#And now to take on the One thing I generally get anxious about? Bro. It’s gonna kill me. 100% no exaggeration

[shima-draws]

Told my boss that NO I cannot take over customer phone calls because my anxiety will literally not be able to take it. And I’m being SO brave about it,

#I say this as I’m sitting here shaking and on the verge of having an anxiety attack. AHA #Shima speaks #She called me yesterday morning and was like. Hey your coworker is drowning and I KNOW you hate phone calls #But she really needs help #And I was like. Yeah okay. Maybe I can do this. #Fast forward to last night. I’m in bed hyperventilating bc no I CANNOT do this #My mental health has already been Bad for the past few months bc I’m already working overtime for this job #And now to take on the One thing I generally get anxious about? Bro. It’s gonna kill me. 100% no exaggeration #So I called my boss this morning and was like hi I’m so sorry I said I would but I actually can’t. I deadass had an anxiety attack #just THINKING about it last night #And she was like omg no I get it. I have anxiety too I know what it’s like. It’s debilitating sometimes #So she said I didn’t have to do the phone calls and now I’m like YIPPEE #And she said hey that was a really brave thing to do. Speaking up like that and making it clear when you’re not comfortable with something #Me still shaking and holding back tears: Thank you I’m being SO brave about this rn #Anyway I’m still coming down from the near panic attack I had before I called her to tell her lmao #It’s been a rough 24 hours. I’m fine (lying) #I’ll BE fine now that I don’t have to talk to angry customers on the phone tho 🥰

[sk3tch404]

Late Night Hanma Blurb

A/n: Thought abt this during an itty-bitty road trip today. Smoker Hanma does smth to the chemicals in my brain. Forgive me for any lengthy bad writing. I've had a long day and I just wanna yip yap about one of my fav crazies 🙇

CW: Hanma can give two shits about your lung health but chooses not to when he feels like it, intimidation, threats of forced drug usage, sometimes forced participation in violent activities, thoughts of lovers suicide/murder(?), and whatever other yappin I put in here.

Hanma who smokes a fuck ton and doesn't mind giving you the good ol' second-hand effects of it, but absolutely detests you doing it on your own.

He snatches the stick from your mouth and holds it up and away from you with a small grit in his teeth. Hanma glares down in some curiosity but clearly squints in irritation.

"The hell is this? Don't tell me I'm being a bad influence on you now. If I catch you with one of these again, I won't let you off the hook so easily. You got it, Y/n?"

When you retort, telling him it's no different from when he does it and it is your own choice whether he likes it or not, he merely scoffs with a tilt of his narrow head. Throwing down the cigarette, the sound of his sneaker stomping and scraping it out against the pavement echos through the air with an annoying presence. Shuji demands the rest of your stash with a looming stare that can only put you into a state of sinking discimfort.

"Come on, don't be stubborn. Ya know, if you wanna do it so bad, why don't you try the whole pack? Mine too since it's a shitload better than that cheap stuff."

Reluctant on suffocation and early lung cancer, you begrudgingly hand over your smokes to him. Hanma smacks down on the box with an evidently loud shot of noise and slides it out of your palm. He pockets it with a stretched smile as he leans down towards you.

"See, now it ain't so hard to listen."

He's still ticked off by the fact you think you can do whatever to your body without his permission, but since Shuji is so generous, he'll let you learn from your mistakes. See, he can be nice.

Don't test him though. Next time you're caught defying his selfish wishes, he's beating you down with degrading language and probably also beating whoever was involved. The convenience store employee that sold you the cigs, vape, or maybe even chewing tobacco? Yeah he's taking out his held back frustration on them. Bro is jumping over the counter and tearing their shit up.

Avoiding him because of his brutal and honest-to-God psychopathic personality? Now that's just cruel. Shuji is dragging your ass by the back of your shirt and pushes you to his motorcycle. The leopard print on the back of the bike makes you wanna barf every time you see it, but you got to keep it down if you wanna have enough energy to deal with him. He'll take you out no matter where you are at in that point of time and make you remember who he is; who you think you're messing with.

"Y/n, how many times do I have to tell you? Aim for the nose. That's easy for amateurs like you. Actually, lemme show you how to really deliver a jaw breaker-"

Yeah, he'll show you just how bad it can get with some random thugs on the street. You should be grateful with how gentle he's treating you. Instead of ending up with facial fractures, you have nice dates and thoughtful gifts. He's even teaching you a few tricks. How lucky can you get?

"I'm all done. Shit, I'm starved. Let's go grab a bite to eat, kay?"

Hanma thinks the only way you'll ever keep paying attention to him is if he keeps you and your actions in line. If you go off doing your own thing, his usually unmoving heart can't just stand there and watch you slowly leave him. Despite the negativity be brings into your life, he actually gets really fuckin anxious when he doesn't know or understand what you're doing. It's so troublesome how you make him feel. Yeah, being bored as shit is bad, but seeing you, the only thing that could ever bring him down to his knees unwillingly, slip away with nothing but disdain for him? Fuck no. He won't accept it. Shuji would rather kill you and then himself than have to bear the strange feeling of pain, or what other people call heartbreak, by his lonesome self.

Should he ever say he loves you, that would be the point of no return for the both of you. His hands have you tight in his clutches. No way out, no way back in for anyone else.

#yandere #x reader #yandere blog #male yandere #yandere x reader #yandere tokyo revengers #yandere tokyo revengers x reader #yandere tr #tokyo revengers fandom #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers x reader #tr #hanma #hanma shuji #yandere hanma shuji #hanma x reader #yandere hanma x reader #tbh i kin him but like in some aspects #so naybe thats likeeee why hes emo at the end #BUT EYYYY DID I COOK OR DID I BLOW TS UP?? #😔😔 #well i think it came out better than I expected #been in a writing mood for a while #ig all the reading got me doin flips n shit now #gave me confidence n direction too if #ig** #ehehe #dont lemme wake up n lemme see some ass writing #im actually gonna pray dude #🙏🙏🙏

[overwatch-for-men]

General Hcs for the Shimada bros!

Hanzo

Since Hanzo was reunited with his brother, he has become way more comfortable with being casual almost by force

his exposure to memes and by extension, improper english, has been increased by tenfold

his pronunciation was always clear and consistent, even with his accent

but that’s all but gone because of Cole’s southern slang and Genji picking up random words and phrases from the internet

he was talking to Sojourn about an upcoming scouting mission and he ended up slurring one of his words

he cried about it for an hour/hj

he switches from the most productive man in the universe, to the most sleepy and nonchalant

he’d get all of his work done in two hours and then take an old man nap at 3 pm

i personally hc him having autism and stimming is a really big thing for him

he definitely has a few textured stickers on the back of his phone case

whenever he’s annoyed or anxious he starts to subconsciously scratch at his arms

not anything serious, and from the outside it would just look like he’s extremely itchy

Genji

cat boy

he used to be really good at video games but he doesn’t have time for them anymore

sometimes he gets extreme zoomies and that combined with his agility is very scary

will take a nap in the most precarious of places

he faked falling off a railing once

he scared hanzo really badly so he doesn’t do pranks like that anymore

he never liked lightning when he was young

now he has an even bigger reason to dislike it

he has both of his old scarves

he gave one to you for when he goes on long missions

i hc him to have adhd

adhd paralysis is definitely a thing and it’s hard for him to break out of certain loops like opening and closing doors or shifting weight

he’ll get especially stuck if the item makes an interesting yet repetitive noise

he’s usually able to break himself out of the loop though

also this man will just stare into people’s souls

especially when he has his mask on

he’ll be zoning out and forgetting that other people exist

its extremely menacing when he has his mask on because there’s no facial expression to gauge

it’s just him, completely still, staring at everyone

and when he’s completely out, not even yelling his name will get him out of it (at least not immediately)

#overwatch 2 #hanzo shimada #genji shimada #mlm love #hanzo shimada x male reader #genji shimada x male reader #genji x male reader #hanzo x male reader #adhd genji shimada #autistic hanzo shimada

[softpine]

→ oc questions tag ←

tagged by @subtlefires thank you!! i haven't seen this tag before, so this was really fun 💖

i decided to do casper to make up for all the times i've chosen coco

→ 5 words to physically describe your OC (do you have a drawing? even better!) (since we already know what he looks like, i chose general descriptions and stole your moodboard idea hehe)

energetic, reliable, persistent, lacks confidence, sweet

→ Who inspired your OC?

at first, nobody. casper was meant to be the... not comic relief exactly, but a break from the heavy ghost/death/trauma stuff in the main story. but as he got older, i started putting so much more of myself into his character. without going into detail, i've learned things about my own family that makes me relate to casper's situation more than i thought i would when i came up with it. i never planned to go more in-depth about his biological father & half sisters because i thought, well, he has 2 loving parents and siblings he grew up with, why would he lose sleep over these people he's never met and is only connected to by blood? it was one of those things where i thought i knew how i would feel in that situation, but i never really knew until i knew. i wish i could say this is the only part of my life i've imparted on casper, but it's not 😅 casper is also the first character we've seen in college since beth, and my college experience was SO much closer to casper's than beth's. so like. it's me, i inspired casper fjksdjs

→ Give me a song to define your OC

soda by nothing but thieves // lyrics:

i once had a thought, but don't know where it went 'cause i've been living off soda and cheap cigarettes maybe when i was a kid i was dropped on my head yeah, that would make some sense

i don't want to be myself it's making me so unwell

→ If I met your OC on the street how would they greet me?

he doesn't make it a habit to greet strangers aside from a polite nod, but if he already knows someone he would loudly call out to them even if they're far away and it's embarrassing for everyone involved – that is, if he remembers them. he's really bad with names!

→ Can your OC be your best friend? Why?

oh yeah for sure. not so much now, but i was friends with so many jock types in high school. i think it's because once those guys find out i'm a lesbian they just treat me like a bro 😌 but they would tell me things they didn't think they could talk about with anyone else. i love being the friend everyone comes to with their problems because i'm telling people what they already knew but didn't want to admit, and making them feel like they came up with a solution all on their own. that's exactly what casper wishes he had in a friendship right now. also i want him to be my personal trainer!

→ 1 adjective and 1 noun to describe your OC

neurotic // i know this word is outdated, but i still use it for myself and i can't think of a better word to describe the way that he manages to be anxious about anything and everything. so much of his personality / habits / lifestyle were formed in response to anxiety (like, he was afraid of staying the same so he changed everything about himself all at once. he did so many sports and he exercises all the time because it keeps him busy. etc.) and the important thing is that most of his fears are totally irrational and not the more common worries people have, even other people with anxiety. it's not like "are my friends secretly mad at me?" it's "i'm going to walk to class today because i'm afraid i'll run someone over with my car" and things of that nature; things he knows are irrational, but that doesn't make them feel less real. but we'll get more into that later

toaster // LMAO... it's a ubiquitous household object you take for granted will always be there. you don't really know how it works on the inside, you just count on the fact that it will. you don't even take notice of it unless something is really wrong with it. but it's a tried and true part of a daily routine and you'd be really bummed if you lost it! tell your toaster you love them today sdjksjd

→ tagging: feels weird tagging anyone after i got so personal here lmao so if you see this and want to do it, consider yourself tagged!

#bold move picking one of the most beloved and attractive stars of the 00s as casper's face claim but i figured i'd throw him a bone #casper birkshaw

[evil8keta]

so you’ve done what it would be like to have piss man aussie aka sniper as a friend, and i was wondering if you could also do what it would be like to be in a romantic relationship with him?? uwu

wow, the sequel that no one expected...

dating the piss man!!!

- as sniper's friend, you were allowed rides and some occassional trips in his camper...but as his partner?? bro wouldn't mind if you just lived there with him tbh, even if it's a bit cramped. you spend a lot of time in there anyway, cause sniper often takes you on road trips that are days long or takes you to his favorite remote areas to go camping! yippie!

- camping with sniper is really fun!!! he shows you cool stuff about nature and teaches you any survival tips and tricks he knows. also there's no way you're ever gonna feel scared of spending nights outside like this if sniper's with you. he's very confident in his abilities and always makes sure to reassure you if you start feeling anxious or worried :))

- weird sniper headcanon number 1: he likes to follow you around sometimes. he was always used to being by himself but now that he has you he got used to being with you instead! so whenever you look behind yourself there's like a 50/50 chance that your beloved aussie is there. he doesn't have any bad intentions, bro just likes being near you. also, he doesn't say anything, he's just THERE. you get used to this eventually i promise....also if you wanna tease him a bit you can turn around and send him an air kiss. bro will be BLUSHING and then he will run off to compose himself

- when it comes to affection, sniper's pretty awkward. he's very inexperienced and doesn't know what to do-- he WANTS to show you affection, he just doesn't want to mess up and make you uncomfortable yknow?? so it's best you initiate affection first, at least in the beginning of your relationship. over time sniper will adapt to it and show affection much more often

- touch starved asf. he never realized it before but after you guys started dating (and sniper became more confident with showing affection), he pretty much turned into a leech (affectionate). he loves holding you and playing with your hair and holding your hand and tracing patterns into it and laying his head on your lap and many MANY more. bro is a cuddle bug. but ONLY in private!!! the most you get from sniper in public is him ruffling your hair, anything else makes him uncomfy

- physical touch and acts of service are his love languages for sure!!! the second one is very obvious. sniper is a gentleman so he always offers to help you anytime he can. also he just loves doing things for you in general, such as running errands for you and making you breakfast in bed :D

- speaking of that, he's a decent cook. he doesn't make anything fancy, just simple yet filling homemade meals. also pls cook with him, it makes him SO happy!!! bro is just smiling the whole time you spend with him in the kitchen

- he's pretty crafty, so expect to receive some cool handmade jewellery and accessories from him!! i think he might have even made matching bracelets for you two from animal bones!!

- loves when you wear his clothes he thinks you look so cute omg......biggest privilege is sniper letting you wear his hat though. no one is even allowed to touch it, but you? ohh darling honey sweetie gravy YOU can wear it ANYTIME you want

- sorry but no cheesy couple nicknames, however as compensation you get cuddling sessions that eventually turn into you both taking a nap together. and if you're wondering YES sniper is the big spoon

- allows himself be very vulnerable in front of you. he already put a lot of trust in you as a your friend but now he literally trusts you with his whole life!!

- overall.... dating sniper isn't that different from being friends with him. it's very casual and full of mutual respect for one another. BUT if you're someone who's a bit more openly affectionate, you're gonna get some funny reactions from sniper because of how flustered he can get haha. he's the type of guy who still blushes from simply THINKING about his partner like he's some silly teenage girl with a crush. it doesn't matter how long you two have been together. he's still gonna blush around you even if you two are married

#team fortress 2 #tf2 sniper #tf2 x reader #headcanons #keta writes

[color-cacophony]

Certain names are spliced so this doesn't show up in their respective tags.

I get very sad every time I think about people infantilizing Fa/wf/ul and assuming he's a child because there's one thing I believe is very important about his motives:

He craves a sense of dignity and independence seemingly more than anything and it doesn't help when people characterize him as some sweet little beanie boy and turn him into what is essentially another Bowser Jr. He's not like Bowser Jr. He has bigger plans than impressing a higher-up. He wants to be the higher-up.

Sure he was eager to make Ca/ckl/etta proud in Superstar Saga (though we don't know for sure how much of that was sincere), but during his monologue before his final battle he realizes that Ca/ckl/etta sees him as entirely expendable and he becomes anxious thinking about what could happen to him after she conquers the kingdom.

This is what makes me upset when people portray Ca/ckl/etta as a mother figure to Fa/wf/ul. She praised him for his servitude, but she was never compassionate towards him. She was using him. I don't understand why so many fans insist that they have a loving relationship (unless it's just an excuse to draw wholesome stuff with them). Not to mention that line in Partners in Time where Fa/wf/ul literally calls her a hysteric.

As for Fa/wf/ul himself, why would someone think he's a child? Because he's small? Most Beanish are generally small. Is it because he's excitable, or because he has a high-pitched voice? Well, Invader Zim also has those traits, and that doesn't necessarily mean he's a child. There are four major points I'd like to make in favor of Fa/wf/ul not being ten years old:

He's certainly a very silly villain, but he can be cruel as well. In Minion Quest he said he was going to work Bowser to death.

Uncharacteristically brutal for a character whom everyone thinks is a sweet little kid.

His jumpsuits with the ridiculous plunging necklines are rather... inappropriate for a kid to wear.

The events of him becoming Dark Fa/wf/ul Bug, ranting about his remorse and frustration upon being defeated, and eventually exploding with the intent of taking the Mario Bros with him, seem way too intense and dark to happen to a kid (in a Mario game, at least).

He takes villainy too seriously to be considered "childish". He goes all in, whether it's redecorating a conquered location, or affirming his hatred towards the Marios. When I mentioned his desire for dignity, I was talking about the countless images of himself he puts everywhere. He frames himself to be admired, to be respected, to be worshipped, because he truly believes he deserves it after what he went through being Ca/ckl/etta's apprentice. He takes villainy seriously, and he takes himself seriously.

I don't have an idea of how old Fa/wf/ul would be, but I don't want to believe he's just an innocent kid. With everything I pointed out, it just wouldn't make sense.

Sorry if this was a bit melodramatic (it was certainly biased and admittedly a bit weak in spots, lol). I was just randomly thinking about it and I got so frustrated that I had to write this instead of going to sleep. Anyway, I should be getting to bed now that I've finished sharing my thoughts.

Edit: Please don't interact with this post. I don't want it to spread because I made my point too intense and imposing and I don't want invalidate other people's interpretations

#I Talk Sometimes

[markmybirds]

A Request for Ko-fi for my best girl Tesla

Hello! I don't usually post my own unique things on Tumblr anymore. Unless, someone has tagged me in a bandwagon survey. I don't generally post my art up anymore either so here we go! I'm an artist, I used to post to my other blog @owldrawathing . Markmybirds is actually my artist handle however, I don't use it for my art tumblr because I created the name for Tumblr initially.

Ok now that I've Overshared in Neurospicy. For the TL;DR: Our dog Tesla that we have had in our family for almost 12 years got diagnosed with a Sarcoma Tumour. Here is my Ko-fi link, please spread the word that I am taking commissions and selling prints of existing artwork for her surgery and pathology.

For the More Overshare Edition cause you want to learn about this beautiful dog and her family. Miss Tesla Umbreon came into my husband and I's lives as a late birthday gift to Cody (the husband). We were living in Ottawa and I took him into Gatineau, QC on the pretense that we were visiting puppies to just look and have some time with cute puppies. They were perfect, I would have loved to adopt a CKC dog for us but an Australian Shepherd breeder had an oops litter. I wanted an Aussie and Cody wanted a Lab for our first dog. His parents bred labs and I am a sucker for shepherd breeds. Long story short we picked out Tesla, our bundle of joy, as she was the quietest bean in the litter and the only puppy who was sold on coming home with us right away, just.. You know she was only just under 1 month when we visited her litter. You see the oops litter, well. She was born from an Aussie/Lab (with the smallest dollop of Border Collie) mix and an Australian Shepherd. She was the perfect oops for Cody and I. Tesla has been with us since she was 2 and a half months old. She has always been the best dog. We had a lot of darkness in that year she came to us, we were blessed by her and her now late cat-bro Kain for giving us a great big light in dark times. The past almost 12 years have been the best. She has been with us all throughout our Undergrads in University, our marriage, the birth of our daughter and she has been helping us raise our now five year old. Tesla has the patience of a saint, and although she is an anxious girl for horrible loud sounds she puts others first before her fears. We have never heard her growl or viciously bark at anyone or anything.

Two weeks ago we made an appointment after finding a new old lady bump that was sus. She has a few lumps and bumps that have just stuck around. However, getting this one tested has returned to us the fact it is a Sarcoma/Malignant Tumour. We are trying to raise funds through art and chainmaille jewellery done by my husband. Visit my Ko-fi (links at top of post) for my art commission information. and if you're interested in mobius earrings or a chainmaille bracelet done by my husband please don't be shy to inquire~!

#Australian Shepherd Labrador Retriever mix #Tesla #Tesla Umbreon #Tesla like the inventor Nikola Tesla #I'm gonna do it I'm using a made up mixbreed combo-name. War look away #Aussiedor #ko fi link #ko fi goal #ko fi art #ko fi commissions #Preview of a print for sale #Digital Commissions #Prints for Sale #Artist #markmybirds #Raising money for Sarcoma Removal #Dog with Sarcoma

[eyessocurious38]

Spider-Man ATSV Thoughts (spoilers)

Okay soooo

I watched Across the Spider Verse a second time (because it’s a beautiful artistic masterpiece and I am Miguel trash honestly. )

There were so many things I wanted to analyze and look at for a theory I’m planning to post but damn every scene has sooooo much detail and we’re too fast, my brain couldn’t process fast enough lol.

At least from what I can recollect and some thoughts I had:

1. I’m definitely looking forward to analyzing that entire Gwen opening when I have the power to use the pause button. There is so MANY scenes that are layered with details (a lot of foreshadowing scenes that will take place in the film and some characters like Spot, Hobie, our queen Gwen, and Mr. O’Hater appear too.). The one that caught my eye was the Miguel (of course) part which that was interesting if it was intentional. It showed what looked like him watching Uncle Aaron’s death and that itself seems to foreshadow?? His apathy towards the Spider-Man canon deaths of Uncle Bens. And since the dude has those computers that can basically spy on every universe (or past events that have occurred and not live or current ones) it makes sense. But like how do they do that? I hope they explain more how they were able to do all this tech and stuff) I’m gonna watch it one more time with another friend next week I hope to get more details again. Otherwise imma wait until then.

2. I did noticed the different spider folks in the spider society scenes so that was cools. Didn’t have to strain my eyes too much.

3. I could hear things that I didn’t hear before when I first watched the movie. Lol. But maybe I just need subtitles.

4. Honestly idk where this came from, but now I’m kinda seeing how reckless it is for the spider parents, Jessica and Peter B, to still be doing spiderman stuff with no children safety in mind (pregnant or bringing their kid along, plot armoire I guess but stilll). Weird this feeling is coming up after the second viewing, I guess I’m just anxious if something will happen to either character(s) in the next film. They have a lot to lose and for them to risk their kids like that is kinda irresponsible imo.

5. Babygirl Miguel please your hot and brooding but stop bullying miles. They both have good points, Miguel I get he’s tryna see the bigger picture of things and is tryna redeem himself from the Shit show he caused for his variants dimension, but he’s still very traumatized and is acting like a victim of circumstance and hot tempered jerk like bro that’s a kid ur tryna fight which I hope in the next film they can go more into details, get this man a therapy appointment, maybe prove that his canon model isn’t always accurate, and reconcile. Miles I get he can save his father now that he knows and being Spider-Man means you should try to help and not accept things the way they are. This is very layered honestly it can also apply for lots of themes they express too in this film (generational trauma comes to mind). But I’m worried since they do keep showing the whole “you can’t save everyone as Spider-Man” thing and Miles wants everything, he thinks he can do it. (In the beginning of the film they show this with Miles trying to have a normal life and being Spider-Man, tho he struggles to keep a balance to it. And he’s only a couple years in, he’s still too young but I understand where his heart is at). So maybe miles isn’t gonna be entirely in the right either. But hopefully this will be expanded on more in the next film. Maybe both characters will have a slight change in their current views and see why the other is also valid.

6. Spot’s voice is so cute? Or just funny and light hearted? Almost makes me feel bad for the guy. and I could see more stuff in his flashbacks that I couldn’t recognize on the first watching because I couldn’t process what I saw. But cools. I have a bigger theory about him and his powers and how it could effect the canon model. But my brain is hella tired rn to go into it. Basically if his powers could somehow change the canon model or make divergences that won’t cause calamity’s or could cause more. But another day for that.

7. U know I wonder if Earth 42’s Rio Morales noticed that our Miles wasn’t her son right away? Like did she think her kid was going a lil crazy that night or what? Anyways another thought came to mind was Miguel’s previous situation, like if his variant family knew that he wasn’t theirs based off how he acted or habits.

8. I’m curious what they’re gonna do for part 2. How’s Earth 42 Miles and Aaron gonna act with our miles? I have a feeling they could just make him the next film’s other villain, but maybe he could have a change of heart and be Spider-Man even without the traditional powers. I guess that’s gonna depend on how he reacts, if he finds out that he was supposed to be Spider-Man but our miles took that from him (unintentionally). But he acted so careless when miles was saying our dad but to him it wasn’t HIS dad. So he might still be bad guy, ughhhhhhh I don’t wanna waittttt. I need answersss

Anyways aside from that, new movie is visually stunning, full of great layered moments, music is nice, Indian Spider-Man is my fave character and Miguel only for selfish reasons Gwen’s world is honestly the best looking, Gwen is Trans 🏳️‍⚧️, and more. Really I can’t wait for the next film!

Now onto those theory drafts.

#spiderman #across the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse #spiderman atsv #miles molares #gwen stacy #spiderverse spoilers #spider gwen #miguel o'hara #my thougts

[bumblebeerror]

I’m thinking not about the fact that bedrock bros was doomed, but why c!bedrock bros was doomed.

Like yes yadda yadda he lied to Tommy blah blah blah I don’t care tbh, Tommy lied to him right back and left him standing alone against the whole server they’re even, okay

I think the thing people overlook about c!techno a lot is his fucking borderline dedication to giving other people a choice, which makes some sense - there are many many times in the narrative where he doesn’t get much of a choice at all: Tubbo’s execution was kill or be killed, get out of his old base or keep getting targeted and robbed, comply with Quackity or lose his horse (and with Techno being such a horse girl we all know that second one isn’t even a question). Techno is dogged by impossible chooses throughout the narrative - all culminating in Ranboo’s death, eventually.

So it stands out to me just how much choice he gives Tommy - a guy who himself gave Techno no choice as to whether he would stay there.

Whenever Tommy doesn’t want to do something while they’re together, Techno doesn’t tell him to it unless it’s absolutely necessary. Drink this invis, take off your armour, hide, stop trying to get me to say bitch, my monetization!

I think the part where it hit me is during the Wolf Army stream, where Tommy agonizes over… Several things, and is very fuckin anxious. He starts off just asking Techno what to do in general, looking for an order, but he quickly gets frustrated - soon he flat out demands.

“Techno, just tell me what to do!”

And Techno refuses. Outright. In plain words. He tells Tommy that he’s willing to protect him, but that Tommy must make his own choices. Tommy asks him over and over again, and over and over: Techno stonewalls him every time - he refuses to tell Tommy directly what to do. He gives him advice! He reiterates what Tommy’s told him - that Dream tortured him, that he ran away from Dream in the first place. But he never tells Tommy what to choose.

Techno refuses unless it is literally vital to Tommy’s continued survival. The only times he directly tells Tommy what to do when Tommy asks is when Dream visits the house, and it’s all strictly to keep him hidden.

It’s clear at that point that Techno the character does have some idea of what Dream did to Tommy. At the very least, he clearly understands that Tommy shouldn’t under any circumstances actually see Dream or be seen by Dream. This despite him repeatedly giving Tommy the freedom to choose to go see Dream when they spot him at logstedshire. He steers Tommy away from the idea as hard as he can without ordering him around, until it really fucking matters, Dream being there, right now. Looking for Tommy. By then, we know Tommy's choices are illusions, that when push comes to shove, Techno probably would have found a way to stop him if he had chosen to see Dream, but it doesn't really matter - Tommy still was able to choose not to without feeling like someone else would make said choice for him.

It’s a lie, sure. But I’m pretty sure you can’t throw a grain of sand on this server without hitting someone who’s lied to someone else, whether for the greater good or not.

And I think that Techno’s willingness to give Tommy choices or at least the illusion of choices, to let Tommy come to the best for himself is ultimately both the downfall of that relationship and also the thing that helped Tommy the most when it came to regaining a part of himself and healing. In fact I think Phil’s advice and Techno’s quiet refusal to order him around are probably some of the most helpful tools Tommy’s been given thru his entire... Ordeal. I cant think of a better word for it, dont yell at me

The sheer change between when Tommy showed up, confused and tired and terrified to make a choice and the moment he chooses to betray Techno, his voice entirely certain and assured. Techno gives him that certainty, that space to remember that he knows how to say what he wants. Giving Tommy that space to heal and effect his own destiny is what killed that alliance.

So in a way, it’s definitely Techno’s fault for the bedrock bros falling apart, but ultimately was probably better for the both of them - as much as I would have loved it if Tommy committed to destroying L'manburg just because the resulting stream would be pathetic and hilarious.

(Also while typing this up I realized that the first Life Ranboo lost was probably the one to Clarencio the Llama because I watched the dog army stream. Second was hitting on 16. Third to Sam. I hate it here. I have no idea if this was glaringly obvious to anyone else but it hit me over the head like a fucking anvil.)

#c!techno #dsmp #c!tommy #c!bedrock bros #dsmp analysis

[borathae]

I have mixed feelings bcz I feel so anxious for OC :( poor thing :(

I take my words back I don't want jimin OC to be a thing :( although I feel like he may have a redemption arc somewhere which seems so impossible rn bcz he's lowkey a lunatic with how bratty he acts 🥴 (when tae went let's have a threesome I was like no way is that brat going anywhere near my queen nuh uh)

Poor baby is feeling like her World collapsed rn 😭 I truly felt so sad when she told yoongi to not let her die.

Vmin maybe soulmates best friends but I sometimes think their friendship crosses the threshold of healthy and unhealthy a lot.

Honestly this chapter took a 180 and i loved this little development bcz I'm not sure if jimin feels guilty in even the slightest and if he will try being around her to soother her in the coming days. I know for a fact we are getting jungkook hovering over her like the sweetest laundry fairy and so mundane things with her to make her feel good.

Hoseok is probably the most normal character ever😂

I really liked the chapter I'll re read it because I'm sure I missed a lot of plot points I had to make but my feelings over jimin doing her dirty took priority 🤡 even though he did it out of panic.. Although is blood sharing or drinking from her taboo? I know Tae drank from her? If I'm not wrong yoongi did too? I don't rememver clearly? Is it the consent and intimacy trust issue?

fjadjsf listen, my thoughts are under the cut

I wanted to give OC the biggest hug :( she doesn't deserve this, especially because she always tried to be nice to Jimin like my dude you rude bitch don't hurt my queen :(

no but I feel you fajdjfs I was lowkey panicking because y'all were so into the idea of Jimin joining the poly family while I was looking at chapter ten the entire time like "hahah well uhm yeah..." ahahha

this part ripped me apart too 😭 especially because they have no idea just how important that request actually was :(

I love your analysis of SA!vmin. I 100% agree with you, they definitely dance on the border between healthy and obsessively unhealthy

I'm really excited for the next chapter!! god fucking damnit I just wanna post it now so I can talk about it with you guys afjdjsf

HOSEOK IS MY DUDE MY BRO MY BRETHREN he is solely here to vibe and be a funky lil dude. We love Hoseok. Be like Hoseok. Do no wrong. Be a vibe. Be Hoseok. 😔

Yes Taehyung drinks from her regularly. Yoongi would rather kill himself by burning himself alive before he even as much as swallows one drop from her, she is his treasure and he would never want to bloodshare with her. In general though, bloodsharing between vampires and their human mates is rather common, that's why Tae wants to do it with her. Honestly the biggest issue is definitely the fact that Jimin forced her, like my man that really wasn't okay.

#asks: magnus venatio #afangirllikeme blog

[destinyc1020]

Hi. Destiny! I came with peace 😊 so pls don't be mad at me. I have a little favor to ask. You know, we often say here "c'mon people, stop taking twitter haters/film bros seriously 'cause they are very very loud and toxic minority of the internet". Well, twitter and tumblr Tom stans are NOT the majority of the fandom either (same with Z stans and TZ shippers). Like at all. And those who actively post are an even smaller slice. And those of them who constantly write nasty things? It's like 1% of that slice🤏. So when you and your anons discuss how many of Tom fans did this or that pls🙏 do not exaggerate and be a little bit more specific. Cuz "many of Tom fans did something" and it's pretty much always like 2 blogs and 10 asks here and 4 same noisy accs on twitter (who call themselves his fans but shit on him every week. we all already know their names). And that's it. Looks not so "many" for me😏. The rest of boycotting TCR tweets and making fun of his look tweets or asks (i agree there were plenty of those) were not really from TOM fans but more like from GP, locals and not so friendly Z stans. As always.

That's fair enough Anon. I agree that it's not ALL of Tom's fans who are bashing his choices, or are behaving a certain way. I really shouldn't generalize.

Okay, I'm going to go with some #REALTALK here...so sorry if I offend anyone or step on toes, but I'm always 100% HONEST here on my blog.

***WARNING: Unpopular Opinion Coming Through***

I just find that with Tom's fandom in particular, it just seems like his fans don't trust him for some reason. 🥴 I feel like a lot of his fans infantilize him to a massive degree in fact. He's a 26 year old MAN...he's not some little boy. But I get the overwhelming feeling sometimes that his fans think they know better than he does about what he wants to do, or what he should do. Idk...it's just weird to me. 🥴 Why not just trust him and his decisions? Even if you didn't particularly like a project of his, maybe HE liked it and wanted to work with a particular director/actor or just simply liked the script?? 🤷🏾‍♀️

I'm pretty sure the same thing probably goes on in other actor's fandoms as well, but I can only speak to Tom's fandom since I've been part of his fandom heavily for almost 6 years now. I even compare it to the other male fandoms that I've been apart of in the past, and even currently, and to me it just seems like Tom gets way more pressure from his fans/fandom than some other fandoms out here. That's all. While other fandoms seem to just let their faves just "be" and are CHILL about whatever new project or thing they have going on in their life, I find that Tom (and Zendaya's fandom tbh) freak out over the smallest little things. 😔 Take the LV (possibility) for example. So many fans ready to hate on Z possibly switching from Valentino to LV. Like, we don't even know any details yet, but some already are crying, complaining, or getting "anxious". That is just SO much pressure on these two individuals. Can't y'll just let them BE?? 👀 

Sorry for the vent session, but that's just how I personally feel about the fandom. And maybe you're right, maybe it's just a very SELECT small FEW (a minority) who behave this way. Unfortunately, this "minority" is a very vocal one.....

#real talk

[xoxobellebelle]

My life now is so much different than it was just a short while. I never really gave too many posts about anything for a real good chunk of time. I got out of that relationship with that POS that guilted me into dating him at all. It ended with me getting a restraining order finalized on him. If I could just make him understand how much I never loved him, I so would.

I have been in a relationship and living with my current boyfriend for quite awhile now. If the bro that I won’t even call my ex, because I tried to get away from and end things with for almost the entire time, and only started dating him cuz I felt pressure could understand how my current relationship is, he’d fully be able to comprehend how much I did not want to be with him, I never loved him, and I didn’t act like myself when I love someone

With shit Head, he was not allowed to sleep in my bed with me, and say for some reason he did, I would not let him touch me at all, and if he did he would get booted. He slept in the other room cuz I didn’t wanna see him or be near him. Currently, I cannot sleep without my boyfriend. I even have a hard time taking naps without him and I’m on seroquel and lithium so I feel like that’s saying something if I still can’t sleep if he’s not there. Even if I wake up in a pool of sweat from cuddling, I don’t mind at all and the sweat is no big thing, and I don’t move away from him.

With the last dude, he wasn’t allowed to kiss me without asking and i would only say yes maybe once a week. Additionally, if he wanted to hug me, he had to ask, and I told him if I pat his back to immediately let go, cuz I didn’t even wanna give him the dignity of me speaking to him. Currently, if my boyfriend kisses me when I don’t expect it, I can’t stop smiling for awhile after. I have never once even tried to cut a hug short.

Last dude’s smell made me anxious and angry. If anything around me smelled like him I would wash it, even while we were living together. To be fair, he would wear the same underwear for months in end, and would only shower every two weeks, and thought an ungodly layer of cologne would count as hygiene, so even if there wasn’t an association to that smell with SA and physical abuse and what not, anyone would be upset by the smell. But currently, my boyfriends smell is one of the most comforting things in my world. Even when he hasn’t put on deodorant yet in the morning and we were both super sweaty, I still think he smells really good.

Before, I would essentially never allow other dude cuddle with me. I would not allow it. I did not want him near me. If we were watching a movie, he had to sit on a different seat. If he was sitting by me and for some reason I gave in to cuddling with him, I could tolerate for like three minutes max. Currently, my boyfriend and I are always laying on each other if we’re in the same room. There’s almost never a time where if we’re chilling where at least his legs are over mine or visa versa, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Homie before, I avoided posting any pictures of us or him or tell people about him, because I was so embarrassed by him. If I was going to hangout with a friend I would never let them come over to our apartment cuz he was there, and I wanted a break from him, and didn’t want my friends to see him/talk to them. I also would never ever allow him to hold my hand, hug me, or kiss me if we were in public, even if no one was around. My boyfriend however, I am so happy when he posts pictures of us and he tags me so you can see it on my profile. Holding my boyfriends hand in public makes me feel so special, cuz people can see someone as beautiful and wonderful and kind and amazing as him sees worth in me. I generally love PDA (nothing rude tho), so being absolutely 100% not okay with it with the POS should’ve been a dead five away.

Previously, I would go as I could without having sex with the guy. If I could stretch it to three weeks or a whole month I would. Not that it mattered to him if I said no, but I would hold off and dance around the subject as much as I could. I never once initiated anything, genuinely not one time. With my current boyfriend, (this may be tmi , but it’s my tumblr so cry me a river) I can’t get enough of him. I always tell him I love him during as well.

My cats are definitely huge signs that things are different. My cats HATED gross bro. HATED. They would run away if he came near them, they were always trying to cower in my lap, they would always get angry if he pet them, they would hide a lot, all of the things. My boyfriend, the cats are obsessed with him. They get antsy and start misbehaving if he is gone too long. If it’s around the time he gets off work, my cat poppy will sit by the door and meow. When he gets home, she follows him and jumps on the bed to give him head butts.

And finally, time. I hated spending time with previous dude. I always tried to limit my interactions with him as much as possible even when we were living alone together. I stayed in my room, by myself as much as I could. I even had designated ‘leave me alone’ times throughout the day. My boyfriend, on the other hand, were not around each other to the amount that it’s toxic (we live together so that’s an excuse to always spend my time near him tho) I want him around as much as possible. I wanna do everything with him. I want him to keep me company for everything, I want him to come with me to everywhere I go. I would have never dared let guy from before come to a concert or a rave with me, cuz those are my happy places, and I didn’t want him to ruin some of my only chances to smile. My boyfriend now, gets dragged to all of the raves with me. Anywhere I go will always be better if he’s there too.

Life is pretty good right now. I wish the guy before could understand I was not there because I wanted to be. He has no upper hand on me. None whatsoever. He was not a loss to me in the slightest. Getting away from him was not a loss. If he could see how my current relationship is, he would be able to grasp that his absence has been nothing but healing for me, and i never once cried from missing him (probably because there was no missing happening)

[eats-the-stars]

love the guy assigned to my case at the “help you get a job” program. i have exactly 2 modes. 1) procrastinating until the absolute last minute. And 2) guess I will complete months worth of work that is also due at the end of the year in exactly 3 days of non-stop effort. You can basically flip a coin as to which approach my brain will decide to take for any given task.

so yeah I have a job now. and my poor case manager dude is like “wait. no. that was so fast. it’s been one week. you did how many interviews? and you picked...this one. the one that is not like anything you have done before and also was not on the “jobs I think would work out for me” list that we made?”

and he was scrambling like “accommodations. training. oh god. um. do i need to talk to your employers?” and getting more anxious when I was like “no i think I have it covered.” like i am sorry bro but i know that my vibes in person are like “quiet forgetful autistic person who can pass for either a high school student or a grandma at any moment” and this does not inspire confidence, but I am actually pretty independent once someone gives me a little push to start a thing.

also...dude you have my job history. winter sports area general worker (concessions, ticket sales, renting ski/snowshoe equipment, managing cross-country trails, monitoring the tube hill, etc.). family restaurant hostess (basically every role in the place except a cook). person selling fireworks out of tent for all of July while also living in a smaller tent behind the shipping crate filled with things that go boom. call center customer service rep handling 4 different clients that range from crafts and home decor to incontinence products and super expensive furniture. freelance dog-sitting with clients ranging from “rich couple who wants me to let their elderly cockapoos out twice a day for $50 bucks a pop in a house with a basement theater” to “i’ll give you $10 a day to exercise and feed the 3 huskies in our small apartment also they can jump higher than you are tall and scream louder than you thought possible.” bro we added a whole “volunteer experience” section to my resume because I wrote grants and worked with an environmental group to restore native bluebirds to the community and volunteered at the community table and the animal shelter and the library. like i have done lots of things that are not really connected at all. someone says “hey do you think you could do this?” and I am suddenly living out of a tent for a month googling “what the fuck is a crossette?” i once ended up in Memphis for 2 months doing volunteer construction work in the aftermath of a hurricane because my cousin didn’t want to go alone and everyone was like “oh we know someone who goes with the flow so hard.”

so you better believe i told you “oh i don’t know, maybe a receptionist position would be nice” and then applied to every local job known to god and then a few extra and took the first one to say “cool can you start next week?” i know i did not give off “I will try anything at least once if you ask me fast and then go ‘great!’ before I can process what i agreed to” vibes while sitting in your office in my colorful leggings, grandma sweaters and animal hats while not making eye contact and talking about how lovely my nephew is and how much I enjoy quiet time alone and gardening and i struggle with a poor memory and navigating social interactions. but i know you proofread my resume my guy. you asked questions about all these things except the construction thing because i actually forgot to mention that actually which is good because then i might have had to mention the cult involvement that i wasn’t aware of until i was stuck on-site but it all worked out so no sweat. still, i am glad that he is concerned by my “out of the blue” spontaneity. it’s kind of his job to help people settle into jobs that they can handle, and I also know that I would realistically need more assistance from him if I wasn’t so good at adapting on the fly due to my bad habit of saying “sure, I can do that” to literally anything. also my new job is honestly pretty tame, so i am not sure what he is freaking out about. i should really not mention some of the other jobs i spontaneously applied for before accepting this one. like..my friend...i could be working in a bridal shop. i could be training to install and repair vending machines or decorating cakes or delivering medical equipment. i applied for a job that was literally “window production.” none of these are actually as wild as that time I spent 2 months with a religious cult doing manual labor and living out of an abandoned, half-destroyed school building because my cousin talked me into it. i had to watch a dramatic reenactment of the crucifixion of Jesus on my very first night that brought the whole gymnasium of strangers to wild, howling tears while I was awkwardly clapping my hands as my cousin sobbed incoherently into my shoulder. i once dog-sat a bluetick coonhound for 2 weeks in the dead of winter, and the snow if his yard was so high that he was able to jump the fence and book it down the street. i had to chase him through knee-high snow for over an hour before he stopped to sniff a bemused old lady long enough for me to catch him. i once had a customer at the restaurant rail at me for a good twenty minutes because she was absolutely sure that we did serve pineapple upside down cake and i was just withholding this dessert from her, specifically. the bar for “jobs I would apply for” is so low that I actually thought “well as long as nobody spits in my face, pukes on me consistently, or shanks me in the kidney again I could probably do anything.” although to be fair to my case manager i did not mention those things to him (except the pineapple upside down cake lady because I mention her all the time, i am still pissed off about that situation). also, my sister was actually the one to have a dog wake her up in the middle of the night only to puke directly into her mouth, but I watched it go down, so the psychic trauma of witnessing that still exists.

#honestly i think my poor social skills get me into half of the situations in my life #because i agree to things before i process them because most people talk and talk too fast for me #so i spend the whole conversation trying to keep up also figure out what the hell we're talking about #and then at the end i turn to my sister and say 'so what was that about?' #and she says something like 'you signed up to sell fireworks out of a tent for all of july' and i just have to run with that #the other half of the situations just come from having relatives and family friends that actively seek out situations #but want to drag someone adaptable and chill along who will also not say 'that's literally insane. no' when asked #also i need less cousins who take the zombie apocalypse life tip of always bringing a slow runner with you to situations #like i am a small person ok. my legs are shorter. i can't help it that everyone else is sprinting around on their stilt-legs #also just like i like to take walks with my dad because the mosquitoes love his blood way better than mine #i have a history of 'first person to get stabbed in a situation' that is probably just due to being the weakest looking person in any group #and i don't really panic in emergencies. i don't really know why. maybe it's something to do with being autistic #but if someone is screaming in pain and writhing on the floor #or an alarm goes off #or a bus skids on the ice and smears a stranger across the sidewalk right in front of me #or if i get mugged in a coffee shop while i'm studying for exams #i don't really do the things that other people around me do in the same situation #i personally think that the bubble i exist in just runs slower than everyone else's #so they're all having their reactions and freaking out while i'm still like 'damn something sure is happening right now. #am i supposed to do anything about this?' #and then if the answer is: 'yeah you should probably calm down that guy on the floor. figure out why he's screaming. then call 911 maybe?' #then i'll just do that while other people are saying things like 'oh god what's happening?!' #like if i panicked every time i had a dog that i was responsible for make a stupid life decision in front of me #or had a cult member ask me. an atheist. if i felt like i connected with god at the emotional catharsis activity #or honestly even just every time i've ever been stabbed in the left kidney even tho that's only happened twice #then i don't know i would probably be doing a lot of panicking #maybe it's an energy thing. i feel like panicking requires more energy than i usually have access to

[theshippingcorner]

Jill first time mom headcanons?

Oooh this is dependant on several Scenarios you are going to get so many fucking answers hold on-

I know you said first time but bro mom Jill in general-

Okay scenarios are classed by situation and by age because like are we talking more current day timeline Jill who's like in her late 40s or young Jill like Resi 3 remake 20 something year old Jill? Well let's talk all the possibilities because I'm feeling SPICY homeslice!

Starting with more modern day 40+ Jill, Scenario 1 single mom right?

Because she doesn't do field work anymore ahead has more time to be a mom, and actually spend time with her kid

She would probably only have one in this scenario given she's older here

Said only child would be spoiled to hell and back because she loves her child so much

She would also be a ball of anxiety and try to spend as much time with them as possible, because she is older and she doesn't want to leave them alone when she dies, she wants them to be able to remember her so fondly

She is as supportive as possible of everything her child does but is a slight helicopter parent because of her ptsd and fears that something will happen to her child if there's another outbreak

Okay but then scenario 2 for this age range if she has a partner right? What then?

A lot of the same BUT she would probably ask her partner to ground her constantly

Like if she's having an anxiety attack because the kid scraped their knee and it might be infected or something she needs her partner to calm her down

She is the mom friend so actually being a mom she's prepared for the worst at any given time from both her kid and partner

She needs to be held back physically from other parents. She will go for throats if they hurt her baby or try to attack her personally.

Now young Jill, like in her 20s when she's still a field operative? Oh that's a new story. Because like single mom scenario?

She barely has time to spend with her kid and getting home at any given time would be too tired to play or chat

She would need to hire a babysitter, daycare, nanny, anything just to make sure kiddo is safe when she's at work

She tries her best when she has time off to spend all the time she can with her kid but speaking as someone with parents who worked 24/7, her kid will probably be too into whatever else their doing to actually stop and take time to spend time with Jill. That will devastate her and her kid will regret it later for sure.

And then next scenario if she has a PARTNER??? Oh this is where things differ

She's still a busy bee but she would def have more than one kid, like 3 or 4 at least yeah?

She would be able to rely on her partner to help parent when she's busy

She's still not around much but at least this way her partner can explain why to the kids so they might value having free time to spend with her now

She would def spoil all of the kids but be so much less anxious about them since with just one kid? That's an anxiety fest. With multiple? You learn by the second or third that shit happens and you roll with the punches.

#Resident Evil Jill #Resodent Evil Jill Headcanons #Headcanons

[apoapsis]

knowing your partner well can potentially make writing together a lot easier. ( repost do not reblog ! )

- Name: pip

- Pronouns:  he / him

- Preference of communication: discord! ask for it anytime! i tend to appear on invis, but that’s just because i am extremely fucking shy, so long as you’re fine with me getting back to your messages at my leisure (usually 8-24 hours, on average), then by all means feel free to ask for it!

- Name of muse(s): Sigma / Siebren, and on rare occasion I will sometimes ghostwrite Moira for specific threads, but I also now have a blog for Symmetra! [laserpimp]

- Experience / How long (MONTHS / YEARS?): 13-14 years, nearly 7 spent in the ow rpc.

- Platforms you’ve used: dA chatrooms (that’s where I learned to Type Fast), facebook, discord, tumblr, and google docs. The latter three are my most-used platforms.

- Best experience: meeting @flashofyellowlights​ 🥺🥺🥺 i was in a super dark place emotionally between 2019-2021 after a death in my immediate family and Buncy was probably my biggest advocate to keep going. me n this blog just simply wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for her. quite easily my best friend in this entire rpc, no cap.

- RP pet peeves / dealbreakers: 1) because i write a lot of introspective thoughts out for my characters to give my replies more depth, i notice that people often read that and use it to determine my characters’ mood (rather than the actual actions i purposefully insert for their character to react to). 2) a SUPER annoying thing i’ve had people do is, after explaining sieb/sig’s dichotomy to them, they often automatically assume sig is the “evil” one between the two of them..... despite me explaining that BOTH sig and sieb are morally grey, not evil. 3) my only real “dealbreaker” is when people openly demonstrate poor reading comprehension. this isn’t to say you can’t ask for clarification abt my replies, and this most certainly isn’t a knock at people who legitimately need extra help digesting my long ass replies, but considering this is a hobby exclusively based around reading and writing, I just don’t really feel the motivation to write with people who repeatedly misconstrue / misinterpret my replies simply because they just won’t read the entirety and take “creative liberties” with how they interpret my replies.

- Fluff, angst or smut: predominately angst with occasional smut 😂😂 personally i’m not a very big fan of “fluff” just because out of the three, it’s the one that gets the absolute blandest when it’s all someone wants to write with me. if you came here looking for fluff, i’m.... sorry bro 😳

- Plots or memes: primarily, plotting is generally my go-to for first interactions just to really set a scene, but once a “canon” is established between our characters, i’m open for everything. however, you are also free to use memes to break the ice! the only reason i default towards plotting is because i get anxious if i can’t immediately visualize / explain the setting when writing something up. that’s also why i tend to offer to write the starter, so that people don’t feel pressured to plot AND start.

- Long or short replies: the longer, the better!!! despite the fact that i can burn myself out kind of quickly, i will always prefer multipara to ANYTHING else. i didn’t choose the multipara life, the multipara life chose ME.

- Best time to write: i don’t really do anything on a day-to-day basis so i often operate on what i consider “dash hours”, meaning people are usually off work / done with their day at around 4-6pm (PST, my time), and usually post replies / ic posts / hc’s / etc. until about 8-10pm, which is when ppl disappear for the night. if i’m looking for small / quick interactions, that is usually the window i operate in. otherwise? anytime, although i get the most writing done around 1-5am when i don’t have people actively trying to msg me (adhd vibes)

- Are you like your muse(s): as far as the space aesthetic goes, absolutely, although in other regards, not so much! one of my reasons for picking up sigma was exclusively for the fact that he was space-themed, since anything space-related  is my #1 autistic special interest. i’m certainly nothing of an astrophysicist myself but i do apply a lot of the nuanced information i’ve soaked up to sigma and how his abilities work.

TAGGED BY: literally everyone in the rpc by now, i’m always late w/ these LOL

TAGGING: idk who hasn’t done this so just say i @’d you n do it 😠

#++|| PROMPTS #long post #im not lying when i say literally at least 2/3 of the rpc tagged me in this

[kuukos-eyeshadow]

the mtc + jyushi thing happened on accident, i swear. ever since the “whenever jyushi runs into mtc by himself he would try so hard not to cry but fails either way and samatoki has no idea why he’s crying so he tried to comfort him and jyushi cried harder” headcanon, i simply cannot get that goofy concept out of my head. furthermore, look forward to jyushi and samatoki hc instead of jyushi and mtc because um samatoki would take care of jyushi as his own little brother and like, would do a lot of things with him and like... would um actually try to take care of him. like i feel like samatoki would genuinely feel bad after finding out what happened to jyushi’s grandmama and the fact that jyushi got bullied and like samatoki would want to like squish jyushi so hard because jyushi is just so cute and samatoki would shower him in brotherly love like sobbing. he would def have an open space if kuuko and hitoya allowed jyushi to stay over for the weekends. like samatoki would take small breaks from his work to hang out with jyushi and would want to do things with him and like just honestly be there for him and would tell jyushi something like “ong bro, if you need anything or someone to talk to, come to me bro. im here” and if jyushi did vent to him, samatoki would buy him ice cream or some goofy ass shit like that. samatoki would absolutely be 14th moon’s number one fan. but samatoki would try not to be clingy because he cares about jyushi alot. i mean jyushi also cares about samatoki like so so much like honestly if you were an outsider and saw these two hanging out at a park or walking around in yokohama/nagoya streets, you would def think that they were brothers and not a yakuza tryna kidnap an emo with severe narcissistic traits. like if jyushi ever asked samatoki to go watch his band practice, samatoki would be like “ofc i would like to go to your band practice, im omw right now, matter of fact im here already” like samatoki and jyushi are literally the “closer than blood could get us” concept crying. like if jyushi wanted to do something new, like new makeup styles, jyushi would ask samatoki if he could put said makeup on him and samatoki would probs hesitate before agreeing but he would def be up to it. like if kuuko and hitoya did let jyushi stay at samatoki’s place for the weekends, literally it would be a night full of fun and a small accident but who am i to judge. they would bake a cake together :( they would have a nice brekkie together and would watch the news or morning cartoons or something like that, jyushi would talk about amanda and samatoki would absolutely be taking notes. and when jyushi is in nagoya, samatoki would be walking around yokohama when he’s not busy and if he sees something that reminds him of jyushi, like a stuffed animal or a fidget toy or just gear in general, he would buy it and leave it in jyushi’s room that is indeed at samatoki’s place. yes, jyushi has his own room at samatoki’s, like how could he not when samatoki would want to become his legal guardian. samatoki also keeps the little stuff that jyushi makes for him on his desk at work or in his room. samatoki probably isn’t very good at drawing but he is good at making designs, so he has a sketchbook that he draws said designs in when he’s stressed and when the sketchbook is full, he would give it to jyushi and jyushi would color those designs when he’s feeling anxious or lonely (samatoki drew a super cool amanda one time and honestly, jyushi was all over it and still is). 

#hypmic #jyushi aimono #samatoki aohitsugi