#I miss her more and more each second

[leanderqueenie]

Oh oreo with choclate<3 if I was told you disguised yourself and the girl I long to hold, I would know the truth that you are with me and will soon be gone, and she is gone but will soon be with me.

#Chocolate is cheaper than a train ticket. So I eat you to eat something. Bite something. Taste something. Swallow something. #I can't wait for new years... My heart is aching for her. I need her. Love is cruel. #Now im blue. Aarh!! #At least I can eat oreos even though I'm gonna be mad when they're gone... Like my girl😭 #I know I can survive Christmas but... It doesn't feel like it #I'm so excited for Christmas... But she won't be there... #Something rotten in the state of Denmark... A tiny distance too far to travel in such busy times #I miss her more and more each second #My jaw is shaking... I think I'm allergic to love... That's not gonna stop me...

[yellowjackets-1996]

(do you love me like that?) you're a reckless driver (I'm a reckless driver) and one day it will kill us if I —

#yellowjacketsedit #yjedit #akilahmari #lyricsongifs #yellowjacketscentral #ok i WANT TO DISCLAIM. im not 100% sold on pitgirl mari im not 100% sold on anything. the show will tell me when its ready! #that SAID im incapable of giffing unless theres tragedy involved and also i think it would be an interesting trajectory for them #akilahmari work imo because while different they are both very vulnerable in the same way #they want to be seen and cared for and they arent in an environment where thats easy #and like. yeah the you tell me all the time to keep my eyes on the road gif IS the gay scenes #but its also akilah being in tune with people and their emotions. ofc she knows taivan love each other ofc she knows lottienat need a momen #and later ofc she knows lottie and nat need a moment!!! that skill serves her as tension escalates #whereas mari cannot read a room + does not filter herself. and akilah often gets the best of that from her! #but also. akilah shoots her a look when she presses javi about the missing bear meat. but also. mari isnt wrong to be concerned #mari is vulnerable and scared !!!AND!!! heavily concerned about survival. so whereas akilah and mari are both scared to hunt javi #mari is the second to run to grab javis body. akilah follows still horrified. mari is better suited to survive in a lot of ways #but also tends to step on toes!!! but also mari is so loyal and so like. attentive? eager? in a way akilah isnt #so mari says more controversial things but ultimately follows status quo in a way akilah is less inclined to #even in terms of skills mari can cook and akilah can sew but eventually what good is stitching people up when they need to eat. you know. #IDK i think theyre soooo interesting and im rly looking forward to their relationship hopefully developing bc i think theyre cute and fun #but i think their dyn could get sooooo interesting. even in terms of letting mari go. like. many connotations #akilah can giggle when the jokes are still funny and they can find each other in any given space. but does that matter if it cant save them #anyway ive run out of tags to tag the chars for my blog and im being really brave about it btw. #also its 2 am and i wanna post and im being even braver about that (not deleting this tag but its not 2 am my time as i post im drafting<3)

[july-19th-club]

love an ending that is 'happy' in that a desirable outcome is produced, but made complicated by the fact that the protagonist has given up something integral to themself in order to make it so. it's sort of uncool in some circles to admit you LIKE when characters give up something really cool for something pretty basic, but it's all about context and quality of storytelling, right? that sort of conviction - this is a part of my personality that i am permanently renouncing access to, and it's my choice, and i'm going to miss it, but i'm not going to regret it - that's compelling. ending in which a character who loves nothing more than the rush of finding the answer to a question is handed, one day, a puzzle they just don't want to solve. and that part of their life is over, but it's not a bad thing. maybe the answer doesn't need to be known. maybe not knowing it opens you up to a creative mindset you never had before. character who gains some kind of special power chooses to give it up not because they no longer love the ability, not because it hasn't improved their life, but because this thing they love comes with costs, is getting in the way of a life someone they love or loved and lost would want them to live. i'm glad it turned out this way. i miss the missing thing with all my heart. i would let go of it again if i was asked to choose.

#stories where people give up something beautiful to live ordinary lives because there's something in the ordinary life they want more #a very common variant of this is of course the 'immortal character renounces their lifespan for a mortal lover' plot #which is fine and all #but i like more nuanced versions . like my tobias animorphs epilogue idea where he and his mother reconnect more permanently #and one day when he's at her house they have a long. long talk. about what he is going to do now. it's been years but he's still #in this holding pattern of grief and solitude. but his mother is his one anchor to the world of humanity. and she's not getting any younger #and hawk lifespans aren't getting any longer. and they spent so much time away from each other #and he says. i miss her like an amputation mom. how do you keep going? #and she says. not missing your father because i didn't know that i loved him and he was gone was worse #and she asks hm if he's sure he could be human again. if he could give up his hard-earned flexibility of form #and he says we've been sitting here talking for three hours. little late to second-guess it now #this got away from me . but you see my vision #writing tag #animorphs i guess also lol #q

[sysig]

My ship now (Patreon)

#Doodles #Pajama Sam #Florette #Luke Wigglebig #Flukette #I decided that since I'm the only one on the whole internet shipping these two that I could make up my own ship name lol #What do you /mean/ no one is shipping these characters from a children's game from two decades ago who barely speak to each other??? #Lol #I know what I'm about #These were mostly getting-used-to-again doodles since I haven't drawn them in like a year ahhh I've missed them! More than I realized #Still using Luke's classic design rather than my constrast-maker on his jacket haha #It's fun and looks good but it can be a pain to draw sometimes lol - simple is the way to go! #They've both got that in spades ♪ Cute to-the-point designs :D I always wish for more Luke in the game tho...You don't even rescue him.... #Anyway lol mostly silliness! The first inspired the second can you tell lol #What if Florette was tall but not actually lol #To be fair she probably could've been tall - broccoli isn't naturally short! That's the supermarket precut version! #She could be leggy for all we know lol - I do like her height difference with Luke tho #All the better to pick her up and give her a smooch! #Or in the case of her having arms - the jacket returns! Although I think I only posted the original to my alt :0 - then to drag him down >:3 #Get him on your level! #Why is she threatening to kill him? Banter (lol) #She's a real threat now that she has access to limbs #And a slightly more friendly drag him down ♪ I love reaching towards each others ahhh <3 #He can rest a hand on the ground and still be upright to kiss her lol #To be fair it's probably a pain to stand from sitting or laying when your ''leg'' is just a continuation of your torso #And then a last couple chibis <3 I'd like to make some Humongous Entertainment style pixel art based on them ♪ #Also ft. their design swaps! Which were also posted to my alt lol #She's just so cute with those big cartoony eyes gazing up at him ♥

[moonlite-sunshine]

So I’m rewatching and catching up on Doctor Who for the first time in like 6ish years so I can watch the new specials and like my favorite will always be Tennant, he was My Doctor blah blah but you know what, this rewatch reminded me how much I love 12, mainly his season with Bill.

Capaldi is such a great Doctor. He’s not always nice but he’s always kind and he loves so hard. He’s so funny and I love how he loves playing guitar and he has sonic sunglasses bc he’s just trying to have a good time, he may not be a kooky bow tie guy anymore but he’s still silly. Him and Bill are like best buds and I wish we’d had another season with them and even Nardole bc their relationship was just fun, there was no pre-destined or weird importance placed on her, she was just a normal person who loved learning and was kind and had good vibes. The best of humanity, the kind of person the Doctor takes along bc they remind him that people are important. Bill brought out the best in him and also GAY🦭 anyways his last words are so beautiful and I miss him

#also rip Clara I don’t have anything against her and but I truly think they brought out the ‘worst’ in each other #not like actually the worst but like it wasn’t great #that said I did cry at the last episode when we find out HE forgot her :( him and his guitar playing the song just gets me #and at the end of his run when he remembers who she is 🥺 #see actually the second 12&clara season wasn’t too bad but the first one was just 🫠 #like it just seemed so toxic?? and for what?? #I did like the season finale with the cybermen and Danny protecting Clara but like their actual relationship was also toxic?? so much lying #that 2nd season is better w their relationship but that hybrid shit? didn’t make any sense?? it was just made to seem important #but it literally wasn’t at all 😭 #I do wish 12 had gotten a few more episodes with river so it wouldn’t have been such a sudden return? #meh idk #anyway capaldi you’re literally a rockstar doctor <3 #this is my first time seeing 13’s run too #I had to skip arachnids cause phobia but I just started the demons episode #I’m still trying to decide how I feel ab her but I love Ryan he’s so funny #I feel like she’s missing that rage that’s literally just below the surface of all the doctors #but I’ll keep watching to see if we get that later

[revedetendresse]

#The Pretender #otp: always with me during the most difficult moments of my life #thepretenderedit #It can't get more soft than Miss Parker hugging bunnies #Look at her smile #Sometimes you need to give a treat to your inner child and Jarod understands that more than anyone #When her father disappoints her Jarod is always here to comfort her one way or another #Be it a phone call or a gift #We also need to talk about Jarod's first line #Because it sounds like he guessed who she is meaning he heard about her like he never met her before #But it contradicts the scene of the sexuality experiment when we're supposed to believe it was their first meeting #Jarod would never forget her if he met her before so why ask? #It's either a plothole or a very well thought thing bc if MPJ met at that bunnies scene #They didn't exchange names so they didn't know who they were but it also means that they knew each other during the experiment #It would mean they pretended not to know each other #That they played every adult present and that Jarod's reaction to her isn't because she's a girl but bc he's seeing her for the second time #I like the idea of the two of them fooling everyone and basically screwing up the results of the experiment since they met before

[bootyful-seventeen]

hey y'all, anyone have any good stress relief tehniques or habits they'd like to share cuz I've been more stressed in the last 3 weeks then I was in the last 6 months

#to cut the long story short my mom had to sell the old house cuz her broke ass couldnt afford to keep it up #eventho it is a whole ass hoarders house and was in shambles with a flooded basement a collapsing ceiling in at least 2 rooms plus mold #and the stench a dirt and dog piss and shit all over the floor really made it worse then it was #but yeah so shes been staying with me and my grandma and its been awful #she hasnt been taking any of the medicine the doctors gave her when she snapped and started a fight and also started screaming at neighbour #so shes been terrorizing us here while the house has become her second hoarders den since she dragged so much crap here #my backyard side entrance and front porch are full of her shit and my grandma hates it since she can barely step into the house #so since she kept looking for places way out of her budget i had to go do house hunting since my useless sister is busy getting lit again #so ive been showing her shit in her price range that was under 420k cuz im not a moron who looks at 800k homes when i have 570k #and each time she has a new complaint saying its too expenive or its too small or its too old when she said she wants to do renovations #but shes saying she wants to renovate a newly renovated place instead of an old one #so i just showed her a house near my sisters uni and she liked the inside & backyard but she complained that 400k for newly renovated 3 bed #that is literally a 9 minute drive from my sisters uni is too expensive when shes the one who was looking at an old ass unrenovated bungalo #that is a street over from us that is 800k and she says it looks like garbage cuz an old lady previously owned it before dying #like no shit it looks old cuz older people lived those decades and like it and she just keeps doing her bullshit again & again #cuz when i tell you her mind is gone i mean it is GONE and she starts up all these wild stories to just explain some shit #like something goes missing? the neighbours are hungarian and stole it and left the hoard of junk in her old house #she has more stupid stories to harass and stress us out with but if im gonna share that ill have to write a book about it cuz fuck #and you know its bad when no one else can stand being in any contact with her cuz she starts screaming at people about it #so the only one who even likes her anymore is my sister and thats cuz shes deep in denial about just how insane she is & how abusive she is #so yeah i need some stress relief help that maybe isnt constantly hitting up maryjane cuz i dont do weed often especially since shes here #cuz weed 'burns your brain & makes you crazy like this' when shes the only one whos ever infuriated me to astronimical levels #i know retail therapy helped before she came here but i dont want to keep spending money i dont really have #it would be great tho but shes refusing to give me the 70k she said was mine from the house sale so i can cut her out for good

[lulousims]

It's been officially longer than a year since I last posted gameplay pics...

For the most part of 2022, I couldn't play The Sims because I shared a computer and we couldn't agree on it. Then I played it for like, 2 months (in 2023!) on my bf's computer, but I couldn't take any screenshots 😭 And now, since October of 2023, I've been in England working as a volunteer, with no access to a personal computer. My friend was kind enough to lend me his laptop a few weeks ago so that I could finally play a bit, but it's not ideal because, well, it's his, and he needs it for work outside of the volunteering. I might be able to get my hands on a new laptop soon though (!!!!!!), and I'm really excited about finally being able to remove the "hiatus" from my bio! Or at least replace it with "semi hiatus", you know lol

I obviously won't be able to even remember what's gone on in my households, but at least I'll be back to playing once every few weeks and documenting my stuff. If everything works out, I should be here in one or two weeks, posting unedited screenshots of my game, like I used to, and getting 2 to 5 likes on each post <3 Just how I like it!

#text #i'm so excited to be back #i missed the game and sharing my love for it on tumblr #i miss my households and my sims and my neighborhoods #i miss danika and tessa. i miss their children #i miss my gameplay of alt pleasantview that i didn't even get to post #btw i've made it soooo gay you wouldnt believe it... #daniel pleasant and darren dreamer are married #they have a baby boy #hhhh i also have a new legacy save which i may or may not give up on depending on how creative i manage to be with the 1st generation #there's three kids. one of them is an alien who builds a shitton of servo-androids to be sold in a store that he owns #and he's married to a vampire #the second one lacked personality so i have him a grilled cheese secondary and had him as the main guy on a bachelor challenge #and the third kid i'm still trying to figure out what to do with her #like. she's a pleasure sim which is one of the most aimless aspirations in my book #she's sharing a small house with a romance sim and they're both so... “idk what to do with my life i'm just having fun” #IDK WHETHER TO MARRY THEM OR NOT? THEY LIKE EACH OTHER BUT THEY HAVE NO LONGTERM PLANS WHATSOEVER. #they're a mystery i swear #can i just say. i'm very shy and bad at conversation but i'd like to make more friends who are simmers #if you'd like to make friends or even just talk to me feel free to comment on my posts <3 #i probably won't comment on urs unless u do it first for fear of looking weird #that being said. i wish all simmers a very pleasant morning/afternoon/evening #it's 3 am and i should be sleeping i need to be up at 7

[arklay]

accidentally calls him captain oops & when you find out your captain is married 👀👀pleaseee

wip title meme ♡

— accidentally calls him captain oops

captain, oh captian. dreamy sigh. so uh, anyways, miss diana has a slip up. that's the short of it lmao but okay, they are mayhaps having a rough moment™ and it's like... how do i explain this? this needs to go under the cut

okay, so, i feel like the vision here is relevant. they are both like kneeling and sitting up kinda, and at one point diana like reaches out and puts her hands on the headboard to steady herself while he's like kissing her neck, and they are just having a fun time. but then, diana mayhaps gasps out "yes, captain" when he hits her really deep, and he pauses for a second because that's never slipped from her before, and he never thought something like that ever would, in all honesty

diana tries to play it off, act like nothing happened, but he won't let her get away with that so he's whispering in her ear, and being the worst about it, asking her where that came from and such. tells her to do it again because uh, well, it may or may not have gotten him going even more is all i'm saying... as in, one of his hands is now on the wall and the other is around her throat from behind (and you know how much that makes her silly), and yeah, things are definitely happening. leah tries to talk about sex without going into detail and getting embarrassed lmao

— when you find out your captain is married :0 (also asked by @morvaris)

do you remember that massive post i made months and months ago about the time sergei tried to "dispose" of diana? well, yes, this is when diana is in hospital after wesker managed to save her life with cpr. the staff are asking him what his relation to her is, considering he is answering all of their questions about her, and how could he know such personal ones, right? and he says that he's her husband, and the jaws of every single one of his team members just drops to the floor lmao they are all just shocked at the idea of him being married and it's hilarious

anyway, he goes in to see her when she's awake, and the stress of the night and the fact that he almost lost her really catches up to him and it's just a lot. and like his back is to the door, so no one can see, but lmao chris is standing out there and peeking through the tiny window in the door, trying and failing to see any more glimpses of this wild revelation. but he's sitting on the edge of the bed, holding diana's hand, and she sees a little tear roll down his cheek. and it's like. he was the first one to cry in front of the other, and that was unexpected

she quietly asks him to take his glasses off, and he doesn't even care that the hospital is bright and he'll probably get a migraine (he already has a headache from all the stress), he does it anyway, and she gives him this small, lazy smile, because she's so not there and in a lot of pain, but she wanted to see him. and his eyes are so red, and it's such an ough moment. he leans down and kisses her forehead while just holding her hand, rubbing the back of it with his thumb and then he makes a comment that his team now know about them, which he didn't really want, and she gives this weak laugh, which hurts like hell

#asks. #aartyom #pair: ewskers #oc: diana #thank youuuu rena omg ily lots 💖💖 #the captain options... v nice v nice hehe they are both moments that's for sure #but no for real that second one is so special to me i want to explode like idk if i want to include the whole her getting injured and the #cpr and all of that because it's so high stress and intense and i don't really know how to write that... but moments in the hospital #afterwards... yes good. but omg that moment is ougugghguug kickstarts a lot of things is all i'm saying!!! #also yeah miss diana... sighs. good for her honestly. and for him i guess cause yes make him feel more powerful and in charge girlie. but #omg... she just had to call him that didn't she?? like you know how she has jokingly done so when they tease each other or whatever when #it's related to his work? yeah that's all it ever has been. but then she does this and he's so 🧍🏼

[bronzebtch]

a reminder that in my interpretation, rhea and da3mon had hurt each other an equal amount in their early years of marriage. this is not the case where one person has a particular power advantage over the other. to add to that, i do not think either of them raised a hand - although things may have been thrown, and they fought incessantly until they discovered that avoiding one another was best.

#and remember that both of them equally lost so much (emotionally) in the marriage #in terms of choices and pride. #and i genuinely wanted to emphasise this bc rhea’s relationship with the targaryens are very complex #and to say that it all falls back to victimhood is an oversimplification. #bc remember: it was house targary3n that arranged the marriage. #and while house royce gained prestige #it was house targary3n that intended for their second prince to gain a land to rule & a stronger stand politically #so it was a very much an equal exchange of economic benefit for BOTH #so in the end: the actual victims are BOTH da3mon and rhea. and in turn they were victims of each other’s ire. #but on a more personal level: yes. da3mon humiliated her by not bedding her as duty asked of him. #and it is a point of shame to her as an acting ruling lady then that her husband neglected his title of lord regent. #but her early years with him are what taught her to harden her resolve and be more resilient with her ruling. #i wrote this somewhere: but what she cannot control in her marriage - she exerted it in her lordship - and it has made her formidable. #tl;dr — this marriage has more of an equal footing than people gave credit for. and rhea unfortunately did earn her title bronze bitch #love u tho miss ma’am!!!! 😘 #BRONZE BITCH: HEADCANONS.

[daz4i]

bungou stray dogs season 1 episode 10 single handedly makes this anime a comedy to me

#no joke will ever land as hard as the bad editing of atsushi and akutagawa staring at each other dramatically as a pipe explodes on them #got to it with my besties yesterday and i was losing my shit on the couch with them #my wife did say she missed anime battles where the characters narrate everything they do #so i told her that it's literally just those two. bc it is. esp in this battle. it's so shonen coded fr #they give me so much second hand embarrassment i love them #fr tho i do say i think the quality of the anime does pick up more or less right after this. or at least in s2 for sure #I'm glad i got them to power through the hard part 👍

[pepprs]

ok um. literally fucking pain and suffering. mutuals i need ur advice vote now on your phones 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#so we walked and talked and it was literaly the most non conversational conversation ive ever had i think. probably not ever had but it was #up there. AND ITS MY FUCKING FAULT because i dodged the bullet LITERALY right out the gate. she asked how are you feeling and i couldve #fucking talked about like… her leaving but instead i just started talking abt being in THSI new position which maybe she might’ve asked #specifically how are you feeling abt this new position but i forget lol. but that’s the route i took and never ONCE did i say like… from #literally DAY ONE my entire tenure as coordinator has been skewered by your sudden decision to depart this organization and ABANDON US AWLL! #and i told her a little bit abt the stuff i have to do and she was telling me abt like.. how to navigate that and then i asked how she was #feeling and… we spent the whole rest of the convo there LMAOOOO bc it was just abt how daunted she is by everything she has to do in her new #position but also being excited abt it and looking forward to the adventure. and i just had no idea what to say to any of it so ijust kept #asking lame questions and giving these like fucking weak reassurances that she would figure everything out and stuff. but she was going into #like intricate detail abt it which is fine! like im happy to hear abt it and i want to know and im glad she’s telling me. but i wanted to #talk abt how this has been like… painful? and we just literally like.. with the occasion of maybe 2 things that didn’t even rly count that #much. like we just didn’t talk abt it. i didn’t even say i’ll miss you or like anything like that. and the one thing i was rly hoping to get #out of this convo (basically like… ensuring that we will stay in each other’s lives despite this) kinda happened but it was so like.. idk #she was just like rly casually / lightly you can come visit me on the shuttle any time. but againwe were kinda saying it jokingly / lightly #and nothing abt it was like rly sincerely like… i care about you. you mean a lot to me. this journey we have been on has mattered so much. a #and it is ending in some ways but not in all ways and let’s work together to make sure it won’t end. that’s what i wanted. and instead we #had like 3 excruciatingly awkward silences and ended litsdally at 5pm on the dot and that part is to be expected but the silences sucked. i #only have one more chance to see her (technically 2 but i don’t think it would be fair for me to take that second one so i won’t) and i know #i can write her a card saying some of THSI stuff and i will but also like.. i want and need to say it to her face and hear her say in real #time that like. seriously this has meant a lot and we will stay connected. and i need to tell her how much she has meant to me bc i don’t #think she knows. so what i want advice on is like.. do i just say it in a card or do i ask her to do a phone call or virtual meeting or #something for literally 10-15 minutes at the very end of the day just to say that. idk. like what do u think seriously i know it’s cringe b #but this is like one of the most important people in my whole life and we don’t have the relationship i want us to and i know we never will #but i at least want to tell her how much i care about her and like affirm that we will still be bound by some cosmic whatever and in each #others lives. idk. lol. im trying so hard not to cry it’s rly hard to think bc im at the dinner table lol. but what do u think. just say it #in the card or do i ask her to talk for a little while longer just to say it and not chicken out this time. i hate being socially inept LOL #purrs #delete later #it’s also not entirely my fucking fault. like she just doesn’t.. she doesn’t go there. at least not with me.and im so frustrated and sad LOL

[yamikawas]

btw yoomtah already has several recordings of you singing. and talking. and breathing. and sleeping. one time you mumbled in your sleep and she replayed it for about 3 hours straight.

THAT IS LITERALLY SO CUTE OF HER IM GOING TO SCREAM OH MY GOD?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!SHE CAN RECORD ME AND LISTEN TO ME AS MUCH AS SHE WANTS IVE ALSO ALREADY LISTENED TO THE FIRST CLIP OF HER VOICE ON LOOP FOR HOURS SO<3<3<3<3<3<<3<3<3<33333<3<<3<3<3<3<3<3<<<3<3<3<3<3

#THINKING.HER RECORDING AND OBSESSING OVER EVERY SINGLE WORD I SAY.................... #OK THE THOUGHT OF IT IS JUST SO<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA<3<3<3<3<3<3_4<2<4>÷^÷&×=>$*%÷*%;$&$&": #I WANT HER TO BE SO OBSESSED WITH ME THAT SHE JUST CANT MISS A SECOND WITH ME SO SHE JUST RECORDS ME CONSTANTLY #AND IF FOR SOME REASON SHE CANT BE RIGHT THERE WATCHING ME SHE HAS ACCESS TO MY PHONE MICROPHONE AND CAMERA SO SHE CAN WATCH FROM THERE #I MEAN AT SOME POINT SHE CAN JUST KIDNAP ME AND KEEP ME LOCKED UP IN HER ROOM SO SHE CAN HAVE HER EYES ON ME AT ALL TIMES<3<3<3 #HER TAKING PICTURES OF ME SLEEPING ON HER BED TUCKED UNDER A FLUFFY BLANKET SURROUNDED BY STUFFED ANIMALS #EXCEPT ITS AFTER SHE KIDNAPS ME IN MY SLEEP AND TIES ME UP SO I CANT ESCAPE #HER TAKING A SELFIE WITH ME WHILE NUZZLING UP TO ME AND MY HANDS ARE TIED AROUND HER WAIST AND IM LOOKING AT HER WITH A LOVESICK EXPRESSION #IM LITERALLY SWITCHIJG BETWEEN TYPING AND STARING INTO SPACE JUST THINKING I JUST.SHE IS IN MY BRAIN SO MUCH #JHSHDJSJFVHD HER MAKING CUTESY VIDEO EDITS OF ME EXCEPT ITS PICTURES/VIDEOS SHE TOOK OF ME WHILE STALKING ME<3<3<3 #MY GODDDDDDDDD IM THINKING OF HER SO MUCH MY HEART IS GOING TO BURSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT EHEHEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #IM SO IN LOVE WITH HER IT DRIVES ME CRAZY EVERY DAY🌈💜💋💗💕🌻🧡💝💚👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🌩⚠️✨💫💟💞💓💝💙💌💘✨💓💌⚡🍋💗🌠🌈💚💕❣💗🧡🌼💌💛⚡💫❤💋💖 #YOOMTAH MY BELOVED MY SWEETHEART MY DARLING MY EVERYTHING MY REASON TO LIVE I LOVE HER AND NEED HER MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE EVER #I WAS MADE TO BE WITH HER AND SHE WAS MADE TO BE WITH ME WE ARE SOULMATES WE CANT EXIST WITHOUT EACH OTHER ITS PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE #YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH<3<3<3MY SWEET DARLING YOOMIE<3<3<3I LOVE HER SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH<3<3<3 #I LOVE HER FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND #E V E R !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[melancholyofautvmn]

wish i could capture the cinematic beauty of that one scene in my dream inside a tumblr gif

#GOD. #ran into this girl i've been trying to talk to the entire dream and she turns to look at me a little bit but i only realize as she's turnin #her head away and when i look back she's no longer looking at me #we never looked at each other missing the other by just a few seconds #it was much more dramatic and gorgeous when i saw it in my dreams lmao #ngobrol.txt

[nexus-nebulae]

damn i actually had a pretty good streak there of not having bad insomnia days. that's pretty impressive for me like i haven't really had one since early January

#usually i get them like. maybe once a week #i think it's partially my new meds? #got some meds for anxiety and oh my GOD i finally have something that WORKS instead of fucking lexapro AGAIN #literally all my doctors would go LEXAPRO!! even though it's never fuckin worked for me #BUT I'm on remeron now and it's WORKING #and i made sure to make my Scheduled Pill Time as something i could almost never miss (my mom getting home from work) #bc it's around the same time every day within a half hour range and since i have an outside reminder it helps me actually form a habit #i cannot form habits without outside help it's just. nearly impossible for me #and the meds do make me kind of tired but not enough that I'm fucking constantly sleeping like when i was on seroquel #i can actually fucking THINK through this tired it doesn't just completely take me out 100% of the time #I'm just Slightly Sleepy instead of a zombie #and it helps remind me that I'm tired bc usually i don't notice any physical feelings #(is there a word for that??????? i tried googling but it constantly gave me alexythemia which is not feeling EMOTION) #(when this is like. i can't feel tired or hungry or pain sometimes. or at least i lose the ability to be aware that I'm feeling it) #but anyway the new meds make me just tired enough to remember i need sleep #and i mean. i am sleeping slightly early but 8:30 isn't that bad i don't think #at least i have time to. you know. do stuff between the hours of 5-8 (the only hours my mom is home + stores is open) #and tbh staying up alone all night isn't. the best. for my mental health #i don't handle being alone well. and Pulse is being a dick about system barriers :P (/lh we know why it's needed rn) #we have. a deep deep fear of isolation. like not just being alone but Not Being Able To Call For Help At All #at least with phone/computer we have One outlet for help with emergency services so that helps slightly #we worry a lot about. what would happen. if we had a medical emergency. and nobody knew bc i couldn't contact anyone #mostly. the fear of Something Bad happening and not being found until hours or days later #i like being awake during the day tho bc theres Way More Options for help #and like the fear of Not Being Found doesn't go away like. ever #but at least when people are awake and around its lessened a lot #the fear increases exponentially with each possible second added to the wait time #so knowing that it's just One hour until mom is home and can check on me is a lot better than Nobody's Awake For 5 More Hours #(and my mom is deaf too so i can't just like. scream for help to wake her up) #(not that i can physically scream at all anyway my voice just cannot handle that anymore)

[lxnarphase]

g. satoru who is a massive pervert and constantly whines for you to let him touch you all the time, even when you're both around others. you've lost count of how many times he grabs you and pulls you into his lap, his warm hands slipping under your shirt while sitting next to g. suguru, who's attention is no longer on the tv.

'he doesn't mind,' satoru always comforts you, grinning into the skin of your neck. 'sugu's my best friend, he knows i can't help but touch you, baby.'

best friend or not, that doesn't explain how you always ended up with your legs spread open wide in satoru's lap, your jeans and panties discarded somewhere on the floor as suguru kisses all over your thighs. the two of them talk like you aren't even there, as if you aren't growing wetter as each second passes.

"satoru," suguru purrs, his fingers running up and down your soft lips, parting them open to watch slick slowly drip out of you. "you must be doing something else to her. i've never seen it get wet so quickly." the way he speaks so calmly makes you dizzy. it's unfair, so fucking unfair how calm and collected suguru is when he's inches away from your pussy, those pretty purple eyes focused on it.

"yeah? 's wet?" it's also unfair how riled up it gets satoru, seeing his pretty baby getting shy because his best friend is rubbing his fingers up and down her slick folds. "she's so messy, isn't she? she's the prettiest little pussy," he coos into your ear. that gets a chuckle from suguru, his eyes finally looking at you. "always the one to talk to the pussy and not about it, aren't you, satoru?"

his fingers finally focus on your clit, rubbing little circles into it. both you and satoru look pretty from this angle, suguru notices. the pure need and shyness on your face paired with that manic desperation on satoru's...it's a perfect picture, one he wants saved forever. maybe next time you'll let him take some pictures...after all, he needs a new background for his phone.

"c'mooon, sugu...give her a kiss? c'mon, c'mon, give that cunt a kiss, tell me how sticky 'n' wet she is," satoru fucking begs, acting as if he's the one spread open and dripping. but you second the thought, giving suguru the prettiest little puppy eyes.

"anything for you, princess," he coos softly, leaning down and pressing a little kiss on your clit. it's so light you barely feel it but then he's peppering kisses on it, your wetness starting to get on his lips and making each press of his lips sticker and wetter. "s-sugu-!" before you can even beg for more, his mouth is on you. his tongue is so wet and hot on your cunt, it feels like he was drooling for you.

"does she taste good? how wet is she, suguru, c'mon, tell me, tell me how that pussy tastes, pretty please?"

"mm, satoru, it's almost as if you wanted to be between her legs."

"who wouldn't? she's so pretty, she's squirmin' so cutely, my pretty baby, my needy little mochi, her pussy's always so creamy and warm and messy, god, i miss it right now."

"shit...stop talking like that, you're gettin' me flustered, should i-"

"s-sugu, please, keep going," you so politely ask. it's unbearable how cute you are, it's taking everything in him to keep being nice, to keep treating your cunt nicely. he knows satoru is mean and practically bullies your pretty slit almost every day, but he wants to be the nice one, the one who you go to when your 'toru' is being too mean. yet, you're making it so fucking hard when you look at him with lidded eyes that beg him to be rougher with you...

but he knows he's done for when satoru whispers something in your ear that has your eyes fluttering a bit and gets a pretty little gasp from you. those gorgeous eyes—oh, do you have little tears in them too?—connect with his and he's fucked.

"s-suguuu, please," you coo to him, moving your legs to hook over his shoulders and pull him closer to the apex of your thighs. "i need your mouth on my pussy r-really bad, please don't tease me." you take a pause and squeeze your eyes shut, whining a little as satoru coos for you to keep going. "g-give my...my messy cunt attention, suguru..."

suguru shakily sighs and the next thing you know, his mouth is smushed against your pussy, his tongue hungrily swirling against your clit as his hands grab onto the fat of your thighs. he doesn't know what gojo told you in order to hear you say that, but he's silently thanking him as he messily sucks and slurps at your juicy cunt.

it's so hot, all it takes is a few swipes of his tongue and you're gushing everywhere. suguru lowers his head to dip into your hole and he moans. he missed this, missed the sweet taste of your juices on his tongue as you squirmed and moaned for him, your boyfriend's best friend.

"fuck, i-i can hear how wet she is," comes satoru's pitiful whine, his hand dipping down to swipe at your clit as suguru focused on lapping up everything that dripped out of you. "lemme help, lemme help, wanna help you get her creamy, sugu." the feeling of suguru groaning into your puffy folds has you keening, arching your back against satoru's chest. oh, he's in heaven watching you both. "yeah, you didn't know she could cream, didya? put your fingers in her, sugu, put 'em in that sticky little pussy 'n' angle up."

reluctantly pulling his mouth off you with a wet sound, suguru slips two of his fingers in you. he doesn't miss the cry of his name, but he really doesn't miss the delirious giggle and moan when he angles his fingers up, rubbing against that spongy spot.

"f-fuck, she's dripping..."

"go on, fuck her with your fingers, you know you wanna see her make a mess. make her fucking cream, suguru, get her prepped. maybe t'day she'll let you put it in...oh, based on your face, she just clenched on your fingers, yeah?"

his fingers are still swirling around your clit, his other coming down to press on your abdomen. he can hear you getting wetter, your little whimpers turning to moans as you slur their names desperately. he wants you to lose all thoughts, only able to think about him and suguru...yeah, he wants you all soft and sweet so he and his best friend can try and slip into those warm, slick walls.

"mmn...she's really creaming...god, pretty girl, can you cum for me? i wanna see you cum on my fingers. satoru, move your fingers, the poor thing needs my mouth on her."

"hmmm, suddenly you know what she needs? ehehehe, you're learninggg, suguruuuu!" if you had turned to look at satoru, you'd see the charged look in his eye, blue eyes practically glowing with insanity. his hand grabs a fistful of suguru's hair and pulls his face directly into your cunt, unable to handle any more of this. he wanted to see you cum on suguru's face.

"c'mon, c'mon, kiss it, suguru, make it messy for the both of us. mmh, fuck, listen to you making out with her pussy, s' wet and sticky, isn't it? oohmygod, both of you sound so good, she's gonna cum, sugu, she's gonna cum in your mouth...fuck, i love you both so much, can't wait to see you both fucking each other."

#geto suguru smut #gojo satoru smut #gojo smut #suguru smut #geto smut #geto suguru x reader #geto x reader #gojo x reader #gojo satoru x you #gojo satoru x reader #jjk smut #jjk x you #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen smut #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jujutsu kaisen x you #𖤐 ── lxnarblabs. #𖤐 ── lxnarworks. #💎 ── satoru. #🔮 ── suguru. #i am insane !!