#(the drama makes me feel ill)

[luk4-luk1]

*Ensemble comes*

"LOATHINGGGGGGGGG"

#alenoah #total drama noah #td noah #total drama #alejandro burromuerto #gay #noah td #td alenoah #wicked #wicked reference #love and loathing #these dorks are so in love it makes me ill actually #they're gay your honor #theyre in love your honor #they hate each other #aya williams godbless you #feeling hate might kiss later #fanfic inspiration #fanfiction

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Las Vegas Grand Prix - Qualifiying - Fernando Alonso

#half asleep making these istg #yayyyy p9? idk ig i expected him to do better #old man asleep at the wheel whats new 😴 #he was very quick w this interview i wonder if he was eager to get to bed #i certainly am rn #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #2023 las vegas gp #(i wish i could atop feeling insecure abt my gifs. i do it for fun.) #(of course i want them to look somewhat good but i get a bit ill over it) #(there was somw drama on here at some point that made me want to completely stop posting then ngl) #(cause like what is the point if im not as good as others ig :/ this is kinda vague posting but it made me so uncomfortable) #(as i said. i do it for fun in quick time bcs yay jsut wanna post smth i found cute) #(but ever sincce that thing happened its just made me extremely self critical and insecure abt posting) #(idk why im saying this. kinda repressing the urge tk be like 'SRY THESE ARE TERRIBLE. YEAH.') #(i need to sleep. but i often feel like this literally every time i post now bcs some people get on their high horse and ruin people's fun) #(iykyk ig. its smth bothering me lately. but i hate to act so morose. but i still feel bad abt the quality sometimes. i guess.) #we do a little bit of f1

[kitom-kortil]

So......wheres all this "sexualizing EMH actors" posts everyones raving about?? Ive seen a LOT of posts calling ppl out for it, but not a single post DOING it. What the fuck are yall talkin about

Also, why the fuck are ppl saying evan has said ppl sexualizing the characters makes him uncomfortable? Are yall dumb? Where are yall gettin this shit? Can yall for real just chill tf out and stop starting weird drama where there is legit nothing going on?

Ill concede if yall can show me some evidence of this "sexualization of the actors" that is apparently so heinously rampant everywhere you go, but as far as i can see theres nothing at all and it looks like yall wanna complain about something that looks legit so you can feel valid. Im too old to hear the whining, just quit. Please. Id like to see fanart of Habit when i go in the emh tag, not a bunch of wolf crying and massive word posts cuz yall are bored and desperate for attention.

#everymanhybrid #what im seeing #is a group of mutuals making copy paste posts so far #and not a lotta evidence #i feel like u guys are legit just tryna start drama #fr if you can give me proof ill retract my statement but yall sound like ur crying wolf again #and im tired of it

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[barawrah]

all i have to offer today is a tiny beel

#hands him over to u etc #i realised i never make fanart thats not other peoples ocs #like even hq fanarts that ive drawn just feel like a glitch idk how they happened #n that just sucks bc i actually like a lot of stuff n a lot of characters r rly cute #but if its not my ocs i just cannot commit #but thats also understandable really because fandoms creep me out n i dont like getting deep into them #ill just enjoy cute little characters n keep away from the drama u know #speaking like someone who commits to their oc art and doesnt get bored one hour into a drawing #how do people constantly make finished art what r they feeding u guys #ok im done #art tag #obey me! #beel

[having-conniptions]

I just realized if Mew knew about Ray and Sand he never would've given in to Ray BUT RAY NEVER TOLD ANYONE ABOUT SAND urghhhh this is all so infuriating

#this show is making me feel a lot of feelings #not all of them good #well #very few of them actually #but it scratches my brain in interesting ways so ill allow it #i hate exaggerated and overly complicated drama but i really love hating THIS exaggerated and overly complicated drama #only friends #sandray #raymew

[mothusband]

crochet is suppose to be calming or whatever but instead it's making me EVIL

#starting this blanket was a mistake. it's all i can think of. it's been 4 days and its ruining my life. #it's not even a foot long yet 😭 im only halfway finished with one of three big yarn rolls im using to make it 😭 #most would suggest taking a break but ill blow up and die if i do that. i cant stop until this thing is done. #in the mean time. stopping watching youtube drama videos or true crime podcasts while i work so its not making me feel worse. #trying to watch my silly little shows and documentaries instead. so far it's much more enriching. #anyways. please dont be like me and let your hobbies become your enemies lmao.

[dragonsareawesome123]

Palm going from addressing Nueng without honorifics to going back to calling him Khun Nueng immediately after Nueng degrades and berates him in public 🙃🙃🙃

#rewatching nlmg bc i’m bored and that scene still makes me feel ill 😭😭😭 #after spending all that time getting palm to feel comfortable enough to treat him like a friend #nueng really blew all that in the span of a couple minutes bc he was in a drunken jealous rage #nueng you BETTER give palm the BIGGEST apology for that #palmnueng #never let me go #never let me go the series #thai drama #thai bl #gmmtv

[lyricalambrosia]

Last snippet until i write this last section and then ill be posting the next chapter 👀 it will still take me a while (fighting my ADHD and trying to write between class assignments, etc), so don't expect it within the next few days or anything, but it IS almost done i swear 💀 i'll also say this chapter will probably end up shorter than the next one (and shorter than the last. i hope.)

#trigun #legato bluesummers #millions knives #millionsummers #assuming of course i ignore the tiny part of my brain that wants me to rewrite the entire middle section for the drama #instead of just embracing the silliness of these two being so caught up in each other that common sense kind of failed them for a second #like that meme. i was so caught up in my horde of apple juice that for a second i lived in a world where racism didnt exist. you know. #thats them but instead its we were so caught up in being together again that for a second we lived in a world where cops werent real fjdksk #anyway. the silly route has some potential moments for cute fluff too and it leads into a scene i had to cut earlier which makes me so happ #uh if you feel like this needs a tw let me know but from my persepctive it seems vague enough to me to not need one #ill still update the fic tags on ao3 tho just in case #my writing

[ironmanstan]

you know that thing where like men will wear dresses or be feminine for a gimmick or as a trend etc which is all well and good but then theres people who can only handle seeing a man in a dress as a gimmick or as like a Thing where it's not casual or an everyday thing like they can only handle it when its specifically for a Bit bc they could never take a man just casually in a dress as anything casual, it'd be an affront to them for you to think a man in a dress can be anything but a gimmick so if you try to do it casually you're insane, and if you do it as a bit you are agreeing with them (youre not but they think you are). anyway this is how people are with genderfluid characters they can never just exist and casually be genderfluid they Have to be some sort of shapeshifting or weird over the top mystical being and it has to be a gimmick or it has to fit their persona or something for you to even consider them genderfluid because nobody could possibly casually be that without it being some sort of set piece for a punchline. how often do u see people even hc characters as genderfluid just cus. yknow.

#i literally dont know why im thinking about this lmao #anyway hcing geto and madara as genderfluid gives me immense joy bc they have such fucking drama going on #me saying theyre genderfluid and it being a drop in a bucket compared to the other shit theyre doing . its so good #anyway i dont know i think about it and its a feeling of just very like dry laugh haha i love genderfluid rep in media amiright . #if i kin a character theyre genderfluid sorry . #if i kin them theyre aroace too . rip to u #ZHONGLI zhongli is my baby babygirl for being so genderfluid in canon and its such tiny lore that nobody fucking talks ab it #so then i get to keep it in my heart #thats the other thing to actually every genderfluid mf is like omg theyre so mysterious and sexy #wow youre a girl ... and then youre a BOY .. .. #thats such a thing actually ive seen it mildly here n there but its like omg theyre hot ... BOTH WAYS ... #fuck that i loveu zhongli my geriatric old bitch #i need to draw him more ill b real i love madara but im sick of drawing his hair i need a new old man to draw #enter zhongli #jk i need to likeeee . make my face hc for him bc i have a specific way i draw madaras face everytime #so i can reference my old art and draw him real easy #not zhongli tho !! i draw him 4 million different ways and it makes me mad #im tangenting anyway bye #the gamer speaks uwu #genderfluid #DONT FUCKING START DISCOURSE AB THIS WITH ME BTW I DONT HAVE TIME TO ARGUE ON FUCKING TUMBLR

[v-anrouge]

a small little tiny edit of chenya PLZ READ THE TAGS BEFORE U INTERACT.

#ik a lot of ppl dislike blk edits and i have no problem if u do this is a comfort edit #i made it cuz sometimes i hate myself for my skin color and making edits like these make me feel better #this is the first and only ill be posting cuz im actually proud of it #plz i ask that u dont bring drama in this post even if u dislike blk edits just ignore the post i beg u

[piplupod]

mother: "theres this great job where you'd be on-call to come in!"

me: "ahhh i don't really want to be on-call, that would stress me out a lot because I'd always be on edge,,"

mother: "no you wouldn't, you could make it your thing!"

me: "...my thing?"

mother: "being on call! it'd be great! :)"

me: "i would probably be crying like... a lot ahaha. because I would always be on edge never knowing when to expect having to go into work, yknow?"

mother: "nooo, you could just make it a thing!"

me: "sorry, what do you mean by thing?"

AND I NEVER FOUND OUT !!

#i feel very ill fdsjkl tonight was ... not good #not the worst definitely not the worst #just. a lot of diet talk and making fun of other ppl that she expected us to all laugh at (and we did. idk if they found it funny.) #and brother labelling some influencer having rape charges against him just ''internet drama'' #number one: i dont want to hear about that. number two: that is not just ''drama'' that is like. serious. what the fuck is wrong w youuuu #my mother will say that all the food i eat is very bad for me and do that while knowing full well i struggle to eat Anything #and say that simply Adding things to the diet is pointless bc ur poisoning urself still! u have to Take Out things! i cant fucking do that! #im still baffled that two years ago when i tried to go to them for help when i was almost fainting from not eating they just shrugged at me #''okay? why are u telling us this?'' BECAUSE YOU ARE MY PARENTS. AND I AM TRYING TO GET HELP. #i should've known better than to try tbh but like. its so hard to completely let go of every sliver of hope that they'll... be kind #like me saying i was feeling suicidal a few yrs ago just garnered a ''oh don't start this again. we're not doing this again.'' #and me admitting my own damn self to the psych ward just had her telling me ''i dont think you actually needed to go :/'' #mother dearest if it werent for the other fuckers in the brain (caused by you abusing me) then i would've been dead several times over #i am so fucking tired i am so sick of these ppl it is so incredibly painful and terrifying that this is supposed to be my family #this is the one support system i get in life. and it is no support system at all. i am fucked !! i am so unbelievably fucked!!! #i know other ppl make it thru but they are much stronger than me. i am lacking something that they all have lmao. i am cowardly and weak!!! #i have been trying so fucking hard to figure out how to like. make this work. how to survive in this society and its just. impossible #i think we're back to the clock ticking down as my bank account runs out #i cannot be employed and ppl keep telling me disability won't accept me so i am just. unanimously fucked over i suppose #i have two years !! two years until i run out of money!!! thats a lot of time!! to make all the art i want to make!! #i will make this work for these two years i will cope and make my art and disconnect and daydream through the intolerable parts #i will make these two years so good sdfjkl im gonna make it to the end of them #sorry this is all coming flooding out fsjdkl i've just tried so hard to be like. positive abt things and laugh abt things and be okay #im tired of trying to make it okay fdsjkl i am wallowing tonight i guess. boohoo poor little me fdsjkl i'll probably get over it soon #just need to like. let a little of the pressure leak out so i don't completely crack and do smth stupid #it will be okay !!! or as okay as it can be !!! this will be blocked out by tomorrow morning probably!! #or it'll have to be LMAO i have my silly old lady yarn group tomorrow and i need to be Normal for that #suicide tw #abuse tw #ed tw

[thawthebeez]

girl help the sugakage brainworms are eating me alive noooooooo

#something something Suga teaching kageyama to be a better setter in the ways that oikawa never would #something something Kageyama being suga's favourite first year #UGH THEY MAKE ME FEEL SO ILL #i've been thinking abt a very particular scenario lately #something along the lines of suga serendipitously having time to watch one of kageyama's early adler's games #(post-2016 olympics. pre-adlers/jackals match) #and them running into one another and arranging a coffee date set to happen whenever suga has time #the first year of teaching kindergarten is god awful and kageyama finds that out very quickly when suga starts spilling the beans during #their date #ANYWAYS for the sake of Drama suga ends up missing his train back from tokyo to miyagi and ends up having to stay the night w kageyama o3o #on their way home suga stops by a liquor store to buy them some wine #because i love me a good Wine & Dine #kageyama cooks them dinner. suga pours their wine. kageyama ends up tipsy after One Glass. there's a smooch somewhere #OH YEAH i was also thinking about gender bending the shit out of this #fem!sugakage 4 life✌️ #they r both so lesbian coded i'm sorry #if i ever get around to it you'll know! #otherwise it'll just live in my brain forever #and on this post... i guess..... #volleyball guys

[aroacewxs]

terrible terrible part of not growing up with a very very big piece of media is that once you get into it older, there is just So Much. and you're like well shit how long will this take

#im the kind of person who HATES missing details about a show or a game or anything #like i have to know everything #which is. close to impossible #but i have to feel like i have a very large and accessible library of Source Material that i can consult at all times #because i am also terrified of having a surface level interpretation of a character like man just take me away to the guillotine atp/j #let me atone for my sin #it's a fun process though.. Learning Shit #it just takes so long. and i want to know everything NOW NOW NOW #but alas i am a human being with basic needs and responsibilities and not as much time as they'd like to have #whatever!!!!!!!! #yeah this is about dr who #making my way through modern who first #then ill find a way to watch classic who as well #i know there are audio dramas and also books but i have no idea where to start with those #if anyone actually knows I'd appreciate your Friendly And Wise Guidance Thank You

[caffeinatedopossum]

I'm having the sudden urge to make a discord server for all of us but I'm almost definitely not qualified. Like idk I just like you guys and you seem so cool and funky and sometimes I think we should talk and listen to music and show each other our art and our outfits and vent and celebrate together and play games and shit

#but oof thats a terrifying thoughts #ive had bad experiences in discord before #because they were not moderated well or people just decided to make a bunch of drama for some reason #one time a person legit called me several slurs?? when i was just trying to ask if they could be a little more respectful #and then they were like 'well ACTUALLY im only racist and violent because im autistic so stop being ableist maybe' like??? #skgkfj it was honestly so absurd its just kinda funny #but then the LITERAL PERSON THAT MADE THE SERVER started insulting people too #saying that we were all boring npcs and didnt care about them at all and saying how much they hated all of us #like ??? ok i kinda feel for you but also the only reason no one was talking was because it wasnt being moderated at all #it was like they didnt pay attention to what was actually happening in the server at all #they were fifteen and mentally ill though so idk how much i can blame them. i just hope theyre ok cause it was a lot honestly

[icewindandboringhorror]

oh my god.. a job for me.. historical pierrot beach performer lol

#also I'm obsessed with shows like this #I always forget about like 'people live in a fully historical way as a sort of half documentary half educational reality-tv ish thing' as #a genre but then every once in a while I remember and watch something like this and am so enamored #There was also one called 'manor house' or something where it was like normal people who aren't actually historians or anything #trying to live like how they did a while ago in some big manor or whatever which was interesting #not the drama really (there wasnt much but a few of the people on there were kind of annoying whenever they did get their #few little interview bits among the otherwise mostly explanatory nature of the show just focusing on how things #worked in mainatining a giant manor house) #though there's a lot of focus on edwardian and victorian times in these sorts of things. which is cool! #but I wonder if they have them for different time periods too. and different locations. what about 1500s france #1250s china. etc. etc. I dont know because like I said I always forget I like this type of stuff so I never look it up #omg.... guess what... (whispering to you as if we're friends and I'm gosspiing).. you will NEVER believe this.. #you know 'Edwardian Farm' right? well.. I just found........ 'VICTORIAN farm'! #it's literally the same people doing the same thing but a different time period. And you know what? I will still eagerly watch every moment #ghbhj.. They could do 'Victorian Farm 2' 'Victorian Farm 3: Yet Another Show About The Same Stuff' and I would watch them all #ANYWAY.. also I feel like that could be my niche. Like because I'm Very Mentally Ill And Have Very Much Problems and have difficulty managi #ng ''normal'' jobs. But I LOVE menial repetitive tasks epsecially ones I can do with my hands. Like I could peel carrots for hours. I love #sculpting. etc. If I were ever in a position to learn a historical trade I think that could be My Thing. on these shows they always have li #ke 'The One Single Guy In The Entirety Of England Who Still Weaves Baskets Like They Did In Shropshire In 1805' or whatever and they #call him on the show and he's like 'yeah this basket took me 16 hours to make and here's how I do it' and it's like.. god.. I could be that #guy.. Like old style jewelry making. shoe making. all of these little tedious tasks to do crafting sorts of things. #It's just that like... when am I ever going to be in a position to LEARN that? You'd have to know someone who already does it #and be like tutored by them or etc. Which my social issues are a barrier gghhj.. and lack of resources/money to buy supplies. etc #but.. THEORETICALLY.. the dream.. ANYWAY ghhjhj.. I've been very busy all week but will try to do new poll adventure and other #stuff soon. I've had like two appointments and More Things Than Usual so just.. zero social media posting energy whatsoever #I do HAVE posts though.. pictures.. cat things.. costumes.. polls.. it's just.. brain says I have to lay on the floor all day instead #but at least I can ponder the absolute glee of a theoretical life where I am That One Guy in england who can make old ass gloves or etc. #If anyone in the UK has a dying grandpa with a near-extinct skill and YOU yourself don't feel like picking up the trade to pass it to young #er generations.. hmu and help me get citizenship and I will do it for you. even if he's evil and mean. I will MAKE those shoes