#Hope this all makes sense :'o

[coldercreation]

PSA: 

If you have related to how I have described Nathan’s struggles with his mental health and some experiences with life; emotional, physical and social etc (ignore the story/his fam background for this; I mean if you have been able to relate to his feelings/anxiety/negative physical sensations etc.)

Might be worth it to get your blood checked. 

Especially B12, Vitamin D, Iron levels and Ferritin (ferritin should be 100+).

Building on top of the character, character background, and my research into trauma / mental health etc, I have always used a lot of my personal experience when describing emotions, feelings, and how mental health issues can feel like or present. It’s my attempt to make the writing feel realistic, had I experienced the things in the story or not. Aka even if the story was high fantasy and thus not realistic, I’d source my own feelings to make it ‘real’.

So. Regardless of what's causing it in the story: If you have ever related to how Nathan FEELS or describes his experience with the world and his brain… (Anxiety, depression, chronic fatigue, feeling like an outsider/in a fishbowl, easily overwhelmed or over tired; social withdrawal, social anxiety, heart palpitations, chest pains, breathlessness, dissociation, irritability, issues with cognitive function; memory, overthinking, insomnia, brain fog, panic attacks, slow recovery from physical activity, etc etc et fucking c) 

Turns out bish has been chronically deficient of many things for a very long time due to stomach issues that stopped nutrients from absorbing. Antidepressants have never successfully worked for me, and it’s now looking like that’s because my mental health stuff could've largely been a physical symptom, instead of just purely mental health?? 

I have been on a pile of supplements for a bit now and uhh… It’s like night and day? Even with the other health stuff I've been getting treated for, it's been... So much better?? Like. Life changing amount of difference?? And I’m only just starting out fixing these deficiencies, which could take a long time. But...

Holy shit, “Better” might actually be a real thing after all?? There was a reason I've been so "stuck"???

Kind of mad… And sad. Because if this is true and I keep feeling like I have been recently, it means I’ve lost a lot of time to this. I try to focus on how good I’ve been feeling though, and stay curious for this journey of what literally feels like a second chance at life.

Just… Wanted to post this in case it could help someone else. This is a highly personal experience, mental health issues absolutely exist on their own too and there's possibly often overlap as well. But stuff like this can make existing mental health conditions worse too, so either way it’s worth checking. 

Yeah. So.

Happy new year?

From someone who might be pulling a whole Phoenix moment???? xx

#Apologies for the silence here #Been going through a lot if you can imagine lol #I have a bunch of asks and messages to catch up to #I'm so sorry for taking forever #It might take me a bit longer still but I promise I'll get back on here at some point hopefully soon #Your messages mean so much to me<3 #Take care everyone <3 #Also #the description of Nathan's experience could and would still be rather accurate #even if you don't have these physical health issues!! #Depression and anxiety etc from a deficiency is still depression and anxiety #+ when I write Nathan I have a set of mental health “maps” or “guides” for his character (like C-PTSD and CEN and OCD) #Yes I use my own feelings and experiences to describe his anxiety etc #But his character is built around specific mental health markers / trauma research / symptoms etc (like C-PTSD and CEN and OCD) #So I'm pretty sure Nathan's POV would still look very similar based on just that research and ignoring the stuff in this post #Hope this all makes sense :'o

[crybaby-bkg]

I love jealous Bakugou who starts peacocking after a while to get all of your attention.

going to a party and Kiri carelessly picks you up to spin you during a dance, drunken laughter shared between you two. Bakugou watches on the couch the whole time, eyes slitted as he nurses the same beer he’s had all night. he listens to you giggle over the music about how strong Kiri is and—fuck it, he’ll show you strength. he takes the opportunity to scoop you off of your feet next time you guys are out and there’s a puddle in the middle of the road, puffs his chest out a little as he cradles you against him, when you let out that lighthearted giggle but for him this time.

Bakugou catches you chatting deku up, squeezing at his biceps when you tease him about how big he’s been getting. you only do it bc you know it flusters the green haired man, and you think it’s cute how he looks like a strawberry whenever you coo at him. But Bakugou only sees that as the push to go to the gym more, focusing even more on his arms, wearing all of his tanks around you. puffs his chest out again when he puts his arms behind his head and you pat at the bulging muscle and find yourself tracing the veins on his arms.

He sees you dancing with Sero at another squad gathering, something fast and sensual, your arms around his neck while he holds your waist. his face is buried into your neck and it makes you giggle whenever he whispers where to move your feet next. and does Bakugou take that as an active threat against his crush on you? of course he does. finds himself holding you against him at a party, swaying with you, way out of his comfort zone but he wants to show you that he can dance too, damnit.

Denki makes some offhanded comment about holding your bags when you go out to an amusement park, something else about going with you when you need the bathroom too. Bakugou is most definitely shoving him out of the way, manhandling all of your bags from you as he pushes you in the direction of the bathrooms instead. finds his chest practically spilling out of his shirt when you hug him by the end of the night, thanking him for being so kind, telling him that he’s the best friend you could ask for.

and does his heart drop to his ass when he hears the word friend? maybe. just a little.

#a hint of angst in the end lol a little unrequited love if you will #I wrote this last night while sleeping meds were in my system #so I hope this makes sense #I was thinking about jealous peacocking bkg tho all day yesterday #bc I wore this cute ass maxi dress and was like #he’d be so pressed to say that he was my bf lol #I want him obsessed just a liddol 🤏🏾 #oh and I loveeeee the thought of dancing with Sero so so so much #like hip to hip #faces close as you breathe in the same breath #and he’s smiling down at you all cheeky bc he sees how flustered you are just from dancing #I’m slowly becoming a Sero simp omg o vant #I CANT #what the hel is o vant #anyway #I wanna either do my makeup today or keep writing my original story #not enough hours in the day :( #have a great one guys!!! #—another tasty treat! 🍬 #mha sweets! 🍬 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[fala-alfredo-pasta]

hiii uhh im not sure if you are take requests rn and I don’t wanna seem like rude or anything but could u draw kokichi and makoto like interacting??? idk but it would be cool to see them meet or something lol

(post v3 and they're somehow all alive in the real world or something idk au but imagine if Makoto's secret was actually legit and the whole Danganronpa obsessed world just knows about it now and it never really dawned on him? that'd be messed up.)

#itosh1teru #danganronpa #makoto naegi #kokichi ouma #naegi makoto #ouma kokichi #fala replies #req art #fun fact: i don't actually understand post v3 game aus that have all the characters alive including #sdr1 and 2 because it doesn't make sense in my mind but if im gonna use it then by god will #makoto be older because CMON v3 is the 53rd installment which if we assume there's at least #3 danganronpa installments in a year that'll still put the sdr1/2 cast 17 years older #''But Fala you could have just put them attending Hopes Peak together!'' #i know i know that makes more sense and is usually the au i go with but look look #i wanted kokichi to tease makoto about his bladder problems like the lil asshole he is okay? #because you KNOW he would you KNOW. #30+ year old Makoto being bullied by an emo mime looking teenager is a very real threat that can happen #a e i o queue

[candyheartedchy]

So uh… I might end up with a live action f/o…

#okay so I was watching clips of this one show #mostly because I was curious #and then afterwards I went to listen to some music and caught myself daydreaming about the one character #and I panicked #I don’t know if this character will become a thing but uhhhhh… im having conflicted feelings #just… well… i being vague because it’s embarrassing #like pretty much all of my f/os are animated and I never had a live action f/o before #and the character is silly and over the top but…….. #*groans* #and I don’t think it’s like a celebrity crush type of thing #like I usually separate a animated character from the VA but to see the actor is… hmmm #and I’m just sitting here kinda wanting to watch this show even though it’s very cheesy #just to learn more about this character #like I already made sketches of the character and I’m MAD #god I hope this makes sense because I’m struggling trying to explain this #💬 chy chatter 💬

[mamawasatesttube]

Hello, I'm pretty new to the Superboy fandom. Can I ask you this question:

This part on his Wikipedia page caught my attention.

Do you know the instances (issues, panels, lines, etc) where Kon-el expresses that he doesn't want to be considered Superman's sidekick or similar sentiments?

I would really like to understand more about his feelings regarding his role in relation to Superman and his feelings toward the big man himself.

Thank you, and I apologize if any part of my ask sounds rude to you.

hoookay this is probably gonna be a bit of a doozy but i'll try and keep it concise!!!

first of all, rec-wise, you're probably gonna wanna read the entirety of "reign of the supermen" and "the return of superman". which is a lot, i know, but there's so much going on there that it's honestly hard for me to pick and choose any single issue out of it that would make sense as a standalone.

so at first, before clark himself comes back on the scene, we get things like the classic "don't ever call me 'superboy!'" panel as well as things like this:

where it's clear that kon sees himself as superman, the "real" superman. he does also acknowledge that he's young and he needs to learn to be and do better, as when john henry irons tells him he needs to accept responsibility for his showboating causing frank the helicopter pilot's death, so it's not like he's a full-on arrogant jackass about being the best already, but at this point "superman" is his entire identity. he's not shy about the fact that he's a clone, either; he tells lois, and later, everyone in metropolis via tv, that he is a kryptonian clone and obviously not the og superman himself, but he's still insistent that he is superman.

a fun side note here: this is actually before the retcon that kon was a human with a metagene, so he is actually a full clone of superman!

in fact that's part of why lois knows something is up with cyborg superman in the wake of the destruction of coast city. it's not entirely relevant to the question of their relationship except that it IS my favorite interpretation and also i think it adds a particular flavor to kon's relationship to superman as the gold standard he was made to achieve, the model he was made to emulate.

"Superman... the first Superman... didn't let Doomsday trash his town... and I won't let these creeps rip it down!"

superman is his role model in every way. he respects him a lot even in death and wants to be as much like him as he can. at this point kon's definitely a hotheaded and easily-distracted kid, but he's also all of three weeks old, so...

"Ripping free of this trap would be child's play for Superman... but I'm his clone, aren't I?"

so we can see from early on kon definitely ties his sense of self and his sense of self-worth to "how am i measuring up to superman?" that's a recurring theme we'll see with him over and over.

by the end of the fight with hank henshaw, kon has fully accepted that superman's back and is The OG:

"Check that, Blondie. I'm not Superman. That guy's Superman! The one and only!"

after this we get the "actually a human clone with a ttk metagene" retcon and kon's departure for hawaii:

he leaves for two primary reasons: a) to make a name for himself because he wants to be worthy of the superboy/superman mantle and the s-shield, and b) because editorial wanted superboy to be its own separate title. he thinks the world of superman and wants to make him proud, essentially, while also maintaining his independence.

(clark is also around and interacting him during that retcon arc but i'm a little tired and don't wanna go hunt down any more panels right now, so ... that's for another day.)

and then of course there's superboy (1994) #59, where kon actually gets the name kon-el, something incredibly meaningful to both him and clark:

in summary: kon really, really looks up to clark. he wants to be worthy of his trust and often berates himself when he feels like he's not being enough like superman. his strong drive for independence is part of that: he wants to be totally independent and capable on his own, just like superman.

#answers #cresseeau #kon #clark #long post #i hope this answers the question lkjglkejgl i know ''the return of superman'' is such a doozy of a rec but #it really is just a lot going on all at once and i dont think any of it makes sense w/o full context

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

wait does this mean you’ll be able to explore the update when it drops now? because of the new date? or is the case still the same?

no ok this answer is sooooo Funny bc uh

well apparently due to a Christmas Miracle i don't start working this week, today was just orientation. so i Would have been able to actually make it.

but now? WHO KNOWS!!!! WHO FUCKING KNOWS!!! i dont have my schedule yet!!! i'll get it by wednesday!!! so!!! with my continuously Dogshit luck! the case is still very much the same!

#my glimmer of hope has been ripped from my grasp and thrown off the edge of a very active dam #im watching its sparkle dim as it falls and falls... into that watery abyss... #man. can one thing work out. can one Single Thing- #ANSWER: NO!!! IT NEVER HAS AND IT NEVER WILL!!! #but we stay silly!!! despite it all! #i finally let myself believe Holy Shit. I'm Gonna Make It To The Festivities #and then clown comes in with the steel fucking chair- #rambles from the bog #i cant wait for them to be like 'you start On friday <3' #i bow to no god but. man. praying that i dont start working until the monday after the 8th #pleaaassseeee it wouldnt make sense for me to start in the middle of the week pleasseeee #wait for a fresh cycle PLEAAASSSSEEEE #just this one thing. ill be such a good employee please just let me have this Dear Fucking God Please- #ill work so so hard just dont make me miss it im begging u.... o employment gods... spare me...

[baselicoc]

sure, you can keep your employee around by pretend-drugging him. or you can keep him around by threatening something he loves. that could also work.

anway i've been mentioning a spider AU for gabe here and there but heres the full sheet as it stands now. alchemax is possibly even worse than canon 2099 in his universe, and by nature of his connection to miguel he becomes a bit of a victim to it.

#gabriel o'hara #gabriel o’ hara #spiderman #spider-man 2099 #sm2099 #spiderman 2099 #yes im busy with artfight. yes i will still find time to gabriel post #i tried to make sure the details made enough sense as they stood on their own but ive been rotating this guy in my brain for ages #so they also might not. make sense. im tired #my art #hoping this doesnt look like an existing spider costume cause my silly ass did not check at all

[strawbubbysugar]

Ough as the end draws near I’m seeing more and more comments that are making me nervous that the ending won’t live up to all the hype & expectations aaaa aa

#ask #for example #there’s a few notes I’ve forgotten about that we’re gonna be important but now make no sense in the story #so I’ve gotta figure out how to work them in #without it feeling forced #and at the same time #continuing with the idea I’ve been married to for a few weeks about what the ending is gonna be #but now I’m so nervous that people won’t like the ending #and I’ll have ruined this fic #sobs #ik most of you will hopefully enjoy it!! but even seeing a few be like ‘aw :( I hoped something else would happen’ is gonna be ROUGH #but honestly #thank you all for the amazing experience you’ve given me writing this #I never realized just how much I enjoy writing until I started writing this fic #and all the love has been so sos o life changing #so thank you all <3 #one person specifically said I was ‘stalling’ but like :( I’m drawing out the tension. if I do things too quickly it won’t have any umph. #I just haven’t been able to stop thinking abt that comment sigh #personal

[rainymoodlet]

Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸

[Episode Five] One Last Push!

we all agree that fabian looks like a literal puppy here?? okay good dfkjshd When I said damage control, I meant damage control! Fabian was one of our Jealous Few that felt incredibly sad after watching Daniel leave the room, and after his last few conversations, our Bachelor is realizing just how important it is to be straightforward in this competition! (y'know.... he's still learning) Dan felt incredibly guilty about leaving our poor Mr. Hawkins frowning out in the summer heat - and Fabian's understanding earned him a First Kiss Whim! 💋

[ Part 12/?? ] 🌹

@rebouks

#ts4 #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 bachelor challenge #;kmik #sim: daniel #fabian hawkins by rebouks #|| #i realize dan is doing a LOT OF THE TALKING in these scenes dsjfhdkj but he has a lot of splainin' to do #i don't know if these are making any sense anymore dlkfd i'm so worried idk why #but fabian is such an angel ;u; i'm not on my phone so i can't properly cryyy in emojis but omgoodness #he was SO SAD and daniel was doing everything in his power to comfort him #'discuss sad mood' and 'comfort fabian' kept popping up over and over in his grab bag along with jokes and lil flirts :') #i promise our contestants will get to say and do so much more past these scenes jdhfdkfj #but i hope his voice comes through here!! #he got a palm lip brush!!! ;o; thats somethin!!! #thank you all for stickin w me durin my weird-ass posting schedule :') #im not really active while i'm offline i literally just had to the time to sit down and edit this today so i've only got one post for y'all #but i hope you enjoyyy ;u; #a special note for fangs and lori in here that i love you guys and i'm thinkin about you ;o;/ #and BECCAAA bless you for this absolute sweetheart - dan and i cannot get enough of him uvu #and dw dan doesnt feel bad abt his feelings for anyone!!! he just feels bad about how he's handled it dfhkjdfjh #i love you all!!! i disappear back into the shadows of my queue now but i'm so glad everyone enjoy their lil inbox messages :'))) #some of them didnt seem to send so im DOIN EM AGAIN TONIGHT

[linkvcr]

What are your biggest art influences? And how would you personally describe your style?

Hope you’re having a most epic swagtacular day :]

hero’s-shade-fanclub

hmmm honestly first thing that comes to mind is my friends! we call a lot so i get to watch them draw and i think it has influenced my style quite a bit. other than that ... one thing i do get influenced by a lot is concept art from media i like. smth abt concept art is always rlly good to me

and im not quite sure how id describe my style! its kinda hard for me to describe it at all LOL, it was very interesting seeing how other people would describe my art though, back when i asked for the evil art style challenge [which i still need to do, whoops] if i had to try though, maybe textured and soft? just bc i hardly ever use sharp angles in my art and always use textured brushes lmao

hope u are having a good day too :-] o7

#srry if this is all over the place. kind of hard question for me but fun to think abt bc i never rlly think abt it LOL #ty for the question >.o #honestly describing my own art style has always been a bit. [shrugs] bc im just like well. there it is ! #so i love when ppl mention what my style looks like thru their eyes #hope this all makes even a bit of sense #txt

[aleeyenn]

Can you talk about more your headcannon about Tree and his relationship with Leafy

sure!!! i’ll try to keep it short (also shout out to my friend max for a bunch of these ideas he’s the one who made me like this headcanon and gave me all the juice max if you’re reading HAAAY!)

i like to think of tree as an older sibling to leafy but he’s super protective of her they’re close and love each other a bunch but they have disagreements especially revolving around firey because tree thinks firey is a bad person/influence on leafy because of what happened between them even after their problem was solved leafy of course still goes out with firey even tho tree disapproves and he is always sour about it but deep down he’s only like that because he’s worried firey is gonna take leafy away from him But of course! the problem will be solved eventually and they’ll talk it out and it’ll all be happy and nice i can never leave a story with a bad ending TEEHEE but yeah…

here is some old stuff i did with tjem!

#also sorry for making firey a part of this HE JUST PLAYS A BIG ROLE IN IT #tree and leafys relationship is pretty much your typical sibling relationship but the stuff with firey is the biggest thing in their #quarrels and like YEAH they spend time together and all that … #i hope this all makes sense #also This sounds SAOO CRINGE BUT NOBODH UNDERSTANNDSSS IT #you have to be me to truly understand it all in a way that doesn’t make me sound like an 11 y/o om amino in 2018

[running-out-of-infinity]

harry’s home (2022)

#stylesedits #stylesnews #1dsource #tracksintheam #trackinghappily #idk how tagging works anymore i'm so out o floop #anyway hope someone finds this pretty enough to reblog :((( #i;'m so behind but nvm #harry styles #harry's house #hs lyrics #harry's house lyrics #it all made sense in my head okay #like everything was CALCULATED #but it probably only makes sense to me hehehe #*

[rapidhighway]

oh i think people might've come here from my comic thinking im a huge scu fan, im actually a hater (full of love)

#listen the movies are fine and theyre fun and i have a lot of fun when i watch them #and they make sense in their own canon and its all fine #but thats not my man thats someone else #hes fine and cute and i like him but thats not the same character #especially when you think that both sonic and knuckles basically exchanged backstories #its very obvious when youre writing fic and tryingt o figure out how a character would react to situation #and you realize that what the scu characters would so is like the opposite of what the game characters would act #xd #you know #hey i like the movies #but im not gonna pretend they're the best characterization of any of these characters cause theyre not #i do appreciate the found family especially the inclusion of knuckles #game canon would never give us that im very happy with that they did in the movies #STILL #i hope you get me

[skeletalheartattack]

wait hold on now I am genuinely curious: Why is D-Sides your favourite Gorillaz album? I never vibed with it myself so I am interested in hearing what you like about it that I'm missing out on.

so, i haven't listened to Gorillaz in a long while, nor do i tend to listen to music that actively these days, but i re-listened to the entire album, side 1 and side 2, to try and come up with a reason why i like it so much. i do want to preface and say, yeah, the album (side 1 atleast) is very "plain", there's not a whole lot going on, nor are there any guest artists on any of the songs.

but in listening to the album again, a few things kinda appear in my brain regarding the album. one is that it brings back a set of memories of taking trips to and from Ohio to live with my mother and step-father during a few breaks between high school, and how a lot of the songs in the album i remember heavily listening to while trying to sleep in the back of their car (i'm 6'2", and sleeping horizontally in the back of a moderately small car was. not great). i had the main 6 albums before Humanz installed to my kindle, since Humanz hadn't come out yet as these trips were between... 2014 and 2016. i mainly remember hearing D-Sides the most i feel on those trips, whether it be intentional, or my sleep patterns would have me looping back around to D-Sides... that or i mostly started with D-Sides at the beginning of those trips.

another thing i'm kinda thinking about after having re-listened to the album is how much side 1 kinda reminds me of Boe, in terms of the vibes; there's a lot of somber vibes i get from some songs that fits well for him (Hong Kong and Spitting Out the Demons both being notable songs that remind me of Boe himself, and also of those long trips). side 2 on the other hand, it's remixes remind me a lot of the Sims 2, specifically the console version, as i associate a lot of Sims 2 with it's console selection of music... which is mostly a more heavy focus on the electronic tracks from the PC version; a lot of the remixes feel like something i could hear playing on the radio while i'm controlling my sim around and doing tasks.

last thing, maybe, is that i never hear folks refer to D-Sides as one of their favourites, so maybe that's why i have it as mine. out of respect perhaps.

#ask #anon #honestly i think a lot of how i imagine Boe's world being similar to that of Gorillaz/Demon Days era of Gorillaz #like with o green world's trash filled wasteland. right. or kong studios trashed vibes during Demon Days. #that's kinda a vibe i think about with both hell and limbo. although i only really imagine the trash being a focus in Boe's house #which is less of something he has to deal with ever since having Budd around #but. anyway. maybe D-Sides isnt what you could call a ''traditional favourite'' of mine but. #idk its still got vibes for me. #like all 6 albums before humanz i would all put in my top 3. yeah that doesnt make sense but. whatever man. #im not sure if this is the answer youre looking for though. for me i guess its familiarity. #and ofc having D-Sides so high has nothing to say about Demon Days or Plastic Beach btw #honestly like. between those six. i feel a lot share the number 1 place. #i cant explain it but. yeah #i hope this atleast makes some sense anon. its less about the music itself and more of how i associate with it i guess #thats art babey #thank you for this ask anon #i wanted to give the best answer i could. which involved listening to the entire thing in the dark so it was my full focus #and from that the response above is kinda my summary on it all.

[dwn012]

laptop threw a fit so im on mobile and my rp acct hi confession time for a third time. recently ive been super stressed abt writing Quick bc i feel i can never quite achieve that ideal version of my interpretation of him? i have to like literally confine myself to write him bc im super talkative and emotional and its just so hard in practice augh o|< fr i played myself when i decided to pick up Ariga Quick as a muse

i feel i can never quite achieve that ideal version of my interpretation of him?

I know confession time isn't exactly for advice but at least hear me out: You might be putting too much pressure on yourself to be perfect. From one creative to another I know what that feels like- it's a sisyphusian problem of working up, up, up towards that ideal version of our vision only to look back and see we never left the starting line.

The thing is, that trying to create that ideal version of our creative idea just... It's not going to happen. It was like that with Heat's headcanon piece, sure it was perfect when I decided to publish it but you end up looking back with new experience and new knowledge that changes your creative thinking and suddenly it's not so perfect anymore. The thing about your Quick (and I don't want to try and exactly characterize him here, you know him better than I do) is that, to me hes an enigma, hes something completely disconnected from you or I and I think that's where the issues start to arise.

i have to like literally confine myself to write him bc im super talkative and emotional and its just so hard in practice

You said it here, that your portrayal is completely different from you making it so hard in practice to get that accurate interpretation. I think you should really reassess what you want out of having Quick as a muse- Do you want to have fun? Do you want to be strong? Why are you writing him in the first place?

The thing I've learned recently, with my more recent writing is that I'm not writing to be accurate to anything (you really can't, not with mega man oh NO) and as much as I try to educate myself on current and known science regarding the robotics field (I still need to finish that article)-

Sometimes something is just. Cool. It's badass, it hits that certain spot that makes you sit up in your chair or shift because the energy you just got thinking about that idea was too much to handle.

You were the one who told me that rp is all about fun, it's a game! It's art. I wanna return the favor and say maybe what you're trying to do is not make Quick accurate, but fun. Maybe then you'll find your ideal portrayal.

#I HOPE. #THIS MAKES SENSE I ACTUALLY HAD TO REWRITE ALL OF THIS #I also hope im not stepping out of line ;o; do say something if im misunderstanding the problem #but i remember while researching being stressed out trying to get the perfect idea of the robot masters- how they work #how modern technology would apply to them #I wanted it to be accurate to the technical level #that was (And admittedly still is) my ideal portrayal of all the rms i look into #but ive realized sometimes thats just not fun. sometimes the rule of cool is king #I hope Quick reaches that pinnacle for you #of what you want out of him #<3<3<3 #i dont have emojis i hope if anything this made you feel better Willow ;u; #I cant wait to see what you do with him when you get back in your groove!!