#AGGHHHHH IM SO EXCITED

[mako-ink]

Cried and sobbed and broke down in a Walmart parking lot seeing the new DMC anime trailer in my car felt like I just got stricken by God’s lightning my legs are shaking and I feel so weak

#devil may cry #I have no words right now I need to gather my thoughts but #oh my god #oh my fucking god #DmC art will be made I will be researching this shit for all the details given before it comes out #supposedly coming soon but WHEN #they can’t do this to me it’s midterms time don’t they know I’m autistic #AGGHHHHH IM SO EXCITED #WHAT IF WE SEE VERGIL

[imdoingawesome]

ok im sorry I tried to contain it but asdagsdafgdfafgDdf 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i went to the brooklyn screening and agghhhhh nobody is surviving what’s coming, least of all me ☠️

still not posting any spoilers! just so sos so excited 😭😭😭

#good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #(also dms are open if you want to scream about it w me!!)

[fairyofthehollow]

pls someone tell me how to deal with not being a teenage girl anymore i don’t think i can do it. i always drift between feeling excited and okay that i’m growing up and being utterly terrified / panicked and wanting so badly to be 16 or 12 again that i feel physically sick. and then feeling so horrible about not enjoying my teenage years and wasting them away that i’m about to end up doing the same for my early twenties. i know 20 is young but it also feels so old and like i should have everything figured out already. i know i have my whole life ahead of me but it doesn’t feel that way at all. society viewing women as ancient beings from -2 billion years ago when they hit 30 doesn’t help either. like? do i seriously just have 10 years (or will it be 5?) before people don’t see me as young and free or whatever the hell but then it’s like who caresss what people think agghhhhh. idk idk idk. i look at my mom who’s fifty this year and she’s as bright and active and smart and fun and youthful as ever. she’s going to the gym and she’s gonna start school again. i don’t see her as old, like at all. idk why i have such a hard time with me though. it also doesn’t help that ive never ever experienced any sort of romantic attention / interaction / intimacy :’) & it makes me think ooh boy the clocks really ticking. BUT ITS NOT WHY CANT I UNDERSTAND THAT!!!!!! but time moves so so quickly and it petrifies me into not even wanting to do things bc what if i end up wasting my time? what if i fail? why even try.

like im so excited bc im finally getting to know myself. high school was actual dookie water and i was a shell of a human but now im starting to feel alive again and like the world is actually big and not super tiny. im so excited for the summer bc i plan on trying new hobbies and reading a lot and doing a ton of crafts. i finally found clothes i love and feel comfortable in!! but what if my hobbies and interests end up seeming childish. do i have to retire those things when i get older? i just want to be able to be older and still wear converse and silly graphic tees or wear cute hairstyles and read fantasy novels (EVEN MIDDLE GRADE BOOKS BC THEYRE NOSTALGIC AND THEYRE REALLY GOOD) and idk rewatch phineas and ferb every once in a while if i feel like it without seeming crazy. idk :|

ugh. ive never felt so split in my emotions.

#turning 20 in like 4 days is really freaking me out #LIKE DUDE ILL BE GRADUATING COLLEGE IN THIS DECADE OF MY LIFE #I SHOULD BE EXCITED FOR IT!! #but im not #but also i kind of am? #but no #guys help 🥲 #♡ fairy speaks ♡

[onlyjaeyun]

oh my baby how are you???? im so so so sorry i kinda disappeared for a little while but i’m backkkk, i was doing so bad mentally but i still read ur chaps and honestly it was the best part of my day, i will talk about them so sorry for the long ass ask my love, also, my sweet angel girl this is UR smau and the final decision is URS so don’t pay attention to those mean asks, there’s a bunch of people who love the characters and the plot so fuck them mean asks, yeah i said it 🤗

soooo the last ask i sent was for chap 24 i think? (i swear i will get the 9.4k words tattooed on my back) but i’m back so let’s talk about the last 4 chaps, cuz BABY SHOTARO IS BACK AND IM SOSOSOSOOSOSO HAPPY, black hair hoon. someone hold me back. UGH HE IS SO FINE AND THE DAMN GYM PHOTOS AGGHHHHH, but oh my baby yn, when she talked to yunie about her moms grave and how she spent 2 hours talk to her i felt my heart shattering i swear, and then yunie going “we thought y’all were fucking lol” OH AND YN GETTIBG ALL DEFENSIVE BABY U ARE SO OBVIOUS 🙈🙈but oh my goodness the kenya and yuki thing, i got so mad, like it seems like they don’t have a heart a swear AMD THEN THE AUDIO, IM DIZZY WHAT???? AGGHHHHHH

also no need to read the other asks i am going to send, it’s way too much of me yapping but i just love and appreciate u so much and the hard working person u are, rest well my baby

-🪼(1/?)

HELLO MY SWEETEST LOVE OMG I JUST SAW THIS AND THE OTHER ONES YOU SENT ME AND I GOT SO EXCITED BC I MISSED SEEING YOU IN MY INBOX!!!!! am sorry to hear that you've been struggling yet I hope you're feeling a little bit better baby and are taking care of yourself! so so so proud of you for trying your hardest!!! im so glad youre back and are enjoying CH as much, you know your words mean the world to me and I love and appreciate you so so much! gonna try and get back to your other asks once I've answered the other ones but I promise I read them all and love them sm :( youre the best!!!!!☁︎♥

#; mailbox 📬

[smallraindrops-blog]

THE NEW HADES LOOKS SO COOL LIKE YOU FR DONT UNDERSTAND HOW EXCITED I AM IM SO agGHhHHH

DUDE YOU HAVE NO IDEA I COULDN'T STOP SCREAMING LIKE OMG. I HAD NO DUCKING CLUE THEY MAKING A SECOND ONE

[nekkodiaries]

omg ure back?? welcome back 🥺🥺 so excited for knock me down!!!

yes, hi!! i am and im so excited to finally be working on smaus again AGGHHHHH !! < 3 thank you, bb!!

#honeysjae 🫶

[wincore]

AHHHHHHH THE WAY I JUST SCREAMED!!!! U ARE HAVING ATSUMU BRAINROT????? THIS IS LITERALLY THE BEST NEWS EVER WHAT THE HELL 😭😭😭 it’s the oikawa to atsumu pipeline i’m telling u... AND YES osamu is objectively the better man but atsumu lives in my brain rent free somehow.. ALSO SAME i remember watching them as a lil teenager thinking they were so much older than me but now their teenage selves r much younger than me But their timeskip selves are older than me still so?!??!? BUT IM EVEN MORE EXCITED NOW THAT UR NEW WRITING MIGHT BE ANIME CENTERED PLSSS THIS IS THE BEST NEWS OF MY LIFE????? my worlds colliding rn!! i already know ur gonna KILL the characterization for these hq boys omg

I WILL HYPE U UP FOREVER AND EVER SERIOUSLY!!! i wish more readers would leave feedback bc i KNOW how disheartening it can feel for the writers if it seems like ppl aren’t reading!! so i always want to make it known that i’m there & i’m appreciating the work heh ❤️❤️❤️ i hope u never lose ur love for writing!!

AGGHHHHH ROMCOM EVENTS.. out of all ur works i will miss ur sicheng writing the most. the way u nail his personality will never fail 2 amaze me. HE WILL B MISSED!

btw what fic won the poll!!! or is it a surprise 😳😳 i got there too late to vote BUT i dont regret it at all because i would 100% struggle so hard to choose anyways. every description sounded so good why r u so creative 😭

i ♡ u!!

- tata 💖

HDJDJDJSJD NOT U LAUGHING AT MY ATSUMU DISEASE THAT BOY ISN'T GOOD NEWS AT ALL 😡 but also maybe yes he is cute af but also annoying and i am in a perpetual dilemma whenever i look at him the oikawa to atsumu pipeline....i was hoping to prove that false bc at first i was like eh @ atsumu. He's ok. Too annoying and maybe a bit selfish ?? 🙄 also his kansai ben PLS it threw me off 😭😭😭 but then watching him play and his relationship with his brother was so entertaining (I think every hq character is entertaining tho 😭 even the wig principal) + especially when he started tearing up after kita left food and a note for him after he got sick PLSSS it made me so soft, also the fact that he keeps pushing himself to be better (YEAH I know everyone does that but somehow his brattiness made it stand out more dbskdkfd does that make sense) ok that's my atsumu rant i do not know why he gave me so many Feelings bc to me, he's just a super fun character!!!! oikawa is the one that gives me Pain. why is he built for angst despite being just as upbeat and annoying (still in love with him tho <3)

And IKR???? I was 14/15 or whatever and was like wow it must be cool to be 17 (it was not fun) but when i watch hq i forget I'm older now??? I too mentally regress by 5 years like atsumu 😀 they ARE older officially so let's keep it at that.

SNDBDNDND I'M SO EXCITED BC UR EXCITED FJJFJFKG I've been writing drabbles in my free time bc I've had all these ideas for the hq boys but also I'd love to write chaptered fics on ao3 so there's that too??? Am I taking too much on my plate?? Probably. At least it's fun 🤪 Also my middle school interest in art is back and I keep doodling hq boys it's literally 2014 again </3

PLS THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!! I know writers WISH for readers like u YOU ARE LITERALLY A BLESSING I keep wondering which god I pleased to get u 🤧 thank you SO SOS SO MUCH!!!!!

sicheng romcom king i wish he'd get an acting role </3 like pls I will learn mandarin and write u a script for a drama PLS let him act 😫 lover boy (fake dating jaemin) won the poll!!!! But I am incompetent and I was like. Dead sure corduroy would win so I have half of that written 😭😭😭 I might be posting that instead. It's hard to write for nct these days bc im not inspire at all 🥲 BUT I've wanted to write a bff2l yangyang so I'll do that before i go 💓💓 you are so nice to me tata love u byee bee, have a great day 💘

#tata 💖 #answered #anon

[smellycinnamonthundahfudge]

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, 10 Things I Hate About You (1999) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Michelle Jones/Peter Parker, Liz Allan & Michelle Jones Characters: Michelle Jones, Peter Parker, Liz Allan, Ned Leeds Additional Tags: HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHA, i have no fucking idea what this is, enjoy, Swearing, Alternate Universe - 10 Things I Hate About You (1999) Fusion, Inspired by 10 Things I Hate About You (1999), BAMF Michelle Jones, Michelle Jones is a Little Shit, Awesome Michelle Jones, inspired by kat stratford!MJ, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Hurt Peter Parker, Peter Parker is a Mess, BAMF Peter Parker, inspired by patrick verona!Peter, Ned Leeds is a Good Bro, Precious Ned Leeds, Good Friend Ned Leeds, Ned Leeds Needs a Hug, Awesome Liz Allan, Protective Liz Allan Summary:

“Yeah, sure, fuck em. Let’s date and con those idiots out of their lunch money.”

an anti-social loner bamf outsiders romance, the trials of trying to ask out someone sorta unavailable, as well as a protective loving sisters story

10 things is a hilarious actually pretty cool film where a guy pays another guy to date the sister of the girl he likes so he can date said girl.

this is my love letter to spideychelle and that wonder of a film haha

so listennn... remember that insane 10 things au i said i might do?? ... well i darn done it now hahhahaha. it’s just a first chapter that’s posted so far, but i’ve already written some more stuff heehehe. sigh... this is a really risky investment imo but i also just kinda rlly rlly love it and im pretty excited to flesh it out... <333

MY FIRST MULTICHAPTER GUYS!!! AGGHHHHH it took me a long ass time before i mostly figured out the logistics of this fic that i decided it would be a worthwhile endeavor and now... im mostly just hyped excited and nervous af hahahaha.

i hope anyone who reads this might find it interesting and intriguing like me hahaha. lablab yalls and whooo hoorah for 10 things, pj, and multichapters yall hhahahaha sighh y brain so insane i cant hahaha luv yalss idk anymore hahaha

#10 things i hate about you #spideychelle #spideychelle is canon bitches #spideychelle multi-chapter fic #au #michelle jones #peter parker #liz allen #ned leeds #<333333 #thank you so much <333

[ppersonna]

Just want to let you know, I LOVE I’ll float away. It’s so balanced and really emotional in the best way possible! like it gets ya in the gut. Just want to let you know you’re doing fantastic and to keep it going!! I’m very excited for the next part~

agghhhhh!!! im so happy you like! I’ve had it written for awhile and been frustrated with it but was hit with some muse so I’m glad it’s turned out well!!! i should have the next part up today ❤️❤️❤️

[not-warriors-remington]

NOT WARRIORS

”fuck, fuck, FUCK, FUCK, FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK”, the screams rang out through the hallways originating from the bedroom at the far end of the house. in that room sat a boy curled up in a small form in the corner. he pulled another vhs tape out of the large box next to him and put it in the player. nothing. what he was doing made sense to him as much as it would to a stranger. he didn’t know what happening. he could seek help but he was too scared to at that point. he was breaking apart. very rapidly.

~

it started about a month or two ago i guess, it’s strange almost. no. it’s definitely strange. it all started with the sudden crying. fine one second, broken down the next. it quickly increased to an obsession. i was just obsessed with trying to find a certain feeling. i just don’t know what feeling. a feeling that could only be described from a certain era of my life

~

“january 2018, thats the emotion i want back”, i told myself. i want to feel the feeling of whatever that was again. it had been almost, i think, yea, almost 45 hours since i last slept. it was a lot to take in. i think im losing general sanity. i need sleep. i can’t sleep. hands?

~

it’s ok. everything’s ok.

~

it’s been 3 weeks since i last went out.

5 weeks since i last went on any social media

7 weeks since i last listened to music

~

“soon im gonna stop being a FUCKING PUSSY AND GO BACK TO EXISTING TO SOMEONE BESIDES MYSELF BUT I JUST WANT AGGHHHHH” he screamed into the void that was the wall.

he hadn’t left the dimly lit prison he called a bedroom in 3 weeks. he missed his band, he missed his fans, he missed his entire fucking life.

~

im gonna do it. im gonna walk across the room. into the bathroom and just look at myself. it’s not that fucking hard. i take one slow shaky step after another until I reach the door. im at the door. i close my eyes. i walk in with my eyes still glued shut. i position myself in front of the mirror. im gonna look up. im gonna look up. im gonna look up. im gonna… i looked up. my purple hair had faded into a white/silver tone over the dark brown roots. my once bright two toned eyes now looked dead and sleep deprived. i look like a dead body. i feel like a dead body. maybe i am.

~

im scared for awsten. so fucking much. he seemed fine one day and the next he suddenly locked himself in his room and hid from everyone. no one. and i mean. NOT A SINGLE GOD DAMN HUMAN HAS HEARD FROM HIM. “GOD DAMNIT” i screamed and threw myself to the floor. i just want to be there with him to hold him and make everything better. but i know even if i could be there. im not some miracle cure for a broken heart. geoff recently told me that our fans think we’re dropping new songs soon because of awstens disappearance. but we know about as much or less than the fans do. ive tried contacting him at least 50 times. not once has he read one of my messages, answered one of my calls, replied to an email, anything. fuck it soon im gonna have to fucking resort to morse code. awsten please come back.

~

im gonna call otto back. today. i miss him. so much. i miss falling asleep on him on the shitty nights of tour, i miss joking around with him and laughing to where i cried, i miss watching him drum in awe, i miss him.

~

i picked up the phone and dialed in his number. it rang two painfully loud tones. he wasn’t used to any noise in the past 3 weeks. the call was answered by a tired and probably half asleep otto, “hi, this is otto, who’s calling?” he yawned. awsten realized he had lost track of all time. “it’s me awsten, im sorry” he heard the other boy perk up “awsten? OH MY GOD. AWSTEN!” i could practically hear him smiling. “c,can you please, come over. i know it’s really late but, it’s been so long, im sorry” i spoke softly. “i know i need sleep but you’re more important now” otto said in a tone so comforting awsten felt calm for the first time in weeks, “if I get an uber or can i can maybe get there around 1:40” otto explained to the now excited boy “thank you. thank you so much, i love you”

“i love you too”.

~

1:43 am. LA California, April 15 2019.

i hear a light knock on the door. “otto” i thought. i quickly stumble over to the door. i swing it over. there he is. the boy i love. as soon as we see each other we both just start full out sobbing. he follows me inside. “why?” he chokes out. “you scared me so fucking bad”. “i don’t know”, “Im sorry” i cried ”it’s hard for me to even explain this to myself”. all we want right now is each other. and sleep. we crawl into bed. we both fall asleep hugging tightly together. nothing can break us apart. i missed this.

#waterparks #awsten knight #parx #otto wood

[escapewriter]

and im so excited for all of their stories!! the lost cities is very- *chefs kiss* - stella

ME TOO AGGHHHHH. kevin’s next and whew, roller coaster :D

#stella🌖 #🌖 anon #anon.friends #lost cities ask