I've spent my morning reading my own fics cos I know I follow up the hurt with comfort!! So here's a link
Oh, Crowley
Includes what is now canon level miscommunications and disasters. Lots of talking badly and being sad. Here's a (highly edited to keep it short) snippet from the start of the fic to whet your appetite
"I don't have a chance with you, do I?" Aziraphale asked. His eyes were wide. He stood a step above Crowley, closer to the door, protected from the few brave and errant drops by Crowley. Crowley's back grew wet for it.
Crowley's heart thumped. "What?"
Aziraphale's fingertips brushed Crowley's cheek, then pressed hesitantly against his jaw. Aziraphale's thumb, soft but worked enough by book pages to have hints of use in its pad, touched Crowley's lower lip and dragged gently, shaking.
Then Aziraphale withdrew.
"Angel," Crowley croaked, although he had no idea what to say, how to discuss anything any more, "are you- ?"
Regret flashed across Aziraphale's face, then settled into place there. His lips trembled in something more like sorrow, but that didn't stick around. The regret remained. "I apologise, dear boy," Aziraphale whispered. "A bit too much champagne, I think. Makes everything a little rose-hued, don't you find?"
Aziraphale looked down, shuffled his feet, adjusted his cuffs, then turned to the door. "Let me know when next suits you for dinner."
The door opened quickly, but closed gently, leaving Crowley alone in the rain.
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the only thing I'm grateful to Only Friends about at this stage is introducing me to Force and Book ~~
I will finish it because I want to support them but the glossing over the trauma and not allowing the growth of their characters has actually made me so sad??
Manifesting an excellent series that they're the main couple in next year, they deserve better. I kind of don't rlly understand the hate on them tho? Lots of actors have shitty series & characters (which I don't think is the case with them) and they're still liked? make it make sense plez
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Everytime I keep thinking of Malleyuu, I keep thinking back to my Glomas fic and this song.
How Yuu felt powerless to help at the time, and wished they could've done something to help. I swear [Implanter] gives me so many emotions!
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my pinterest board is perfectly curated and perfectly me and my prom dress is so cute and my platforms are huuuuge and the silhouette of the looks nice and i need to lock the fuck in and make sure im actually pretty too for and until prom in may or ill kill myself
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its so ironic that one of the main reasons i got so attracted to baxter's character as early as fuckin, 2021 or 2022 or something--i don't know, way back before his dlc was released--was his strong respect to boundaries. like when he talked about it with conviction i was like "AYO I LIKE THAT."
and then it turns out that very same fucking trait is actually his defense mechanism on STEROIDS that causes EVERY. SINGLE. PROBLEM. in his life.
he puts everything in separate boxes he doesnt let touch. or else it gets MESSY. it's NEAT and TIDIER this way. he can CONTROL things this way.
friends go here. flings go there. hookups go over there. emotions are locked away in a vault in the basement that he's poured concrete over.
he puts a box around himself. it's TINY and he keeps it FAR away from everyone else. he can't even take a step closer to them. when they try to get closer to him, when they dare try to step on the line so close to him, he FREAKS the fuck OUT. you can see his flaws when you're this close. you're STEPPING OVER THE LINE he's set.
he can't let anything mix. he can't let it blur. he can't let it crumble. because everything will be everywhere, and he can't control that. you see, there's a PROPER process to things. and he'll see to it that it gets done right. of course, that process is to be by himself, and leave only footprints behind. to never truly be known. he can't have that. that'll mean you'll leave him; you'll see him for how he really is, how he sees himself: likely actually not that interesting, offering nothing worth staying for. you can't have too many pieces of him, or you'll get the full picture. so he'll hide his pieces in different boxes. you only get one. this is the right way. this is the only way. without ORDER everything is like the ocean: "endlessly deep and unpredictable, with powerful waves and rapid currents." He will get swallowed whole, never to return.
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The fact that spam ads talk in brackets to get around filters and avoid being blocked. This feature ensures they get to you but also guarantees you know it’s spam and won’t engage with it, no matter what it’s trying to sell you.
Now thinks about the fact that Spamtons speech is effectively this and how the very thing that allows him to continue some type of existence also dooms him to an unhappy, miserable one.
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