#-w- is this what my art has become

[pixlokita]

Some sillies because sometimes drawing cartoonier characters is nice for a change

#and unhinged psychotic smiles #-w- is this what my art has become #insane grins #uhhh I guess I can put this one in my art tag #my art #the amazing digital circus #tadc #pomni #ragatha #jax #yeah #aight then

[egophiliac]

Okay so I've been wanting to tell you that you're literally my favourite twst artist 😭🩷

So my question is, how do you manage to come up with these funny comics? CUZ I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

(P.s: Lovin' the art style ✨)

oh geeze, thanks! 💚💚💚 I'm really glad people enjoy my stupid sense of humor; mostly I just draw things to make myself laugh, and if it makes other people laugh too, then bonus points! usually it's just one joke or mental image that gets stuck in my head (every time I saw Fellow spin his cane, all I could think about was him go-go-gadgeting away on it...) and in my quest to justify it, it picks up other jokes and bits along the way and usually doesn't even end up as the main focus anymore. entire narrative arcs have spun out just so I could use a single bad pun in a throwaway line. this is a terrible way to explain it but I'm not sure how else to put it into words!

and sometimes it's just "weird things my sister has said that I make fun of her for"

#twisted wonderland #reposting old art but i will never not make fun of her for her incredibly pretentious opinions about the local mall's architectural design #yuu listening to malleus be weird about buildings is supposed to be relateable right #that said this is also the only place i get to talk about twst so it is also just...a lot of my thoughts spilling out everywhere #(sorry other fandoms) #(i have spaces where i can debate the various merits of himeno/rita versus morfonia/rita) #(the correct answer is that rita has two hands but i digress) #but where else can i talk at length about these anime disney dipshits who have flawless eyeliner and zero emotional intelligence #me at the top of my lungs: you don't understand that's his DAD #the group dm: w...what are you talking about #there's gonna be a few posts today sorry #gotta get some stuff out before the update tonight/tomorrow morning/whatever happens and becomes all i think about for the next week

[lemongogo]

sry i dont know what 2 draw anymore T_T . elendira portrait #999

#trigun #trigun maximum #elendira #elendira the crimsonnail #my art #im sure u can see it but ive been so uninspired w art lately T_T #ive tried to remedy it by just looking and observing. breaking down other works that i want 2 take direction from #but i tjknk its like . just jamming ME UPPP #and now im tjinking Too much ab it and psyching myself out #help me sorry i blow up the tags on every drawing i post ab my art struggles😭😭 #its like im whispering in here thouggh. just talking 2 myself and no one has 2 know except the ppl dealing w the same feelings #HAJAHA #anyways. i drew this just to say i finally drew smth agajn and im just going to be ok w it #like sure its not exciting but i like the colors and that shld be enough . OK !!!! #smth smth saw a post that talked ab how u get too in ur Head about this and then u dont share stuff and it becomes cyclical #and youll never get anywhere unless u just throw ur hands in the air and let it Be . #creating 4 the sake of creating . love and joy in sharing what we made and what we like #YAAAY #and bc i love elendira so much.. my go to girlie 4 art block #i need to draw her in fight scenes . i need 2 make art of her like sweaty and bloody yah . clenching my fist #maybe a livio fight scene bc i love it so much T_T

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT? #LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page. #but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW? #ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much.... #AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012. #almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS. #only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess. #i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

[loafbud]

The first Splatoon game turned 8 yesterday!

#the last (and first) time i drew anniversary art for the first game was when it turned 1 year #imna use the tags to be all sappy real quick: #ive been a huge fan of the splatoon series since the first game & have played it since day one #splatoon is the first time ive grown up with a game series from the beginning #like i knew it was gonna be a successful game that'd eventually grow and become a series w/ a cool fanbase #for first/third person shooter games (esp multiplayer)- i could never call myself a fan of those #but the moment splatoon debuted in an e3 trailer??? it took a concept i'd normally go meh to- but made it into smthn colorful/unique #like??? weeks after the announcement i was already gushing over what the lore would be in their universe #it got really tiring seeing all the hate it received- id watch ppl stream it out of interest and their chat'd be like uggh this ass title? #or id watch gamers do one single lets play of it and be like oh ok i can see how this game is fun (me assuming they'd doubt it's potential) #but to see how much splatoon as a series has grown has me kinda emotional ngl #like yeah sure theres still ppl outside the fandom who has (or still has since the 1st game) sour opinions about it #but ever since the fandom grew over those 8 years- it feels like the love for this series outshines that #but man.... i said this already on twt but i remember going to my first color run event locally w/ my family #(this happened weeks before the game came out btw) -but id have my phone out with the inklings on my screen #and id look at my phone & feel this happiness (that i havent felt in a while tbh) at being in an event that had a lot of colors in it #and at the time seeing all the powdered colors flying everywhere at the end of the race reminded me of splatoon sm i was like raaaaah #WOW SORRY FOR THE LONG TAGS LOL #BUT YEAH- I LOVE THIS SERIES (thats all i wanted to say) #splatoon #splatoon anniversary #splatoon 8th anniversary #fanart #loafbud

[vse-kar-vem]

how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on #either way #im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred 💔 #if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me #again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these 😭 fhskfbhsjfkg #i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever #but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do #and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying #like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative #but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me #oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you #but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't #like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it) #i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me 💔 which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable! #fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it #and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier #of my friendships #wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up #the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom) #i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a #'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order #not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i #may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me ! #sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these 😭 #vee rambles

[nailtagyuri]

when i was 12 this was the coolest most mindblowing shit ever i was genuinely so obsessed with it I'd read it very day like the bible. I would die for a version of this with the post 3D world content over my country

#i hve vs super mario bros on my switch bc i wanted to chronologically play through the storied hero timeline and i couldnt find a rom #I think it has the same appeal as spid.erverse kinda except instead of multiple different people filling the same role as sp.iderman its #the same guy it's still mario but the changes come from things going differently at certain points in his life do you GET ME!! #LIKE!!!!!!!! MOST OF IT'S DETERMINED BY WHAT HAPPENS IN YOSHIS ISLAND AND THERES ALTERNATIVE PATHS IF HE WINS OR FAILS!!! GAME OVERS HAVE #CONSEQUENCES THAT BRANCH INTO THEIR OWN TIMELINES MARIO CAN END UP WITH DIFFERENT PARENTS ITS SO COOLLLLLL #and i love how each of the major branches has their own theme like “action hero” is the one with all the gameplay-focused #mainline titles “storied hero” is the one with all the M&L rpgs and more plot-heavier stuff and “blue collar hero” is this third one #with all the donkey kong titles and wackier/arcade titles WHERE i might add his design had a blue shirt and red overalls #and the tl builds off of those games into nsmb so i like to hc that he kept his early 80s design well into the later games <-autistic sorry #AND how thetimelines represent how their different backstories have influenced their personalities and thought processes a little like #what happened to mario in the blue collar branch like he either becomes EVILL!!!! and kidnaps donkey kong leading to dkjr or #divorces peach and has a self isolation arc after nsmb2 whats going on w him... #and i LOVE how all of them have a sort of common event where bowser invades the mushroom kingdom and in each timeline its #represented by a different variation of the original super mario bros game with action hero's event being represented by smb itself #which is fitting since thats the branch where mario and luigi ended up with their intended parents and everything went as planned #and i think a general theme here is that the more things go against intention the sillier it gets dont even get me STARTED on the time #travel shenanigans in bottom right which lead into the handheld remakes i love this so much its unreal #i do wish paper mario wasnt explained away as a dream but like thats its whole other world and art style and itd be difficult #to fit it into one of the major branches so i get why it was done. i probably wouldve just given it its own isolated bubble in the corner #at that rate i probably wouldve added so much more shit to the main tl im talking game&watch games i look at this and i see a pitch #for a full feature length autism production you understand

[nerosdayinanime]

more jjk sillies bc theyre fun

#neros art tag #jjk #spoilers in tags #oc: icarus #oc: aether #jjk oc #'dead guy' being potato junpei whos actually still alive to their surprise #drew/redrew a few of the incorrect quote things we made of them #didnt get to do the misery/reeses puffs/cpr joke [pensive] (junpei icarus aether respectively) #also all of the old ones had the hair parted to the wrong side lmao #explanation/context again: icarus has a ver of the gojo special eyes and can see how cursed energy flows- mahito cracks the soul open to #transfigure people(not canon- my interp) h icarus can mold the souls he's cracked open. they resuscitate junpei and become a little curse #user trio- they teach junpei how to properly use cursed energy and such- then during the culling games #yuuji & junpei reunite- them & aether go to find hakari while icarus offered to go find megumi for him #megumi does not trust strangers #its been fuckin ages since ive read the manga i havent kept up w it outside of snippets i see on tumblr i have no clue whats going on #'HEY MAN WHAT THE FUCK. DUDE. I WAS SENT BY YUUJI YOU DICK- i stfg if my appendix ruptures bc of that youre paying my medical bills-' #oh yeah also i missed it when i was looking back Aether can also bite people to sap cursed eneegy. when she bites tho it becomes Hers #instead of just withering away. void & icarus do their own thing- run a little shop that dissuades small cursed spirits from ppl & makes #life a little easier for some. theyr not anything big theyre just trying to have fun & help a few ppl out along the way #oh ya first set they were watching yuuji & nanami go ham on mahito #'we probably shouldnt fuck with that..'

[darewolfcreates]

Nightlights house!

#interior design #interior art #wh oc #Nightlight #wh #welcome home oc #artists on tumblr #my art #welcome home #the house took ALOT of eraseing and redrawing... #BUT ITS FINALLY DONE! #nightlight finally has an official home that they live in! #their part bird so i had to make them a tree house with a nest .w. #this house has been in the works for a LONG time.. #im so happy its finally done... more or less... #i whould like to play with colors some time but seeing as i dont have a good way to do that this will be where it sits for now =w= #i like to think its got simular colors to what im planning to paint the kids bedroom... (i have to wait till grandma cant go up the stairs #anymore... but as soon as she cant my vishion of the wizard room SHALL become reality >:]) so like really dark blues mixed with some light #greenish blues with bright yellows #Nightlight is itty bitty so their house should be too :] (dont worry about the lack of bathroom... idk if puppets even need a bathroom but #there are additional platforms up in the tree canopy so maby theres one up there xD) nightlight only really uses their house for sleeping #so there is no shortage so sleeping spots! includeing a nice big nest for a bed :D #nightlight also has a nice lil kitchenette. just big enough for a lil guy :D #the bottom parts of the tall windows open :] #Nightlight can and will climb out of all the windows #the top down layouts are the most accurate but i tryed to ddraw them 3d to varrying degrees of sucsess

[klonoadoortophantomile]

hiii um may i ask why you deactivated ur deviantart account?

just didnt feel good posting there sorry

#the formatting didnt really click w me and the site sort of intimidated me if im being honest. like most stuff does but #idk da is so massive and i feel like interactions with posts on there felt a lot less… personal? #idk im tired i dont know how to explain #ask #anon #honestly over the past year ive been realizing i dont really like most sites i use #or feel super comfortable posting on them. idk. #art especially has been getting difficult for me to post and it feels so frustrating cuz like #ive been posting art for so long and i love sharing it…. but at the same time its become so stressful. #and i know thats sort of my own fault for making it that way but i feel like ive been a lot more comfortable with myself just not bothering #to post stuff in the first place. idk #i know there was a lot of art on there i never really posted on here srry if thats sorta what prompted this #if u really did like a specific piece i could post it if asked. i really dont mind #i appreciate ppl enjoying my art.. and i do feel bad not sharing it much cuz ive been on the other end of the situation b4 #but again its sorta just .. for myself. i will maybe go back to posting more regularly someday but. yeah idk #again im tired im just rambling

[toytulini]

wish ig wasnt so fucked i do miss posting art on there but itll never be like that again. how zuck managed to make it feel physically bad and gross to use an app is incredible. its like a corpse of the app i used to use. a bad puppet. a shell. parading around, empty and awful. came back wrong. i cant use it the way it is anymore. "reels" and "stories" and the algorithm. im not using those. im not using that. it feels gross. its sliming me. its oozing slime out of my phone. i just wanted to make posts. have all my stupid art in one place and chill with my mutuals. but no. its trying to sell me ads and pretty people. and now i cant view my notifications bc it sold pretty people too hard and broke teenager's brains. itstelling me to watch reels. all the people i follow are posting their posts in their stories that im not watching bc ive refused to evolve the way i use that app past like 2016. why dont ppl just make posts. what the fuck is the point of stories. is that not just snapchat? im not downloading that either

#toy txt post #unreality #? not really but for some of the way some of this is phrased i guess? #i hate instagram now and it makes me so sad #but i miss it. posting art here isnt the same. but its not the same there either #on the rare occasion i do draw smth it doesnt feel worth posting fuckin anywhere #i dont want any tips on how to use it i just want it to not exist anymore tbh. at least people acknowledge that twitter is dead #it feels like everyone just keeps using ig and im just standing here like. its fuckjng dead. its a corpse being paraded around by ads #it died the day they introduced that fucking algo timeline.how are you all still using it. can you not feel the fucking slime? #similar to fb. i just. everytime i open it #every part of me starts screaming. how the fuck are ppl still using it? why am i expected to still use it? #at least that is like. im not expecting my nana to make a tumblr and i dont want her to #anyway. this has been old man yells at cloud #i feel like i have always used ig in a way that was fundamentally different than how other ppl were using it but i used to be able to get #away w it and have no issues but its not possible now #it wont stop reminding me what a horrible thing its become. it wont stop helpfully suggesting ppl it thinks i should follow for one reason #or another god fucking knows why

[dimidarling]

Trigun trending and seeing all the stampede art makes me feel so. Man. I miss when this fandom wasn’t like this my hatred for stampede runs deep.

#I am such a stampede hater #I dislike almost everything I’ve seen them do to the characters #and to the plot #and I hate how vash art is now soooo ooc feeling #and I hate all the ooc wolfwood thirst trap art #and the amount of inc*st art has risen dramatically who would’ve thought!! #words cannot describe what watching my FAVORITE manga become mainstream like this has done to me #the old anime was already dominating the fandom which meant art for manga charas like elendira or livio was sparse as hell #now it’s all stampede art which is even worse cries #anyway. I had to be a hater I won’t apologize for it on my own blog #stampede can suck my ass I think it sucks #also can all of u shits stop tagging stampede stuff w trigun you’re clogging the og tags #it’s annoying #stampede vash’s design sucks too btw #ruined the arm reveal and made him look more like a conventionally attractive anime boy than the og #way less distinct and also his glasses aren’t even unique anymore #I know it’s literally inconsequential but I’m choosing to nitpick bc I dislike him so much #anyway. #trigun manga means sm to me I’m so sad the fandom is now mostly stampede bullshit. man. #dozy speaks #usually I’m not a reboot hater btw. I’m an mlp fan I get reboot changes!!! #but the changes shouldn’t mean removing one of your only female characters and making everyone look younger and making one character #more white looking #and making some characters kids what is up with elendira???? #and idk. I just hate the fandom for stampede everyone makes vash so one dimensional and it makes me soooo deeply annoyed

[reikunrei]

I’m sorry to anyone who thinks it’s weird when I call their art tasty or yummy or that I wanna eat it. I just need u to know that it is the Highest compliment I can bestow upon you. if I look at your art and I want to put it in my mouth and have it become one with my body, that just means I love love love love LOVE it

#idk what has made this become my default compliment #it started at first w very specific art #like friends whose styles were very colorful or looked like gummy candy #but now it’s just expanded to Everything I Like #i say things #anyway why am I having a panic attack

[paeonie-s]

insomniacs after school makes me physically ill oh my god

#nakami studying the anatomy and conditions of the heart .. him choosing the stem track bc he wants to become a nurse #or beyond in order to better understand what magari is going through #their late night podcasts .. one degree removed from direct connection making them all the more open w each other #magari unable to leave her house for who knows how long bc of a Potential complication .. feeling crushed under her families love and care #and only hoping to enjoy whatever life she has left hanging out with her friends and travelling with nakami and having herself immortalized #in the ink and paper of every photo ever taken of her by someone she loves #most wholesome series in existence yet death flags are everywhere with every potential ending having so much to say about love and grief and #their coexistence. the art the way each and every smile is drawn w sm emotion and understanding. shits crazy #THE ASTROPHOTOGRAPHY .. LITERALLY A PERFECT SYMBOL AND ELEMENT GOD the vastness of the universe and our place in it #nakami says every photo i take is a photo of you bc you are the reason this world opened itself up to me #magari says i am stuck in a room in a single country on a single planet in a single galaxy out of an infinitely expanding universe #with all my focus on a single organ within my body and the fear it incites and you still make me grateful for every second i can still hear #your voice. shit is insane and so funny and romantic and heartfelt and it tells you again and again that it will likely end in loss and #grief and a silent death and the world continuing to spin like nothing happens #but it drags you into every panel and every line and every scene it creates for a moment that streches out into infinity #its open and expressive and informative of its inclusion of health conditions and disabilities but it still takes the time to state that you #need to love without pity and without an expectation that things will always be alright #just value the time you have together. its so fucking good im gonna explode #insomniacs after school #🌸.txt

[oatbugs]

update on gf situation btw . for those who r curious or sent asks etc

#v soon after i asked for advice i talked to her and asked her why she doesnt draw anymore n abt other stuff etc etc #she basically said she doesnt feel at all content rn but she will start again once she feels better . which is so understandable #and im also glad to hear she still does love what she loved etc...just several factors in her life are making her . discontent atm #one of them (i think a big one maybe) is me being gone for like a month . we stayed w each other a lot b4 this #so the wait has been Agonising for both of us and i just didnt realise how much she missed me . which is like . idk . shes so sweet i love #her so much and while im sad my absence is contributing to her current situation im like. woah...there is someone who misses me so much.wow #i also need to like tripple clarify bc my post asking for advice was vague and i feel like it was misinterpreted a lot : #my gf is not confused abt what she wants to do + i am not using romantic relationships as a career progression device + i do in fact have #friends and a life outside academia and am aware that i too could just as easily become disconent w my work #life etc or even lose all my passion for whatever reason + i do not in fact . only love my gf for her art. i love her for everything she is #which includes smn who is very passionate abt art which is why i was concerned etc etc . anyway #we talked abt it and i now understand things more and also will hold her through it until she feels more content again #and then ill keep holding her through everything good and bad for as long as i can :) i love her sosososososo much #and also i miss her so much and if i dont see her soon ill Perish and Die . anyway

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#as a rule it generally has always frustrated me that it very often feels like people are WILLFULLY misunderstanding&misrepresenting me #&occassionally it leads to fun past-times such as actively matching the level of intelligence generally expected from me-- none. #or matching whatever bland&one dimensional personality type i have been very obviously&typically tactlessly assumed to have. #but especially in regards to how nice i am as a default ive always had issues with negative backlash from it lmao. #like its a toss-up as to whether or not the assumption is that i'm too stupid w/ too little life experience #to understand that ppl are inherently evil&thus should be treated poorly&w/ as much suspicion as possible as a default-- lol #-- or that i'm being manipulative+fake &the kindness is surely just a front for nefarious intentions. #&like for the vast majority of my life ive primarily dealt w/ the former which is vaguely annoying but also a lot of fun to play around w/ #until i've become too bored w/ the one-sided game to keep on playing it w/ ppl who have the overall depth of a shower floor #&the tact of a rabid wild boar only made worse by the continued assumption that im too stupid to understand that im being insulted. #but over the past few years the tides have shifted to the latter&like. #it took years of adjustment but i've finally perfected the art of actively disappearing in situations where its made clear #that my words&behaviors are being dissected for hidden meanings or malicious intent lmao. #truly the '... nah' philosophy has saved what little is left of my fucking sanity lmao. #it's officially the holiday season&i am already prepared to '... nah' my way straight the fuck into extremely comfortable isolation lol. #bc while i am more or less proud of having leashed my more vicious impulses it's still my first&strongest instinct #to take how bad someone thinks i am&to see how much lower i can go lmao. #when the assumption is that the worse that could happen is shattered kneecaps you take both the feet instead. #this is simply how i was raised lmao. #but in the interest of removing myself from that rather unhealthy cycle i am doing my best to just not engage when it happens. #... but fuck me if it doesnt feel like i'm being purposefully baited most times lmao.