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hiiii i have a kt request 🫶🏼 can you please write something where andy’s invited kieran and his gf to his house and it’s the first time that kieran’s taking someone with him and he’s nervous? (+can we also get andy teasing kt? that’s always fun) ignore this rq if you don’t like it but PLEASE WRITE SOMETHING FOR KIERAN ANYTHING PLEASE

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Settle the Nerves (Kieran Tierney)

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Kieran Tierney doesn't get nervous. Not before cup finals, not before scotland matches in front of a packed house, and definitely not when one of his best mates invites him over. 

Definitely not, especially when he's been given a plus one.

Andy Robertson's dinner parties are always heaps of fun. When it's just the lads, it's normally the entire scotland squad that shows up to either celebrate a win or console each other after a loss. They're a tight knit group- win or lose, it's nice to have the support in place. Those ones are always full of story telling and drinking, and usually end up with half the squad sleeping off various intensities of hangovers in some of the guest rooms. 

This time it's different. It's nearing Christmas, and it's set to be a feast this weekend, kicking off the holiday season for any of the lads that can make it. Amdy's wife and daughter will be there, which means it'll be tame- a fact Kieran doesn't mind at all. And this time, your name was included on the whatsapp message next to his own. 

It's not that he doesn't want to bring you along- he does! Of course he wants to show you off, but he's also terrified the lads will scare you off with old stories of him. Despite only dating for a few months, you mean far too much to Kieran for him to entertain the possibility of something going wrong. 

You're more excited than he is, that's for sure. You haven't stopped talking about it since he mentioned it in passing a few weeks ago. Picking out your dress was a task in a half you told him- enlisting multiple of your closest friends to help make sure it was perfect, not too over the top and not too scandalous. Whatever you picked, Kieran is sure he'll love it… and also sure you'll steal the show. 

And now as Kieran stands before the closet in his childhood house, he finds himself wishing he'd brought his Arsenal cufflinks from his home in London. Instead he'll have to use the little rose ones of his father's, which he doesn't really mind, it's just that they've got sharp edges and they'll be harder to fiddle with at dinner. He's gotten good at hiding his tics in public settings. The occasional post match interview at Arsenal wiped that out of him quite quickly. 

A knock on his door startles him and he curses under his breath when he drops the little velvet box, sending the cufflinks flying. "Yeah? Who's it?"

"It's me, babe. Are you almost ready?" Kieran sighs, scooping up the jewelry from under his dresser and sliding the links through the holes at the cuffs in his freshly pressed black dress shirt. 

"Yeah love, I'm about done. Just have to get my shoes on and I'll be ready. Mum and dad gone already?" They'd informed Kieran when you arrived that morning that they'd be spending the weekend with a family friend across the countryside, so you had the house to yourselves. 

"They left ages ago, Kieran. I'll wait in the foyer, yeah? Hurry up though! I can't be late to meet your mates!"

Kieran quickly finishes buttoning his top, throws on his slacks, and ties up the laces of his Oxford shoes- the ones he hates because they pinch his toes- and checks his hair one final time in the mirror. He looks decent enough, he needs a haircut but his barber back in London can't squeeze him in for another week. He'll get to it eventually- right now he has a party to attend.

Maybe he can come up with an excuse not to go. His throat is bothering him- yeah, scratchy like he's coming down with something. Kieran scratches the stubble under his chin; that idea won't work. You'll see right through him, since it's the same excuse he always uses. 

"Right, let's get on with it then." Kieran tousels his hair one final time before opening his door. He expects to find you waiting. Instead he's greeted with one of his favorite sights: your curves.

Before he's taken a single step, the rich emerald green at the hem of your floor length gown distracts Kieran. He allows his eyes to trail up, up, up over the curve of your backside to where the gown fades to a deep black, dotted through with small dust like crystals that catch the light. The second Kieran steps out of his room you turn, flashing him a brilliant smile. It's then that Kieran finally is allowed a view of you in your full glory. He grins, immediately drawn to the deep v neckline that he swears ends only a few inches above your navel. 

You spin, the flared skirt swishing with the motion. "Well, how do I look? Think your friends will be impressed?" 

"Mouthwatering," Kieran murmurs and means it literally. He'd be drooling if he had an ounce less of self control. You step towards him and he lays a gentle hand on your waist, conscious of leaving the satin fabric wrinkle free. "I'm not sure I should let you out of the house, let alone meet all my mates." Kieran leans forward to pepper the underside of your jaw with kisses. You tip your head back after the first, trying to get away, though he'll chase you tirelessly. He holds firm on your waist now, refusing to allow you to leave him high and dry. 

"Kieran," you whine, dragging out the last letter for a few seconds. "We're gonna be late. You took too long getting ready-" 

"Because I knew you were gonna look absolutely bloody gorgeous, and I had to compete somehow-"

You push at his chest, hard enough that he breaks away with a sigh. "And because of that we have no time to be distracted by kisses. We have to get going! Andy's waiting for us!"

As you drag Kieran to his car, all he can think about is marching you right back inside. For the entire ten minute drive, his hand never leaves your thigh. Sometimes he lays it flat and lets his warmth soak through the thin fabric, and once in a while he traces shapes with feather light fingertips. If nothing else, at least you've distracted him from the ball of nerves that's settled in his gut. Until he parks his Audi outside Andy's house, that is. 

Kieran stumbles up the stone path after you, using your grip on his wrist to propel him along at your speed. You raise a fist to knock on the white painted door but Kieran reaches for the knob and opens it before you have the chance. 

"-be here soon darling, if you could just finish picking up your toys? Thank you my love- Kieran!" Andy, previously crouched down to speak with his three year old daughter, claps Kieran on the shoulder. "Well don't you clean up nicely! And this must be your girlfriend- hello love, great to finally meet you. This one never shuts up about you and I must say, I can see why!" 

Kieran's cheeks blush a furious shade of pink. "Come on mate, don't start already!"

"You're pretty." The soft compliment comes from the toddler hidden behind her fathers legs, clutching his dress pants in her tiny fists. 

You crouch to be eye level with her, not a second thought about it. Kieran's heart swells to double it's size when you murmur, "Thank you sweetheart, you're ten times prettier than I am though. Your dress is gorgeous! I love the fluffy pink skirt!"

Noticing Kieran's wistful look, Andy leans in to whisper, "you'll have one of those soon enough mate. Especially if you keep looking at her like that."

"I- what? Cut it out! It's only been three months mate- I'm not thinking like that!" Actually, he is thinking like that. Has thought of that plenty of times. You, holding a baby, cooing at his daughter, who would look just like you. A few years later, maybe a boy as well- and that would be enough for him. Kieran loves you, and he told you as much on your fourth date. He's reiterated it every day since then, and you've always returned it with the same enthusiasm. 

"Oh you're so in love mate," Andy coos, poking Kieran's side. "Just say it! You love her- the lads are gonna love it!"

Kieran scowls at his friend, "Oi leave me alone Robbo! Like you weren't smitten with your missus the second you saw her!"

Andy glances over his shoulder and smiles at his wife, a beautiful brunette woman who matches his chaotic energy perfectly. Andy was transparent from the beginning, telling the team again and again that he'd marry her- and he did, three years ago, at one of the most love filled ceremonies Kieran has ever attended. 

"I mean just look at her mate, how could I not be? That's my gorgeous wife in there!" Andy whistles and she grins at him, wagging her towel at him before taking the last dish out of the oven. "Your lassie will be your missus soon enough, Kieran. I've not seen you so starry eyed anywhere but a football pitch."

Kieran rakes a hand through his hair while he watches you follow Andy's daughter down the hall. The little tyke insisted on showing you her stuffed animal collection and really, how could you say no? 

"Look, just… don't say anything yeah? I love her, I do, and I'm terrified of messing this up. And can you help me keep the lads in check too when they get here? I don't want them scaring her off."

"I've already told them to behave, and with Mila here I'm sure they will… speaking of my daughter- Mi!"

Mila pokes her little head out of her room with a brilliant grin. "Yes, daddy?" Kieran would fold instantly if he were in Andy's shoes. Instead, his friend holds firm with his arms crossed over his chest. 

"Did you steal Kieran's friend from him?" When Mila only giggles, Andy clicks his tongue. "What did daddy say about that?"

"Umm… to not to?" 

"Andy it's fine," Kieran murmurs, knowing that you love children of all ages and are probably perfectly content to hang out and have a tea party. "Honest, she won't mind."

Andy sighs, scowling at Kieran in a way that makes him feel as if he's the one being scolded. "Alright, but after dinner you're getting tucked in and watching Frozen in the theater room, okay?"

"Okay daddy! Now I have to pour the tea- bye!" Your laughter permeates through the slammed door. A smile creeps onto Kieran's face; he'll never not love that sound. 

For the next twenty minutes, Kieran helps Andy set the table, pick out a few bottles of wine, and pours himself a glass for good measure. Since he'll be driving he'll cap himself at just the one, but you'll be free to have as much as you want. 

McGinn and McTominay are the first ones to arrive, with half a dozen other lads coming by soon after. Kieran is mid conversation with Scott when an arm snakes around his waist and your head rests on his shoulder. 

"Sorry mate, one sec-" Kieran turns and kisses the crown of your head, murmuring "Alright yeah?" And waiting for your nod before turning back to his friend. "Scott, this is my girlfriend." Independent as ever, you take over the introductions and shake Scott's hand after giving him your name. Kieran can't keep the proud smile off his face. Despite his nerves, he's proud to call you his. 

"I was just telling Kieran how I'll never forget the time he had to streak through the changing room-"

"Scott," Kieran half growls, having warned him already not to bring anything like that up. Why couldn't he pick a story like the time Kieran slipped on the pitch and nearly broke his ankle instead? That one was far less embarrassing. You don't need to know all the silly little details. 

But when you tip your head back and laugh and the arm you have around his waist goes tighter to ensure he doesn't materialize into a ghost and slip away, Kieran forgets why he was worried in the first place. "Were you? Kieran never shares his fun stories with me… please, do tell!" 

Scott launches into his story, starting again from the beginning. You watch with curious eyes, laughing at the right parts and nodding at others. Kieran's attention is locked on you. On the way your eyes crinkle, on how your laugh draws in anyone in a five meter radius. Kieran's arm winds possessively around you, hand settling on the curve of your bum as a fes of the other lads join the conversation. Will any of them try to steal you? No, of course not- they all know you're Kieran's and none of them would try changing that. It doesn't stop the primal side of Kieran's brain from wanting to make it perfectly clear who you belonged to. 

By the time everyone's arrived and sat down to dinner, you've made friends with the whole squad. Kieran had no doubts about that- though his nervousness has quieted down and he's much less scared about being embarrassed. How can he be, when you reassure him with a kiss after each story? One to his jaw, another to his cheek- you leave him looking forward to the next story solely so he can have a bit more affection from you. 

During a lull in conversation, Kieran refills your wine and leans over to kiss your temple. "Having fun my love? You seem like you're enjoying yourself, if those rosy cheeks say anything."

Your hand rests on Kieran's thigh under the table, the muscle going tense under your touch, "mmhhmm, I'm having loads of fun! I love you baby… you're so pretty- I love hearing stories about you!"

"Oh, you're tipsy already… you're adorable." Kieran kisses the crown of your head twice. "I love you darling, are you gonna make it through this dinner without falling asleep?" 

You push against Kieran's hand when he brushes his knuckle under your eyes. "Mmhhmm I'll be okay- I'm supposed to have another tea party with Mila after dessert. I can't miss it!"

"Alright baby, if you say so," Kieran murmurs before leaning in to give you another kiss. Andy slaps the table from a few seats down, his bellowing voice breaking above individual conversations.

"Oi, Kieran! Quit snogging your missus at the table will ye? My daughter is present!"

Kieran smiles sheepishly at your Mila, who's mum has slapped a hand over her eyes. "Sorry Mila- uncle Kieran promises he'll behave now." As Kieran speaks, he snakes a hand under your arm and rests it high on your thigh. "Anyway, have you lassies heard about the time Andy had to stand on boxes for a set of kit release photos?"

Andy groans, "I'm always at the front- I was bloody sick of it! It was only for a few photos, I just needed a little boost!"

The rest of the night is filled with banter and stories of all sorts. You're too far gone for that tea party you promised Mila, so Kieran scrawls a rain check on a note for the toddler to cash in at a later date. Kieran herds you home, carries you to his bedroom and sets about getting you dressed and ready for bed. Once you're comfortable in one of his shirts and cuddled into his side, he kissed the crown of your head a million times. 

"Keyyyyyyyyy don't do that- you're making my head spin!" 

"Ah, sorry my love… you're drunk hmm? That's alright, I'll look after you. You just sleep yeah? I love you, sleep tight my darling." Kieran presses a soft kiss to the center of your forehead before you tuck your head under his chin. As your soft snores and gentle breathing lull him towards sleep, he's not sure what he was so nervous about in the first place.

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Merry Christmas 2023: Best Wishes, Quotes, Images, Messages, Facebook, and WhatsApp Status

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Hi.

First of all let me tell you I love your blog. I found your posts very inspiring. I think that in a world like this, in which there are so many mean people, what you're doing is just great.

I wonder if you have some advice about a friend who is literally ignoring me. I don't know what to do.

We have known each other for seven years. We live in two different cities which are far from each other. But we always managed to meet at least twice a year. Besides we chatted every day on WhatsApp.

We were close. I tried to help her in every problem she had, even when it was difficult to find the right words for her. Anyway one day in october she started not to answer me anymore. I tried to ask her what was the problem and she did read the messages but still didn't answer. Last time I wrote was to wish her merry Christmas. I told her I missed her and that I hoped we could talk like before. But even then she read the message and didn't answer.

At the beginning I thought she needed some time alone. I thought she needed some break from everything. But just a couple of days ago I saw she shared on instagram some photos with one of her friends, all happy, all smiling, full of love for each other. And I understood I am the only one she is ignoring.

I don't know what to do. I'd like to know why, if it was my fault or what.

Everyone else tells me to move on but it's difficult.

I think ignoring someone is a real mean thing to do. Nobody deserves to be ignored. People can have problems. They can fight, they can yell at each other, at least that is something in which you are considered as a living person. But ignoring is just so mean. It's like you are invisible. I've never thought she could do that to me. What should I do?

hey anon,

thank you for your kind words. i'm really glad you find this space positive!

i understand your question very well having gone through similar situations several times in the past and even in the presnt. however, i want to answer you by quoting some words from your own question..."people can have problems"

i'm not justifying their behaviour. yes, ignorance is the worst way to deal with anything. harsh words and actions hurt, and yet you can heal from it because it shows that that the other person cares enough to fight with you but ignorance simply means indifference. it's heart breaking and simply not ok.

having said that, i really want you to think of it this way..maybe your friend is going through something. not necessarily a bad situation but simply a change of pace in life. there will be several times in life when you'll see a drastic change in your behaviour, personality, likes, dislikes, and perception.

these changes can bring you closer to new people and also take you away from the people you've been familiar with for years. it's rough but it does happen.

i'm not asking you to forgive and forget. that's easier said than done. i will, however, ask you to drop the weight of their actions and try to move forward. they have made their choice for now. it's your turn to make yours. do you wish to stay where you are thinking what more you can do or do you want to move ahead, without burning any bridges but also prioritising your mental peace?

maybe someday in the future you will reconnect. maybe then you'll get a chance to ask them what happened. until they actually tell you in their own words, you won't know what made them behave this way. so until that happens - believe in the goodness in you and move on.

sending you best wishes and positive vibes ✨

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[develin13]

I need advice!

My male best friend's mother no longer likes me, and now he doesn't want people to know we are hanging out. Now I doubt wether to stay friends with him or not.

Let me start at the beginning.

I never had any real friends until I got really close to my best female friend (Let's call her Clary) when I was about 16. Before that I had many "friends", yet no one wanted to be seen with me, hang out outside with me, wanted their parents to know we where friends etc. You get my point. In February last year I met my male best friend (Let's call him Simon) on Tinder. We had two dates and soon we came to the conclusion we do not like eachother that way at all. Yet we did like eachother enough to become friends. Skip forward to May, where I introduced him to Clary and my other friend at the time (Let's call her Isabelle). Everything seemed to be going really well. Everyone seemed to like eachother and we had a great evening filled with out favourite things (good food and lots of wine). Then in June things went down between Isabelle and I. We had discussed on having a matching friendship tattoo, yet I had also long since before that talked about that with Clary. Isabelle and I got as far as actually visiting my tattoo artist, yet when we walked back she kept on doubting it. Even though she tried to play it off as a joke, whenever you have doubts, don't get a tattoo. So because of that one afternoon I had called Isabelle, and told her we could better wait until we were both completely sure if we wanted it. She agreed and everything was fine. Skip to the evening, when Simon (who I had added to the whatsapp group I shared with Isabelle and Clary to make plans for the dinner party in may) send a message in the group app asking when Clary and I would be getting that friendship tattoo. Both Clary and I were very confused, as we had never discussed any plans with him, we might have mentioned talking about it in the past but there were no plans made what so ever. Understandibly, this didn't fall right with Isabelle, adn what followed was a very heated fight that ended our friendship. That same night Simon send me a private text telling me he really liked Clary. I was very tired of fighting with isabelle all day, I was mentally and emotionally drained. And I was pissed at him, cause in my eyes he had started this fight with isabelle (Ofcourse it would have gone down hill one way or another, that was just how I felt that day.) But I pulled myself together and texted him back. Saying that I wasn't going to stimulate nor hold him back. It was up to her. However, I did warn him, that if the two would ever get a relationship, and they would put me between the two, I would choose Clary. She has been there through so many dark times, and especially after what happened between Isabelle and me, she helped me through that as well. He agreed and understood.

Skip to September. Earlier that week I had asked Simon if he wanted to do something on a Tuesday, the day when our cinema holds sneak previews. it had been a while since we last went. He said he couldn't go. I didn't ask him why, I mean who am I to ask that. Anywho, skip to friday, when Clary, Simon and I had another dinner party at Simon's place this time )he is the only one with a place of his own). That is when I heard Clary and Simon went to dinner and the cinema on Tuesday. Truth me told, Clary didn't know I didn't know, yet what pissed me off is that Simon had not been honest with me that he went with Clary. But I have never been good with my emotions, first there is the shock and then the anger, yet over the years I have learned to control my anger and not spit it out immediately. Anywho, skip to the drive back home. Clary tells me on our way home that she likes him as well. At first I was a bit shocked, but not completely surprised. There was a selfish part of me, that wanted to stomp the floor like a toddler and yell "I don't want this!" but I knew I couldn't. The only thing I could do was support my two best friends in their happiness. So i told her to tell him, and see where it would lead you two. And she did, and they have been dating ever since. Now I knew things would change, I mean how could it not. And where Clary tries to include me as much as possible, and not make me feel like the third wheel, Simon is basically the walking heart eyes emojie. And every time I ask him to tone it down around me I always het a "You will find someone as well." bla bla bla. Like that is not the point. I have been on my own for over 21 years (Minus two months), I don't mind being single.

Skip to Christmas, where I am from we have 2 days of Christmas, and we had agreed to come together the second day to celebrate Christmas with the three of us. At the time I had a boyfriend as well. Sadly he couldn't come. But back to the point. We had not agreed on a time so I was there way to early. They thought we had agreed on 11 p.m. I thought it was right after dinner. So I waited in the car for an hour, and eventually got pissed. Simon told me I could come to his parents house where his entire family was, but I thought he had invited me, in the end it turned out it was his mother who had invited me. But I didn't feel like intruding, so I waited. Until I waited in a nearly freezing car (college student, trying to save gas) and called them angry that I was going home. Understandibly, I had a small argument with Simon and Clary, and ofcourse his parents where not happy at all. Clary, Simon and I talked about this and eventually had a nice evening, even though I missed my boyfriend at the time dearly.

Skip to January, where it was Simon's birthday. After all the congratualtions and everyhting, I appologised to his family for what had happened. They all accepted my appologies and I thought we where fine.

Skip to the 12th of Februari. Clary is doubting her relationship with Simon (quite manipulated by her own parents who never really liked Simon) and I try to be a good best friend. She tells me she wants to break up with him, and I offer her to drive her to him (we live about 30 minutes apart and she doesn't have a car.) So I asked her if she was sure and she was. So I drive her there. I stay in the car and wait patiently until she returns. He was a complete mess apearently when she left him. I texted him saying it hurts now but it will be fine. At some point all contact is broken and no one can reach him. We both get worried and I contact his family through facebook as I do not have their numbers and Clary doesn't have any social media. I tell them briefly what happened and if they could check up on him, worried he might do something wreckless like driving to us and maybe getting in an accident in his mindset. Skip to the next day, alot of talking later Clary and Simon are back together. Yet Simon starts basically ignoring me. I just let it go for a week or two until I had enough and wanted to know what bothered him. He tells me he has the feeling I no longer support their relationship, which is nonesense. Yes I may have moments where I wished it was back when they wheren't dating, when it was the three of us equally, but that is simply something that is my problem. In the meantime I broke up with my boyfriend cause he was a manipulative asshole. Another long talk further and everything seemed fine.

Skip to two weeks ago. We finally hang out again, everything at 1.5 meter distance (Thank you corona...) and as I wanted to share a story on facebook (as I do usually) he asks me not to tag him this time, because his mother wasn't exactly a fan of me anymore and he didn't want his mum nagging him or something. Like I mentioned before, it stang like a bitch but I have learned to not let my emotions get the overhand right away, I told him it was his mum's problem and right now it was more important that the relationship between Clary and his parents gets repaired, as that was also greatly damaged because of the incident in February.

Not comes the part where I need advice. What he said and asked has opened up old wounds I thought had long since healed. He claims to be my best friend, yet wants to hide me. Even though he said it would be temporarily I just can not shake it off. I actually want to put our friendship on hold, as I can not do what he wants. I don't hide friendships, from no one. Either we are friends or we are not. I also want to discuss this with my best friend, but truth be told, I don't know how to feel or what to do. On one side I want to ignore these feelings and feel like "Fuck it, it is his mothers problem." and I could feel that way, if he had not asked this of me.

So should I put our friendship on hold for now, until things calm down with his mother, or should I try to ignore my feeling and just keep going?

#help #advice #friends #drama

[jessaminekaldwin]

People, I wish you a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

It is very important to me that you know how valuable you are to me. I enjoy the beautiful moments with you. You are crazy! This message comes from the heart and is not one of those copy and paste messages that everyone sends out, and is forwarded each year in new totally impersonal whatsapp groups! You are really the best basket team that exists! I wish you a healthy and successful 2011! I love you!! Love from Arend Jan.

[1dffexchange]

If You Need Me

To: Brianne @tiostyles​

From: Hunter @hxxefics​

Summary: The one where a Christmas party brings two people together (sort of).

Fleetwood Mac is blaring in the studio as Sam starts to clean up for the night. It’s late, later than she’s usually at work, but she’d had a high profile client come in and it ended up taking longer than she expected. So, she stayed late. Everyone else had left though, meaning Sam was putting everything away on her own. She’d even sent her assistant. Earlier in the day Emily had mentioned needing to go Christmas shopping so Sam had sent her home early.

Sam’s phone buzzed, but she ignored it as she put away some of the lights that had been pulled out of the closet. It wasn’t until her phone started to buzz every few seconds that she realized that maybe she should check it. It was usual for her phone t0 do that, unless it was some sort of emergency.

When she picked it up, it wasn’t an emergency, instead just a dozen WhatsApp notifications. Sam just sighed as she unlocked her phone do see what it was. Much to her surprise, it was Alexa, she’d started a group chat about the year Christmas party her and Jack threw. Usually the invites had gone out already but as it had been a rough couple of months, Alexa was just inviting everyone in the group chat.

Sam didn’t even bother to see who else was in the chat. It didn’t really matter, to be honest. So, she typed a quick response saying that yes she’d be there before slicking out to add the date to her calendar. If Sam was being honest, it was getting late and all she wanted to do was get out of there and go home. She put the group chat on do not disturb and went back to what she was doing in the first place.

By the time Sam made it home, it was nearly half past eleven. Which wouldn’t be bad if she hadn’t been up since five that morning for a yoga class. All she wanted to do was fall into bed and relax for the first time all day.

The following day she didn’t have any plans and didn’t have to work, which meant a single day to herself. It was rare nowadays that Samantha had free time. She threw herself into her work, she was a self proclaimed workaholic. It was just, what else would she do? Her mates travelled a lot for work, and to be fair so did she. She wanted mad her social life wasn’t the best it could be. She had friends, but life just came in the way most of the time.

Once she’d changed and washed her face, she got a drink of water before falling into bed. Her body was still wired so she grabbed her laptop and found something to watch on Netflix. She was exhausted and the only thing she wanted to do was watch some shitty romcom and get some sleep.

It wasn’t until after she’d been in bed a little while that her phone buzzed. It was late, probably nearly two in the morning, but she reached for it anyway without pausing the film she had on. To be honest, she was barely paying attention to it anymore, that’s how tired she was.

When she unlocked her phone and clicked the WhatsApp notification. It was then that her stomach dropped and her heart started to race in her chest. Sam just stared at it for a minute, completely dumbfounded. It didn’t make any sense.

There, in the group chat from earlier in the day, was a single new message. One that Sam didn’t ever think she’d have to see. Seeing Harry Styles’ name on her phone for the first time in two years was terrifying. What was even scarier than that was what he’d typed.

Harry Styles: I’ll be there, wouldn’t miss it for the world x

Samantha felt sick suddenly. It wasn’t meant to be like that. He didn’t even live in the damn country anymore. Sam had been to multiple parties, for multiple years where he surely had been invited but didn’t show up. They had similar friends and while that was true, Sam had assumed he’d moved on and made new friends in LA. Friends that she wasn’t mates with so there was no chance of them running into each other. That wasn’t the case though. Not now.

It took a couple of minutes for Sam to become rational again. Realistically, it was going to be a massive party. There was a huge chance that they wouldn’t even run into each other. They probably wouldn’t even ever be in the same room. And even if they were, Sam wouldn’t care. She’d been over it for ages now and she wasn’t going to let some stupid party at their mates house ruin that. That was just ridiculous. So she swallowed thickly and mustered up the energy to get over it. That’s all she could do anyway.

The thought of of their last interaction made her feel weird all over again. He’d told her he wanted to be friend, that he didn’t want them to completely be without each other. Sam hadn’t shared that feeling though. After they agreed they couldn’t see each other he’d tried to reach out, he’d told her he’d be there for her with anything that she needed. It didn’t work though, not that Sam thought it would.

The whole thing seemed so strange, because it felt like it happened so long ago. Sam was so tired and the fact that she had to think about him for the first time in a while made her feel even worse. She’d loved him, more than anything in the world. They’d had an incredible whirlwind of a relationship. One that both of them thought they’d only dream of. Lots of traveling and falling in love in hotel rooms thousands of miles away from home.

For the rest of the night she couldn’t stop thinking about it, about their last conversation and how the words he spoke meant nothing. “If you need me I’m here” echoed loudly in her head. Even once she was asleep the words were still stuck in her head, echoing around her brain loudly. Sam just wished it meant something. Maybe things would have been different.

///

Sam isn’t exactly sure how she’s ended up in the situation she’d just walked into. It wasn’t meant to be weird, it had been years and if there was anything Sam prided herself on, it was being over Harry Styles. Which sounded a bit ridiculous, even years later. That’s why Sam even went in the first place. Surely they could coexist at the same party and not have it be weird. But, as soon as she walked in she felt like the energy changed completely.

She didn’t really know why, though she told herself it was her nerves. That had to be the problem. It wasn’t a big deal, she knew tons of people that were there, in fact most of them were mates. From the outside looking in it wouldn’t make much sense, how everyone there knew someone else, probably multiple people, but it worked. Their group of friends was large, and each one of them loved it.

It wasn’t very long before Alexa had seen her and was calling her name. Things were normal at the beginning. Sam put her presents down in the rustic style dining room, where all the presents were. It was concerning, how big the pile on the table was becoming.

They’d all agreed on a Santa Swap, meaning everyone bought a present. The numbers that were handed out and attached to the presents determined on who got what. Sam couldn’t help but smile at all the different wrapping, some were even in little gift bags that had Christmas scenes on them.

It started off fine. Sam was with Alexa and a few of their other mates. Matt and Waseem had even flown out from New York for the party. Which was nice, Sam hadn’t seen them in ages. People milled about. It was Jack’s (Guinness’) party, so it was at his house. But Sam was around enough to know where things were and where things went.

Seeing people for the first time all year was the best. There were a few musicians that Sam was friends with who had been on tour forever. Being able to catch up with them was brilliant. It was hard when most of your mates were constantly in other countries. Sam was proud of them, they deserved everything they had, it was just weird.

She was sucked into a conversation with Alexa and Aimee when she noticed that her drink was empty. People were starting to start karaoke and Sam knew she needed more alcohol for that. She excused herself from the group she was with and made her way over to the buffet that had been set to play bar for the evening. A few people were already there, making drinks, so Sam waited patiently.

There’s were going abnormally well. It wasn’t like she’d thought about Harry, but it had been in the back of her head that he was around somewhere. She wouldn’t entertain her mind in attempting to look for him, but she knew he was there, somewhere. She thought she may actually make it through the night without having to deal with him. Maybe she wouldn’t even see him at all. Which would mean it really was fine.

Sam had just poured herself a new drink when she heard her name called from behind her. There was only person who called her Samantha, rather than Sam. When she spun, it was so quick that a bit of her drink had sloshed over the side of the cup, making her hands wet and sticky.

“Shit,” Sam mumbled as she looked up to see who was calling her name. It had been a soft voice, one that she hadn’t thought she recognized. It was then that she realized who it was. Probably the one person she had not intention of seeing.

Harry was stood there in a creme suit, a black button up buttoned only about half way. His hair was was long, far shorter than back in the day, but longer than it last time she’d seen him. He was smiling though, genuinely even. Sam’s through closed up easily as her heart started to pound heavy in her chest. That wasn’t the reaction she’d wanted to have. She was meant to feel indifferent, like it didn’t matter. They were able to coexist without any sort of problem.

“Harry,” was all she could get out at first.

He reached over to the table and grabbed her a napkin, “For you hand,” he told her with a gentle smile, “Didn’t mean to frighten you.”

Sam took the napkin and wiped her drink from her hand, “T-thanks uhm, sorry I just wasn’t paying attention,” she lied easily, probably too easily. Suddenly she felt self conscious in the dark coloured dress she was in. She felt out of place standing there, even though she wasn’t.

Harry shook his head, “‘S alright. How are you?” He questioned easily before he took a sip of whatever he was drinking these days. God only knew what it was anymore.

Sam didn’t know what to tell him, because up until right then she’d been fucking brilliant. Now tough, she wasn’t so sure. The whole thing was just strange to her, running into him like that. At a Christmas party nonetheless. She’d done well at avoiding him for well over a year, and all of a sudden he was next to her again.

“Good,” Sam managed to get out, “Really good actually.” She didn’t know if it was polite to turn around and make herself another drink because she really fucking needed one, “Do you mind?” She questioned and gestured to the makeshift bar behind her.

Harry shook his head, “No, of course not. Could use another one, too.”

Samantha let out a shaky breath as she turned around. Her eyes quickly went for the vodka on the corner of the buffet. She’d been drinking mulled wine before but suddenly that didn’t feel strong enough. Her head was starting to flood with strange memories that she’d hoped she wouldn’t have to think about ever again.

“What’re you drinking?” Harry asked deeply as he looked over at her, “Reckon I can play bartender.”

Sam blinked at him before she could even answer that, “Vodka,” she replied quickly, “And cranberry.” It was one of the most simple drinks in the world but it did its job.

“Vodka?” Harry quirked an eyebrow at her but grabbed the vodka anyway, “‘S unlike you.”

In the back of Sam’s throat were cruel words, something along the lines of how he didn’t know her anymore. She didn’t say that though, it would be too rude, and even after all that time and all the weird emotionally bullshit she’d been through, she didn’t want to be rude to him.

“Well,” she mumbled as she watched him pour her drink. She didn’t think it was his place to question, but at the same time she thought maybe it was.

The problem is is that they were inseparable for well over a year when they were younger. Probably one of the most in love couples that either of them had seen, nevermind been involved in. Harry had loved Sam like no one else had, so wholeheartedly that Sam never doubted if he cared for her or not. He gave up a lot for her, and to be fair, she gave up a lot for him.

Samantha hoped that Harry knew it had been reciprocated. That she loved him just as much as he did, if not more. It hadn’t taken her very long to realized that Harry was the man of her dreams, even at twenty. Two years of her life had been with him, a beautiful who was turning into a man in front of Sam’s eyes. He’d always been a man to her, but seeing him start to show his true colours to the media was something that Sam thought was beautiful. Harry was such a beautiful person inside and out, Sam was one of those lucky people who knew that.

It all ended rather suddenly, it only took one fight for them to call it off. Harry wanted to stay in Los Angeles. He’d mentioned that he’d wanted her to move in with them (they’d been together for two years after all) and Sam felt like a pile of bricks was dropped on her chest. She was, at the time, an up and coming photographer. She didn’t have many clients, and the clients she did have she valued. Harry had been nice enough to introduce her to some people and because of that she’d started to book more and more jobs.

The problem was, she didn’t want to be in LA. She wanted to be close to her family, preferably not too far away. And Los Angeles was an 11 hour plane journey. She wasn’t willing to do that, she’d tried, they’d stayed in LA for a couple of months, but by the end of it she knew she wanted to be back in London.

Harry lived in London part time, though the time he was there really was fleeting. He had a house in Hampstead Heath, but he didn’t spend a lot of his time there. There were issues with security and fans finding his address. Plus, London wasn’t the kind of vibe he was looking for. He much preferred Beverly Hills or Malibu. Sam didn’t though. That had been their downfall.

That had been two years ago, and Sam was just seeing him for the first time since that fateful day in Harry’s Beverly Hills home. Sam had thought she’d been over it, in fact she’d thought cutting all contact and making sure to avoid him had worked rather well. It was easier to get over things and move on when you have an ample amount of time and no real communication with the person, but she was questioning all of that.

Sam was stood there watching him make her a drink painfully easily. He talked to her just like he had back then, as if nothing had changed at all. That was the part she didn’t understand, how he could fall into that role so easily, especially since they hadn’t spoke at all in two years. Sam was jittery and nervous, her palms were sweating and she felt a bit too warm in her long sleeved dress. Even her words were stuttered and nervous. Harry though, seemed calm, cool, and collected about everything. She just didn’t get it.

When he handed her the glass with her drink in her, she was terrified she’d drop it, that’s how sweaty her palms were.

“Thank you,” she whispered to him, “You didn’t have to do that,” which was true, he didn’t. She would have been fine on her own, probably far more fine than she was right then.

Harry shrugged as he started work on his own drink, “How have you been?” He asked and Sam thought maybe she should just walk away because that may start something that she didn’t want started, “Alexa mentioned you’ve got your own studio now.”

Instead of trying to swallow the dry lump in her throat she took a sip of her drink, “Y-yeah, I’ve had it for a bit now. ‘S easier to be able to have a single place to go instead of traveling all the time.”

Harry smiled at her, “That’s wicked, Samantha. Really. That’s what you’d wanted.”

Sam didn’t know what to say to him, it wasn’t an easy conversation. Not that she ever imagined speaking to him again but it was known they ran in the same circles. There was always a chance they’d run into each other. She’d assumed it would be okay to talk to him if they did, she’d convinced herself she was over the whole thing, that she’d moved on and gotten on with her life. She’d even dated a couple of people.

Unfortunately, it wasn’t the truth. It was uncomfortable talking to him, she felt a bit overwhelmed if she was honest. The whole thing was too fucking much. Interacting with him at all was far fucking harder than she thought it would be. It wasn’t even like she understood why, she’d genuinely felt like she was over the whole thing. That was until he was standing in front of her wearing some creme coloured suit and fucking loafers.

“How are you?” Samantha asked because she felt like she had to, it was only polite. Part of her wondered where he mates were and if they’d come fucking save her from whatever was happening, “How long are you in London for?”

Harry let out a soft laugh as he poured a shot of gin into his glass, “I’ve moved back actually,” he stated rather easily, “A couple months ago. Robin passed away so I decided it was time to come and be with my family.”

Sam’s heart dropped rather quickly, she’d had no idea that Robin had passed. She knew he was sick, but he’d been sick for years. Part of her wanted to know why no one had told her, the other part of her was glad they didn’t.

“Jesus, Harry, ‘m so sorry, I had no idea-” Sam rambled.

Harry shook his head as he reached for the tonic water, “‘S alright. He was sick, really sick towards the end. ‘S easier to accept I guess. Like they’re out of pain once they’re gone.”

Sam swallowed another lump in her throat, she wanted to reach out and hug him. She could tell he was upset talking about it, even after all those years she still knew. Her heart hurt just looking at his body language, she could even hear it in his voice but how guarded he sounded.

“Y-yeah,” she agreed because what else was she meant to say.

Harry finished making his drink rather quickly, making Sam really fucking nervous for no reason. What if he tried to keep talking to her? What if he didn’t? She didn’t even know which would be worse.

Thankfully, someone called Harry’s name and got his attention. Sam smiled at him and slipped away easily because that’s what she thought would be best. Instead of going to find her mates, she went for the bathroom. She just needed a damn minute. Her heart was hammering heavily against her ribs and her hands were shaking.

The bathroom was empty so she was quick to slip in and lock the door behind her. It was small, but it was better than being surrounded by people. Sam just really needed a minute to just think. Just get away from everything and fucking think.

Sam tried to catch her breath, but instead it just made it worse. Her eyes fell to her drink that she’d set on the edge of the sink. Before she could even think anything else, she brought the cup to her lips and downed the entire thing.

//

It wasn’t long after their present swap that Sam decided she should go. She’d ended up with some weird chicken statue that everyone agreed should live in her kitchen. It was weird, but that was the whole point. White elephant exchanges were meant to be strange, especially with that group of people. So even though Sam had no idea what she was going to do with it, she still sort of loved it. She’d find a place for it eventually, probably in her kitchen like everyone suggested.

She wasn’t sure where Harry was, it wasn’t like she was keeping an eye on him but she hadn’t seen him since the gift exchanged. He just disappeared. And maybe it was because Sam had been drinking that she cared so much. After their conversation she felt bad letting him wander off. He was probably fine, but Sam’s drunken mind didn’t know that. He’d ended up with some weird Gucci throw pillow that Sam hated, but she had a feeling the only reason she hated it was because Harry fucking loved it. It was such a Harry gift it was nauseating.

Of course now though, Sam was curious. She wouldn’t ask anyone, but she wanted to know if he’d snuck out already. Not that it mattered. When she decided it was time to leave she wanted to find her mates, but Alexa found her first.

“Sam!” Alexa beamed from across the room. Samantha was still holding her new metal chicken close to her chest.

“Hey, was just gonna find you-” she started but Alexa cut her off.

“You’ve forgotten this,” she said as she held out a delicately wrapped present. In the corner was a tag that had her name on it. Sam didn’t understand.

She furrowed her brows, “You didn’t have to get me anything-”

Alexa snorted, “I didn’t get you anything. Was left on the table, figure it’s important.”

Sam didn’t like how that sounded, and she really didn’t like that it didn’t have a name on it. In fact it made her even more anxious.

“Weird,” she mumbled but took the present anyways, “Uhm, ‘m gonna be heading home I think, ‘m exhausted.”

She said her goodbyes to everyone, even made sure to hug Matt extra tight because he was going back to New York in a couple of days. It was good though, to see everyone and even though Sam had to deal with more drama than she wanted to, it still went better than she thought it would. A situation she’d tried to avoid for ages went by swimmingly, at least that’s what she thought. So she’d call the night a win.

Even in her Uber on the way home she felt fine. The strange gift was tucked under one of her thighs. Her driver was playing ‘Mechanical Bull’. Days ago that wouldn’t have made her think of Harry, but after her night, she couldn’t help it. Sam was still a little drunk, she wondered how he felt about ‘Walls’, if he liked it or not. It was stupid to think about it, she rubbed at her temples hoping that it would stop. She was tired and stressed out and didn’t want to think about it anymore.

When she got home, she climbed the steps to her flat slowly. Her body ached from how long a day it had been, physically and emotionally. All she wanted to do was fall into her bed. She shoved her key into the door lock and twisted it carefully. A warm breeze from the heat of her flat hit her as she walked in.

After she shut the door behind herself, she hung her keys her the little hanger she had for them near the door. Then she kicked off her heeled boots, her feet had been killing her since before she’d ended up at the party. Sadie pulled her peacoat off carefully and hung it in her small entryway. A chill ran down her spine as the warm air touches the skin of her arms.

Sam still hadn’t opened the gift she’d been given because about halfway home she had a really terrible feeling that she knew who it was from. And if it was from him, she wasn’t sure if she wanted to open it or not. She had no idea why he’d even gotten something for her, it didn’t make any fucking sense.

She didn’t look at it until she was in bed. It was a small book shaped gift, wrapped in a gold wrapping paper that was shiney even though there was only one light in her bedroom on. It was scary to open, but she let her dainty fingers flip the gift open and tear the paper easily.

Once she opened it she knew immediately who it was from. It was a leather bound journal, one that looked almost identical to one she’d bought Harry years ago. Her breath caught in her throat as her fingers ran over the smooth and soft leather. She just didn’t understand it, why he’d get her something like that. It wasn’t his fucking place.

When she pushed the wrapping paper to the side she held the book for a moment before opening it. The pages were empty except for one, the first crisp page in the book.

In Harry’s handwriting there was a small note followed by a series of number. Samantha’s head was already fucking spinning with the whole thing.

‘For when you need someone but aren’t up for talking.

H x’

Sam swallowed thickly. She felt fucking sick looking at it. At the bottom of the note was a number, one that she knew for a fact was his phone number. It didn’t even take her very long to be reaching for her phone. Her eyes felt wet and her hands were shaking more than they had been all night.

This meant something, something that she had no idea about yet.

It was half past one in the morning as she put her mobile up to her ear. The rings were almost haunting for Samantha. She couldn’t believe what she was doing but she was on autopilot.

It took five rings for him to pick up. Honestly, Samantha didn’t think he’d answer at all. She wasn’t even sure if she wanted him to.

“Hullo?” His voice was rough and Samantha knew she’d woken him up and she felt awful.

“H-Harry, hi,” she breathed out, “S-sorry, I didn’t even think you’d pick up.”

It was quiet for a moment before, “Samantha?”

Sam froze on her spot, a chill running down her back, “Y-yeah. Hi, Harry.”

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Create your Christmas postcards to send congratulations this year

We face the last days of 2019 and it's time to say goodbye to the decade in a big way, with the best congratulations and Christmas cards. For that, we show you some of the best tools to create Christmas greetings in a simple way from both the PC and the mobile. This time of the year is approaching when we have two options: follow the flow and forward the meme that our brother-in-law sends us to WhatsApp ... or create our own Christmas greeting. As many do not have Photoshop at hand (or cardboard and marker if we are classics), here are a series of apps and websites to create your Christmas cards. One of the keys to send the best Christmas greeting and succeed among our family and friends is originality. Thanks to different websites and mobile apps we can create postcards in a few minutes to surprise our contacts and also have a loving detail with them.

Canva

If graphic design is your passion, Canva is one of the best alternatives to Photoshop. It is a website that allows us to easily edit images, as well as create designs, and if you want a personalized Christmas greeting ... it is a great option. Through this link, we access the Christmas postcard editor of Canva that allows us to write our personal message in an already created template, but also free our imagination and create a template from scratch. Once done, we can print, download or share our Christmas card.

Fotor

Another of the great options if you want to create an original Christmas greeting is Fotor. It is one of the best online photo editors, one of the best alternatives to Photoshop and, although there is a Pro account, we do not need to pay to do very flirtatious work. Entering the "Create a new design" section, we must use the search engine to see the postcards related to the term "Christmas" (from this link ). Once we access them, we simply click on the one we like and write our wishes for these dates.

Touchnote

Touchnote is an app to create Christmas cards that is more classic since it allows us to send postcards directly in physical "format". It is an app for iOS and Android that allows us to take a photo with the mobile and personalize it with Christmas motifs. It will cost us, shipping included, 5USD and it takes between two and five days to arrive, about three weeks maximum if we want to send the postcard to some country in Latin America. You can get more information on their official website.

Christmas Picture Frames

A concise title for an app that gives what it promises, neither more nor less. Christmas Photo Frames is one of the most requested apps from the Play Store. It is free, has many positive ratings and is extremely easy to use. All we have to do is a photograph and choose the frame we want to "surround" our photo. After this, we save the image ... and ready to send. You just have to download the app through this link and start creating.

Christmas cards

It is one of the simplest and most effective apps in the Android Play Store. It is an application in which we have several different designs available, from more "serious" postcards to snacks coming out of the mouth of winter characters with messages to personalize. It is a free app, you can download it from this link and give a special touch to our congratulations.

Christmas photo editor

And we finish with our recommendation of the best apps and websites to create Christmas postcards with another app that is similar to Christmas Marcos Foto, but that allows us a little more creativity when playing with background blurs and objects added in the image.

If the previous one falls short, surely in this you will find what you need. You can download it for Android through this link.

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Christmas Wishes For Facebook

The Merry Christmas Whatsapp and Facebook Status messages assume a significant job during the celebration and aides in wishing every single of your loved ones. click here These status messages can likewise be shared on other long range informal communication sites of your decision.

Probably the best Merry Christmas Whatsapp Status and Facebook Status messages involve offering satisfaction, love, success to one another alongside appreciation for an astonishing year. These messages help everybody in indicating their affection and care towards one another. click here  In this post we will share the absolute best Merry Christmas Whatsapp and Facebook Status messages that you can impart to your loved ones.

Despite the fact that Christmas is the greatest Christian celebrations it has developed past religion and is presently celebrated by most others worldwide also. It is a day to commend the introduction of Jesus Christ, who is viewed as the child of god. Anyway it has developed to turn into a celebration to celebrate with your family and other friends and family. click here  On this day it is decent to make an impression on the entirety of your friends and family to express your desires whether you are meeting them on the day or not. Here are a few SMS, messages, Facebook or Whatsapp welcome to send them.

Nowadays every festivals begin and end with web-based social networking. Give it a chance to be any festival, your inbox will be shelled with welcome from your friends and family. Since it can be hard for every one of the companions, family members and friends and family to be accessible for get-together capacities, wishes and messages are the best way to remain associated. A single message from buddies can fill your heart with joy looks more brilliant. For this period of Christmas, you may as of now have begun getting welcome from them. Following are some warm Christmas welcome that you can impart to your companions or family members.

Christmas is a yearly celebration that falls on December 25 to commend the introduction of Jesus Christ. click here  here's chill noticeable all around and Christmas lights and trees are up. The period of yearly celebrations is at last here.

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Merry Christmas Wishes For Facebook Posting

Christmas is the most exceptional time and the open door for you to show love to your families and companions, just as offer your thanks for the individuals who have helped you in one manner or the other. Christmas is likewise the ideal time for family get-together. All the adoration, delicacy, love and fellowship makes Christmas the most awesome day for all individuals. On this page we present you a huge gathering of Christmas cards for Facebook, just as pleasant Joyful Christmas wants Facebook or WhatsApp with pictures. These basic however genuine messages will help you to pass on your affection to your friends and family in the ideal way.

May your Christmas be inspiring, brimming with affection and chuckling. Always remember that family is the most significant thing on the planet, and Christmas is the best time to go through with your friends and family. Happy Christmas!

Informal communities join individuals. In any case, we should not disregard being with our families and companions, all things considered. Joyful Christmas to you and your friends and family!

Such a fantastic night! May this time be really mystical for you and your family, since Christmas is the night when enchantment occurs. Merry Christmas!

Express gratitude toward God it's Christmas! We've been hanging tight for it for an entire year, and now we can at long last appreciate this enchantment. Happy Christmas!

Quit gazing into your telephone and start getting a charge out of the special seasons with your family and companions! Expectation you're having a great time. Merry Christmas wishes to you!

Whatever is magnificent, whatever brings you euphoria and satisfaction, may it be yours this otherworldly season, just as the coming year. Wanting you and your family to enjoy all that life has to offer, happy Christmas!

It is anything but a mystery that out guardians have consistently humored us with costly Christmas exhibits and done their best to satisfy us on this mysterious night. In spite of the fact that presents are significant piece of the Christmas season for all children, their affection have consistently been substantially more profitable for us all. All I need to state is: during this magnificent occasion, remember to be appreciative. Cheerful Christmas!

Christmas would lose it's sense without adoration and anxiety topping off our spirits. I trust that you will go through your Christmas with somebody you truly love. May the bliss light up your live. Happy Christmas!

When I return to my parent's home I have a feeling that I'm bringing back my adolescence. Their consideration and love never show signs of change and consistently make me feel ensured, and it's especially apparent on the Christmas night. So may you generally adore your internal identity and remember that you should take care about the ones who deal with you. Cheerful Christmas!

Since we're adults, we don't put stock in Santa Clause and there's nothing of the sort as great conduct any more. We as a whole commit errors and go unforgiving now and then, yet today is Christmas and it implies that we need to excuse ourselves and one another. Happy Christmas!

May Santa Clause Claus bring you a lot of presents! May your house be loaded up with unadulterated happiness, delight and harmony! May the Ruler shower his unending gift on you! Here are my desires for a Cheerful Christmas and a Promising New Year!

Occasion is any place you're with the friends and family. Wish you to have an unbelievable Christmas in the organization of close individuals. Happy Christmas!

There's just a single thing in your life that can and should (since there's less cleaning and chop down trees) be phony: Christmas tree. Also, concerning everything else, I wish you just evident sentiments, veritable words and genuine individuals in your manner. Joyful Christmas!

Day off, lights and Christmas melodies are great segments for making Christmas air, yet they're as yet insufficient to have a perfect Christmas. Love, giggling, genuineness and liberality are unmistakably increasingly significant. Happy Christmas!

I unquestionably like Christmas melodies, since they are generally so upbeat. I want you to resemble a Christmas melody – similarly as flexible and merry. Happy Christmas!

My desires for you are the joy of companions, the delight of family and the miracles of the Christmas season. Wishing you a happy occasions and another year loaded up with family, companions and extraordinary occasions, cheerful Christmas!

All seasons are incredible for reasons unknown. Summer is incredible for warmth and light, spring is for motivation and harvest time is for profound musings and reexamining various things. However, winter is incredible for every one of these reasons, since heavenly Christmas incorporates everything. Happy Christmas!

At the point when the stars start to sparkle and the moon appears, simply take a gander at the sky and feel the enchantment of Christmas night and the solidarity of the world. This brilliant inclination is sufficient to be upbeat. Joyful Christmas!

May this mind blowing night bring much love, light and satisfaction into your home! Furthermore, may everything remain there till the following Christmas. Wish you a glad occasion!

May the stunning minutes went through with your nearest individuals during Christmas keep you warm and chipper for quite a while!

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May the uncommon occasions of the present become the valuable recollections of tomorrow. Wishing all of you genuine romance, perpetual satisfaction and joy, cheerful Christmas!

Christmas comes into our homes and hearts, bringing us interminable delight and spreading it all around.

Christmas is an incredible time to share the most joyful snapshots of the past with your family and to make new brilliant recollections to love later on.

Christmas is the ideal opportunity for fuel the flame of neighborliness at our homes

To esteem compassion, harmony, altruism – that is the thing that the genuine soul of Christmas is.

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Safety Net Friend!?

In June, i have had 3. Yes, THREE former friends from my past reaching out to me. After months (In one case, years) without any contact and suddenly all 3 inserted themselves in my life through my DMs. Let me set the scene, all 3 of these former friends connections all started and ended the same. They were my go to people, to chat, gossip and rant to when we both needed someone to talk to (well that is how i felt it was) but after a while i noticed all the conversations we had were focused around them and only them.

Former friend #1 - She started work at the company i worked at. She was very nice, we hit it off. I was working 6 days a week and 80% of the time we were on opposite shifts so i had no time to be friends outside of work. After 6 months of hell in this company (I might share the story at a different time) i quit. On the spot, i walked out. I kept in contact, daily with this former coworker because i thought we were friends. The conversations died down while i was busy jumping from job to job to find my feet with agency work. We had a nice catch up chat (whatsapp) near Christmas. The chat died on December 23rd when i wished her Merry Christmas and have a nice time with your family. January rolls around. No message. No happy new year friend. I got over it. I saw on her Facebook she was on holiday. I texted her. Hope shes having a great time. How is the snow? The conversation was incredibly one sided. She only replied to the questions i asked. No, i'm good how are you? My Christmas was great how was yours? I'm not asking for much just pretend your care about me for one second and i'd be happier when asking about your exciting holiday in the snow when all we had was rain and slush. Yeah, this back and through never happened. Only answered the questions i asked about her life. I accepted it and ended the chat. One month later, the mood stuck me. I'd message her again, see how shes doing and if shes surviving the hellish company i used to work at. I was there for her to rant whenever she wanted because I've been there and it's not nice, experiencing that place alone. I messaged her, the blue ticks pop up but no reply. Okay. Hours go by... shes only again and again. No reply. Days go bye. I'm annoyed. I message her something fake to see if it gets a response. I invite her to a birthday party i wasn't having. NOTHING! This from someone who spent months on a daily basis, asking me if i wanted to hang out. I'm no inviting her to a birthday party and i get NOTHING back. I decide. I don't need part time friends in my life. I delete the chat and remove her number. I didn't block her. I delete the number.

5 months later.... I get a message. Hi, how are you? I reply i'm great how are you? (My curiosity made me reply) her response was "Finally you reply to my messages" Hmmmm... Have i missed a conversation over the past 5 months?? FIVE MONTHS of nothing and i get a cheeky backhander from her.  I let it slide and laughed it off (Crying face emoji) i asked her how everything was. No joke. Over 50 messages back and through and it was all about her life, how much she hates the job (hellish company) all the drama that was happening in the company and how she hated every minute. Oh and a Guess what i'm pregnant news. That i was actual genuinely happy for her in the moment because he struggled to get pregnant in the past so that news was great to here.  The conversation died for a week. If you want to talk to me, you can message me. I'm not looking for part time friends. 4 weeks later, she messages me again because shes on the early shift and none of her other friends are up at 4 am. Lucky for her, i was bored at work so i replied. Work drama this, work drama that. I'm fine BTW thanks for asking. The one conversations about how shit her job is lasted a few days. From the moment she messaged me 4 weeks ago to the current chat, she hasn't once asked me about my job (A new job i started just before the come to my birthday party message) hasn't asked me about my life, i went on holiday 3 weeks ago, i was super hot and sunny. Nothing about me. Just a simple hows life? won't hurt anyone. After all these messages about how much she hates work and it's making her miserable, she just blurts out that she has a miscarriage over 3 weeks ago. I'm shocked and saddened for her, she was so excited but the fact that it's just an afterthought from her to tell me made it sadder. Miscarriage is a serious topic, can't just oh BTW this happened to me. I gave her loads of love, apologised for her loss and told her, if she needs someone to talk to i'm here. It's not an experience someone should have alone. She gave me the love hearts emojis and told me to text her anytime. The conversation ended and it's been one week. I'm her part time - I have no one else to talk to friend. 2 months update - She has not contacted me since her last message.

Former friend #2 -  Another ex coworker. This is the "acquaintance" i made when i left the Hellish company and Former Friend #1 and started a new job. Former Friend #2 started a week after me, i was able to meet people and get comfortable in a new company and when she started i was there to welcome her and show her what i knew and who i met. It's terrifying to start somewhere new and when you know no one. My anxiety can't handle those situations so i took it upon myself to welcome her. We had 2 days of training together and we were on the same shift. I was thinking, yeah i have someone to have my breaks with, for the first week i practically sat on my own at lunch playing on my phone. When she started i at least had someone to sit with.There was probably 15 women in the whole company. We were seriously outnumbered so we had to stick together. She would text me when she got to work, i was normally 5/10 minutes behind her because i was traveling by bike or bus depending on the weather. After a 12 hour shift, she would text me. On days off she would keep the conversation going. I thought i had a friend that enjoyed talking to me. On our shift there was 3 women. We made a trio, we had break together and gossiped together when bored. This company had too many negative personalities, well on our shift. It was the shift no one wanted to be on because of the negativity oozing out of the older miserable men. I had had enough and i looked elsewhere for jobs. I scored a better paying job in a smaller company doing the exact job i was doing that the company i was leaving. I started work on the Tuesday. I texted Former Friend #2 to break it to her. She was "gutted". My shift started the day after. I emailed the manager with my notice but he didn't inform the shift. The morning of my shift while i'm on my 2nd day at my new company, non stop phone calls and texts asking if i'm okay. Did i have an accident cycling to work? Former Friend #2 was asked if she had spoken to me and where was i? she said she hasn't been in contact with me. I texted everyone back to say i have a new job and the manager has my notice.. blah blah blah. I texted former friend #2 after my shift to see how she was doing without me. Blue ticks and nothing. Okay she must be tired, long shift. At the end of the week, same blue ticks and nothing. 3 weeks later, how have you been? Same old blue ticks and no reply. I don't need part time friends, deleted chat and deleted number (I didn't block) 5 months later (What is this a 5 month itch?) she messages me. I don't have her number saved so i'm confused who is this. The message reads, "I forgot i still had your phone number" after 5 months of not messaging me and 3 weeks of ignoring my messages you start with... i forgot i still had your phone number. WHAT!?!  Hows things? I'm playing this game. Things are great how about you? Shes the only one that asked about work, briefly. It was hows work? and that is it. It was all ME ME ME, I've got a new role in the company, drama this and drama that, people keep asking me how you are, i have a boyfriend now and i ran in a charity race. The only time the chat was about me, to catch up on what shes missed in MY life was Hows things and hows work? That was it. Nothing came back to me after the first 3 messages. Normally i'm the last person to say something in the chat because people just stop conversing with me. The conversation ends with me. Its sad but she kept messaging me about HER LIFE even when i didn't continue to show interest. She ended the conversation with "keep in touch" I left it at that. 3 days and nothing.... Former friend #2 sent me a friend request. I was hesitant and didn't accept right away. I returned to the request after 2 weeks. It had been removed. Oh how nice? fair enough i can move one. 3 days later... friend request from the same person. Okay, screw it accept. I didn't even look at her profile. Accepted and logged out. Sometime within the next 4 days. She removed me as a friend. What the hell is wrong with this person? Did she see my profile and realised i don't share anything personal on there. She can't get any gossip off my page to share with ex work colleagues? I needed to END this connection/friendship whatever this is/was. I sent a message to the now non-friend and basically telling her to never contact me again. I don't need some fake person floating in and out my life when THEY have got their fix of attention and bragging rights. I'm not here for that. She never replied. Hope she got the message.

Former friend #3 - This friend WAS different... We were best friends for 5 years. I would visit her for constantly. She lived 400 miles away. I'd visit her a couple times a year and stay with her for 2 - 3 weeks at a time. We would go to events around the country together. Meet up there and meet old friends and make new friends. She was different, even with the distance we were as thick as thieves. I could message her whenever about whatever and she would reply. Same for her. We could go months without talking and pick up where we left off. It all changed when we reconnected with her friend from primary school who happened to live in another country and i met the love of my life. She had been visiting her old friend for maybe a year before i met my love, i had months of her talking about her trips and planning the next one. I was happy for her because i was struggling financially so i couldn't meet up with her as often as i used to so i was happy she had someone to hang out with without making me feel bad. Slowly the conversations became ONLY about her trips and friends. I would ask about work and it would turn into, saving for my next holiday. Overtime for my next trip. It became boring. I met the man of my dreams, after the first few dates i decided to tell my best friend that i finally found someone i really like. Her reaction was a simple... great. She could not have been less impressed. Maybe i caught her on a bad day, i moved on from the new boyfriend talk and asked about her life.. BOOM!! Me me me, my holiday was great i'm going again in 4 months. So, it wasn't a bad time for her, i just wasn't interesting to her. Few weeks passed, things are getting serious. I need best friend advice, she didn't care but she felt talking about her next holiday would sort my man problems out. This whole... talk to me about my holidays and only my holidays shit got old fast. Me having a boyfriend should have been front page news, it was to everyone else in my life but not my best friend. I messaged her in September to see if i could visit her in March for my birthday, like we have done for 3 years before. No reply. One month goes by, she replies... Only if i'm back from holiday, yes you can visit. Her holiday was in January and she came back the last week of JANUARY. i was asking about March. It's always about her and her trips. In that month of no reply, i made different plans for my birthday. She wasn't pleased but got over it because when she got back in January she was planning a trip to see another friend in March. She could never visit me but will visit those her lived further down south than i was. NICE. She messages me randomly out of the blue every probably 6 months over the past 3 years. Her last random message was a week ago. It read "Hi, How you doing?... My next holiday is in blah blah and i'm going blah blah" Her first message in months was about her next trip. Not, when you getting married (joke) or long time no speak, how have you been? and waited for that message to get a reply. No. I am going on holiday soon AGAIN! I don't ask much from a friendship even a work "friendship" If i have to listen to you moaning, ranting, how good your life is, how happy you are now... you can at least ask and pretend to care how my life is going. A basic how are you? and hows work? is your way of "tricking" me to ask about you is that a friendship, you want someone to moan to without feeling judged. You can't give me all the negativity and brag about the good parts when you don't care if i'm in work or not, if i'm still in a relationship, if i'm doing FINE!!! I have a history and anxiety and depression, I've tried really hard over the many many years I've felt this way to not share that bad side of me. When i isolate myself because of it, there is no one there asking if i'm okay. They just replace me. *That is another story for another time*

Why am i the part time friend? Why am i your last call? Why is it so easy to remove me from your life? Why do you think i'm so desperate for friends that you can just pop back in my life and think i'll welcome you with open arms and leave without any damage. Fuck you!!

#anxiety #no friends #left out #fake friends #isolated #blog

[bidonica]

I had a weird start of the day today. I met D. on Twitter a few years ago because we had contributed writing for the same web anthology project of short memoirs written by women. She was roughly my age and a teacher, her husband was a published writer alongside his day job, which he never felt comfortable leaving even if he wrote for one of Italy’s major publishers, which says something about attempting a writing career in my country I guess, and they were probably among the nicest people I ever met on the internet. Like, genuinely kind. They lived on the other side of Northern Italy but the husband had relatives within less than a couple hour drive from where I live, so we made arrangements to meet up there when they would be visiting last Christmas.

Of course, me being me, I had to cancel on them at the last minute because I was still trying to recover from a nasty migraine. Not exactly the best situation for spending the day at a brewery. I apologized to D. via text and she told me not to worry, that there were going to be other chances. We had both expressed willingness to kind of... consolidate our friendship beyond interactions on a short form social network. It was really one of those cases where you just know that if it weren’t for geographical distance you’d hang out irl and not just on the internet. Anyway, we resumed our normal twitter interactions, until a few days ago I realized I hadn’t seen her post on my timeline lately, and I wanted to ask her whether they had brought home the Siberian cat they wanted to get.

But I didn’t find her Twitter profile. I went to check her facebook, and she was nowhere to be found. Going on a social media purge isn’t so uncommon but I began to worry. I noticed her husband, while still active, stopped posting updates on his social media around late March. I worried more, but I tried to tell myself people go MIA on social media for a number of reasons. So last Wednesday I texted her - hey, I haven’t heard from you for a while, just wanted to check whether everything is okay. 

Days passed, and that message never got the double check signaling a successful delivery. It left my phone and was there in mid air, on the Whatsapp servers. It’s not like I gave it my undivided attention, but that undelivered message was bugging me in the back of my mind.This morning I woke up suddenly, with an urgent imperative: I have to google her name. And there I found it - a short obituary, paid for by her family. She had, indeed, passed in late March. There were no specifications about the circumstances of her death, but something about the wording gave me the chilling suspicion that she might have taken her own life. But this is just speculation on my part, based on what we let transpire about our struggles on a public social network. We weren’t that close, we just wished we were. A missed connection.

(a few months ago D’s uncle had passed, and she expressed her utter horror at how people kept writing on his facebook wall as if he were still alive, and most of all at how her aunt kept using his phone to send Whatsapp texts using his number - this seemed to be a way for the widow to grieve, but it - rightfully - creeped D. out immensely. So I suppose her husband deleted the social profiles that he had access to in order to respect her will.)

Now I’m letting the Easter holidays pass before sending my condolences to D.’s husband - I might be wrong but some things seem to hit harder when there’s some kind of festivity in the background. Meanwhile I needed to write this down because it haunted me the whole day.

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