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cycat4077 · 2 years

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Hello. So I have this thought that maybe Sonny Carisi is comforting his best friend after another awful date or break up. She's upset because she thought she be settled, married and have children by now. He also thought he'd be settled etc as well.

So they jokingly make this deal that if they aren't both married by a certain age, they will get married.

Totally makes her laugh and kind of cheers her up. But he's totally crushing on her. Time passes they are both still very much single and are now both much still crushing on each other.

So now they are like what should we do? It was a joke right. He doesn't feel that way....

I'm sooooo sorry that this took so long to reply to. I really wanted to write a little ficlet for it and even started it...but I got super busy with school stuff that I lost motivation for this. So, I scrapped the original and jotted this down. Hope it's okay! I really love this idea and think Sonny would be the mushiest romantic over something like this ♥

When you call Sonny up he's there in record time. He's always been there for you and a bad breakup is no different. Being with the same person for nearly 3 years really got you thinking about the future. Marriage, kids and nearing 30, they seemed like reasonable things to think about.

But Sonny reassures you that it's not your fault. That the guy you were dating was manipulative and tried to dictate your life too much and that you shouldn't feel ashamed for standing up for yourself and leaving.

Sonny wants nothing more than to blurt out his feelings for you. He's the one person who has supported you unconditionally for years - through the good and the bad - and it's through that close friendship that Sonny knows he loves you. Except, now isn't the right time to say it. You are emotionally vulnerable and he would never want to take advantage of that vulnerability for his own gain. Besides, would you even like him like that if you had a clear head?

Instead, Sonny simply listens intently and reassures you of your decisions. You tell him about your fear of getting older and not finding someone to settle down with, which tugs at his heart strings even more.

Finally the tears turn to laughter and you blurt out what's meant to be a joke: "Let's make a deal, Son," you smirk. "If neither of us are married in say, 7 years? Then we marry each other, 'kay?"

"Why 7 years?" questions Sonny.

"That's the part you're hung up on?!" you giggle.

Suddenly the chuckles devolve into something different. There's a tension in the air. The space between the two of you suddenly feels heated. You don't know what it is but you can't help but look into Sonny's eyes which seem somehow even more alive.

You abruptly avert your gaze and quietly thank him for being there for you. Sonny reiterates that there is no thanks needed. He will always be there for you. The two of you share an embrace before he leaves for the night.

The years pass by and the two of you devote yourselves to your careers; Sonny even becomes an ADA. This new focus causes you to see less and less of each other, but as the old saying goes, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Sure you try dating, but no one seems to fit together with you like Sonny does. And it suddenly dawns on you that you had made a promise 7 years prior.

Your heart thunders thinking about it. All these years, you realize that it was him you liked - loved. He's the person who can make you smile and can make you feel whole when you've been torn down. Plus, his hugs are the absolute best thing in the universe!

The question is, does he feel the same? If he hasn't said anything after all these years it must be because he thinks of you as only a friend...right?

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Sonny hears a knock on his apartment door and jogs over to answer it. He wasn't expecting company and had been neck deep in reviewing the legalities of his latest case.

But it's you. Immediately he opens the door and asks if everything is okay. Afterall, your infrequent visits are normally scheduled into your busy lives.

You simply say that you need to talk.

No questions asked, he welcomes you inside. Busy as you two may be, if it is important you are there for one another.

"Sonny," you begin softly. "Do you remember that breakup I had 7 years ago?" He nods affirmatively. "Well, we made a promise that day - I guess it was kind of a joke, but it's been on my mind lately."

Sonny swallows thickly. He knows the exact promise you are referring to. It's haunted him for 7 years.

"I - I guess we're 7 years older and both still single."

Sonny's heart feels like it's about to beat right out of his chest.

"I not here to demand we get married or anything crazy like that," you play with your shirt hem nervously. "But I think I need to tell you something and I hope it won't change our friendship. I - um, well...It's you, Son. It's always been you. I wasted so much time looking for something that had been right in front of my nose the whole time. There's no one I care more about and no one who makes me feel more cared about than you. I think I'm in lo-"

"I love you, too," blurts Sonny, unable to hide the brightest of smiles.

#my fanfic #an ask! in my askbox #misscharlielulu #sonny carisi #sonny carisi x reader

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saturnsstufff · 3 years

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Awsamdude/Technoblade- Rumor Has It

For my beloved @sugarandspicebutnonice

Warnings: sexual innuendo

Techno was a great Prince. He worked hard to keep his family's name in good graces. All of Phil's boys worked hard to keep their names held high with respect. Tommy was known around for keeping sprits high, any ball or formality with Tommy was always known as the best to attend.

His older brother Wilbur was a skilled artisan with music. Always teaching and making new sounds like it wasn't any struggle. Anyone could find him out in the court yard with a guitar in hand. Humming and singing a casual song.

The eldest, Technoblade was a skilled swordsman and statists. Anytime he was called into a meeting, the others shuddered knowing he would trump them all. He made swinging a sword look like art. Trust me, you would know.

You had a wonderful relationship with techno for a long time. But sadly, you both had parted away from each other. Of course, it was on all good terms, He was more concerned with the kingdom rather than establishing a strong and sturdy relationship.

You, being a knight- fully understood. But you also choose to be a bit selfish about it. You truly wished for him to give you a bit of attention at least when together. He could be such a ladies man when he choose to in public, yet when it came to the two of you he just became closed off and anything but warm. Even behind closed doors it was lacking some spark of passion.

So you both agreed it was best to let things lie.

But what left you with a sour taste was how quickly he moved on.

You would give him the benefit of the doubt of course, he was a well known man. She could have been someone he had met previously, and during your break off she was there to talk it out with him.

She, she ain't real

But something about her screamed fake, her smile and movements seemed too thought through. Her words all laced with a sickening sweet hum, it also didn't help she giggled at basically anything techno said.

Plenty of times you sat with the general and talked about how dense she came off. Respectfully, you had assumed Tech would have went for a well educated woman such as yourself. But after seeing her- you wondered if that type was in short supply.

Anything she did, she would just bat her eyes and he was wrapped around his finger.

It honestly made Sam and you laugh.

She ain't gonna be able to love you like I will

As much as you started to loathe the woman, techno wasn't yours anymore. Thus you started getting closer to Sam. Both of you connecting on how your past relationships had been. Well you were casted aside, Sam was flatly cheated on.

Of course knowing that, your heart ached for him. Sam was a well educated and handsome man with a heart of gold. Respectfully his whole job was centered on protecting and serving the people.

Jumping into a relationship was Sam was like practically nothing. You promised him all the love in the world, and just like you, he promised to give you the same.

And love each other you did.

She is a stranger

Techno did see you grow close to his general, and honestly it didn't set well with him.

He liked the woman he was with, but he also had known you since childhood. You both had played within the court yard plenty of times to claim it as your own.

Sam didn't do that with you. Sam had only started to know you when you joined the ranks.

Techno would often catch himself watching you and Sam spar. His eyes would watch as Sam's hand grabbed at your waist, gripping your hips and using his own to throw you off balance. He hated how close your bodies were.

At one point he couldn't help but pull you aside and ask why you let him touch you. But that conversation drove spikes through his heart. "How can you just let him touch you like that?! He’s practically all over your body! You wouldn't let me touch you like that- and You and I have history" he yelled not believing what he saw.

When your face twisted in front of him into disgust, he thought you were almost joking. "The hell is with you?! I'm not your girlfriend! Or don't you remember!?" You yelled at him. Lightly shoving him back from you. "Don't tell me where he can, and cannot touch me" You sneered. In all his years he never saw you so heated.

Sure, she's got it all

Truthfully you saw techno leave you as a drop to his pride. He dropped a knight for a soft noble girl. A girl babied all her life. You knew as soon as she was exposed to blood she would have fainted like a goat in pasture. But in the end of the day, you weren't sleeping with her so what did it matter?

But, baby, is that really what you want

Arguments between Technoblade and you had become more frequent. Sam let you duke it out, he knew he had no place to tell you to leave it be. Sam also didn't appreciate how fast Techno jumped onto your case about finding someone else.

Although he knew it irked you about Techno moving on, you never got in his face about it like he would. Sam viewed this as your way of showing you were the bigger person.

On one particular day he found the arguments amusing. Techno had started up again when Sam was publicly teasing you. Well techno found your back talking distasteful, Sam relished with how powerful you were.

Listening to techno ramble off on his pathetic reasonings left you a laughing mess, even to the point you cut his argument off. "Bless your soul, you've got you're head in the clouds, she's going to use you like a fool!" You laughed in his face.

His jaw tightened as he spat at your words, pointing at Sam. "You made a fool out of you General. She doesn't even love you- Your wasting your time on a-" at Tech's words you couldn't help but push back even harder for him targeting Sam.

"How dare you say that. Your common penny is getting around more than I- And, boy, she's bringing you down!" You called out. Putting a finger to his chest. "She made your heart melt- But its all a lie!" You didn't stop their, you had more to say to him. "She thinks your all that- a fairy tale prince to save her dreams! But you're cold to the core" you said to him. Causing him to back off.

"Besides. Now rumor has it she ain't got your love anymore"

Rumor has it, ooh, Rumor has it, ooh, Rumor has it, ooh

You weren't lying. Their were plenty of rumors going around saying she was sleeping with others besides Techno. Although Sam and you had no proof to this. Your hunches seemed right.

On one day, Sam had left for a out of village meeting. You really didn't mind, you trusted him enough and knew he wouldn't do anything behind your back.

But sadly you wished to go with him. Techno had asked for you to join him for a round of chess. Something you both greatly enjoyed when together. But now you knew there was meaning to the game.

Sure enough when you sat with in in the court yard, he brought up Sam.

"You know he is much older than you..." he said as he moved his knight across the board.

"And She is half your age" you said flatly. Picking your pawn up. "But I'm guessing that's the reason that you stayed" you said moving it to where you pleased. His brows drew together in slight anger. But he did try and keep his calm.

"I heard you've been missing me" he said, a small smirk growing on his lips. He found pride within those rumors. Knowing that you still supposedly whined and withered about for him.

Of course, you knew he was gravely mistaken.

"You've been telling people things that you shouldn't be" you said carefully. Knowing he was probably behind the rumors somehow.

Techno took this moment to see if he still had a effect on you. Usually during chess you both would flirt a bit. So naturally, he took the chance. "Like when we creep out and she ain't around" he said bemused, your face twisting into disgust again.

"I sneak out to see Sam... besides Haven't you heard the rumors" you said moving your queen. When he didn't respond you laughed. He didn't even under stand. "Bless your soul, you've got your head in the clouds" you said, fully amused within the moment.

"C'mon darlin... I know you fell hard for me when we started dating..." he cooed to you. Your eyes darting up like daggers.

"You made a fool out of me" you said to him. Wanting to get your point across. Well he moved his pawns about you took your moment to explain how you felt. "You make me sick to my stomach.. And, boy, you're bringing me down" you said softly. Smiling to yourself slowly. "You made my heart melt, yet I'm cold to the core" You said, moving your queen to take his knight. Your eyes slyly skimmed over his. His lost knight now within your fingers.

"But rumor has it I'm the one you're leaving her for"

After that game, rumors and tensions soared wildly. Sam at one point thought you were back and evolved with Techno again. Of course you explained to him the situation, which thankfully he understood and apologized for trusting second hand mouths.

Rumor has it, ooh, Rumor has it, ooh, Rumor has it, ooh

All of these words whispered in my ear

But Techno's mood plummeted fast...

Tell a story that I cannot bear to hear

A engagement, specifically Sam and yours. Oh how his blood boiled at the news. He thought his hands all over you was bad, but now... now you would take Sam's name in law. You would he his wife. Not Techno's.

Just 'cause I said it, it don't mean that I meant it

Because of this news he didn't hesitate to run and find you. More than hell-bent on giving you a piece of his mind. He wanted to make it clear you couldn't marry him.

People say crazy things

He didn't care what people would say, he wanted to claim you again. Techno didn't want anyone else touching you. He especially didn't want Him touching you.

Just 'cause I said it, don't mean that I meant it

Even if within the past week he yelled hurtful things to you, he hoped you would understand he just wanted to protect you from unworthy suitors. Sam couldn't provide for you like Techno could. Sam was a general born from a farmer. Technoblade was to be crowned king.

Just 'cause you heard it

So their he stormed. Heading to the stables, knowing full well that's where you were. His anger was fuming. He couldn't wait to shove it in Sam's face that Techno wouldn't let you marry him.

But lets just say Technoblade was the one left speechless in the end.

Rumor has it, ooh, Rumor has it, ooh Rumor has it, ooh,

Especially when he slammed the door open to the stables and saw Sam's body covering yours, your legs around his waist in a tight hold well he was buried deep inside you.

But rumor has it he's the one I'm leaving you for

#technoblade x reader #awsamdude x reader #techno x reader

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80s-roger · 5 years

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when love must die: joe mazzello

summary: you're married to joe mazzello for three years; the best three years of your life and the previous three dating and later being engaged. however, since day one of your marriage, you try for a successful pregnancy but they all end up failed. your most successful pregnancy was an IVF one, but the tube baby didn't make it at the last day of the first trimester.

portray: current joe obv, female reader at 30.

words: 2306

warnings: unprotected sex, fluff, domestic violence experience, argument.

note: there will be part two.

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Joe was at the set, he'd be back home soon for dinner. The table was ready and you got yourself a pregnancy test. You ran to the bathroom upstairs to finally find out. Plus or minus? You didn't have your period since the last time you had sex with him -almost two months ago- and you were excited if it was because of a fetus growing inside you.

You took the test, sitting impatiently at the toilet's cap, waiting for the result. You wished it was a plus symbol, meaning you're pregnant. Unfortunately, it had just a horizontal line. You were disappointed again. Crying loudly because your husband wasn't home, so you finally had the time to let it all out. You've been praying days and nights to have a baby. It's unfair for you when other women throw their newborns at the litter.

Suddenly the door opens fastly and you were scared to death. You got relieved as you saw Joe looking at you with terror in his eyes.

"What happened?" He asked terrified sitting next to you, placing you in his big arms.

You didn't say a word. The tears wouldn't stop running. He erased them with his fingers, until he noticed the test next to you. He looked at you without saying a word. He took it at his hand and saw it was negative. He threw it at the bin and pulled you closer, rubbing your back.

"It's going to happen. Don't worry." He whispered.

Thankfully, he was really supportive on this. He wants to be a dad as much as you want to be a mum but he is patient and never stresses you on this. You've seen your doctor and he says it's just your nature. Nature? A woman's nature after unprotected sex, is getting pregnant, having a fetus growing at her uterus for nine months and later having it in her arms, breastfeeding it. You can't try forever. There will be someday, you'll reach menopause.

Joe and you walked at the kitchen, ready to eat your dinner. He places you at your chair but you had no will on eating.

"Baby you gotta eat." He said after taking a bite of his portion.

"I'm not hungry..." You sobbed, placing your dish away from you.

"It's probably too early for the test to know..." He mentioned the test, trying to make you feel better.

"It's been almost two months, not two days." You commented, looking at him. Your dinner stopped. It was just talk.

"I'm trying to help here. I know it's hard, but we'll make it." He placed his palm over your hand.

"It's easier said than done Joe. Do you have any idea how terrible I feel?" You whimpered. "We're trying for three years, we'd have a baby by now." You stuttered.

"It's fine Y/N... I'm patient enough to make space for your emotions." he explained.

"Why are you even married with me? I'm nothing but an obstacle to your new family." You pledged. It was so sad.

"You're my family. What are you talking about?" He sat on his knees, kissing your hands. He proposed to you on one knee. Good memories.

"But you want kids. And we lost the older one. Remember?" You reminded him. His eyes darkened.

"I remember. But that does not prevent me from not being with you. I can't even imagine my life without you." He implied and caressed your cheek.

"I love you Joe." You silently wailed and he leaned closer to you.

"And I love you." He toned. "Listen, how about going upstairs and lay? I'll be there in a few, I have to fix the table." He smiled and you nodded.

You closed the door behind your bedroom, changed to your nighty and laid on the bed, calling your mum.

"Hey mum." You said.

"Hello darling, how are you?" She asked. You didn't reply. "Um.." she started. "You tried again, didnt you?" She knew about your lack of fertility.

"Yes, it was negative." You answered.

"What did he say?" She somehow didn't really like Joe, but Joe didn't give a shit.

"He's nothing but a supportive and patient husband." You nod your head feeling great for being his wife.

"And what are you going to do now?" She curiously asked.

"Try again, I guess..." You implored.

"But you've seen that sex won't help you get pregnant." she decreed.

"And where are you getting with it? Doing medical procedures in cold laboratories?" You gasped.

"Keep that method, it almost happened. Your husband has money to afford it." she had the nerve to instruct.

"It's not only his money, but mine too. We both work. We'll both raise this baby." You corrected her. "I just called you to let you know it was one more unsuccessful try. You won't know about it by the day you'll see me with a baby in my arms." You elaborated and hang up your phone without hearing her answer.

Five minutes later, Joe came to your bedroom. He took off his clothes and went inside your bathroom, taking a shower. It didn't last long and he was next to you, on his towel, around his waist. He sat next to you when his big palms caressed your stomach. That move made you whimper.

"Don't cry, it'll happen." He really is an optimist person. He wiped off some of your tiny tears ready to escape from your eyes. "I don't know if it's the appropriate time, but do you want us to try again? Or should we go for in vitro fertilization?" He gently asked.

"I don't want IVF, I don't feel comfortable there. Only with you." You disclosed and he came closer to your face kissing you gently.

His big hands caressed you everywhere. You looked so tiny beneath him, however it made you feel important. Your hands kept touching his attractive biceps until he removed the towel around him, staying naked on top of you. With one move, he removed your nighty and massaged your breasts, when his face leaned towards your neck, giving you soft kisses. He finally removed your underwear and trusted inside you. His moans were so deep and his eyes locked in you. Your arms, around his neck and his back, giving small nail scratches.

"I love you Joe." You moaned between the thrusts you received.

"I love you too y/n ..." He softly said when you felt him moving deeper. He knew every inch of your body. Literally. He knew how deep you could take him and how much. "Babe, are you close?" He asked making sure you'd finish too.

"Yes..." You moaned kissing his lips.

"Alright, because I am." he caressed your cheek and his moves were sudden and slow, which means he was done inside you, possibly fertilizing you. You came together and after removing himself from you, he wore his underwear and helped you get your clothes too. He covered you with the layers and hugged you tight.

"I hope this time it's happening." You said at his arms.

"Fingers crossed." He smiled at you.

You were the little spoon tonight; Joe was hugging you from behind and you felt protected. This is how he makes you feel everytime you're together. You're just made for each other.

You woke up in the middle of the night, sweating and frightened of your nightmare. You stood up from your bed crying loudly. Joe next to you grabbed a bottle of water, you always have at your stand, offering it. He gently rubbed your back telling you to calm down, it was just a bad dream, it's not reality. But what if it really is? What if you really are infertile? You were on the edge of going insane. He pulled you closer, playing with your hair so you'd eventually return to your sleep.

The next morning, Joe wasn't next to you. He probably went downstairs, making breakfast. You had to get ready and see him at the kitchen. But you heard speeches coming from there as you walked the stairs so you decided to eavesdrop. There was your younger brother Ben talking with him. That's how you actually met each other. Ben set you up.

"How's things?" Ben asked. You didn't really talk to him about you and Joe but Joe does. They are like best friends.

"Terrible." Joe admitted and Ben looked at him confused. "I mean, I love her but we keep failing on growing our family." He explained and took a sip of his coffee.

"How long have you been trying?" He asked preoccupied.

"Since the wedding night, counting three years." He declared.

"I've heard my mother talking with y/n about it but I didn't really pay attention. However, how do you feel about it?" Ben questioned.

"I can't blame y/n about this, it's happening to many women but I also can't see myself without kids." He opened up to his best friend. You instantly felt heart broken.

"And then what? Will you divorce her because of that? She loves you more than anything Joe." Ben explained.

"I can't divorce her. She's my everything. But I also don't want to keep trying. I want to have babies in this big house as soon as possible. I don't want to age." He shook his head broken hearted.

"You do feel sad about it. Do you have any idea how sadder it is for her? A baby is a bless." Ben protested. You wanted to hear more. They'd stop the conversation if you appeared in the kitchen.

"I'm not pressuring her. When we did the IVF, we were sure it'd happen but it died too. How many possibilities does she have when she gets older? Less than they already are." Joe questioned himself. Ben didn't say a thing.

You decided to get inside the kitchen, pretend like you heard nothing.

"Good morning sis." Ben smiled at you.

"Morning Ben." You neutrally said, faking what you thought before. You couldn't hide your anger at Joe's confession.

"Good morning my love." Joe attempted kissing you but you backed off. Both of them noticed your reaction and stared each other confused. "So um, are you okay?" He checked on you.

"I'm perfect." You lied. You're dying inside.

"Maybe I should get going." Ben felt the tense and had to leave.

"Yes you should. I'll take you to the door." You raised you eyebrow at him.

You were with Ben at the door and Joe eavesdropped without being noticeable.

"The next time you'll talk with Joe about my lack of fertility, I'll murder you." You threatened him.

"You know you can't do it sis." He joked.

"I can't, but I can cut your balls and you'll see who's the weak." You aggressively said to him and he didn't say a word.

"Damn sis, okay." He was defeated and left your home leaving you with your husband.

He came out of the kitchen guilty. But it wasn't his fault. You just wanted to throw your weight somewhere else.

"You heard us?" He silently asked.

"Are you joking? Of course I did. Is that what you talk about with your friends outside?" You angrily argued.

"No! He asked me! Besides he's your brother, he can know about it." he pointed out.

"I don't want him to know! I won't even let my mother know from now!" You attacked.

"Fine! But he's my best friend! I want to talk to someone! Why don't you let me do it? I never pressure you so stop pressuring me!" He shouted leaving you at a staring shock.

"I want you to leave right now Joe." You silently closed your eyes pointing at the door. "And tell everyone we can't have kids because I am infertile." You were so ironic.

"Where will I go? Are you kicking me out of my home?" He concede.

"Yes I do and don't come back. I'm angry." You walked inside the kitchen and he followed you.

"But you'll be over it by evening." He calmly said.

"No I fucking won't!" You threw him a glass and it accidentally fell down at his feet, with some pieces of glass hurting his arms.

"You arrogant bitch!" He yelled coming to your place menacingly. "You want to kill me now or what?" He raised your hand on you and covered yourself with your arms, afraid if he'd hit you. Flashbacks of domestic violence crossed your mind. Your alcoholic father hitting you in every chance he'd get.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, sorry!" You sat down at the floor, crying loudly and hiding yourself, so he wouldn't harm your body but your arms.

After Joe finding out what he was doing he shockingly moved his arms and sat in front of you, getting you inside his arms. He started crying too.

"I am sorry y/n, I didn't mean to do it! I'm just so sad." He whimpered at your neck.

"Please Joe, divorce me. I can't keep making you unhappy." You cried at his chest, avoiding the eye contact.

"I can't do it. I love you, I'm literally attached to you, mentally, emotionally and physically. I just can't." He kissed you. "We'll find some way to fix it. We can do it, I know." He silently cried, hiding his voice cracks.

#BoRhap #bohemian rhapsody #joe mazzello #joe mazzello smut #joe mazzello x female reader #smut-prompts #joe mazzello x y/n #john deacon #roger taylor #ben hardy #queen #gwilym lee #brian may #rami malek #freddie mercury

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rnufharose · 4 years

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Chapter 17

Words: 2k

Warnings: None

︻デ═一 ♥

"Appa!" Jiyoung exclaimed, running toward her father to give him a tight hug. "You're okay!"

He knelt before her, opening his arms and once he held her close, he didn't want to let go. "Of course I'm okay," he said. "I should be the one worrying about you. You must have been frightened."

"A little," she admitted. "But Jooheon oppa and Haneul unnie saved me."

The middle-aged man looked away from his daughter and toward Jooheon, who gave him a deep bow, and Haneul did the same, her hair slightly damp now after diving into the pool to save Jiyoung. "Thank you for saving my daughter," Jiyoung's father stood up. "How can I ever repay you two?"

"Ahjussi, there's no need for that," Jooheon waved a hand, chuckling slightly. "Just letting me spend time with her is more than enough."

"Meeting her is enough for me," Haneul answered.

Jiyoung turned around, tilting her head, slightly in wonder, "Unnie, are you leaving soon? I wish I got to spend more time with you."

"Me too," the brunette nodded. "But if you ever want me to come back to Jeju, I would be more than happy to."

"Jinjjah?!" She gasped before running and throwing her arms around Haneul's waist. "I would love that, thank you!"

Haneul smiled down at her, hugging her tightly, "It's no problem at all." After a few moments, she let go of the girl, bidding her and her father farewell and returning to Sehun and the others who resided outside the gate. Minhyuk, Changhyuk, and Kihyun had joined Shownu and with them were two members of the GOT7 Syndicate who had dealt with Eunjae, taking her back to the FT Clan who had sent her in the first place.

"Just make sure she doesn't try anything," Shownu said to Jackson who gave him a single nod.

"Don't worry. She's not gonna be causing any problems from now on," he smirked before turning to Mark. "Let's get going."

"Right," the older male said, and they left their place before MONSTA X, walking toward the car where Eunjae had been tied up in the backseat. Once they were inside, they drove away, and Haneul as able to breathe easy knowing that woman wouldn't hurt Jiyoung anymore.

"Thank you again for your help," Shownu turned toward the brunette and Sehun. "I'll let Junmyeon know of the good things you've done today. MONSTA X will forever be indebted to EXO."

"It's no problem at all," Sehun assured him, wearing his eye smile, "We were happy to help."

The older male chuckled a bit, eyes drifting toward Haneul and giving her a gentle grin. He walked toward her, towering over her and placing a hand on her shoulder, "You take care of yourself. Thank you for your help. MONSTA X will forever be in your debt."

"Please don't say that," she shook her head, returning the grin softly. "anyone would have done the same."

He gave a soft chuckle, turning toward Sehun with a solemn expression, pulling his hand away, "You take care as well. Tell Junmyeon I will be seeing him soon."

"I will," Sehun answered.

"This won't be the last time you'll be seeing us," Hyungwon said, making his way toward the girl. "I'll buy you dinner when the time comes."

"Uh, no, I'll buy her dinner," Jooheon grumbled, nudging the other male away and smirking at the girl. "What do you say? You willing to?"

Haneul stammered, looking between the two males, and Wonho was next to interrupt them.

"What?!" He stuck his bottom lip out in a pout. "No! It'll be me!"

"Guys," Minhyuk interrupted them, holding his hips, his tone loud. "Don't even think about it!"

"Aw, why not?!" Hyungwon questioned, and Changhyuk began to whistle, his eyes shifting toward Sehun who glared daggers in their direction.

"You might want to shut your cakeholes," the younger male warned them.

The three males went silent, taking a step back from Haneul, and Kihyun burst into laughter, only to mumble into Shownu's ear, "I guess his glare is more than enough to make them back off."

"You're right," the older male agreed, watching the raven-haired hitman close the distance between himself and Haneul. He had noticed that there were many significant changes in Sehun. He seemed happier, more protective, sensible, and it most likely had to do with her.

"Ready to go?" He asked, jerking a thumb toward the ferry.

She was silent for a moment, answering him with a nod, her lips curling into a smile, "I'm ready."

The two of them departed, heading toward the ferry, leaving Jeju Island to welcome the mainland. Night had fallen as they reached their destination, and Sehun and Haneul were now in his sleek black car. The freeway was lit by the passing lamps, the landscape of the countryside rolling by, waiting to reach Seoul in the next few hours.

Haneul was staring out the window, seated in the front passenger's seat beside Sehun, reeling over the events that had transpired hours ago. She had to admit, she was reckless in saying Jiyoung and she had almost drowned if Sehun didn't come to her aid in time, but she didn't regret it. She saved a life today and even though it couldn't make up for her not being able to save her grandmother, at least Jiyoung would be back safe in her father's arms.

"I was worried that you wouldn't make it," Sehun had broken the silence surrounding them, his hands still around the steering wheel, driving smoothly, eyes fixated on the road ahead where no cars were present. "what you did back there... that was terrifying."

Haneul looked at him slowly, catching the intensity in his gaze, and may slight hints of anger. He must have been very upset and disappointed with her, "I'm sorry," she answered quietly. "but I couldn't let her die like that... I know you were against me risking my life."

"Of course I was against it and I always will be," he stated. "I have to protect you."

"I know you have a job to do--" She tried but he interrupted her again.

"It's not a job," he corrected her. "I want to protect you, but you can't just throw yourself into danger. You could have been killed," His gaze softened, brows furrowing and his grip on the steering wheel wasn't so tight anymore. "I know that you think you're weak because you couldn't protect your Halmeoni but believe me. You're a lot stronger than you think."

Haneul lifted her head, turning to look at him with bewilderment. She held her hands in her lap, her eyes widening slightly.

"You've made it this far," he continued. "I'm so sorry about what happened to her but you still chose to live even after your Halmeoni passed away. You chose to stand on your own two feet and you chose to keep your friends safe. You even mustered up the courage to look me in the eyes. You may think you're a coward for not saving her but I think you're doing everything it takes to survive."

She dropped her shoulders slowly, closing her eyes and turning away, her hold on her hands growing tighter.

"I know you've shed a lot of tears," he spoke gently. "and that's okay. Keeping everything inside isn't the best."

"You're right," she mumbled. "I did cry... all the time... after finding out why this happened, it makes me wonder if maybe I'm tainted... if somehow, I was the reason why she was murdered in the first place..."

"I don't think that's true," Sehun glanced at her for a moment, frowning slightly at the sight of her distraught face. "I think you're very lucky. You were born into such a lifestyle, but you were fortunate enough to be taken to your Halmeoni and she raised you away from it all. Even after finding out, you're so kind and diligent. She raised you very well as if you never belonged to such a dark family in the first place. You should be respected and admired for that instead of having a whole clan trying to kill you."

For the first time in my life, someone has complimented me, Haneul could feel her waterline becoming heavy, stinging with tears.

"If anyone else were in your shoes, they would have taken their life a long time ago," Sehun continued. "or they would have let their origins get into their head and use that as an excuse to be a part of it all. But not you." The car began to slow down and he pulled it onto the side of the road, the engine going silent and he looked straight at her. "Neullie... you are the strongest and admirable person I know. You have no right to call yourself weak."

The brunette could feel a lump in her throat, her lips quivering as she pulled her hair out of her face. It was overwhelming, having lost it all and suddenly being welcomed by this man. Even more so when he continued to say good things to her—words she wasn't sure she should believe.

"My God," she sniffled. "Why are you doing this to me? ...Ah, jinjjah..."

The older male still looked at her with a saddened expression, watching her shoulders quiver, suddenly growing smaller before him.

"Don't you say these things to me, I'm trying to hold everything in," she pleaded, wiping away her tears. "Every time I hear someone take my side, I can't help but..." she trailed off, now sobbing before him, covering her face in her hand. "Don't say such nice things to me! Don't take my side, just don't! Stop saying I'm beautiful! Stop staying you're proud of me! No one has ever complimented me before so—so it makes me feel weird! I'm trying to hold everything in so why do you make me cry?!" She sobbed loudly now, her face completely covered by her hands. "Y-You say these things now but I know, in the end, you'll—"

"I won't," he cut her off, looking at her with soft eyes. "I'm not the kind of guy who will leave you behind. I promise you that I will never make you cry. I'll remind you every day who much a good person you are so you'll never forget. I'm going to make sure you smile every day, so stop your nagging and just accept my compliments."

She pulled her hands away from her tear-streaked face, releasing a shaky breath and facing him, "Oh Sehun. You need to be careful! What if I actually end up falling in love with you?!"

He couldn't help but chuckle, her words so innocent in her eyes but to him, it was so much more. Maybe this was what he was feeling for the longest time. Maybe this is why he felt such a pull toward her. She was the one to pull him out of the darkness and little by little, with each passing day, she was becoming his light--his whole world. This girl was changing him and he was accepting every minute of it and as long as she stayed by his side, she too will realize what is going on between them.

"If you do, that will make me happy," he smiled kindly. "Then I'll know you've returned my feelings."

He was in love with her and he wished with all his heart that one day, she will return his feelings.

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