#I just wish I was good enough

[ladyvandaele]

I’m taking a mental health day. Thank god my boss allowed it I was worried that he wouldn’t ✨

#I’m feeling so overwhelmed #and ashamed #of myself #I’m thinking back to all of the times men have used me and hurt me #I wish I could have a happy life #I just wish I was good enough

[the-human-wreckage-that-you-love]

I can’t even read nice things anymore. I can’t read stories about people that are in love. Where the words are kind and the touch is heavenly. I start crying as soon as I see it. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. To be called those nice things, to be touched in a way that doesn’t instill fear, makes me feel safe? I don’t deserve it. I don’t. I’m not worthy of it. No one should have to love me. It’s easier to go ahead and let you hurt me first. Hurts less. It’s the only love I know.

#personal vent #emotional abuse #emotionally and mentally abused #mental abuse #i just wish I was good enough #i wish i was dead #please let it end #i can’t do this anymore #bpd feels #actually bpd #hahahaha I hate it here

[florencewellch]

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#i was having a good day until my mom reminded me i have no friends irl #it's always the same conversation... she even said i shouldn't be on my sister's shadow... #why doe she always try to get me to go out with my sister and her friends (whom i don't even know) #personal #negativity tag #i just wish i was good enough

[ejoysnothere]

...here we go again

#I thought it was getting better #I should realize you cant cure bpd #But #I want to. #I dont want to feel crushing disappoibtment at my fp's disapproval #I just wish i was good enough #Fuck this man #Its mostly in my head #Sometimes i wonder #idk #I thought this was a worthy cause #Perhaps not

[blake-quake]

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#i just wish i was good enough #feeling depressed rn #what a way to end my birthday

[iknityounot]

I am going to make this a separate post, since the other one got so long.

So, like I mentioned there, I sent my grandma's granny squares off to my Loose Ends "finisher" with the intent of giving my mother the blanket when it was complete. I had NO thoughts in my head at all for saving something for myself.

When I received the box in August with the completed blanket, it had two additional things in it. It had a letter and a bag. The bag had two and a half skeins of left over yarn (please peep the picture of all they yarn I sent this lady, I was SO surprised she was able to use so much of it!) my grandmother's crochet hook, and a single granny square. In the letter, my finisher, Katherine, wrote that she set aside one of the original squares my grandma made--she specifically said the one she guessed may have been one of the first--in order to put it in a central place in the finished blanket. But then she forgot about it when she went to put the blank together, so now there was one left over. She said she sent it along with the blanket, hoping it would still find a home.

So, like I said in my last post, I gathered up the blanket and brought it to my mom....but I kept that lone granny square for myself. I immediately knew what I wanted to do with it:

I bought this little shadow box on Amazon, pinned in the granny square, and added my grandma's hook. I plan on hanging it in my little crafting zone in my apartment ❤️

Just another reason why the Loose Ends Project has my heart in a chokehold. There was so much thought and kindness that went into what Katherine did--for both me and my mom.

#joy knits #text #loose ends #the loose ends project #knit #knitting #knitblr #craft #crafting #craftblr #yarn #yarnblr #crochet #crocheting #crochetblr #diy #granny square #i cant not shill for them now #i just wish i was good/consistent enough to volunteer?

[saphushia]

surprise!! i can do non-angst comics!! @shepscapades 's dbhc au again, set soon after bdubs learns that etho's deviant and is working on comprehending that etho's a whole ass person.

technicallyyy in shep's art etho's wearing his trademark outfit from the start, but like. ignore that. that's not a big deal. unimportant. what if he wasn't and bdubs gave him that outfit because the default android uniform just looked way too formal and wierd. what if.

#once again. noncanon. i just do whatever i feel like #see my vision boy #anyways! this!! is the last comic for a while! #i fucking hope!! #i need to get some other stuff done lol #hermitshipping #ethubs #dbhc au #hermitcraft #mcyt #art #fanart #ethoslab #comic #bdubs #bdouble0100 #take this as an early xmas gift i guess lmao #i definitely wish i'd pulled some bits of this off better but i also am tired of working on it #thus! not just good but good enough #hermitcrap #fuck me it's been less than a week since the last comic. i'm dying. terminal brainworms. #I AM GOING TO DO! OTHER THINGS! #<- if i say that enough will it be true #im going to go play minecraft and die in my hardcore now

[psalmsofpsychosis]

You know, i've been thinking about the way Batman keeps danger and weapons so close to his body, so tight to himself, practically tied around his neck, that joker often has no way left but to grab for him if he wants something Batman has. Batman does not want to be left out of Joker's plans, his story, he wants in on Joker's narrative by any means he can make it happen. It's such particular "you take me with you wherever you are, it's your punishment, just as it's my punishment to take you with me wherever i am" statement. Batman actively leaves no choice for Joker but to get very very close to him and claim him as part of his win or his loss. I mean,

he didn't have to. he could've put the key in one of his waist pouches, push it into the back of his left boot, he could've tied it around his bicep, i dont care— he could've done whateverthefuck with it. But he had to put it around his neck, and intentionally invite Joker to "come and get it". Something something classic cliche of the way lovers' bond is signified by a necklace-adjacent item and the way they interact with it; hold unto it, toss it, tie it around their necks, giving it back, not giving it back, necklaces as items of reverance and revenge. Something something a tie around neck being a sign of being claimed and owned,

#this is the first night in 2 months where i got good sleep of course i woke up and had batjokes popping on my brain screen #''99+ unread emails'' style #the whole invitation thing is. certainly something #i mean bro. a ''you will take that wish to the grave with you'' would do just fine or #or ''you will not have it.'' #Bruce wants his fights alright. He's uneasy with being left out of things often but he's particularly uneasy #with being left out of Joker's narrative #and it's far less about him ''being the only one strong enough to deal with him'' than he'd like to admit #batjokes #batjokes meta #Batman #Batman meta

[front-facing-pokemon]

#spheal #i wish i could post circular images on tumblr. because this one is deserving of a fully circular PNG. i could technically just take a #regular square image and then make the edges transparent to make it *effectively* a circle‚ but like… would that appeal? #if that would appeal then i'll do it. i don't think it would be *too* prohibitively hard. i would be willing to make an addendum #with a circular transparent image of spheal staring at the screen if enough of you want it. either way #this guy rolls everywhere and i think tumblr is gonna like that. i feel like this is gonna end up being a well-liked pokémon amongst tumblr #as in. i feel like. it already is. because. of how it is. i just don't know bc spheal isn't like. one of my favorites #it's cute don't get me wrong but it's just not one i think about all the time. it's one that i'll like if prompted but not unprompted #i'm gonna stop before i dig myself into a hole. i beat totk finally. it was very good and i honestly had way way more fun with it than i did #with botw. i have my criticisms obviously. it's not perfect it's not pmd. but it was very good. and now i've moved onto the next game in my #backlog. which is very long but i'm steadily working through it. hopefully i can get it done before i graduate this december and stop having #any time for the rest of my life ever forever to play video games. dreading that day. but uh #until then i will game. and hang out with my friends. and go on tumblr. and do all these things i like to do. until i no longer can #wow this got depressing i'm gonna Stop here. enjoy spheal

[steppesliver]

gay people cannot break up normally it always has to be something like "it was me. i called the cops. but you're still in charge, benson" and get like four women and cops involved

#GODDDDDD i enjoyed the movie so much. so so much. i loved how tense it was #seeing the caption (OMINOUS MUSIC) and knowing shit was about to go down felt like when playing games & you get close to an enemy #and the battle theme activates lol #the ending had me so tense though. for whatever reason i thought benson was gonna come out of the closet at any second #and it was just the silly plushies😭 #i wish we had learn more about benson's circumstances but maybe he was just fucked up. good enough for me #randy bradley #the passenger 2023 #the passenger

[vic-does-battlecats]

Minor spoilers for the already revealed chapters of the next A Starless Clan book Wind

#a starless clan #a starless clan spoilers #wind spoilers #asc spoilers #warrior cats spoilers #warriors #warrior cats #tigerheart #tigerheartstar #tigerstar 2 #tigerstar #Squirrelflight #squirrelstar #frostpaw #Nightheart #I’ve been wanting to draw this ever since the chapters were revealed and what better time than like two days til the book comes out #i actually think tigerheartstar is an interesting character in this arc he genuinely thinks he’s doing the right thing and he does honestly #want to help. he just does it by trying to crack dad jokes to lighten the mood while trying to run a group that doesn’t want him there #i also think it’s funny that he’s consistently just chill with taking in cats thrown out of their clans. ESPECIALLY from RiverClan #don’t get me wrong he’s super weird in omen of the stars and avos and I think in his super edition (I haven’t read it in a while) #but he’s also a good dad. he’s such a perplexing character I can’t help but find him interesting. at least he DOES stuff yknow #I’ll eat my words if he does turn out to be completely evil or something. but I’ll hate if he does his behavior really isn’t like Tigerstar #-the first. this guy isn’t out here trying to seize power #but ENOUGH ABOUT HIM!! Nightheart asking squirrelstar if frostpaw could come to thunderclan with him was so sweet #i wish she’d accepted I don’t want them to split up I’m worried the writers will forget the entire last book and they won’t be close again

[blu3b3rryj4mp1r3]

I stayed up until 6 am because my brain can't stop thinking but here are some ponies I drew 🙃

#i always start drawings that i never finish because i feel like my artstyle isn't good enough so i end up drawing a lot of these #and a lot of sketches #i usually fill 1 or 2 A4 papers with sketches for drawings or comic ideas every day then i almost never make them into actual drawings #because i tell myself i need to practice more #i don't want to be a professional artist i just draw because i think it's fun and I've always done it #i wish i could stop being so judgemental of myself and just make the things i want when i want to make them #I'm sure there are other people who have this issue too #sorry for venting but i don't know it's just so tiring 😂 #anyhow: #mlp #mlp:fim #mlp fim #my little pony #friendship is magic #pinkie pie #twilight sparkle #rarity #applejack #my art! ☆ #my pony art ☆

[vriskira]

can you believe they kissed during the finale !?!?! (coping)

#total drama reboot #total drama island #total drama #total drama spoilers #td spoilers #td julia #td mk #mkulia #SO hot take i love mullet julia actually. girl just style it a little and itll look good trust me!!! #i wish that she won but wayne is a hilarious winner. love that guy! #mkulia-wise i loveee that they hugged.. theyre so cute #i am so glad that julia didnt get the bald treatment she doesnt deserve it #god forbid women have hobbies (being evil) #anyway heres to mk and julia kissing next season [raises a glass #i liked this season a lot though :) i hope if any more DO come out theyre good too! #enough ramblin outta me im probably gonna draw these 2 some more

[skunkes]

wanted to see how much i cld stylize him and ended up with some rly fun scribbles

#first one is all forehead/forehead heavy though... i feel he'd be more All Chin ykwim #or not All but definitely more chin his face is just long #but i thought it was good enough like that ykwim was not aiming for accuracy just w.e #a doodley #ok gn ^_^ #2nd one is like. perfect example of what i mean when i say i wish my art was Bad good #eyes literally Skewed but it doesnt look BAD bad it looks fun bad comma good

[ittybittybumblebee]

FOR THE LOVE OF BEING CREATIVE PLEASE KEEP DRAWING THOSE DRAWINGS YOU THINK ARE SHITTY, THEY MATTER MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW JUST BY BEING, JUST BY YOU EXPRESSING YOURSELF, JUST BY YOU WANTING TO MAKE IT AT ALL, LETS HOPE THE FUTURE YOU HAS LEARNED TO NOT CRINGE AT THE TIMES YOU WERE LEARNING AND HAVING FUN AND MESSING UP AND STILL KEPT GOING BECAUSE YOU WERE ENJOYING CREATING SOMETHING DAMMIT

#hi i am emotional about art #i am emotional about artists that belittle their past selves drawings for not being good enoughh then #littlehint from Me: they were always good enough there is no good enough it exists because you loved whatever you were doing enoug to do it #standards are fake in art just make something i promise it matters what you make matters #i wish i could say things better but im very tired sleepy #you get what i mean #hi artists. please keep drawing if it brings you joy. please learn to not sacrifice joy for perfectionism. i love you all

[lunarharp]

if we could just get there

#witch hat tag #orufrey #leftover things. starting to feel bad again so maybe this is the end of this burst of activity #or maybe i will just go back to drawing sadder things. either way twas a good week or so. #i am trying my best. i wish it were enough