#I feel loads better

[godofvillains-arch]

((Just a friendly reminder to drink and take any meds you need to, and get a bit of fresh air.

Being couped up on Tumblr all day is bad for your mental health.

Take care of yourselves.

#Ti speaks #I'm right now now #and being off my dash? #i feel loads better

[cheolism]

i hope u feel better!!!!!!!!

The little shiba (?) puppy made me actually burst into tears ansnsnsjs thank you sm 🥺🥺 and the little corgi line …. They got places to be … and the kitty in the second looks like a traveling merchant or something in a game … the last kitty stands like hansol skskskska the hamsta reminds me of this squirrel my cat and I watched for ten minutes the other day collecting it’s nuts skskskkss they’re so talented

#I feel loads better #my heart is like mashed potatoes #warm and soft #from Katie #from: husbandhoshi #asks

[hyah-through-hyrule]

If you're tearing down on people ideas and headcanons because you don't like them, you're at least engaging with creators whose ideas you like, right? You're reblogging and liking right? You're leaving comments on fanfictions, right? You're not just ranting without actually hyping up creators, right? Right!???

#what a load of bs tbh #a lot of the people i see ranting are people i dont see engaging with creators #you cant go complaining and then not at the very least hype up the creators for things you do wanna see #maybe compliment fic writers and fanartists and you'll feel better

[thronealigned]

no it's fine this mind flayer is totally my friend and 100% honest with me all the time it's ok it likes me everything's so normal

#bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #i love how raphael directly calls you out on this. 'if id have known you were so gullible i wouldve tricked you into selling your soul for #a bowl of beans when we first met' #and then just keeps insulting you more if you keep insisting emp's really your ally #oc: impulse #sure this'll go in their tag #everything about impulse's Thing with the emperor is so funny to me. and then deeply fucked up if you think about it long enough. and then #really funny again if you think about it even longer #one day i'll do their 2.0 playthrough so i can fully form all my thoughts. and get better screenshots and the ceremorphosis ending #i mean there's nothing stopping me from loading an impulse 1.0 save and going ceremorphosis from there but idk it'd feel wrong #impulse has more tadpoles in their brain than synapses by act 3 and it does really fundamentally change them as a person #tfw your chaotic neutral act-first-ask-questions-never no-impulse-control 17 CHA bestie becomes one of the most detached calculating people #you've ever met. all their old casual wit and humor is still there but they think before they speak now and that really shouldnt feel as #sinister as it does. they have this look in their eye and it feels like they view everyone around them as lesser beings #not because they view other people as subhuman or worse than they are but because they view themself as something *more* #if they have any raw unfiltered emotion left you haven't seen it in weeks. there's one person(?) who gets Unrestrained Feelings privileges #and it's the fucking illithid that lives in their mind and not any of their actual non-monster normal-ish-person friends. that human #connection is fading so fast now. when did they change so much? it happened so slowly in the moment but suddenly now they seem like they #were never the person you became friends with at all #and like impulse is a pretty selfish person from the start but they *did* genuinely like and care about the rest of the party. they were #friends. and by the end of act 3 that friendship should be the deepest and most meaningful it's ever been. but. it just isn't. #so on and so forth etc etc like that. All That Bullshit makes their relationship with lae'zel so interesting (and upsetting) too #they encourage her to side against vlaakith and then they never even try to free orpheus for her and her people's sake. they never even #think about it. they never consider it as an option. they just don't care. and then they EAT HIS BRAIN. #very possibly RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER. #and she's just left adrift. a rebel with no rebellion to lead and very little hope #i'm unwell. #ok i'm done this is a silly meme post. but god i have so many thoughts i have barely been keeping contained

[persimmontea]

A small gif set of *that* part of Shoma's programs the past few seasons ⋆˙⟡♡

Happy birthday Shoma! Your skating is truly special and unmatched. Wishing you the best in your journey towards finding your self-satisfaction~ Hope you have a great year ahead of you! ⋆˙⟡♡

#shoma uno #figure skating #fskateedit #my gifs #mine: shoma #birthday post #aaaaa this is kinda random #but yeah I wanted to celebrate Shoma's beautiful skating #he just! keeps getting better hhhhh #really hope he can find /that/ performance in his standards #something that he can truly be happy about once he finishes his program #and has that rewatch value for him #obviously as a fan #shoma has loads of programs and performances i'd watch again and again #but i hope he too can feel the same about his programs #heck gpf 2022 is one of my faves ever which is why i included it here lol #even if he doesn't feel like he was satisfied performance wise ksfdj #anw ily shoma hope you keep thriving in life

[harlivies]

 “You aren’t worried about your position?” “I like this position. It’s quite comfortable.”

#rhaenicent #alicent hightower #rhaenyra targaryen #hotdgif #hotdedit #hotd #house of the dragon #brb gonna go eat some concrete to feel better #and what if i say that part of the reason why alicent ended up marrying viserys #and birthing his children #was to try and lighten the load on rhaenyra's shoulders #then what #of course her father forced her into that position #but alicent often rationalizes these things to give them meaning #ahem duty sacrifice #and rhaenyra often made it seem like she didn't really want to rule #but rather fight and explore what have you #so what if she really thought she was helping #by giving viserys a different option #my 13th reason #anyway back to the normal tags ig #mine: new #2023 #mine: gif #mine: gifs #mine: hotd #hotd: the heirs of the dragon #mine: rhaenicent #mine: rhaenyra targaryen #mine: alicent hightower

[spookifrost]

wip with my constant enemies to lovers to enemies arc with rendering

#FNaF #tempted to just leave it #dca fnaf #like if i just put this here i can feel better about leaving it lmao #the state of my brain is just sun with his rays slowly spinning like a loading symbol

[definitelynotshouting]

Okay, so, question I've had for a while but never got around to asking, what the FUCK is up with Grian's wings?

If all physical differences in players (like those particularly ascribed to 'Hybrids' in mcyt fanon) in Hunger AU are a result of conscious altering of your own code for the express purpose of achieving YOUR IDEAL BODY(tm) then what does that mean for Grian and his wings? No one seems to regard Grian's wings as "What The Fuck, You Can DO That?!?" so presumably wings aren't so big of a change from normal biology that players can't do that. If so, why is it not more common? Man, if I could have wings I'd jump on that in seconds. Especially with the sheer utility the ability to fucking FLY gives players. Are wings (and maybe other larger alterations) just like, REALLY HARD to code in? If so, that might add a really cool layer of "Oh wow! They must be a really good coder!" to players who meet people like that.

On a related note, Grian seems to have a positive regard for his wings, which is interesting because I would be willing to bet he didn't have that before *insert sounds of worm-bursting and non-consensual body modification*. I imagine seeing his wings would likely feel like a reminder of the Watchers and what they did to him. BUT, Watchers manipulate their own code when they change like Grian did to, y'know, not be a worm anymore so Grian probably specifically chose how he looked, right? So, unless he did so really rushed and somehow made a mistake while doing so (which he might not be able to risk the structural damage of correcting), keeping the wings was a conscious decision. Does Grian just not associate his wings with the Watchers or is it something else? Does he just really enjoy having wings?

HELLO I AM SO GLAD YOU'VE ASKED THIS BECAUSE I HAVE ‼️‼️‼️‼️ MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT IT ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

Okay okay so these are all SUCH valid questions, lemme go through them one by one. Wings are indeed something anyone could have if they wanted to code them in-- and in fact, i do believe many other Players have wings throughout the universe!!! As far as body mods go, i like to think of them as decently popular, so its definitely not anything too weird to see. In chapter 5, i even make a mention to Pearl having moth wings she occasionally codes in due to preference!!! So wings of many different types are definitely available-- but the catch is that they're real fiddly to code. You cant just give yourself wings, you have to code in the bone structure, the muscles, the tendons, etc etc, and then you have to change your entire body structure as well to work with and fully support them. They can be awkward and unwieldy, as ive tried to show in the fic itself, and i think that alone can be a big discouragement for Players considering coding in wings, along with the sheer coding effort needed to obtain them and make them functional

And the thing is, elytra already exist-- they're far more compact, they dont take up as much space, you can take them on and off super easily without having to mess with your coding, and they basically do the same thing. Sure, its a pain to get one, but a lot of Players really enjoy the sense of accomplishment, and i think theres a bit of cultural prestige too in that regard. Server milestones are a huge thing in Player culture, and getting your first pair of elytra is a big one!!! So it makes sense to me that people who just dont want to go through the effort of coding in wings (which can then in turn complicate how they code other future modifications) primarily stick to elytra.

And everybody is different-- some people prefer attributes that arent wings. I like to think everyone in hermitcraft generally is a mix of "jeez thats effort, i could be building my base instead of doing that" and "eh im fine how i am, i like it" and "well we have elytra shops everywhere so why bother".

So in short, yeah!! Wings are a bit complex to code in. They're still pretty popular, i think plenty of Players do choose to incorporate them, but it takes a lot of hard and thorough work to make sure they function right and wont bug you out when you use them. There are billions of Players scattered across the universe, so what you're seeing in the fic right now is truly just a drop in the ocean when it comes to Player body diversity :] and then, elytra basically already help Players achieve a form of flight without the hassle of recoding their entire body structure, so i think the majority of Players just prefer to use them instead.

AS FOR GRIAN'S WINGS IN PARTICULAR......

Well..... its complicated. Particularly his feelings about them-- in the fic, i referenced them as the only good thing the Watchers ever gave him, and thats how he sees it, i think: a thin silver lining. He's had many, many years to get used to them, and i think he goes through periods where he hates them and the memories attached, too. Ultimately, he's kinda stuck with them, so i think he hit a form of acceptance (as bitter-tinged as it may be) out of sheer necessity for his own sanity.

As for why he has them, and hasnt coded them out: i think of it as a particular quirk of biology/structural coding. Watchers have a more instinctive way of coding than Players, but a Player-minded Watcher is still going to think like a Player, and thats going to muddle things a lot. Grian essentially had to relearn how to code, in a way that satisfied both Player and Watcher-style coding, and the results at first were.... a little rough around the edges. Once he managed to finally take on his original former appearance, the wings from his true form just kind of.... stuck. I like to think it took a few increasingly desperate tries before he realized he just could not figure out how to get rid of them (bc of how different his new code was), and had to accept that this was just how he was gonna have to live for a while until he finally figured it out. And then, well.... you can get used to anything, if you're stuck with it long enough. I think after a while it just stopped being a huge priority, and then he reached a point where it would be more awkward to live without them than with them, and he eventually dropped the idea altogether. And i think sometimes, they function almost like a scar, to him-- a reminder of what he went through, yes, but a reminder that he did manage to escape. And, ofc, he also just really, really likes flying skdjskdjdj

So yeah, loads of complicated feelings there about his wings, and its stuff i do plan on exploring later in the fic!!! This got a little rambly, but i hope this makes sense and answers your questions!!!! :D its a fun little complicated knot that im glad someone has gotten curious enough to ask about!!!!

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #grian #watcher grian #watcher!grian #hermitcraft #ig like. basically its all abt human behavior at the end of the day #not everybody codes in wings bc not everybody wants to. grian chooses to keep them bc hes lived w/ them so long it feels better this way #also i do think it took several tries for him to regain his player appearance. like he glitched several times #while trying to modify his body to accomodate the Problem Wings™ #kinda like... what was it. load bearing coconut in the tf2 games #you take it out the entire game wont start #he tried taking out his wings and it almost turned him into goo. atp it was better just to leave them until he gained more experience #and then when he got to that point it no longer felt like a priority/he'd settled into having them #so yeah fkwjdkekdk human illogic behavior. ur gonna see that a TON in the fic itself #long post #txt

[onsunnyside]

unrequited love is only fun in fanfic :( definitely not in real life

#I'll probably regret posting this #it's private n personal but idc rn #this has been the worst week of my life #sorry for the negativity #i hope ur all having a better month than me !! love you all loads #sonny speaks #I've never posted personal stuff like this online but there's a first for everything i guess #SORRY FOR BEING SAD ON DASH #I hope no one ever feels this way #EVER !!

[urthebees-knees]

the quality is garbage, but may I contribute my Mariana design?

#sherlock & co #sherlock and co #mariana ametxazurra #mariana #shes the best ever #she told me so herself #please don’t hate me but #if she ends up with john (which I don’t really think she will?? #bc i feel like its a friendship the creators are trying to cultivate #and loads of john’s interactions with her are the same as with sherlock #please guys Sherlock and co can’t be another Sherlock fandom where everyone hates the main woman #we’re better than that. #what was I saying? oh yeah #the pod isn’t super romance based so I’m not worried haha) #oops im rambling #anyway Mariana is the best ever an

[diseaseriddencube]

I wonder if the writing team was different between season 3, 4 and 5. each season has a different feel and it's really off-putting

#season 3 felt awkward entirely and I really disliked it #4 was like returning to the roots but they were trying to add more depth? #and 5 is such an enigma #like okay there's only two episodes and there'll only be two more #but they have odd vibes #the episodes aren't bad at all. I don't dislike them #but they're not memorable? #things happen in them but it feels like nothing happened at all #it's a whole load of Nothing #it feels so oddly slow and empty and I have no idea how to place that feeling #it's as if all the characters are speaking more slowly too? #the jokes aren't as cringe but none of them really land #the entire episode feels slow yet is over before anything even occurs #like something is MISSING and I can't be the only person to feel that way???? #this second episode was better #David got a New Trait™ which I love.... and it will never be explored because the show is overrrr #I wonder who M and J are? a mystery that shall never be solved? #rave ramblees #camp camp #it's like the conflict is miniscule. the solution is brushed over. and nothing wacky happens #I think that's it #it's missing the wild energy and wackiness

[belethlegwen]

I honestly can not stand the fact that in order to keep up on the lives and what's going on with my RL friends and family and stuff, I have to use Facebook and scroll through a wall of posts that is 75% sponsored/"suggested" posts, most of which are just random AI generate images and galleries just to see if any of my friends have posted in the last couple of days.

Even pages I've been following forever have slowly just becoming random AI posts and it's so uncanny and so wildly upsetting. "Oh damn, someone made really good fanart for a thing I like? I can't wait to-- oh it's AI."

Literally sucking the love and joy out of me rn, I can't lie. I miss seeing people actually create, I miss seeing my friends. It feels like I'm being fed a fake world of fake people and fake art and I'm just supposed to accept it for... what reason? Advertising? What is this selling me on?

Sorry for the rant, but especially as I'm getting into the holiday season and this is like, the one way I can keep up with my friends casually, it's just super getting me down.

#just a rant and ramble #Feels like I'm being loaded into a simulation #a really fucking shitty one #Also FB's habit of not showing me a post until 4-7+ days after the fact is wildly frustrating #Yeah I would've liked to know the ISS was flying overhead yesterday before today #Hey you're right I really would like to see that post about my friend's cat turning 13 SIX DAYS AGO when it happened #le sigh #This place used to be better

[betasuppe]

Did I really just ... ???

Yeahhhhhhhhhjhjjjhggjjhghhhjjjgghgghhh

Wrote more Tron x reader bs because I can't stop myself.

Actual factual Rinzler smooching will be happening next chapter.

STAY TUNEDDDDDDDDDD

#tron #like it or leave it #i cant understand #im obsessed with this program man #anyways really not actual romance #like bonding & stuff #anyways #i would down load him in my heart if ever given the chance *sobbinggg* #or maybe my fairy pink goth tamagotchi #i would love to carry him around like that omgggggg #you guys #you guyyys #im a bit fucked up & coming off a fever rn #but i think this makes sense #tell me if not #ill fix it if i feel better eventually #or die trying to write rinz smoochin hehehehhhhuhfe

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Holy shit it’s gonna be alright. My parents want a diplomatic, CIVILIZED meeting almost akin to a peace treaty, to occur in a few days.

Yes yes yes yes

#exjw #ex cult #I hadn’t anticipated exactly how much I had leveled the playing field when I became an adult and got myself THREE reputable jobs #I went into that conversation verbally loaded for bear and prepared to run to the hospital for asylum if things got ugly #They didn’t even ask me questions yet; they just said they’re prepared to hear me out and make changes #It’s wild how differently they’re treating me now vs. when I was sixteen #They’re more scared of what I’ll do than I am of what they’ll do. I’ve never had it like this before #Not that fear is good… but it feels much better to be in this kind of situation with some control and agency #It feels good to have power; and I will not abuse that power to needlessly make them feel worse than they need to #because I am better than they were four years ago

[hella1975]

11 and 22!

11. anything from your childhood you've held onto?

im lucky to have a very sentimental mum so we kept a LOT of shit. me and my sister have a memory box each that's got every certificate and class picture and assignment etc from school, and my mum always took loads of pictures and is generally awful at throwing stuff out. id say the most notable thing is my baby blanket though. like i literally was wrapped in it as a newborn in the hospital and ive had it every day since. my blanket is a he and he came to uni with me and will go everywhere else after uni with me GOD BLESS

22. do you have an emotional support water bottle?

I NEVER GOT PEOPLE THAT DID UNTIL LAST YEAR I WENT TO THE FRESHER'S FAIR AND GOT THIS FREE GENUINELY AWFUL WATER BOTTLE LIKE IT WAS FLIMSY??? IT WAS LIKE A PLASTIC BAG AND YOU COULD SQUEEZE IT TO GET THE WATER OUT??? AND I USED IT ALL THE TIME EVERY DAY ID REFILL IT AND KEEP IT BY MY BED AND THEN IT GREW ACTUAL MOULD AND I BLEACHED THE MOULD AWAY BUT THEN CONVINCED MYSELF I HADNT WASHED THE BLEACH OUT AND ANYTHING I DRANK FROM IT HENCEFORTH WOULD KILL ME??? so i binned it and that's my truth

#i feel loads better. like a weight's been lifted #ask #ask game

[arihi]

The difficult thing about openly blogging about healing and going through a long period of growth publicly is the feeling of “I’m not doing super great, and it’s worse than it has been before” springs to mind, but for the X number of times you’ve said it in the past, it feels more trivial. And maybe that’s a sign that things have always been an up and down sort of pattern, and that it will pass again, but maybe it also serves to feel more isolating in not having the words or energy anymore to describe how it is *this* time. And it is a position that changes day to day, and on better days it feels more passable, and on worse the void feels more vast. The mere fact that it changes is probably a good sign, that nothing ever has to be set in stone. But boy are some days so, so dreadful.

#I guess a measure would be this feels like pre-move out times right now #when I was (physically) in a bad and unsafe place #and moving out has had its own stressors and anxieties #but the dread I feel is very reminiscent of another older time before then #I recently visited Texas with Spider and Sarah and Doc #we stayed at my parent’s place so it was definitely a mixed bag #I wish I wasn’t so messed up after every visit there #I thought it’d be better or easier with company after this time #but due to a variety of factors I’ve left the experience more tattered than I’d like #they had fun and it wasn’t a bad trip #but it wasn’t a great trip for me personally for loaded reasons #Spider knows to check in on me more in the coming days and weeks so that is good #FUCK man also I love this new song that came out but I CANNOT listen to it anymore and had to remove it from my playlist #because I kind of associate it with the trip now and it makes me cry every time I hear it haha #second song I ever had to do that with!! #I’m okay #just so very tired.