#I know they don't look good

[verkomy]

falling

you can get a print here: inprnt!   

#if you look very closely you'll see crowley's silhouette #I wanted to make it subtle #but I don't know if it's visible at all #crowley #good omens #good omens 2 #neil gaiman #good omens fanart #falling star #fallen angel #fanart #my art #verkomy #verkomy 2023 #procreate #prints

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[petricorah]

....right??? [id in alt]

#zukka #zukka fanart #zuko #sokka #myart #avatar the last airbender fanart #i am going to fight colors. im done with how they look completely different when i post them. hgrnrgnngngngnng #i imagine all of the court and attendants all have bets on when zuko and sokka go public. they're not super good at hiding it #and then sokka leaves. and zuko is moody for Totally No Reason and they have to all pretend like they uh. totally don't know why

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#selfie bee #good evening friends!! how are you doing! C: #I'm very very sleepy I got a new ikea office chair and I build it all myself #I think it went okay! I don't think I pulled the back screw tight enough and now the back is a bit loose #I can probably fix it but I can also ignore it for the next 18 years #thats how long the old chair held up!! in germany it could now drink vodka and drive a car!! #not at the same time that is illegal! not at the same time!! (❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ* #but the day is not over yet my uncle asked me for a big art quest and I do not want to disappoint #he wants a muppet tattoo and asked me to draw it #my uncle has started to get tattoos a few months ago #as far as I know he has now gotten 3 note clefs 3 stars a flower and multiple birds #he also started getting piercings but so far I managed not to know exactly where #I think tattoos are super cool (´｡･v･｡｀) I wish I had a good idea for a tattoo but the last time I was very sure about getting a tattoo #it was heath ledgers face as the joker #at that point I was 12 and would not see the actual movie for two more years #a muppet tattoo is a way better idea!! he asked for the count van count! that is also one of my top 3 muppets ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡ #I always thought I knew a lot about muppet lore but since I started looking up muppet pictures I think there are still a lot of secrets #can the muppets from the Sesame Street actually leave the Sesame Street? #I think Kermit is both on the Muppet Show and on Sesame Street but he is also like the boss muppet #he might have special abilities #I hope you're having a good day friends!! C: #I think I'll post a Sherlock comic later this week #miss you!! ♥♥♥

[itsdefinitely]

TUMBLR LEGWND ITSDEIFNITLEY ALSO DRAWS SANDERS SIDES?!?!???

i dabble

#sanders sides #remus sanders #janus sanders #id in alt text #definitely art #(patton voice) now what did we learn #sigh. don't rewatch selfishness v selflessness + the redux and working through intrusive thoughts first thing in the morning #i couldnt find a good reference for their bottom halves and i didnt want to spend too long looking for one. so i improvised #i designed a more flashy cane for janus i just didn't want to draw it. maybe he was focused more on mobility than style. who knows #i didn't want to shade this. or like. put too much effort into this because it was a warmup #so if you see imperfections. n. nuh uh. no you don't

[karuopla]

Zoro's short mossy haircut gives a great view of his pretty neck, it's so bitable'!!

#roronoa zoro #sanji vinsmoke #sanzo #zosan #my art #i'm inching closer and closer to their source material looks and i don't know if that's good #did you like my zoro before or now?? #i cant decide if i like anime/manga zoro or opla zoro more they're both so good for different reasons!!! #opla sanji 100% though it's what made me like him

[aziraphalalala]

I am not entirely certain what will happen once the actors & writers strike ends, but I'm pretty sure Michael Sheen will break the sound barrier with how fast he will go feral on the internets about how Aziraphale wants to eat Crowley's ox rib

#i mean have you seen how he looks at David Tennant #Have you seen how Aziraphale looks at Crowley #it's not a “I like him a normal amount” kinda look #it's more of a “I hope you've put down some solid roots cause Imma climb you like a tree” manic stare #and he has been 0% chill in all earlier statements about it #so i anticipate a feral front approaching from Wales with a hefty precipitation of Sheenussy on display #Is this post inappropriate? #i don't even know anymore #my brains are scrambled to the point of no return #what is reality #hahaha I don't care let me shitpost and die on this hill #good omens #good omens 2 #michael sheen #aziraphale #ineffable idiots #ineffable husbands #aziracrow

[florbe-triz]

#my art #Trigun #vashwood #fem!vash #fem!wolfwood #trigun maximum #genderbend art #Vashette and Nichole LOL #A french girl and a Latina #don't kill me I'm just having fun #DON'T POINT OUT THE HEELS I KNOW IT'S NOT A FUNCTIONAL OPTION FOR THE SAND PLANET #but she looks good wearing those

[writeouswriter]

People sorting ao3 solely by stats and only clicking on fics with a certain amount of kudos or comments, you will not survive the winter, nor the summer, nor at all, *brings out knife,* run

#ao3 #fanfiction #because if everyone thinks like that then so many fics that might be great get buried and fall into the void #someone has to read it with no hits or kudos #not to mention sometimes people just have wildly different tastes so you don't know unless you look at it yourself #i put a bunch of exclusion filters and then go by summary and tags and open all the ones that sound interesting to me #if they're bad well easy enough to move on #but lotta good ones hidden in there with not a comment in sight and i must change that #knife tw #? #tw knife mention

[tshortik]

I love you messy artstyle i love you visible brush strokes I love you textures and rough edges I love you imperfections I love you roughness and colour blobs I love you scratchy sketches and bold stylisation and dirt and imperfections I love you ugly and raw emotion!!!!! ❤️

#i talk sometimes #art talk #i made a tweet like this on twatter ages ago but i've been feeling this a lot lately #also this is the start of me writing more on this blog and not only using it as art because who cares!! i don't!! #I wanna translate raw emotion into colors and shapes. I wanna know where to ignore all details and where to go ham you feel me? #i used to dream about developing a style like for MtG where it looked like a masterful oil painting that oozes realism and details #and i've realised the last two years or so that I would actually hate that for me. I know I wouldn't enjoy doing it. For myself. #it's that pipeline from wanting to be the perfect realistic wotc artist to accepting that I will never be that #instead i wanna learn how to stylise better and get a good brush economy going yknow. I wanna be bolder. #i doubt i'll ever be as incredible as all these MtG artists no matter what anyone says. but it's ok!! i don't have to be!!! #i just luv art man!!

[ballpitwitch]

KEANU REEVES on stage with his band Dogstar at the BottleRock Napa Valley festival on May 27, 2023

#Keanu Reeves #keanureevesedit #dilfgifs #dilfedit #mancandykings #flashing gif #* #SCREAMS #ahhhhh hi giffing someone else is wild for me #*cash register noise* *glass breaking* *car horn* #i will never know rest #this man is boyfriend shaped #happy keke is so good for the soul i don't have #LOOK. AT. HIM. #tell everyone you saw me with the devil #gonna crawl back to my cave now

[cangrellesteponme]

wife

#yeah i'm not dead woo let's celebrate #my art #kuroshitsuji #kuroshitsuji fanart #black butler #black butler fanart #grelle sutcliff #grell sutcliff #anyway i didn't draw SHIT for a good while and when i got back to it i suddenly hated using the flat marker brush??? #it's part of what makes my signature distinctive so i used it for that but yeah i switched brushes #oddly enough i'm not hating the more textured look? it gets very pixelated at times but it's not awful #back to the signature- it felt weirdly nice to sign things again #i haven't in a while #if you're one of the very few people who also follow me on instagram you'll know i don't use it on there #and the only art i've been doing these days has been original work so yeah nothing on tumblr #and thus the words 'brain exhaustion god stan' have not been written by this comically large hand in a hot minute #enough rambling this is just grelle art because i love her and i know y'all love her too so i thought it would be a nice comeback piece

[greencarnation]

eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed? #mine

[deadpoets]

DEAD POETS SOCIETY (1989) dir. Peter Weir

#neilperryedit #dpsedit #deadpoetssocietyedit #neil perry #dps #dead poets society #tuserkaren #mialook #useraish #dailyflicks #neil perry makes me sob every goddamn time #especially when he says i'm trapped with this laugh but then it fades and his smile drops and your heart just breaks #bc look how excited he was to act in the beginning #he's got a dream and he's so determined to go after it #but the reality of the situation is he's trapped #and then at the end with his i was good i was really good #bc he was ! he puts his whole heart out there #and his father just stomped on it because he doesn't see neil for who he really is and forces him to conform to whatever he wants for neil #and just ahhhhh #i don't know even know how to it put into words #it's the transition from future to present to past #*mine #*mygifs

[arsenicflame]

izzy getting adopted by them is EVERYTHING to me. fuck you youre part of our found family now, whether you like it or not. we have claimed you.

bonus: the way jim defends him here. theyre So mad:

#i didn't include it but the way they slide immediately into talking about how the revenge was GOOD #its like theyre implying. izzy was a part of that good for them #idk idk. feeling my izzy hands should not have to change to be loved agenda in this chillis tonight #it is very clear here that izzy is still izzy. he hasn't fundamentally changed. hes still a dick. hes still himself. #but. his actions are reframed. hes looking out for the crew #hes a dick. but he protects us. hes a dick but he teaches us what we need to know. hes a dick but that doesn't mean we don't love him #screaming crying rolling on the floor #i need him to be loved so bad!!!! i need them to stick up for him!!!! i need izzy to be treated Right!!!!!!! #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #jim jimenez #izzy hands #israel hands

[uncanny-tranny]

I think respecting trans people comes with a territory of like... just because many people will pass as cis doesn't mean that it's a great idea to use their passing as a way of legitimizing how absurd transphobia is

Transphobia isn't absurd because I "look like a [cis] man," it's because transphobia is fucking ridiculous. It would be ridiculous whether or not I passed or whether I look like a "conventional man." I use myself as an example, but ultimately, passing or appearing normative should never play into whether or not transphobia is bad.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #like sometimes you do have to meet people where they are if you're trying to convince them to change their mind #but it does feel weird when people only have 'but she looks like a woman!!!' as a way to delegitimize the transphobia somebody would face... #...in that example would it suddenly be okay if the transphobia that trans woman* faced couldn't be defended because people didn't... #...~think she looked like a woman~ #for me at least i don't think it's a sustainable strategy to rely on one's passing/percieved passing to legitimize transness... #...or to point out how ridiculous transphobia is... #...you know transphobia does a good enough job of making a fool of itself without us almost... stooping down to their level