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onlyhuis · 5 months

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member — joshua x gn reader genre — fluff, comfort (18+) word count — 1.1k synopsis — sometimes you just need to take second to wait. warnings — allusions to past/future sex but no sex happens in this fic, implied that shua is more dom and reader is more sub, this is literally just pure aftercare notes — i never feel like i put enough aftercare into my fics because i'm usually drained by the end of writing and i just want to finish it and hit post so this is kinda to make up for that. also i'm really particular about the way aftercare is written and i feel like i never see the kind i want to read so honestly this is just a super self-indulgent fic, because if you can't find it then write it yourself or whatever toni morrison said, but i hope you can enjoy this too :) i haven't proofread this since 3am so if there's mistakes pls ignore! also this is not based on the song wait by dino as you might have assumed i just thought it was a fitting title because we all need a reminder to just slow down and wait

"wait, wait... wait!"

joshua starts to stand up off the bed, but hesitates when you call out suddenly. "what's wrong, sweetheart?" he asks quietly, eyes carefully watching your face, searching for signs and trying to figure out what you need.

"don't leave yet," you say softly, your fingers wrapping loosely around his wrist. "don't want you to go.”

he rubs his hand over the back of your palm. "just gonna get you a glass of water,” he explains but he sits back on the bed, waiting anyway.

you're exhausted and you know you both need to shower and change the sheets, but the thought of moving right now only sends you into a panic. you're overheated and sticky with sweat, but still you crave the warmth of joshua’s body next to yours, the feeling of his skin against you as close as he can possibly get.

“later?” you say the word like a statement, but your voice rises in a question. “just stay for now. please.”

there's a time and a place for everything, and joshua knows right now is not the time for rational thinking. sure, you've got twice the amount of laundry to do later and your mouth feels drier than a desert, but that can wait. it can always wait, for joshua. it can wait because right now you need to feel the grounding weight of him beside you, telling you he'll always be there, especially when you need him most.

even though it's what he immediately wants to do, no amount of sweat-stained sheets could ever come before you in his mind. even though he knows you're thirsty and probably craving a cold shower and he wants nothing more than to jump up and take care of your every wish, that's not always what's best. yes, what you need is fresh laundry, but what you want is him.

so he settles back in on top of the bed, easily sliding into place beside you without a second thought. because it's always about you. always has been.

"better?" he asks, his finger gently brushing your cheek in slow, repetitive motions.

you exhale and lean into him, letting your eyes fall shut as you hum in reply.

the gentleness of his touch is such a stark contrast from how he'd been handling you not even 15 minutes ago, but you can't help but love both sides of him. gone is the hair pulling, the slapping and biting, replaced with soft brushes of your hair and careful caresses of your skin over each of the marks he'd left in the heat of the moment.

really, it's joshua's favorite part, besides the fact that he gets the honor of fucking you and being the one to bring you pleasure. it's the part afterwards that he looks forward to, when you're at your most vulnerable and both still riding an emotional high, when he gets to build you back up after so meticulously taking you apart. it's the trust in him that you show without ever so much as saying a word, the sense of safety and comfort washing over you that only ever comes from the feeling of being held in his arms.

the air seems to hang silently around you, as if even the universe can sense that this is a moment that shouldn't be interrupted, your own little bubble together that exists outside of space and time.

you just need a second to collect yourself, and seconds turns to minutes turns to half an hour before you can fully feel like yourself again. sometimes it's minutes and sometimes it's longer, but he'll wait as long as it takes.

you slowly open your eyes and inhale, lips warming into a smile as you see joshua is still here, still cradling your head against his chest, and that this all wasn't just a pleasant dream. you can always rely on him that when you open your eyes, he'll be there waiting for you. no matter how long you need to rest, he's always there when you're ready.

your thumb brushes over his arm, and he rests his cheek against the top of your head. “okay now?” he asks. “or do you just wanna leave it and go to bed?”

as tired as you are and as comfortable as his body feels, the intense feelings have subsided a little and you've regained enough of your energy to realize that what you need most right now is a shower and a glass of water.

so joshua slips off the bed, but not without leaving you with another sweet kiss because why wouldn't he? and you let him leave without a word of protest, because you don't feel that crushing feeling in your chest anymore of being left alone when you really need someone to hug, so you just wait patiently for him to return.

he comes back not much later with cool, fresh water in your favorite cup, and he sits beside you as you drink with his hand on your thigh because now it's his turn to be cared for, and the way he feels cared for is knowing you feel good and knowing he's doing a good job at making you feel loved. and you know that he needs this time just as much as you do so you savor the seconds spent here, letting the water wash down your throat until you both feel refreshed.

“thank you,” you tell him as you sit atop the sink, watching as he sticks his hand under the faucet to see if the shower is the right temperature yet. the bed’s already been stripped of its sheets and a fresh stack of towels been laid out, one by one ticking things off joshua's mental checklist. it's a routine, one that isn't always this thorough every single night but always equal in the amount of care and love he puts in each step.

and eventually things will return to normal, and you'll wake up the next morning filled with nothing but adoration for the man still sleeping peacefully next to you, and then you'll go about your days and come home in the evening and still be so much in love with him that you do it all again. maybe it goes differently next time, faster or shorter or less intense and you don't need to wait like you did tonight.

but sometimes you need a little extra time. and joshua is a patient man.

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happilyhertale · 1 year

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Long Last Love - Aemond Targaryen x female!reader, Part 7

Summary: You are finally engaged to Aemond Targaryen. As the daughter of Daemon and Rhaenyra, you will now live in King's Landing and no longer on Dragonstone. Your marriage to Aemond is imminent, as is your life together. The relationship between Aemond and your family has never been particularly easy, but the future will show whether your love will withstand this and subsequent tensions.

Pairing: Aemond Targaryen x fem!reader

Warnings: In some parts Smut (uncle/niece) as well as violence

Author’s note: Hey you (:

This is the follow-up story to "Long Lost Love".

The story starts just before the wedding of Aemond and y/n and goes over the events of the first season hotd. However, the events are not quite similar to those in the series. English is my second language, please forgive me if I made any mistakes (:

Word count: 3.7k

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13, Part 14, Part 15

Tag list people: I have re-entered you all by hand. If you notice that it didn't work, feel free to get in touch if I misspelled your name! And I noticed with a few of you (Not the ones that were successfully linked) that you don't show up "normally" in the search…. Check if maybe the same thing happened to you on Tumblr as happened to me the other day.

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Many faces are standing around the bed in which you are lying. Maesters and midwives have gathered around you and want to help you bring your child into the world. But you are not lying in your bed. You didn't want to lie in your bed and bring your child into the world. As Aemond led you down the hall and literally carried you, you experienced a violent contraction and the greatest pain you had experienced up to that point. You fell to your knees and screamed. When the pain was over, you breathed heavily while Aemond held you somewhat helplessly. But when you felt the pain, almost your first thought was that you don't want to feel that pain in your bed. Your bed is the place where you only experience beautiful moments. Something so painful should not take place there and Aemond fulfils your every wish, so he has ordered that another bed be prepared for you.

So now you have been lying in this bed for hours. In the meantime you have also been lying in a warm tub, as the maesters hoped that the warmth would loosen your muscles a little and help this complicated birth along. Your baby is restless but does not want to enter this world yet. So you lay in the tub, pushing and screaming, crying and cursing, but it didn't help. Aemond sat by your tub the whole time, holding you and telling you that you could do it. Even when the water turned red from your blood, he didn't hesitate to hold you and stroke you to encourage you.

By now it is deepest night and the moon is high in the sky. Your body is soaked with tears and sweat. The sheet beneath you is soaked with greasy blood. Your family is gathered outside the chamber, but Aemond still does not leave your side. Not once in the last few hours has he left you alone. When you sat down on the bed at the beginning, he sat beside you and held your hand as a maester told the prince to leave the chambers. But Aemond only saw your panicked look and gave the maester a hateful look in response.

After another contraction you let your head fall back exhausted, your breathing is rapid and you gasp. Aemond dabs your forehead with a damp cloth. The maesters kneel before you, "Princess.... you will have to push again in a moment"

You nod, barely noticeable. Tears run down your face and Aemond gently wipes them away. As the contraction comes, you hear him, "You must push my Love".

"Don't tell me... what to dooo….!! You put me in this situation after all!" The fact that you can still grumble almost gives him a comforting feeling. If the birth had not already lasted hours....

He just smiles, "You wanted to make love to me".

"Shut up Aemond!!! This will never happen again!"

He kisses your forehead, "You can do this," he whispers to you.

Your head falls back again after you have used up your strength pushing. You whimper softly. You let your hands wander over your belly again and again. You try to do anything that might persuade the baby to finally leave your belly.

You turn your head to Aemond, "I can't take it anymore.... Aemond... this is going on too long... he's not coming. If he doesn't come out... If the maesters tell you it won't work.... Then you must lead me to Meraxes," you whisper in a tear-choked voice.

His eyes grow wide. His breath catches in his throat briefly as he just shakes his head, "No way. That's not going to happen." He strokes your cheek and whispers, "You have to do this. Please... Don't give up. For me... I need you... for us. For our baby."

You close your eyes, "I need a moment's peace," you whisper. Aemond looks at you worriedly. The fact that you close your eyes and want peace does not leave him with a reassuring feeling.

The door to the chambers opens cautiously and Alicent enters the chambers. Aemond looks at the door and suddenly feels uneasy as she looks at him anxiously and questioningly. For the first time he leaves your side. He gently kisses your hand and sets it down carefully. Your eyes are closed, but you smile.

He walks over to Alicent.

"How is she?" asks Alicent anxiously.

"She struggles... it takes a long time and is tedious," he replies with a serious expression.

Alicent nods, "My first birth was easier.... It was only the second one that was a little more difficult."

Aemond looks at his mother. He is afraid to say it. If he were to say it, it would suddenly be present, making it more likely to happen. But he has to do it, he has to ask his mother... "Mother... what if... what if the same thing happened to her as... happened to Aemma?"

Alicent's eyes grow wide and she looks at him, startled, grabbing his hand to calm him down, "Aemond! Don't even think about it! That's not going to happen. That was a terrible accident! It's going to be fine, okay?". She holds his cheek and strokes it, he just nods at her.

Suddenly he hears you screaming again. He looks at you and sees that you are pushing. You sit up straight and hold your knees. Your head is thrown back and you scream.

"Go to her," but before Alicent can finish the sentence, Aemond is on his way to you.

"My Love... I am here," he kneels beside you.

You look at him, tears streaming down your face, "Aemond..." you whimper, "I can't do this. He doesn't want to... he wants to stay inside me".

He just shakes his head as he stands up. He puts his hand carefully on your back and gives you the sign to slide forward a little. You breathe heavily and look at him in irritation, but you slide forward a little. He doesn't hesitate for long and climbs onto the bed behind you. He sits down carefully and holds you tightly. Exhausted, you let yourself fall against him, you have never felt so safe.

"You can do it, my Queen," he whispers, "If one person can push a baby out, it's you, okay?"

You try to nod, but the whimper that slips out does not make you look convincing.

"I can't do much for you, but I'm here. We'll do this together, okay?"

You nod again and reach for his hands. You push after the maesters tell you to push again. You press your back against his chest, but he leans towards you and gives you support.

Again and again he leaves kisses on the side of your face, hoping that it will soothe you and give you strength.

With your next scream, Aemond screams as well, and your screams echo through the chambers. You push with all your strength as you squeeze Aemond's hands. After the contraction you let yourself fall backwards again.

He kisses your cheek, "My Love, this will work!"

You nod, and mumble a "Thank you.. Aemond."

The Maesters turn to you again, "My Princess! It is coming! Please push again Princess y/n!"

A sob leaves you and Aemond holds you, wrapping his arms around you, "One more time, my Queen. Get our girl out of there! And you never have to sleep with me again either"

You almost have to laugh, "But perhaps I would still like to sleep with you again?"

He chuckles briefly, "Then I won't stop you."

You nod, "Again… thank you Aemond"

The fact that you are trying to be funny gives space to the calming feeling inside him. He laughs and kisses your cheek.

You sit up a little and push with the last of your strength as the contraction comes.

The contraction was shorter and again you fall back against Aemon's chest, he kisses the side of your face, "My Love.... My Queen... I love you" leaves his lips, over and over again.

You hear the Maester again, "My Princess, push again. Give the baby another push!" And you push.

Suddenly screams fill the room and this time they are not yours. You breathe out quickly, intermittently. Aemond has you tight in his arms and with the last push, your baby comes out of you.

The maesters take the baby and step away from you for a moment to clean it.

You are breathing heavily and just lying in Aemonds arms as the midwives approach you, they have to extract your afterbirth. You cry out once more and Aemond still holds you. The midwives clean you afterwards.

Then a maester approaches you, "Prince Aemond, Princess y/n, it's a girl. A healthy girl!".

A short laugh leaves your lips.

She is placed in your arms and you can only smile. You have your crying daughter in your arms and you have never seen anything more beautiful. You are instantly in love. She has exactly the same silver hair that adorns your heads. Slowly you stroke it. She opens her eyes briefly and the familiar purple glows from her eyes. Her cries subside as your eyes meet, you smile softly at her. A unique beauty shines towards you and has you completely under its spell. During your pregnancy you often thought that your love for Aemond would halve after the birth of your child. But how wrong you were. Your love for these two beings feels at least twice as big. Aemond still sitting behind you, holding you close, and your beautiful daughter in your arms. The love to be felt in this chambers is overwhelming right now.

"I told you it would be a..."

"Shut up Aemond. Don't ruin my moment"

He has to grin and gently kisses your cheek. Aemond rests his chin on your shoulder. Carefully he reaches for her feet, "Hey my little girl.... You took a long time.... and torturing your mother."

You chuckle and kiss her head. You close your eyes and breathe in the fresh scent of the newborn. Gently you let your lips glide over the light base of the silver hair.

Aemond kisses you lightly above your ear and gently strokes the baby's legs. You watch as Aemond lets his fingers wander over each of your daughter's toes and fingers.

"What are you doing?" you whisper.

He grins, "I don't know. I want to make sure she is healthy... and having ten toes and fingers seems like a good start."

You have to laugh and you look at him, he is still grinning. You can't help but kiss him.

"Our healthy daughter... What name shall she have?"

You grin.

A "Mhhm?" sounds from him and he nudges you with his nose.

You look at him, "Alyssa. Alyssa Targaryen."

Aemond has to grin, "Daddy's girl through and through?"

You smile and nod, "Dad often told me that my personality often reminded him of his mother's personality. The fact that I could never really get enthusiastic about sewing and embroidery... Maybe it'll rub off on her and she'll get excited about reading and sword fighting instead... this seems a fitting tribute to my grandmother."

Slowly he lets his lips slide onto yours as you gently hold Alyssa against your chest.

You both look up as the door opens. Your families come in and Alyssa startles. Screams fill the room again and you cradle her gently against your chest.

You turn your head to Aemond, "Quite the father. As soon as many people are gathered, she feels uncomfortable."

Aemond smiles and kisses your cheek.

Everyone gathers around the bed and you announce, "It's a girl".

You are met with nothing but smiling faces and your mother comes to your side, "My girl now has her own girl", she gently strokes your arm. Your smile does not leave your face as you nod happily to her.

"You had been outside the chambers all this time?"

"Of course," your father replies. You smile at him.

Rhaenyra caresses her granddaughter, "She is so sweet..." she whispers and gently strokes her head.

"Even though she cries?" you reply with a smile.

Your mother smiles, "What name shall she have?"

You smile and Aemond kisses your cheek again, "Alyssa. Alyssa Targaryen."

You look to your father now and he cannot suppress a proud smile.

He steps to your side, "May I hold her?" he almost whispers.

You nod and hand Alyssa into Daemon's arms.

Daemon holds her tightly and immediately feels taken back to the time when he first held you in his arms. Alyssa suddenly stops crying and looks at her grandsire. Daemon gently strokes her belly, "Hey my.... littlest dragon"

He holds her tightly and cradles her in his arms, gently pressing his nose to her head to breathe in the scent of the newborn. A small crowd of Alicent, Helaena and your mother now forms around Daemon, all wanting to catch a glimpse of the newest member of the family. Jace and Luke are also standing next to the baby, but they want to let the ladies look first.

Aemond notices how calm you become in his arms, "My Love...shall I take you to our chambers?"

You just nod, a sudden tiredness has overtaken you.

Aemond carefully gets up and then helps you to rise carefully from the bed. Aemond and Daemon's eyes meet and they nod at each other.

Slowly Aemond leads you to your chambers, "As I said, if you want me to carry you, all you have to do is say so," he grins at you.

"Shut up Aemond," you reply and cling to his arm.

He chuckles and gently kisses your head, "Is that actually going to be your new pet name for me?"

"Only if you keep trying to annoy me," you smile slightly.

Slowly you go to your chambers. Your parents follow you, with Alyssa in their arms. As you enter your chambers, you see that a cradle has been brought into your chambers and, as if ordered, the blue dragon egg lies in it. You have to smile for a moment.

Aemond leads you to the bed and helps you lie down. You exhale sharply as you finally lie down.

Daemon and Rhaenyra place Alyssa in the cradle next to the blue dragon egg. They stand over the cradle for a moment longer, looking down at Alyssa with a smile.

It makes you happy to see your parents standing proudly bent over the cradle, but your eyelids are getting heavier and heavier. But then you notice that Aemond does not lie down. You lean slightly on your elbow and want to hold his arm so that he lies down with you.

He chuckles, "I'll be right next to you," gently kissing your forehead.

You can't help but lie down again, the urge to sleep is just too strong. As you drift off to sleep, Daemon and Rhaenyra quietly leave your chambers.

Aemond walks over to the cradle. He smiles down at his daughter and kneels beside the cradle. Alyssa is sleeping, she seems as exhausted as you are.

Aemond just smiles and gently strokes the little head. His daughter is perfect. He cannot find any other words to describe his sleeping girl in the cradle. He has never seen anything so perfect and the fact that he is partly responsible for this little being now being in this world makes him feel an indescribable joy. His little dragon girl. He would give everything for her. He would give his life, should it be necessary, to protect her. Yours and Alyssa's safety are now his top priority. It almost seems like an unrealistic dream to him as he watches his girl for a while longer. If he had imagined two years ago that he would have a daughter, that he would be married, to you, his great love, he would have laughed. He would never have dared to dream that he would see you again. And even less would he have imagined that it would end with you giving yourself to him, that you would get married. That it hadn't damaged your intimacy that you hadn't been in contact for so long.

It was also unimaginable for him to be a father, to father something so small and perfect with you. Now he wouldn't trade this feeling, his life, for anything in the world.

Slowly, he leans down to Alyssa and gently kisses her forehead. She exhales loudly and strained in response and he has to smile. After making sure Alyssa is well covered and safe next to her egg, he walks back to your bed. He undresses and carefully lies down behind you. He holds you and murmurs another "I love you" and falls asleep beside you.

You are floating between sleep and the real world, feeling the warmth of your bed, when you remember what happened last night. Slowly you open your eyes. Out of habit, you let your hands wander to your belly, but you feel a sudden emptiness. Where yesterday there was a huge belly with your baby inside, today there is no longer a huge belly. You look down at your belly and exhale deeply. Your eyes fall on the cradle and through the bars you see that only the dragon egg is in the cradle.

It must already be noon... The sun is high in the sky and you look through the window into the distance. Aemond is not lying next to you. He must have been awake for hours and is probably already in the training yard... or with Alyssa? Your gaze wanders around the room and stops at a small table next to your bed. On the table are various drinks, fruit and some bread. Suddenly you notice how your throat hurts from dryness and how thirsty you are.

Slowly you sit up a little and take a large cup of water, you drink it all.

You hear a soft knock on the door and before you can answer, you hear the door open and see your father carefully poking his head through.

When he sees that you are awake, he smiles and enters your chambers. Alyssa is in his arms and Jace is close behind Daemon.

Slowly he comes towards you.

"Have you been carrying her all this time?" you ask in a hoarse voice.

Daemon chuckles, "Let me be a proud grandsire".

As he stands by your side, he cradles Alyssa in his arms and exhales deeply, "You know, the first time I held her, I couldn't help but think of the first time I held you. Did I ever tell you about that?"

You shake your head just slightly.

"I was there when you were born..." he smiles slightly and looks to you, "... Every second I suffered with your mother from afar. It was not an easy birth... and with every contraction that brought you a little closer to our world, I wished that you were my child and that it could be seen. And when I first saw you and held you in my arms... Gods, you were so small..." He smiles briefly, lost in thought "... it was all over for me. I knew you were my daughter, my little dragon. And I wanted the world to know it as well."

You have to smile and a "Daddy..." leaves your lips.

"No, let me finish or I don't think I'll ever tell."

Again he looks at you, "So I knew you were my daughter. Your hair, your eyes... your soft skin... when I held you, you enchanted me. I couldn't help but smile. And the gods know that I don't often smile when I hold children in my arms. But I knew right away that I wanted to be your father. Officially. I went straight to your grandsire and asked for your legitimacy. You were supposed to be a Targaryen.... The whole world should know that you are my daughter.... A Targaryen, not a Velaryon."

You are speechless. You knew your father asked for your legitimacy, but you didn't know how emotional that was for him, and that he immediately asked for your legitimacy.

"... And that will never change. No matter what a Vaemond Velaryon said, you are not a bastard. You are Princess y/n Targaryen. And as I held this little one tonight, I was reminded of our first moment together... and I wanted you to know... that... I will never forget it."

Tears come to your eyes, "Daddy..." you sob.

Daemon carefully hands Alyssa to Jace and sits down on the bed with you. You bury your face in his neck and he holds you, "My little dragon."

After a while he breaks the embrace, you lightly wipe the tears from your eyes, "And you know, you really made a cute little girl... but are you sure Aemond is the father?"

You look at him irritated, "What? Of course! Why do you ask?"

"Well, I'm just saying... The littlest dragon has two eyes and Aemond..."

"Dad! Stop it," you punch him lightly and hear Jace chuckle.

Your eyes fall on Jace, he looks to you and smiles, "She's really cute. She must get that from you at least"

You smile back.

Jace takes a step forward as he cradles Alyssa in his arms, "Y/n about yesterday... I really didn't mean to hit you...I'm sorry..."

You shake your head, "It's okay, I know that.... But maybe you should stop using every opportunity to annoy each other. Nothing good comes out of it and in the end someone could still lose an eye..."

Jace and your father look at you, startled at first. You don't make a face. But you can't stand it for long and you all start laughing.

"Please don't tell Aemond I was joking about that," you say as you calm down.

Your father gives you a hug in response and Jace sits down on the bed with Alyssa in his arms.

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anormalweirdo · 9 months

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Alright yall imagine this with me

Part two

You’re a YouTuber with a somewhat popular following of around 35k. Considering how close you are with the fans you have they are fully aware of your major crush on the popular guitarist Yuji Itdadori. Something about that pink haired man just had you in a chokehold real bad. The things you wanted to do to him just for him to not notice you at all was absolutely insane😫. On a serious note you decided to challenge your fans to see how willing they are to embarrass you on your social media. “Hey you guys I’ve noticed how close we are to 50k and I thank you all so much and I love you all. I’ve decided to create a little challenge for you guys to spice things up. If we can get to 50k by the end of the year I'll personally contact my favorite YouTuber, which y'all should know who that is by now and I'll try to see if he'll be willing to Collab with me." You continue on with your video and call it a night thinking nothing of it.

You wake up around 2pm and get ready for your day. Washing your face, brushing your teeth, fixing up your hair and all of that good stuff. You set your mind to ordering food rather than making anything, especially considering the fact that you have videos you need to edit. "Alright y/n let's get this shit started so we don't have to do anything later". You sit on he couch with your laptop in hand and quickly get to work. Around 15 minutes go by and you hear a knock at your door. "Ouuu that's my food!" You say while hopping out of your couch. You rush to the door and open it. You see a boy who looks no order than 18 who has your bag of food. You see the boys face go from completely uninterested to wide eyed with his jaw literally touching the floor. "You're Y/N! Like the YouTuber" he says excitedly. "Oh yea wassup" "I'm such a big fan! Can I have a picture?!" The excited boy said quickly. "I don't look the best right now but I'll let ya slide since you brought me food" you say. You take your picture with him and he gives you your food. You rush back to your couch to continue your editing while you eat your food

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You post your video and soon after begin your nighty routine and soon hope into your bed. You're scrolling through Instagram when you see him. Yuji Itadori. Something about him makes you melt into a big ass puddle of water. All of those tattoos covering his arms. Ouuu those arms, those big juicy arms. He's just all around sexy and many others can definitely agree. He's a big YouTuber with around 500k subscribers easy. You wonder how you could even get someone like him to notice you. You chose to ignore all those thoughts for now and go to sleep. You feel your eyes become heavy as you lay your head on your pillow and almost fall asleep immediately.

You wake up to a few notifications on your phone. A couple of likes on your new video and some tweets. You yawn and get up to do your morning routine. Once done you sit on bed you look at your phone. 'maybe my video will blow up if I post it on TikTok' you thought. Thinking nothing of it you decide to post some clips of your video to TikTok to see if you can at least reach your goal. Now don't get me wrong you knew there was a possibility your goal could have been met but trying to get the Yuji Itadori to Collab with you was gonna be hard as hell. Especially considering the fact he has over 500k subscribers. 500k!!!! You're not even at 100k, but you made a promise to your fans. You chose to ignore it for the night and went to bed.

Over the next few weeks your Tiktoks as well as your YouTube video have been blowing up like crazy. You already passed your goal of 50k completely, reaching around 100 thousand new subscribers. You kept your part of the deal and texted Itadori a few weeks ago but have yet to have a response by the pink haired man. "I don't know you guys I already contacted him on his social media and his email. Maybe he just don't wanna Collab or something" you say into the camera as you attempt to bake a cake for your channel. You wanted to celebrate hitting a milestone of 150k but there was one problem.....you couldn't cook for shit nor could you bake. But that didn't stop you're hussle to try...plus you're fans voted for you to do it. "Alright y'all I'm done with this damn mixing now I'm finna put this shit into the oven. Let's hope and pray I don't burn it" you say jokingly. You pause your camera and sit on a chair near your table when you heard a ding on your phone. Thinking nothing of it you open you phone and began to read the notification. Your eyes widen as you continue reading. "Dear Ms. Y/N, sorry if you're receiving this email unexpectedly. Sorry I'm just not responding to you're email you sent me. I wasn't aware of any emails being sent to me considering the can't my management team is responsible for all emails and calls I have. If you're still willing to Collab with me I'll be happy to make something work so we can make some videos together. After all you made a promise to you're fans lol. If you still want to Collab please respond to my email whenever but I might not respond quickly because of my schedule. I hope I wasn't too late with my response, if I wasn't please email me back or text me on my socials. Sincerely, Yuji~.

You stare at the email in shock and quickly begin to write an email back, telling him whenever you're free. Youre so in shock that you don't even think to take you're cake out or even check on it. That is until you hear your smoke detector go off. "Oh shit my cake" you say as you jump out of your chair.

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Hey you guys I was wondering if I should make this just a oneshot or if I should continue this and make it into a series. If I don't make it into a series it'll definitely be my first one. I was also wondering what should I make Itadori's channel about. Should it be cooking, sports, music or gaming. I have absolutely no clue about these topics so I'll just make a poll about both of them and the most votes wins.!

#jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen x you #itadori x y/n #jjk itadori #yuji itadori #jjk x poc!reader #jjk fluff #jjk #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk yuuji #jjk yuji

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imakemywings · 4 months

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2023 Fic Roundup

No one tagged me, I just love doing this to reflect on the year :3 Mostly Silm fic to no one's surprise.

Total Words Published at end of year: 162,562, which is a huge jump up from 47k last year, something I attribute wholly to having graduated in the spring (not that life hasn't kept me busy since then). This is actually even higher than 2021, when I started doing an end-of-the-year reflection!

Fandoms: Tolkien with a one-off Arcane in there (might have been more if there were more Ambessa requests on the kink meme)

Highest Everything (raw kudos, hits, comments):

Hits: As Little as Might be Thought (555)

Kudos: As Little as Might be Thought (59)

Comments: What the Water Gave Me (64)

New Things I Tried: Not totally new, but I think this was the first year I wrote chaptered Silm fic? I don't usually write fic that long but I got two this year so I'm pleased with that. Also, finally wrote and published Maglor/Thranduil and Maedhros/Thingol after ranting about them in DMs for literal years XD

Fic I Spent the Most Time On: What the Water Gave Me just because it's by far the longest thing I wrote.

Fic I Spent the Least Time On: Let Me Lie on Grasses so Green, but that was probably comparable with the other two fics in that "trio" of parent&child fics I wrote in February

Favorite Thing I Wrote: Honestly I was very happy with how Sandbox Love turned out! It really captured the energy I was going for with Galadriel's possibly-not-totally-sure unrequited (?) crush on Luthien and the realization that Luthien has sort of grown out of their friendship while Galadriel has not.

However I'm also quite pleased with both my Maglor/Thranduil pieces, which were both spawned as brainchildren of me and @meadowlarkx so they have a special place in my heart <3

Favorite Thing(s) I Read: I deserve an award for limiting this to 15 fics shhh no it wasn't originally supposed to be 10

Less Wise by @meadowlarkx - I know I've flailed about this one multiple times this year already, but here we go again. Our brainchild pairing may be unusual, but I would implore you to give it a chance, particularly if you're a fan of either Maglor or Thranduil. Lark's characterizations here are so fantastic and the dynamic between them is so juicy! Maglor trying to redeem herself through service to Thranduil is so compelling!

Berrypicking Time by swampdiamonds - This fic captures the best part of Finduilas/Nienor which is their healing and moving forward together. Both of them are trying so hard to process their own trauma, but they also want to help each other!

It's the Secret That We Keep by Loriand_Lost - Beautiful fic exploring Galadriel’s relationships with both Celeborn and Luthien in Doriath. Absolutely fantastic characterization! And great smut scenes.

The Pleasure of the King by Anonymous - Ahhh this is such a great fic. Azaghal and his wife Khoreti are quite eager to show Felagund the depths of hospitality in Belegost. Absolutely fantastic characterizations and such a fun time for everyone here. Also, origins of Finrod’s nipple piercings ;D

Beware of Women with Beards and Men Without by TheLionInMyBed - Azaghal and Maedhros’ alliance was full of cultural misunderstandings, but they push their way through it. Delightful characterizations here, particularly of Azaghal who gets basically none in canon, and a funny but also touching relationship between them.

Nesting by LiveOakWithMoss - It has great characterizations and a fascinatingly toxic Kidnap Fam dynamic, both between the twins and the Feanorians and between Maedhros and Maglor themselves. The whole thing is delightfully fucked up.

A Poetry Lesson by HewerOfCaves - Gorgeous characterization for Ingwion and I love seeing cocky prince Maedhros in Tirion who’s hot and smart and he knows it. Also, hitting on someone in a library feels like such an incredibly Maedhros move.

You are Coming Down with Me by TheLionInMyBed - Dark comedy look at the Kidnap Fam which takes, imo, a much more realistic look at how unhealthy the situation was for everyone involved, particularly the twins. Excellent characterizations!

Daeron Nails It by Tallulah - I am in LOVE with this little fic, it incorporates so many delightful details about the court in Menegroth. I am so pleased to see I am not the only one picturing Thingol and Melian with the cringiest pet names for each other.

A Fish Hook, an Open Eye by simaethae - Delicious. Maglor goes to the Havens at Sirion to try to wheedle cooperation out of Elwing, but she is not having it. Their argument takes a interesting turn in private. Love how desperate and pathetic Maglor is here.

A House of Nettles by Ias - Amazing delicious sexy fic where Eowyn becomes haunted by the Witch King–former queen of Numenor Tar-Miriel. It is SO good.

Strength Like a Tower by potatoesanddreams - This fic almost made me cry over a building. Fantastic look at how Elves connect to their environment.

Bite Thy Wings and Let Thee Crawl by @meadowlarkx - I shit you not this fetish porn fic has one of the best theses on Morgoth I've seen in this fandom. Lark displays a particularly deft talent in being able to take what could easily be considered a comical fetish and imbue it with such terror.

And by their blazing signify that a great princess falls, but doth not die by TheLionInMyBed - Absolutely obsessed, some of the best Elwing characterization I’ve ever seen. Gorgeous look at Elwing’s relationship with the other refugees of the Havens and at the Feanorians’ dynamic with them. One of the best Elwing fics I’ve ever read.

Shadow of the Evening by RussetFiredrake - Captures that lady knight/noblewoman thing with Arwyn SO well…both characters are so loveable here.

Writing Goals for 2023: Nothing specific. Life is a bit in flux right now so I can't say what I'll have time or energy for.

Tagging: @meadowlarkx @polutrope @swanmaids @illusivesoul @maironsbigboobs @welcomingdisaster @undercat-overdog

Please note you are by no means required to follow my template or include individual fic stats at all! You can just answer the questions if you prefer (❁´◡`❁)

#fic roundup #tagged

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hello-nichya-here · 2 months

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not a shipping ask but more a country-based,

i applied for exchange and decided to stay in Europe (for now, purposefully vague for privacy) and there was an option to go to Brazil which some people choose.

i remember you saying in one separate ask that Brazil is truly a country that you must prepare for properly before going there and i am curious about that? if you have already replied please just link me xoxo

Here's the things you absolutely gotta know before moving to Brazil:

1 - Unless you're a literal refugee of war or of a country that is absolutely economically destroyed or you are OBSCENELY rich, you don't actually want to do that. Go live literally anywhere else.

Here's the things you absolutely gotta know before you visit Brazil.

1 - The heat WILL get very close to killing you, or at the very least make you wish you were dead. Yes, even during winter. People end up in the hospital because of it all the time. Unless a brazilian specifically told you "Bring warm clothes when going to this place at this time of the year" assume you'll forget what cold weather even is, and even then you should still bring summer clothes just in case.

2 - Trying to get a tan is suicide. Focus on protecting yourself from the sun, especially at the beach. Again, people end up at the hospital for that stuff all time - severe burns, fever, and anything that touches your skin WILL hurt like a bitch.

3 - Mosquitos. Mosquitos everywhere. Lots of them transmiting diseases that will make all your bones hurt and your guts bleed. Depending on what part of the country you're visiting you might even have to get a ton of vaccines before being allowed there.

4 - If you see literally any animal species you're not familiar with, avoid it. Depending on the region of the country, stay the fuck away from any spider, even a tiny one that looks harmless. If you're going into a forest region, especially the amazon, assume everything there can and will kill you.

5 - If you visit the amazon or the pantanal, do not go on your own. You're not Indiana Jones. You WILL get lost and die. Avoid any and all shady tourist guides, even if you can't really explain why you think they're shady, unless you want to get kidnapped. Do NOT get into any river without double-checking with someone familiar with the region if that particular one is free of any fish that can kill you AND isn't guaranteed to sweep you away until you drown.

6 - Do not walk around wearing anything expensive or talking/texting/doing anything on your phone, and if you have a bag, purse or backpack, keep it very close to you at all times. If someone is trying to rob you, shut up and give them all they're asking for. This tip is extra important if you're going to Rio de Janeiro.

7 - If you want to go to a non-pacified favela: Don't.

8 - If you want to voice your opinion about Brazil's politics to a brazilian you just met: Don't.

9 - If you want to go out at night by yourself: DON'T.

10 - If you go to Rio, trying asking a brazilian stuff like "How much does a taxi from the airport to the hotel usually cost?" or keep an eye on the GPS if you're taking an uber to make sure the driver isn't deliberately taking a longer path. Cariocas are infamous for finding ways of taking a bit of extra money from gringos that don't know any better.

11 - EVERYTHING IS EXPENSIVE AS FUCK. Yes, even if your country's money is worth a million times more than Brazil's money.

12 - If you're going to a beach, specially in the northeast of the country, and there's no one else around, do NOT go in the water unless you want to be eaten by a shark.

13 - If you're not basically a proffesional at surfing and want to go practice in the beaches that have the biggest waves: Don't. If you want to try your luck on amazonian waters: DON'T.

14 - If you're going to São Paulo, prepare to be stuck in traffic for a long, long, long, LONG time.

15 - If you want/need to go to the cops for literally any reason, especially in places like Rio, talk to a brazilian first (friend, host, lady at the hotel check in) and tell them what the problem is. A lot of the police forces here can be useless at best and VERY hostile towards any living at worst, so going to a local first so they can either go to the police station with you or solve your problem without getting the cops involved at all is often the safest choice.

16 - If you've ever been to Argentina before, say you like Brazil more even if it's a lie.

17 - If you went to São Paulo after going to Rio, say to everyone there that you like São Paulo more. If you went to Rio after having already been to São Paulo, say to everyone there you like Rio more.

18 - Brazilians WILL try to trick you into saying obscene stuff while trying to teach you a few words in portuguese. Double-check everything you were taught before saying it to a stranger.

#asks #brazil #brasil

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piglet26 · 3 months

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Reylo Tag

1. When did you start shipping Reylo?

The interrogation scene. I didn't think I was suppose to like them together, but there sexual tension won me over. I didn't see any of the sequel films in theatre for the first time which I regret. I saw them on Disney Plus. Very quickly I was shipping them and when I ship? I captain the ship.

2. Favourite Reylo moment?

The finger touch scene. Hands down. As a writer, a storyteller, I never would've thought a scene where two people touch hands would've been so much like a love scene. But here we are. It's such a great scene because it is so intimate without being goofy or risqué. It is a scene that touched real intimacy and that's hard to do. The warm fire, the way the world around them disappeared......... THEY TOUCHED ACROSS GALAXIES. Yeah, it's pretty epic.

3. Three words to describe Reylo?

UHHHHHHHHHH. Attraction. Weakness. Dyad.

4. Favourite thing about Reylo?

That they are soul mates in the force separated by circumstance. Two people who are so lonely, in Rey's case, literally alone in a desert and they find this thing between them that fulfills them. I think they are really lucky to have one another even if they sometimes hate that tie between them hahaha

5. Favourite character?

Reylo haha and if not Reylo........ Finnrey.

6. Favourite droid?

BB-8

7. Favourite planet?

Thought a lot about this actually. Naboo. A beautiful lush green planet will grand waterfalls, delicious food and epic teenage queens.... like come on!!!!! I'd never leave.

8. Favourite spaceship?

I have no attachment to anything.

9. Favourite alien species?

I also thought Kaminoans were really cool and I loved their water planet. The crystal critters were pretty rad. Zabraks/Dathomirians also pretty cool!

10. Favourite actor/actress?

Daisy Ridley

11. How did you get into Star Wars?

Reylo. I mean I grew up watching the prequels and I liked Anakin but I wasn't overly invested or invested at all until Reylo.

12. Most memorable Star Wars moment?

"Luke..... I am your father" Pretty hard to forget that moment.

13. Anakin Skywalker or Darth Vader?

It's a great character overall. I don't separate like most people do Anakin had Darth Vader in him and Vader had Anakin.

14. Ben Solo or Kylo Ren?

Again, I won't choose haha

15. OT, PT or ST?

Selfishly Sequel Trilogy. Maybe I would've have felt that way Reylo was just something that I loved. If I didn't lean so much into my Reylo bias I would say the Prequel Trilogy.

16. Favourite quote?

"We're A Dyad In The Force, Rey. Two That Are One."

Yes, there are countless quotes about faith, courage, hope, rebellion, power, self-belief....... but my brain knows how to focus on what's important.

17. Favourite meme?

18. Favourite gif?

I love to be able to look at me winning as often as I can

19. If you could change one thing about the Skywalker Saga what would it be?

Reylo love/hate/dyad bang

20. Top 3 Star Wars movies?

The Last Jedi

The Force Awakens

TROS purely cause Reylo isn't in the other films

#reylo #star wars #ben solo #rey skywalker #rey star wars #ben solo deserved better #kylo x rey #kylo ren #ben solo x rey #star wars memes #star wars meta #palpatine

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killerandhealerqueen · 3 months

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iiiiiiiit's your fave, dropping in with a ridiculous number of questions for you to answer! 5, 6, 11, 12, 15, 16, 20

Hello my beloved!

5. What is an image/set of images that you’re particularly proud of?

I'm not really sure what this question is asking...sorry

6. Idea that you always wanted to write but could never make work?

Honestly, there's nothing that I haven't thought of that I haven't written. If I think it, I write it. And if something is fighting me, I either put it aside until it works itself out or I scrap it and redo it, like my fic Monster Like Me (I worked on this god damn fic for over almost a month...my one shots have never taken this long before...but it's also one I'm really proud of so I guess all the work I put in paid off)

11. If I’m showing off just one of your pieces to someone, which one should it be?

You better show this fucker off -> 恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer

It's my baby and I love her and I need to get back to working on her because the 3 anniversary is coming up and I need to have the next couple of chapters done!

But honestly, you could should any of my fics off and I would be honored

12. What WIPs do you have going now? Are you excited about them?

Now that I've finished Monster Like Me, I can get back to working on my other wips 恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer (I'm about halfway through ep. 26 of 37), CSI: Jing City (we're on the last case), KeixYaku: Abunai Aibou, Oil and Water (we're on the second to last case), 药剂师日记 | The Apothecary Diaries (and we've got a few more cases to go with this one). I'm excited for all of them! I've also got a few more wips in my folders (Friendline, Junchun Hero x Villain, Vampire Doctor x Boxer (Mignon au), and 2 S.C.I. Hero x Villain aus) but those aren't to be touched until one of the other wips are finished.

15. Does font matter to you when you’re writing a draft?

Nope. I usually use Helvetica for fic and Times New Roman for headcanons. I'm also slowly learning that if I have an idea to just start writing it out instead outlining it because outlining it for some reason fucks with my head and the flow (which was the problem with Monster Like Me)

16. 3 favorite comments ever received on fanfic.

From @clawbehavior on my fic The City of Angels & Demons

She's not even in the fandom but I love receiving comments from her

From @evil-moonlight on my fic Our Dining Table

I love receiving literal book report comments, you don't even understand

From hellenatz on my fic 恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer

I love getting comments from people who are new to Killer and Healer and who find my fic/fics and comment. Warms my fucking heart man

20. Go nuts, and talk about writing

I'mma be honest, I'm real tired after spending a few hours with my best friend eating sushi, talking, walking around/window shopping, and getting sea salt matcha lattes so my brain can't really like...talk about writing but like...I love writing and my writing friends and I love talking to y'all and hearing the shit that y'all are working on and just...yeah. I love being friends with other writers. Sorry if you wanted to hear about my fics but my brain is like nah

Fic writing questions! | send me asks

#sass answers #took 🐸#fic writing questions

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vinjaryou · 2 months

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @razerathane - thank you~!

1: How many works do you have on AO3/fanfiction.net?

On AO3: 57 I don't remember my ff.net login, it's been so long.

2: What's your total Ao3/fanfiction.net word count?

172,928 words

3: What fandoms do you write for?

Now I focus mainly on the Compilation of FFVII (again), but I have written for Legend of Zelda, Tekken, Sonic the Hedgehog, Yu-Gi-Oh, some FFIX, and some GetBackers and Higurashi.

4: What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

two guys and a gondola (Barret & Cloud)

reunions & new beginnings (a touch of VinVeld)

Control, or The Lack Thereof (written for Chaos Theory)

a nice, quiet country life (Zack/Aerith, hinted Zack/Aerith/Cloud)

a lost art (Sephiroth/Genesis)

5: Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I should, and I did for a bit before stopping. Mostly because I get shy, but I promise to try to get better about it.

6: What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably 'etched in glass,' since it centers around Vincent flashing back to an incident in Hojo's laboratory. There's also 'welcome to my nightmare,' which features Vincent losing control of Hellmasker in the midst of battle…

7: What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

'three little words.' Hands down. There's even a beautiful piece I commissioned to go with it~

8: Do you get hate on fics?

I think I got one comment that was just "uh, what," and I shrugged it off. I don't write popular enough pairings regularly enough to get hate, methinks.

9: Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes. Mainly VinRei (my canon/OC pair), and it literally goes from sweet to racy. I've written sweet lovemaking, and Chaotic semi-monsterfucking.

10: Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I used to because I was in LJ roleplay communities years ago, and a lot of crackships were forged there. Vincent/Nabooru, Ban Midou/Rider (GetBackers/Fate Stay Night), angsty Dark Link & Aerith, a twisted father/daughter relationship between Akabane & Rena Ryuugu (GB and Higurashi), Kadaj and Rinoa were getting cute, and then there was the big sister/little brother dynamics of Cain and Nabooru (GodChild and Zelda: OoT)… I think I have a list somewhere of all the crackships and friendships between characters, lol

I do have an idea for a one-off crossover fight piece that I've discussed with a friend… stay tuned~

11: Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so, but now I'm feeling a little paranoid…

12: Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope. Well, not that I know of.

13: Have you ever co-written a fic before?

My late best friend and I co-wrote Zelda and Yu-Gi-Oh crackfics all throughout high school and college; never published because we did it just for fun and for our friend group, and I still have it all, including a bunch of artwork she did for them.

14: What's your all time favorite ship?

Vincent/Reilena, my FFVII canon/OC ship.

15: What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Both 'Sands of Desire' (a YGO AE canon/OC fic I was writing, and suddenly dropped; to this day I still know exactly how I would end it) and 'Bleeding Angel' (Tekken, OCs, spanned Tekken 3, Tag, and 4, but I quit writing it when 5 came out).

'Sweet Lady Luck' is the Final Fantasy VII Casino AU that I keep posting little scenes for, that I swear I will get started posting actual chapters for THIS FUCKING YEAR, because I have so much planned for it, and I love it and them so much. So that is a WIP that I WILL finish, come hell or high water.

16: What are your writing strengths?

Characterization and emotion; I think I have a pretty good grip of character personalities.

17: What are your writing weaknesses?

Sometimes dialogue or just knowing when to END a scene.

18: Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I used to be super cheesy about it (think old-school fansubs lol), now I try not to do it altogether; if it happens, the dialogue will be put in brackets to designate it as being in another language. If you can get it to work though, that's awesome~

19: First fandom you wrote for?

Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time

20: Favorite fic you've written?

Honestly? Right now it's tied between 'three little words' and 'when chaos and passion collide.' Both VinRei pieces, one sweet and emotional, the other smutty and emotional.

Feel free to snag this if interested!

#thanks for the tag!#don't mind me #writing ref #writing meme

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dirtytransmasc · 1 year

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I'm both a sentimental creature and a creature of habit, and if I like a piece of media, I will keep going back to it for literal years.

which leads me to my current breakdown; rereading a book I read in 6/7th grade, Orbiting Jupiter. (I reread it at least once a year, key word at least, cause I can't even tell you how many times I've read it, purely to torture myself)

if you haven't read the book, do it, even if it has a really basic reading level, it's such a good read, if not soul shattering (I've seen people say it's not sad, and um, if your one of those people, die or something, cause it's heartbreaking). I would look up a tw list online though, cause even if the topics at hand are told from the innocent prospective of a 11/12 year old most of the time, there's still a lot of shit going on from teen pregnancy, extreme abuse, implied SA (I'm my interpretation, and not related to the teen pregnancy), to major character death. sometimes I question why I was given this book so young (it was one of the mandated reading options)

so spoilers, cause I need to rant.

there's so many parts of this book I can't get over, like the whole thing destroyed me, but I just let the realization sink in, that Joseph never got to hold his daughter, never got to touch her, to even see her in person. the best he got were some photos and a few letters from her foster mother, but he never got to actually hold his baby.

he spent months trying to get to Maddie, months trying to get to Jupiter, all for him to never see either of them ever again. the actions he took to get to them only cause him pain and suffering; he got sent to group homes were he was abused/neglected, he got cut on the fence, he got sent to stone mountain (where he was practically tortured). he ran away during a blizzard, just to find his baby, and it was for nothing.

then once he accepted that, that he wouldn't meet his daughter, when he he decided the photos and the letters were enough, when he let himself be embraced by his new family, when he started to find his place in school, when he was starting to actually live again: his dad came back and killed him.

he traded his life for his brothers, got in that truck, most likely with the gut feeling he would never see jack again (worst part is, is that he thought his dad would shoot him and then himself if they got caught by police rather then go to jail/Joseph going back to the Hurds) only to have his dad drive them onto an out bridge. like I imagine him already terrified, having to watch as his dad drove into the bridge (after hitting another car off the road) knowing they would go through. he couldn't get out, he was stuck with the man who ruined his life in his last moments, as he drowned slowly in the ice cold water, knowing he would never see any of his family, his teachers, the cows, his daughter, ever again. he wouldn't be with Jackie anymore. his only respite would be that he would be with Maddie again. but even then, he was 14/15, he was jusb a baby, he had to be scared. Joseph might have had a lot go wrong in his life, but he didn't want to die, not anymore at least, and his life was taken from him by his scum father just when he got it back together.

the there's Mr. Hurd, I feel so bad for that man. he loved Joseph, even if they don't talk a lot about the parents, they talk about him enough for me to know Joseph was his son the second he saw him. even when Joseph tried to avoid his love, to distance himself from the family, to deny himself connection, Mr. Hurd still saw him as his son. he had to watch as his son was taken away from him, with the hope that he would get him back, that they would catch his father and all would be well again, and could finally have the peace of knowing that man was behind bars. instead he had to carry his son's dead, freezing cold, soaking wet body from the pickup truck his dad bought with the money he got from practically selling Jupiter (Joseph's daughter) to the adoption agency. he had to come to terms with the fact he failed to protect his son, that he let him be taken away in hopes it would protect both of his sons (he let Joseph lead his father away so he would leave jack, the younger son, behind) and it got one of them killed.

and don't even get me started on jack. this poor kid, he loved Joseph, like he said, they weren't just friends, they were brothers. despite being younger, he was protective of Joseph, getting into fights for him, going into frozen rivers for him, walking to school everyday instead of taking the bus so he didn't walk alone, damn near giving up his friends for Joseph, insisting that he was his brother and not a freak or a nut job or any other cruel name the world threw at him. he loved Joseph, in the pure, whole hearted, sincere way a little kid loves their big brother. he looked up to him, he had his back and knew Joseph had his, they were best friends all the while. and Jack now lives with the fact that Joseph died to save him, that he gets to watch Jupiter grow, to do all the things Joseph should have, to just see her, while he never will. he literally helped lower his brothers casket "into our family, by the high white pines", like please, have mercy on me.

this book breaks me every time, but I'm still it's bitch, crawling back against and again go go through that heart break.

#people like him #somebody sedate me #this book hurts me every. fucking. time #and no one in my life wants to hear about it #Orbiting Jupiter #joseph brook #deserved better #Mr. Canton should have jumped in to the river snd saved him #even if it killed him #especially after how he treated Joseph #literally told jack not to hang around with #in regards to his 14 year old used. abused. exploited. and greiving foster brother for simply existing #he treated him like actual shit #like grow up and stop bullying/harassing/damn near abusing children. your literally 3x his age. your a full grown adult #its embarrassing

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cassolotl · 11 months

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I may be asleep

I've been watching 1899, which has some full-on creepy unreality vibes. I'm sort of on holiday, so when I look out of the window the view is unfamiliar. We've been experiencing a heatwave here for coming up to two months now. And today I've had (I'm still having) a migraine, which makes my head a bit swimmy, and I've had a nap about that, and in combination I feel a little bit unreal myself.

Yesterday we had a few showers of rain for the first time in many weeks. For the UK this is very weird, I'm sure you know that we're known for our precipitation.

This evening, the sun is starting to set. I'm sitting in an unfamiliar window, with a view of some sports fields, and for at least an hour now a flock of seagulls has been grazing in this sports field. Every now and again one will land and another one will take off, but generally there have been about 15 seagulls, just milling around several feet away from each other and apparently ignoring each other, but moving in the same direction together anyway, waddle waddle waddle, peck peck, waddle waddle.

And the reason I noticed was because I was sitting on the sofa, and I glanced out of the window and realised that part of the view had vanished. Some fog is rolling in, and I know all the things are there but it's like some big solid unmovable things are being disappeared.

I'm thinking about yesterday, when I looked out of the window, and the ground was dry, but I said aloud, "it feels like it might rain," and then within five minutes there was the first shower of rain in weeks, so short but so welcome. How did I know? And then later in the evening, it was still baking hot so we had the windows open but it was dark, and I breathed in and could smell that after-rain smell, and I could smell it before I could hear the raindrops. It's an incredible smell, hardwired into us from the dawn of humanity to help us survive by finding water. Smelling the first rain after a long, hot, dry period is a full body experience like nothing else. And since then I've been thinking about how I'm sitting here in my pristine luxury holiday accommodation, breathing in That Smell, and having the exact same emotions and sensations that my ancestors did thousands of years ago, people who would not recognise the flash bastard cars that I can see through this window as I watch the fog engulf whole buildings like they're nothing.

I'm looking at the green field with its incidental flock of grazing seagulls, where in the daytimes humans gather to play unproductively like they've played unproductively for thousands of years, and I think about how huge swathes of the forests of the world are literally burning to the ground or being razed by humans for imaginary numbers that they don't need, and my gaze wanders to the flash bastard cars parked under my window, and I just want to go down there with a crowbar and smash the hell out of them. I could happily never see another car moving ever again.

This morning I dreamt of a room in a dilapidated house being consumed by invisible mould that was toxic to the touch, and I was trying to navigate it in order to destroy it without it destroying me first. The room was rotting around me. I often have strange, vivid, visceral dreams when I have a migraine coming.

The grass in the sports field is short, not because of the grazing seagulls but because of some humans moving numbers around on a screen. I'm thinking about my ancestors who could smell rain within moments of the first drops hitting the ground, and how most of the time I feel like a brain floating around in the head of a body that propels me around, but when I smell that smell I know that I both think and feel with my whole body, and if I met my ancestors from thousands of years ago we'd probably understand each other.

#my words #petrichor #my dreams

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honmyoseagull · 6 months

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WHUMPTOBER 2023 MASTERLIST

DARK REIGN BULLSNIKT: HISTORY OF A RELATIONSHIP FROM BEGINNING TO END. (INDIVIDUAL LINKS TO AO3 IN THE TITLES)

PART 1, prompts 1 to 8

SHOCK VALUE

The courtship started in an explosive way. Then comes the first date. Obviously, this is Daken and Bullseye, so don't expect rainbow and roses. More like torture and constant denial. And maybe the tiniest bit of longing.

No. 1: Safety Net | Swooning | “How many fingers am I holding up?”

No. 2: “I’ll call out your name, but you won’t call back.” Thermometer | Delirium | “They don't care about you.”

No. 3: “Like crying out in empty rooms; with no-one there except the moon.” “Make it stop.”

No. 4: “I see the danger, It’s written there in your eyes.” Shock | “You in there?”

No. 5: “You better pray I don't get up this time around.” Debris | Pinned Down | “It's broken.”

No. 6: “Do or die, you’ll never make me; Because the world will never take my heart.” Made to Watch | “It should have been me.”

No. 7: " “I paced around for hours on empty; I jumped at the slightest of sounds.” Radio Silence |

No. 8: “I’ve got soul, but I’m not a soldier.” Overcrowded ER | Outnumbered

PART 2, prompts 9 to 16

NOTHING PERSONAL

Fighting together (or against each other) is easy. Fucking, they learn to manage. Kinda. Since this is Daken and Bullseye we're talking about, they're rubbish at dealing with their feelings, though. And the more they run from them, the more it hurts. Literally. Also, it wasn't what they had planned with their day, this 'Meet the Family' thing.

No. 9: “Learning everything ain't what it seems, that's the thing about these days.” Polaroid | Mistaken Identity | “You're a liar.”

No. 10: “Can’t you see that you’re lost without me?” Broken Phone | Stranded | “You said you'd never leave.”

No. 11: Animal trap | Captivity | “No one will find you.”

No. 12: “I haven't slept in days but who's counting?” Red | Insomnia | “I’m up, I’m up.”

No. 13: Cold Compress | Infection | “I don’t feel so good.”

No. 14: “Feed me poison, fill me ‘till I drown.” Water Inhalation | “Just hold on.”

No. 15: Makeshift Bandages | Suppressed Suffering | “I’m fine.”

No. 16: “Would you lie with me and just forget the world?” Gurney | Flatline

PART 3, prompts 17 to 24

FOR OLD TIME'S SAKE

A learning curve. Dealing with blasts of the past. Blasting the past. Again. Learning to be two. They are who they are, they work (mostly) and they rock. (Even if the ground they tango on is rocky.) Now, if ghosts could stop crawling out of the woodwork, that would be nice.

No. 17: “You’re the lump in my throat and the knot in my chest.” Touch Aversion | “Leave me alone.”

No. 18: “Hit them harder.”

No. 19: Floral Bouquet (of tea (a)) | Psychological | “I’m not as stupid as you think I am.”

No. 20: Blanket | Found Family | “You will regret touching them.”

No. 21: “See the chains around my feet.” Restraints

No. 22: “They never saw us coming, ‘til they hit the floor.” Glass Shard | Vehicular Accident | “Watch out!”

No. 23: “It’s gonna get me by the end of the night.” Shadows | Stalking | “Who’s there?”

No. 24: “I’ve got a head full of chemicals; mouth full of ridicule.” Goodbye Note | Neglect | “I thought they were with you.”

PART 4, prompts 25 to 31

BREAKING EVEN

They need each other more than ever. Are ready to give and take more than ever. And yet, they still crack at the seams.

No. 25: “You’re not delivering a perfect body to the grave.” Storm | Buried Alive | “They’re not breathing!”

No. 26: “Sometimes I get so tired; I don’t even know myself.” Seeing Double | Working To Exhaustion | “You look awful.”

No. 27: Matches | Scars | “Let me see”

No. 28: “We might not make it to the morning; so go on and tell me now.” Bloody Knife | Sacrifice | “You'll have to go through me.”

No. 29: “I only sink deeper the deeper I think.” Scented Candle | “What happened to me?”

No. 30: “It’s okay, just to say, ‘I’m not okay’.” Borrowed Clothing | Bridal Carry |

No. 31: “I thought that I was getting better.” Emptiness | “Take it easy.”

(Fifth fic about Mourning the relationship based on the alternate prompts will be done when it will be done ^^;; Gimme a break. No, not bones.)

#whumptober #whumptober2023 #whumptober masterlist #forgot to press post this morning #masterlist #daken #bullseye

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twistofatale · 4 months

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Twist of a tale chapter 2 part 4

Frisk: Ummm so a water guy, a small frog, a star walking, a literally being I don't even know that is holding coffee, and now a fire literally embodiement man. * uses act and selects *

Grillby 8 attack and 12 defense the Guy who is a bounty hunter seems to be strong. He has a strange power and a flamethrower. He seems to be serious

Grillby: I will capture you * Uses his flamethrower to hit Frisk *

Frisk: * Dodges *

Grillby: You move like a lighting bolt but it's classic for a human

Frisk: Umm what do I do? * Uses act and selects pun* This seems to be quite a flamey situation

Grillby: This is no time for jokes * Uses a fireball attack *

Frisk: * Dodges it *

Grillby: You seem to be dodging well that is a problem

Frisk: * Uses act and selects pun * You seem to need to CHILL out

Grillby: It's not that cold.

Grillby: * Uses a attack that cannot be dodged *

Frisk: * Gets in a corner and shivers *

Frisk: * Gets hit by a fireball and then....* Huh nothing happened

Frisk: * Soul turns orange *

Grillby: Behold my Orange attack Now you are gonna be in HEAT

Frisk:....

Frisk: * Uses act and selects check *

Grillby 8 attack 5 defense the person ready to face you with Heat soul magic

Frisk: * Looks at Grillby but something seem different * Why do I feel like it's 95 degrees and why could I see more of me?

Frisk: * Uses act but gets a little bit confused *...um * Uses npn

Frisk: What do you call a skeleton mean? A boney guy

Grillby: 😠

Frisk: 😕

Grillby: * Uses a fireball attack that comes from the east and burst from the west *

Frisk: * Dodges a bit but gets hit by 5 * 8/23 hp * Uses item and selects dog * 23/23

* A fireball circle comes as a healing attack *

Frisk: * Uses act and selects pnu * Why was the skeleton so mad. Because it was bone-tired of waiting so long

Grillby:....

💢

Grillby: * Uses a fireball that bounces back and forth everywhere *

Frisk: * Dodges but gets hit one time * 15/23 hp

Frisk: * Uses act and selects pndu * Why was the skeleton so RIBBED?

Grillby: 😡

Grillby: * Uses a fireball attack that is increased by size *

Frisk: * Dodges faster *

Frisk: That was big....* Uses act and selects nupppy * Why was the skeleton

so rude to the guy who wasn't able to lift up a lift the weight? The Skeleton said " He needed to put in some more BACKBONE that's all "

Grillby: That's it...

Grillby: * Gets distracted and gestures a lot at a pole *

Frisk: * Uses Mercy and flees * Bye bye

Grillby: COME OVER HERE

Grillby: * Chases Frisk *

Frisk: * Runs *

Grillby: * Starts flying *

Frisk: * Runs * Is he using his flamethrower....

Grillby: I WILL CAPTURE YOU

Grillby: * Uses his flamethrower to capture Frisk from getting to the other path *

Frisk: * Waits until the flames go away and goes threw it when it's gone * Bye

Frisk: * Runs fast *

Grillby: I JUST WANT MY G

Frisk: I don't have your G

Grillby: Your my G you have my bounty

Grillby: Stop being annoying

Grillby: Stop trying to escape- * Gets hit by a brick wall *

Grillby: * Falls down * Oooooooo :(

Frisk: * Turns back ....* Are you ok?

Grillby: oooooooo

Frisk: * Touches him *

Grillby seems to be knocked out

Frisk: Alright let's go * Goes to the other room *

Frisk: Well look at this

Look at the walls and tell how old it is?

Frisk: Heh * Reads some more *

Do you know how old this writing is. Exactly it has been old as the beginning of monsters arrived here

Frisk: * Reads more * Umm what is this?

Things about the begining of the Home...it was a very important place

#undertale au #Frisk #Grillby #Asgore #twist of a tale

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thesinglesjukebox · 5 months

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DRAKE FT. SEXYY RED & SZA - "RICH BABY DADDY"

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Okay, we'll admit it. The main reason we came back is that, if we didn't, we would've gone a year where we didn't cover a Drake single, and that just felt so wrong...

[4.81]

Daniel Montesinos-Donaghy: This should be the slammiest of all the dunks. Drake -- you know him, he's well past his peak but can still afford a banger when he puts his account to it! Sexyy Red -- the summer was hers! SZA, the biggest star out! Miami bass music! The title! All the names are on the poster, promising a good ass time, but we never get there. It's a summer blockbuster pushed to October for a reason, and is way too frigid to get this writer's ass moving. First kid on YouTube to upload a [BASS BOOSTED] edit moves this joint up a point, although the bass was the whole fuckin' point in the first place. [3]

Tim de Reuse: You can call it "a consequence of being overplayed" or "so many people copied him that now he sounds boring" or whatever. All I know is that trying to think of words to describe Drake in December of 2023 is like pulling teeth. It's standard atmospheric pressure -- it's a medium-sized red delicious apple -- it's a glass of tap water. I am listening as hard as I can, and I cannot hear anything. [3]

Andrew Karpan: The first thing I think about when I think about "Rich Baby Daddy" is the uncredited voice of Jessica Domingo, because it's literally the first thing on there. Processed to sound almost as if being sung behind a waterfall, Domingo's voice registers at the very volume and pitch of distance, a recurring gesture for voices like these in the Drake oeuvre. The best part about these songs is that they are always the sum total of their parts, so they can really be appreciated like this; something Drizzy himself realized a while back too, when he started sorting and rearranging them for curatorial effect. In a sea of wobbly fashionable Miami bass, the bars he picks up here from Sexyy Red don't feel out of place next to his own unrelated internal monologue, nor next to the patched-in haunted refrain from SZA, a miracle get that impresses because it is impressive. His otherwise unexplained deliberate misreading of a decade-old Florence + the Machine record that acts as a kind of perplexing coda eventually begins to make sense too, if you listen to it a few hundred times like I did. [9]

Katherine St Asaph: In three years we're going to learn that this was originally a SZA solo track that Drake hijacked for himself, like Rihanna's recording of "Consideration", right? I need to believe this so I can justify this score to myself. [5]

Michelle Myers: It's a dark truth that many of Drake's best songs involved vampirically swagger-jacking some up-and-coming rapper with local buzz or a viral track. Here, he attempts to harness Sexyy Red's gloriously blunt charisma and ends up utterly upstaged. Red lets herself soften against a skittery, femme club beat, her voice crackling warmly as she interpolates her own damn song. SZA sounds like a 1996 album-cut hidden gem sped up and resurrected by a Zoomer with 15 million TikTok followers. And then there's fucking Drake, increasingly bitter and out-of-touch, having long lost whatever soft-hearted charm I saw in him a decade ago. His verses are the musical equivalent of thirtysomething white ladies who write songs about skinny jeans and side-parts, embarrassing for all of us. [6]

Taylor Alatorre: A soundtrack to the approaching millennial midlife crisis that's so candid in its thirsty stabbing at relevance that I can't help but cheer for it, or feel sorry for it, or both. On a formal level, "Rich Baby Daddy" is nowhere near as elegant as its obvious predecessors, "In My Feelings" and "Nice for What," but after repeat listening, that messiness, that feeling of being pulled in several different directions at once, starts to feel like a deliberate choice. The guest stars, who were recruited with that in mind, go even further by alternately supporting and undermining Drake's intended displays of mastery over female sexuality. Sexyy Red pays her requisite homage unflinchingly, with a leisurely cadence more suited for a block party than a marquee album, while SZA disrupts the prebuilt Madonna-whore duality by crashing out of the gate with "I need a dick and conversation," all while sounding like she's being launched on a lily pad toward the heavens. The strip-club-in-a-water-level sonics add some emotional texture to what would otherwise be an explosion of untrimmed id, somewhat easing the transition into the stupid-on-paper "post-nut clarity" outro. As laughable as that concept may be, it evokes the yearning post-adolescence of "old Drake" as much as the Florence interpolation does, and just like Mr. Last Name Ever himself, I can't call myself immune to the periodic desire to go back, back to 2009. [8]

Ian Mathers: I know we're not predisposed to like Fucking Drake around here, but the processing on his chorus vocals is the most off-putting I've heard in a while. And not because they've cranked the Auto-Tune or whatever up too far -- I've heard and loved more pronounced examples of that -- but because they've somehow managed to produce the world's deepest whine. At least he's barely here, ceding most of the track to a high-effort-for-low-reward Sexyy Red performance. SZA is much better but barely shows up, which is probably the right move. And then Fucking Drake comes back to just "sing" Florence + the Machine for a bit! Every bit of shit we've ever talked was justified. [2]

Tara Hillegeist: Not even Drake sounding the most alive and enjoying-himself and hands down the funniest guest bars anyone's ever contributed to a Drake chorus can fully save this song from the depths of antipathy carved into my psyche by several years of Fucking Drake too many, but credit where it's due: I haven't left a track from Degrassi's own Jimmy Brooks feeling this genuinely entertained by what I just heard since "Started from the Bottom". And that's impressive, considering this is a track where I had to hear him mumble-singing soulfully about the emotional impact of post-nut clarity. [6]

Will Adams: So many elements working against this -- abrupt instrumental breaks; SZA's verse sounding like it was pasted on with Elmer's; left-field Florence interpolation; Drake in general -- but Sexyy Red's hook is indelible. Sometimes that's all you need. [6]

Crystal Leww: "Shake that ass for Drake, now shake that ass for me" are some of the funniest instructions ever doled out on a Drake song, which is an accomplishment if you consider how long Drake has been around. Drake is essential to this song if only for those lines. [6]

Aaron Bergstrom: I am willing to consider shaking my ass for Sexyy Red. Under no circumstances will I shake my ass for Drake. [3]

Nortey Dowuona: Drake is a bad rapper. No matter what his stans, Lil Yachty, DJ Wackademics, or me in 2013 will tell you, dude is an inescapably clumsy, artless witless hack whose only talent is in co-opting more complex and dedicated art to make it more comfy and accessible to people who would never sincerely engage with what he does. Kanye has been sadder and more earnest. Phonte has been more honest and clever. Lauryn Hill did his whole schtick so well both he and Kanye keep riding off her songs. The only thing he had is that he made music that women liked, that spoke to women in a way it could never do so for dorks like us. And now he's making flat, wan Earl Sweatshirt songs for people who hate Earl and people who hate women period. Sexyy Red's verse is clumsy too, but it's charming and earnest, and the SZA verse is entrancing, vivid and stunning. The line "I got a feeling this is more than what we both say" contains more genuine worry, fear and hope than this hack has done in his whole career. Please, pretty please, buy SOS on vinyl, buy a record player, learn a trade, call your mom and tell her you love her, tell her you are so grateful for staying with you and loving you. Hell, click off this website. Just do not play a song where the most heterosexual man on the face of the earth tries to convince you that he can teach you to -- [3]

Joshua Minsoo Kim: I've spent the past few months thinking about lovers' rock and pagode romântico through the lens of bell hooks' idea of "loving Blackness as political resistance." It was "Rich Baby Daddy" that made me start doing the same for Atlanta bass. Drake seems as good enough a launchpad for all this ruminating -- how often have I seen men refer to his "softer" songs as being "for the girls"? How much of romance is coded across gender lines? Of course, Drake is a manipulative shithead, and it's Sexyy Red who provides the most loving lyric we've heard in any of his songs: an ostensible call to embrace something approaching bisexuality. Too bad Drake opts for another beat-switch gimmick as an excuse to exert his fragile masculinity. Like, how are you gonna follow up, "Shake that ass for Drake, now shake that ass for me" with "You ain't even know how to suck it right." [5]

Brad Shoup: I know how this sounds, but this needed... more Drake? More of the first-verse Drake, anyway: skipping and bobbing, fully devoted on a threeway Miami bass ballad that has exhaling synths straight out of Cupid & Psyche 85. Hell yes, give me all you got. Instead, he dips until the beat switch gives him something properly sluggish. How do you fuck up a verse that interpolates Florence and uses the phrase "post-nut clarity"? He was positively panting earlier; now he's talking about sex like he's issuing a Q3 performance review. [5]

Alfred Soto: Drake drawls shit like "You ain't even know how to suck it right" like a PE coach in a locker room and disappears to let Sexyy Red shout undeserving orders. Nice life! [2]

Jacob Sujin Kuppermann: Here, Drake turns his complete inertness into an advantage: he does his best Sexyy Red impression here and sings some truly brain-dead riffs on Florence + the Machine, but otherwise abandons his own song in favor of his more interesting guests. It's an interesting move from a guy once known for using features to take over songs completely -- interesting more in the meta-pop context than in the song itself, of course, but a decade and a half in to our coverage of Fucking Drake, we ought to be finding new angles when we can. [5]

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#drake #sexyy red #sza #music #music writing #music reviews #music criticism #the singles jukebox #Youtube

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fireemblems24 · 1 year

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Fire Emblem Engage 15 - 17

Spoilers for FE Engage 15+. Though, this game is way better at gameplay than it is with story, but the characters are all likable so I'm good.

I really appreciate how different all the nations and their castles and interiors look in this game. I adore Three Houses, but one thing I really wish they did was have more variety in the weather, landscapes, etc . . . This game nailed it.

Solm, a desert country, having waterfalls in their palace is such a good touch. Not only does it show that water would be valued in a place like this, but it's also flaunting the royal family's wealth and power, like a palace should.

I'm not sure I'll ever warm up to Veyle. She's a walking moe cliche. Mind control. Innocent cute loli type otherwise. But, hey, I didn't like Hortensia at one point but her VA sold me in the last chapter.

Does anyone else find it a bit funny that we're a dragon worshipped as a god with influence over the land and this is a good thing. It's like a giant middle finger to those people who tried to rewrite the entire history of the franchise around a certain character's not-so-great view of dragons.

Also worth noting that Brodia invading Elusia is seen as a universal bad and something Diamant's supports resolve around stopping. Just putting that out there.

Ivy/Diamant feels cannon to me. It makes too much sense.

Kagetsu is so awkward. I love him.

I feel like I just took half of my units and got them with level 5 with Byleth. Mentorship is too good not to stick on a few people, and it's cheap too.

I love how literally no one takes Hortensia seriously. It makes an otherwise grating character kind of cute.

Holy shit, Merrin laid it on thick for Chloe. Honestly, don't blame her. But she is not subtle, gave Chloe flowers, called her beautiful, then asked her to dinner. Homegirl's even willing to try and stomach Chloe's . . . uh "food" choices. And Chloe thinks Merrin is like a cool knight out of a fairy tale. 100% new ship happening.

So far I like AlearxAlfred, IvyxDiamant, CelinexAlcryst, and now ChloexMerrin.

Alfred and Boucheron's support went exactly like I imagined it would. Poor dude. Alfred would lose his mind meeting Dimitri, someone who's abnormally strong despite not looking like a hulk, but is still shredded.

Alfred is probably the only person in the world who would've be offended or weirded out when someone asked to lick the flowers he's wearing and also offer to get licked later. Otherwise, Bunet is weird.

Seadall is VERY hot. He's like Sothe and Navarre had a baby. Or like Navarre put Sothe's clothes on.

F!Alear confronting Veyle again had really good voice acting. As long as we ignore that everyone just stood around instead of attacking her. Gratned, it was un-brainwashed Veyle who wasn't attacking so I'll let it go. Maybe.

Doing Ike's prologue is making me feel things. The nostalgia is real.

I love so, so much that one of Byleth's canned dialogue in Somniel is "Nothing to report!" and his paralogue is the Holy Tomb. And most of his dialogue was about Rhea, lol.

Eirika, my beloved, she's finally coming to me 😭😭😭😭😭😭 thank you, Rosado and Goldmary.

Rosado and Goldmary are both amazing. I want to use both, but I can't. There's just no room for both. But I think I'll use Goldmary because she's a bit better out of the box. She takes self-absorbed to hysterical new levels lol.

Anyone else think it's dumb that in Classic your units can die in the ring paralogues? It's like, oh bummer, Lyn/Corrin/etc just killed my healer who's the little sister of my mage, but our bonds are now stronger!

It feels extra sad seeing Firene get attacked. It's such a peaceful kingdom. It's nice to see Alfred back in the spotlight though. His lines about how these are just farmers and not soldiers reminds me a lot of Dimitri after Lonato.

I love how often the villains chit-chat with the heroes before and after battles, but like they never attack or threaten each other.

So mean that they're making Ivy and Hortensia fight their own dad :(

So I didn't start ch 17 after seeing the dialogue because it was too late and I didn't realize it, but I'm seeing the world map now and it's on fire :(

FYI, put Corrin on Alear. She/he can use all of the Dragon Vein terrain bonuses. I know most classes are locked to one type or another. I don't know if there's any other exceptions like Alear, but man I'm loving using this ring on Alear.

Alfred just did 5 criticals in a row. You think enemies would wise up and quit attacking him, but no. He is pissed off right now.

Alfred deserved that MVP. Boy put in the work.

Haha, they lost a ring. Wonder who I got back? And Veyle threw us another one? Nice! She got some points back despite being a character archtype I'm not about.

SIGURD! Fuck yes. Everyone's getting Canto. And Lief. Less exciting, but I'll take it. Jugdral boys are back.

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