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hey-snakes · 1 year

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Lads I’m gonna make a goncharov post lmao

#I don't expect this to go anywhere #I'm just having fun with it

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burinazar · 20 days

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Oh, wait, wait, ok, I can tell tumblr my news now.

I was accepted into the JET Program and will be moving to Japan for one year starting in late summer to teach English. : )

I don't know how many other applicants have ever had either of my specific application 'angles'. I think they were both pretty weird, but also very, very me, and I'm pleasantly surprised that they seemed to have worked, going off both by the acceptance and the very positive and warm reactions I got during the interview I had. These were:

Science/scicomm/museum background + implying mutual interest in and love of like insects and sea life could be an avenue of intercultural connection and exchange

India and Japan have always struck me as weirdly similar in ways nobody seems to discuss, especially in both being simultaneously hurtling into modernity and deeply traditional/conservative in many ways and places

So. Is this a silly idea considering most people in this program are fresh college grads, and people my age are expected to maybe be getting more settled rather than hopping continents? Is this a scary idea, considering I'll have to uproot all my shit and go exist in a foreign country whose language I really don't know beyond miniscule smatterings? I mean, hmm, yes on both counts, but I'm very excited. On count one, I'd only get older in the future and demonstrably *don't* already have a settled life and career here to disrupt (lol), and on count two...guys, I'm so so tired of letting fear and inertia make my life decisions.

Time to pack up and store most of my shit and end my lease and. Yeah. Also I haven't actually been to India in five years and will probably try to visit my relatives there in the coming months since idk if i'd had an opportunity for a prolonged visit in the future during the one year (at least) in jp. I'll also be probably selling, trading, or giving away a lot more of my hobby shit (that was sort of an ongoing project already but since I'll be unable to use most of it for a year plus it's another reason to do so), so uh, if you've ever wished I would sell any of my dolls now might be time to commit BJD Hobby Taboo and ask me lol. And, obviously, I'll be studying more Japanese, because mine is incredibly へたくそ at the moment. So much to do. But I'm really excited. And thank you to all of y'all that have been encouraging to me about anything related to this matter <3

#i don't know where they'll put me but i asked for ibaraki prefecture #during my research i became really endeared by the idea of The Prefecture Everyone Thinks is Ugly and Boring lol #seems like a good combo of 'not too far from urban things + cost of living + genuinely there ARE nice natural and cultural things there'#they could put me anywhere though lol #already one of my fandom friends from there wants to meet up ;; im so flattered #im obviously not going there to do doll and fandom bullshit but that stuff will be a nice bonus in off time #i have very little idea on what to expect specifically re japanese attitudes to south asian people and am interested to find out #and maybe be a bunch of kids' first exposure to both americans and south asians and like immigrants as a concept : 3 #keeping my expectations tempered though. It Could Suck #but it'll suck in a novel way and truly i thrive on novelty even though often i take the easy and familiar path to try to protect myself #just. aaAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa scary but exciting im so excited

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forestofsprites · 6 months

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a few photos from today:]

#i love adding new woodland spaces to my little love list #(it is not a little list)#but i don't find safety anywhere like i do in the woods #i mean. i've been heavily observed by a bear and all sorts but #in the sense of- there are no obligations in the woods #the life of me is as . i don't know.. just in situ!! it's as gently existent as everything- and boy is there a lot of everything-#around me #there are no people there are no expectations there's no mirroring of the face or tone checking in my voice #my life isn't being put up against anything #i'm just there #and everything else is there too #and we're all just fucking there #i know that i'm alive when i'm in the woods #and it's undeniable that i am surrounded and enveloped by it likewise #that we are all part of this extensive energy chain #i find a lot of comfort and comradery in the whole thing #woods!!!! can't wait to go back tomorrow!!!#my photos #nature #mushrooms #fungi #autumn

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softpine · 1 year

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do you have any theories or things you'd like to see in s2 of yellowjackets?

crazy cannibalistic lesbian orgy death match when they all reunite

#lmaoo but no i guess i don't really have any theories yet #i'll probably rewatch the first season or find a recap somewhere because my memory is literally ass #i'm just guessing shauna is the first one to go full cannibal #and taissa will follow shauna anywhere (not van as you might expect)#see they're expecting us to believe lottie's cult is the first to eat human bodies but i don't think so #it'll be shauna / taissa / misty #and lottie / van on the other side #the others just float i think #i mostly just want to know what happened to shauna's first baby #are we going tragic and unfortunate or really really fucked up??#asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers #yellowjacket spoilers #but only for the first season

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number-0-iz · 8 months

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BLADES OF LIGHT AND SHADOW BOOK 2 CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS BELOW

I AM SO UNWELL. I AM SEVERELY UNWELL.

The fact that he doesn't share how or when his corruption disappeared confirms my theory that he is scared and ashamed of what he did and what happened.

"Solange..." *starts crying*

HE'S SCARED. I'M-

Okay so some things Aerin did in book 1 are definitely his fault but you can't tell me that the dreadlord manipulating and basically brainwashing him also didn't play a part. Like I think, partly, the dreadlord had a literal hold over him and that some things he did were him being forced to do it in a way?

And now that he is uncorrupted again, he realized it and has to come the terms with the things he did (aware and unaware) and what was done to him. And what he did to Solange (MC)

PLEASE. THE BANTER. 😭😭

'You notice for the first time how tired he looks. Like he can barely keep himself upright.' PB WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME? Y'ALL BETTER DELIVER @playchoices

'I don't suppose...you might visit me again?' aaaaaaAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH 😭

'I am not going anywhere.'

'And somehow I doubt I can stay away.'

'Well that's something, at least.'

I AM SO UNWELL. I AM SHAKING, SCREAMING, CRYING AND THROWING UP.

I wanted a little more angst but oh my god this was perfect.

I also think that, because he held the shadow blade, Aerin might be a realmwalker too or at least share some the abilities. I can't wait to see him join our adventuring party and watch him grow. He fucking better be there. Oh my god. I will make my Tyril post after this because of the main LIs, he is mine lol.

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lazylyz · 1 year

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wouldn't it be crazy if, for two whole seasons, a major show had its characters build strong relationships with each other and form deep bonds that transcend traditional expectations, but never overtly steps outside of those expected gender/sexuality norms, to only then, in the third season, show moment by moment that oops everyone's actually queer

#ted lasso #im going feral #something very lgbtq+ is happening this season #especially this past ep #between colin and whatever the fuck trents deal is to roy/jamie/keeley and keeley/jack #they've hinted keeley's bi much like they did with colin and grindr #but are they going to go through with it for a least few eps #i would like to see if even through im roy/jamie/keeley trash #though i have realistic expectations and don't anticipate anything going anywhere #but like could you IMAGINE

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dykefaggotry · 1 year

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this TDOV donate to ur local transmasc butch thing bc I just had to put all but $32 of my check into rent 😭 anything at all is appreciated!! or just any boosts. love yall regardless! 💖

paypal: paypal.me/arijk99

cashapp: $arijk99

venmo: @ arijk99

#I don't expect this to go anywhere but I saw other ppl posting these for TDOV and may as well attempt lol #I mean mostly the only thing I really Need need is enough to pay the minimum balances on a couple of my credit cards #but I can swing it im just gonna be hurting the next couple of weeks rip

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natelia-aldelliz · 1 year

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Guys... Listen I know I said I'd draw something for valentine's day but I had a bit of a rough week sooooo I'm just going to write it out instead, maybe I'll finish drawing it some day, maybe not. It's behind a show more because it's long.

(also there's talks about having sex but no actual sex, and like, general warnings about Ghost's backstory but it's very vague here).

Soap was hanging around outside, trying to bring himself to do something, anything. But the weather was nice for a February day, and the sun was out, and it was making him feel like a cat basking in the heat.

An arm wrapped itself around his shoulders, a huge body suddenly weighing on him. Ghost.

Soap hummed comfortably. This day was getting better by the minute. Any chill he might have felt from being outside in a tank top out of pure Scottish spite was instantly soothed.

Simon often times saw himself as a cold man, freezing to the touch, hidden behind a layer of ice. A proper little Elsa, Soap almost snorted out loud. The truth was that while yes, his fingers and toes' temperature was sometimes abysmal, especially in bed, the rest of him was the warmest place Johnny had ever been.

"I've got something for you in our room," Ghost whispered against his throat, making Soap shiver.

Simon had begun calling Soap's room theirs a few weeks ago and Johnny couldn't have enough of it. He was so in love it genuinely hurt sometimes to restrain himself from squeezing him to death.

"Is that so?" he purrs, knowing how Ghost likes that. If this day didn't end in sex he'd be very surprised. He'd long learned to recognize when Simon wanted sex and when he didn't, and the way he squeezed his pec in response to his voice was a very easy tell.

But then again Simon was way less subtle than he thought he was.

They made their way back to their room, and there it was, a repurposed shoebox, badly wrapped with cheap wrapping paper. Johnny couldn't be more excited, he had never received any gift from a significant other. To be fair he adored gifting but always felt awkward receiving.

But this was Simon. Something that Simon had chosen to give him.

He sat on the bed, leaving enough space behind him for Ghost to sit there so he could use him as a very comfortable backrest. When he did, he grabbed the gift and began opening it.

He knew that Ghost liked to tear the wrapping paper, liked the sound of it and liked tearing it into the smallest pieces possible after, but he himself loved carefully unwrapping it and folding it flat so he could later maybe do an origami with it or put a piece in his journal. Probably both.

This one was full of tape but he still very much enjoyed himself, considered it a challenge. He enjoyed the chase, wanted to drag it on. Ghost huffed impatiently behind him, a bit tense, probably nervous.

Inside the box was a weird old fashioned clunky thing. It was bright red, looked slightly like binoculars, definitely from the 70's, with a wheel of tiny pictures wedged in the top of it. Memories hit him all at once.

"Oh my god ah remember, my Ma had one of these when ah was a child! My sister and I loved it, it had pretty landscapes in!"

He put it against his eyes, excited to see what this one came with. At his biggest surprise, it was a picture of them. Simon had customised it.

The picture showed the back of himself a bit further away from the camera, pointing at something while in full gear, in a dilapidated town, Ghost's face in the foreground looking at the camera. It looked like Soap was talking to someone, but that person was cut by the framing.

"Wait, ah remember that mission, it's when ah saved Gaz from a landmine just to be shot seconds later," he laughed. "ah spent two fucking weeks in the hospital, ah was miserable. Ye kept joking ah should hiv left Gaz explode while staring at him, he was convinced ye actually wanted him dead!"

Then the next picture was indeed him in his hospital bed, unconscious but the state of his injuries told him he was probably just sleeping at least a few days after his admission, his life no longer in danger. In this one, Ghost was sleeping too, head in his elbow near Soap's head and his other hand holding Soap's hand.

"Who took this one?" Soap asked, moved by the tenderness of Ghost's hold on him in the picture. It would have been right after Johnny had admitted to maybe liking him more than friends, before they were officially dating.

"The hospital one?"

Soap hummed.

"Price did. Said it was for blackmail. Should have seen him, he looked like his child had just married the person of their dreams and had ridden off into a rainbow on a unicorn or some shit. Old man's sentimental as fuck, but I didn't call him on his bullshit, he's already old, that's punishment enough."

Soap giggled in response. The next few pictures were all of them together but each time he was either turning his back or asleep.

"Why the fuck am ah never looking at the camera?" he whined. He wanted some cute couple pictures, dammit!

"Couldn't have you suspecting what I was planning," Simon said, kissing his shoulder soothingly. Only then Soap noticed that he had taken his mask off at some point and turned to ask for a proper kiss, which he immediately got.

"Keep going, there's more pictures," Simon whispered against his lips when he tried to turn around to kiss him some more. His pouting only got him a smirk in response, so he got comfortable again and brought the slide viewer back against his eyes.

He was happy he did. The next picture waiting for him was just Simon in the mirror, almost in full gear, but with one gloveless hand dragging his trousers down so the camera could see the bottom of his stomach, follow along his happy trail and reaching the very top of his pubic hair. The picture cut of his head, but he could see that his mouth was uncovered and he was holding the glove with his teeth.

Soap groaned. "Steaming Jesus, love, you're so hot."

He felt Simon hide his face in the back of his neck, warmer than usual, and chuckled a bit. He loved him so fucking much.

There were four more pictures of Simon, in various suggestive poses and states of undress, some almost showing his cock but never quite committing, making Johnny feel like he was being teased.

He was getting hard though and so ready to be done with the pictures and access the real thing. But Simon was still tense behind him. In fact, he had only gotten tenser and tenser with each click.

Soap was unsure why. They never had a problem with their sexual life, Simon had already changed his mind about having sex after starting and Soap had absolutely no problem with that, was glad to hug him instead and reassure him when he had tried to apologize.

Simon knew that there was no pressure, ever, to have sex. Hell, Johnny would still be happy even if Simon decided that he never wanted to have sex again, and he had made sure to make Simon understand that.

Then he got to the last picture and immediately understood.

It wasn't a picture of either of them, just a little bit of paper, with a few words written in Ghost's awful handwriting.

Just a few words that made Johnny drop the viewer on the covers and turn around to grab Simon's face, worriedly looking in his eyes.

"Are you sure?" he asked, looking for any trace of Simon forcing himself. "Baby, ah'm happy to bottom for the rest of mah life, there's no pressure, okay?"

Simon looked at him with warmth in his eyes and his cheeks completely red, a wrapping bow added on top of his head. "I know," he said simply. "I just want to. I don't want to be haunted by memories anymore. I used to like it, and I want to like it again. With you. Just.... Be gentle, okay?"

Johnny kissed his forehead. "Ah dinnae think ah ken how no tae be gentle with ye, love."

#cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #ghostsoap #soapghost #listen i'm sure there are romantic people somewhere who think it's valentine's day everyday so how late can that be #to be fair i am terrible at deadlines i don't know why i keep giving them to myself cause i soon as i do i know i'm never doing the thing #i've also burnt out my drawing capacities for now so probably expect more writing than drawing for a bit while my poor tiny brain recovers #if anyone is wondering yes soap forgot it was valentine's day #not because he forgot about it - he just forgot to track the days and didn't know they were the 14th he had a gift ready tho #he got ghost a chocolate tablet that ghost had once complained about not being able to find anymore that's actually just me complaining irl #that my supermarket doesn't seem to have white chocolate tablets with puffed rice inside like they did when i was a child #i have no idea how that applies to anywhere else lmao maybe other supermarkets have them but i hate going to supermarkets i don't know #anyway lmao sorry my love language is ranting #soap doesn't generally like receiving gifts because he feels like he doesn't deserve them like he didn't have to work for them #and so he feels guilty when he gets one but he hasn't told anyone about that #he was happy there but if ghost gives him ''too many'' gifts he's gonna start feeling bad bc he has just as much issues as everyone else #just hides them better

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loumands · 9 months

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There are literally 3 euros left on my bank account

#i should get tax refund and pay for my summer job this week i guess i'll survive #still stressful as hell though #i don't want to complain too much cause i know i'm privileged living in a country with a broad social security system #but it's also chaotic and bloated as fuck with a million different benefits and no one understanding how it works #my previous social security benefit ended in may so i had to apply for a new different one #but i needed a medical certificate for it and only had doctor's appointment last week #and getting the decision on that application takes time so meanwhile i applied for the last resort income support #but my application for that was rejected for unknown reasons and i complained about the decision but it's still in progress #so now i'm just waiting here with no money from anywhere whatsoever 🤷#bro what they expect me to do #go begging from the church? go shoplifting?#if this post is incoherent to you i feel the same #keanu.txt

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booasaur · 2 years

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P-Valley - 2x04

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becaexists · 1 year

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Now I am not an angry person, but there is tiny spark of something that lights the driftwood that is my bones and soul when people misuse the word Hiraeth because it's my word, my word from my home, the one place in the world that feels like where I belong, the word that is used to specifically describe the longing you feel for Wales/Cymru and people use it to talk about fucking hogwarts and a minecraft role play server??? Like fuck you, no, this is my word for my people from my language that I was robbed of learning until I was 15 how dare you take it and use it for something as stupid and trivial as that

#and all of this because my friend is playing in a minecraft tournament called the Hiraeth games #they didn't make the tournament nor do I expect them as an American to even know what the word means #but still #I don't know anything about the person who made it #and I have a feeling they found the word on Pinterest or from a really shit tiktok audio that doesn't even pronounce the word right #let alone get the definition correct #it's not homesickness for just anywhere #it's homesickness for the land of my ancestors #the people that came before me #who live inside me #their longing lives in my heart #and it lifts a little every time I manage to escape from England and go back to the place I know is safe #hiraeth #cymru #vent post

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rotisseries · 7 months

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i keep seeing clips from hozier concerts on tiktok i hope the sun explodes and everyone dies amen🙏

#I don't care if something good happened to you it should've happened to ME INSTEAD. etc #there's been several instances now where an artist is touring and I'm not going and the clips make me jealous #but these are filling me with like SEVERE amounts INCANDESCENT jealousy I SHOULD BE THERE.#maybe it's worse cause I was so close. my parents were like yeah we'd love to try and see if we can get your tickets #and then I had to get the bad news that travel was too much (he's not coming anywhere particularly close) with ticket cost #WHICH MAKES SENSE. AND WAS EXPECTED EVEN. BUT I DO HATE THE WORLD JUST A BIT #I'VE NEVER BEEN TO A CONCERT. NOT ONCE. COME ON #gripping the sink staring in the mirror there will be more hozier albums there will be more hozier tours there will be more hozier albums #and more hozier tours more albums more tours more albums more tours YOU'LL GET YOUR CHANCE ONE DAY

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l0stw00d · 9 months

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Slightly different post! a relatively quick doodle of my favourite butch tiger, Zed!

Drawn in Clip Studio Paint, over about an hour i think? using default water colour and chalk brushes!

#l0stw00d #l0stw00d: Zed #my art uwu #furry #tiger anthro #anthro #digital art #clip studio paint #trying 2 get braver about showing my silly little doodles #i don't expect this to go anywhere but i wanted to show u flustered Zed all the same :3

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mochakissedgold · 8 months

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Twitter streets are saying Kris and Jade put on a hell of a match for Rampage...and if the reports are true about Jade's *possibly* leaving then, I truly wish her well and hope she succeeds wherever she'll land.

#I don't like that she's leaving but I've accepted some ppl from the company will jump to other promotions #Its how business goes - can't knock her for it #Hate we won't get an aew women's championship run out of her to see what she can do but hey🤷🏾‍♀️#I also expect tons of people will be chicken little-ing the shit out of her leaving which will be the annoying part in all this...#This company keeps proving everyone constantly that they aren't going anywhere #yet some of you will still find ways to panic and doom and gloom about who leaves and who stays or who signs #It is what it is - Enjoy this era of wrestling while we still have it #aew rampage #kris statlander #jade cargill

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blujayonthewing · 3 months

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reflecting on how all of my other DMs have gone above and beyond to lovingly weave my and my friends' backstory elements into the larger worldbuilding of the campaign by contrast to all of the ways Elyss' DM has gone out of his way to suppress or excise any influences her family may have ever had on anything and I'm genuinely near tears over it

#'I'm so surprised that Elyss wasn't more interested in going to her mom's hometown now that you're in her homelands!'#YOU! CHANGED Nami's backstory so that she never traveled anywhere before having Elyss #and YOU decided that she never tells Elyss literally anything even when directly asked #because you're so desperate to make sure your players never know literally anything about whatever might happen to them ever #YOU made it feel not only unrewarding but as if it was actively unwelcome for you if I even talked to my mother!!#'we're making this very dangerous journey (that you've been retconned not to have made yourself so you can't spoil it)--#--assuming we survive can you please tell us anything at all about what to expect the other country to be like?'#'well. it is different than here. it may not be what you expect.'#'oooh why didn't you go to hometown' SUCK MY DICK I ASSUMED YOU'D BE ANNOYED IF I WENT THERE HOPING TO FIND ANYTHING #of course ELYSS wants to try to touch any part of her own heritage she can!!#do you think she doesn't wonder whether she has family there? do you think maybe it's weird that she doesn't already know??#when *I* built Elyss' mother I made her a traveler from a far-off land so neither of us had to worry about it #YOU decided to send us to THAT far-off land specifically and then REFUSE to let Nami actually TELL me anything about it!!#feels very much like you don't want me to engage with that! feels very much like you ACTIVELY don't want me to explore that connection!#and if it felt like *Nami* was being secretive about it then Elyss would be even more keen to investigate herself--#but it's just part of a well-established pattern of NPCs going 'it's a secret teehee' for very obviously no other reason than that--#the DM just doesn't ever want us to have information even if NPCs have that information and have no reason not to share it #anyway. tl;dr grief over elyss yearning her whole life for somewhere to belong #but not going to her mother's birthplace because she has no reason to believe there's anything there for her.#for purely stupid empty meta reasons.#'I'm surprised you didn't go there 👀' so maybe he had something!#but my mother-- through you-- was so cagey about whether her parents even exist that I kind of just figured you didn't! so!!#about me #my OCs #elyss

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here-there-were-dragons · 17 days

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as a general rule, on average, if americans consistently complain about a food being conceptually weird, gross, and scary, then it probably tastes amazing. or at least inoffensive.

this is because in my experience americans for the most part (give or take a few exceptions by region) think eating literally anything other than beef, chicken, bread, eggs, peanut butter jelly sandwitches, ketchup, and disgusting cloyingly artificial brown sludge soda is insurmountably weird, gross, and scary.

#a lot of people literally refuse to even eat ham or pork #not even for like religious or health reasons #just because they think eating anything but beef and chicken is 'weird and scary and gross'#every time i hear people going on en masse about how 'weird and an acquired taste' something foreign is i go and try it and i'm just like #what the fuck were all of you smoking. where is the unbearable weirdness i am supposed to be experiencing #shoutout to that time i kept hearing about how bizarre a flavor milkis soda is and how intimidating and acquired of a taste #then when i actually try the stuff. it's just fucking peach soda. it's peach soda with a faint tangy yogurtish taste. it makes good floats.#how in the absolute fuck is anything even remotely weird much less gross about this?#unless your concept of what a 'soda' should be is poisoned by a lifetime of the entire soda aisle being filled with nothing but brown sludg #from the same 3 brands that all taste like what would happen if they could distill the concept of diabetes and artificial flavoring syrup #i don't know if other countries have this but there's this weird cultural like mandatory rejection of any 'unusual' food here #way more intense than i've seen from anyone from any other country (though that might just be inexperience with other cultures talking)#people react to the mere suggestion of any food outside a very narrow range with outright disgust and genuine fear and horror #and there's a huge amount of unspoken peer pressure on everyone to also do the same #like you're expected to agree with them and you've breeched some sort of silent social contract if you don't #it's seen as *immoral* almost it feels like #it's difficult to describe unless you've noticed it yourself #americans react to the mere suggestion of eating anything outside of the same 2 meats and handful of fillers the same way #that pearl-clutching aristocrat grandmas react to hearing that people in foreign countries do.. basically anything #it doesnt matter if you're suggesting eating ube cake or suggesting eating live bugs because people will react the same way #everything that's not chicken/beef/ect is as good as bugs to people here #hate this stupid blandass country and how impossible it is to afford any food other than burgers if you're not rich #or blessed with relatives that have any idea how to cook and are at all willing to teach you #cause nother weird thing i've noticed about food culture-or at least wasp food culture-that i haven't seen anywhere else quite the same way #is that if you DO have any relatives that know how to cook then nine times out of ten they will jealously guard their recipes like a dragon #and refuse to share them with anyone #thus taking whatever little cooking knowledge was in the family to their grave #so the opportunity other people usually have for family bonding via passing on recipes? pffft no.#for some reason we seem to actively go out of our way to prevent these things from being passed on #i don't know what the fuck is up with that but i suspect it has something to do with 50's dinner party oneupmanship

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