#I have literal severe social anxiety lmao

[opisasodomite]

I tend to pigheadedly jump into things without thinking about them too much, largely because Things Aren’t Real Until They Are, and anyway, this month is basically the month of Reaping And Finding Out

#in a good way mostly but it isn’t stopping me from being nervous #two weeks from today I’ll be living with my fisnce after an 8 year(!) LDR #sure hope this was worth it lmao but I’m sure it was #but also also at work I encouraged my boss for us to hire a student worker #and that’s actually happening #said student worker will be reporting to me #so I’m suddenly like Oh I’m going to be a Supervisor #oops #I have literal severe social anxiety lmao #but I’m being so normal about it so 🤷‍♂️ #(this wasn’t a surprise it was an assumed thing lol it’s just dawning on me what that all means) #also also also in a broad sense that’s kind of what this year is going to be #especially if we move out of state

[not-poignant]

Had a question. I've been in the Fae Tales Discord server for several months now, but a lot gets sent in it, and I don't have the time or energy to keep up with it. I end up basically lurking and reading what gets said without replying much beyond sticker replies. I feel bad about it, but I get really anxious whenever I try to be more active in the discord. It seems like you're all quite tight-knit and full of knowledge and wit. Is it bad if I just read along and don't say much? I can try more if that's better

Hi anon!

There's actually a ton of lurkers in the Fae Tales Discord and it's perfectly fine! I only know some of them when they emoji react to stuff and I love that. (Seriously we have some regular 'emoji react' lurkers and I get so excited when I see them reacting to stuff).

Fae Tales and my writing in general has always drawn in quite a few people with high anxiety and social anxiety, so it's only natural that the server itself would be totally fine with people who have to lurk. That's normal!

In fact, it even says in the rules:

"You can expect spoilery content if you haven't read everything (even outside of post-update-spoiler-chat), people talking too much about media, fae, politics, fandom, general silliness, a lot of lurking (you are also welcome to lurk), and a queer-friendly atmosphere."

Lurkers being welcome is codified into the rules and has been since the very beginning. Trust me anon, the only reason you don't realise you aren't alone in your social anxiety is because the other lurkers aren't talking ;)

(Also, it's perfectly fine to just chat once a month, or once every few months too. This happens! Though the chat might seem tight-knit, and some of us do turn up daily, there are folks who only chat once or twice a week, or once or twice a month, but have just been in the chat for so long that they're familiar.

Some folks turn up like 6 times a year. Some turn up once. Some just emoji react when it suits them. Some only visit one or two channels and have the rest muted. There's absolutely zero judgement no matter if / how often / when etc. you decide you want to participate. Folks can test out de-lurking and then lurk again, folks who have never lurked can try lurking for a while, and so on. It's literally there to work for you, in that sense. I'm sure you have way more knowledge and wit than you realise, but I can understand having social anxiety in group situations absolutely.

Imho, if you have high social anxiety, you can just mute it and then check occasionally for excerpts and fanart, because a lot of fanart gets posted there that never gets posted on Tumblr or even Instagram - and same with excerpts, so it can just be a good way to intermittently access things you wouldn't normally see otherwise)

(Also for folks who didn't realise there was a Fae Tales Discord / Discord for my writing, it's here!)

#fae tales #fae tales verse #asks and answers #discord and social anxiety #as someone with severe social anxiety #that actually gets this in other groups #(i lurk on like literally every other group i'm in lmao) #lurkers are absolutely welcome #we have i'd say at least 10 'active' lurkers #(i.e. people who almost never chat but emoji react to things) #and then we'd have active lurkers outside of that too #no one is judging or expecting consistency in conversation #whoever turns up is who turns up on the day and it's a shifting landscape #i am so grateful for the regulars who keep the discord alive #but i'm also incredibly grateful for the lurkers given i can be one myself

[konigsluvr]

Hey hey! I'd like to request König headcanons please. I was thinking more of his childhood but it can be anything really :D thanks x

Also I'm an Avatar fan too! Don't seem to know a lot of people who are into both #teamneteyam

Hey!! I looooove Avatar so much, I haven't been reading it much lately but 2 months ago I was on tumblr all day, everyday just reading various Avatar fics (best days of my life). I miss neteyam so much :(( I really hope this is to your liking<3 i have included some NSFW headcannons, but there will be a warning, if you are uncomfortable, just skip. Reposts are highly appreciated. I will literally marry you. And of course, here I present...

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König Headcanons

Includes: Childhood König. König x fem!reader. Fluff. Spice. Smut.

☆ As said in his biography, he has suffered from severe social anxiety throughout his life. This probably started developing in maybe late childhood/early teens.

☆ I can picture him as the quiet kid in school. Had a couple chill friends that he was comfortable around and hung out with after school.

☆ I think König was average grade student (like me lmao), not bad grades but not super good either, he just did what he had to do at school.

☆ He liked helping around the house so he could contribute and help his parents save time.

☆ He applied to the military at 17, having a job that allows him to blow off steam would help with his anxiety sometimes but if it's a more dangerous mission than usual, his anxiety might peak but he could have coping mechanisms.

☆ Even though he is 6'10" and literally all muscle, he can't stay still. Due to his anxiety again, he is fidgety at times depending on the social situation he is in. Now this leads onto the relationship stuff.

☆ With him being fidgety, I feel his love language is physical touch. He can sometimes struggle with his words but you always know that he loves you when he cuddles you or does little things like playing with your hair or holding your hand whenever you are in public.

☆ König isn't the best at working with technology but you'll show him how he can text you and phone you, so whenever he has free time at base or whenever he isn't with you, expect him spamming you with texts because he misses you so much :((

☆ He has a gym at home for when he wants to work out but with him having such a physical job he doesn't feel the need to workout everyday, maybe 3 or 4 times a week when he's home with you but at base he'll do it more as its like the only thing to do there.

☆ He enjoys going on walks. When he's home with you he'll love going on a walk in the woods or just wondering around town with you, go shopping to get food for supper or something, he'll sneakily buy flowers to surprise you. At base, he sometimes can't sleep well so he'll just walk around for some fresh air to clear his mind.

☆ His down time with you would be watching your favourite show or a random movie. He would do it just to cuddle up or be with you but he will get invested. Like I watched the notebook last night and I was thinking about König crying as you watch the notebook together.

☆ Like you'll be watching the movie and a sad scene comes up, you are already crying and you hear a sniffle but it isn't from you. You turn to your left and see a tear rolling down Königs cheek. This will make you cry harder as you wipe away his tears and cuddle into his neck.

☆ With König having a high payed job, he has a lot of money that he doesn't know how to spend. Lucky him, he has you. You would tell him its no bother, that you have enough clothes and pretty jewellery to last you a lifetime but he drags you to the car to your favourite store and you can't help but give in.

☆ He would get a former guard dog and train it to only command you and him, this dog would stay at home with you all the time. You would take it out walks and just spend your whole day with it. He wants to make sure you are safe all of the time.

NSFW AHEAD!!

☆ He likes to take it slow, make ethereal love to you and treat you like your made of glass. You would let a few tears roll down your cheek from his sweetness.

☆ Pussy eater!!! He is like a god with his tongue. Worships your clit like its his favourite thing while his fingers work in and out of you. It doesn't matter if you are crying from overstimulation, you have a safe word. His only mission is making you cum.

☆ Loves face sitting, literally just loves your pussy on his face and your thighs pushing against the side of his head. You would tell him that you are too heavy, he huffs frustrated and pulls you down on him and instantly gets to work. Let's just say, you forgot about what you said 3 seconds ago.

☆ Breeding kink. Sorry, not sorry. In all his fantasies about you, it's you all pretty n pregnant with his baby. You will have that pregnant woman glow and he just can't keep his hands off of you. He doesn't really wear condoms but you'll usually be on the pill, he still struggles to pull out but it's nearly impossible for him. But when he does cum in you, he finds it the sexiest thing ever. He'll use his fingers to plunge his load back into you to feed his growing hunger.

☆ He loves when you top him and take your time with him, but he also enjoys being in charge and having his sole focus on you, even if you just came for the fourth time from his tongue and his cock is rock hard.

☆ The ratio between him giving you head and you giving him head is very diverse. He loves a good blowie but only does it when you want to, he will never ask you.

☆ Isn't one for quickies, he wants to take his time with you. He wouldn't like the risk of someone else seeing you being intimate with him, that is a sight only for him to see.

☆ Isn't afraid to make noise in the bedroom. Whimpering. Moaning. Whining. Groaning. He does it all.

I hoped you liked this!! If you have any more requests don't be shy. Stay safe and take care of yourself my lovies xx

#konig mw2 #konig cod #konig x reader #konig call of duty #konig modern warfare #konig headcanons #konig #call of duty x reader #call of duty modern warfare #call of duty mw2 #call of duty #konig fluff #konig smut #konigsluvr

[poorpuppyboy]

Hi nsftblr! Tis I, Sunflower, here with my THIRD nsft blog.

Idk really how to explain my absense other than I have waves of sex repulsion and i think the best course of action is to sever that via deleting a very fun project: i.e: my kink blog/s.

Anyway. I lost my first one to THE BAN HAMMER and the 2nd to my brain. So uh here i am againnn.

So here's me:

You can call me 🌻 Sunflower or any of the terms/names listed below. I am 19, a FtM transgender man. I am attracted to all genders, with a preference for men, and transfem people. I'm a virgin and havent had an irl sexual experience, but that doesnt mean I'm a pushover, lmao. I'm hoping to have fun and meet like-minded kinky people. That being said, lets all be safe and have a good time!

I love getting asks! especially horny comments or scenarios ehe! I'm not open to DMs anymore unfortunately. my social anxiety has gotten pretty bad and I've ended up ghosting quite a few people, but feel free to communicate via asks with me :]

That being said, I am reopening my DMs to my moots, or if I message first.

I am open to sexting and getting off over text but I am not looking an irl sexual experience or relationship. Discussing fantasies during sexting is fine and even encouraged as long as you understand I am in no way going to actually fuck you.

NAMES/TERMS FOR ME:

any kind of good boy, prince, puppy type terms are fucking 10/10, i also like slut, whore, toy, anything degrading or implying being used i love. Especially if you mix it with praise "good toy, good slut" etc

BODY TERMS: I am uncomfortable with my chest being called "breasts" and my cunt being called "vagina" but aside from that, go stupid go crazy

anyway, the kink rundown:

YES:

minor bdsm or d/s dynamics, free use, monsters (vampires, werewolves, tentacles 🤤), puppyplay/petplay, exhibitionism, degradation, praise (mix the two and i love you) minor dd/lb, objectification (use me, daddy), humiliation, hypnosis, corruption (make me into your slut 🥰), masochism/pain (lightly), cnc/dubcon, sexting, phone sex, sending/recieving pics, vids, voice messages. I have a big voice kink and love dirty talk/moans.

NO:

Full dd/lb/g, ageplay, rapeplay, raceplay, scat, piss, shit, vomit, vore, blood, weaponplay/knifeplay, cuts or burns (idm bruises or slaps), detrans, misgendering, anal

DNI/I WILL BLOCK YOU LIST:

straight men, terfs, racists, transphobes, mysoginists, etc. detrans, misgendering, raceplay, scat/piss/bodily fluids, nsfw ageplay (it makes me uncomfy sorry)

NOTE WITH DD/LB/AGEPLAY: I literally only being called "good boy" (and similar) and calling doms "daddy" and being babied A LITTLE and doted on. not much else with that. I do experiment with littlespace but I want it to stay 100% sfw if I'm regressing. You can use elements of dd/lb in nsfw conversation/asks with me as long as you know its not littlespace. If you try and make me regress for the purpose of nsfw interaction, I will block you.

NOTE ABOUT CNC/DUBCON: I like the kind of cnc thats like, for example, roleplaying a kidnapping where im into it and hiding that. I don't like roleplaying ACTUAL RAPE

PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DNI IF YOU POST OR LIKE DETRANS/MISGENDERING. I WILL BLOCK YOU

#trans nsft #t4t nsft #queer nsft #ftm nsft #nsftblr #nsft degradation #nsft dm me #nsft asks open #nsft mlm #nsft ftm #nsft sub #nsft kink #nsft puppy #nsft intro #nsft daddy #nsft dd/lb

[horizon-verizon]

One of my favorite post-Dance moments is when Torrhen Manderly suggested Aegon III and Daenaera go on a royal tour and “when Aegon III wears black, Daenaera will wear green and vice versa” and Aegon III said “no fucking way I’m putting green on myself” and canceled his plan lmao.

These are the quotes from Fire and Blood ("The Lysene Spring and the End of the Regency") - you can just look at the first and last two pics:

It's a little bit more than "no fucking way I’m putting green on myself", though that's so funny.

I have thoughts about the layers we can get from the conflicts Aegon will have with his own subjects and the path of the Dance to the "Broken Reign" when the last dragon dies. These are my PDF notes so far, so they will not be entirely legible:

There are layers to Aegon's motivations, inspirations, & handling of coming into power and interrupting the progrees versus the regents and the Grandmaester's desires for it.

1) His time with Cregan Stark, whose motives were to keep with his oath/promise to Jace-Rhaenyra and thus was more on Aegon's side than others, also comes with Cregan's focus on making hard decisions for the more vulnerable sections of the populations over making oneself more amicable or pleasing to nobles. Him and the Winter wolves who literally sacrifice themselves so some of their families will have enough food to eat in the winter, as they relate that.

2) "Spring is the time for new beginnings" -- thinking of Geoffrey Chaucer and his prolouge of his Canterbury Tales where traveling (specifically a religious pilgrimage) gives different people the opportunity to reconnect or be confronted by different sections of society/perspectives through their either firsthand experiences or interpretations and retellings of familiar ideas/tales/tropes...but the prologue itself uses spring as the period of joy, beginnings, restoration, playfulness, merriment, and sex...bringing one out of the winter/time of anxiety of survivial (Dance) --> "true beginning of reign" -- Aegon's time and beginning associated with happiness and hope: nobles seeing Aegon to be familiar with him and for him to show that he is attentive to their image of him or wants to be involved with them and their interests (one of whom was Unwin, to "assuage" him [?!]), juxtaposed against lower classes' need for food & the pseudo symbolic assurance of survival (return to understanding that need from the "winter"/winter of several things gone wrong before) -- displays of prosperity vs actions to ensure prosperity and miscommunication or refusal to relate the self or the abandonment of persuasion/rhetoric from internal exhaustion, or an internal "winter", and the subsequent determination to conserve the borders between those closest to you/you and those with the potential to harm.

3) Spring is also associated with youth pushing out the old -- Aegon has been a helpless child for long and he now pushes out the "old" Torrhen/older male authority styming his own...ironically he also requires the other lords' participation and/or eager participation with whatever policies he wishes to institute...which should be how it goes just how it is with springtime flowers and such, so with feudalism there is a lot of self-contradictory dynamics that serve to generate the same old conflicts or plant the "seeds" of such potential

4) an impure repetition of Jaehaerys vs Rogar and the conflict of male authority there -- the halting of one cycle when another (changing of the seasons, which is inevitable but always yearned for in a weird sort of nostalgia, isolation versus social interaction)

#asoiaf asks to me #aegon iii #daenaera velaryon #fire and blood characters #fire and blood #torrhen manderly #cregan stark #aegon iii's characterization

[sihtricfedaraaahvicius]

Introduction? Introduction.

I figured that now I am getting more connected to some of you here, it's time to be a little less anonymous. I am ready to overshare.

My name is Sanne (she/her), I'm 28 and I am from/live in the Netherlands. I live with my boyfriend, who is from Lithuania, like Arnas, and the same age as him too, which simply amuses me endlessly at this point. We also have pet rats named Salem and Thor (yes, we had a Loki too).

I love movies, series, books and music. Music wise I am a metalhead at heart. I am an occultist and a pagan, and in general I love all things spooky. Our house is 24/7 in Halloween mode basically, and so am I. (If anyone from twitter is here right now who happens to follow me, you will know exactly who I am by this description lmao).

I only found TLK very, very recently. I am usually not a fan of period pieces, but one evening I was bored and this popped up on Netflix and I decided to give it a go. Many factors made me fall in love with the show and I binged it within two weeks, only a few weeks before the movie got released. It became a part of my life real quick.

A little fun fact: I was diagnosed with adhd only last year (fuck my life, right?) so it is easy for me to completely get lost into one thing. However, I know when something is going to stick with me and when something is just a quick hyperfixation.

And TLK? My dudes, it's a keeper.

Because of my adhd it is very hard for me to stay focused on something for a long time without getting distracted. The fact that I was able to binge this show with no interruption is insane to me. I started reading the books shortly after (I am currently reading the 4th book) and as much as I love reading: it is not easy for me either. The amount of half read books I have is something I will never tell. But I swear (on Thor's hammer) this whole series is made for people with adhd, because I have never read books so fast, so easily.

And I know it's impossible to tell, but my fave character is Sihtric. Why? I am not sure, it just happened.

I have never been into fanfics, but I was so eager to read more of him (and other characters) that I found myself searching for fics. But I was a little surprised by how "limited" results popped up, so here I am, doing god's work (just kidding). I am on sick leave for several reasons, and these lil fics give me some purpose during the day and keep me from bad habits, I've noticed, so I am just having fun here. I have no experience writing fics, I only write poetry, so to see nice and loving comments about my fics has been quite overwhelming and heartwarming!

Look at me, oversharing. Is anyone still reading this? Probably not.

Anyway...

I was lucky my bank account less lucky to see that Arnas, Mark, Alexander and Timothy will attend a comic con in Germany next week. I told myself not to go due to the finances, but with some luck (fate, perhaps?) I found out last week that I could make it. Alas, I got my tickets. For now I only have tickets secured for Arnas, but I will get a duo op with Mark and Arnas asap (because: faves).

I would love to meet Alexander and Timothy too, but the entire group op is just too expensive for me, unfortunately. I will travel alone and attend the con on my own and I am literally terrified. I have never been to cons alone (social anxiety has entered the chat) and the chances of getting a sensory overload and a meltdown are huge.

However, the fact that I made the decision to go there is really saying something about what this show, these characters and these people became to mean to me, in such a short period. Destiny really is all, I guess! Anyway, I have rambled for way too long. Sorry.

Feel free to introduce yourself to me!!

[itsagrimm]

also think it’s weird how they treat könig like a literal baby ….. that man stabs people LMAO . not saying he can’t have social anxiety but he’s ….. capable …. also yeah the art hcs….. 😬

it is weird.

and something has to be said about the infantilisation of the mentally ill, since König has severe anxiety. Or the internalised sexism of afab people who feel like love is to take care of men like they are children. And of course the general cluelessness about german-speaking identities and heritage.

BUT I am super down for what is happening to the general COD franchise right now. we are taking all those really toxic and problematic characters out of the gamer dude bros grabby hands and making them our own.

Both statements coexist for me.

#i think the whole babyfication of cod characters would be cooler if it wasn't so straight or eurocentric #könig #cod #cod mwii #könig cod #könig mw2 #ghost #simon ghost riley #john mactavish

[ofmermaidstories]

I totally agree with you on not liking the current, "you must reblog or don't read it" mentality. While it's great to support fanfic writers if you're comfortable with it, there are a lot of reasons why someone may not feel comfortable reblogging a particular fic (for me personally my social anxiety sometimes gets the best of me and I simply cannot handle the idea of being perceived). I think the problem comes when people don't interact with fics and then start to ask for more content from the author (which I suspect is only a few people but it's enough to give some writers a really bad impression). I used to write for a very small fandom and even I had several experiences of people asking for part 2s or updates when the original fic had very little interaction and I was most definitely not a request blog. I've personally never written fanfiction to get comments but stuff like that made me feel used and I even had one interaction that toed the line of emotional blackmail and put me off writing for that fandom altogether so I can definitely see why some authors end up so jaded that they block anyone who doesn't interact positively (even if it's not something I really agree with). So yeah, I really don't think there's anything wrong with genuine lurkers but I fear sadly they've been given a bad name by the few people who do treat fanfic authors as content machines.

Anyway, I hope I haven't rambled too much and that you're having a good day Merms!

Oh yeah, absolutely!!! Like, true entitlement is such a problem that genuine lurkers are getting murked for; which is unfair because it makes a scapegoat out of them and doesn’t solve the real problem at all. And I say “true entitlement” because there’s a difference between a comment that’s like, “will there be a part 2? 🥺” and “part 2” LOL, which is my personal pet peeve, like—what happened to hi?? hello??? how are you??? 💀 I’m not a chat AI, you don’t get to input demands. 🤖📖🚫

Idk—I try not to be mean about even that, tho, because I suspect a lot of this behaviour is indicative of younger readers, but then it just circles back to the problem of like, how do we correct it on a community-wide scale? Because sure, entitlement like that might be coming from a younger reader, but it might just as easily be coming from an asshole LMAO. The only “quick” solution that I can see for it is directly addressing it when it happens. 🥺 And again I wanna emphasise that there’s a clear difference between a genuine enquiry and a throwaway demand!! Like, personally, I don’t mind people asking when I might update or whatnot, because I don’t hold myself to a schedule and my updates are haphazard. But if you’re a more structured and dependable writer (like andypants, for example!) then maybe it’s a different story idk idk. It’s literally case-by-case—which is how it should be, because we’re all individual people writing different things.

I’m sorry your other fandom experience was kinda soured for you though, Anon. 🥺 I would feel used too! I’ve actually come to really dislike writing generic, non-bigger-fic related drabbles because they’re always the pieces that attract the worst of the entitlement. 💀 I say that like it’s a plague of demands lmfao, it’s not, but it happens often enough that it’s noticeable—and I guess it’s just the nature of them being easily digestible without needing like 100k+ of backstory to get into it, but….. idk idk. It’s startling! 😦 And I think the only action we can take that’s even close to a solution is just gently addressing it whenever it pops up. 😔 Or blocking ig if that’s how u roll, LOL.

#ofmermaidstories-asks #the reblog thing—discourse #scheduled smeduled bc i am eebing snore snore snore 😴

[phoenixdaneko]

assumptions lol -

You're touch-starved but also, shy of people IRL.

You're more social online than IRL.

You have executive dysfunction, generalized anxiety, and occasional to semi-regular depression.

You're a giver, which has probably led to people taking advantage of your kindness on several occasions. It's not necessarily bad to have generosity - but, it's unhealthy if you don't set boundaries for yourself.

You tend to prioritize others over yourself, which can incidentally lead to self-neglect.

You probably tend to worry too much about what others think of you/worry others secretly dislike you, and are only "tolerating," you.

You may struggle with perfectionism, and, give up on a project if it's not "perfect," to your standards. Which can be self-defeating.

You may struggle to view yourself in a positive light - and struggle to accept genuine compliments, though, think highly of your friends, and have no issues with telling them such.

You probably feel more comfortable with animals, than people.

OwO

i hope none of these are offensive? 🤣 ily fren

i've also studied things like psychology/forensic psychology lmao. did i get any right? 👀👀👀

or am i way off? 🤔🤣

V.

V WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK HOW'D YOU PSYCHOANALYZE ME TO A PERFECT T?????!!!!!! THIS IS ALL EXTREMELY ACCURATE OH MY FUCKIN GOD. THIS IS LITERALLY EXACTLY ME OH MY GOD.

V I am

Shocked and amazed you so perfectly described me, what the actual hell.

I love you too but holy shit I am in awe of this oh my goodness

#Asks #Ty for the ask!!! #Yakamashi <3 #LITERALLY THIS IS EXACTLY ME #LIKE YOU HIT EVERY NAIL ON THE FUCKIN HEAD

[chickalupe]

Feeling very down right now, just want to vent...

(Treating this like my old Livejournal since I don't really have anywhere else I can complain LMAO)

I've been out of work since August after completely running out of FMLA.

Between getting severe COVID in February and being out recovering for 6 weeks -- and then with Long COVID making the chronic fatigue and migraines I already had even worse -- I ended up missing so much work that I used all the time FMLA allowed before the year was even half over.

I'm living with my parents now and don't really have income except my savings; honestly most days I don't have the physical or mental spoons to even contemplate applying for even a part-time remote position yet. Thankfully I also have a retirement fund I am slowly cashing in, even if that also isn't really sustainable long-term. (But me losing my insurance will definitely be an issue soon when I run out of refills for my prescription meds...)

I'm aware that I've been pretty isolated since August; I've gotten maybe like two texts from former co-workers. I'm mostly asleep during the daytime and don't drive, so going out is hard. The person I consider my BFF is out of state and is busy with their own life. The only people I talk to most days are my Mom and Dad. (Admittedly, I am also pretty terrible about calling or texting people!) Tumblr has thus been the majority of my social interaction, for good or ill.

On top of all that, my birthday is this Friday and I always find myself depressed anyway this time of year. Like, it's probably half Seasonal Affective Disorder, and half a reminder that I'm a year older and having mixed feelings about where I am in life, IDK... But the current situation of *gestures vaguely at everything* isn't helping. So I am very blergh in general.

My parents and I had made vague plans a couple weeks ago that we could all go out for dinner on my actual birthday; nothing fancy, maybe the nearest sit-down Mexican restaurant. I was kinda looking forward to it. Mom just informed me that she is now unavailable after 5pm on my b-day itself since she offered to babysit kids for someone in their church that evening and night. We can't do it tomorrow night either, because Mom & Dad will be at a craft show from 4pm to 10pm.

And... it's fine, I guess. I'm disappointed but I'm an adult. I'm not gonna throw a tantrum or yell and cry or try to guilt her about it. She brought me flowers from the grocery store as a sort of peace offering and says we can still have cake or whatever. We'll probably do something on Saturday instead.

But EVERY YEAR, it's something. Last year, it was the cheesecake I asked for as a birthday cake getting dropped on the way into the house from the car; over half of it was smushed and then Dad stole the best remaining slice for himself. The two years before that, it was during the worst of the pandemic so I just had mediocre delivery food. I literally cannot remember the last birthday I really enjoyed in over a decade and half.

Another big source of anxiety right now -- we found out have 60 days to move since the leasing company is selling this house. So we have to find a new place, be packed and then move by January. Meanwhile home inspectors, realty agents and potential buyers are walking through while we're still living here, and it's super stressful. Words can't express how much I hate strangers being here any and all days of the week.

I guess I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself. I'm not trying to be whiny or woe-is-me, but my mental health right now is uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Not Great (tm) 😅. I do try hard to be positive but it just takes so much energy and I'm stressed and a little numb.

Not really sure how to end this. I just really needed to put it all in writing as a journal-type situation so that I don't end up crying in real life LOL.

Current Mood: burnt-out 😑

Current Music: HGTV playing in the background

#personal #don't reblog #personal don't reblog #vent post #life update

[obsidiaspell]

Chapter 3: The Bitter Truth

Yes I am continuing this, yes it is because of the one person who liked all my MoL posts. @lady-without-name this is for you

Here we go again, insert meme.

Warding honestly sounds like such an interesting subject, I relate to having a teacher that sucks at teaching though, discrete mathematics my beloved. Syrokian highlands - yes the government wants you to know how to work here, wink wink. Oh what I would not give for just a novel of Zach and Zorian being a part of an expedition meant to establish an outpost in the Northern Forest.

ah once again we are foreshadowing Zach being a time-traveller. You know I remember reading this the first time, I was unfortunately a bit spoiled because it literally said in the description of the book there is a timelooper present. I wonder if I would have figured it out myself.

Yeah he still can't do female voices. I am really dunking on the narrator a lot aren't I? I would switch to just reading it, but and audiobook is so convenient tho.

Zorian searching for a word throuple lmao. At least he knows when to stay in his own lane, I like that about him. "He did nothing to me, I am not going to get him into trouble."

No, he could detect no disapproval in posture, and he was pretty sure she’d be rather annoyed if she sensed his plans. explain to me once again Mister Kazinski how you absolutely cannot be an empath?

You want them to learn 10 dances in one week? I barely learned 10 dances when I had my dancing lessons in several months?

I can relate to not wanting to have a relationship with a classmate because the rest of the class would make it unbearable, god I am remembering high school now. "I am nobody! A third son of a minor merchant family from the middle of nowhere." - muahahaha, oh the sweet power of hindsight

Yeah, Zach is a prime protagonist hero material, but he is gonna need you, isn't he?

OK this right here was a moment Ilsa lost me, I hate, hate I tell you, when a child (he is fifteen, it counts) tells you something is bothering them, they have a problem with something you listen. Even if he didn't have empathy headache and it was just some plain old social anxiety this approach vexes me so much! I get headaches too blah blah blah. Her getting Akoja to go with him, is problematic at best. I know she has a crush, but still if he says he doesn't want a day why force him?

and of course, the wise ones know this is not at all Benisek's fault, but our time traveler pulling the strings

Aah fortov comes on the scene. I am kind of curious how that really went down, you know the whole purple creeper patch thing. But we are about to see Kael, our first time loop ally.

This chapter does a good job of setting up some things for later and how Zorian feels about his place in society and the greater world, as in he does not want the world to care about him at all.

#mother of learning #MoL #MoL_again #zorian kazinski #zach noveda

[sobredunia]

TELL ME ABOUT THE SUN AND MOON LESBIANS UZOMI AND LARE i must know the deep lore.

UNSKIPPABLE CUTSCENE UNLOCKED

OKAY SO. These two are characters who have already gone through a lot. In fact, their main arcs ended WAY before Kenikari started, and what we see is the aftermath of that transformation

Uzomi was a former emo kid, socially sheltered from the world due to her parents' "unusual parenting"

(*cough* *cough* severe child neglect *cough* *cough*)

Not only that, but she was neglected at school as well. Absolutely nobody paid attention to her, not even her teachers. The one gifted kid in class who literally could not forget anything didn't even know her last name

Normally, this would create a child desperate for attention, right? No! Because Uzomi had one singular good thing in her life: her brother

He was much less neglected than her by their parents, although their attention stopped coming once Uzomi was born and they started leaving on business trips. He didn't get as ignored in class, but he had severe social anxiety that made it impossible for him to communicate with the other kids, so he eventually faded into the background of that as well

But at home they both devote their undivided attention to eachother

They had little signs and systems all around the house to communicate in ways only perceivable to shrimp, and when the two worked together it was like a perfect machine in motion. They were all they needed

So, while Uzomi did pull a stunt or two to get attention, it either didn't work at all or it made her brother dissapointed in her, and since she didn't want to make him sad she just stopped trying to stand out altogether. Her clothes consisted almost exclusively of blacks and whites, she developed a resting bitch face, she handled interactions coldly, and didn't talk to anyone to the point people thought she was straight up mute

And then someone approached her, genuinely trying to make friends

At first, she shut them off, obviously, but they kept on trying and trying and they ended up doing a group project together and they actually became friends!! :D Uzomi started to actually speak to people, she smiled more, she shared her interests in mechanics that she had only told her brother about, and she actually started to get mildly along with others

Unfortunately, that person wasn't in her life anymore, but she didn't stop being friendly. Once she started upper secondary school (a thing in japan, it goes from grades 10 to 14) she kept on being niceys with others and actually made friends by initiating the friendship herself!!

Now, Lare

Lare is also at the end of what is essentially a healing arc (too bad her mental health is gonna plunge in the killing game lmao)

Her parents were average, but school was hard. Everyone had a very strict sense of what was right, so to speak. If you stepped ever so slightly away from that, you were ostracised and bullied. She was very shy as a child, feeling the peer pressure from others to "fit in" for as long as she could remember. Albeit her cowardice was mocked, it wasn't that bad, mostly some jabs here and there. There was this one other student, however, whose life was made a living hell

Lare saw this every day, and one day worked up the courage to ask why they were so mean to this one person

"Because she's a freak" Was all they answered

And Lare knew that wasn't fair nor true, but didn't say anything

One day, Lare sneaked out at night to go to school. She was in the middle of something when she got caught by none other than the bullied student. She was scared, would she tell everybody about what she was doing? Would she drag her down to the mud so she wouldn't be alone? Would she try to get revenge in some way for witnessing the horrible things they did to her and not speaking up about it?

But she didn't

She just shrugged and moved on, completely ignoring Lare. Then, she noticed she was using the bathroom mirrors to clean up her messy hair, but had some problems, so the student offered to use her hairbrush and then she brushed Lare's hair and that was the moment she became very much gay. After a bit the two packed their things and parted ways without saying goodbye

The day after, Lare noticed that the student had gone off to a quiet corner of the school to have lunch so she wouldn't be bothered, so she decided to go sit by her side and have lunch with her. They started talking and they became friends

Of course, people saw how she was hanging out with the outcast, and started to ostracise Lare too. The student told her many times that it was best they stay separated while they weren't alone so she wouldn't start to get bullied either, but Lare refused to make her be more alone than she already was

She did get bullied a decent much, it never got to phisical stuff unlike the other student, but she knew they hated her and wanted her dead. Then, because of life stuff, Lare needed to change schools, and leave her friend behind. It was hard, but her friend promised that she'd convince her parents to change schools as well one day and they'd be friends again

That day has yet to come, but in that new school the people weren't as mean, and Lare became much more social and quickly befriended all the shy people because she knew what it was like to feel all alone, and then the social people. She became a natural at entering groups and flowing through conversation, and she didn't notice, but pretty much the entire school had labeled her as THE Popular Girl

So.

We have a girl who has been forgotten and dismissed for 90% of her life

And a girl who wants to make everyone feel welcome and appreciated because she's seen how hard it can be to have no one by your side

In conclusion: this is yuri

#ask #molt #YOU ARE SO COOL I LOVE YOU FRFR #THANK YOU FOR LETTIMG ME RAMBLE ABOUT MY SILLIES #Lare #Uzomi

[slipknot-sic-0]

you ask for Jim, i give you Jim:

just from looking at him i can tell Jim's an A cup. mans has actual tits and i love that for him

i bet Jim smells like sage with a hint of cigarettes and manly musk. i'd like to think he brings sage cologne with him on tour and just douses himself with it before crashing backstage lmao. but imagine cuddling with him when he's all sweaty and tuckered out omggggg

imagine Jim getting out of the shower when you're just waking up and he asks you if you can braid his hair for him so when his hair dries his hair's all wavy <3

reminder that Jim's 6'6" and very likely has a size k¡nk which he probably used to his advantage with groupies back in the day hehe

Jim teaching you to play guitar with you on his lap and him holding the guitar with you as he guides your hands to the right spots and is super sweet and patient with you !!!!!

several times has Jim admitted to being shy and having social anxiety so i can just imagine him just subtly maneuvering his hand into yours and giving your hand a lil squeeze to kinda show that he's stressed and needs your comfort

uhhh idk i wanna kiss him on the butthole what about you

YOU HAVE BLESSED ME? ON THIS FINE DAY?

• I have nothing else to say other than… yes. he literally does (i’m screaming)

• He sooo smells like cigarettes and sage. i can def say that i honestly feel like it makes sense for him, and obviously the musk because well.. sweaty man!! i can also see him using whiskey cologne because it’s so warm and comforting, plus he loves it so yk!!

• begging for that

• he is an absolute unit and i can proclaim in all honesty that i would love for him to just lay on me for hours. but YES PLEASE TO EVERYTHING ELSE TOO. the height factor of jim is something that definitely draws me in because like his body type is so attractive. he’s not thin and he’s not overly muscular he’s the perfect in between (soft and squishy and big).

• I haven’t touched my guitar in months so i would fall in love w/ him-

• I would comfort him even though we’d both be sacks of radiating anxiety 24/7.

• I am not opposed but i would also like to grab his man tits

This man is my dopamine

#IM SO #IM SOWBFWVSS #PLEASW I LOVE YOU MUTUAL #jim root #4 #furcoveredinbloodask

[yandating]

🌹 Name: Alice (Not my real name but I'll tell you when we talk :)))) )

💕 Age: 20

💌 Gender: Female, she/her mostly but I do sometimes like they/them

🥀 Are you yandere on non-yandere: Fairly yandere, but it's not really the kind that shows too clearly from the get-go

🩸 Where are you from: Romania!

🕷 Tell us about yourself: I'm usually a reserved, quiet person irl, but I actually do really like talking to people one on one, even though ironically enough it can tire me out pretty quicklu. I'd say I have a lower self esteem than normal, but I am getting better! ...Ever so slowly but hey I'm getting there.

I'm a big fan of writing and doing digital art! I also really love playing videogames, expecially horror games and visual novels. Actually I generally really like horror stuff! I either like things that are extremely funny and lighthearted or stuff that is absolutely scarring. No inbetweens for me.

If you know me in real life I look a bit apathetic and robotic, almost, but I'm the complete opposite. I'm a pretty emotional and passionate person and it's easy as all hell to get fixated on things I like. For example starting to play Sims 3 again is pretty much a death sentence for a few days because it means I will not do anything but play that game.

What kind of yandere am I? Very good question! I'm pretty obsessive when the person's right, and I do have the slightest tendency to get jealous. I'm sorry though if that doesn't show quite enough lmao, after years of conditioning to not act like that it won't show too clearly.

I work the endless hell that is known as customer care, despite the fact I have severe social anxiety. It sounds like it makes literally no sense but it sort of does since it's through messaging (and in english I for some reason hate my own language).

Also I love cute things. Sanrio and lolita fashion is my life and blood. Can't wait til I can finally get the guts to dress that way. 😭

🖤 What are you looking for: Someone who's supportive an non-judgemental, and what I feel like is most important, someone who actually listens to what I talk about and respects me. I want to be treated as an equal, I'm sick of people infantilazing me lmao.

Someone who is fiercely loyal and very obsessive, jealous but doesn't act out on it too much despite it. I want to be as significant to my significant other as they are to me.

I'd love a yandere who is a considerably bigger one than I am, but still not too intense, the kind that wouldn't be able to control their own actions. I also want someone that respects my boundaries and would be okay if I need a bit of time alone when I'm having a tough time mentally. Sometimes I just need a bit of time to calm down, it's never anything personal.

I would love someone who's really affectionate, especially verbally. Nicknames would be really cute! I give really dumb nicknames but they're filled with love I assure you. ♡

Also, someone who's smart and interesting to talk to but doesn't brag about it would be really nice! Narcissism is a huge turn off for me.

In short, if you're warm, smart, supportive and respectful, I'll probably like you quite a lot. ^^

🪦 What's your mbti: INFP! I always get that without one exception lmao

🌌 Contact information: My username is Alice_lied on Discord. Don't be too confused by vaguely ominous username, I pretty much just mixed the name of a rpg horror game I really like, Alicemare and Elfen Lied, an anime I'm not too big of a fan of but the name drew me to watching it alone. :,)

#yandere #submission #yandere dating

[ithinkabouttzu]

Hello! I love your BoB headcanon so much I cant NDDNFNDNDNDN

I would like to do a BoB romantic ship request if you’re still up for those ! Please take your time, I have a bunch of stuff down so it could be pretty hard to get through <33

My pronouns are she/her. I have straight, dark black hair that grows a little over my shoulder and dark brown eyes that only shines under really bright light.

I’m an INFP 9w1– initially when talking to new people I’ll usually express curiosity and be soft-spoken to the extreme level cuz I sorta have social anxiety, it’s been getting more manageable but I’ve been moving around a lot so…

I pretty much have a (chaotic) golden retriever energy and am really fond of joking around once I get to know someone. My sense of humour is beyond repair: a mix of dad jokes and bad puns.

The jokes aside, I’m pretty affectionate after getting to know someone and will actively let them rant to me whenever. I also geek about things I’m interested in every now and then.

If someone is able to put up with my weird I’m also really supportive + try my best to help them in any ways I can, since I enjoy helping people.

Sometimes I get closed off after getting to know someone mainly because I have a lot of self-doubt and scared of hurting them and myself in the process? It’s a weird thing. Mostly because I keep moving and have never really settled for a while.

My love language are words of affirmation and physical touch mainly, the lateral only reserved for people whom I’m really close to. It takes a while to get close to me but once I love you I am an absolute mess, completely smitten. I’m a lot more soft and jokes are less chaotic. Cuddles and hugs r a must !!

If someone comes up to me and asks me out I’d cease to function tbh. My autopilot response is “oh sure!” no matter who it is. If it’s someone I have a crush on (usually someone I’ve known for a bit) I’d probably be stunned for a really long time lmao… like “are you sure?? Like a romantic thing frfr. Like uhhhh-” Fumbling with words x100

My hobbies are drawing, watching films, and listening to relaxing music! I also do funky voices and accents for fun when I’m doing the dishes to make it less tedious.

My favourite season is probably autumn or spring. I’m bilingual and am learning French, German, and Japanese fundamentals.

Thank you for your patience! I sorry that this is so long I kinda popped off 😭

Thank you for your request lovely! <33

I ship you with…

Shifty Powers!

song recommendation: The Way You Look Tonight - Frank Sinatra

- okay let me start off by saying how cute you guys would be together like i’m shipping it so hard

- He would be so enamored by your beauty at first glance, like you make him so so nervous LOL, but he could literally stare at you for hours if he wanted too

- You guys would be that couple that balances each other out so well, like you have this fun, chaotic (in a good way) energy, and he’s more calm and relaxed

- but he still totally supports your chaotic-ness and will 100% laugh at all of your jokes

- At first, your guys’ relationship would be a bit slow, not because you guys don’t like each other or anything, but because both of you are lowkey crushing hard on the other and y’all’s social anxiety gets the best of y’all

- both of you are so nervous around each other at first and its so cute omg, like all of your, and his friends, would try to get one or the other to go talk with the other person and it’s adorable

- but once you guys warm up to each other, you guys could talk to each other for hours, it’s more like you’re the one talking and he’s the one listening but either way both of you enjoy talking to one another

- I think he’d be the one to ask you out, after severe convincing from the guys (not because he didn’t want to, but because he was NERVOUS) he would plan it for a while, maybe get some roses and your favorite chocolates before asking you out

- He would wait until the time is right before asking the question, it would be something like, “If you wanna, would you maybe want to go out for dinner sometime, only if you’d like, of course” He would be so sweet and gentle about the whole thing

- The relationship between y’all is unmatched, like you guys can talk to each other about just about anything, he’s more of the calmer version of you but he’s always down for some fun!

- If you started to get closed off with him, he’d worry and think that you lost feelings, or that he did something wrong, he would ask you after a couple days of ignoring him, and you would finally tell him how you feel and your worries in the relationship, he would be so reassuring to you that he would never hurt or break your heart, and that he would always be there for you

- ugh and both of y’all are so cute and affectionate with one another, like always cuddling and hugging, Shifty never fails to remind you how much he loves you, whether it’s actually saying it, or showing it to you in other ways, he really cares about you and your feelings

- Don’t even get me started on how sweet he is with you though, like this man is such a gentleman, every date with him, his hospitality never slims down, he’s always going to open a door for you, hold your hand, walk on the sidewalk closest to the road, use his manners, all of the best qualities a boyfriend can have

- And say when you’re having bad days, he’s so supportive, he will definitely listen to you and validate your feelings 100%, if you ever need someone to talk to he’s the perfect person to go to

- he thinks you’re so funny naturally, like you could say something random that you didn’t even think was funny and he would bust out laughing, he thinks you are the best person to be silly with for sure

- he loves watching films and movies with you, it’s one of the moments where he just gets to cuddle up with you and watch a good movie, both of you can just relax together and that’s what’s so nice about it

- and during autumn time Shifty will make SURE to take you to the Appalachians to see all of the pretty fall colors there

- honestly, he really enjoys watching you draw, like he thinks there’s something so therapeutic about it to just watch you express yourself onto a piece of paper, ik that sounds a bit deep but he just thinks of it that way

- if you are practicing any of your languages, please teach him some of it too! He would honestly be so curious towards it and might even be down to learn a few words!

- you guys are always helpful towards each other and will always be there if the other one needs it, communication is always a key in your guys relationship and telling each other what’s wrong or what they can do to help is always helpful!

- but overall, you guys would be so good for each other, you guys would be bestfriends, and lovers at the same time, the dynamic between you two would be absolutely golden and I think it would workout so well together.

Thank you again for your request! Hope you enjoy! :) 💛💖

#ithinkabouttzu #band of brothers #band of brothers ships #shifty powers

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #196

Do you prefer cold or room temperature drinking water? Freezing water, once it reaches BARELY room temperature, it's disgusting to me.

Has a romantic partner ever given you a pet as a gift? No. I don't think this is even a good idea unless you yourself are in on it. Don't just randomly give someone a pet.

Did you ever go to daycare as a kid? Very briefly, I think for literally a day; it was such an upsetting experience for toddler me that I STILL remember it. First of all, I had very severe separation anxiety from my mom, so I was already upset, and I eventually got scolded and my hand slapped by a guardian (teacher? idk) for going into the "wrong" room, which I had zero way of knowing when you consider other kids were in it playing, like I was. I don't remember everything else that happened that day, but I do know it ended with me wailing in another woman's arms while waiting for Mom to pick me up. Pretty sure I never went back because Mom was fuming that I was hit.

Who’s one of the most talented people you know? What are they talented at? I know loads of talented people, but just to name one, my boyfriend is a badass at like any video game you sit him in front of, lol. He's the guy that's platinumed FromSoft games.

How long have you had your current mattress? It's actually quite new, not even a year. My old mattress had a total pit in it that was HELL to get out of because of my life period of living in bed. It was like climbing out of a sinkhole.

What’s your sexuality? Pansexual.

What’s your gender identity? I'm a cis woman.

Are you the type of person who can make friends with just about anyone? Nope.

Have you ever experienced a medical emergency? Yes.

Do you have one of those removable hand-held shower heads? Yes, these are like, mandatory for me. I'm a big person and need Angles ok lmao

How many burners does your stove have? Four.

When you go to a restaurant, do you prefer to sit at a booth or a table? Booth.

What’s something you think everyone should do/experience at least once in their life? Being truly loved by someone. I don't just mean romantically.

Has your car ever been broken into? I've never had my own car, but this hasn't happened to my mom's.

Have you ever read the Hunger Games series? I loved the first book. I think I started the second, but didn't get far for some reason.

Do you live in the city or a rural area? City, tragically.

Have you ever been bitten by a wild animal? No.

Are you close to any of your cousins? No.

What song did you last listen to? HAHAHA it was literally "Nails, Hair, Hips, Heels" by Todrick Hall.

Do you watch a lot of movies? No, I'm not really a movie person.

Ever witnessed a murder? Thank fuck no.

Does your room have a ceiling fan? It does.

What are your religious views? Some agnostic/atheist mix.

Are you a romantic person? Yes.

Have you ever failed a subject before? Yes. Multiple times through various college attempts.

Have you ever been injured in a car accident? I've been in an accident, but thankfully I wasn't injured.

What was your favorite television show as a child? Pokemon.

Are you afraid of insects? Not in general, but some are capable of startling me for sure.

Are you cold-natured? I'm actually normally hot, but that hasn't been the case lately; I'm having thyroid issues and I've been always freezing as of late. I'm always in slippers and a jacket or blanket.

What annoys you most about social networking? People are way too ballsy in saying shit they'd never, ever say in person. The levels of vocal hate people can reach behind a computer is wild.

What is your favorite kind of flower? Orchids, dahlias, roses, specifically pink tulips, and hydrangeas.

Do you think you’re living a good life? No.

Have you ever played on the Ouija board? No. I don't think I believe in their "capabilities," but I am cautious enough to have no interest in doing this.

Do you wish your life were simpler or more interesting? I absolutely do.

Have you ever had a deadly animal as a pet? No.

Do you take naps daily? Usually, but not always.

What’s the meanest thing you’ve ever said to someone? nope because it's fucking embarrassing

Have you ever been in a hot tub before? Yeah, at hotels and at the apartment I sorta "lived" in with Jason.

Who in your family has been married the longest? (and how long?) Hell if I know, I don't really know my extended family well.

Do you take your shoes off when you come inside? Yes. My mom doesn't like, mandate it as a house rule, though.

What’s your favorite movie series? The Lion King. The first and second are so legendary. 1 1/2 is okay, but ASTONISHINGLY when you consider the main character is a meerkat, I don't love it nearly as much as the first two.

What is something that’s considered a luxury, but you wouldn’t want to live without? A dishwasher. I can't stand washes dishes by hand.

What was the first social media site you ever used? MySpace.

Do you have any exes you really regret dating? Not REALLY regret, but one I just lightly regret dating because it was pointless.

Is your best friend male or female? Male.

What's your least favorite holiday? When it comes to origins, Thanksgiving.

Have you ever been sexually attracted to a fictional character? are you new here

Have you ever had a crush of a person of your own gender? Yeah, I've dated a woman.

Who was someone you felt unsafe with but had to be around in your life? My dad, growing up.

When was the first time you felt sexualized? I'm not sure.

Are your values more conservative or liberal? I'm primarily politically left.

If you could go back in time and change something what would it be? How I handled the breakup with Jason.

Have you ever lost a nail completely for any reason? What happened? Yes. I picked at a toenail and ended up ripping the whole thing off lol, thankfully it was the second-to-smallest toe and I have VERY small toes, so it wasn't excruciating, but it hurt.

Have you ever had any experience with alcoholism? My dad was an alcoholic until sometime after my parents split.

What color eyes do your pet(s) have? Roman's are light blue, Venus' are just black, and Cookie's are brown.

Do you watch The Great British Bake Off (or The Great British Baking Show as it’s known in the US)? Yeah, sometimes with Mom and/or Girt.

Are you the sort of person who can nap or sleep anywhere, anytime? No.

Will you ever call it X, or will you always call it Twitter? It's Twitter, dude. I think the whole world besides Musk himself agrees with this.

Are you a fast walker? No, but I've made serious progress from when my legs were in horrible condition.

Were you susceptible to peer pressure as a teenager? No, not really.

What website do you spend the most time on? YouTube.

What was the hardest time of your life? All of 2016. The breakup happened in August or September of 2015, and I lived in absolute hell until February 2017.

Who's the person you feel safest with? My mom as well as my boyfriend.

What kinds of books do you read? Fantasy is the overarching theme of books I generally like. My favorite is probably animal fantasy.

The most serious injury you've ever had? A concussion.

Have you ever read someone's diary, without them knowing? No, that is extremely disrespectful and honestly evil.

The weirdest thing people have ever picked on, about your appearance? Maybe my ears being so small, lol. No one's ever picked on that in a mean way, though.

First time you met a transgender person? I'm actually not sure.

What's the most hurtful thing someone's said about you? Sara calling me a liar regarding being traumatized is unfuckingforgivable.

Who is your most problematic crush? Juan. Well, more a "was" than "is" as I've felt nothing towards him since I was a teenager, but.

What is the worst thing one of your family members has done to you? Driving extremely recklessly with me and my little sister in the car. He was working at Krispy Kreme at the time and picked us up in a work truck (idk what to properly call it, but the back was empty), and Nicole, who was in the back, absolutely would've died if he crashed. I was in the passenger's seat, and few experiences I've had match the level of afraid I was. Realistically I shouldn't forgive him for putting our lives on the line like this.

#survey #surveys #random questions #personal questions #questionnaire