#I WANT PARAGRAPHS UGH

[melon-official]

She wails as though a part of her has died.

oh man. i picked up the sidestory to @just-a-carrot's five-arc horror epic a couple days ago and i'm so glad i did. i'll probably be talking nonstop and/or drawing about it for days

there's a handful of whiteboard doodles with other characters under the cut, but rly i just wanted to pay a homage to the scene that hit me the hardest... enjoy

#theres already PARAGRAPHS upon paragraphs in my partners dms over this freaking thing but like listen to me (jingle jingle) PAY ATTENTION #i feel like i have to add that visual novels arent really something i take interest in at all this one jus JUMPED me #i actually played the side piece (our cinderella) first + was so in love with the writing i went to check out the main story. worth it #and i DEFINITELY won't be able to fit everything i want to say in the tags but its so refreshing to read/play thru a novel where the protag #are regular ass adults. like middle class thirty year olds barely breaking even. and that still get sappy unapologetically. #need more stories like this fr #that aside it's been fucking crazy to look at iggy's character arc through his eyes considering yk.. everything. #theres no universal asexual experience or anything but sometimes there'd be a line in there that made me like. sit up and go damn what the #i did that. i do that. #it's. i cant explain it in depth in the tags its about the way topics are skirted around and the realization that something is #uncomfortable in a way you werent expecting it to be. or even on your radar. theres so much #ugh. im unwell. anyways. #dewdles #our wonderland #gidget bordelle #iggy maxwell #genzou #genzou ichihara #cecil- does cecil have a last name??? cecil. #blood #injury #ask to tag

[haru-chi]

Reading the 5th vol of 7th time loop LN .. still on chapter 2 but I gotta say ...

The way both Rishe and Arnold is like "I don't care what anyone says about me but I won't allow them to cross the line nor say something bad about you" then get angry and defensive for their sake is just killing me you had no idea 😭🩵

It has such depth to it that I wanna dig up ugh .. it also reflect both their life and personality or the way they led their life till this point ....

What I mean is ... it's kinda painful and tragic that both of them don't care much about their self-value although showing in different ways/meaning .. that it stems from different circumstances yet the end result is the same ...

Having someone be angry for you and show they actually see the real you is ... liberating .. that everything you did till this point wasn't for nothing .. that you can be you .. the real you and that's okay .. having that one person is enough for you ... that's what it meant for Rishe this kind of action ..

While to Arnold it'll have a different meaning .. he himself will never see any kind of value in himself other than bringing misfortunate maybe, he doesn't even believe he's a kind person ... even his kindness to Rishe serve a purpose to him nothing more or less ... but even so, it's still a real kindness no matter how tainted it is .. he need to realize that deep down he actually kind despite how twisted or tainted he actually is .. his kindness is still alive in him ... Rishe gonna show it to him before anyone else ... she'll let it bloom to show its true self for sure one day ... he believe the bad things people says about him ... he himself also led them to believe most of it ... maybe also deceiving himself before those which led him to actually believe that it's the real him ..

So Rishe standing up to him .. not allowing anyone to badmouth him is just ... nothing he ever experienced that he doesn't know how to feel or react about it ... maybe even feel guilty toward it ..

While I believe Rishe is confident in herself and love herself more than anyone else thanks to all her past lives ... in her first is where she went through that self-worth depression when she thought her life has ended when that idiot prince broke their engagement .. that's why current Rishe won't be that shaken with whatever anyone else says about her. She moved on from all of that.

But Arnold doesn't have that mentality toward himself, he really doesn't see any self-worth in himself. The way he doesn't care about what anyone said about him is because part of it he believe it himself, the other he don't see himself as a good or kind person and to him he doesn't worth anything. The last one is that he truly doesn't care about anyone's opinion of him. He doesn't wanna bother.

So having Rishe defend his image has shaken him differently ...

While Rishe broke her shackles long ago thanks to all her past lives, Arnold is still shackled and not free as she is ...

Ummm ... I feel I went rambling without sorting all my feelings or thoughts, so if I make no sense don't mind me. Also I'm still reading through this but I couldn't contain my emotions or thoughts and had to write it down somewhere (maybe reading on either gonna change my view or confirm it too)

But anyway, I'm in pain, in love, and screaming and I'm still in the start of this vol that I don't know if I'll handle more going forward .. they're killing me 😭🩵

#7th time loop #rishe irmgard weitzner #arnold hein #rishe x arnold #7th time loop the villainess enjoys a carefree life married to her worst enemy #I was planning to only write the first paragraph but then .... I went on and on ... #my thoughts also are over the place and hadn't sort them out .... #it just this had a depth I wanted to convey even for a bit ... #I feel I have more to say but my thoughts aren't sorted at all ... #my feelings and emotions are everywhere too .... #but I hope I conveyed my idea and thoughts in a way that make sense and logical ... #need to take a breath before I return to read .... even though I don't wanna read for it to finish fast ugh

[gregoftom]

pretty sure i’ve seen romance movies with scenes like this

#tomgreg #where do i even start with t his horseshit okay here we fucking go. #so tom's first instinct is to go to greg when he's on shaky ground with shiv. the only way he feels safe is to have GREG with him. #who tf would want greg as an attack dog??!?!? lets be fucking real. when he says that i think he means just a dog. just someone loyal. #who loves him and won't dick him around. i think he's pretty tired of it by now. #he wants an alliance with like. ok in this show who would you pick to ally with. i love greg but he's abso useless in terms of skills that #would keep you safe. if anything TOM would keep HIM safe. in fact tom himself says who else has taken care of you. literally spells it out. #he even says greg is a joke; will fail; will fuck up; so what use does he have for tom other than companionship. other than love? #a dog might do tricks for you but your main reason for getting one is usually love. right? at least it should be. it would be in tom's case. #and don't even fucking get me STARTED on ''do you wanna come with me? ...sporus?" like girl. #you know what you told him about nero and sporus right. and now you're saying to him; yeah i was talking about you. #you and me. you're my favourite and i wasn't joking when i said i'd marry you. #the whole while tom is asking greg to be his attack dog his fuckin. eyes and expression we get it you're in love with him. like it's ridic. #and all this coming with phrasing it sounds like they're fucking ELOPING. I HATE IT!!!!!! SHUT UP! stop saying that fucking shit god. god #they are so annoying. anyway #the way tom's voice breaks as he says he has things to do [what things. will i find out later.] and the deal and!! #what am i gonna do with a soul anyways... i have you what do i need it for. and as that paragraph said somewhere. he castrates his soul. #then they giggle and are fucking annoying and greg'S HANDS LOOK LIK EHE'S ABOUT TO IDK. HUG TOM? AROUND THE MIDDLE MAYBE #or do something else. and then they just hug instead and i fucking. ugh. i've had enough tbh good fucking bye

[after-the-end-times]

I seriously give huge props to Steve anytime an author has him read Lord of the Rings to connect with Eddie or the kids

It's so sweet because it's such a huge undertaking

That thing is thick and those descriptions are long

#steddie #huh! I wonder if they had the same 'three books in one binding' in the 80s that I had in the 2000s #I tried to read that thing three times in highschool (every time one of the movies came out) #and just could not get past those long winded paragraphs of details and names and histories and trees and ugh 😮‍💨 #And I don't want to be like #I'm that Rory type book girl you remember from school #who was always reading a new huge book every time you saw me #but like yeah #steve harrington

[clenastia]

i dont know why the running joke of this chapter is kakashi fearing for his kidneys. where did that come from. WHY did that come from.

i should probably cut that in editing it's a little ridiculous.

except it makes me giggle every time so maybe i should leave it there.

#girl's mind fanfic #clena's writing progress #just have to write ONE more conversation and the whole chapter is done. but DAMN if editing wont be a bitch #still wondering if i should cut jiraiya's 3-page infodump #because while most people dont mind #some people keep commenting saying that my fic is too wordy and i keep adding unnecessary things #and like. they're 1% of reviews but i have the emotional fragility of a china teacup #i cry when i get those sorts of reviews and they ruin my day even tho i get twenty comments who love my rambling #but like. also. i shouldnt delete stuff from my fic just for the 1% of assholes who will say mean things about it #but also i dont want to cry when someone inevitably says something mean about it. #most if not all of said assholes are on fanfiction dot net so technically i could just stop cross posting #except there are people on that site who DO like my rambles so #ugh. why am i such an emotionally sensitive crybaby. my life would be so much better #if i didnt have such thin skin #i'm 90% certain that jiraiya's 3-page infodump is going to get LONGER with editing cause i'm gonna turn it from infodump into #an actual conversation. so who knows how many pages it'll be by the end. the chapter's already 6500 words #which is double my average chapter length #and i DO like the info he presents even if it maybe ISNT strictly required for progressing the story. probably only the last paragraph is #ugh. i wish people would just never say mean things ever. then i wouldn't have a problem with anything xD

[readymades2002]

i do love analysing media and art and unfortunately this is where i am most confident talking and i am very bad at stuff like: talking normally and like a person fostering relationships in the world with other people

#it is easy for me to go on and on about media and art and themes and i love doing it #and ive had a lot of discussions that live in my head months if not years after the fact because of it #but it is also easy for me to hide behind because anything actually personal and friendly means #i have to be myself if i want it to mean anything and i want to do it but well i do not like myself #and i dont know how to interact with people as a person and not as a thought process. and it is both lonely (for me) #and DEEPLY annoying and offputting (for the other parties) #attempted to start a conversation with a friend id like to know better the other day and im pretty sure #i immediately scared him off by going on about the mechanics of a game and how they tie into the narrative and its good #for paragraphs. its so. UGH!!! UGH!!!!! #i want to connect with people i want to talk to people i want to engage in conversations with people so badly #but this is the only way i know how to do it. im fun if you want a quick and lively discussion about something niche youre interested in #but as soon as thats over...whats left? i dont know where to go after that #after that i am just some guy who is tired and in pain and doesnt draw much these days. looks at birds sometimes. BORING #annoying background character

[newtness532]

how to stop finding bearable task incredibly unbearable?

#like everyone has to do it and everyone survives it #how do they do it without breaking down and wanting to die? #like its only a simple presentation of 1 paper each. it shouldn't be this hard right? but why is it so hard for me? #actually my problem isnt with writing the thing. is that when i found 2-3 paragraphs out of the 5 pages difficult i just lost the ability #to do anything else. like i cant do that 1 thing so now i cant do anything. #it honestly doesn't make sense and its ridiculous and im just stupid #anyway just ignore me. i will shut up about it after tuesday #also crying makes me tired so now im also sleepy on top of being stupid #ugh i hate everything #jo says stuff #university update

[muirneach]

ugh still doing my law work and its a two part assignment one part due tonight and one next week. this part is a case brief but on the assignment outline sheet it says you also have to write an opinion paragraph BUT the title of the assignment hand in thing on google classroom for part 2 is opinion paragraph so do i not have to do that yet?? there is also an outline document attached to that but it is inexplicably blank so i have no clue..

#i cant email and ask my teacher cause its 8:35 at night why would he respond.. #like its not that hard to write a paragraph but im already behind on the briefing so like. i don’t wanna #dont want to hand it in unfinished tho… #ugh i think i just wont do it lol

[ariadnesweb]

My Deltarune Pet Peeve is criticizing Toriel for being an emotiobally absent mother, making a speech about how all of Toriel's flaws are major problems in Kris's life, ignoring she's a single working mom with a full-time job in which she can't afford to snap at anyone because she's the authority figure in the room, because she's the emotional pillar for a lot of people, and then say nothing about how Asgore 'forgets his kids physical boundaries' 'unemployed to the point he's facing eviction' 'maintains a facade of strength when he's a deppressed mess' Dreemurr might've affected Kris's ability to care for themselves. Or even regarding Asriel, who had the time to look after Kris, and a better place to ask them what's affecting them, and a tracked history of maintaining distance from Kris while his friends bully them, but who doesn't get entire paragraphs described to how he might've created Kris's dependent state.

It takes more than one parent to raised a child y'know???

(This isn't a post to shit on Asriel OR Asgore. For all their failings, they're flawed but kind people who want to help people. Asriel himself was young when his parents divorced, and presumably couldn't rely on anyone for his own problems. Asgore... was a cop, which IS a moral failing, but he also doesn't deserve shit for being at the butt end of society, unemployed, alone, being C. Holiday's financial chew toy, and without the ability to ask for help without being a huge burden for somebody else. But if you are capable of understanding that, then you are also capable of understanding Toriel has not had the freedom to suddenly intervene in her child's life without fear of 'being an over-controlling parent', and making Kris's situation worse.)

Toriel IS aware Kris has problems, that's why she pushes them to go outside and connect to people! It's why she gets so happy Susie's there! It's why she asks Alphys how they're doing!

Toriel is also probably aware that Kris is more than a bit sensitive, that they like their privacy, that pushing them too hard will make them deppressed and keep on having self-esteem issues! It's why she's so hesitant to actually intervene!

All things considered, Toriel is a good mother, of course people like her, and more definitely, Kris likes her.

#deltarune #deltarune meta #meta #toriel #kris #(This isn't a post to ignore how Toriel's emotional aloofness compounds Kris's existing communication problems. #She cuts off outside interference and has a tendency to snap emotionally at random times.) #But by GOD do I hate how unsympathetic the conversation surrounding Toriel is. #And I hate how it only centers Toriel as the central figure in Kris's life. #And completely ignores how the rest of the town is privy to Kris's family drama. #There's more than a bit of personal projection here #But God I KNOW no one talks about parental issues without their own bit of personal projection #Only tangentially related but Toriel is to Kris what Rudy is to Noelle #And until I see 3 paragraph dissertations on how Rudy's parenting techniques fucked Noelle up #I don't want another essay on how Toriel has messed up as a mother #(He's a good father he doesn't deserve the scrutiny) #The nitpicking! Is not a hot take! Especially in recent times! It's very mysoginistic actually! #ugh #fandom discourse #my shame #but I felt this was enough of a trend in the fandom that I wanted to do my own post about Toriel and Kris #Soilai's Labyrinth #this isn't very polished but I don't think it'd be as effective if it was #Politely message me if you disagree #i might answer one day

[captainsparklefingers]

I've discovered the flaw in the writing tactic of 'skipping over the part you're stuck at and just come back to it later'. Eventually, you have to go back to that part.

And if you're still stuck, there's nowhere else to skip to. You can't edit your way out of this or just add more to other paragraphs, you have to, you know. Write the bit you're stuck on.

(send help I've been stuck here for weeks)

#writing woes #I've been trying to finish this stupid Kingsley fanfic for ages and there's ONE PART #ONE STUPID IMPORTANT PART #that I'm stuck on #(and I've bothered my beta/best friend for help a few times but she's busy with real world stuff) #(and I don't want to keep bothering her because the real world stuff is important and comes first) #but I'm just staring at the google dog and the paragraph of freeform notes I wrote trying to figure shit out #and I'm just... ugh. fucking ugh.

[untilthcyrot]

things you said prompts | 12. things you said when you thought i was asleep asked by @freakarus

Sleep was supposed to be a sacred time for people; a way for the mind to recharge, for the body to relax, and for dreams to whisk you away from the woes of reality and transform you somewhere else. For Winnie, for as long as she could remember, sleep was a time when she could chance sleepwalking and the prospect was just as equally terrifying as the last. She could remember when she was a little girl, her mother would securely tuck her into bed and she would feel so warm and safe underneath that blanket. If she thought hard about it, she could still remember the way it smelled washed in that fabric softener her mother always bought. Once tucked in, her mother would place a kiss on the crown of her golden head and whisper "good night" before disappearing from the room completely. Moonlight slipped through the curtains onto her face. Instead of counting sheep, she counted the twinkles in the night sky as she was lulled to sleep.

But no dreams ever came during those nights. There was only darkness, this void that felt like a daze that she was lost in until slowly she was being pulled out of. It would take a few moments to comprehend but she'd realize that she wasn't in her bed anymore. Sleep blinked out of her eyes and she would find that she was standing in her backyard . . . or the driveway . . . or on those rare and terrifying occasions, somewhere in the woods behind her house. No memory of how she got there, crawling back into her bed shivering and scared. When her mother found out, she tried to get her help, but how do you explain a perfectly normal little girl sleepwalking? You look at her schizophrenic mother and make assumptions apparently.

The Gilded Hand knew why. It took a madman taking her as a child, taking all of the special children like her, and locking them away in an abandoned factory, to tell her that she had a unique ability that went beyond the human scope. Winnie had that ability to connect with the dead who had trouble crossing over. She was a beacon of light to the spirits who were lost and confused. They would be attracted to her like a moth to a flame, trying to reach out to her, to her light, and use it as a means of finally crossing over. The trouble was, that a little girl didn't always realize that her imaginary friends were ghosts, and she didn't know how to help them. And her mother? Well, maybe she worried that these friends she saw were all part of a sickness that she passed down to her, so she was hardly any help to her daughter.

Sometimes the spirits took it too far though, but was it something that they could really help either? After spending time walking the earth alone and unseen by the living, finding someone like Winnie was overwhelming for them and they found themselves desperate. They found that they couldn't just talk to her but possess her for a short amount of time. They felt the warmth of life again in her body - what it felt like to breathe air into their lungs, the warmth of a summer night, the taste of food again. They tried not to let any harm come to her, especially when she was a child, but the stress of being possessed would cause her body to reject the souls and she would end up sleepwalking wherever she was left alone again.

As she grew older, she was able to take back some control again. There were no more imaginary friends but spirits who needed her help and she tried to do just that before it affected her sleeping habits, but it couldn't always be stopped. The world was full of lost souls, unfortunately. Winnie had been terrified that Eddie would find her in the compromising position of wandering outside in a sleeping daze until he finally had. Maybe it scared him too, but...instead of rejecting her...he was there for her. That meant more to him than he would ever know. For a girl who never felt completely safe when she was laying in her bed trying to sleep, just him accepting that part of her made her feel that much better about her ability, about her whole self in general.

Tonight, as it felt like she was having one of those dreamless nights again, her eyes flung open in a panic. She was met with darkness that made her heart race, only imagining in those first few seconds where she could have ended up tonight if Eddie hadn't stopped her from leaving first if he had even been awake to notice. Relief was quick to sink in when she realized her blues were staring up at the ceiling and she turned her head to find Eddie sound asleep next to her. She hadn't realized her hand had clenched the drawstring to her hoodie, quickly releasing her grip as tension died down from the realization that her dreamless sleep was just that . . . a dreamless sleep, nothing more, nothing less.

Winnie turned over on her side, body shifting closer to Eddie so that she could feel the warmth of his body against her own. Something about that feeling . . . it made her feel safe and secure, just like when her mother tucked her underneath that blanket smelling of sweet fabric softener and kissing her on the head. Safe. She leaned her head against his shoulder, shutting her eyes before the tears could escape them.

❝ You're my armor, ❞ she whispered so quietly that she wouldn't have even thought she said them if she knew she hadn't. ❝ You make me feel safe when I shut my eyes and I'm scared about what's going to happen when I fall asleep. I know nothing will happen anymore because of you. ❞

#freakarus #♡ ───── WINNIE HADLEY ( MEME REPLIES ) #[A FEW THINGS] #[number one. i literally started tearing up while i was writing this.] #[specifically the last few paragraphs and comparing him to making her feel safe the way her mother used to do] #[number two. i went with the idea that he did catch her sleepwalking from that open starter i wrote] #[since you did mention wanting to reply to it which no rush ofc! i'm excited for the angst!] #[number three. i decided to write this after midnight thinking 'hmm let's see if i have the inspo to write i'm kind of tired'] #[MEANWHILE I WROTE A WHOLE NOVEL FOR YOU] #[but i hope you like it and ugh i have so many feelings please scream at me on discord when you read this <3333]

[wellthatschaotic]

hey guys is it racist to *checks notes* want people to use your it/its pronouns

#why did i make that post. i am so tired #someone wrote like several paragraphs heavily implying the above and i don't want to rb it directly bc i dont want to start any more shit #but im so fucking tempted to rb that addition with this bc like #like yes i fully understand that poc are also dehumanized by it/its pronouns but like #i'm not calling them by these pronouns?? they're mine?? #like if my pronouns are bothering You that is a You problem #and no it is not okay to be uncomfortable about using my own pronouns to refer to me?? like what the fuck #ugh im just. im so. ugh

[vixendoesstuff]

Got to get this out somehow.

So, I have this idea for a Honkai Star Rail OC. Don't have alot for the majority of his backstory at the moment, but I have some of his gimmicks.

Basically his role is both to oppose the protagonist and help the protagonist, depending on what and where the story is currently taking place. Kinda like the Stellaron Hunters (Kafka specifically) except he (I decided on a 'he' after some consideration) do it in a more broader scale, and it's less to personally aid or endanger the Trailblazer and more make the situation convenient for himself; it just so happens that the Express Crew is conviniently there. So a neutral party, of sorts, except his alignment changes everytime you see him.

But as the story progresses you start to see him more in a bad limelight, since it's then revealed that he's affiliated with the Stellaron Hunters; with Elio more specifically. His role overall doesn't change, but you start to expect the worst due to his allegiance with Destiny's Slave. He never does anything bad to you, it's just better to be suspicious of him to be safe.

He wouldn't call himself a loyal follower of Elio, however. More like... a close acquantaince? That agrees with most of Elio's philosophy, but not every aspect to it? Like, there's just a little bit of stuff about Elio's whole thing that he can't help but disagree with (I don't know what though, I'd have to keep brainstorming). He'll follow his orders, but not without changing some aspects to it to suit his needs more. That kind of thing.

That's all I have about his whole sthick and his role im the story. Other aspects about him that I got is:

His current Path that I've chosen for him is Erudition, and his element is Imaginary. If he were a playable character, he'd be a 5 star, because of course he would.

His entire character gimmick (that I'm implementing on him at the moment, in case I change my mind in the future) is about Zodiacs, tying his whole thing with Elio about futures and destinies and stuff. With that, I decide to add that onto his attacks.

For his Basic Attack, it's just a normal single basic attack from his gun-suitcase (because imagine; a suitcase with a hidden mechanism that allows it to transform into a gun).

For his 3-blast radius Skill, I imagine it funtioning similiar to IL : Dan Heng's attacks, consuming skill points for a larger and stronger attack. This is where his Zodiac motifs come in. I had this idea that, like, consuming one SP would make the Zodiacs from the month of January-April appear, consuming two would make the Zodiacs from May-August appear, and consuming three SP would make the Zodiacs from September-December appear, each having different animations to showcase this. I don't know if I wanna add additional buffs to these other than an increase in ATK with each SP consumed, like the second skill would make the OC faster, or the third clears debuff, stuff like that. Or is that too OP? I don't know.

For his Ultimate, it would the the standard Erudition AoE attack, with his animation having all of the 12 zodiacs attacking at once by firing some- laser beam or something (I'm still workin' on it). Maybe it also gives you a bonus on only spending one SP for one turn, also like IL : Dan Heng. Or is that too redundant?

That's his game mechanics. As for his appearance... it's still a work in progress. I got a Pinterest board goin' for design inspiration, but it's slow going. I do know that I want him to wear a fancy fantasy business suit of some kind, the one that gives off the vibe of him being a classy and sort of aristrocratic type of person. The person that looks at you like he's the top dog and you're the bottom feeder. I'm still debating on whether to give him short hair or long hair, different coloured eyes or the same coloured eyes (I'm leaning towards the former in both cases, but I don't know).

Ok, rant end; why am I saying all of this and ultimately wasted your time reading through the entire thing? 'Caaaussseee... I need help developing him more. Most of my mutuals are either in different fandoms, or just not into character creation as much as I am. So if anyone's willing to lend a hand, that'll be really appreciated!

#so sorry for the paragraphs lol #i just dont know how else i could say it #i got so many ideas #but so little ideas at the same time #how should i put it #i wamt this idea but i also want this idea thats opposing the first idea #ugh its frustrating lol #oh god of character creation of the hsr fandom #lend me ur strength #honkai star rail #hsr #honkai star rail oc

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

On the pleasant shore of the French Riviera, about half way between Marseilles and the Italian border, stands a large, proud, rose-colored hotel. Deferential palms cool its flushed facade, and before it stretches a short dazzling beach. Lately it has become a summer resort of notable and fashionable people; a decade ago it was almost deserted after its English clientele went north in April. Now, many bungalows cluster near it, but when this story begins only the cupolas of a dozen old villas rotted like water lilies among the massed pines between Gausse's Hotel des Etrangers and Cannes, five miles away.

The hotel and its bright tan prayer rug of a beach were one. In the early morning the distant image of Cannes, the pink and cream of old fortifications, the purple Alp that bounded Italy, were cast across the water and lay quavering in the ripples and rings sent up by sea-plants through the clear shallows. Before eight a man came down to the beach in a blue bathrobe and with much preliminary application to his person of the chilly water, and much grunting and loud breathing, floundered a minute in the sea. When he had gone, beach and bay were quiet for an hour. Merchantmen crawled westward on the horizon; bus boys shouted in the hotel court; the dew dried upon the pines. In another hour the horns of motors began to blow down from the winding road along the low range of the Maures, which separates the littoral from the true Provencal France.

f. scott fitzgerald, tender is the night

#finished sandman so needed another bedtime reread #(i can't read new books for bedtime stories bc the chance is too high i will get curious and want to keep reading) #and we're back here again... #possibly my favorite opening paragraphs to a novel ever. certainly very near the top of the list at least #'deferential palms cool its flushed facade' is a phrase that lives in my head rent-free and has for over a decade now #it's so lovely and visually evocative and also like #an incredible bit of like. thematic scene-setting #and then: #the villas rotting like water lilies #the bright tan prayer rug of the beach #that entire second paragraph second sentence about the reflections in the water #the ungraceful comedic interlude of our early morning swimmer #the merchantmen and the bus boys and the dew #ugh. fucking scott.... #tender is the night

[snapbackslide]

huge achievement for my favourite player tonight.

i have been looking forward to this one. 1,000 games and 5 teams later, i still feel the same about you. so so proud and always on your side, i love you forever matt 💜❤️💙💛💚

#the hearts are supposed to represent the teams i guess lol #i didn't even realize it was tonight ://// i forgot to check & count down #almost burst into tears upon finding out that information #bc i reached out to someone who's been hurting me the last few months for some closure so i'm highly emotional today #and was worried about a friend who was halfway across the globe & haven't heard from her in weeks #anyway this isn't about me or my problems it's about MATT #( well. also me. bc ofc =) i have been by his side forever. ) #i really hope the stars have something beautiful planned for him #bc truth be told i didn't expect him to reach that milestone anywhere but in nashville... #so it's still a little disorienting when i think about it all but i'm okay with it now #& i will always hope he can be a hab some day too bc it really would close the circle and i wanna tell him one day how much i love him #ugh anyway #i don't wanna get too sentimental i've written a ton of paragraphs about him in the last.. 6 years i guess #i want nothing more than a stanley cup for him that's the only thing left #i love you i love you i love you #matt duchene #*p

[incandescent-creativity]

How is 15 pages a “general” guide to what you want essays to be. what the fuck.

#you title this file 'general criteria' and then go on to tell us what we can't do for FIFTEEN FUCKING PAGES #we've had one (1) class session and you want us to start writing an essay already #(technically two but the second one was a weird semi lecture so i don't count it) #anyway. ugh. #You Must Be Logical You Must Be Coherent You Must Be Organized #sir if i wanted a tightass looking for a right or wrong answer i wouldve been a STEM major #'don't use statement of facts in your close reading essay' besqueeze me #what the hell am i supposed to. you want every topic sentence and paragraph to be about my interpretation? #what am i basing my interpretation on if not facts? #college life