#I just have actual drawing time/motivation now

[berrybanana-arts]

“I’ve got my eye on you, Sixer.”

A little bit of menacing Bill and troubled Ford for Forduary! :)))

Edited the pencil drawing to fix some features, add detail and highlights, and push the contrast a little.

The unedited version! :))

Goofy thumbnail:

#forduary #stanford pines #ford pines #bill cipher #berrybanana #they have a complicated history #muse and artist #god and devotee #berry gf art #also Stan my beloved I didn’t mean to put so much less effort into you- #I just have actual drawing time/motivation now #forduary 2024 #also thank you procreate liquify and flip tools… #helping me fix all my mistakes #forduary2024 #tag it as you see it folks #my favourite divorcees #billford #but not explicitly??? or necessarily- #They're just homoerotic and nemeses your honour

[endermagpieart]

What do you mean I’m a bit late for Janus’ big day? Of course not, how could you say such a thing! I definitely didn’t forget all about it in my absence and only get reminded in the incorrect quotes video live chat; that’s not like me at all ;]

Anyways I decided to dress our sassy snake in some different outfits I think he’d like. He seems like the type to get all dolled up on his birthday and it goes with Thomas posting pics in outfits inspired by the sides on their appreciation days!

@thatsthat24

#sanders sides #janus sanders #ts janus #thomas sanders #sanders sides fanart #my hoard #I’ve returned! #the newest asides came out and I remembered how much I love it #so I’m hyperfixated again and I’ve not now peace since #it is nice to actually finish something again tho #I’ve been pretty busy working lately and now I’m starting to pack to move into my first apartment! #so not much time to really sit down and draw #and when I do have time I can’t get the motivation to actually draw anything #I want to get better about posting stuff on here #(even though it feels like I’m just dreaming into the void a lot) #even just silly little things or rough sketches I’ll never finish #I hope it’ll help me continue to draw and make things again #I forgot how nice it is #anyways if you’ve read this far thanks #have a cookie :] 🍪

[spooky-activity]

the moms are fighting

#my art #mine #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr himeko #hsr kafka #kafhime #motivating myself to draw more using bloody homoerotic scenes is working #i think himeko could win with enough prep time like batman #but it takes a while to aim the orbital space laser ya know #even if she does win one of these drawings kafka’ll still say something witty and flirty #thats just how she is #where’d himeko’s jacket go? #kafka sliced it up to show off her sword dexterity #himeko did not appreciate this #but now we get to see himeko’s big muscles so #oh well 🤷🏻‍♀️ #(i did actually draw it but i wanted to stare at her biceps MORE than i wanted her to have a jacket on)

[brainworms-all-night-long]

here the drawing I've been sort of live posting about. my ass cannot decide on the final color assembly so you get two versions, pick your fav

#sonic prime #cant wait to see what this kid has cooked up in the grim #ough january cant come faster #jk jk it will be here in like..two weeks felt time watch #the trailer gave me the much needed motivation to bite through shading the tails. you see I still have no clue how to shade metal #possibly never will #just like math #imma just put lines there and hope they look good #also yes drawing witha a color palette is my new fav thing #is so fun #but so diffucut to hold myself from wanting to blend the colors #sharp color contrast isnt my thing but it looks sooo pretty when done right #idk if its my case tho #ill see in a feew months from now on #miles nine prower #nine the fox #mah art #me does arts #actually finished doodl

[doodledrawsthings]

Do you plan on there actually being a story for soss

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ maybe, most likely a comic.

#I have been in a several months long episode of burnout which has fundamentally #changed my relationship to my enjoyment of making art #I’m mostly just trying to get that enjoyment back rn #I’ve been getting better I think #and I’m slowly slowly putting together what I might wanna do with soss together #but the motivation to start it is absolutely non existent rn #so for the time being I’m just trying to enjoy drawing stuff again and drawing for me #while exploring the characters before I get around to feeling like doing comics again #sorry to people looking forward to when I finally get my ass in gear and hunker down to make something #truth is I don’t know when I will actually do anything with soss IF I even get around to it by then #but right now I’m just trying to prioritize my brain and right now all my brain wants to do is draw loose pretty doodles of #my OC’s hanging out

[pekoeboo]

hhh i've had like. no drive to work on any art or writing projects. ;n; my heart is still so invested in the stories and characters I've created, but the motivation to take those feelings and put it into some form of content is next to nil. i don't know why it's been like that but it's kinda sad :c

don't get me wrong - i'm happy with most of the things i've created lately, but it's also been this strange game of doubt and comparison going on in my head when it comes to actually sharing what I make. there are a lot of pieces of art and writing that i just haven't posted because i feel like it's not in a place where it's good enough for anyone other than myself. the idea of editing and actually finishing some projects so that i can make sense of them online is overwhelming even tho i would love to just... get some of those ideas out for anyone who might be interested in hearing about them, you know?

anyway. probably just need to let myself take some kind of break?? idk what that would really entail at this point tho. it's just been a weird mental state that I need to work out i guess.

#so like. not quite a hiatus but some Secret Other Thing #i'm hoping the motivation to actually finish projects and share them will come back to me #but right now i think i need to either just focus on drawing or writing stuff without any intention of sharing it #or maybe i shouldn't draw/write at all for a while instead #but i'd still love to talk about the characters and stories with y'all?? #unfortunately that really only seems to work best within like personal messages between friends or whatever #i've tried posting random content about characters on here but it feels weird without any art to go along with it #(like when i wrote that post about khalan's backstory that one time) #so i just dont talk about them at all outside of that because i can't tell if ppl would actually want to hear about them #and even if ppl do i have no idea where to start without any prompts or specific questions to build off of kdjfg #anyway #i'm rambling now oops #dont know what the point of this post is but i'll probably delete it eventually #my ramblings #text post

[rare-prism-s]

i need to draw.......

#so many things i want to draw but #i just want the finished products #no motivation to actually work on anything #egh #semester almost over but #doesnt necessarily mean ill get to draw more #bc i have time now (for the most part) #i just end up doing other things #need device that puts image in head on paper

[toiletphotoshoot]

I haven’t posted any art in almost a month I’m going insane

#I’M DRAWING SOMETHING RN #dw guys #I’ve just uhm #been at a sort of war with myself and I didn’t have any motivation to boot up my ipad and actually do something 😭 #but I’m finally drawing digitally… again #also I’ve been working on something or rather a certain someone for a long time now #so that might also be a reason lol #anyways prfr will be apon thee soon #kats rants

[end-orfino]

i feel like it's such a cruel joke from God that everything that makes me better also makes me feel worse.

#the attitude of 'no one else will do it if not you' along with 'you need to put in more than the bare min. because-- #--this bare minimum does not make an effect on people tf is this' #was things i started thinking to motivate myself to draw more than headshots all the time & actually start putting the ideas i had onto-- #paper and at least trying to tell my stories in anything more than a meaningless ramble #(i still ramble sometimes but i at least try to think of how to do it now) #and it worked #and im doing actual things now #but now this same logic is hurtful because it pushes me to make more&more&more #just to get my ideas out there #bcs just saying the idea out loud isnt enough. people will not be interested in just listening to that #i need to like make a drawing or something #and theres so many ideas and i cant make something for all of them but IM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO THAT. #im the only one. and i should be the only one because getting someone else to do so is 1. not possible 2. shameful. #like oooohhh can you make this idea i had real because i cant. jesus christ id rather fall into the ground. #please dont internalize this btw. this isnt a good attitude to have. not at all!! #but now im stuck in this hell because its the only way i get to keep going #the only way im capable of doing anything and being productive is by forcing myself to do so. by pulling myself up by strings #and beating myself up into what i want to do #i will not do it if i wont force myself to. #...does this classify as executive dysfunction? #i never thought it did but #now that i phrased it that way #god i wish i had the balls to ask my parents for therapy #BY THE WAY TO CLARIFY #'DOING THINGS'? IN THIS CONTEXT? #MEANS LIKE. MAKING SHITPOSTS. #SOMETIMES MAKING COMICS OR WRITING A ONE SHOT BUT I STILL STRUGGLE WITH THAT TO THIS DAY. #IT WAS MOSTLY LITERALLY DRAWING A DOODLE COMIC INSTEAD OF WRITING SOMETHING IN A DIALOGUE FORM #BECAUSE DIALOGUES DIDNT CHANNEL WHAT I WANTED TO SHOW RIGHT AND SHITPOST COMICS MADE IT MORE INTERESTING TOO. #oh yeah and theres a thing to be said about how so much for this if not all is just so that other people would look at it.

[mrfutureboy]

im not very experienced with digital painting but i wanted to give it a shot! trying out the oil paint brushes on csp

#original entry #my art #chikorita #meganium #pokemon #fan art #pokemon fan art #im also not very well practiced in drawing pokemon sooo this was a challenge #just something to get me back in the art mood bc i definitely have time to work on commissions now. just need the motivation #because as excited as i am to do them sometimes its just so hard to sit down and actually do it

[xmoonlitxdreamx]

How'd you get into overwatch ships? I saw you mention that you haven't played any ovw so it got me curious!

tbh i have no idea LMAO;; I've been drawing pokemon swsh ships for the past 2-ish years, then my sister mentioned something abt overwatch 2 back in December so I decided to look up the ow2 designs, drew junkrat, then abruptly fell head-first into drawing roadrat again fjndngndn;;; and then I guess my brain is just used to multishipping (I ship a ton of the gym leaders w each other in pokemon swsh for no discernable reason), so I ended up imagining a lot of random junkrat n roadhog pairings (??????). Idk I think my brain kinda just wanted a break from drawing pokemon fsr.

I actually used to be interested in Overwatch back in 2016~2017 when it first came out (I was in college at the time), which is when I watched some of the official animatics and read some of the comics (basically only the stuff w Junkrat and Roadhog). I also looked at/read a lot of roadrat art/comics then too so that's kinda when I got interested in Junkrat and Roadhog as characters. Ovw was like HUGE back then, like even if u didn't play most ppl knew the characters... feel like it wasn't particularly uncommon for ppl who didn't play to draw fan art/etc.

I think I gravitated toward Junkrat and Roadhog bc they reminded me of my OCs Lafayette and Dmitri (short character who gets into trouble + tall character who keeps them in line kinda thing). I think the way I draw them has changed since 2016, but yeah.... I think that was the true initial reason for why I started drawing them.

Anyway overall............ who knows. Idk what motivates my brain to draw, all this stuff kinda comes out of nowhere LMAO;;

#replies #tbh my art motivation is kinda random and complicated. i was kind of exclusively drawing my ocs from 2010 ~ 2020 #i had the hardest time drawing fan art it was always so like. excruciating i just wanted to draw my ocs instead #in 2020 i somehow started drawing zero escape and pokemon swsh fan art which was my first times being semi-active in fandoms #and actually having hcs and wtv (idk usually i dont get so preoccupied w characters other than my own to have hcs) #and now a similar thing is happening again w ovw. fsr. idk why LMAO #other than ZE swsh and ovw I dont rly like drawing fan art tbh

[kindledrose]

why must i go to sleep hmm. is it not enough to simply draw gtwscar over and over again into the dead of night

#this guy gives me motivation to draw like no other. he's just so fun #(holds him up in the blorbo pose™ (like a cat by the scruff of his neck)) guy of all time #terra is rambling #i am actually going to sleep now though it's like 2 am and i have smth to do tomorrow -_-;; regretfully #although let it be known that i would much rather be drawing or writing or both

[risingsunresistance]

ugh

#vent/rant ahead i just wanna say stuff: #forcing myself to draw for my friends and post content for my friends and keep Being Active just for other ppl is wearing me out #i WANT to continue to be a part of the community but. man this sucks fkjdhsg #it's entirely my fault. the situations i've put myself in that i dont wanna make public #(not just stuff related to art and content motivation but also Oops i Upset A Friend And Feel Horrible) #but it still sucks even if it is my fault #idk man im just running out of stuff to care about. everything is getting worse 🧍 #i'm sure i'll be here every once in a while but will i ever post a full drawing again? great question #clips? very very rarely #actual content? not likely #i have like. one thing i wanna post about at christmas (i know one of my gifts already). besides that uhhhhhhhh i've got nothing #might have one drawing/sketch for december but that's very up in the air #if you know my priv and wanna request go ahead. im always active there and that wont change unless twitter explodes #even if you've requested before and aren't in it now you can request again. i'll try to be more lenient with it (again this is my fault) #i doubt i could ever make myself straight up abandon this blog. i'll continue to answer asks and ramble when i want to #but forcing myself to be a Content Provider sucks. it's not working. i'm still sad. he's still dead. my friends are leaving. #i'm not gonna have anyone left by this time next year it'll just be me and the void lmao #too nervous to follow anyone new. too nervous to talk the friends i already have. cant hold a conversation to save my life #this is why i have like... 3 friends here (i think we're friends). sorry i never talk to you guys it's just Difficult :/ #and it's not getting any easier. not since june/july ! #all goat knows is talk about skyblock (getting harder to do). post link to song. and make 50 more non-rebloggable posts #chat #come back later #(to delete probably idk) #now the real question: is this all related to [current issues causing mood swings] or is this something that's been building since june #we'll see i guess #i could be fine a month or so from now. or tomorrow. or all the way in the summer. who knows #*attaches a picture of techno to make this seem slightly less miserable* jkfhdkg #i hate there being like 2000 people here. nearly 3000 i think. idk #i want to talk and rant without feeling like im making the world's worst apology video KJFDHKG i dont like having so many eyes on me

[le-velo-pour-dru]

I'm genuinely so concerned about the fact that I don't have motivation for my creative hobbies anymore ._. I don't know what happened, and I don't know how to get back into them, and it freaks me out

#dru speaks #dru vents #i haven't finished an actual drawing since march 2022 #OVER A YEAR #i've practiced drawing dallon and ryan's faces for a drawing i was thinking of doing #and i've occasionally doodled on scrap paper #and that's IT #i used to draw all the time #but now i just. never do it anymore #i'm not exaggerating btw i actually NEVER do it #and it just. feels so awful #people talk about creating art and they show their art to other people #and i always want to get involved and do that stuff too #but i just don't get ideas for drawings anymore. they used to come to me all the time but now they don't #and i just have absolutely zero motivation to do it. it never crosses my mind as an option #it's really scary #i have no idea how this happened and i have no idea how to fix it #a similar thing is happening with my reading motivation but i have WAAAAAY way way more motivation for reading than i do for drawing #and reading isn't even creative #augh. it's just so terrible #i miss making things so much :(

[notsodailycake]

That moment when you're an artist and your birthday is in a couple is days so you have to gift yourself a birthday drawing

#for those wondering #I'll be 16 on the 31st #of this month #i picked up thus habit bc i share a birthday with my lovely double salty #my twin if you will #but now it wont be anything grand and it'll be just for me #bc I'm tired and have 0 motivation to think of anything to draw for the 2 of us #although it even depends if i can finish it on time #and hell i might actually come up with something for the 2 of us lol #cakes art

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i got like v little sleep so my brains been on fire all day #and while not sleeping i watched pacific rim for the 1st time and oh god i want to be newt #i want to be that sort of scientist. the kind that tattoos themself in their object of study and cant shut up abt how cool it is #i should get tattoos. many many tattoos. i already kno what i want its just a matter of finding the motivation to #actually book an apointment and follow thru #bc i want like a partial sleeve going over my shoulder and partly down my back #and like thats a big commitment chance wise and i dont deal well with change so id prob freak oit #also prob pretty expensive #hhhhh.... i should draw newt and some kaiju gore #i was minorly obsessed with pacific rim bsck when it came out despite never having seen it #maybe now i can test out my new pens. hopefully theyre not terrible lol #idk im just feeling slightly wrung out bc im having maybe a minor breakdown lol #unrelated