Deleting tumblr 🤕 this app stresses me out lol. I might end up coming back with a new blog in a good while but I won't deactivate this blog.
But yeah... bye ig to anyone who still looks at my posts 😭. And to anyone who cares I am fine and happy (especially happy with my gf <3) it's just the app that's stressing me out !!
Cassie Sandsmark should get to be a sad girl again. She should get violent. Angry. Desperate. She should feel love and deep hate. She should decide never to forgive someone. Push some people out of her life.
She needs to feel a burning love, not necessarily romantic, which would make her do some crazy shit. She should be mad and furious and let her feelings guide her. She should reconnect with her emotions, and feel some real happiness with the people she loves. She should scream and shout and feel pain and punch some shit just for the sake of it. She should be emotional, driven by her feelings, and maybe even kill someone. And god does she need to kiss some girls.
i just woke up from a dream where i was rereading this one book that i truly loved, i think i was finishing the first chapter, still meeting all the main characters, and it was like coming home, yknow?
and now that i'm awake i don't think the book exists and i can't help but feel a deep sense of loss.
My babe! My best friend! My angel! I miss you so so much. A huge part of my life is missing without you being a huge pain in my ass everyday 😂! I can’t wait to give you a huge hug very soon! I’m so proud of you! I miss this smile! I miss your face! I love you always Courtney! @crazy-courtney
back on my "so i'm not actually disabled by my disability" bs because i had a conversation with another autistic friend who told me that HER autism basically just made her extremely academically competent and good at things without trying and really only disables her socially and i just had to sit there and pretend like i haven't been fucked over six ways from sunday by my autism in every part of my life since i was born. cause if she is doing just fine with hers there must just be something wrong with me (other than autism) that i don't have the willpower to be on top of everything the way she is
WHEN I SEE MY GIRLFRIEND IM GONNA HUG HER SO FUCKING HARD ISTG IM HOLDING HER DANM HAND AND IM TELLING HER I LOVE HER OMFG I HATE BEING IN LOVE SOMETIMES BECAUSE I MISS HER SO DANM MUCH ISTG