#I am keeping a close eye on this post.

[anomalousmancunt]

this is going on anon thru someone else bc every time i post about this i get goofball ass comments im honestly just not feeling like dealing with

but the tme/tma dichotomy doesn’t really make sense to me. like, every trans person can be a victim of transmisogyny regardless of gender. that’s just cis/trans 2

also like. idk why people complain abt transandrophobia or whatevs we’ve decided we’re calling it. if transmisogyny is hatred of transfemininity how would transandrophobia not be hatred of transmasculinity?

maybe i have it a lil backward but like. im a butch trans woman and im pretty comfortable with that. not on hormones (would like to be) and i don’t pass or really want to and i don’t care abt dressing feminine. when transmeds do the bit where they say im not really trans because of that, they’re challenging my ability to remain masculine while being transfem. is that not transandrophobia???

im confused and im scared to ask bc everyone i ever see talking about it is kind of an asshole abt it

yeah, this idea that oppression is somehow only aimed at the True, Intended Victims is... very nonsensical.

ive had transmisogyny aimed at me since before publicly ID'ing as trans because i dared to be visibly genderweird and that made me Close Enough to a freak-in-the-transfemme-way for some people. ive seen transfemme people have transandrophobia aimed at them because they dared to be masc in a way that clashes with "fem" characteristics, and that made them Close Enough to freaks-in-the-transmasc-way for some people. it's so unnecessary and counterproductive to pretend these experiences somehow are not real, or it's actually Another kind of oppression (a more "general" one, perhaps), and not the one it clearly is.

im sorry people are assholes, because i fully agree with you here.

#for the record i do not think transmisogyny=hatred of transfems #at least not in a 1-to-1 way #but like. this is a Tumblr post and not published theory. #transandrophobia #transmisogyny #I am keeping a close eye on this post. #as soon as anyone starts invalidating experiences or just being annoying. post's over.

[harlequinpants]

#xiao #venti #xiaoven #genshin impact #not pictured: me jumping through hoops trying to draw venti's tattoos while keeping this blog pg lmao #i miss my wife (the ocean) #everyone that knows me irl close your eyes #my hobbies include: only drawing beach pics and then getting embarrassed and never posting them #me gritting my teeth and chanting i am cringe but i am free every time i post

[mattodore]

not many people online atm so i figured i’d show off theo’s freshly customized moles :) i'll post a proper close up of his face moles later because i'm obsessed, but for now here’s the full thing.

also this is how this background looks with the character page (this isn't the pic i'll be using, i was just testing things out). i'll probably alter the code to match the background rather than editing the background’s color, i think.

#the cas background was much closer to the page’s color before i turned my preset on </3 #river dipping #theodore doe #echthroi #ts4 #i might delete this later... we shall see #i just don't like posting theo when he's showing a lot of skin idk why... #ig it's bc i know how theo feels abt his body and everything so eyeeee am just like. everyone close your eyes. #but i want to show his moles off because they took me forever to place where i wanted #he has four!!! moles on his left palm that i love so bad and no one is ever gonna see them kjfdhnkfdjhn #i imagine matthias kisses theo's palm there all the time #…jotting this pose idea down expeditiously ✍️ #i’m laying down for bed now so hopefully i get at least four hours tonight 🧎 #also i only took test shots today while in cas so tomorrow i have to hop back in there to actually take the pics i want for the oc page #i want to do everyone’s but i just know i should just keep it simple with mattodore first #oh—also! downloaded a ton of clutter cc yesterday and today so i’m hoping i might actually get to that in-my-bag tag game soon #but yeah . . . nothing else to say and my eyes are watering from yawning so i’m going to sleep 🚶 #everyone watch over theo for me while i sleep 🔫 #gn!!!! <3

[toshidou]

soon 🤩

#i am so close to finishing this #just a couple more bits to go #i would get it done tonight but i need to make sure that it's not completely riddled with spelling mistakes LMFAO #it is Late here and i am tired #but the adrenaline of writing about how sexy ghost is has apparently become my caffeine #anyway this will most likely be posted tomorrow WEEEEE #so like #keep an eye out if you want 😌 #simon riley #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader

[consolecadet]

Thinking about how my fine motor skills/manual dexterity are fairly good (relatively fast touch typist, ok at many types of art, envied by peers for my onion-dicing abilities) but my gross motor skills & proprioception are less good and feel significantly degraded by joint problems with EDS (historically bad at sports, often knock things over especially when using a cane, was horrible at throwing/catching objects until Something Changed in 2019). World's least graceful artist

#the throwing and catching things issue may have had more to do with how people treated me as a kid #the primary shift was becoming less afraid of 1) failure and 2) things hitting me in the face #turns out if you keep your eyes open and track the object's trajectory you are much more likely to catch it #as opposed to closing your eyes and instinctively shielding your body #[shrug emoji] #I am pretty good at PT though... #it might be specifically time pressure and trying to coordinate many movements at once that's the problem #if you want me to isolate one specific non-hand muscle for an exercise I can definitely do that #which is why I uh. have judged people for needing straws to drink after top surgery #just move your forearm without engaging your pecs! duh. #ANYWAY. distracted at work about this. gotta go #boring text posts #medical

[calumthoodshands]

Happy happy happy birthday, Molly @burstingsunrise! 🧡

#mooly #uh how do i even tag this #before i start CLOSE UR EYES IF YOURE NOT MOLLY ! thanks.... #second of all obviously ily and i am SO glad and thankful ur my friend #cos ur awesome #second of all i hope you have cake today and also a really good time and that the boys will play the best possible show(s) ever for you spe #-ifically #cos you deserve it and more #yeah! 🧡 #idk i'm just really happy you exist #thank u for all the stupid and funny and out of context conversations and laughing about the endless string of typos occuring in out chat #may you never run out of bonanzas <3 #i'd say more but this is tumblr post tags so i will keep it short x #aria’s art #haven't used that tag in a long time ............. #whatever

[weareamarvel]

do you see us getting scraped up off the pavement?

#IIII DONT KNOOOW WHY IIII AM THE WAAAY IIIII AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO BE YOUR MAN #I LIED I AM JUST LOWERING YOUR EXPECTATIONS #HALF A MIND THAT KEEPS THE OTHER SECOND GUESSING #CLOSE MY EYES AND COUNT #my bad i got carried away #boygenius #too good #not strong enough #aesthetic #photography #idk shit about photography i just take pictures that i like lookin at #i have so many ~aesthetic~ pictures i take that go nowhere so i’m gonna start posting em again! idc if no one likes em!! #car windows #mercedes #sunset

[furymint]

wc 641 (this ask was sent to my insp blog @unforgettablesilhouette so just to keep my writing in one place i copied it here! thank u @houserosaire!)

"What," Nolanel grunted, "are you doing?"

Elliot strengthened his grip on Nolanel’s hand. "You needn't question what you know—it dulls your understanding of the world."

They strode side by side in one of the brackish portions of the city, where the closely paved walkways of the Pillars began to twist into the impaired streets of the Brume. Lights in Skysteel make hung over the path towards the sector's barracks to guide ale-drunk soldiers home, but as soon as the sun fully set, the rest of the road would be lit only by the windows and brazier fires of the shops.

Nolanel tried to jerk his hand away. "Instead of chaffing me, answer me why," he griped.

"I'm fond of you," Elliot declared. "And walking with you remains the highlight of my days."

Sarcasm soothed Nolanel no further. "Let go of me or I will make a scene."

"The Horde would agree to peace sooner."

"Are you more ill in the head than we knew? Do you see anyone else here making some pathetic show of their affections like this?"

"Not exactly. You're also not looking deep enough." Elliot pouted. He tugged Nolanel toward the center of the street to skirt the collection of low tables and chairs that made a bistro's veranda. "The people don't know you here; you've never been here—"

"Baseless certainty will be your death one day."

"Yes, and I'll march to my grave completely blind in the belief it is my salvation! Now stop pretending there are knives at your neck and start looking at the stars. They're beginning to appear."

Nolanel tried to yank himself free again. To his own annoyance, he could never purposefully harm Elliot or allow himself to appear as trapped by sick enjoyment as he was—so his strength was not in him as he lifted his arm and punched it suddenly down. Elliot dipped readily with the force and leaned against his shoulder. Spite prevented Nolanel from enjoying the warmth.

"You may be correct about the people here knowing me, but what of the agents among them? My aether is poisoned with the inner dragon. The Inquisitors need to see no more than that."

"Be realistic! Hypocrisy may be strong among them, but the Inquisition is abounding with inverts. They're the ones who require intervention from a saint—preferably Raphael, what for their tools, lest—"

"Gods, be silent, afore I scream. The Inquisitors do not look above their caste to sell himself as the adored pet of some nobleman with a penchant for uniforms."

Wagging his free hand dismissively, Elliot shrugged, "If the Tribunal were looking for such a pair, they would find more than one here."

Nolanel finally paid attention. The strip was lined with brasserie, cafés, and dwellings, all of them twinkling with activity and rumbling with the voices of men. Of the knights posturing at the rim of counters or alone against walls, few of them lifted their concentrated eyes to him. They watched Elliot.

Others were long engaged in conversation, drink, and games, while women with slack hairstyles prodded those who stepped too close apart. Smoke cycloned behind the windows of one bar, then rushed into the streets as a laborer threw open its door and hollered a greeting.

There were too many alleys and too many people who stood on the lip of their darkness, like effigies of temptation, to feign some occupation while they waited for another to approach.

Nolanel returned Elliot’s grip with force, causing Elliot to laugh. "'Tis not myself I intended to shield, but you, ser. We wouldn't want anyone to think you could be had."

"Still—"

"I know this area, which is why I've brought you to visit de Charlus' little place. He boast the best madeleines. Nevertheless, if anyone offers you a cigar—"

"You're making this worse," Nolanel cringed.

"You'll love it."

#elliot: ur not looking #look w ur special eyes #theyre v pretty eyes #nol: i am this close to dying rn #man keeping it dialogue heavy rly helped me write fast #shrieks in teredio writing woes. i still got my ishgard boys tho #ty again sorry i slightly complicated how i posted it sdfjd #bri writes #nolanel feran #elliot cadieux

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

being sick as an adult sucks. wdym my mom won’t just automatically make sure I eat food instead of exclusively drinking Gatorade all day. wdym I have to ask my roommates to make me dinner. I have to Venmo a friend money to buy me more Gatorade?? I can’t focus enough to do homework??? I hate this.

#this is a silly haha humor post but in all seriousness. #COVID rly is just making me stare all the internalized ableism in the eye #yes worth isnt defined by productivity and disability and the idea of being a burden is part of being human and isn’t shameful at all #until I have to minorly inconvenience people to meet my basic needs #I really want to eat dinner but that would require asking my roommates to make me dinner which is just. 5 kinda of mortifying. #even though if someone I knew was sick I would not be upset about making them food! sick people need to eat! #my parents ordered me chipotle yesterday bc they were so concerned bc of how I sounded over the phone #and my friend went out and bought me juice and Gatorade and popsicles and took me to the doctor #the support system Exists I just feel bad about having to use it T-T #I just want to be hugged and read to and reminded to eat food but I am an adult now and not at home #lonely TT-TT #it’ll be okay I’m probably just emotional bc I’m sick and hungry #I also just am struggling so hard because I want to catch up on my classwork Right Now #but I can get through maybe one assignment before I’m too exhausted to keep sitting up #and I have to lay down and close my eyes and sleep or do a light activity like playing candy crush for the fifty bazillionth time #I’ve gotten through like. 100 levels this week. #I’m losing my dang marbles. I am gonna be so behind in ASL Susan is gonna be so disappointed in me #I feel like I have all this energy when I’m laying down bored but as soon as I sit up I feel like I’m floating and about to fall over #so. so tired. why can’t I be healthy already and do homework T-T. #I’m choosing to take this as a lesson to slow down and not overwork myself so hard. instead of being mad at myself for getting behind. #<- is trying and failing not to be mad at herself for getting behind

[poems-of-a-lover]

need a boy to stroke thru my hair while i rest in his lap

#im struggling to keep my eyes open rn im so tired #like i keep imagining that im typing bc im falling asleep #and then i realise my eyes r closed and i open them and nothings typed #it's like im lost idk where i am #im sooooo eepy #okay anyway someone pls kiss me to make me feel better plssss #mlm #mlm yearning #mlm post #mlm love #gay mlm #trans mlm #t4t #mlm thoughts #mlm blog #t4t yearning

[sysig]

Your Weekly TV Guide

On Monday you can expect:

2:30 PM: The Stanley Parable/Portal

And Tuesday:

2:30 PM: The Stanley Parable

Wednesday:

2:30 PM: Portal

Thursday:

2:30 PM: Adventure Time

Friday:

2:30 PM: AT

Saturday:

2:30 PM: Fellplates

Sunday:

2:30 PM: Fellplates

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#Weekly TV Guide #Yeahh!! Got it this week! >:D #We are /finally/ catching up! Big things this week!!!! #I'm very excited lol #My Portal fixation didn't last all that long this time around but it was very enjoyable to draw everyone again :) #And I mean I still haven't actually re-beaten Portal 2 yetttt sooooo #I'm pretty close tho lol - my interest has just shifted for the moment #Please keep an eye out for Thursday! I am winking at you very conspicuously #Pls it took a lot of time :'D I am pleased with it :D #And then finally Fellplates for this Weekend!! YES!! #I have been not-so-subtly losing my mind about Handplates in the background for uhhh couple weeks now #Especially the last few days tho lol #At current Fellplates is on a low simmer on the backburner - mostly just got all my ideas out already lol #But it'll be so good to have them posteddddd yaaaayyyyy #Heck and a heck queues Kill This Man I am So out of my mind right now #Trying to channel it into Yet More Backlog! Lol what a healthy system I have set up lol #Anyway! Good week!! Looking good!!! #Also possibly planning a stream this week as well :0 I'll make a separate post about it if I do end up going through #I'll try to let y'all know at least a day in advance lol but it probably won't be til later in the week :P #I'd like to do it before the weekend if I can but hmmm :0 Guess it remains to be seen!

[mrs-kelly]

Okie, goodnight!! <3 I’m gonna hold Charlie so close while I sleep tonight, I hope that post works and I have nice Charlie dream <3

#So sleepy that I closed my eyes halfway through writing the post and started typing nonsense afghjk #I am THAT kinda sleepy. afhjkll #I’ll get good rest tho <3 especially while he’s holding me <333 #ok I gotta stop typing; I keep almost passing out in the middle of it sfghkkl #ren speaks #renlie

[crossbackpoke-check]

i C u moyle

captured in 4k

#i REFUSE to admit defeat at the hands of the umich boys #except i did verbatim send a text to my roommate that said ‘bro stop he’s disgusting i’m so in love with him’ #after fully watching a trail of spit come out of his mouth while he was bent over to take a face off. i am Down Bad #also nolan never keeps his tongue in his mouth my dude is just out there full 👅 all the time i can’t stand him close ur mouth or i’ll kiss u #nolan moyle #ethan edwards #philippe lapointe #relatedly duker skates EXACTLY the way he runs in the monday videos which is how i identify him at all times & i almost started wheezing #if i knew how to make gifs there would be gifs of nolan stickhandling however i don’t Know how to make live videos gifs ☺️ #deep cuts from the draft dumpster dives #is this from two different games? the world may never know (yeah. do i remember exact dates for either of them? no of course not) #we’re just getting close to the end of the season & i am succumbing to my desire to post Him #also inCREDIBLE nemcklance content in the second picture (not of nolan) 🫠 #nemcklance #things i am not proud of: my reaction 2 this. everyone shhh i’m allowed one breakdown about a dirtbag per quarter & i haven’t seen mo enough #like most days i do not want to be a puck bunny but sometimes u lock eyes with a man & go ohhh the hoggles are glued on for you ✊😔 buffooner #trying 2 undo my internalized misogyny! by allowing myself 2 say i can be a valid sports fan who likes players! sorry about it! idk why him! #it is 1000% because of la’s umich fic & all the lore though. most likely. also apparently i’m a crustasche lover 😪 the struggle is real #if u loved me u would have stopped at the tag about nolan drooling on the ice & we will never speak of this again (said by someone who will)

[night-dragon937]

gods listening to music of artists that i've gone and seen in concert/at raves and just like. reliving the euphoria of the moment when i was there at the live performance like. obviously sitting at my desk with my headphones is not the same as being at a rave or concert but i can kind of capture some of the memory and those good feels are just smth else

#blog post #tw ahead im gonna go on about some dark shit #kind of? idk #like so when i was younger and struggling #by which i mean when i was suicidal from ages 9-18 #one thing i tried when i was 15-18 was making a bucket list and essentially it was stuff i wanted to do before i died because saying #'im at least gonna live to do these things' was SO much easier than saying 'im gonna live the rest of my life' back then #and on that list was going to several concerts (all of which i've done now!!) and like tbh i had my doubts like is a concert good enough #to keep living for (yes) and like what happens after i see these bands in concert (i wait for them to tour again and see them again duh) #(and also see other bands) #and i wish i could go back in time to past us and be like. u were so right. seeing these groups/artists in concert (and the ones i like now #and hadn't heard of back then) is SOO worth it #im so glad i have been alive to go to all the concerts and the rave that i went to in the past year and a half it was so so good #and im so fuckin excited to go to more #there's at least two concerts im planning on going to this spring plus a rave im considering going to (its a three hour drive one way so #idk yet) plus our top favorite band for years is hinting at releasing new music which means a tour!! #im just gettin the feels because im remembering good memories and so fuckin excited to make more good memories #im so glad im alive and honestly that brings tears to my eyes that i can say that totally honestly now #like. i have a cat! i am reconnecting with family i didnt use to be close with! im working on cutting off toxic family! im working on #health issues which is very good. im out as queer and im so happy and proud of that. i have several hyperfixations i love consuming and #cosplaying. cosplaying!! i have so much fun making tiktoks and going to cons and putting everything together its so great!! im starting to #work on my big huge writing project with my coauthors for the first time in years and im soooo excited to revive that old hyperfixation and #share it!! i have an awesome partner who i care very much about and while i recently cut off some toxic friends i have plenty actual #friends that im so glad to have!! #im currently at a job that pays well and that i enjoy which is a win for me and i might possibly be in a position to go back to college #soon which means going into my preferred field which im SO stoked for!! and im actually really excited to go back to college. when we were #in person i had such a great experience and i cant wait to go back #ough

[niuxita21]

Tú puedes intentar desafanarte Incluso convencerme de engañarte No importará mil veces el por qué Te voy a conquistar cada vez, cada vez

¿No ves que esto no tiene remedio? Cuando te toca, te toca aunque te quites Dime adiós las veces que lo necesites Para darte cuenta que soy yo

#madre solo hay dos #ana servín #mariana herrera #shitty screencap posts (TM) #LIKE I SAID #I CAN'T STOP WATCHING AND CAPPING DON'T SEND HELP #it reminded me of jane and lisbon's kiss on their wedding day on the mentalist where it just kept going and going and GOING #and my heart couldn't take it anymore #I think what won me over was the way ana looked like all her dreams were coming true all throughout that kiss #she literally did NOT stop smiling once and no offense but she (the character) isn't that good an actress lmao #NO ONE can look that smitten for that long while kissing someone they don't particularly want to be kissing so CHECK AND MATE #and just the way she is clearly taking the lead the whole time for obvious reasons is the hottest thing ever ughhhhh #I mean yes I am still... apprehensive... about how this will be handled next season #but tbh the whole thing was worth it just to see Man Bun's face of disappointment dskgjhkdh we just keep winning #SPEAKING of faces in the audience did y'all notice that the only ones who seemed genuinely happy for them were mariana's grandmother #and tere's business partner? I loved her reaction especially she really seemed to be thinking 'isn't love beautiful?' nawww #it's hard to pick a favourite part but I think that little forehead touching bit in the second to last cap is up there #coupled with the way mariana clearly still has her eyes closed nawwww what happened boo the fake kiss got a little too real for you? #and the way they look at each other in the last one like NEITHER OF THEM is that good an actress I am LOSING MY MIND #what does it mean what does it all meannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn #anyway like I said this was NOT the first kiss I was expecting between them #but after sleeping on it I am game for whatever is in store in season 3 (with a few caveats that I will outline in a forthcoming essay) #and also like I said A+ for kissing #that's already half the battle won in my experience so we are golden!!! lol

[dandelionpath]

Keeping an eye on if any more weevils come into the house, because it seems like perhaps Loki has switched from spiders (I have developed genuine arachnophobia lmao) to weevils for getting my attention when I'm being really stubborn

I had THREE weevils in the span of two days, and they were in very odd places (halfway up the shower wall for example), and as soon as I acknowledged Loki and made sure to keep checking in with him throughout the day, there haven't been any more?

Not taking this as fact though yet because it might've just been a wild happenstance that three ended up in that room so close together in time. We'll see! If I keep up with Loki and don't see any more weevils then I'll be a little more leaning towards a metaphysical explanation for it :]

#i am working very hard to keep my head firmly on my shoulders this time around with my path and metaphysical workings #I struggle with various mental health things that make it extremely difficult to stay grounded in reality esp when I'm struggling a lot #so I'm keeping a close eye on my mental state and grip on reality this time fsdjkl no delusions for me this time! #i never posted anything that fell into my delusions on here btw (afaik) - all of that was kept to myself bc it was all very distressing #so anything on here is (again only afaik! i might be incorrect or misremembering!) what i consider to be real experiences w the metaphysica #comets posts #flames can make a hearth #comets path #comets deity work