time to skip the implied angst and go straight to the silly goofy interactions
[ID: a 5 panel comic going back and forth between Rinne Amagi, Kohaku Oukawa, and Niki Shiina in the doorway of HiMERU'S appartement and HiMERU himself sitting on the floor of his flat.Rinne is a taller man with messy dark red hair and blue eyes, he is stending on the left side of the door way . raising his hand in a peace sign. Kohaku is a shorter pink haired boy he is standing behind Rinne and Niki , in the center of the doorway, only the top his head is visible. Niki B avrage height, with long silver hair tied in a messy low ponytail. he is leaning on the right side of the door .
In the first panel, Rinne seems to be barging in, smiling widely , he sayseems to be barging in, smiling widely , he calls in "Yo! merumeru~ you've been ghosting us for 2 weeks. we have snacks!"
In the second panel Himeru is sitting on the floor. he has shoulder length blue hair half tied back in a bun, with darker blue roots. He looks like he hasn't slept in a few days.He is wearing a cropped hoodie with a boob window, basketball short and miss matched socks . he is staring in front of him emptily.
the third panel is the same as the first but Rinne and Niki look surprised , Kohaku still can't see as he is behind the other 2.
the fourth panel is the same as the second panel however himeru looks more distrested. there are various arrows pointing to parts of his apparence : "wrong hair color " , "wrong eye color , hasn't slept in 2 weeks (normal)" , "moles? ", "student food . . .", "tits (crossed out) Depression outfit" and "soul leaving his body" pointing to a badly drawn Bkubstars "soul"
the final panel is similar to the first and third, Rinne is grinning knowingly, kohaku is peaking his eyes over the other's shoulders whilst niki explaims "who the fuck are you? " End ID].
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I need a fic of Chay getting mad at Porsche for disappearing on him so many times without even explaining what’s going on. I need him to be mad at him for leaving him alone for months with no contact at all (I know it’s not Porsche fault technically but it’s still had effect on chay mental health for me). I need him to be bad at him for putting himself in danger like that.
I need him to be mad bc chay is someone that keep putting a ‘lm fine’ mask and keep everything inside. I need him to be mad bc he just feel alone like he’s no one priority anymore and he’s tired. I just need him to be mad bc he deserves that. He deserves to let it all out.
And I really hope if we get a season 2 that they would go further into Chay character and mental health and the consequences of years of putting on a mask so his brother don’t worry.
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honestly, i think one of the hardest parts about the revisiting i've been doing of LL lately has been that now i have the knowledge and experience for it to really hit home, not just that he was abused and neglected by his power-tripping guardian for most of his childhood; and not only did he go through homelessness and food insecurity; and not only was he brainwashed by a cult for the better part of a year, with the death and torture of himself and/or his only loved one hanging over his head with every single choice of words he made. he was groomed.
[talk about grooming and canonical undertones of CSA under the cut, as well as discussion of victim-blaming and fatphobia; not the full post examining its depiction in the series, that'll come later because it's important to me, but be warned.]
like. i don't just mean the brainwashing, i mean groomed, as in an inappropriate one-on-one emotional/power dynamic with a predatory adult. it stopped just short of actual sexual abuse--in-universe presumably because they were being watched, and out-of-universe probably because the writers didn't want to deal with that lmao--but it is loud and clear and just. god. he literally fucking uses the word 'groomed,' and thinks it was a favor. the entire second half of that novella was genuinely nauseating, and it was hard to get through.
it explains yet another reason he resonated as hard with me as he did, and it makes me absolutely fucking furious both then and now that the writers blame him for '''falling for it.''' they portray it as him being spoiled and selfish and full of himself and lazy--letting himself be Corrupted--and i will never forgive the writers for publishing that in a book for kids and for having made me read it with my own two eyes. and it makes it even fucking rougher that any fandom content for him that's more than a few years old is a minefield of victim-blaming, bile, and maybe 'okay well i can see how he's kind of sympathetic BUT I STILL HATE HIM SO MUCH I'M SO MAD EVERY TIME HE COMES ONSCREEN UGH'
(which, let us be fucking real, he would not have gotten that reception if he were not fat. he just wouldn't have. i was there for the most openly nasty, violent fatphobia right after FoF came out, and for years it did not go away, it just went slightly more underground. i was there when the [fatphobia] was written etc etc)
anyway, just. man. as aforementioned i'm planning to write up a proper post about this later, which is going to be A Time. i guess this one is mainly just to express that Goddamn That Shit Was Fucked, it was extremely rough being a fan of five who identified with him a lot, and i am so very grateful both that i am in a place to unpack it and that the fandom these days is not Like Fucking That.
thanks, y'all. wish me luck.
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fic tropes ranking
Thanks for the tag @currymanganese! No surprises on mine. Angst and slow burn winning, as usual lol. Here's my personal fanfic tropes ranking:
No pressure, but I'm tagging @laryssamedeirss @navstuffs @iglowlilac @mod-doodles @devisrina @leannanscribblesstuff - Feel free to play along! The trope ranking template is here.
#tag game
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Honest question (possibly too personal)
But when you like someone, is the goal actually to date them? Like do you want them to ask you out or does that sound terrifying?
I only ask bc I'm 27 and whenever I like someone, I want them to think of me and share jokes and stories with me, and would be heartbroken if it's apparent that they have someone else they'd rather do those things with, but I also.. have no idea what would come next if they asked me out and that unknown sounds equally awful....
But then again... I can't remember actually liking someone and I think I just liked the idea that aesthetic people seemed to like me..... but im not sure thus the confusion and question.
Summary.
Do you see a person (either a stranger or someone you know well) and think happily about the possibility of dating them and all that implies.?
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Tfw you realize you’re latching obsessively onto Succession because you’re definitely losing your job soon you got through family connections while being incompetent with no prospects because of the post-Capitalist nightmare you can’t escape and are getting married soon with an economic power difference and mutual mental illness and baggage while yearning for a gay relationship which is impossible to ever work out and and have zero relationship with your often absent and abusive father and can’t stop Realizing you’re falling into the pattern of abuse you propogate and receive
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hello fic rec for fans of non-binary/transmasc gender euphoria????
holy shit i for real never thought i could get such intense feelings of gender euphoria from fan fiction??????? but when i tell you this fic made my heart soar 😩😩💕💕 i was curious what was out there in the world of bakujirou fan fiction bc i’ve been noodling on the concept in my head for a bit and holy shit i was not expecting to feel this much!! had to pinch my cheeks and bury my head in my lap over this shit!! high high rec for all my gnc bitches
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