#HES HIDING HIS TRUE SELF

[bluefiz]

He just doesn’t understand

#OK SO BASICALLY this is a transfem/gender fluid sanji comic #sanji’s putting on makeup the way he learnt during the timeskip and then zoro walks in #zoros like oh its ok perona put me in makeup too and it was nice to try and show sanji hes supportive #sanji thanks him for it but cant bring himself to tell zoro that he’s dressing up to express his not-cis identity #HENCE SOME OF HIS HAIR FALLS BACK TO HIS FACE #HES HIDING HIS TRUE SELF #but both of his eyebrows are showing so he’s atleast facing his fear of judgement #i should write a fanfic with this idea or something #i have so many more ideas for this headcanon but so little time #thanks for reading if you did #trans sanji #sanji #vinsmoke sanji #zosan #roanoa zoro #one piece #one piece comic #hes so pretty i just wanna eat him like a marshmallow

[originalaccountname]

putting my hands on your shoulders looking directly into your eyes why are you so insistent that Dazai is faking every emotion every second of every day except when he's acting mean or evil why do you think his dark side is more true than his happier or sillier sides

do you not also have multiple facets you show different people? are we not all beautiful multifaceted individuals? are your actions and reactions not influenced by your emotions and state of mind?

can't he laugh at his own jokes? can't he fondly think of the Agency? can't he be dramatic because he wants to? can't he be surprised by something suddenly happening, even if he knew it would happen? do you not jump when the jack in the box gets out even if you were the one working the mechanism?

why would the mean persona be more real? why would any and all joy be faked? why are you only allowing him misery?

#sorry i saw one too many posts talking about dazai's ''masks'' and how he hides his true self from the ada #and what of it if he still has the potential to hurt others? what of it if he's good at hurting? every day he chooses not to lean into it #not too far at the very least. #isn't kyouk.a skilled at killing? did she not choose not to do it? #i'm not saying dazai's never acting (because it does happen) i'm saying too many people are too quick to brush off- #every non-serious non-mean emotion as ''playing an act'' #why would the mean persona not be a fake?? you thought about that??? what biases are you holding here #he makes jokes. he acts silly. he's a drama queen. he loves it. #you know what IS tiring? having to look evil and untouchable and impassive in front of a whole organization every day as a teenager #as soon as he gets to lupin with od.a and ang.o he goes silly mode. heck- when he *met* ang.o it was because he went silly mode. #as soon as chuuy.a is in proximity he starts yelling children's insults and starts stupid competitions #his silly mode is just as integrated into his personality as the capacity to be the scariest most evil person you've seen #they are not mutually exclusive and having the capacity for either does not mean acting on them #as asagiri said in an interview: bsd isn't about change it's about adaptation. kyouk.a has the talent to kill. she just chooses not to. #dazai has the skills to be evil. he just chooses good. #that got long in the tags sorry #apparently i talk sometimes

[welcometogrouchland]

I just think Hunter was obsessed with Willow and didn't even know it during the period from any sport in a storm to labyrinth runners. They maybe don't talk as often as they could, they're both busy and have conflicting schedules, so when they do talk, Hunter absorbs everything she says.

After roughly 3 weeks of texting (hexting? I feel like the kids would call it hexting), He knows that her favorite colour is orange, she likes her tea with extra milk and a bit of honey during winter, she likes working out to the noisiest angriest music in her playlist, her dad Gilbert is a construction witch who specialises in pottery, she used to listen to breakup songs and think about her childhood best friend (Hunter doesn't know it's Amity) and she actually has a mild pollen allergy despite being a plant witch and has to take potions for it.

He casually drops all this info piece by piece during their stay in the human realm and willows like. Well I can't not marry him. It'll have to be a winter or fall wedding to account for her allergies </3

#ramblings of a lunatic #the owl house #toh #hunter toh #willow park #huntlow #Hunter is often ignored and hides and compartmentalizes his identity in order to survive and be respected = his love language is listening #he doesn't just go quiet around Willow bc he's shy (tho that's definitely a factor) he's also like wow everything you say is amazing #i want to listen to you 24/7 #(Willow realizes this and thinks back to how often she was ignored and isolated- #-and how it made her feel worthless and she's like. i must make him my bride) #i haven't rewatched in a while so i can't exactly tell how much of this is self indulgent and how much is like. actually character accurate #it's in limbo but it feels true to me #we don't know the details of their text exchanges beyond him sending her (presumably) a cute pic of flapjack #I've seen ppl argue that they didn't talk much over text bc she's slightly suspicious of him at first in labyrinth runners #but tbh I've always chalked that up to the general mindfuckery going on at hexside at that time #ergo she couldn't immediately trust that this was actually Hunter until he mentioned something specific about Gus #so i like to imagine it was semi-frequent chatting but i payed lip service to the idea that it wasn't super duper close #playing both sides so I always win etc etc #this is really just a covert way of babbling my willow headcanons

[acotar-taylorsversion]

So for some reason I got lost in the Elucien side of tik tok and, of course, they are convinced they are endgame. They are the ones who think Elain avoids Lucien because she’s trying to suppress her attraction to him and what not, but I just think that’s silly. Even though I agree with them about how we don’t know what’s going on in her head, I just find that theory ridiculous, especially when you look at the overall text that surrounds Elain and Lucien.

I am an Elriel supporter and have been since 2017, but I always have that “what if” in the back of my mind because we all know Sarah can just completely forget about what she’s written and do something totally different. My biggest fear is that I won’t ever accept Lucien. Like, I only really support him when I read those tiny moments when he’s talking about or with Vassa, because I can see that. But I’m scared I won’t ever accept Lucien or Elucien because of what we know.

I’ve never truly connected with Lucien. I always saw him as the annoying one. I never could understand why everyone finds him attractive or charming. I moved on quickly when we learned about his history, it didn’t really affect me. He’s just annoying to me. And I know he’s not a bad guy, like I don’t hate him. I just don’t care for him. I literally forgot all about his character in acomaf until he showed up again to kidnap Feyre, and I was totally dumbfounded when he said Elain was his mate. It was the most random thing to me. I remember reading that part 3 times because I thought I was crazy. And I was so so happy when he volunteered to go search for Vassa because that meant he was going to be gone for a while in acowar, and then I forgot about him again unless he was brought up. He’s just a very forgettable character to me and it’s going to take a lot for my opinion to change. Like I honestly hate that someone like Elain got mated to someone like him. It’s the most random thing.

Like 3 brothers x 3 sisters just makes so much sense to me and it’s so perfectly even and symmetrical. 2 brothers x 2 sisters, 1 sister x random guy, 1 brother x random girl just doesn’t make sense at all.

I don’t think I could enjoy the series anymore if Sarah has planned for Elucien and gwynriel all this time because why spend all that time building up Elriel? And I’m sorry, but people who say that they didn’t see Elriel moments as romantic clearly didn’t read them. I know we interpret things differently, but y’all are just delusional if you can’t see that.

I’ll go ahead and say it. The main reason I support vassien is because it gives Lucien a happy ending while elain is free to love who she wants and not who she is told to by the cauldron or whatever. I hate that she is being forced to make a decision that she should never have to make. And it’s not like we don’t have a reason to support vassien, there are some cute little moments between Vassa and Lucien. But even, with a vassien pov, I don’t think I would enjoy Lucien’s part. Another thing, I could totally see him dying. I’ve always thought he would seeing how he was becoming feyre’s friend and what not. That usually happens to that type of character in fantasy stories.

Who knows, though 🤷🏻‍♀️. I’m just over all these things with the fandom here lately. From the doxx threats, forcing artists to quit creating art for us because of the hate they receive, the teasing from Bloomsbury, and this stupid ship war, I’m just mentally exhausted from it.

Sorry for the rant, guys. I’ll be more positive next time, hopefully lol 😆

Hope everyone is doing good after all that’s happened ♥️

#acotar #elain archeron #elriel #pro elriel #anti el*cien #anti e/lucien #sarah j maas #just some late night thoughts #i hope it gets better #i’m not gonna lie #I’ll be heartbroken if Elriel doesn’t happen #it’s hard for me to like Lucien #i just don’t see it #I’d rather read an entire novel about Eris before Lucien and I don’t like Eris #at least Eris is interesting though #I think he’s kinda like Rhys and hides his true self from everyone a lot

[moongothic]

Seen quite a few people comment how they believe it's more likely the Dragodile Divorce happened due to ideological differences rather than because Dragon was too straight to stay with Crocodile, and. Like I did suggest that (or at least tried to) in my Crocodad Giga Thesis (really I should've been more clear about it in my essay so I wouldn't be writing this now lol), but like yes, Dragon and Crocodile absolutely have drastically different beliefs on How One Overthrows The World Government. And that absolutely could have contributed to the two separating and/or Crocodile deciding to go his own way instead of becoming a proper Revolutionary

Because like, as I tried to imply in the essay (but failed to deliver); if Crocodile's goal had always been to get Pluton so he could just nuke Marijoa off the face of the earth by himself and end it all in one go, then Crocodile and his way of thinking could work as this, like... contrasting opposite to how Dragon believes things should be done. Some fans (unfairly imo) call Dragon a "fraud" because over the past 20+ years he has only attacked Marijoa and the WG directly just once, and even when he did, instead of doing something to stop their corrupt reign for good... the Revs destroyed... the Tenryuubito's... food storage..? Like. Sure, that'll bother them for a little while, get their panties in a good twist etc, but in the end they're just going to demand more tributes and more free food. The Revolutionary Army may be successfully inspiring more people and more countries to rebel against the World Government's corrupt rule, but the Tenryuubito are still in power and will continue to be in power for a long time. And that's kind of how Crocodile would greatly complement Dragon within the narrative. Dragon being arguably "too soft" with his slow, methodical way of overthrowing the WG, while Crocodile would just kill them all without mercy, even if it meant hurting innocent people in the process. The two would act as the opposite sides of the same coin, the different extremes of the same spectrum. Crocodile would become like a response to the complaints people have against Dragon.

And yeah, the two having such wildly different ideological views could VERY EASILY contribute to a divorce, for sure.

My thing is that... If (and this is an if) Crocodile is meant to go a character arc and grow as a person, if we're meant to see him as a sympathetic character at all and maybe even feel bad for him... It'll be much harder to write that if the Dragodile Divorce happened only because of the two having ideological differences. Like who's going to feel bad for Crocodile if the two got divorced because Crocodile wanted to mass murder people and Dragon wasn't okay with it? That's not a tragedy, that's not a situation where we as the readers would feel for Crocodile and want to root for him. That's not something that would give a character unprocessed emotional trauma to heal from and overcome. He'd just be a villian who'd need to have his beliefs changed.

Where as, if The Divorce was caused by Dragon and Crocodile no longer being compatible due to Dragon being straight while Crocodile transed his gender... Even in the most respectful of scenarios that is a heartbreaking situation, a painful thing to go through. That is a tragedy without bad guys, a story where you could feel bad for Crocodile and want to root for him. That is a situation that would give him trauma to heal from.

And that's kind of why I so strongly believe in Crocodile's transition being a more important, contributing factor in The Divorce. Again, this does absolutely depend on what Crocodile's actual role in the story is going to be and whether or not he's even meant to go through a character arc at all. Like if he's not going to be that important and if he isn't meant to go through an arc then sure, Crocodile's transition doesn't have to matter one fucking bit. But if he is meant to go through an arc, if we are meant to feel bad for him and find outselves rooting for him eventually... From a writing perspective, that'll be far easier to do if we can find ourselves sympathizing with him even just a little bit.

Also like. Yes, you can have queer characters who are just queer for the sake of being queer, their queerness does not have to be an important aspect in them or a huge plotpoint in their story at all. Crocodile could be queer just for the sake of being queer. Because that's what it's like being queer, you just are what you are. At the same time, from a writing perspective. What would even be the point of making him queer if it didn't matter to his character at all and have an impact on his character?

Also while Crocodile and Dragon clearly have very different beliefs on how the WG should be dealt with right now, we don't really know when Crocodile came to his beliefs. Like for all we know Crocodile could've formed his worldview years after the divorce. Hell, based on the way he spoke to Vivi about her ideals, and how we know he spent over a decade in utter emotional solitude, his current worldview could have been partially born from resentment towards Dragon (and his ideals) that's been simmering away over the years.

All of this to say; yes I think the two's beliefs could have been a contributing factor in The Divorce, but from a writing perspective (and based on the direction I personally want to see the story go), I find it far more likely if Crocodile's transition was the main cause, one way or another.

#Moon posting #OP Meta #Dragodile #Like for me it's either they divorced because of the transition OR the transition AND ideology #But not because of the ideology alone #There is also something to be said about people having it hard to imagine Oda writing something... So nuanced about trans people #Which. Fair. Like eight months ago I had zero fucking hope either #But also if you look at how Oda has been writing characters (queer or not) you can see he should actually Get It #Like when I shared that video from MelonTeee about Katakuri and joked about Katakuri being trans as hell. Like yes I was joking #But also the way MelonTeee explained Katakuri's story made me realize how queer coded it actually was #If Oda can write about Katakuri having to hide his true self from his family for a fear of rejection for who he really is #Then maybe Oda can write about Crocodile being rejected by his significant other for who he truly was #One Piece is so much about finding love and acceptance no matter what and no matter who you are #I think Oda could do it. I want to believe

[selkiemaidenfae]

i’m a bit too hungover to fully articulate this the way i want to but

there’s something about camila dragging billy to that party where he’s immediately offered alcohol because she’s never truly seen his addiction for what it is vs daisy staying in his tour bus with him because she understands that they’re fighting the same struggle

there’s something about camila not really having any clue why billy needs daisy so much to the point where she has to ask if daisy’s a better lover than her vs daisy inherently understanding why billy had to choose his family despite never having a family of her own

there’s something about camila never intervening in the billy/eddie conflict in all those years vs daisy showing up and immediately telling billy that aurora needed to be eddie’s project too

there’s something about billy writing the same songs over and over with camila vs daisy forcing him out of his songwriting comfort zone leading to him writing the most personal and beautiful songs of his career

something something daisy allowed him to be the truest version of himself while camila let him hide behind the idealized version something something billy ultimately chose camila because he wanted to be the man that she saw instead of the complicated mess that daisy understood him to be

#daisy jones and the six #daisybilly #daisy jones #billy dunne #essay in the tags incoming so hol up #so listen i feel like ppl say that camila is the healthier or outright better option for billy but what they actually mean #is that she's the easiest option #billy doesn't have to acknowledge that he's an addict with camila because she doesn't acknowledge it either #he doesn't have to address his control issues or his conflict with eddie or the ways that he messes up outside his marriage #but then daisy pops up out of nowhere and acts as a mirror to his true self #and he hates her for it #and yet he also loves her for it because there's something so holy in being seen for the first time #but among other things billy dunne is-- respectfully-- kind of a coward #being with camila means that he can pretend to be the man she wants him to be #he can even pretend that it comes naturally #with daisy there's nothing to hide behind or pretend #there's only him and her and the truth between them #and for a man like billy that's the most terrifying thing he can imagine #i am a ~daisybilly is healthier in the long term than c*millabilly~ truther and i cannot be silenced

[qsmprambling]

I think something to keep in mind re: the newer islanders comments regarding Foolish and Leo, regardless of how frustrating they are, is that it comes from a fundamental misunderstanding of qFoolish as a person, which is partially caused by the persona Foolish himself presents to everyone.

Foolish gives the impression of being a very open person who probably couldn't be bothered to keep too many secrets unless it was fun, a happy and impulsive spirit and just a general fun and chaotic person. He doesn't seem to take things too seriously, going with the flow and doing whatever seems most fun to him in the moment.

He doesn't seem like the type to get deeply attached. He doesn't seem like the type to keep secrets or hide how he is feeling. He doesn't seem like the type who would dwell enough on something that it causes him heartache, because he is impulsive, and free-spirited, and unattached, right?

He's playing with Capybaras, he's laughing with his friends, he's making jokes and playing around. Heck, he isn't even really talking about Leo that much - if you accept everything you see at face value like most of the newbies who never got to meet Leo or don't know qFoolish will, it must look like he's not all that upset about her being gone and isn't really thinking about it too much, right?

But the other islanders know. The ones who have known the eggs, and the ones that know Foolish, they all know the truth.

Bad has noted that he isn't sure other people have noticed, but he can tell that Foolish is hurting. Jaiden too has made comments a out how people don't take him seriously. Baghera left him alone with the concrete because it felt so wrong to swarm him in that moment that she knew was painful for him. And though I haven't seen comments from the others, I have no doubt all the other islanders who have been here for months wouldn't ever question how much Foolish loves and misses Leo. (Tina is the exception with the new islanders as she met Leo before joining the server and she knows Foolish is a good parent).

But the new islanders accept Foolish for how he presents himself. They see him laughing and playing and having fun and assume those are his true feelings and don't realise they are, but he is also hurting. They see him not bring Leo up and they don't realise it's not because he doesn't care, but because confronting his feelings isn't something he is good at. He prooved that when he ran away the moment he was directly asked about how he was feeling after finding Leo's message, or when he brushed off Bad's sympathy and rejected his offer of a hug (but did accept Bad's offer to stand near him, because at least it was something he could bring himself to accept...).

For Bagi it also doesn't help that she spends so much time with Bad, who is someone who is literally wearing his grief for all to see. No one is questioning that Bad is missing the eggs, because it's obvious. But just like no one (other than Foolish and Baghera) realised just how depressed Bad was in his vacation arch because of the carefree attitude he put on, Foolish's demeanor has made it so his grief is not obvious to those who aren't willing to look a bit deeper. Most people are willing to accept whatever they see on the surface, and not attempt to look beyond that. I'm sure other islanders other than Foolish are also being misunderstood - an example would be Tubbo's comment that no one seemed to care and no one was doing anything to find the eggs, without knowing about Bad's drastic actions, or Philza's breakdown over Tallulah's letter, or Fit's quiet grief, or Aypierre's increased drinking, or Roier's deterioration, and all the other things the parents and relatives of the missing eggs were feeling and going through.

Anyway I am rambling, but long story short it is frustrating when the new members don't understand the grief of Foolish because they accept his surface level persona, and that is something Foolish himself is perpetuating, but just remember that even if the new islanders don't understand, all the old islanders do. Even if they don't speak it out loud, and some are more obvious that others, they are all united with Foolish in their grief.

#foolish #leonarda #im sure i wrote exactly this after the moise and tubbo comments #but it is buried in my drafts so #whoooops essay #qsmp #yes i did shove in a landduo parallel at the end re: vacation arch and this who is going to stop me #(forgive my stream of consciousness essay and tags my brain is in Monday Mode) #PS the misconceptions are proof Foolish is too good at hiding his true self imagine the chaos he can cause with that #only bad and a few others would be prepared

[thegoldenavenger]

First pass at the bingliu and bingqiu fusions

Bingliu has all of lqg’s confidence, lbh’s social graces, and both of their crippling need to avoid failure!

Bingqiu loves himself sooooo much, is pretty detached, and definitely thinks he’s better than everyone else. He’s just helping, why are you running away!

In the ficlet I said lqg doesn’t like interacting with BingQiu (or… sqq thinks that) but really it’s because BingQiu mercilessly flirts and teases him, is effortlessly stronger than him, and kind of projects ‘oh you sweet thing, I could just eat! you! up! [pinches cheeks]’ energy and this is such a contrast from his interactions with lbh and sqq that he just gets very awkward all the time about it.

#kamaetedraws #svsss #I guess haha #BingQiu #bingliu #BingQiu is like… when both of you want be wifey so bad….. #I don’t know if it comes across but bingqiu has a second face hiding a toothy mouth #like a mask…. you know… since both sqq and lbh mask their true selves #bingliu has a second pair of eyes that usually stay closed #they only open when they’re close to destabilizing #oooor when they really want to See something #things that amused me: #bingliu uses they/them pronouns bc lqg is [hand wave] about gender and lbh is [hyperventilates] about gender #so bingliu was like ‘split the difference’ #bingqiu on the other hand uses he/him bc lbh and sqq have such a strong sense of who the other (is supposed to) be #that even though bingqiu is SO wife coded he’s gone back around to ‘dude who is so comfortable in his masculinity that he wears pink’ vibes #if sqq ever loosens up a single iota his fusion’s pronouns might change up but currently EVERY sqq fusion goes by he/him #funnily enough this contrasts og!sqq who fused and used they/the #less bc of gender and more that he has such an ingrained sense of self #that when he’s fused he conceptualises that as sharing…. #so plural not neutral even though they are a singular being #sqq just hates himself a lot about it

[thranduel]

mike being all cute as he excitedly talks about 20 sided dice 🥰

#mike wheeler #finn wolfhard #stranger things #byler #i just love when he can actually be himself and do what he loves #it's so cute seeing him get so passionate about it #i don't want him to be insecure about who he is and pretend to be someone he's not #that's why he deserves to be in a relationship where he can be his true self without hiding #he would be so much happier and it would be better for everyone #i'm convinced that people who want mike to stay in the current relationship he's in don't actually care about him or understand him at all #because he literally admitted to feeling inferior #and not only does it affect him but it affects others around him when he changes who he is #it's not healthy or fair to anyone #and it's also just sad because mike and el don't share any of the same interests #she doesn't even care about what he likes and she walked away in 1x02 when he was showing her his toys #what kind of relationship is that when both people don't understand each other and can't be themselves with each other?

[dennisboobs]

i'm chronically nosy i had to go find what u were talking about on twitter and man it's wild how comfortable people are with the transvestigating thing because they think it's funny. why are they validating the real transphobe even jokingly....

i don't fucking knowwwwww. i got fucking blasted on twitter for being like. have none of you actually experienced irl bigotry because i have and it's not something i would actively choose to emulate????? in any context????

like this is what was happening back in october. yeah, very cool, very funny to quote tweet a guy calling glenn a fag for tweeting in support of california legalizing gay marriage and say he was "ahead of his time". for. using a slur. everyone is so fucking irony brainrotted it hurts.

and again.

just an ounce of self awareness..... please.... anyone........ how do you almost get there and yet not see the problem.....

#ask ada #people are gonna fucking call me cringe for this but i'm just. blown away at how goddamn stupid sunnytwt mamages to be #consistently. #how do you just. not have a problem with this. #nevermind the fact that everyone's like 'lmao true he is a woman' but. if he WAS. stealth trans... #are you really dying on that hill and misgendering him bc you're (whether jokingly or not) clocking him as 'afab'???? #and then insisting he is a woman despite transitioning?!??!?!?!?!? im ???? ? ? #you are no better than the fuckin transvestigators #this bitch is doing the same thing. putting 'his' in quotes and saying he will never be able to hide 'his female frame' #ITS. DERANGED. WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS SHIT. BE NORMAL #if your jokes are indistinguishable from actual bigotry you need to shut the hell up 💕💕💕💕 #also. if youre IN this post. just. think about it. i'm not trying to start shit i just need y'all to fuckin consider how this affects ppl #whether its self hatred deflected back outward or ur doing it unthinkingly bc the rest of twt is also doing it #🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍

[henry-thats-unsafe]

im so fucking normal about chrisker guys im so fucking normal

#THE INSANE THINGS THAT RUN THROUGH MY HEAD CONSTANTLY ABOUT THESE MEN IS DEBILITATING #CAN'T HAVE A SINGLE NORMAL THOUGHT ABOUT THEM #I LOVE ME SOME GOOD OLD FASHIONED DOOMED YAOI #I am constantly thinking about Wesker allowing himself to fall in love with a man despite knowing that it would all crumple in the end #That he would be forever obsessed with Chris and that Chris would not love him anymore once his true nature was revealed #And him LYING to himself about it to allow himself to live comfortably in this doomed relationship that would consume his future #and how he's lived his whole life as a liar #hiding his true self in deceit #that when it comes time for him to be honest with himself he can't even do that #because what he wants will always be more important than the truth #GOD. GOD IF ONLY I COULD ACTUALLY WRITE. AND NOT JUST LOOK AT MY SCREEN. IT'D BE OVER FOR EVERYONE. #chrisker #shut up henry

[plan-3-tmars]

I've gone so far down the kazui mukuhara rabbit hole that I'll listen to any fucking song ever and it'll still remind me of him. FOR EXAMPLE

DO YOU SEE MY VISION....

#like yk the way he wears a mask for the majority of half and the mask is meant to represent his lies and like hiding his true self #yk like putting on a mask becoming someone else on stage actor shit yada yada #SO LIKE. “i know you've been hiding secrets in your past” and kazui mentions thoughts on his mind that he “gave up A LONG TIME AGO” #“whats behind the mask” like asking him to tell the truth and !!! be his true self !! to stop acting !!! #AND THEN LIKE... “curiosity killed this cat/sorry i ever asked” because kazui talks about how hinako would still be alive if he kept lying #it just . reminds me of him #ALOT #and i wasnt expecting it man i was just doing my sphe cba #i cant listen to music normally anymore and its all milgrams fault #milgram #kazui mukuhara #sorry for the ramble im procrastinating having a shower and going to sleep and i also just wanted to share this. discovery #Spotify

[daz4i]

ik we talk abt dazai with a cane and that's so good and i need it to happen. but in addition to that. i want it to at any point be acknowledged that he has some chronic pain or long lasting issues from his suicide attempts. please

#ik his attempts are often passed as jokes esp in the main story #and i think this could add a layer to them. and realism #maybe he can only eat and drink certain things bc drinking so many poisons and chemicals fucked his stomach up #maybe he has to constantly stretch bc his hanging attempts messed up stuff in his joints #maybe all his drowning attempts fucked up his lungs #stuff like that yknow?? nothing too big but enough to make it clear #we probably won't. bc we rarely get to see his true self. and this is def smth he'd hide. like he does with the bandages #(honestly even at any point showing him without those and seeing scars would be amazing 🥺) #but i like to hope that it'll happen. i think it'll be beautiful. and i think it fits the themes and messages in bsd #suicide // #ask to tag

[chisungie]

hELLO?!?!

#IM CRYINHH?!?! #HMR FINALLY HAD THE GUTS TO SAY SOMETHING HE NEVER WANTED TO SAYAND TTSM SAID NO IN A HEARTBEAT!? #AND INNRESPONSE HMR STRANGLES HIM?!?!?! HHELLO?!?!?! #ttsm rushing to explain himself after is also fucking funny im ngl #the casual fuckin “Huh? No way.” i almost died #ITSFUNNIER CAUSE WASNT HMR THINKING OF KILLING TTSM IN THAT ALLEY MINUTES BEFORE PROPOSING? SILLY MF 😭 #these fuckers r crazy hmtts is so funny to me i liked this story #also himeru realizing that his true self can be loved. his own self under the mask he hides behind. yep. love this story #ensemble stars #HiMERU #Kazehaya Tatsumi #Tatsumi Kazehaya #enstars #screencaps #another crazy thought is the initial thoughts both of them have going into that alley. #hmr is like wow its so quiet i hate this guy i could strangle him and escape quietly and get a new identity and- #and ttsm is just like wow im glad u trust me :) i know u dont like looking weak infront of ur friends but im glad u pulled me to the side- #so fucking funny i love when enst writers shove these 2 tgt 😭

[apotelesmaa]

A while back I saw sm1 saying tsukasa expresses emotions like it’s his first time experiencing them & while it’s very funny and true I think it’s also worth noting that unlike tv/movie actors, stage actors have to really exaggerate their body language/expressions so that their emotions are readable for everyone in the theatre. On screen you can easily pick up the micro expressions on an actor’s face because you’re like 5 ft away at most and the camera often zooms in on their face. From the back of the theatre you can’t read subtle expressions so the actors need to over emphasize and use their whole body. All this to say: given that u cannot take the theatre kid out of tsukasa I feel like his acting just bled into how he expresses his emotions.

Emu also does the body language thing but it’s harder to tell as she’s normally expressing a smaller range of emotions than tsukasa (she’s naturally joyous and whimsical creature & tsukasa is usually given ample reasons to express annoyance). I think that’s more of a result of her exaggerating her happiness so that other people are also happy rather than an acting thing though. Gestures at her refusing to show negative emotions. Entertainer/clown (actual clowns, not the insult) vs stage actor. Really good examples of them doing this is the clip of rui imitating tsukasa & the clip of nene imitating emu.

#project sekai #don’t misinterpret this he’s not like. pretending to feel whatever he’s expressing. he’s acting the emotions he feels. #he’s capable of not doing that esp when he needs to be serious. his normal is just stage acting behavior. #knowledge I gained from 1) having a theatre kid sister who was rlly good at this 2) doing photography for her shows 4 newspaper #she got put on the no print list (list for ppl who are photographed all the time who need to not be photographed so others can be in photos) #bc she specifically was very very good at doing this and it resulted in really good & clearly readable photos #2 a lesser extent I do this as well bc of her influence I just emote less #don’t think it’s a stretch to say that it’s intentional given the implication that he’s so loud bc he’s used to projecting his voice while #he performs. #to clarify wrt emu I think if she was to express more negative emotions they would be more subdued. #unless it was for a role in which case she feels more comfortable not expressing joy 24/7. #i could go on a tangent abt ‘tsukasa doesn’t express his true emotions’ fanon when 1) he does. very obviously. 2) *emu* doesn’t but that #gets ignored. hello. nene having to tell emu it’s ok to cry and rely on wxs to comfort her. #even in the main story where she’s like devestated and blaming herself for wxs breaking up #she’s still smiling when she’s telling tsukasa that she made everybody sad and ruined everything (her view not mine) #mafuyu emu parallels… hm. #i don’t think emu’s ever been shown pissed off id be interested in seeing how she expresses that. #speaking of the it’s ok to cry thing if I don’t get that card when it runs on global I’m going to fuckin lose it. gay ass card. #this is getting long and I have stuff to do but as a side note nene & rui both hide their emotions #nene bc she’s shy & doesn’t show her true hater self unless she’s with friends #& rui because he’s used to being alone & struggles to identify his own emotions #at some point I’m sure I’ll ramble incoherently about how a lot of the issues ppl project onto tsukasa r issues he doesn’t experience #but *emu* does but nobody ever takes her character seriously so it gets ignored. #colopale do an event where nene encourages emu to b ok with showing minor negative emotions please please please

[charmre]

It's too kind of you to say you can help but there's no one around who can save me from myself

#Elden Ring #Sorcerer Rogier #Rogier #Rogier Elden Ring #I just think he's neat and I'm totally normal about him (I say through clenched fists and gritted teeth) #Rogier earring truthers rise up!! lol #Doing some studies and oops it turned into Rogier bc I am 100% normal about him :) #I was listening to some Julien Baker (“Bloodshot”) while rendering this and that line in the song hit me like a freight train and I had to #stop for a good 2-3 minutes because OWWWW OUCHIE OWIE #There's actually more lyrics from another song that I associate with Rogier too and I need to figure out what to draw for it #I swear I can also draw more than Rogier facing 3/4ths to the left but just let me live!! #*twirling my hair between my fingers* so there's this sorcerer who puts up a friendly facade to hide his true self from the world #who's lonely but will never admit to any of his hurt and is #just a complicated mess of an individual underneath playing his cards so close to his chest for just about all of his life #and he is the love of my life :) #AND SEND POST #Alyssa arts