequate over everything rn #im unable to work on drawings as i usually would have and its kinda plaguing everything which it should like yeah i love drawing but #i cant let just one aspect of me ruin everything. right? the fact that i havent been able to draw as well as i usually can should make me #feel sick to the stomach and unsure about everything i do but it happening and i hate it. #plus i got the ipad id saved up from the comms to buy and its fun and nice and all and maybe i just need more practice with it but i feel #like im not able to draw on it even more? and i spent the whole day trying to get used to it but its just not as good?? and then when i went #back to the no screen wacom i couldnt get a hang of it becuase idek its just not happening #and also the fucking art block wants me dead i swear i want to draw so bad and i have so many ideas but the moment i start anything its just #crumbles down into nothingness and i hate everything i do and gods fuck i want to cry but i can because there are people at home and #usually im a big 'crybaby' when im at home but i dont fucjing wanna be like that anymore like i can handly my shit myself im fine. #i dont need to just fuckinf cry abiut it becuase thats not gonna fox anything but also i feel like crying might just make me feel better #but then id have to hear shit from my family and i know theyre just teasing in a /pos way but i dont wanna fucking deal with that #plus my brother iust talking to him os annoying sometimes like he talks about things so condescendingly and fucking hel dude shut #the fuck up i dont need you telling me that my art is something people can 'just do' and the fact that i was able to get the ipad #'basically for free since i got that money from the little drawings i make' as if they dont fucking mean anything to you like #shut the fucking fuck up dude i worked hard on those and even though i dont like my own shit sometimes i still fucking work hard on those #fuck you you bitch #i think a lot of things are just piling up and i need to sleep #tomorrow will be a new dawn and a fresh start and maybe ill hate myself less #ps. note to anyone reading the tags #im fine i just needed to yell out and express my frustration a bit. some sleep will help surely.