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YE 2023 Countdown: Deontic Logic and The Fallacies of Love
When nature and nurture alter your utilitarian and hedonistic selves, what's left of you?
My social muscles are shaking and so am I. Still in awe of how December 2023 is panning out. I remember my Cubao X visit ages ago when I got The Beatles vinyl in excellent condition. Of course, haggle to the max and the store owner actually said yes. That December was gloomy in spite being my innate love for rainy days and nights. It's also my first physical attempt to get something that reminds me of mother dragon's sound in 4D.
I am decluttering the past weeks bit by bit, but I am still holding back. I stumbled upon handwritten notes from my deontic logic and philosophy classes. I think I've downed 15 or more units because all my subjects in UN-Kalaw didn't hold up in Taft Likod. Not complaining because these sessions are not boring to some extent. Actually, the subjects I enjoyed apart from these are: law, psych, socio, anthropology, econ, chem, art app, film, Rizal, comm arts and immersion classes via NSTP. Quite weird because most of these subjects are not directly related to my major and my graduate school, too. To be clear, my grades in general are not top tier since I max out my allowable cuts and I really don't mind the grades that much as long as my GWA falls under the grant program ng Taft Likod.
Sabi ng nanay ko 'wag daw akong papasilo sa Arts/Humanities kasi pang-alta raw 'yun. Saka 'pag 'yun daw course ko, pakawala na ako tapos 'di naman ako agad-agad makakapag-abroad for immersion, case studies, thesis and the works so hilaw din ang labas ko. Sabi ko naman, rich ang historicity ng Pinas kahit sa Manila lang. Tigilan ko raw kasi wala raw siyang pake. HAHAHAHA. Kahit alam niyang pasok ako sa UA&P nung 'di na ubra 'yung UPDi plea ko, magiging kawawa lang ako pati doon. Saka again, mapapariwara lang daw ako lalo since most likely babarkada ako sa mga legit bad influence. Lagi na lang. LOL. Sabi niya perfect storm sa akin 'yung marketing kasi fit sa personality ko saka sure daw I'd go places kahit saan pa 'yun. Delulu talaga ng nanay kong magaling. Doon daw ako sa institution advocating social responsibility and feminism i-cloister, with matching tawang malala. UGH. Since, siya mismo nag-hard stop sa akin sa nursing, tawang-tawa ako kasi mas alam niya pa 'yung gusto ko sa akin, nag-second try pa siya e. Ako naman e OK lang kahit ano kahit syempre, suwail ako. Ganun talaga. Lambing namin ang malalang debates kahit anong oras. LOL. Ang love language namin: Sinong unang susuko at magta-tap out. LOL.
I won't deep dive on the theories of deontic logic and The Fallacies of Love since I'm super clunky na on those. Kwento ko na lang 'yung experience ko about these two dog show sessions.
Deontic logic is an attempt of MaDocs to up the ante of their students. This means guinea pigs kami since trial run lang talaga siya. Syempre, ayoko kasi mas comfortable ako sa logic na as is, where is. Para siyang naging algebra sa paningin ko na unnecessary. Hahahahahaha. When you mix numbers with letters and symbols, mhie, tigilan mo na ako kasi para lang siyang sobrang lalang attempt to be cerebral masyado. Gets ko naman 'yung attempt to sharpen your critical thinking. Sabi nung prof, 'di siya magiging madali pero if the bell curve would be decent, this subject will be officially part of the curriculum. LOL. Ending: balik sila sa basic logic class after nung sem namin. I think 'di naman ako bagsak dito pero shemay. Para akong mamatay every time I am in this class kasi nga, grade-conscious pa ako sa MaDocs ng medyo malala.
'Yung Fallacies of Love, I think logic class ko na 'to. Chauvinist male prof 'to kaya G na G na G na G ako. Natatawa ako na parang 1/2 or 1/3 ng class e puro about his paganaps e 'di naman maganda LS niya. HAHAHAHHA. Saka 'di siya profound, feeling profound lang. Apaka yabang na puro hangin na signal number 4 ang vibe. 'Di rin siya visually appealing at all. Tapos, tawang-tawa ako nung pumasok siya sa class na na-hold up daw siya pati shoes niya ni-hold up. Gusto ko na lang mag-walk out kasi, bakit pa magsasayang ng oras sa monologues niya na wala namang kinalaman sa logic class. Napaka ill and illogical niyang tao. Hahahahahaha. Pero, nung fallacies of love na, kahit cringe 'yung explanations niya, I think active ako sa recits dito. Baril at karne szn mode to be exact. Siguro, dito ako unang nag-step up sa pagtatanong to the point na red-faced na siya kasi medyo sumisibat mga tanong and follow through ko. Sabi nung soul sis kong "logic girl" ang nickname sa class, medyo hinayan ko lang kasi choked na 'yung prof namin. Sabi ko, kahit ibagsak niya pa grades ko, wala akong pake. HAHAHAHAHAHA. After all, nagtatanong lang naman ako e, so sagutin niya kung kaya niya. I think decent din grade ko sa kanya. 'Di ako sure if DL ako sa sem with him or baka 'di na kasi nga, I quickly realized na 'di grades ang batayan ng college life.
'Di ako streetsmart noon. Kasi nanay kong magaling, laging kasama sa lahat: enrollment, entrance exam, interview, fitting ng uniform, pick up ng uniform, merienda, lunch, first day, random day, hindi random day. Sabi ko nga, bakit ba kahit super busy siya, may time pa talaga siyang mag-hang out sa Manila. Sabi naman niya, naninigurado lang siyang nasa klase ako dahil alam niyang tumatakas din ako with inom, landian at iba pa. HAHAHAHAHA. Sabi ko naman, part of life 'yun and alam ko namang alagaan sarili ko. Alam din daw naman niya kaso, bahala na lang daw ako sa buhay ko kasi andyan lang siya sa tabi-tabi lagi.
Nung sick si mom, ayan na. My first tabula rasa came marching in. LOL. Natuto akong i-apply ang mga fundamentals and derivatives ng lessons ko inside and outside my classes. Paano mag-commute. Paano mag-commute na hindi hulas masyado. Paano gumising ng maaga kahit maaga rin ako nakakatulog. Paano maging kalmado kahit 'di talaga ako kalmado. Paano maging "decent" performer kahit 'yung nanay ko bed-ridden na naman. Paano mag-show up kahit ayoko talaga ng A-line skirt white white button down top na naka-high heels and pearl earrings. UGH. Paano maging focused kahit alam ko namang walang bearing masyado ang college life sa real life ko as a caregiver ng nanay ko. Paano mag-fake it 'til you make it kahit alam ko namang mas maganda magiging career path ng mga alta classmates ko. Paano maging unbothered kahit sobrang lala ng anxiety ko dahil KPI ko ma-beat 10-year life expectancy ng nanay kong case study ng GBS. Paano mapagkasya meager baon ko kahit sobrang dami kong org-related activities para naman mas may laban folio kong alam kong ugh na agad kasi nag-shift ako from nursing to business course. :D Actually, 'yun pa lang demerit na blatant na sa paningin at kaibuturan ko noon.
Looking back, let me stand corrected. Sorry na ulit. Sorry na.
UN-Kalaw x Leon Guinto x Diliman is my path, through it all. I won't have it any other way because at this age, I may not have the cookie cutter definition of achievements or success; however, my life is rich with crazy adventures and misadventures. Since I'm breaking my favorite poison --ego over heartbreak, eto na tayo sa pag-face ng utilitarian and hedonistic selves within the self ko. :p I'm no longer apologetic about my version of demerits and detentions. I'm no longer apologetic about therapy sessions that started in Prep without me knowing. I'm no longer holding back in as far as this thought fart spot is going. Medyo TMI na TMI na tayo pero not super pa.
I'm slowly growing into an ultra femme pero barda pa rin body, a mind, a hypothalamus na mala-Shirakawago canal kasi ganun talaga ako. The voices in my head are still in chaos, however, I name them now. I talk to them. I negotiate with each voice na. While adrenaline, addiction and anhedonia are not joking, naming and embracing them allow me to address them kahit sobrang layo pa, may LAYO na tayong natatahak, unti-unti.
Sabi nga, you receive the love and hate you think and feel you deserve. I am still working on my most pressing and grandiose battle with "iiwan din naman ako kahit anong gawin ko" in line with not grieving for mother dragon since 2011. However, andito na ako sa point na OK OK OK, let's try giving it a good try no matter how badly I'll be, for sure. Naka-angkla na lang muna ako sa "moral obligation" kasi mas madali ko siyang ma-gets at hindi ma-negate agad-agad kasi nga I'm a walking "fallacies of love" like the rest of the universe. By this I mean well ha. 'Di na super graphically horrific. 'Yung 'di na super utopian pero syempre, may indulgence pa rin. Sarap maging feeling deep e. Sarap makipag-debate kahit wala namang dapat kagalitan. Sarap mang-asar at maging asar-talo ng todo.
But this time around, let me allow myself to feel more, breathe deeper, and live more intentionally in this realm for now. Unti-unti. I sincerely hope that this dalisay era attempt will make me curate stories that are worthwhile and worth sharing, too. May I choose peace even when I'm thriving in chaos. May I choose to embrace vulnerability instead of masking it with my RBF vibe. May I choose to say yes because my default is NO, NO, NO. Hahahahaha. May I care a bit more even when I really don't care about a lot of things except those that matter most to me --connections I can call home. May I allow myself to grow into a body that thinks, feels and does things for the greater good, unti-unti, tuloy-tuloy lang. May I fight a good fight with grace and grit; and while at it, may I allow purple people to break my silos, my CTRL + ALT + DEL fortress. UGH. NKKLK. And so, ora et labora. :)
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Dahil we love Venn Diagram, lapag ko na rin 'to as follow through. Mala-gospel na daig ang El Dopa and Bossing Mo e. Ang tinde ng tagos. Indulge! Intentional Paradoxical Adult Love, pasok! LUH.
"We repeat the stories we don't understand." LAGOT.
"...a lot of the stuff that are crazy now, once made a lot of sense..." WALANG SALAG. BLAGAG.
"Sometimes, you need these little levers to shine a light...it's like a petri dish..." OPAK. WALANG PALAG.
"How are you mad?" HAHAHAHAHAHA. OK. OK. OK.
"Everybody has a folly inside them... so, total sanity is not a possibility of any human being..." HOHOHOHOHOHO. As a baliw girly, this is more than liquid gold. <3
"...for ancient Greeks, Plato saw love as a classroom in which two people in the spirit of kindness and generosity... endeavor to help each other to become the best version of themselves..." MY MATIC FAVE NA AGAD because the Greeks are euphoric and tragic.
Huy, aga-aga na naman!
Good day from non-Manila spot, universe!
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(241-255 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17] [18])
names and thoughts below cut
241/ Wavfire - One Day (2023)
this music glistens!
it's super soft but has a sharp transient texture sprinkled in
i love love the contrast between the intimate piano and the electric bursts.
the breakdown in "With You At Dusk" could've been BT. beautiful.
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242/ SDEM - Vortices (2023)
god i love these textures.
ive been obsessing over ae's 2016 soundscapes and this carries that vibe.
doubly in love when the tune has a hip hop tempo to it.
foh "bladelores" im into "NSEM Rev" now
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243/ SPACELECTRO - For you (2023)
i was worried this would be too "UKHC" for me but it deviates from that timbre just enough for me to have a good time by the end!
fun color bass in the title track + some fun lower tempo stuff ie "Cassis"
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244/ Datsik - Darkstar (2016)
this is, for the most part, "just ok", to my taste.
the title track is kinda nice. if very… hmm… stereotype club wub.
mostly it's "No Mind" that hits right for me. i dig those flangy flavors.
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245/ VA - The Umbra (2023)
a nice variety of hits and misses for me. overall quite good!
standouts: "Mandragora" ah, the rare dnb song i like.
"Emerald Green" !! MAN. i love this sort of sound. feels like glass. beautiful.
"solarblade" holy shit 100% my fav. all around standout
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246/ litmus* - ルミちゃんかわいい (2023)
mixed feelings on this one. lots of "eh" trax. but
i really enjoy the sound design. and it's fun!
personal fav is "Despair" i think. funky harmony feeling.
still fun overall
also: final track is actually super funny and i love it for that
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247/ VA - CYBERNETiX Vol.1 (2023)
"Deity Mode" holy shit this is heavy with INTENT. kick ass.
1000% the highlight. i ADORE it
the rest of the tunes range from nice to banger as well.
"Farewell To Reality(From Atoms to Code)" is surprisingly sexy. sounds legit like demoscene work
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248/ VA - IRREGULAR NATION 9 (2023)
true to the title, this is a mixed bag of flavors. two standouts imo:
"ダラク・デ・ナイト" is a delightful low tempo high synth groove that hits good.
"Ideology" is just all around cool and prolly my fav. sound design. vibes. a delight.
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249/ Rickyxsan - Them Vibes EP (2016)
3 tracks is kinda skirting the line of inclusion for my list but Every Single Track here bangs hard.
absolutely beautiful obnoxious screeching.
"Trippy" lives up to its name (well… dizzy?) and is my fav. esp the sub-less wobs 2m in. love
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250/ VA - PARA OUT 3 (2023)
mostly (but not entirely) dnb. not my flavor.
However!!!!
"Junction Cave"!
god that's a cool texture. like a pure percussion performance in a metal can.
how did something this wild get into a dnb comp?
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251/ VA - PSYALUME (2023)
more psy than color. still a neat exploration.
i love the chordscape in "bass of a lifetime". mixed strangely with the bass. truly the best of color and psy!
"Antimatter" stands out too but it's its own clubby thing.
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252/ VA - Virtual Odyssey: Emotion 3 (2023)
bright and clubby music.
not bad but i dont feel too strongly about it overall.
the vocals in "Deep Down" are kinda funny. im into it lol
i also appreciate the absolutely ham filtering in "Identical"
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253/ muyu - Dream of _ (2023)
"Hello My Friend" som quote????
man this is pure bubblegum good vibe energy. lovely
it's not representative but I'd like to highlight "Lucid Dream" for the way it treats its piano. wow and flutter, growing beyond limitations
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254/ VA - Spirit Chords 3 (2023)
good clubby fun with a few standouts:
primarily "FLARE", which BANGS.
"Capricorn" also!!
actually, same for "Emergency Call", the track in the middle. that's just a REALLY good 3-track run in there.
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255/ Cryptovolans - Passenger (2022)
special selection for #0xFF :)
id describe this as "a really cool 90s rompler sound" but it is, somehow just midi. the vastness of the SC astounds me.
"Board Room" and "Birdhouse" appeal to me in particular. Bass. twisted into a proggy sponge
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CVAP WEEK 4 BLOG
Olryt mga ka-boses. This is it! The grand finale of the CVAP training.
Brace yourselves because this is going to be an epic blog to wrap things up!!
Joke lang.
Chill blog lang to mga voicemates dahil as I am always saying, hindi naman tlaga ako ganun ka writer. I'm more of a lover. haha joke lang ulit.
Cge game kwento ko na. So week 4 tayo, nagsimula ang training kay Trainer Lyn. To cut the long description short, Trainer Lyn was like our caring mother na binigyan kame ng sandamak-mak na realtalk! As in wala sugarcoating nya kmeng minulat sa katotohan ng buhay ng pagiging voiceover. Talang kay Trainer Lyn ako namulat na its going to be a jungle out there sa mundo ng voice acting at talagang pinoint-out nya na its gonna be really hard. Pero sympre, if you are really determined ehh you'll be allright. Ineducate nya rin kame sa mga different types of voice actors atbp. Basta more on realtalk tlaga siya pero at the same time mas naging inspired ako na magpatuloy pa dahil sa kanya.
Then after lunch, nagbigay naman ng feedback and mahuhusay na trainers namen sa mga sample works ng ilan sameng mga nag training.
Swerte tayo dahil nasali ung isa sa gawa ko para I critique ng mga trainers. Ang saya! kasi mostly good feedback naman kaso isa sa mga need pang iimprove is yung gigil ko daw while recording. Halata daw na tense ang aking jaw while recording at mas magiging ok daw ung result kung irerelax ko ng konti ang aking jaw. Natuwa ako kasi malaking tulong saken ung mga feedback nila para mas maimprove pa ung aking mga magiging recordings in the future :)
At eto na ang pinaka matinde! yes pinakamatinde to! dahil yung pinakamatindeng tao ng CVAP ay biglang lumitaw sa aming training! sino pa ba? sympre, the voicemaster himself, si sir Choi! Si idol lodicakes iiidolo Pocholo De Leon Gonzales ay biglang lumitaw sa aming training!
Sobrang saya kasi naalala nya pa ko! Di ko pa pala na kwento pero sumali kasi ako sa dating workshop nya, ung Voiceworkx, kaso its been aroung 10 years ago na so hindi ko tlaga inexpect na maaalala nya pa ko, but he did, so ang saya lang tlaga!
Anyway, cge kwento ko na. So bale si sir Choi(Pocholo) nag bigay samen ng mga inspiring words and mga stories na tlaga naman nagpaantig sa aking puso at talaga kulang na lang magiyakan kme kasi ang lakas maka "retreat" ng mga lecture ni sir Choi. Pero Positive na retreat ha? yung tipong habang nakikinig ka sa kanya ehh mapapa self reflect ka na "Oo nga noh" "Tama" "Dapat maging ganun ako" mga ganyan ba. Tipong habang nagsasalita sya ehh maiinspire ka to be a better person and to do good as much as you possibly can.
Basta ayun, haba haba na nito. At dito na nagtatapos ang king CVAP Blog. Well tapos na ang training so hindi na ko required gumawa ng blogs.
But who knows, baka simula pa lang to ng naparami ko pang mga kwento sa inyo.
Kung umabot ka hanggang dulo, maraming maraming salamat :) Follow mo na din mga iba ko pang socmed. Neil "MartyVoice" Cruz ayan ang FB. tapos may YT din "MartyVoice" may Tiktok din "Mr MartyVoice" pag nag follow ka sa tiktok kakaldagan tlaga kita! HAHA
So ayun lang, maraming salamat sayo kaboses, voicemate at mga tols! basta salamat tlaga at magiingat ka sa araw2!
labyu mga tols :)
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Hostility
Closed starter with - @factoryheisenberg
Blood was dripping in thick strands down her finger tips onto the fresh white snow, an obvious enough trail leading to her hiding place in the thick brush of the woods. She was being careless, she knew it, but at this moment she didn't really care. Her vision was starting to become blurry and all of her supplies from Umbrella were back in her Harley. "Fucking rookie move," Barabelle whispered as her eyes shifted over the snow covered ground. To be fair, she hadn't expected her camp to be infiltrated by God damn werewolves and crows. If she got out of this... No, when she got out of this, she was going to fucking kill Chris Redfield.
Where were those stupid herbs when you really needed one? Shit seemed to grow like weeds in this place except for where she was, apparently. It was becoming increasingly obvious that her hiding spot sucked, though, especially as the snow began to grow more and more red around her as if it were trying to match the sweat damp hair on her head. She had to move... and witch gritted teeth she did.
The sound of feet moving around her was obvious, she knew she wasn't alone, but she couldn't act. There were only three bullets left in her gun and her options were running thin. Her only chance of holding out was the smoke stacked foundry on the other side of the hill. The weight of her blood soaked leather jacket was holding her back from running full speed and, with a small sting of sadness, she tore it off and left it to fall with a wet 'splat' on the ground. The wound on her forearm was visible now and it was ghastly. It needed tending to as soon as possible, but first she had to make it to the factory.
"Catch me if you can, mutts." Belle huffed out, her Irish accent thick with exhaustion. Throwing her arm up over her chest, she steeled herself, and then ran. It was like a switch flipped around her as she ran as men, wolves, started to dart after her, jumping in front and next to her in a group hunt. She elbowed the one to her right with her good elbow as hard as she could and dashed past the rest. Moments before reaching the gate she had to use another two bullets, square between a lycans eyes, and then she was through....and then they were gone. A moment of suspicion passed over her before she caught sight of an herb and relief filled her system. Without much forethought, she grabbed the green plant and slid silently into the factory.
Barabelle slumped against a mountain of scrap and began to finally take stock of her wound. The oozing red liquid continued to pour and the small tap tap tap of blood trickling onto the metal floor was all she could hear aside from the distant whirring of the factories machines. "I'm going to murder so many people for this."
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001- Fandom ofc Violetta,lol
002- Dieleon
003-Federico
let's go hell yeah!! thank you <33 this was long as hell so putting it under the cut but!! that was so fun
001 | violetta
Favorite character:
leon (everyone pretends to be surprised)
Least Favorite character:
tomas (everyone pretends to be surprised)
5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):
leonetta, marciego, jadangie (so far everyone pretends to be surprised), fedemila and the last one is actually giving me a lot of trouble because i'm not sure if i could choose between dieleon and natila? girl if i'm being honest i think i have to go with dieleon like i'm more invested in them you know, but natila pulls at a very specific part of my heart that makes me go....agwah...
Character I find most attractive:
jade hit me up babe
Character I would marry:
jade hit me up babe (now tbh if most of these characters proposed to me i would say yes but jade would probably be the only one i'd propose to myself)
Character I would be best friends with:
this one is surprisingly hard to come up with, i'd say naty and diego but i hope you know that if they were my besties i WOULD 100% fall for them both and it'd be ridiculous
A random thought:
the fact that diego, leon and ludmila never hung out just the three of them is biphobic actually
An unpopular opinion:
i talked about it recently so might as well say it here too, leonetta's amigos para siempre era had cute moments but it was unnecessary and went on for way too long, like at best they should have gotten back together in 03x60, at worst they shouldn't have done it for more than 4 episodes, the writers were just cowards and couldn't handle leonetta being happy for more than one episode
My Canon OTP:
leonetta my beloved (everyone pretends to be surprised)
My Non-canon OTP:
marciego my beloved (everyone pretends to be surprised)
Most Badass Character:
why is it that most of our characters are losers 😭😭 i genuinely cannot answer?? like ??? ? that's literally the state of my brain right now. i was tempted to give it to diego as a thank you for being our best antagonist but no that's not a badass that's just a bi clown, naty has her moments but idk i don't feel like it's enough to call her that, like i have genuinely no idea here
Most Epic Villain:
diego knew how to do it <3
Pairing I am not a fan of:
since it's "not a fan of" and not "pairing i absolutely despise with my whole heart" i'm going for a mild broduey/camila here
Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):
honestly i feel like we got pretty lucky overall in violetta in that regard, but yeah we don't talk about s3 vilu and while i will always love him no matter what, every day i mourn s1 leon
Favourite Friendship:
federico and vilu my babies!!! love them!!
Character I most identify with:
ok so i don't relate relate to that many characters, but like objectively i'd say probably naty and vilu, but on a spiritual level i feel very close to leon because i, too, wish i were somewhere else 95% of the time and Cannot Hide It
Character I wish I could be:
ok if we're talking "who would i take the place of in the show" i'd tell you fran, now if it's who i wish i could have the same personality as i would DIE to have leon's bitchiness and confidence and just generally you want to be what you find attractive right? so yeah, him
002 | dieleon
When I started shipping them:
heard diego tell leon vilu's shoe probably wasn't the right size for him and went "oh my these bitches gay!"
My thoughts:
they make me go :] i think they're neat and also very relatable because, like leon, i too would punch diego and then immediately kiss him, and, like diego, i too would try my goddamn best to make out with leon if i ever had that chance
What makes me happy about them:
they're so fucking ridiculous with their stupid rivalry that's just vaguely disguised flirting i love it SO MUCH it gives me life honestly
What makes me sad about them:
the lack of interactions in s3 like they couldn't just drop it like that it's too much you know
Things done in fanfic that annoys me:
ok so i don't really read dieleon fics but if i did i sure wouldn't read like, endgame dieleon fics? if that makes sense? or even fics where they're actually dating i think, like it's not that i don't see it happening in an au or something, it could be great, but it's not what i love about them so it wouldn't have much sense for me to read it you know
Things I look for in fanfic:
tension and belligerent attraction and unresolved feelings and what ifs that'll never get answered and hopefully some making out too, if it's set in s3 learning to be friends with all of this behind them that they know they will never get closure for but they can't really do anything about it either, yeah i do think the journey is more interesting than the destination with them
My wishlist:
gonna be completely honest here i have No Idea what i'm supposed to say here, i wish they kissed tho
Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:
ok i'm not even gonna answer to that y'all know lmao
My happily ever after for them:
so as i said i don't really see dieleon ever ending up with each other in the first place you know? so to me their happily ever after is finding some sort of peace with the what ifs and the what could've been because they found happiness with someone else, and as for them once the tension has subsided i really see them becoming great friends that can really still have that fake and friendly flirting but without whatever was there too you know. also i'm currently very slowly writing a dieleon fic exploring another side of their relationship i haven't really talked about here so stay tuned besties <33
003 | federico
How I feel about this character:
i could say a lot about him but every time he's on screen i just go WOOOO!!!!!
Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character:
ludmila <3 that's really it i think, like i do think he had a very casual crush on leon and i think he was part of leon's bisexual journey too but i don't ship them at all you know. oh also felipe is 100% his ex but once again not a ship
My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character:
once again fede and vilu my beloved
My unpopular opinion about this character:
i think out of all the non leon/tomas s1 guys that had a crush on vilu he was the one that made the most sense and if only for the "he had a crush on leonetta" thing i wouldn't change it even tho i'd make his behaviour towards her better
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:
LET THE MAN HAVE HIS GIRLS TIME!!!! my diva deserved his sleepovers with the girls!!
Favorite friendship for this character:
i can and will put vilu twice
My crossover ship:
i don't really have one
#thank you again for the ask that was so fun#oh also#ok so i try not to do it when i get anon asks but i did it here and i want to say that when i say girl or man or bro or whatever#i'm talking to an omnipotent girl who's also my bro and my dude and my man and not directly to the anon you know#because idk if yall are comfortable with gendered terms#but yeah anyway if that's an issue i can definitely stop!! i already try not to do it too much :)
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hola! cómo le haces para que tus icons te salgan en buena calidad?
Hi! I apologize but I cannot speak Spanish, so I am going to have to translate your ask through Google Translate. Which I know isn’t the best method, I’m sorry!
According to Google Translate, you’re saying “wave! How do you make your icons come out in good quality?”
Hopefully, that is close enough to what you’re saying and if so, first off, thank you for saying they are good quality! Secondly, I’ll walk you through my icon making process. It’s actually very simple and fast (at least IMO lol I can make an icon in like 5 minutes but I also use PS for a living so I’m pretty used to the program)
I’ll show you how to go from this random image from Lisa’s Instagram:
to this icon
FULL TUTORIAL UNDER THE CUT
First off, open Photoshop and drop in your image (I have Adobe Cloud PS 2020)
Then I want to clean up the colors of the image, because the image is too yellow, and was clearly taken in bad lighting.
1. Click Auto Tone
2. Click Auto Contrast
3. Click Auto Color
That should help give the image a much nicer, natural color, as shown below:
4. Select the Selection Tool
5. Click Select Subject
6. Click Add Mask
7. Double-click your mask to edit
8. Click View, then select Overlay V (this will help you see where you need to clean up your image)
9. Adjust settings to the image (This part really just depends on your image. Generally, I always set the Shift Edge to -50%, as it helps take away any white fuzziness around the image. Smooth obviously smooths the edges, Contrast helps sharpen them, and Feather...feathers them....just don’t use Feather okay?)
10. Select Refine Edge Tool and make sure it is set to Expands Detection Area (aka the + symbol lol)
11. Paint over any areas that Photoshop didn’t accurately mask
12. Select your mask again
13. Select your Paint Brush tool (make sure it is set to Hardness 100 and an appropriate size for your image)
14. Set your Foreground and Background colors to White and Black (Just click the little black and white boxes above them)
15. Using your paintbrush tool paint in (or out) details you need (In this case I just need to paint her face back in, so I use the brush tool set to white and paint where the pixels are distorted)
Now she is ready to be cropped and edited.
16. Flip/crop/adjust the image as desired (My best tip is to use the crop tool and put the focus of the image in the center of the grid)
Here’s the final cropped image:
17. Click Image>Image Size
18. Set the Image Width to 300 Pixels, check Resample, and set to Bicubic Sharper (Reduction) and click OK
19. In your Layer Panel, select your Image, NOT your mask (nothing will happen if you edit your mask lol)
20. Click Filter>Noise>Reduce Noise...
21. Adjust to the following settings (or whatever you prefer to get the image looking smooth) Click OK
Now my image is smooth and free from noise and grain, but I want her to be more in focus.
22. Click Filter>Sharpen>Smart Sharpen
23. Use the following settings
This is a basic sharpen that many editors use for gifs, edits, icons, etc, and you can just stop there for the sharpening step if you want, but I prefer my icons sharper, so I click Filter>Sharpen>Smart Sharpen again and this time, I use these settings:
You can see the differences below. The left side has just the basic sharpen, and the one on the right has both sharpens (you can clearly see the difference)
Once you’ve sharpened as desired, we’re ready to finally get to the fun and colorful part!
24. Add a gradient bg below your image (There are tons of free ones you can download from Tumblr or Google, or you can just make your own with the a gradient layer)
This next step is optional as not all images need it, but for this image, I need to do some badly needed image adjustments
First I click the adjustment layer on my layer panel and click Selective Layer
Then I set the colors to Blacks and drag the Black to +35 to darken up the blacks on the image and give it a nicer contrast (selective colors are great, mess around with them as much as you want until you find a look you like!)
Then I make a Brightness/Contrast layer and adjust to what I feel works best for the image
26. Create a folder (if you did the above step, select the layers and then click the folder icon, it’ll just put them in the folder)
27. Holding down the alt key on Windows (or the Option key on Mac) click and drag your mask to the group layer. Now you have a folder that you can put PSDs and adjustment layers in without affecting your gradient background
28. Drag your PSD of choice. I am using this amazing PSD that is perfect for pale photos. I set the PSD to 50% opacity and it looks like this
Now, I could stop here, but I’m extra so I want to doctor up her face a little.
29. Above your PSD folder, create a new layer and set it soft light
30. Select your brush tool again, and pick a color that will work for enhancing an area of the photo. Then paint over that area.
Lisa is already pretty pale here, so I won't paint over her skin with a nice peach color like I do sometimes in darker photos. But I will add a nice pink flush to her cheeks and her lips.
Then I will use a lilac purple to paint over her eyeshadow. This brings an element of the background onto her face.
There’s not a lot that needs to be added to this particular photo, but here’s an example of another icon without and with soft light painted layers:
The left has no soft light painted layers, the right does. You may be thinking it looks too gaudy, but icons are tiny! Adding strong colors will help painted areas stand out. However, this is a completely optional step of course :)
31. Back to our current icon. Select all your layers, and click the folder icon again to place them all in a folder
32. Select your Elliptical Marquee tool and make a circle over your image
33. Click your mask button in the layers panel, and tada! You can now save out your icon and put it to use
Here is the completed icon:
If you got this far, thank you for reading, and let me know if you have any questions!
#ggnet#kgirlsquad#blackpinknet#idolady#femaleidols#lisa manoban#photoshop tutorial#icon tutorial#photoshop#tutorial#icon#icons#if this type of post doesn't belong in any of the group tags just let me know and i will remove the tag#wasnt sure if tutorials counted lol#Anon#ask
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Oioi!!! eu vejo mts larries falando que kill my mind e back to you são sobre/para o harry, mas essas músicas não falam sobre um relacionamento abusivo?
oioi!
vou separar em duas partes:
parte 1 - back to you
parte 2 - kill my mind
back to you:
[Louis disse: É sobre aquela uma pessoa que não importa o quanto você tente, você acaba voltando.] - sonymusic.uk
Eu não acho que back to you seja sobre larry para falar bem a verdade.
Eu acredito que fala muito sobre continuar voltando para indústria, nesse caso pode ou não ser o simon, que mesmo achando que faz mal, ele está perdido e não confiante para simplesmente sair - Me corta muito o coração ler sobre quando o louis fala sobre todo mundo da banda, de como o Niall é um amor de pessoa, o Zayn tem a voz, o Harry é ótimo, o Liam se dá bem com o público e no fim tem ele.
Essa música foi lançada em 2017, então one direction já tinha entrado em hiato e o Louis foi o único que manteve relações com o simon depois da banda; foi jurado por uns dois episódios de American got talent, depois no The X factor e estava com a Syco até 2020.
Então respondendo a sua pergunta, sim, eu acho que back to you é sobre um relacionamento tóxico, mas não com alguém amoroso, mas sim com o trabalho.
Eu fiz uma pesquisa e perguntei para uma grande fã de taylor swift (@larentsgirl) sobre blank space, e a Yas me disse que essa música também fala como a taylor se sente em relação a mídia, e a música parece que foi feita para uma pessoa em específico, tipo o seu próximo namorado. Contudo, o "you" na música seria a indústria e não uma pessoa; a imagem da taylor no clipe é o que a mídia passa dela. Eu estou falando isso porque eu também acho que o "you" de back to you é a indústria em geral e não necessariamente uma pessoa específica, um ex.
Vou fazer as minhas análises me baseando no Director's Cut. Eu sei que tem 3 anos de diferença, Back to you é de 2017 e o director's cut é de 2020, mas eu acho que eles se ligam e é uma forma de mostrar visualmente a análise.
I know you say you know me, know me well
But these days I don't even know myself, no
[Eu sei que você disse que me conhece, que me conhece muito bem
Mas esses dias nem eu me conheço, não]
Essa parte eu vejo muito bem uma manipulação. Falando que conhece o louis bastante, sabe o que é melhor para ele e carreira, então ele deve seguir o que falam.
Director's Cut: no minuto 4:47 - "Eu te conheço desde que você era pequeno. Eu cuidei da sua família. Tudo o que eu peço é por lealdade". - a manipulação que eu comentei, de conhecer desde pequeno e saber o que é melhor para ele.
Essa parte também me lembrou muito do masterpost de babygate em que saiu vários artigos do simon falando que estava dando conselhos para o louis, que o simon sabia que o louis iria amar e blá blá blá
I always thought I'd be with someone else
I thought I would own the way I felt, yeah
[Eu sempre pensei que estaria com outra pessoa
Eu pensei que reconheceria a maneira como me sentia, yeah]
aqui eu vejo como ele planejava estar com outra gestão, gravadora. Mas parece que ele estava incerto do que queria fazer, com quem queria estar, está perdido.
I tell myself I'm done with wicked games
But then I get so numb with all the laughter
That I forget about the pain
[Eu disse a mim mesmo que terminei com jogos perversos
Mas então eu fico tão entorpecido com todas as risadas
Que eu esqueço da dor]
Whoa, you stress me out, you kill me
You drag me down, you fuck me up
[Whoa, você me estressa, você me mata
Você me põe para baixo, você me fode]
I love it, I hate it, and I can't take it
But I keep on coming back to you
[Eu amo, eu odeio, e não consigo mais
Mas eu continuo voltando para você]
A parte das risadas, eu acho que faz referência a ele acreditar nas promessas que falam para ele, ou ele se lembrou das oportunidades que teve e com isso continuou.
Eu não estou falando de jeito nenhum que o louis é bobo/ingênuo em ficar acreditando nas promessas ou sobre continuar com a syco.
Ele estava muito bem ciente do que estava acontecendo - ele disse que é fodido por essas pessoas, que se estressa,e pensa em sair o tempo todo, em bater mais de frente - mas muitas das vezes é bem difícil simplesmente sair. Ele se sentia preso e na obrigação de continuar (vou fala disso no próximo verso).
I know my friends they give me bad advice
Like move on, get you out my mind
But don't you think I haven't even tried?
You got me cornered and my hands are tied
[Eu sei que meus amigos me dão conselhos ruins
Como seguir em frente, te tirar da minha mente
Mas você não acha que eu nem mesmo tentei?
Você me encurralou e minhas mãos estão atadas]
Vou me basear no minuto 3:23 - 4:17 do Director's Cut para fazer essa análise.
Nessa parte específica, o Joe e a Miki estão conversando, ela pede para ele largar tudo, que ele não precisa mais seguir o chefão, que terão consequências, se não for agora, serão depois. O Joe responde que ele não pode simplesmente sair, que ele precisa continuar, ele não tem escolha -> você me encurralou e minhas mãos estão atadas. (essa parte que quis dizer no verso anterior)
falando sobre o director's cut rapidinho, eu quero comentar sobre uma teoria que li uma vez em algum lugar. lembram que eu falei sobre o louis ser o único que teve laços com o simon mesmo depois da banda? então, eu falei simon e não sony. E onde eu quero chegar com isso? Columbia também é Sony. E na hora dessa conversa entre o Joe e Miki (filha do chefão) e a ela fala que ela conhece o pai dela, pode ser uma metáfora sobre tanto o Louis quanto o Harry estão ligados a sony. A Miki ligada porque é filha e o Joe ligado porque é empregado, ambos são controlados pelo chefão. Quando eu li isso, a minha cabeça explodiu. Pra mim, faz total sentindo.
voltando:
And I guess you'll never know
All the bullshit that you put me through
And I guess you'll never know, no
[E eu acho que você nunca vai saber
Toda a merda que você me fez passar
E eu acho que você nunca saberá, não]
Naquela época o louis achava que nunca iria conseguir, que ficaria preso para sempre.
Louis, eu sou do futuro e estou aqui para te avisar que as coisas estão mudando. Você já mostrou muito do que sofreu no Director's Cut, como também já saiu Syco. E deixa eu te contar, simon e sony se separaram porque você não está mais nela. Você é poderoso pra caralho. As coisas estão mudando. Passinho de tartaruga, ok?
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caralhooo! amei fazer essa análise. depois de miss you, eu acho que a minha análise favorita.
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DOS[holiday special]: Traditional to Not-So-Traditional {pt.7} (Ugauc X male elf/Reader)
Chapter summary: its wintertime and Ugauc and his "little elfling" go back to Mistpeaks. While they're there, Ugauc surprises the reader by preparing an elven feast.
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pt. 1, Pt. 2, pt. 3 pt. 4, pt.5, pt. 6, pt. 8
“Ugauc?”
My call echoed around me in the foggy, snowy woodland as the cold prickled my neck. Without Ugauc by my side, I felt completely vulnerable to whatever the creatures Ugauc had smelled earlier.
Where has he gotten to?
My nervousness was making me impatient, and I just wanted to get out of these freezing temperatures.
Ugh! I miss the rainforest! It was so much warmer there, and there was tasty fruit to eat, instead of these bitter berries and hardly ripe apples.
My mind wandered to the warm sunshine and green canopy of the rainforest, leaving behind the bare trees and gloomy scenery around me. I could almost feel the warmth of the sun on my skin, replacing the cool dampness around me.
I miss home. And Festolgit is coming up soon... I wonder if dragons have anything to celebrate at the end of the year.
I looked around the little clearing I was in, scanning the fog for a muscular dragon-shifter in his humanoid form.
But I couldn’t spot him.
“Where are you, Ugauc?” I whispered, irritated. I wrapped my arms close to my torso under my cloak, trying to not feel warmer than my anxiety was allowing me to be.
I tightened my jaw, glancing around again, my anxiety only getting worse.
I heard the crunching of leaves and spun around, pulling out a dagger from beneath my dark cloak. I eyed the fog in front of me, keeping as stern of a face as I could, as my heart bet in terror.
I silently stood there in my battle stance, scared for my life.
Ugauc! I called out to him.
No response.
He couldn’t be that far away, so why isn’t he answering?
Has he run into something?
Is he hurt?
My mind raced, thinking of the worst thing that could have happened to him.
I stared at the spot, hearing only my breathing and racing heart as I watched for movement.
“Rah!” Shouted a voice, as his fingers dug into my sides as he launched himself from behind me.
I yelped and spun away from his grasp, cutting him with my blade. I stopped, eying my attacker from the opposite side of the clearing.
He seethed, holding his hand to his wounded face. “It’s nice to know your reflects are sharp.”
“Ugauc?” I looked to my blade, navy dragon blood dripping from the metal. I felt my heart drop.
“Ugauc... I am so sorry,” I apologize, stepping closer to his dark figure.
Ugauc came closer to me, dark blood seeping through his fingers as he held his hand to his cheek. “I’ll be fine, little elfling.” He removed his hand from his face and spit into it, before returning it to the slash of his face. “It’ll heal quickly.”
“You still shouldn’t have scared me like that!” I scolded. “I was so worried when you were gone for so long and didn’t respond.”
Ugauc’s lips lifted into a cruel smile, and he chuckled.
“What’s so amusing?!”
“How much you care.” I saw a scab already forming on his wound. “It’s adorable.”
I glared at him. “And what about the creatures you were tracking?”
“A couple of manticores who fled as soon as I got close to them. We’re fine... until they smell my blood.”
I rubbed my arms. “Then can we get going before they do that?”
Ugauc nodded his head calmly, ignoring my apparent irritation and distress. He smiled and pecked my brow. “Relax, little elfling. I’m fine. And I’m sorry for scaring you, I thought it would be funny.”
“And it clearly wasn’t,” I said, gesturing to his now sealed scar and dried blood around the wound.
Ugauc inclined his head. “I know.” He snapped his head around, scanning the foggy surroundings for whatever he heard.
“Let’s get going.”
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“If you keep scratching like that, you’ll tear off your scales,” I called from the snowy shore of the lake. Ugauc crouched by the water, trying to rid his face of whatever blood was left around his wound.
“My dam will not bee happy seeing me without a shirt still, nevermind with dried blood on my face also,” Ugauc replied, glancing up at Mistpeaks. We had arrived a little while ago, after a few hours of flying.
I smiled. “She didn’t raise a barbarian dragon,” I quoted, watching him as he finished washing his face.
Ugauc chuckled. “No, she didn’t.”
“And yet you attacked me.”
Ugauc looked over his shoulder, looking hurt. “I thought you said we were ok now? That you had forgiven me?”
“You are, I’m just looking forward to hearing the story you’re going to tell your parents. You couldn’t have got it naturally.”
“Sometimes I really dislike you, little elfling.” Ugauc rose to his feet and walked over to me.
I simply smirked. “And yet you still whisper in my ear how much you love me every night.”
Ugauc chuckled and pecked my cheek. “Very true.” He kissed me on the lips.
“Ugh! Get a room!” Called a feminine voice from above. Ugauc and I snapped our heads up. Above us perched in a tree was a dragon-shifter, crouched and looking down at us. Ugauc stood between me and the tree, eying her in the bright winter sun.
Ugauc snarled at her.
“That’s no way to greet your sister,” she responded.
“Hey, Udauh,” I said, walking in front of Ugauc.
Udauh laughed and jumped down from the tree. “Hello, (Y/N).” She tossed my hair with her hand and looked at Ugauc.
“Udauh,” Ugauc disdained.
Udauh made a playful face at Ugauc. “Hello to you too, parvus frater.”
“Para what?” I asked.
“Little brother,” Ugauc translated.
I eyed Ugauc. “Dragons have their own language?”
“Apart from growls and grunts? yes, we do.”
Udauh giggled. “But even in this form, some males chose to not use their snarls.”
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“So, Ugauc told me that not every dragon has a second form. Do you know why?” I asked Udauh. She was trying to keep me occupied—I just didn’t know why.
“There’s a bet it’s to do with genetics and magic. But some think it might have to do with some of us being bound to elves, or other non-draconic beings—like werewolves. Either way, its magic.”
I nodded. “At least you had an answer.”
Udauh giggled. “Ugauc likes to give an answer that he’s absolutely certain about.”
I smiled and nodded. “Yeah.” I glanced around, making sure none of the dragons in the canyon saw me. “So... do dragons have any festivals? Or holidays? Or feasts?”
Udauh shook her head. “No, nothing annually like elves have. We celebrate personal successes; like our trial to become clanmembers—like your hunt; or when we find our soulmates. It’s usually a family feast with the best of prey to eat.”
I nodded, hiding my disgust as best as I could; the thought of dragons eating other creatures still made my stomach churn, even after eating with Ugauc for almost a year.
I saw Udauh glance up at her parents’ cave, which was where we were staying for the time being since a draconic found Ugauc’s old cave and had made themselves at home in it.
Udauh’s lips curled into a smile. “Right, let’s get up there; I’m getting cold.” She lifted herself into the sky and flew off.
“Udauh!” I hissed. She turned around, looking down at me in the vegetation of the rocky valley. She elegantly flew done to me.
“Sorry,” she whispered. She shifted to her turquoise dragon form and took me up in her talons, keeping me as best hidden as she could; it was a very unnerving experience; sitting in her claws.
But after a few heart-racing minutes, Udauh landed in the cave's mouth and gently placed me on the cold stone. I got to my feet.
“Thanks, Udauh,” I said with a bow and slowly walked in. The chamber was lit up with tiny candles on the ledges in the walls. On the floor, there was a nice spread of fruits and cooked pieces meat all sitting on pieces of bark or stone on a blanket I had brought from my home. It reminded me of of of our winter festival, Festolgit.
“Merry Festolgit, (Y/N),” Ugauc said, smiling widely and wrapping me in a hug.
I smiled into his now covered chest. “Merry Festolgit, Ugauc,” I said, pulling away from him. “But I didn’t get you anything—that’s what Festolgit is all about.”
“I’ve already got the best gift ever,” he smiled. “You.” He pecked my nose.
I smiled, embarrassed. “Ugauc!”
#ugauc x reader#ugauc#dragon one-shot#dragon one-shots#dragon x reader#dragon one shot#dragon one shots#emmaprime#mlm#Bxb
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To the Moon and Back
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A/N: Chapter 11 Some of the dialogue in this chapter is in Spanish, I am in my 4th year of Spanish classes, the translations are in bold at the end of the paragraph they're in.
You and Spencer spent the entire day together. The two of you mainly just watched TV and movies, while cuddling on your couch. Your night was cut short when Spencer’s phone started to ring, “Hello, yeah Hotch,” he was being called in for a case. “Can I stay in DC for this one?” he nodded at whatever your boss was saying, “I’ll be there as soon as I can,” he stood up from the couch and headed toward your bedroom, “Can I bring Y/N? We’ll stay in the round table room,” you knew it was bad to eavesdrop, but it was so fun. Spencer and Hotch spoke for a little longer before he hung up.
“What was that?” you asked, trying to seem oblivious.
“We have a case,” he grabbed his coat from the stool in your kitchen. “Hotch said that you can come to quantico with me if you want,” he stood by the door and waited for you to respond to his offer.
“Thank god, I don’t think I could be stuck inside for any longer,” You stood up from the couch and went to your bedroom. You changed out of your pajamas and grabbed your briefcase. Spencer was still waiting by the door when you came out, “Do we need to stop at your place?” you grabbed your keys and headed for the door.
“No, can we stop for coffee though?”
You threw him the keys, “You’re driving,” he fumbled with the keys before opening the door for you and locking up your apartment. You two made the twenty minute drive to quantico in silence, other than when he stopped at a starbucks. He ordered a black coffee and you ordered some peach tea. It was almost midnight so the need for caffeine was understandable.
When you finally arrived at the office, you were greeted by Garcia, “oh my god! You’re here and you’re okay!” She gave you the biggest hug imaginable.
“It’s good to see you too,” you returned her hug, being careful to avoid your wound.
“Garcia, we’re heading to the round table room to work,” Reid put his hand in the small of your back and led you away from the smiling blonde. You knew she had seen the ‘more than friends’ vibe between the two of you.
You and Reid finally got to the conference room and set your stuff down, “Alright, the team went to New Mexico. Three men were found in the desert without their hands. 30-year-old Jesus Perez, 27-year-old Andres Flores, and 31-year-old Toni Moreno. They were all dehydrated and had wounds from a BB gun,” Reid started to read the case file that was left for him.
“They were all of Mexican descent, is it possible these are hate crimes?” you tried to connect the dots between the seemingly unconnected victims.
He had that look on his face, the one that told you he was thinking and questioning every word that came out of your mouth, “it’s possible, the town that they all lived in had many anti-mexican regimes.” It felt nice to contribute even if you couldn’t be with the team.
“Alright, that’s a start,” you grabbed your tea and stood up, “I’m going to talk with Garcia for a minute,” you started for the door.
“Do you need any help with the stairs?” Reid turned around from the board and stared at your stomach, looking for any sign to keep you with him.
“I’ll be fine,” you sent a smile his way and started your walk to Garcia’s office. “Hello, Garcia,” you opened her door and walked into her office.
“Good morning, Doctor,” She spun around in her chair with a smile on her face.
“Good morning, Garcia,” you entered her room and pulled up a chair next to her.
She spun around to face her computers, “What’s going on with you and boy genius?” She started to type on her keyboard.
“What do you mean?” You tried to play dumb, but she was smarter than that.
“I’ve seen the way he looks at you,” she turned and smiled at you.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you learned how to lie from a young age, control your breathing, your fidgeting, and maintain eye contact.
“Ok,” she sighed and turned back to her computer. Her phone started to ring and she answered, “Hello, chocolate thunder.” You were taken aback by the strange nicknames they had for each other.
“Hello, baby girl,” Morgan’s voice came through the phone. “Can you look for connections between our victims and the United Constitutional Patriots.”
“Morgan, who are the United Constitutional Patriots?” you were trying to get enough information to bring back to Reid.
“They are a right wing militia group. They have been grabbing asylum seekers at the border before handing them over to border patrol,” he explained.
You nodded in recognition of the new information, “So you guys are thinking that someone from this group is killing the men?”
“Exactly, princess,” he acknowledged. “I’m glad you're ok.”
“So is Reid,” Garcia mumbled.
“What?” you and Morgan questioned in unison.
From Morgan’s side of the phone there was some sort of shouting, “Morgan what’s happening over there?” you asked.
“There is a lady yelling, in what sounds like, Spanish,” Morgan sounded nervous.
“Give her your phone,” you told him. You heard the woman over the phone and Morgan trying to calm her down. “Hola, Señora, ¿Qué es su nombre? Hello, Ma’am, what is your name?
“Gloria Martinez,” the lady responded.
¿Qué necesita?” Garcia seemed shocked at your sudden language shift. What do you need?
“Mi hijo, no sé dónde está,” the woman frantically shouted into the phone. My son, I don’t know where he is.
“Ok, ¿cuándo fue la última vez lo Ud. vio?” you tried to get as much information as you could form her. Ok, when was the last time you saw him?
“La noche pasada,” she seemed to be calming down. “Él me dijo que él iba estar allí para cena pero él nunca vino a mí casa.” Last night, he told me he was going to be there for dinner, but he never came to my house.
“¿Qué es su nombre?” you asked, you heard the door open behind you and Garcia; Reid walked into the room. What is his name?
“Es Mario Martinez,” she was trying to stay calm, you could hear it in her voice. It’s Mario Martinez.
“Bien, Señora, ¿puede dar el teléfono al hombre quien la dio a Ud.?” Reid looked surprised to hear you speaking a new language. Good, Ms, can you give the phone to the man who gave it to you?
“Sí,” she took the phone away from her ear. Yes.
“Hey, I didn’t know you spoke Spanish,” Morgan returned the phone to his ear.
“It was my minor in college,” you answered, “Morgan, I need you to take Ms. Martinez into the conference room and put the phone on speaker,” you barked orders at the man.
“Ok,” you heard the door shut on the other end. “You’re on speaker.”
“Señora Martínez, este hombre te preguntará preguntas en inglés, voy a traducir,” you tried to explain to her what was going to happen. Ms. Martinez, this man will ask you some questions in english, I’m going to translate. “Morgan, ask her question about her son, I’ll translate for you,”
“Ms. Martinez, where did your son like to hang out?” Morgan started to ask questions, like you asked.
“Sra, ¿dónde su hijo le gusta pasar tiempo con su amigos?” you translated.
“En bares, las vías del tren, lugares similares.”
“Morgan, she said, ‘Bars, the train tracks, similar places,’” Reid looked proud to see you helping even after what you’d been through.
“How old was your son?” Morgan asked
“¿Cuántos años tiene su hijo?” you hoped this was helping Morgan.
“Veinte años,” she stated.
“He’s twenty years old,” you translated. The questions and answers continued for a half an hour.
“I think we’ve got all we need, thank you Ms.Martinez,” Morgan finished.
“Tenemos todo que necesitamos. Si necesitamos más información, ¿podemos llamarte?” making sure that you had a way to get more information. We have all that we need. If we need more information, can we call you?
“Sí, puedo escribir mi numero de telephono,” She wrote down her number and you heard her stand up to leave, “Gracias.”
“Gracias, señora,” you heard the door open and close.
“Thank you for that, Y/N,” Morgan added.
“Yeah, it’s no problem. If you need anymore, call me,” you finished.
“Adios, mi amor,” Garcia added, and then hung up.
You stood up and got ready to leave, “Garcia, can you get membership lists of the United Constitutional Patriots in the area?”
“Will do,” she started to type on her computer.
Reid put his hand in the small of your back as you walked out of the office, “I didn’t know you spoke Spanish?”
You waited till the door was closed before responding, “There’s a lot you don’t know about me, Dr. Reid.”
“What else can you say in spanish?” Reid asked you.
“I can say whatever you’d like,” you winked at him.
The two of you walked back to the roundtable room. You two worked diligently on the case for the next few hours. Before the sun started to come up. Reid left to get the two of you breakfast.
While he was gone, you moved from the table to the couch, eventually, falling asleep. You woke up with a blanket on you. The clock said it was 10am.
You sat up and saw Reid sitting at the table, “Mmm, pancakes,” you rubbed your eyes and walked over to the table.
“You were sleeping so peacefully, I didn’t want to wake you up,” he looked up at you.
“Thank you,” you sat down and started to eat the pancakes in front of you.
The clock kept ticking by and there weren’t any more victims for a while. Ms. Martinez’s son eventually showed up. The team was out of leads before someone came into the police station and said that they knew who was responsible. The lead checked out with Garcia. They eventually apprehended a white supremacist just north of the border. Once JJ called you and Reid with this information, you and Reid stopped looking at the files. The team was supposed to be back in DC before 6pm. You and Reid stayed around and worked on paperwork to give the team less to do.
“It’s good to see you here,” Rossi entered the bullpen with open arms.
You got up to give him a hug, “Rossi, it’s good to see you too.”
“I have a gift for you, it’s in my office,” Rossi led you to his office.
“You really didn’t have to get me anything,” you giggled at the man’s kindness.
“When you got shot in LA, your dress was ruined,” he started to explain the nature of the gift, “You seemed to really liked it, right?”
“I did,” you thought back to that night.
“Well, I bought you a new one,” he grabbed a dress bag from behind his desk.
“Rossi, this dress is $450,” you were shocked.
“And?” he handed you the dress and walked toward the door.
“I can’t accept this,” you were smiling ear to ear.
He opened the door, “You can and you will.” You walked out of the room but waited for Rossi before continuing along, “Besides, you can wear it on your date with Reid.”
“What?” you were stunned by the brazen comment, Reid hadn’t asked you out. You hoped Rossi was quite enough that nobody heard him. If someone thought you two were dating, you could get fired. You walked down the stairs to the rest of the team. They all wanted to give you a hug, you returned all of their hus. It was finally time to leave and go back home. Reid walked you to the elevator, he helped carry some of your stuff.
“Hey, i was wondering, I know this is a bit out of the blue,” He started to ramble, “would you maybe want to go on a date with me sometime?”
“Of course I would,” the elevator door opened and you entered with all your stuff. Reid waved bye as the doors closed. Holy shit, is Rossi a psychic?
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ok whatever meagan stole the glee joke 🙄
anyway, here’s what my children have been up to these past three months!
jemma
she began existing!
broke approx 4 glasses at the saloon
vibin in the mines
not in a thread but it is canon that jemma and sloane know each other from when jemma traveled around a lot! jemma is STOKED!!
injury tw: cut off art’s pinky. the pinky saga isn’t over.........
idk canonically she’s been in the valley like.... a lil under a month? so she’s a nobody! still got ppl to meet!
finley
kissed jill at the masquerade ball #predictable, but also danced with henry that was cute!!
also kissed koa MUAH!
submitted the theater proposal which won!!! but they feel kinda guilty abt it bc they felt henry and sofia deserved to win :/ they only rlly made the proposal to, like, participate and now they feel bad
literally just being a simp for jill and pretend that’s not what’s happening fool behavior
they had a date, it was cute and gross
heartbreak to come!! good, they were too happy
elaine
got drunk with kiran at the masquerade ball! new homies!
kissed sofia at the masquerade ball aw and then ran away like a dumb
hung out with matty at the saloon! bonded! he is her son now!!!! if u hurt him she will send her bird after u
HER BIRD!!! she has a bird now, his name is fitz and he’s blue and she loves him
death tw: her grandpa’s death’s anniversary :( but also she visited her fam in zuzu!
i still need to write a para for this but elaine and jemma know each other, shall explain later
the mine incident freaked her out. will she actually begin letting ppl in now that she almost lost some friends?? hmm shall see
friendship with henry? HA still nonexistent and awkward and tense but she’s gonna visit him now so we shall see
i think that’s it???
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Questionnaire
Optional Task 193 - May 19, 2021
1.) What is one thing you would change about your writing?
Sometimes I feel like I rush through it, mostly cause I feel like what I'm writing is getting too long so I try to cut back.
2.) Do you have any people you look up to?
Not necessarily, I kind of look up to myself to try and push myself to be a better writer every time I write.
3.) What inspires your writing?
Mostly just letting my imagination run free with no boundaries.
4.) Are there any rules you find difficult, grammatically speaking?
I'm not sure if it's a rule, or maybe it is but where should a comma actually go in a sentence. I tend to insert them randomly where I feel there should be a pause.
5.) Do you prefer long or short sentences? Why?
In the past, I felt like my sentences were too short so I've found myself the past year trying to make them longer so there aren’t too many stops.
6.) Do you enjoy your own writing, why or why not?
I do enjoy my own writing and weirdly I'll go back and reread my replies after I've sent them because some just hit me in the feels.
7.) What is your biggest insecurity in writing?
Probably feeling like I'm not giving back enough to work with, or I may be moving too fast through the scene.
8.) What is the one thing you’re the proudest of in your writing?
How far I've grown just in the past three years of being in this particular RPG. I went from getting by to really being happy with how I now present my writing to someone.
9.) Are you someone who prefers a lot of paragraphs, or a few?
It really depends, I dislike reading so I prefer getting the minimum back but I can also write novella and I'm ok with that too. I just always think no one wants to read something very long so I try and downsize.
10.) Novella, yay or nay, and why?
The one thing I don't really like about Novella is if there is too much going on, too many different pieces to the story given at once. Replying to quite a few different scenarios can get messy.
11.) How do you feel about one on one para?
If my muse is going strong I don't mind it, I wish I had more time to sit down and write para for a long stretch. I feel like once you break free the muse dies.
12.) If you had the chance to meet a fictional character IRL, who and why?
Probably Robin Hood. He's always been a fave of mine, he's kind of a hero for helping those less fortunate.
13.) Are there any characters that make you uncomfortable?
Now that Tom Selleck is chilling out in Mountain Falls..
14.) What are your preferences in characters?
I definitely have a thing for a sweet soft spoken female, I'm a sucker for an angelic vibe. I'm also not a fan of males who have prick attitudes.
15.) Do you prefer troubled or mundane characters, why?
I wouldn't mind either, I've written a wide range of both. Ryker is very troubled though and I enjoy writing his character.
16.) Do you believe that characters can be redeemed?
I believe so, but they better not think it's going to come easy. They have to work for it.
17.) What are the biggest turn-offs in characters, what do you not like?
Loudmouth and obnoxious characters are a turnoff for me.
18.) What is the biggest turn-on in characters, what do you like?
I like well thought out characters who have been around for a while and muse isn’t lost quickly. You can usually pinpoint the more serious characters.
19.) What kind of character would you have been, if you were a piece of fiction?
I would have probably been a villain, joker prolly.
20.) Who is your favorite character and why?
Definitely my foster son Noah, he's what has kept me going for the past 3 years. If I didn’t have him I know I wouldn’t still be here.
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rides onto the dash nude n on horseback like this pic of sam way. oh fancy seeing u here.......... im impeccably tensed our entire exchange. buns like steel cld crack a nut open between them. i’m nai n it’s so nice to meet u all!!!! i’m one of the admins here (josefine frida pettersen on the main) n i’m so Excited 2 get things going........... some facts abt me r i sometimes hv a witch’s cackle, i once drunkenly swung frm a tree branch pretending to b tarzan n fell n grass stained my fav jeans at 4 in the morning n i lov spicy food despite the fact it mkes me sweat like a hog in the sun. more abt lana under the cut!!! also like this or hmu if u wna plot n her pinterest is here n playlist is here 👺🌚
「kristine froseth & cis-female」⇾ jameson , lana, the junior radcliffe student’s records show that she is a gemini and 22 years old. she is studying dance, living in off campus and can be vivacious, passionate, childish & impulsive. when i see her i am reminded of stepping out in the cold wearing just a red slip, lipstick on a stranger’s throat, a bumper sticker on the back of a convertible cadillac that says ‘SCRAPPY DOO IS A FILTHY SLUT’. ⇽「nai & 23 & gmt & she/her.」
AESTHETICS:
scalding your fingers in shower water until they glow like rudolph’s nose, cherry red gym socks tugged high and nothing else, stepping out in the cold wearing just a red slip, an origami swan made from an old receipt, tickling a stranger’s chin with the end of a feather boa, crowning each finger with a miniature raspberry, hugging a knee close to lick a stripe of fruit juice off a bruise there, doodling penises in the condensation of a car window, a water pistol topped with rum and covered in glittery pin-up stickers, believable smiles that feel more like baring teeth, a bumper sticker on the back of a convertible cadillac that says ‘SCRAPPY DOO IS A FILTHY SLUT’, prancing around in your underwear to a vinyl record with the curtains open.
HISTORY:
lana grew up in a big house in albany, NY. albums framed on the walls. mayb some rolling stone covers too frm way bk when of the bands her dad’s label signed. kind of like… a rock star palace w no evidence of children at all. i think i summarised it best in one of lana’s self paras once when i said the garden ws “as big as it was unloved”, not that u wld know from all of the gardener’s pruning
lana’s mum victoria (vic) ws a music journalist w a pretty fruitful career ahead of her when she met lana’s dad richard (rich). his record label ws jst starting out, founded on the coattails of his rich best friend’s (jensen peters) investment w his other best friend (who he jst calls knoxville). it rocketed to success when they signed poppy injects, a rock band w an electric stage presence, n victoria ws drawn to the glitz n glamour of a man tht ws at the helm of his aspiring industry. their love ws very impulsive, all or nothing right frm the start, n it ws almost like she ws mre in love w his accomplishments n what he represented than him
anyway so jameson records repped a few big rock bands bk in the eighties, altho poppy injects r who they’re mostly known fr, namely bc of hw brightly they crashed n burned. (drugs/addiction tw) they were a big chart success bt the lead singer hd quite an intense struggle w heroin (wsnt rly subtle abt it either while he ws in the public eye as u cn probably imagine frm such an on-the-nose band name) n he ws always in n out of the papers. it eventually brought down his career n it ws a big publicity nightmare
lana pretty much… grew up around figures like this throughout childhood. rly troubled characters who wld kind of… b extremely volatile n destructive abt their troubles. the jameson house was kind of an open one as welcoming clients went n a lot of parties took place there. a lot of the time musicians wld b snorting lines in the kitchen when she wnted to grab a bowl of cereal fr breakfast. very strange environment fr a child to grow up in
her parents always kind of jst… didn’t like her much. her older brother caleb ws unplanned bt they sort of welcomed the surprise more bt… quickly realised they weren’t cut out fr parenthood n then when lana came as another surprise 3 yrs later they didn’t even try to hide their resentment abt the situation. her mum ws actually booked in to have an abortion bt cldnt go through with it at the last minute. once when lana asked her why shes so cold towards her she jst turned her head frm her dresser, looked at her, told her abt this n said “idk why i didn’t go”. lana didn’t kno wht to say to tht so she jst left her room n closed the door
(dissociation/delusion tw) bc of this growing up lana adopted this weird like…. she didn’t rly kno what it ws bt it ws a delusion of sorts where she thought she ws a ghost. she’d jst sort of… drift around the halls w noone acknowledging her n sometimes she ws jst convinced she wsnt actually there or they cldnt see her n she ws jst haunting the house frm a previous family
the one saving grace tho tht sort of?? gt her thru this n made her feel Seen ws caleb. lana quite genuinely hs always thought the sun shines out of her older brothers ass like she jst thinks. hes the best person in the entire world. wld b rly bewildered if anyone questioned tht. he wld always look out for her in the zoo they called a home n cut the crusts off her PBJs so they lkd like teddy bears (he’d cook fr them most of the time bc their parents were too busy/didn’t care to) n sometimes wld even sleep at the bottom of her bed curled up like a guard dog. it ws always lana n caleb n his best friend tommy against the world in tht house (tommy lived next door n was always over bc he had very strict parents / a military father tht he found suffocating)
SO when caleb n tommy announced tht they’d signed up to the army lana ws understandably…….. blindsided. she ws rly upset tht they were leaving like pretty besides herself bt she tried not to b mad at them n made them promise theyd b safe n back as soon as possible. she even asked if they cld somehow take her w them n they were jst like :/ it doesn’t work that way luv x
(death tw, ptsd tw, grief tw, trauma tw, hospitalisation tw, drugs tw) anyway caleb ended up getting discharged under grounds of severe ptsd when he witnessed tommy die in an explosion tht took place in a shock raid. caleb returned home sans tommy bt he was never the same after tht. he’s been in n out of hospital n he turned to using as a way to cope so it’s been a rly bumpy road since. lana kind of felt like two of her brothers died out there in a way n jst like tht it wasn’t them vs the world any mre, it was jst her
ANYWAY whew tht rly…. took a dark turn there….. chuckles nervously at hw sad lana’s life is bt it’s fine it’s all fINE!!!!!!! ok. so on a mre lighthearted note the jameson family r pretty well off n bc of her relation to such a big music industry figure she’s hung out w a fair few relatively high rep ppl thru her teens. mostly kids of celebrities n stuff like tht. she amassed kind of an instagram following mainly fr her style (penny lane-esque in some aspects aka lots of fur cuff trimmed jackets bt then also jst…. a wild combination of everything honestly. pastel faux fur coats, seventies style platforms, flame red cowboy boots, pink fishnet tights n glitter used like highlight Everywhere) n bc she’s undeniably Pretty Gorl
(trauma tw) after caleb got back he was rly withdrawn n depressed. he shut lana out n was kind of harsh to her a lot of the time, always telling her to leave him alone or pushing her away. it didnt help either tht lana had a rly traumatic experience w some of her dad’s colleagues at the label when she ws 16 n he was away n she cldnt even tell him abt it once he was bk bc of his own traumas. she kind of jst shut it all in n kept it to herself
(hypersexuality tw) this obviously?? made her spiral a lot. she was already a girl tht loved sex but since her trauma it got…. completely out of hand. it got to a point where she couldnt rly go 2 days without it, probably not even 1. her lowest point has probably been scrolling thru craiglist for anonymous encounters n meeting up w strangers on there fr hookups even tho it’s insanely dangerous n she cld wind up getting herself killed. the risk is honestly part of the appeal to her sometimes she’s :////// quite self destructive n jst likes a thrill to mke her feel Alive. it’s v clear at this point tht she has a sex addiction whether she’s ever admitted it or not. it kind of… almost mingled w tht same feeling she used to get when she ws younger of being a ghost?? like she jst. only rly feels Real when she’s being touched
(violence tw) she’s had.................... SCH a bad history dating wise. she almost always dates fking.... actual beasts like i jst wna gently shake her by the shoulders sometimes bt :////////////// one of her recent exes is in prison aftr he beat up someone she’d slept w in front of her like she jst. has had a very Not Sexy time w romance...... she hd to b a witness in the trial abt it n he ws found guilty n sent down so it ws like Intense n a gd example of the kinds of disastrous relationships she gets herself into. perks of being a wallflower voice: We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve.
this past summer she gt a job at a burlesque club in downtown lovell!!! it honestly is her dream job like. dancing? being sexy? fav hobbies................. most delicious pastimes... 10/10 ideal fr her............... she almost started working at a coyote ugly bar bt this one won her over. she usually jets off to some foreign country n has a rly exotic n action packed summer bt i think she wldv just been working local there fr this one to b close to her brother (the rehab he’s at is close like a 40 min drive so!). she’s also moved into a big lofty apartment w 3 roommates tht’s above a chinese take out w lots of lanterns hung outside. the street? scott street......................... tribute to mizz phoebe bridgers hunger games salutes to the sky so it travels 2 her............. she gt a red heart shaped bath tub installed which hs always been her dream so honestly the summer hs been pretty gd to her....... five stars on yelp she deserves Some happiness once in a while
PERSONALITY:
always smells vaguely of wild cherries or strawberry starburst or jst the candy aisle in general. if she ws a vinyl record she’d b this one n she’d only play good vibrations by the beach boys, dancing on my own by robyn, play that funky music by wild cherry, femme fatale by the velvet underground n (i can’t get no) satisfaction by the rolling stones
growing up lana was always a HUGE social butterfly. knew everyone n everyone knew her. she ws one of those girls tht ws kind of impossible to ignore or forget (cld b a gd or bad thing depends on ur Stance...... she can be a lot tho frankly). very animated, always made u feel like u were the centre of the universe whenever she spoke to u, always made it feel like u were best friends even if ud only spoken to her once.
deliberately puts on tht kind of Magnetic Alluring act tht femme fatales wear in movies sometimes. kind of…. is always playing A Role of the person tht she wants to b seen as or the person she feels ppl want her to be. chameleons to situations. feels like she’s performed as the vivacious n fun loving Lana Jameson fr so long tht she doesn’t rly kno who she is beneath tht bt she isn’t too keen to find out
always the last one awake at the party. jst doesn’t seem to hv.... an off switch. every1 else cld b passed out at 6am n she’d still b swaying around to sunday morning by the velvet underground in her underwear drinking frm a bottle of merlot
she’s always been rly spontaneous n adventurous. always doing something weird n wild every weekend. she has ten thousand ridiculously absurd n chaotic stories
uncontrollably flirty. she’s tht tumblr post tht’s like flirting will b ur hubris n the reply is like kind of sexy of u to say so................ SO confident cld talk to anyone. makes a joke out of anything. tends to laugh when she feels like crying. even if she DOES cry she’ll smile thru it like it isn’t happening she jst.... doesn’t like to b negative ever if she cn help it
she’s amassed a weird collection of like... Things various ppl she’s known hv made abt her. this guy she ws friends w wrote a song abt her n performed it at a gig she went to without telling her in advance. it ws rly dramatic he sang it n looked at her the whole time n she ws jst a bit like.... omg.... lmfao............... she’s also hd various paintings done of her. i honestly dnt even rly kno hw it happens she jst has a personality where she..... leaves an impression like a lipstick print on a white shirt w some ppl.................. she’s like tht tumblr post where someone arrives at a poetry reading n is like hi yes........ where do the muses sit? except she isn’t rly.... obnoxious abt it she jst shrugs n is like.......... oh that........... KJHSFKHGSFKGHSFKGSFHGK. it’s a charmed life fr some
always dapples her fingers thru the breeze when she’s driving in a car w the window down. she almost always has some sort of sweet on her, whether it’s sour haribo cherries or strawberry lollipops.
PLOTS:
exes tht lana’s fucked over hideously. she’d probably cheat a lot and it’d be a whole…mess. whips her in the town square like gale
mayb someone tht flipped the switch and cheated on her??? chaos. anguish. strife.
someone tht works at the burlesque club in downtown lovell w her!!!!! as like a bartender or another dancer or security or................... whtvr honestly. hvn’t worked out a name fr the club yet bt i think it cld b a fun setting to write stuff in n there cld b lots to build off there!!
a cousin plot cld b fun too
her n freya nilsen run smthn called Dick Sisters Inc......... they hv a twitter fr it n everything.... n a hq based in one of the abandoned dorms in the leach building.... lots of inflatable furniture disco balls.............. lana even gt replica airplane seats so they cn sit n b served drinks by this guy tht runs errands fr them who they call bucket....... they bsically like. set ppl up n help ppl get laid it’s a matchmaking service of sorts.......... started as a joke bt nw it’s genuinely become quite a profitable business w word spreading all over campus........ ugh entrepreneurial icons... anyway mayb ur chara cld come to lana fr Dick Sisters assistance......... mayb they’v come to them in the past.........
a friend tht lana fel out w bc she slept w their significant other.
someone tht’s getting lana into drugs?? she’s kind of impressionable/down for anything so tht’s a likely scenario she’d get into tbh
briefly did camgirl stuff on an independent bt up n coming porn site....... titters.......... mayb ur muse used a pseudonym n recognises lana frm it bt is too embarrassed to admit they were subscribed............ mayb they happened upon her on there once n nw r jst like. what do i do w this knowledge. idk cld b fun to work around perhaps
an unrequited crush!! (either way is cool)
someone tht is just hanging out w her/using her bc she has a lot of instagram followers or they want to b signed to her dad’s label
someone in a band!! she’d probably make like penny lane n b their groupie/sleep w them all i won’t lie to u. relentless.....
umm a good influence too mayb?
honestly?? anything is fine i cld ramble for days. mayb even one of the high profile kids she grew up hangin w idk. world’s our oyster fellas!
#ruhqintro#hypersexuality tw#trauma tw#hospitalisation tw#violence tw#death tw#grief tw#ptsd tw#dissosciation tw#drugs tw#addiction tw#god.... wipes sweat frm my brow after all those tws...... i promise they're all just rly briefly touched upon bt better to b safe than sry!!#also this is truly so long bt............ growls n smirks simultaneously
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Sawang sawa ka na ba maging single?
Hindi ko maimagine na magsusulat ako dito. Ng kabaduyan or feelings. Hahaha! But I’m currently reading “Buti pa ang Roma, May Bagong Papa” ni Noringai and so far I’m amused and had been able to relate to her stories.
So nung nabasa ko yung chapter sa book na “Malamig ba ang christmas mo?” Noringai points out na it’s better to be single than being in a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. And naisip ko, ilang beses ko na ginawa to. Hahaha.
Oo, sawang sawa na ako maging single. Jowang jowa na ako. Gusto ko naman maranasan ulit yung kilig factor, yung itrato ka ng parang prinsesa ng partner mo, yung may magpapangiti sayo and alam mong kasama mo at masasabihan mo pag may problem ka. Alam mo kasi, kapag may jowa ka, parang napprove yung value mo. Na desirable ka, kamahal- mahal ka. Siguro nga jinowa ko yung 3rd (ex) boyrfriend ko for self validation.
Ayun, this happened to me nung 2018. Dahil sa jowang jowa na ako. Naisipan ko mag-Tinder, but wala naman matino and ang habol lang is sex.
So naalala ko si IT guy from UST na super maeffort. I reconnected with him through Facebook. So wow, talagang desperada, nagchat ako ng parang walang nangyari hahaha. I first met him sa Omegle. We chatted, agreed na maging kami noon but marami pala siyang “special someone” hahaha. Marami pala kaming kachat niya.
SIguro malungkot rin siya, or naisip niya na malabo na magka girlfriend siya ngayon or dahil ako na mismo yung lumapit kaya chnat rin niya ako. Ano ba nman yung single siya, single ako, wala naman masama dun diba?
Sa una masaya. Andun yung excitement. Like wow, ang bilis ng landian, also after 1 month naging kami. After 1 month nga ba? Hahha first meeting namin is sa LRT1, dahil sa Monumento siya sumasakay and sa Roosevelt ako, sasakay siya ng pa Roosevelt muna para sunduin ako. Sabayan ako pumasok. Ok naman. But nung mag ttwo months na, hindi ako masaya.
I have to admit, hindi naman pala siya yung taong akala ko. Noon kasi tingin ko ang cool ng ginagawa niya. Magaling siya sa photography (omg isang deciding factor to kaya pinili ko siya maging bf dahil umaasa ako na maayos ig ko at may taga kuha ako ng picture lols). Pangalawa, he’s workaholic. Alam mo, gusto ko ung mga taong may pangarap sa buhay. May patutunguhan, hindi lang yung basta work. Gusto ko may passion. Pero I learned na hindi pala maganda mag boyfriend ng workaholic kasi wala siya gaanong time sayo. And ang boring niya
Yung pangatlong reason, hays, well tahimik siya. Pag magkasama kami nammonopolize ko yung conversation. Pag kinakamusta ko siya ok lang daw siya. One liner kung sumagot. Naiinis ako. Siguro wala kaming common ground or yung mga sinasabi ko ay wala naman siyang pake (bec they’re trivial things or too girly stuff). IDK. Maybe yung mga gusto niyang topic or conversation, is something na I don’t have interest about.
Pero at least, naenjoy ko yung food pag magkasama kami. Naaalala ko nun na sabi niya masarap yung ramen sa Ramen Kuroda (dahil maarte siya sa ramen at pinagyayabang niya na ang gusto lang niya is ung ramen sa Japan or kung saan mang restaurant) I’m proud na nagustuhan naman niya ung suggestion ko. Lol. Naging favorite ko kasi ung Ramen Kuroda hahaha since mura and masarap compared sa Ipuddo and Ramen Nagi. Hahhaa Also naging favorite restaurant ko ung Nihonbashitei. Japanese restaurant siya and fave ko ang takoyaki and salmon sashimi. pinaka ung salmon chakuze. hahaa basta salmon siya na may masarap sa sabaw and nori sa taas. But may time na nagkita rin kami tapos ilang beses na nag away kami and omg di na kami nakapagdinner. Alam mo di ko na mabilang yun and after nun ilang incident I swear binawas bawasan ko na makipagkita sa kanya. I’d rather go out with my friends than go on a date with him. Seriously, naiinis nga ko pag may lakad kaming barkada and he insisted na magkita kami sa Makati. Huhuhu I have FOMO with my friends pa naman. So... with these said....
Eto yung mga bagay na ayaw ko sa kanya:
1) Tahimik siya and di niya kayang makipagsabayan sa mood mo.
2) Gloomy siya kasama- he’s always problematic
3) Strict siya sa pananamit ko- naalala ko noon na gsto ko magbackless pero magagalit daw siya if sinuot ko. Like hello you should be proud na sexy girlfriend mo
4) Ang bilis niya magalit. Hate ko talaga yung tinataasan ako ng boses, tapos parang laging pagalit ung sentences niya. Pag ganun, tumataas din boses ko and naiirita ako.
5) Hindi ako proud kasama siya. Hindi ko masikmura na may makakita sa amin na kakilala ko or kakilala niya and maassociate sa kanya. Ni bnlock ko nga ung kaisa isang mutual friend namin sa fb wag lang malaman na naging boyfriend ko siya e. Kasi hindi ko type itsura niya. Kahit sa anong anggulo ayoko at pangit siya.
6) Buti pa sana kung may sense of humor pero pangit, mapagttyagaan na. Pero duh, sabi ko bat ang seryo-seryoso mo? Alam mo mas ok if itatawa mo lahat ng problema kc di naman nawawala yung problema. If lagi kang nakabusangot every time na may pinagdadaanan ka, e di ang pangit mo na kasi di naman nawawala yan. Ganun siya. Be it family-related problem, work problem.
7) Wala siyang friends. I mean meron naman pero ung friends niya is pangit rin. Wala naman siyang friends na as in close na someone he can talk to without judging. More on he has friends na game related. IDK what, pero IDC
8) Tingin niya sakin immature. Well totoo naman. Sorry ha, wala pang P20,000 ung sahod ko compared sa nakita kong payslip niya na... 24k per cut off niya given his age. So kung gusto nyo malaki sahod mag IT kayo lol. Medyo insecure but one time nagtingin kasi kami ng Globe Postpaid Plans. Nagsuggest ng nag attend samin na pwede ako mag IPhone 8 pero may 8k cashout tapos di ko na maalala ung per month pero hinirit agad ng bf ko na di ko kaya. E ayoko naman magsette sa phone na di ko gusto
9) Naisip ko from number 8 incident, ayoko minamaliit ako. Hindi porket nauna ka sakin magkaroon ng mataas na sahod, sasabihin mo na sakin hindi career oriented. So porket workaholic ka, you work Monday to Friday na lagi OT and the weekend for photography and restaurant stuff. Tingin mo sakin walang pangarap? I love what I do. Mukha lang akong chill. Also sana pala di nako nag kkwento ng office politics and management issues sayo kasi di mo ko naiintindihan
10) I know what I want and he’s the exact opposite. He’s short, and fat. Also crooked yung teeth niya (wala daw siyang balak magpadentist pero diba dapat every year man lang magpacleaning ka or check) tapos he’s serious, tahimik, no sense of humor, no time for fun, no sex omg (we did it once tapos praning na praning sya if nabuntis niya ako. we had condom and pills omg ano pa ba ikakaworry mo?!). Sex is not fun pag siya. Marunong siya (i think magaling) but when we do it and nakikita ko siya hindi ako nag eenjoy kasi at the back of my mind yuck.
11) Ayaw mo ko nakikipag inuman with my friends even though may mga babae rin naman ksama. Sino ba nman kasi may sabi na maglasing ako and sunduin mo ko tapos ung sumama sakin palabas ng bar is mga guy friends ko. Hahhaa di ko naman alam na magsselos ka, and grabe todo explain pa ako na may kasama rin kaming mga babae sa loob ng taxi. Alam mo hate ko tlaga ung bihira na nga lang magkita pero walang time na di ka nagalit sakin or nagtampo. Hindi ka naman kasuyo suyo.
I decided to break up nung nag SB kami sa tomas morato. I’m with my friend that time and nainis ako kasi sabi mo before christmas gusto mo ko makita and makadate. Sumasakit ung idk idc basta may sakit ka nun tapos nagpapasama ka sa ospital but i declined. Kasi before that happened nagkkwento ako tapos tawa ako ng tawa, halos mamatay nako//di nako makahinga sa kakatawa sa sarili kong joke tapos ikaw NR lang. Walang kibo. And dun ko naisip na bat di tayo magbreak? Ayoko na. Di ko maimagine na kasama ka, and ayoko na magspend ng time kasama ka next year.
I’m sorry if nakipagbreak ako before christmas sayo. That’s December 18.
I’m sorry if nakipagbreak ako the night after maospital ka, and di kita sinamahan and wala akong pake sa nararamdaman mong sakit kasi ayoko na- when nung nagkasakit ako ikaw yung umalalay sakin and ikaw ung nagbantay sakin sa ospital kahit pagod ka na from work.
I’m sorry if nung tayo pa, I decided to sleep over sa condo ng guy na officemate ko dati (and don’t judge wlang nangyare) but di ko pinaaalam sayo na pumunta ako dahil nung nagpaalam ako na ppunta ako sa condo ni guy, sbi mo mkikipagbreak ka pag tinuloy ko so I lied na umuwi nako.
I’m sorry if I slept with my officemate nung tayo pa.
I’m a terrible person, I know. Kaya nga okay na siguro na nakipagbreak ako kasi hindi naman talaga kita mahal- I mean gusto to begin with.
My friends know this story and for them ang sama kong tao, na mali ginawa ko. Na pavictim ako. Pero kahit na sinasabi nila na you’re good for me, alam ko naabuso na kita and months before nagbreak tayo I don’t care anymore.
That Christmas, hindi naman naging malamig pasko ko. Okay nga ako e. And I vowed na maging single and hindi na makipagrelasyon sa taong di ko naman gusto. And yeah the year after that, wala na kong sinaktan na tao. Ayoko na pumasok sa isang relationship for wrong reasons.
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My weight loss journey
This was me at the beginning of my journey
December 2018 I decided to stand on the scales to see just how heavy I was, and my god I was horrified by the digits I saw! Thats when my love/hate relationship with the weighing scales took a turn for the better. I then decided that my new years resolution would be to lose some weight and get in to shape! So, on the 1st of January 2019 I did just that!
I started to eat healthier and make healthier choices at first but my mindset on food remained the same, which as we all know (for those that have a food addiction) is a real pain in the backside as we just hate wasting food or leaving leftovers. I mean being a few pounds away from twenty nine stone wasnt good for me, my health or my amazing wife who has supported me throughout my entire journey so far! The first step was to cut my portion size down bit by bit so it wasnt a drastic change, stop having takeaways and give myself one day of the week where I could eat something naughty to help curve the cravings for the rest of the week (didn’t go so well, ate like a pig on crap food!) So, I limited myself eventually but that bit comes later in my story! The first week I had lost almost half a stone and was feeling on top of the world! I never thought I could lose weight, as I always gave up after a month or so, this time however I was determined to stick it out. I had an appointment with the doctors, can’t remember what for but the results from a blood test showed I was ALMOST pre-diabetic, so even more important to shift the weight! By going along with most of the official Slimming World guidelines and rules (didn’t go to meetings, not my thing!) I found it easier at first, but figured out very quickly that it had its limitations as some things may work for others but not for me so, I made some tweaks to it, first off, its not a diet. Its a way of life! That bit is very important as if its a diet, you can quit at anytime, whereas if it is a part of daily life, you can’t!
After four months of eating healthier, being a little more active I had a follow up appointment with my GP who actually referred me to the gym, which to be fair I was a little anxious about, I mean the stigma around gyms is they are full of muscular, skinny people but, I found they weren't! Others like me doing their best to shed a few pounds. I will admit, I got addicted to the endorphins and the rush you get afterwards! Oh did I mention that before I started in the gym I had lost three and a half stone already?
Those of you that are on Slimming World and are buying SW chips, or par boiling homemade chips… DON’T DO IT! There is a better way! Handy trick for you, you can either peel them or keep the skin on, but slice your potatoes into chips, spray an oven tray with enough frylight to coat the tray, place the chips on, salt/pepper them and spray more frylight on top to make them crispy and place in the oven at 200 degrees Celsius for half an hour (depending on how you like them) and they are gorgeous! Healthy chips without all the faff!
Ok so, I left off last time after mentioning about my first visit to the gym. This was a whole new area of the world I hadn’t previously explored and was completely clueless! I knew how to use the bike and the treadmill but that was it. The fitness instructor I was assigned to was very inviting and kind, and always paid me compliments which helped boost my confidence whilst in the gym. I started on the TRX, bike, treadmill and squats to start with so, basically all cardio. Which I found relaxing to be fair. It got me into a routine, which I highly recommend for weight loss! Routine is one of the main things that has helped me get this far! Food routine and daily routine. After all, your body stores fat when you have irregular eating patterns as it doesn't know when it will be fed next. Sorry I digressed a little there.
I found that once I am in the gym, headphones in and my favourite music playing I was in the zone, where I could push myself each week to work harder, do more and improve the statistics on my account to show myself I am capable of doing it. At this point I was only attending the gym twice per week. I did this for six months and had lost a total of six and a half stone at this point. I even lost weight over Christmas!
Things changed in May 2020 thanks to the Corona Virus pandemic, where all the gyms, swimming pools etc all closed, so this is where I had to get creative to continue the weight loss and not just sit at home eating crap because I was stuck inside. So I headed over to Youtube and found one or two easy workout videos which I did every day, I was seeing great results! Losing more than I did whilst in the gym and feeling more energetic. I moved on to the video I still use every day today, Emi Wong 30 minute minute HIIT workout with no jumping. Not quite beginner but still a great workout, it has helped me get to the point where at this moment in time (04/06/2020) I am a pound away from a nine and a half stone loss! This is the part of my story where I can share some of the tricks I have used in order to get this far. Most of which are easy enough to do, but some will require self control and a great mental attitude!
This is me now, weighing 19.2 stone!
1) Routine, as mentioned above this helps you to stay the course and also allows you more freedom if that makes any sense?
2) Drink plenty of water, this in turn helps the skin retain its elasticity which helps your skin bounce back instead of having saggy, loose skin afterwards.
3) Eating meals which are healthy, but can be made exciting using herbs and spices to spruce them up a little, you can still have whatever you want but portion control is a must. I still eat sausages but they are Linda McCartney vegetarian sausages.
4) Keep active, says it all really. No explanation needed.
5) Change the way you think about food. Before I started this journey I LOVED pizza and now everytime I think about eating a slice I feel physically sick!
6) Three square meals a day at regular times, for example everyday I have two weetabix, blueberries, grapes, raspberries and strawberries for breakfast. Then I have lettuce, cucumber, cheese and ham sandwiches for dinner and for the main meal I tend to go for gammon (fat removed), broccoli and the chips I mentioned above. I don’t get hungry during the day doing this, so im not liable to eat more than I should.
7) Don’t be afraid to ask for help! People that want to see you in the best shape of your life are more than willing to help! NEVER be ashamed or afraid if you get tempted or have cheated by eating something you shouldn't have, we all do it! At the end of the day its your body, your choices and your life!
So that is my story so far. Any questions? Want somewhere to start yourself? Feel free to comment below and I will answer when I can as my wife and I run two small businesses. One is a website design business called www.wildewebdesign.co.uk and the other is a craft business called www.wildeaboutcrafts.co.uk feel free to take a look :)
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[Diabolik Lovers: Zero] Subaru Sakamaki Animate Tokuten: “A Vampire’s Late Night Snack” Translation/Traducción
Please no reposting onto other sites, just link back to this post-and ask me before translating this into other languages!—-Por favor no republiques y preguntame antés de traducir a otros idiomas.
English
0:03
What are you doing here? What are you doing here and why? You dont need to bother. You're doing too much. Ah, no way! "I wasn't in my room, so you were worried"? No, that's not the case! Reiji was annoying and woke me up. So, you didn't get any sleep either? They were making too much noise in the living room. Come on, hurry up let's go back.
0:54
Huh? Why aren't you coming with me? You want to get warm? Are you not feeling well? Really? Then, I guess we should get something. Hm, is that why your body was warm before? I don't understand the human body well. Was your forehead warm? Ah? Why are you looking there?
1:54
S-Stupid! Just cause its cold?? If its cold then we should hurry up and go back. Or get something warm then! It's nothing. Anyways, do you want to drink some tea? Heh, alright. Drink up fast, so we can go back to the room. Ah? Why do you want me to do it? I get it, I get it! It can't be helped with everyone around. I'll help you get some. Only since its nighttime. You're a weird person. Oh well, let's go to the kitchen. Hey, get the cup. Hurry up and make some! I'll help. It'll make this faster.
3:31
What are you doing! An apple? I thought you were making tea! You're putting the apple in the tea? You're putting an apple in that cup? I don't think that's possible, an apple in that cup? I don't get you. Hey, wait! Start moving. Just show me the recipe, I'll figure it out.
4:10
What else do we need for the tea? Be careful while you're boiling the water. You're clumsy, so be careful. It wont be my fault if you get yourself hurt. If you cut yourself, I wont forgive you. I'm a vampire so it's fine, I don't want you to injure yourself cause of me.
4:55
We should cut the apple into smaller pieces, right? It's starting to look diced up. Making food at this hour is kind of...interesting. Ah, I don't need any help! I know how to do this, just sit and watch. It's better if you just watch while I make this. Ah, and since I'm not that great at cooking, I'll feel better if you watch. This is gonna take a while, so I don't think it'll turn out that bad. Anyways, its fine! Here, hurry.
5:56
Finally, we can use the tea pot. We use this for tea, right? Oi! Not the apple! We can't just put it straight in like this! I don't get it! Hey, stop laughing at me like an idiot! I'm doing this fine! Well, here. We have to get the water to boil. We can make the tea here. I think this is the tea my mother uses?
6:31
It seems to be labeled as hibiscus. Is it supposed to have a pink color? This is getting more complicated. The cup is pink too. I don't think tea is supposed to have the consistency of soup? Shouldn't we try to change this? Eight cups...?
7:21
Ok, I'm putting the apple into this pink concoction. I guess it's time to drink it now. I think I might've made too much. Shit, whatever! Just drink it!
7:57
What's this? It tastes like the spices a bit. Is it the apple? I guess using the apple was good after all. Well, I guess it's the eight cups of apple that's making it so heavy. At least the apple's scent is calming. It makes you feel nice. Weeelll, I guess its not that bad for something I did. What do you think? Really?
8:55
Oi, you should rest. Its fine, come here. What? Your body is really warm. It makes me want to fall asleep. And because of the tea. But, well, this sweet smell is nicer than that tea from before.
9:26
Why does your blood smell sweet? What's with that? Hm, heheheh. How would that be? We're getting pretty tired, so we should get to sleep. Ah, but then again...that...was a different type of appetizing.
Español
0:03
¿Que haces aquí? ¿Por cual razón o la otra? No debes molestarte. Haces demasiado. Ah, ¡De ninguna manera! ¿"No estaba en el cuarto, a si que te preocupaste”? ¡A si no fue! Reiji me estaba molestando a si que me desperté. ¿Tú tampoco dormiste? Todos estaban haciendo ruido en la sala. Vamos.
0:54
¿Eh? ¿No vas a venir conmigo? ¿Quieres calentarte? ¿Te sientes mal? ¿En serio? En ese caso, supongo que debemos hacer algo. Hm, ¿Por eso, tu cuerpo tenia calor hace rato? No entiendo el cuerpo humano. ¿Tu cabeza estaba caliente? ¿Ah? ¿Por que me miras ahí?
1:54
¡O-Oye, tonta! ¿¿Tienes frio?? Si tienes frio, deberíamos regresar. Supongo que puedes agarrar algo para tomar que sea caliente. No es mal idea. ¿Quieres tomar té? Heh, esta bien. Apurate, a si que podemos volver el más pronto posible. ¿Ah? ¿Quieres que lo haga yo? ¡Esta bien, esta bien! No hay que hacer con todos ellos aquí. Te ayudare. Solamente por que es noche. Eres una persona rara. Pues, vamos a la cocina. Ey, encuentra las vasijas. Quiero volver rápido, a si que apurate, por que te ayudaré.
3:31
Que haces! ¿Una manzana? ¡Pensé que íbamos a hacer té! ¿Lo vas a poner dentro del té? No creo que sea posible, ¿una manzana en ese vaso? No te entiendo para nada. ¡Oye, espera! Empieza a moverte. Solo necesito la receta, lo demás lo hago yo.
4:10
¿Que más necesitamos para el té? Tenga cuidado mientras pones el agua a hervir. Eres torpe, a si que tengas cuidado. No será mi culpa si te cortas. No te lo perdonaré. Soy vampiro, no quiero que te cortes por mi culpa.
4:55
¿Vamos a cortar a la manzana dentro de cubitos? Ya parece que es suficiente. Cocinando a esta hora es...interesante. Ah, ¡No necesito tu ayuda! Sé lo que estoy haciendo, es mejor si solo me miras mientras cocino. Ah, también no sé mi habilidad de cocinar, y me sentiría mejor si mi vigilaras. Con todo el tiempo que gaste en hacer esto, no debe salir mal. ¡Esta bien! Aquí, tenga.
5:56
Ya podemos usar la tetera. ¿Por eso se usa, no? ¡Oi! ¡A la manzana no! ¡No podemos ponerlo directamente! ¡No entiendo! Hey, ¡no me pongas la cara de idiota! ¡No estoy teniendo dificultades..! Vaya, tenga. Ya tenemos el agua listo. Podemos hacer el té. Creo que este es el té que toma mi mama.
6:31
Se llama hibisco. ¿Es normal que sea de color rosa? Sé está poniendo complicado. El té no debe tener la misma forma que una sopa, ¿verdad? ¿Ocho tazas..? No puede ser correcto, deberíamos cambiarlo, ¿no?
7:21
Ok, voy a poner la manzana dentro de la mezcla rosa. Supongo que ya está listo para tomar. Creo que hice demasiado. ¡Sin embargo! ¡Ya tománoslo!
7:57
¿Que esto? Sabe como especia. ¿Quizás es la manzana? Supongo que fue buen idea agregar la manzana. Las ocho tazas de manzana es lo que hace el té tan pesado. A lo menos, el aroma de la manzana de calma. Me siento mejor. No es nada mal por algo que hice yo mismo. ¿Que opinas? ¿En serio?
8:55
Oi, deberías descansar. Esta bien, acercate. ¿Que? Tu cuerpo esta caliente, y me da sueño. El té también. Pero, este aroma es mejor.
9:26
¿Tu sangre tiene una aroma dulce? ¿Por que será? Hm, heheheh. ¿Que tal? Ya estamos cansados, a si que deberíamos dormir. Ah, pero si...esto...es una diferente forma de apetito.
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{Get to Know my Muse in 8 Songs or Less}
Music is a great way to get a sense of a character’s personality, history, or general vibes. You might only have a handful of songs you associate your muse, or you could have a massive playlist that’s impossible to list. Songs make it for all kinds of reasons: the lyrics, the genre, or maybe you just found the song at random and it stuck. The purpose of this meme is to introduce your muse in the span of one album or less, share some of your musical inspiration, or even stuff you’re into right now while you write! You can explain as much or as little as you like (multimuses are welcome to do one track per character too!).
((I kind of broke the rules of this meme, and made a playlist for my main 3 muses. It’s a lot to go through, so its ok if you don’t want to listen to them all... ^^;))
General
1. [Stadler - Dreams of war] This was actually one of the first theme songs I chose for General, but I feel like it still manages to capture his personality prefectly. I think it kind of speaks for itself.
2. [A Cerulean State - If Only I Had Forever] When I listen to this song, I imagine General leaning against a balcony and staring at the stars... Maybe thinking about the things that could have been.
3. [Evening Star - Octavia] Here’s one that’s more upbeat. Even though this is an MLP song, it’s always reminded me of General. I don’t really know what this one makes me think of though...
4. [Two Steps From Hell - Submariner] Here’s a look at General’s more serious side. This one makes me think of General on the move. Most likely headed to a battle.
5. [David Edwards - Insurrection] I’ve been thinking about choosing this song as his new combat theme, because it captures how scrary it would actually be to fight him. His armor is nearly impenetrable, he’s strong enough to bash through the walls of fortresses, can easily crush a reploid in his hand, and It’s almost impossible to hide from his onslaught (if you’re a reploid) because his whiskers can detect electrical activity. I tend to assocoiate heavy sounding orchestral stuff with him anyways.
6. [Audiomachine - Last Plane Out] I chose this song to be the theme of General’s sacrifice. I remember that in my story, I actually drew the scene out a bit. Instead of moving himself into the path of the final weapon’s beam, he instead dives into the structures surrounding the core, and uses the last of his strength to cause as much destruction as he can. General eventually succumbs to his wounds, and has a surprisingly peaceful death before the inferno from the core’s implosion could take him. He died a true hero, giving up everything he had already sacrificed so much for to protect the innocent humans and reploids of earth.
7. [The Volga Boatmen (Paul Robeson cover)] I remember sharing this song to show how I imagined General’s singing voice to sound.
Colonel
1. [Two steps from hell - Never back down] This is the song I chose to be Colonel’s theme song. Beleive it or not, it has actual lyrics. I think they suit him really well.
2. [Kingdom Hearts II Soundtrack - Passion - KINGDOM Orchestra Instrumental Version] If I could make this Colonel’s theme I would, but I have a personal rule against using songs from popular media for themes. I remember a time when I had almost lost muse for him, but listening to this song helped me remember his more noble and heroic side (mostly at 1:56 though).
3. [Thomas Bergersen - Immortal] This is actually one of the previous theme songs I had for him. I think it still does kind of fit
4. [Two Steps From Hell - Winterspell] Whenenver I listen to this one, it almost makes me picture a scene where Colonel goes on some kind of mission. Also so far it seems like most of these songs make me think of Colonel running. He’s pretty good at that after all, being able to reach a top speed of 30mph on foot.
5. [Charlene Soraia - Wherever You Will Go] Sometimes I imagine Colonel singing this song to Iris. It reminds me of an idea I had a while ago where Colonel and Iris would have a bit of a falling-out, and Iris would try to stay on Earth with Zero while Colonel would try to go space with General. Still, even though her descision had hurt him, he respected her choice. They had been close their whole life, and now... They would be truly separated for the first time. Even though she’s not there to listen, it’s like Colonel is silently calling for her to come back. It makes me feel a little choked up knowing that despite all the greif that Iris had caused him during the war, he never stopped loving her. (One of the lyrics doesen’t really work here, but... you know.)
6. [Manowar - Die with Honor] The lyrics of this song really makes me think of Colonel’s last stand against Zero at the spaceport. I remember imagining that He had actually decided to stay back and fight off the hunters so that General could escape. Maybe I’d change a couple words in the song though, since Colonel never had a son... ^^; It also makes me think of this card from Teppen, which says: “Pushing himself ever further for the sake of his comrades, this proud reploid's blade can cleave any enemy in to two.”
7. [Two steps from hell - Unforgiven] This is the battle theme I’d decided on for him. The ascending notes in the background are like rising winds, the snare is like rain hitting your face, and the big drum that comes every now and again is like a thunderclap. Near the end, I imagine that Colonel is wounded, but has one last surge of energy before he either wins or loses. I didn’t call him the “Silver Prince of storms” for nothing. I remember imagining that his final battle with Zero would get so stormy and rainy that they would both have reduced visibility and would be at risk of falling off of the bridge they’re fighting on.
8: [josielemmings - In a Dying Whisper] “...Never in my life did I expect you to be the one to strike me down... Our practice duels... At one time we bonded over them... But now... It seems that they were only the beginning..." -Colonel, when he realized he was dying
I’d say that by the time the chorus starts, he’s completely gone.
Iris
1. [Lucas king - Smiles] This is the song I chose for Iris’s theme. I think it really fits the impression she tends to leave on people.
2. [Lucas King - Cat] In Iris’s bio, I used this song to describe the way she feels when she’s with Colonel. Warmth, happiness, security, familiarity... Those are the words that come to my mind. I like how the bass of the song almost makes me think of Colonel’s presence and/or voice.
3. [Yann Tiersen - Summer 78] I’m not quite sure why, but this song still reminds me of Iris. I guess it’s her more ‘serious‘ theme. I feel like this track and the one after it do kind of capture her hopefulness.
4. [Yann Tiersen - Mother's Journey] This one makes me picture Iris running through the rain as fast as she can, as well as how she did her best to endure the turmoil happening around her. It makes me think of her perserverance and her quiet desperation.
5. [SAMUEL BARBER - Adagio for Strings] I imagined this to play when Iris would go to Repliforce’s spaceport, but she would find that not only have all of the ships left, there’s also fallen Repliforce soldiers littering her path. Eventually, she finds Colonel laying there... Completely motionless. She was too late to say she was sorry...
6. [Really Slow Motion & Giant Apes - Swirling Dinosaurs] This one was a last-minute descision, since I was kind of dissatisfied with the battle theme that’s actually in her bio (for X4). When Iris fought Zero, she was pushed to her physical, emotional, and psychological limits... All for the sake of trying to finish Colonel’s fight for him.
7. [Lucas King - Hurt] I picked this song to play for Iris’s death scene. No joke, when I played this over the cutscene in X4 (redubbed), I felt like my eyes got slightly moist. It really reminds me of her body struggling to stay alive in that moment as she becomes weaker by the second.
BONUS TRACKS: Post a joke song, a song fitting a relationship, or anything else you couldn’t make room for)
[Atherine Jenkins & Laszlo Maleczky - Amigos Para Siempre] I’ve kind of made this my song for Colonel and Iris. I oftem imagine them singing it as a duette.
[Two Steps From Hell - Dark Harbor] I think this song would be good for Jet Stignray’s grim mission... Cut off the Hunters’ supply lines by destroying its very source.
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