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#hi artists. please keep drawing if it brings you joy. please learn to not sacrifice joy for perfectionism. i love you all
ittybittybumblebee · 1 year
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FOR THE LOVE OF BEING CREATIVE PLEASE KEEP DRAWING THOSE DRAWINGS YOU THINK ARE SHITTY, THEY MATTER MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW JUST BY BEING, JUST BY YOU EXPRESSING YOURSELF, JUST BY YOU WANTING TO MAKE IT AT ALL, LETS HOPE THE FUTURE YOU HAS LEARNED TO NOT CRINGE AT THE TIMES YOU WERE LEARNING AND HAVING FUN AND MESSING UP AND STILL KEPT GOING BECAUSE YOU WERE ENJOYING CREATING SOMETHING DAMMIT
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clankryze511 · 5 years
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The Search for Ezra
Story by @ofhisbridgerways on Instagram Edited by me
Sometime had past since the Ghost Crew, and a band of rebels had liberated the planet of Lothal, Ezra had set the final plan in motion into freeing his home world from total Emperial Lockdown, as he was in a desolate location in the unknown region as he awoke after he had been knocked unconscious after dropping out from hyperspace, he would look around, as he limped into a cave where he managed to keep himself warm, and fully immense himself into the force, as he would meditate, knowing that Sabine would find him. The two had grown so close before the Final battle of Lothal, to liberate the system, he had complete faith in the fact that she would one day find him, and bring him back home. He also had this strange feeling anytime that she entered his thoughts, though they were friends, he felt something more than being just friends, as he cleared his mind. Sabine reminisced on some of the old days, back when Kanan was among their numbers. Back before when they were simply six against a mighty Empire that reigned across the galaxy. Simpler times in a way, they have long passed and now the Empire was finally gone... not just from Lothal, but from everywhere. From the farthest reaches of Tatooine, to the shining cities of Coruscant. Still no sign of Ezra, but she’s looking... she hasn’t given up on him yet. It was funny, the two had come a long way in the terms of relationship. First, she knew him as the Kid. Now, he was probably one of her closest friends... closer than she would ever imagine. If someone were to tell her years back that she would become friends with some blue haired kid that would become a great friend... she admits, she would probably be skeptical. Not that it truly matters now. Sometimes, she could swear there was more to their relationship than she thought. Maybe that was just her brain going off of stupid things... maybe not, emotions can be weird, for the most part. She stood up, helmet at her side. She’ll find him, she had to.
As Ezra meditate, he had a vision that showed him the fact there was one ship that wasnt damaged nearby, that had a working transmitter, to perhaps send off a distress signal, or some sort of communication, that he only hoped could reach Sabine, and be able to help her find him. He then sat and thought to himself "I know I can always count on you, Sabine. Don't give up hope on finding me." He then would mutter words under his breath, not realizing that he was saying this in a transmission, nor out loud "I love you.." as the transmission was sent in a rather quick way, though surprising to Ezra, he was certain that no one would receive the transmission, as he bandaged his shoulder up from where Thrawn had shot him, before the two left Lothal. Sabine sat at the control console of the ship, it wasn’t the Ghost... but it was something so she could have some privacy. Somewhere she can vent her thoughts, almost like her room was. Decorative drawings were scattered around the interior, some unfinished and some barely drawn. The search for Ezra still consumed most of her mental facilities, the Jedi was unique... funny, sometimes, but he was a friend she could count on. Now, more than ever, he was counting on her to bring him home. She wasn’t sure where Thrawn was, or even what his fate was...but damn that Chiss. Even if he lived, she didn’t doubt that Ezra would’ve dealt with him by now. Probably would’ve been difficult without his lightsaber, but not impossible. The Mandalorian perked up at the sudden beeping on the console, staring at the lightsaber that laid above it, untouched by her artistic hand. Even if she had inspiration... she couldn’t bring herself to spray over it, a rarity in her life. Though he felt weak, he didn't give up hope knowing that soon Sabine would be there to rescue him, and bring him back home, and nothing would stop her. He knew in his heart the Mandalorian would come and bring him back to where he belonged. He had also learned in the force to send a telepathic message to those not strong in the ways of the force, as he used more strength to send a message to Sabine "Please... I am here, you've been on this planet before..." Before he passed out from exhaustion, as he had a strenuous battle, and over-strangulating his abilities in the force, as he was kept warm, so he could be kept alive. Sabine heard the plea for help, the transmission playing like a spark of hope over an open fire of space. Her fingers moved without thought, pruning up the engines. This was the first time she has heard from Ezra in a long time, her eyes sharp and focused on tracing back the transmission. The last words played on and she felt her heart do flips, she was uncertain what this feeling was. She brushed off her current thoughts, managing to find a general location. And what it said, shocked her... the Unknown Regions. That’s a bit far, but she didn’t give it too much thought, only precise calculations. She just hoped that it wasn’t within a black hole, but honestly... she had a good feeling about this. “I won’t break my promise.” She vocalized, putting in the coordinates and making the jump. As he heard her reply, from the vastness of being in the Unknown Region, a small smile formed upon the now older Jedi, whom still held out hope that the one he cared about more than anything in the universe, would find him soon, and that he could be reunited with her once more. Though he always had feelings for her, they had seemed to grow stronger as they got older, and got to do more missions together, as he felt a tear fall from his eyes, reminiscing about how things were with Kanan, before he was able to regain himself, and sit up against the side of the ship, patiently awaiting the one woman in his life to appear before him. The stars zoomed by, quick and almost as if they were long lines. Though to Sabine, it was slow... too slow. There was no time to waste, no time to mess around. Her brain currently on overdrive as she ran a hand through her now shorter hair, every sound almost audible aboard the ship. There were few people that weren’t family that she would to the ends of the Galaxy to find... Ezra topping that list. Despite how closed off she was at the beginning, he cared and tried to talk to her. Despite how much of an ass she could be, he still tried to be her friend... and in a time when her clan hated. Ketsu had left and when she felt she couldn’t trust anyone, it was special. Really special. The ship soon left hyperspace, breaking her from her thoughts and memories. Ezra would then open his eyes completely as he sensed a ship coming out of hyperspace, as he knew without a question, it was in fact Sabine, who heard his pleas for help, as he felt a sense of almost having butterflies in his stomach, it had been nearly a decade or so since he'd seen the Mandalorian, and he held so many questions within him, but he remained calm, and found his center, as he got back into the ship, as he awaited the ship to land near him, as he knew she was close. The Only thing that the Jedi could do now, was wait, and trust in his friend, but more importantly, he knew that once they reunited, that he would have to reveal a hidden feeling to her, unsure of what her reaction might be. Sabine placed her helmet on her head, sending a ping out to any active transmitter in the area. Her stomach curled with worry for the guy that she cared about, who sacrificed himself for Lothal. Her fingers tightened on the ship’s controls without her knowledge, as she awaited a ping. The cold expanse of space was unfeeling, yet she knew that Ezra was near. He had to be... she took a deep breath to calm herself. The Mandalorian anxiously waited for some transmission to spark back, something... anything. Even if it was some lame pick up line that came through. Then, truly pinpointing where he was would be easier than paint... well, that was an exaggeration, barely anything flows together than the Spray Can she still carries with her. With a renewed strength, he sent another transmission, stating this time "Tell me how much you've missed me now." As a small smile creased the Jedi's lips, as he awaited the response, as he looked at the scanner and picked up a ship coming in close to his proximity, as he paused feeling tears run down his face, as he did not forget about Sabine, the undeniable love of his life, though he never admitted it to her, because he was afraid of falling in love, after his parents were close within reach to him, prior to his sacrifice. He dropped to a knee in pure joy knowing that he was found, and still was alive. “A lot, dork.” Sabine said, keeping the positive emotions from overwhelming her. It has been a while since she had heard Ezra’s voice, and it was like no time had passed. “I’m on approach.” She said, hands moving to bring the ship to Ezra’s location. She didn’t bother to ask about Thrawn, fingers flipping over the landing gear. She felt the ship land, ground meeting metal once again... well, for the first time in a few hours. Once landed, she sprinted from her seat, purpose in mind. This was a moment in both dreams and nightmares... for fear that Ezra could be dead. That fear, fortunately has passed... and Sabine has never been happier to hear his voice. Relief and happiness have made themselves known in her mind. As he saw lights of a ship come into his view, The older Jedi now stood up from being in the ship, appearing on the side, as he saw her for the very first time since they were on Lothal, as he couldn't help himself, he would run off towards the Mandalorian, no worries in the world. He sensed her emotion, and the joy she had in her angelic eyes, as he ran up towards her, as a smile came across his face, before wrapping his arms around the woman that stole his heart, and his face buried into her neck, he would speak to her for the first time since their final encounter on Lothal. "You cut your hair, to resemble mine hm?" For the first time in what seemed to be a lifetime, he felt like a normal person, and not just a Jedi. But to Sabine, he knew he obviously meant more to her than before. “Yeah, it helped.” Sabine admitted, arms tightly wrapped around Ezra. Her armor had changed once again, now with bits and pieces of all the armor types she wore over the years. All combined into one neat new color scheme, “It’s great to see you again.” The Mandalorian managed, fingers holding onto the fabric of Ezra’s clothes tightly. A reassurance, that this was real... very real. Practically a dream come true in a way, a recurring one to be exact. She let her lips curl into a huge grin, relief washing over her. She can almost remember some of the sleepless nights she had while searching. The cold stars her company, the others were there to help when they can. Now within the arms of the Mandalorian whom he grew close to, he would whisper in her ear for the first time in a long time, and what felt right to him at that time "I love you." as he looked into her eyes, seeing the relief, and at the same time, seeing her emotion at seeing him for the first time, since he nearly heard the heartbreak in her voice when she begged him to not be in the Star Destroyer when they liberated Lothal years prior; he would then say to her with a completely confident feeling amongst him, knowing that he could be honest with her. "I've waited so long to be able to ask you this, Sabine. But I would like to give you one single kiss. If you'd allow it." The Jedi paused for a moment, as he held her in his arms, knowing she felt a sense of comfort and security with him being around again. “I know, and I love you too.” Sabine said, staring Ezra in the eyes. Blue orbs that always seem to beam with friendliness and some form of positivity. Her thoughts drifted back to the past once more, specifically all the time she and Ezra spent together. From the first words - they spoke to each other to the Battle of Lothal. Her mind snapped back to reality, hearing the next words the Jedi said. He was taller, now no longer being the shortest of the non-droid members of the Ghost. “Yeah, I’d like that.” She admitted, time itself seeming to slow down - as a small breeze blew by. The air not cold, just a nice amount of cool. Her heart began to beat faster in her chest, ready for this to happen. As the two stood in between the ships, Ezra leaned in as his lips connected with Sabine's. Sabine kissed back It felt like time stopped as his lips connected with hers, allowing himself to be in the moment, with no one saying anything to him, as he realized that she was the only one that meant - more than the well-being of himself. He learned more as he was stranded on a planet, but one thing remained the same, and that was that he fell in love with the Mandalorian, who at first was indeed an ass to him, but he felt even closer to her than even his own parents, since - he had been on his own, prior to meeting the Ghost Crew. He looked into her eyes, and said "Lets go back to Lothal, my love." “Yeah, Lothal... it has changed for the better. The sky’s no longer polluted.” She said, remembering it rebuilding as she and the others watched over it. No Imperials decided to take the planet back, thankfully. Ezra looked Sabine in her eyes, as he spoke to her " I sense your trembling.. whats troubling you." The Jedi could sense a overwhelming amount of emotion coming over the Mandalorian as he felt tears from her face on his hands before he stopped to ask her once more, this time - with a little more of a worried tone to his voice. "Whats wrong, Sabine?" Sabine took a moment, taking deep breaths in an attempt to reign in her emotions. All nice feelings just bubbling at the forefront of her mind, it was as if a part of her knew this moment would be assured... and it has. “Just... kind of overwhelmed, y’know?” She admitted, eyes continuing to stare into Ezra’s, a hand moving to the back of her neck. The good kind of overwhelmed, thankfully. "Is it because you found me?" The Jedi looked into his loves eyes, noticing that she couldn't stop smiling at him. He then would reply with another promise, this time managing to hold Sabines hand, before kneeling down, looking up at her as a smile creased his lips before he said "And I promise for today, and everyday for the rest of our lives to be the best man I can be for you. I love you, my queen”.
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