#FUCKIN LITERALLY LIFE SHOULD NOT BE LIKE THIS

[soldier-poet-king]

Might as well just live on the fuckin public transit at this point, I spend so much of my time commuting and I'm constantly exhausted and depressed and it's just!!! Fuck!!!!

#and if i move and have to pay insane rent #i will not be quilting #because MORE CRAFT SUPPLIES??? #i dont have ANY of the basic tools #i only have embroidery stuff not hand sewing stuff #i could get some stuff from my nonna #but also quality fabric and such #PLUS like have u SEEN the cost of groceries #and i EAT VEGETARIAN I DONT EVRN PURCHASE MEAT #i was gonna buy a bundle of fall candles from that organic soy brand as a treat. thats not fuckin happening #i HAVE money in the bank but if this continues im gonna have to use it to move #i set aside a chunk for tattoos and besides that #we are on no purchase lockdown out of paranoia and fear #because i have terrible trauma around childhood financial instability!!!! #and it never goes away!!!! and i hate not being in control!!! #and i still haven't gotten my full license but who can afford a car anyway #and every time i fail the test thats another 90$ #not to mention i have to take a day off work to do the test #since its only open mon-fri!!! #FUCKIN LITERALLY LIFE SHOULD NOT BE LIKE THIS

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why is lettuce so fucking Good

#currently eating half a head right outta the bag #my body... it craves Fresh Vegetable... #i have not had Fresh Vegetable in so long... #monch cronch eating each leaf like a fuckin shredder #personal (me) home (in my house) shredder (teeth) #its so crisp and watery and cool from the fridge #my ideal meal is raw ground beef & entire head of iceberg lettuce #literally eating this shit like a mf Rabbit #absolutely unprompted #do you ever think about how similar leaf is to meat #looking closely at one rn and its like... a thin slice of steak but Green.... #why do vegans and carnivores fight we're literally the same. we should all make out or somethin idk #OHHHH WE'RE GETTING TO THE INNER LAYERS NOW ITS GOING DOWN!!!! HELL YEEEAAAHHHHH #SHIT JUST GOT CRISPER #if you're reading this its your sign to chug water and eat a fresh cool vegetable right from the fridge #give in to your primal desire to cronch with your bare hands and teeth #life is long but this moment is so so sweet

[nashvillethotchicken]

I'm think about claudia and louis again. 79 dead 1903 injured

#all that work to leave her abuser and get a better life for her and louis just to get taken out by louis husband again like omg #she shoulda been in the club! she should have been an aka! or an sgrho! she shoulda been upwardly mobile! but instead shes in an urn #on louis mantle with her picture looking down #or a tree in a garden in dubai or in a locket held tight in louis’s fist #like i truly feel for her so much #that baby is trapped!!! she literally cant escape not only from lestat but louis as well! #louis needs something to cling onto and its claudia #its always been claudia even when it was paul or grace or lestat or armand its always been claudia #and she cant leave his heart cus hell die if she does and oh how horrible itd be for the both of them #and she dont even get anything outta it! she love her father so much and all she got outta it was a soft casket #do you think she thinks about how louis killed her. even outside of what she says in ep 5 like louis killed her. he was the prox cause of- #the storyville fires/race riot like do you ever think about that? #do you ever think about how louis ended her life just to restart his own? cus i do. so fuckin often #and its not like she couldnt have done something with herself outside of them! she can! bailey!claudia was light enough where she could pass #for white pretty well and go and live whatever like she wanted but she didnt. cus she loves and misses her father so much and she wanted- #a life with him and her without the specter of lestat over them and louis couldnt let it go for her #see thats louis problem. he cant let anything go #couldnt let paul go. couldnt let lestat go. couldnt let humanity go couldnt let claudia go kept all them damn newspapers looking for a- #glimpse of his heart his baby his angel his claudia #claudia belonged to louis. cus nothing belongs to louis really #not the home he lives in (either rue royale or his childhood home) #he doesnt own his husband who galavants up and down the quarter with a white woman who isnt an 1/8th of him #he dont own his business cus that can be taken away by a lynch mob or a plague or a drink too many #he dont own his family who replaced him with some broke ass nigga the second paul passed #he dont own his brother who lives quietly in a mausoleum louis is so sure he put him in #he dont own his sister who so wants to connect with louis even when its rough and its eating at her like he almost did Benny #the only thing he really really owns is claudia. thats HIS blood. thats HIS daughter #he didnt make her but she is HIS and no lestat or armand or freaky vampire lufe can take that from him #claudia du pointe du lac #louis de pointe du lac

[bombusbombus]

recoloured this old warmup to repost cause I had it on my mind.

If Clark is going to be in earth 19 (gotham by gaslight universe) (they're publishing more gbg and clark is going to be there), then listen to me listen to me, he needs to be a cowboy. Superman needs to be a cowboy in the big city. I am SOO serious about this. I am on my knees, DC, let me write for you, I would add so many themes about modern technology versus traditional knowledge and sprinkle in some anticolonialism PLEASE.

You could have a cute little Daily Planet that has to struggle against yellow journalism in a smoky little backroom & setting their own type, a la The Truth. You could have gentlemen's clubs. You could have a brutal war against unions in the streets and one lone titan of industry giving into their demands. You could have the exact same 3 batkids from the movie, there's literally nothing to improve on there. You could have Clark tear down a barbed wire fence with his bare hands, in a futile attempt to unravel colonialist ideas of private land ownership. Imagine the alien knows more about the earth, the real earth, than the knight in his city does. Imagine the American dream failing Clark, who has to go back east to the big city, failing Bruce, who lost his parents, failing everyone over and over until they decide to build something without it. In an era of rampant exploitation, what do real heroes look like?

Or you can make the justice league fight big steampunk robots ig I'm excited either way.

#all that to say ask me about the gotham by gaslight superbat friendship I've been thinking about for a LITERAL YEAR... #the original colouring on this was only the sort of ass you can achieve with a blue light filter at 2am #also I can hear you saying “why do your warmups usually look better than your final drawings Moose?” #(shh let me imagine I have a huge rapt audience) #well. I have aphantasia which makes it much harder to make things up than to draw from life #however my passion is cartooning. so I'm a little fucked #I also have a disability that sometimes makes me run a temperature when I overexert myself mentally #so drawing cartoons can make me run a literal fever #whereas drawing from life is more abt hand skill than brain skill so it doesn't fuck me up #but that's why I don't draw much anymore lol. Arranging people and items and background on a canvas is excruciating trial and error #but when you already have a pic the photographer has done some of that for you and you just need to collage preexisting images together #and once you have the elements of the picture then it's easy to retroactively construct a balanced tableau #tl:dr creativity is hard and makes CPU explode but editing is easy #that being said if a mutual wants me to draw an animal or something for them & gives me a reference I will drop everything to do it. dm me. #seriously I'm good w anything organic like plants or animals or horrible growths #hell if u do thumbnails I'll draw the full thing. I'll write w you. I fuckin love collaboration. #might be a bad writing partner though cause I'm neurotic as hell #. #I just remembered that Dan Garret was in earth 19 last time it was shown in a comic #no offense to all you dan-heads out there. but I think he should die. #cause I would be. obsessed. With 1890s Chicago cryptid Ted Kord #I think he should be 23 and terrible #the most steampunk guy around. Probably takes cocaine. Still a college student (gettin his fourth degree). Hasn't left his house in a month #not to mention futureboy Booster in his kevlar vest with his iphone named skeets

[thegreatbeyondmp3]

bro i think im finally gonna be able to start hrt next year... and at least get a consult for top surgery...

#this health insurance shit is crazy bro #which does mean that i actually have to come out to more people which is. um. scary #but should be actually worth it #and like. if insurance is paying for most of it i might even be able to finally fuckin move out of my parents' house too #which is definitely something ive literally never thought could happen in tandem #ik this is far from a unique experience but it's still like. oh. these things that ive been struggling with #basically as far back as i can remember. alleviation might actually be within sight #maybe life is like. actually worth living

[mxgyver]

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#besties i'm going to be real honest with you #i am Not™️ doing all that great lately and it's been tough #there's a lot going on right now #and the impending dread of going back to work is making it 100000% times worse #it's not the fact that i don't *want* to go back to work #it's the fact i don't want to go back to my specific job #i'm just really struggling overall and it's hard and i feel so fucking stuck #i miss my friends i miss being a kid and not having to worry about the woes of adulthood #why can't life be so simple anymore #i'm sick and tired of feeling like i'm going to emotionally breakdown at any given point during the day!!! #i just want to be held and loved #but putting myself out there is scary!! and terrifying!! #i am fragile and emotional!!! #should this be a conversation with my therapist? yeah #literally told her today how fuckin ironic it is that all my emotional breakdowns happen *after* my therapy session #like last week? fucking broke down hysterically the day after therapy #today? only a few hours lmao #so yeah things are going great 🤪 #anywho... if i seem distant or... off it's not you it's me lmao #sierra speaks #tbd

[strohller27]

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#oh okay. cool. I just wrote an entire final paper for NO REASON #wheeeeee I hate everything #that’s six pages and 8 hours of my life I’ll NEVER GET BACK .-. #I mean this one is on me I should have read the other directions but from his previously-given directions #it SURE SOUNDED LIKE we had to ANSWER OUR RESEARCH QUESTIONS #I would like to do a violence #words cannot describe how fuckin done I am with literally everything #grad school shenanigans #this is just. super ironic tho #I spent so much of this semester doing a lot of work applying for a summer institute #and it turns out I can’t go because I cant afford it so I did all of that work and spent so much of my time worrying over LITERALLY NOTHING #like don’t get me wrong I am grateful for the experience I got applying for that and it was good practice but I’m just #I’m so fucking TIRED of my hard work leading to fuck-all #OH LOVELY AND THE POWER JUST WENT OUT. #as if this day couldn’t get worse!!!

[designernishiki]

I think I’ve said this before on here but. it really baffles and somewhat annoys me sometimes how people hear that a character is in their 40s-50s and immediately assume they should be weak or feeble or less attractive than they are. like. no. i think everyones just been brainwashed to think that attractiveness/health/worth is determined by how young someone is. why is it more understandable to view a teenager as more attractive and capable than a fit 40-50-something year old. kinda wack

#don’t get me wrong this isn’t to say that older characters shouldn’t show signs of aging #like obviously they should- though also keeping in mind here that people show aging vastly differently and throughdifferent lengths of time #ie; some people go grey in their 30s. some don’t go grey at all #and as for physical ability it just depends on a person’s routines and the life they’ve lead up to that point– a guy who’s been slumped over #a desk in a cubicle for 30 years isn’t gonna be as likely to maintain muscle as a lumberjack or a personal trainer #obviously I’m talking about ykz characters in this post and specifically kiryu/majima. mostly kiryu though really cause it’s more bizarre to #me to point him out as being Elderly and unrealistically fit and handsome for his age #like. becuase hes not even that old. he’s 54 currently and I see people saying stuff about him like this throughout the time he’s been in #his 40s to early 50s– like dude do you know that like. most of the famous actors you see in live action films are in their 40s-50s. this #isn’t the 1950s man. you can be 40 50 60 and look Not Elderly and have an active life. that’s the magic of modern medicine and technological #advancements. crazy I know #sorry ranting here I just always get so thrown off by this #admittedly I think it makes me feel weird when exaggerate their ages so much partly cause my own parents are smack in the middle #of kiryu/majima’s canon ages (1966) so I see like. literally every day what a person in their mid-50s is Like. and it’s not at all like the #weird feeble characature so many younger people in this fanbase have for them #I couldn’t view my mother- as she is right now (56)- as ‘elderly’ if I fuckin tried dude #and she’s not half as physically fit and active in her lifestyle as someone like fuckin kiryu or majima so. yeah #(she is still quite active but less in a Working Out sorta way and more in a gardening and yard work and goes to burning man sorta way) #(she��s a psychologist though so her job isn’t very physically active is my point- as opposed to someone who’s job is #physically active. you get it) #anyway sorry I need to stop talking vsncjdnd #rambling #yakuza #rgg

[nnugatoryextravagance]

Used my trombone as a makeshift cane today in band class in between songs to ease up on my legs a bit and honest to god once i positioned it right it was the least uncomfortable time ive had standing in years if you ignore that it was kinda jammed into my foot, I've REALLY gotta get my ass on getting an actual cane fucks sake I dont care what my mom tries to pull out of her ass over it anymore this shit SUCKS I hate my legs

#sludgetalkz #I literally have been incapable of standing properly for my entire life and yet somehuw #the woman who claims to know everything wrong with me just by looking at me #has not noticed this once in the past like 16 years LOL #its so fuckin stupid #like yeah sure whatever im not as active as i probably should be but wow golly i wonder why that is

[another-cliche-title]

everyone on the internet when a artstyle exists: OMG i HATE this ARTSTYLE it's fucking EVERYWHERe it's always THE FUCKING SAME I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT FUUUUCJKK

everyone on the internet when the entire animation industry of an entire country (Japan) has been basically using the same artstyle for years (Anime): this is good actually :3 (Gains ability to complain about the western (read: american) industry but not the japanese one because weeb)

#ok my point is #it doesnt really matter #like who gives a shit i have no problem with anime dont shoot me #OH NO CALARTS what the fuck is a calarts i've been living under a rock all my life #to be a good critic you have to say things are Good sometimes too! #why is “being a critic” synonymous with hating everything and anything #literally the fuckin anton ego quote from ratatouille #not to be a live love laugh sign or whatever but if you focus on What Is Bad solely when you interact with shit #it's probably gonna make it harder for you to enjoy making stuff yourself without criticizing your self #also ppl have no idea how hard animating is anyway lol. not saying you have to Do It to Criticize It but #not many people are brave enough to be a critic and a creator at the same time. #i should stop writing in the tags so much lol easier to read elsewhere but im writing my thoughts as they go THIS Was supposed 2 be short #another cliche rant

[allpromarlo]

baby ahsoka looks and acts like ice age baby

#also i would give my life for mama tano y'all don't know #she fought that fuckin tiger thing by herself. queen shit #also i just got to ep 2 and uh. dooku was literally right #'corruption like yours should be eradicated' WHY ARE YOU BOOING HIM HE'S RIGHT #sick of y'all omg #n e ways. lovin it so far #star wars #tales of the jedi #ahsoka tano #baby girl. baby

[uwooyoungs]

yall 11 days til i see ateez at kcon i-

#i may have just upgraded my phone Purely so that i can take better pictures abdhbfjsjs #when i say that ive literally planned my fuckin life around this trip to la and kcon and seeing ateez i am Not kidding #like bought new clothes a new phone and a phone case with a slot to hold a pc #new jewlery to match the kcon Fit #((i have like 3 potential fits and idk which one to wear....)) #i have a piercing appt to get a double helix the day before kcon #like i have Mapped my life out around this its ridiculous and i will be doing the same thing #WHEN i get tickets to the atz concert in november 💕 #some real talk tho for kcon ((atz day)) should i wear the black and white crop tank top or a black crop tshirt w/ a lil chain moment #(that one doesnt fit well around my shoulders tho..) #or cute cropped tank w/ a oversize loose button down situation #all wld be paired w/ the one pair of shorts i like and feel confident in lmao #and docs w/ embroidered roses #anyway i need to do laundry and start packing #this is just a big long rambly train of thought post sorry

[mettasing]

KINDA LONG POST anyways i made two aus some time ago and in both of them madeline is alive

1) the Empire doesn't exist. Gestahl's father's coup d'etat was a flop, and in current time there's a republic (ofc). I thought that originally Madeline's life wasn't easy, and she was disgusted by actions of the Empire (it's near the seal, seems reasonable), so she went to the cave to end her life (IDK FROM HER LINES SHE SOUNDS LIKE AN YESTERDAY TEEN), but here she experienced many hardships in pursuit of her dreams, and also was a black sheep. Oh, and there's something suspicious going on in the Republic. Extremely tired, disappointed in everything, she falls into the another realm. There she finds Maduin, they eventually fall in love, though Madeline is distrustful and hard to impress, and the other espers aren't exactly fond of her, they have Terra, yada yada. Nothing bad happens, Terra grows up away from human world, knowing about her powers and heritage, but she feels uncomfortable in the small refuge and wants to explore her mother's home. After a couple of arguments her parents and espers agree, lead her to the gate (the seal is still weak) and, giving her the final warnings and tips, and so the girl sets off to her journey. The au mostly focuses on Terra's wanderings, and, cause of drastic changes in the plot (the cast mainly banded together because of the grudge against the Empire, or their lives were heavily influenced by it), she befriends only a couple of other heroes, Celes and Setzer first. Still, Madeline's here, she influenced her daughter's life, and the other espers' too – she helps them understand some of human technology, builds simple mechanisms that can aid in everyday life. I hc her as aspiring poet and playwright, but with some knowledge in engineering. She still doesn't easily trusts others, given how espers treated her at first and her misadventures in human world, but she loves her family with all her heart.

2) Empire's here, espers were captured along with Maduin, esper's realm was sealed, but Madeline managed to escape with Terra. She lives as a bitter hermit near Kohlingen, hiding Terra from everyone, rarely coming into the town to buy things nature can't provide. But girl's curious nature can't be satisfied by lonely existence in the woods. When the og game timeline starts, the Returners receive some weird rumors about miracle worker acting in the outskirts of town. They heal the wounds only with their hands, bring back the kids who were lost in the woods, entertain the folk with "magic tricks" (but it is not the real magic... right?). It's not something that can help them in their cause, but it sounds interesting. They can't find the stranger, until they come to their base at town and reveal themselves as teenage green-haired fey girl, wanting to help in their fight against the Empire, as she heard townfolk's complaints and fears. She is willing to join the Returners' cause, but her mother, upon knowing that, starts arguing with her, not wanting her to leave and be wounded, captured or worse. As trusted ally of the Returners, certain treasure hunter Locke Cole decides that in his spare time he can try to change stubborn recluse's mind. Also, the news are spreading to the north that the Empire send a special squad in order to retrieve something important from Narshe by force, and for this mission to succeed, the infamous Ice Witch will also visit the miners' city.

..Oh and I also think that Celes will be precious magic user in this au, also half-esper, but at the side of Empire (I know it will kinda ruin the parallelism triangle between her, Terra and cringe man but whatever). She looks and acts kinda like her beta self. Though I should consider the plot holes that pop up in result...

And in every au Madeline is grumpy and finds it hard to trust anyone. Humans make her sick, espers weren't fond of her at the beginning... In the first au. In second they probably hate her. She was an idealist, who's dreams of finding herself among humans had been broken. When she was a child, she often spend her time alone, reading old books with her sibling, studying ancient legends of magic folk, played in the woods. Now she's kinda snarky, hard to get close (and even apprehensive in the second scenario), her books and her artistic soul didn't help her in previous hardships. She might have found Maduin and given birth to her lovely daughter, but will she overcome her trauma-related prejudices?

Idk why I have such interest in her.

#ffvi #final fantasy vi #im like #ooh i hate my fuckin life all my friends are toxic–OH HI MADELINE #<3 <3 #also i have one cringe ass hc about her but idk if i #should even stutter about it #also terra in these aus #she's literally the manic pixie dream girl archetype

[cryptidofthekeys]

even tho what im writing rn is not nor will it ever be close to canon and in character

...i am a sucker for certain scenarios...

#Chase's Evening Shenanigans #specifically even tho this will sound ooc #i am a sucker for a big murder mans falling for the innocent and soft characters and vowing like #. . . im going to protect them with my life #one thing i should note oh they absolutely still kill people #i wont even sugarcoat it and take that away- they fuckin MURDERLIZE people like god d a m n #but this one specific person is just... cute to them- adorable and they must p r o t e c t #...now will I ever post this? ...probs not bc uh well i'd feel too embarrassed for this one #...but ya know ... *points to dms* ...when you become friends with me i will say #you unlock like 90% more of the deets on what i write lmao #and of course 90% of the deets on ocs too all ya gotta do is ask really #im literally an open book who will jump at chances like that lmao

[starlesseyes]

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#hello it's 4 am and i'm lonely #i feel very disconnected from everyone in my life #like not to sound like a 14yo emo on main but no one understands me lmao #i just want to be with someone who feels like home #someone who loves the things i love and not just because i love them so we can actually bond over them and i won't feel like a fuckin freak #or worse that i'm just being tolerated or they're not even listening to me and just zoning out while i gush over things #i can literally feel when people don't care about what i'm talking about and it makes me feel so small and stupid and humiliated and LONELY #lately my best friend has been telling me how sad she is bc she feels like no one will ever love her romantically #and it hurts me to hear bc i know she's wonderful and deserving of love but i can't possibly convince her of that yknow #and it's weird bc i feel this way about myself too but i don't think much about it? or i didn't before she started telling me how she felt #like before this i was just coming to terms with my last relationship and thinking about the self work i wanna do before i try dating again #but lately i've been crying every single night thinking i'll never get my shit together and therefore no one will ever want to date me #like i truly feel unworthy of romantic love #ugh i probably should just let myself go to sleep when i have these thoughts lmao instead of staying up and dwelling on them #i'm definitely sleepy enough #i just don't want tomorrow to come bc then i'll have to go to work again. i want to enjoy the peaceful nighttime just a little bit longer.

[gregmarriage]

sooooo many thoughts on those last five eps, i can barely think to get them all written down, holy shit!!!

#they were fuckin wild for shannon holy fuck #i was literally sobbing when eddie told chris #they were also wild for having becca’s #insta chat saying buck and eddie should be a couple literally the next episode #also ali breaking up with buck bc she doesn’t understand the life #im so sorry to spn post on main but it’s literally giving sam telling dean to find someone who gets the hunter life and then literally #*insert literally everything with cas* #like you know who does know the life? eddi-(gunshots) #i cannot deal with this!!! #they cannot get me in a chokehold like this!! #like ‘you into brunettes now? actually she was blonde when i met her’ 🙃 #fuck off!!!! #‘i’ve made my choice’ *immediately cuts to eddie’s party* #where buck meets his parents!!! #also maddiechim and buddie playing off of each other and maddie and chim officially getting together!! #i love them 🥺 #maybe they won’t get back to what they might have had but that’s okay because #they’re creating something new and better!! #my beloveds!! #and bobby and athena! my parents!! #this show is giving me the brain worms and it’s fighting with a bunch of other shows imao #it’s like gladiator but for hyperfixations imaoooo #but!! s2 down!! #4 more to go!! #well 5 #including s7 when i can watch that but i #have the other four to catch up on untill then #yeee excited to get caught up!!! #gwen watches stuff