#(for the mentions)

[shepscapades]

#IM LOOOOSING IT yall's theories are so good #running around in circles so fast i get dizzy and fall over #reveals will come later... for now... mystery #wiggles my fingers #dbhc #dbhc theories #dbhc ask #anon #artsy-book #endtricate #ALSO THE KIND WORDS :((( THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH #dbhc evil x #dbhc helsknight #tagging both as to not give anything away #dbhc xisuma #for the mentions #the shepherd #my sona #art escapades #dbhc sillies

[arvadthecursed]

not to continue being an emotional bitch on main but I was thinking about The Last Unicorn (the film, mostly, as it was Baby's First Hyperfixation) and how it is a film about growth and grief, at its very core, and that's why it resonates so strongly.

At the end, the unicorn says, "I have been mortal, and some part of me is mortal yet. I am full of tears and hunger and the fear of death, although I cannot weep, and I want nothing, and I cannot die. I am not like the others now, for no unicorn was ever born who could regret, but I do. I regret." And I wanna focus on those last lines.

There comes a time in all our lives, I think, where we experience that loss of innocence, and it feels like the first time it's happened in human history when it's happening to you.

This isn't a story I've told many people but I'll share it with you now. When I was 12, my grandmother, who I was extremely close to, died of cancer. It had spread to most of her body, including her lungs and brain. Her last days were spent in a hospital hooked up to a morphine drip.

The last time I saw her, it was in the hospital, and she was begging my father not to leave. We had to return to our home to pick up my mother for the impending funeral. And I just remember my grandmother crying out for my dad, telling him not to go, and I remember how utterly crushed I felt in that moment. Death was inevitable. I couldn't escape it, not when it was directly in front of me. At my grandmother's viewing, I could hardly look at her.

For years, I was severely thanatophobic. Death has always kind of hung over my life. My maternal grandmother, only a few months after I was born. My maternal grandfather, when we went to his apartment and found him dead. My grandmother's friend, who we found dead in his house. My grandmother herself.

That was over ten years ago. I've grown quite a bit, and I think working in a nursing home has given me a little more of a "unique" perspective, if you will. Death is just part of life. It happens. And sometimes, it is merciful.

But the grief remains. There are times I'm 12 again, and a scared little girl, watching my grandmother, who could hardly recognize anyone, cry for my dad not to go. I feel regret for not being able to look at her body at the viewing.

And even beyond death... I grieve the girl I lost to abusive boyfriends. I feel this lingering regret at the loss of my innocence, not that I could've stopped it. I think of the sweet little girl I was, and I want to cry for her, but I can't. All I can do is look to the future and try to grow and be better for her.

It's a human experience. We don't like to admit it, but grief is quintessentially human. When it happens to us, it feels like the first time it's happened in history.

And then we grow. We have to keep getting up, and going about our lives, and trying not to trip on our grief. It doesn't go away, but it tucks itself into a corner, where it'll catch us off guard when we least expect it. Then it goes back into hiding.

I think The Last Unicorn is a really beautiful example of all these ideas coming together. The unicorn must come to grips with the fact that she is not innocent anymore. She has grieved, she has loved, and she knows the bittersweetness of regret. Her journey is self discovery, but a tragic one, one that we all go through at one time or another. It's a film that still resonates deeply with me because the notion of grief and growth has always been present in my life.

Anyway, sorry for the ramble. Was just thinking about it quite a bit today.

#millie says #the last unicorn #death cw #abuse cw #for the mentions

[aashiqui-aashiqui]

Hello!!!! I’d love to know if you have a favourite BVB player…?

omg hello! favourite bvb player is a question that is hard to answer because i do love them all but sometimes they take turns giving me brain rot. if that makes sense. julian seems to be the one who is doing right now.

oh but marco is forever. like even if im not posting about him hes just always there and beloved.

#asks 💌 #i love getting asks so if you want to ask away go ahead!! i love to talk to others <333 #julian brandt #marco reus #for the mentions #football tag

[casey-complains]

(Covid anon from a while back. I tried sending this before but my internet cut out so idk if it sent. Sorry if this is a duplicate.)

I can’t go off-anon because it’s not safe (I feel like that one’s fairly self-explanatory) and I don’t want myself connected with him any more than I already was. And I will not be providing proof nor evidence. I have had previous traumatic experience with (unrelated) abuse where I had undeniable proof/evidence of what had happened to me, and still it wasn’t enough and no one believed me. It was incredibly traumatizing and I’m still messed up by it. I’m not opening myself up to that again. If it’s not enough now it won’t be enough ever.

I understand your not wanting to believe some random stranger on the internet, I honestly get it. I have nothing to gain and everything to lose from talking about it. I just wanted to keep people safe so no one else would be hurt by him. I don’t want people getting hurt. You don’t have to believe me, but please at least hear me and be cautious when interacting with him. I really truly don’t want anyone else to get hurt by him ever again.

And I apologize for dumping all of that on you in the first place. It’s not fair to you and I shouldn’t have done that. I’ll try to do better in the future. I’m sorry for traumadumping on you. Please take care of yourself and stay safe.

Please stay safe 💔

thank you for the follow up message, its genuinely appreciated. i wish you the best, anon, and for you to heal. im an abuse survivor myself, and i know how it feels to not be believed - i do realise now i came across a little harsh in my original response, and i apologise

dont get me wrong, with his recent public manipulative behaviour, ive had second thoughts about your claims. at this point, i wouldnt be surprised if he was as much as a piece of shit as you said

allegations true or not, i genuinely do not want anyone being hurt by thomas' actions. i hope you find peace with yourself and your expierences too

#abuse tw #for the mentions #kc.log

[mayhemchicken-artblog]

in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off

#art #artists on tumblr #bitches will say ''in what context are these colors pretty'' #and then post the delicate hues of sunlight filtering through the leaves of a forest in late springtime #edit: censored the other op bc some of yall are starting to scare me and i don't want them getting harassed #and as long as im here. stop telling me it's the shrek colors i know it's the shrek colors #everybody and their mother has already mentioned it's the shrek colors

[lastoneout]

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

#hply fuck y'all I haven't felt like this?? ever??? #tryinf to be gentle with myself #but I truly feel like I'm made of glass #personal #negative #vent #cw suicide mention #ask to tag

[dendrochronologies]

maya angelou saying the funniest thing anyone has ever said about editing, which i can never let myself forget EVER AGAIN [x]

#OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT? DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN. IF YOU DO I WILL NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN. #i used to think about this interview all the tiiiiime i can't believe i let myself lose track of it!!!!!!! #maya angelou #FAVE #editing #*r #god i've read this a thousand times and i still laugh every time it's so GOOD #'OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT. DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN' #notifications are off for this besties 💗 #i will eventually turn reblogs back on but 20k notes overnight was a little too much pls slow down ✋️ #also pls do not follow me unless you are desperately in love with me. i can't make silly little personal posts with so many of you here!!!!

[whaledocboi]

ai generated images make me increasingly sad and tired the more i see them in more and more casual contexts. i dont know how to explain, but it just fills the world with a bunch of nothing. no matter how visually stunning the pictures might be, there's nothing behind it for me. no dedication, no emotions, no feelings, no hard work or creativity, nothing i can truly think about, admire or enjoy. i dont think thats how art is supposed to be

#not to mention ripping off and plagirazing real artists hard work of course #which is a whole other conversation #i cant feel the same love and adoration for whatever the slop machine produces #it will never be the same #im just really tired #anti ai #anti ai art

[demonboyhalo]

"average person sees 3 spiders a year" factoid is a statistical error. Sephora Georg, who attracts 3 million horny spiders with the spider sex lotion, is an outlier adn should not have been counted

#sephora spider sex cream #please tell me other people are caught up on the Sephora Reddit discovering that lotion that attracts wild spiders #spiders georg #spiders mention #Sephora

[ski-ip]

elf ears

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #farlyn #marcille #laios #laios touden #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #ryoko kui mentioned in one of the extras(?) that elf ears are soft and thin like a goat's and it's just so cuteee #they're so biteable #farlyn impulsive thoughts #comic #the touden siblings are freaks like that (affectionate)

[dykefaggotry]

interesting how transmascs & transfems alike think losing weight is the answer to pass as our chosen gender.... almost as if fat people are never Truly afforded a passing gender regardless of trans status. as fat people we are never Truly seen as Men or Women. anyway fuck that notion & if u think u need to lose weight to pass that's the devil talking

#weight mention tw

[starbuck]

i say i like tragedies and everyone’s all like ‘why do you like sad stories? are you depressed?’ and never ‘how was the catharsis? was the catharsis fun?’

#i don’t know how to explain this to normal people 😭😭 #for the record my coworkers didn’t directly question me on this #but i think i have vastly overestimated the amount of the population who is aware of like. Films. #NOT claiming that i have seen a lot - but i’ve mentioned three *REALLY* well-known films in the past four days #and got blank stares each time #the one of them was a REALLY good reference too… someday my top-notch association skills will be recognized #my first act as Mansion Acquaintance of the [redacted] Director will be to force everyone to watch a 40s romcom i didn’t even like #i’m getting off the point #the POINT is that It’s About The Catharsis

[myautisticpov]

"People shouldn't post about how the contraceptive pill can be prescribed for non-contraceptive reasons because it's sex negative" feels like a take that can only come from people who don't realise just how young some people end up being prescribed the pill

Like, fine, you, person in your twenties, might be comfortable being like "this is the pill I take to fuck without getting pregnant", but I don't think it's sex negative for a thirteen-year-old who has been prescribed it for debilitating period pain to not want to have to hide their medication from their classmates on an overnight school trip because their classmates think that the only reason anyone would take it is that they're sexually active

#menstruation mention

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

being a student during peak pandemic was so fucking surreal like. "it's not an excuse to fall behind" I cannot stress enough to you how much A Worldwide Plague Upending Life As We Know It is literally one of The Top Three Reasons to fall behind

#you go upstairs to hear the news talk about the death toll hitting 100k. you get some frozen waffles bc its all you've got stocked up #and you wont risk going to get groceries or takeout. you go back downstairs because you have a 3 page essay due. #you stare at your word doc with lofi playing and wonder why you can't just buckle down and work like normal. #or really. you pretend to wonder #because you know the reason you cant work like normal #you just refuse to allow yourself to believe its reason enough #mine #academia #covid mention

[dogmotif]

if you're not obsessed with anything weird and niche please try harder. stop going outside for a while. consider getting weirder about the things you already like

#have i mentioned to you guys that ive got back into robot wars. really full force #and its not that niche really but its confined to a specific group of fans. and its very autistic #will speaks

[vinylattes]

What is the key to enjoying life? (x)

#good omens #ineffable husbands #aziraphale x crowley #michael sheen #david tennant #goodomensedit #dakotasvibe #userligaya #they GET it #me and my friends analyzing themes etc #idk if someone mentioned this already #but their complimenting fit colors is so cute #bestie things #*500 #*1k #*5k #*10k #*15k #*20k #*25k #*30k #*35k #*40k #*45k #*50k #*55k #*60k #*65k #*70k