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caesium-55 · 1 month

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—seven days. [ vi.ii ]

pairing: max verstappen x manager! reader.

summary: as the third time world champion, max verstappen's manager, you function on the belief that whatever max verstappen wanted, max verstappen shall get. but this time, after four years of working as his manager, you can't give him what he wants anymore and that was to stay.

author's note: guess who's not listening in her calculus lecture rn. also, wifi is acting funny rn.

tags: @whatamidoingwithmylife-ramdom @eugene-emt-roe @bellezaycafe @barnestatic @theseerbetweenus @wcnorris @notyouraveragemochii @lpab @vildetry06 @a-beaverhausen @formula1mount @loloekie @alucardsdaddyissues @juky-ps @cassianswh0reeee @devotedlycrookeddonut @amberpanda99 @supermaxv1 @evie-119 @spideylovin @harianaswhore @formulaal

masterlist.

2020

There have been a lot of new protocols to follow. Social distancing. Wearing face masks. Races being rescheduled. Australia, China, Netherlands, Monaco, Azerbaijan, Canada, and France are canceled. Vietnam is postponed. The first race of the season takes place in the Red Bull Ring in Austria and Max gets a fucking DNF.

After exchanging Instagram accounts in December, Max has spent a normal amount of time stalking your feed. That's what you do when you’re trapped inside your apartment alone because of a global health crisis, you explore the online world.

It seems like you’ve been operating the account since your university days and a lot of your posts show a side of you that’s different from the manager he knows. He learns that you play billiards competitively. You've even reached an Australian tournament. He learns that you watch NASCAR and motocross and drift racing. He learns that you know how to drive a firetruck. He learns that you like partying in LA and you took up volunteer work in the LA fire brigade around your sophomore year. He learns that you’re particularly fond of taking pictures of the skies at different times of the day and the things you’re studying. He notices that you only post group selfies or low angle blurry selfies of you. You don't take pretty pictures of just you.

The oldest post is a photo of you offering a middle finger while smiling and filling up the gas tank of a truck. You're also wearing a red sweatshirt with the letters USC written at the front and skinny ripped jeans. If you swipe right, the next photo shows a picture of you and your group of friends writing on papers on the hood of the truck. Max sees numbers and scratches and crossed out sketches. Max notices a canned beer on your other hand while you press down on your scientific calculator buttons and shakes his head. You do not change.

The latest post is a photo dump of the Abu Dhabi Grand Prix in 2019. A picture of the aerial show, grainy zoomed in pictures of the garage, selfies with the mechanics, a bathroom mirror selfie, and a blurry picture of a beer in your hand from the after party. He presses like in every post, latest to the oldest.

you: fucking stalker

max: fuck you

max: *sent a photo*

max: nice teeth by the way

you: i hate you

you: *sent a photo*

you: ya think im the only one who looks ugly with braces?

Since then, Max’s relationship with you has considerably improved. The two of you spend a lot of nights dm-ing each other on Instagram and sending each other reels.

max: SOS

you: ??

max: I THINK THE STOVE IS ON FIRE

you: the stove is supposed to have fire

max: ITS ON FIRE

You and Max sit on the floor, back against the kitchen counter, chest heaving in quick breaths, shoulders bumping against each other. You hold the fire extinguisher close to your chest and your eyes are closed and your lips are parted a little. Max observes your side profile.

You're not a categorically attractive woman. But with the way the sun rays enter Max’s kitchen window and hit your face at all the right angles, you look like someone worth missing a sunset over. Max allows himself to stare and mentally tries to convince himself that this is a very normal amount of staring at one’s manager slash friend.

He’s crossing the line that divides friendship and something unnamed.

“Do you need me to call maintenance so we can get your stove replaced?”

Max nods.

“Yes please.”

You post a new picture on Instagram after a long period of dryness. Max gets a notification. He checks it out.

The caption reads: meet my full time dog and part time boyfriend

The picture is blurry and grainy but Max can make out your face perfectly. There’s a billiard table. Max sees a person in the background. A man. He's wearing a Williams shirt.

Is that a racer? Max immediately thinks of Nicholas Latifi. You and him are around the same age. But the blurry man in the picture doesn't look like Nicholas. The hair color and the build is different. George, maybe? He’s a year younger than Max. Do you prefer your men younger? Scratch that. That’s impossible. Max knows he has a girlfriend named Carmel or Carmen or something.

max: you have a boyfriend

you: youre fast

max: when did this happen?

you: uh

you: earlier?

Max resists the urge to hurl his phone across the room.

max: details [name]

max: i need details

you: nuh uh kid you havent unlocked that level of friendship yet

you: that's friendship level 8 ur still on level 6

max: i will hunt you down and force you to tell me

max: and don't call me kid i'm one year younger than you

you: id like to see you try

max: i think u forgot im the one who gave you the apartment where u live rn

You introduce Leo to Max a month later.

Leo is a British brunette guy with a face that one would consider mid in Europe but a ten in the US. He is one of the Williams mechanics. You mention that he used to do karting as a kid and even went up to F3 but he’s decided to discontinue his racing career because he thinks engineering and the technical aspects of a formula car is far more interesting than racing.

He’s basically the complete opposite of Max.

He’s a good guy, Max can tell. He’s well-mannered, he’s calm, he knows how to treat you right. Above all else, he makes you the happiest. You have the most genuine and beautiful smile on your face when he comes into your view.

He also handles your relationship very maturely. He doesn't demand. He understands that you work for different racing teams with different jobs and that means different priorities.

The weekly IG posts are also too cute. It looks like it came out of a Pinterest board.

Max will never tell you that he spends a good hour every time you post something with Leo in it like an obsessive freak. He tries to make sense of the feeling in his chest. Something green. Something ugly. Something he can't name.

Max should be happy that you found a guy as great as Leo. But he cannot, for the life of him, be fully happy for you. He doesn't know why.

“PR told me that you received a dinner invite from Kelly Piquet,” you state, sitting down on the empty chair across from him and putting your packed lunch on the table. You carefully lay the folded clothes on the other chair. Max deduces they will be the ones he’ll be wearing for the interview scheduled in about two hours. You already sent him the list of questions in his email but he hasn't opened them yet.

“Yeah,” Max says after swallowing. “She’s been sending invites since two months ago.”

“And you left her on seen?”

Max scoffs, “I didn't leave her on seen. I just…well, I saw them late and declined them politely.”

He knows Kelly Piquet. He’s aware of the history she shared with former Red Bull Racing now Toro Rosso driver, Daniil Kvyat. Max also knows she’s the daughter of Nelson Piquet, retired Formula One champion. He thinks it's rude to take the guy’s ex-girlfriend after he’s taken his seat in Red Bull.

“She’s interested in you,” you claim, opening the tupperware and quickly saying grace before digging in.

Max is not good with dealing with women. Twenty-three years old and he’s still girlfriend-less. But he knows how to recognize people who are interested in him. A significant number of women have tried their chances with him since he began racing professionally and he may have used you as some sort of getaway driver to get him out of all the awkward situations where he has to deal with women who are interested in him.

You have a very scary resting bitch face if you try hard enough. Its efficiency in scaring off people is proven to be, well, efficient.

“Yeah, I suppose.”

“Are you interested in her?” you question.

Max thinks about it. Really thinks about it.

“Do you think it’ll be good if I get a girlfriend?” he throws you a question instead of an answer.

“You're twenty-three, man. It's about time you start doin’ somethin’ about your empty dating history.”

Max nose scrunches but doesn't say anything because it's the truth. His dating history is hilariously empty.

“What’s your opinion of Kelly?”

“Uh, cool pussy, I guess. Don't really care.”

Max rolls his eyes, “You’re so crude.”

You shrug uncaringly.

“But I don't mind who you wanna date, man. I mean, it's your life. Date who you wanna date. Live the life you wanna live. All the jazz and shedazzle.”

Max accepts the dinner invite.

The 2020 season ends with Hamilton standing at the top, officially becoming a seven-time world champion. Bottas is behind him. Verstappen, like 2019, still stands in third place. Max vows 2020 will be the last year Hamilton becomes a world champion. The team doesn't hold a big afterparty like it usually does and Max flies home to Monaco immediately.

It's been months since he's started seeing Kelly and the woman is pleasant company. Her daughter, Penelope, is the most adorable human being that ever stepped on Earth. Max loves the little bean with all his heart and he himself is surprised that he’s capable of loving a little human this much. He’s practically convinced that he’ll be a shitty father one day. He does not have a good model figure to look up to when it comes to fatherhood.

Little P, Max learns, is obsessed with crocheted things. Max sees her little bags and little hats—all crocheted. Kelly says she pays their housekeeper to make things for little Penelope because she likes them so much.

Max decides he wants to learn how to crochet. He buys the material and learns through hundreds of Youtube videos. His first masterpiece is a bag. It's white and light orange. He shows it to his mum, who questions how on Earth did her son take an interest in a hobby other than racing or anything car-related. Despite that, she compliments it and Max feels confident that you’ll like it, too, now that he’s gotten his mother’s approval.

He finishes making it by the eighteenth day of December and he calls you, hoping he has the chance to give it before you fly down to Texas for the off-season. But you already left Monaco, just the day before and are now spending the first few weeks of the break in New Zealand with Leo.

“So it's serious?” Max asks you over the phone. He stares at the dark sky in Belgium. There's no stars tonight. Only the moon and it’s looking down at him like it's mocking him. Max wonders what the sky looks like in New Zealand right now.

“Of course,” you say.

“Well then, enjoy the holidays.”

“You, too, man.”

The call ends.

2021

Max sees you enter the Red Bull hospitality. The first thing he notices is that your shoes are brand new. Same model—the black and gold YSL Opyum heels, yes he knows the name because he searched it on Google—but brand new. Your bag is also brand new and it’s not the old cream-colored tote bag with peach prints. It's a cream-colored tote bag with Van Gogh’s painting—the Starry Night—printed at the front. You show it to Max excitedly and tell him that it's from Leo, the bag and the shoes, and Max fakes a smile the whole time. When he returns to his room in the evening, he throws the crochet bag he made over December in the trash bin. Kelly sees it but she doesn't question it.

“PR suggests that you film a Tiktok.”

Max groans, throwing his head back and rolling his eyes to the back of his head.

“Tell them no.”

“Come on, it’ll be fun,” you encourage him, shaking his shoulders. “There's a lot of dance trends right now.”

“I said no, [Name].”

“Max.”

You throw your hands on your waist, looking at him pointedly with your lips pursed. Max returns the stare.

He gives up after five seconds.

“Fine.”

You huff in triumph.

“But you’re doing it with me,” Max bargains.

“Oh come on,” you throw your hands in the air.

“Now you know how it feels. Tell PR that I’m not going to film a Tiktok unless you film it with me,” Max smiles cheekily.

You're not going to film a Tiktok video with him. He knows you hate filming yourself and posting it for the public. There's a reason why you avoided cameras as if it’s the sun and you're a vampire and had all your social media accounts in private.

You pull an unexpected move and you nod your head.

“Fine.”

Max’s smile drops.

You film a Tiktok using Red Bull Racing’s official Tiktok account. A simple dance. Max does not know the title. The steps are simple and it's easy to memorize. He believes he can do this fairly easily. You don't look like you’re having fun while memorizing the dance steps but you're not overly struggling.

You film the video in three takes. When Max sees the final outcome, he cringes. His long limbs look awkward as he performs the steps despite thinking that he’s doing fine while filming it. You, on the other hand, look fine.

You look good while dancing actually. There’s a certain grace that accompanied your movements.

“You dance good,” Max comments.

“It’s the Latina in me,” you claim, raising your chin a little.

Max snorts.

You show the draft video to the PR team. Without hesitation, they scratched it.

“Why?” Max asks, brows furrowing.

“Apparently, they're too tired releasing statements that we’re not dating. They're afraid that the Tiktok video would bring back our dating rumors,” you roll your eyes. “They’ve decided to just make you do a Tiktok filter game.”

Max does the one filter where he has to solve the simple math equations projected on the screen. He has to tilt his head to the side where the right answer is placed and he needs to do it quickly.

Max is not bad at Mathematics. He’s not good at it either. He’ll say that he’s just average at it like every human being on Earth.

You sit beside him, barking him the answers before his brain can even process and perform the required operations.

“60 points. That's not good enough,” he says.

You nod, “Damn right. You're not tilting your head to the right answer fast enough.”

“Maybe you're not giving the answers quick enough.”

The video gets more than ten takes. The two of you don't stop until you get the perfect score.

Monza is a disaster. To summarize: the 53-lap race is won by Daniel Ricciardo, who has now moved to McLaren. He capitalizes on a good front-row start and the crash between Max Verstappen and Lewis Hamilton to take the race lead. Lando, Daniel’s teammate comes in second with Mercedes' Valtteri Bottas in third. Max and Lewis—DNF.

Max doesn't remember the last time he’s been that angry and the anger doubles when he sees the seven-time world champion celebrate on the tracks. Max then decides that he’s going to be more risky, especially now that he knows how safe the car is. Max is willing to risk his life for number one.

Max lies in the medical bay and he hears voices outside. Too many voices. He’ll appreciate it greatly if the voices disappear. He's too angry right now that the noise of the outside world is too much.

“Max?”

The voices disappear and it's only you he can see, he can hear, he can feel. You're everything.

You said it. His name. It sounds even better than he imagined.

“[Name].”

After making sure he’s okay, you tell Max that you wish to go to Danny and congratulate him for winning. Max grabs your hand, unwilling to let go.

“You're not his manager anymore,” Max reminds you. “You're mine.”

He’s very much aware that he sounds like a child who refuses to let his older brother borrow his favorite toy but he cannot find himself to care. Screw Daniel.

You give him a long look but follows his demands anyway, “We’re gonna congratulate him later whether you like it or not. He’s our friend and he just got P1. We’re gonna be happy for him 'cuz that's what friends do. I’ll drag your ass to his hotel room if I have to.”

Jos Verstappen is not happy. When has he ever been happy with Max anyway? He calls Max after the Monza race and proceeds to yell because that’s all he ever does with Max. He yells. Max is embarrassed that he’s twenty-three and he’s still getting yelled at by his own father.

“Your Dad’s an asshole,” you stated after he ends the call. Max knows you heard his father’s voice even though he has not put the call on loudspeaker.

“Don't talk to my Dad like that,” he reprimands, though not unkindly. “But yeah, he is.”

You snort, “You okay?”

Max lets out a shaky breath, nodding weakly.

"Yeah, I'm fine. You would think that after all this time I would get used to it but I don't know. It still makes me feel so uncomfortable and like I'm doing everything wrong even though I've been doing that for such a long time now and I've achieved so many things he asked for."

Your gaze softens and Max mentally begs that you stop looking at him like that. He does not want your pity. Pity is for the weak. Max is not weak.

You open your arms, “Rein it in, big guy.”

“What are you doing?”

“You need a hug.”

Max hesitates but he invites himself to your arms anyway. He allows himself to melt. In your arms, he feels like he's home and that he's good enough.

The breakup happens two race weekends later. Max is not dumb nor is he so emotionally indifferent that he cannot sense if a person is going through a breakup especially if that person is someone so close to him. He already knows there’s something wrong and he knows exactly what’s wrong and yet he still asks, “What's wrong?”

“Nothin’,” you say a little too quickly as if you already know that Max is going to ask the question.

“[Name],” his fingers circle around your wrist. “It's not nothing. Your eyes are red. Have you been crying?”

He wants you to open up. He wants you to say something. He wants you to share the heartache you carry so it won't feel heavy on your shoulders. He wants to be someone who’ll carry your problems with you when the world feels too big and you too small.

You sigh shakily, forcing a polite smile. Your hand comes up to squish Max’s cheek in between your palms and Max’s brows rise slightly at the action. Your hands feel cold and they’re trembling slightly and Max wants to point it out, but he sees how your lips wobble and his mind just blanks, “It's not important. You only have one thing to think about and that is to win. You hear me?”

Max considers marching to the Williams Racing livery and demanding for Leo Stark but he chooses not to. You won't want him to, anyway.

Max never realizes how horrifying blood is until he sees it dripping down the side of your head. He watches as your face changes from shock to realization to absolute anger. It’s like watching you transform from human to a rabid animal who wants to shed blood. At first, he tries to pull you away and calm you down. When he sees the girl’s boyfriend appear, Max joins the fight. No man is allowed to hit you. Not on his watch.

The higher-ups are not the happiest when they learn of what happened. The PR team is having a field day as well. Someone captured the event in video and posted it online. Max has been given a script for the video he’ll have to do to save his image but it’s written differently. Different in a way that the way the words are arranged feels odd to him unlike the way you write your scripts for Max. You write the scripts as if Max is the one who writes them. You write the script in a way Max will write them. Because you know him enough to know what kind of words he wants to use and how he’ll phrase things. You choose words that are easy on his tongue and you structure the sentences so that he can memorize them easily.

Helmut is the one who says, “She should leave the team.”

“If you fire her, I’m leaving,” Max decides.

Christian narrows his eyes at him, “You won't dare.”

“Try me,” he challenges. “I am willing to pay millions to leave if she leaves.”

The other teams want him, Max knows. They know he’s rising to stardom, a racer who can stand equal to Lewis Hamilton in the right time. Red Bull is too afraid of spitting out their star now. Not when Max is already giving Lewis Hamilton a big run for his money this year. Not when Max just showed the world that he’s capable of more than just being third place.

The wretched Hamilton fan decides to sue and Max calls upon his mother’s help to find the best lawyers to fight for you. Sophie willingly helps him.

Max is going to protect you, like you always do to him.

#max verstappen x reader #f1 x reader #formula 1 #formula one #max verstappen #max verstappen x you #f1 imagines #manager!reader #mv33 x you #mv1 x reader #mv33 x reader #mv1 #mv33

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tea0w0stache · 4 months

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I would like to ask you about the parentification of John Dory if you please

cracks knuckles.

this was inspired by a few things:

during the argument before branch leaves, jd says this; "well i'm not allowed to change!! im the oldest, i had to be the leader ! why do you think i moved into the middle of nowhere? so i didnt have to be in charge of anyone. four little brothers a LOT of responsibility!!"

and as silly as it is,

2. the way grandma rosiepuff acted during the fallout at the beginning as well as the lack of their parents in the movie.

im gonna go ahead and combine lack of parents and the quote from the movie. for starters, the way john dory phrases it implies that he had to take care of his brothers for the majority of their time together. we have absolutely 0 information on their parents yet we can safely assume they werent present for most of their lives if jd had to be in charge of the four of them that much. hes shown signs of stress and anxiety as well as the obvious perfectionism, but he really does care about his brothers.

now onto grandma rosiepuff. i love her, and from what we've seen, she was a great grandma to branch. but in families, there are favorites. i mean, come on. i know it was probably a gag to have her play cards/gamble, but it also makes you think; why the hell did she not do anything to stop brozone from breaking up? im not saying she left everything to jd, but i wouldnt be suprised if she accidentally contributed to his perfectionism and stress.

'hes the oldest, he had to be the leader.' it sounds like something a grandmother would tell their oldest grandchild. that they have to set an example for their siblings, help them out, etc. not to mention, shes an older woman. the pressure of having 4 brothers to help take care of plus a grandma can be a LOT.

so yeah, i think tbt did a REALLY good job at portraying some of the issues brozone has. branch's abandonment issues, clays desire to finally be taken seriously, bruce's desire to move on from his past, floyd's guilt and the acceptance that he may literally DIE, and of course jd's parentification. so many of these issues are realistic and are portrayed so WELL.

okay i think im done for now but yeah its been in my head and i needed to get i out. also im absolutely gonna use this as an excuse to say GO READ TOUCHY FEELY FOOL ON AO3 pretty please!! its a jd centric fic about said parentification

#tea rambles #ask #trolls #trolls jd #trolls john dory #sorry if these rambles are dumb #all of brozone has their issues #theyre so messy but they as a family still love and care for each other

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goodflagintheshadows · 8 months

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my thoughts and opinions on the wwdits season finale

i am glad guillermo is a human, and wants to be one. i think it makes entire sense that he is just not cut out for the vampire lifestyle, and i dont think its an unexpected arc in any way.

what i dont understand is how literally no one else thought of guillermos van helsing blood, making him drink human blood to finish the transformation, or killing derek in order to turn him back. i suppose it makes sense with nandor being the oldest of the vampires (aside from maybe colin robsinson), but its still surprising to see the himbo of the group figure everything out before the man who is a self-proclaimed vampire.

anyway, back to guillermo. when he finishes his transformation into a vampire, he immediately becomes a vampiric version of himself, the person he always thought he would become, and always aspired to be. i honestly could not watch him in this new persona, because it was not guillermo. he had been waiting for so long to become a vampire, so it makes complete sense for him to have had an idealized fantasy of vampiric life. he thought it would make him powerful, intimidating, sexy, and allow him to take control of his own life. what he failed to realize is that becoming a vampire would not change any of his personality, it would not make him into a better or worse person, all it would do is grant him eternal life and a few cool powers. and, with his real personality, theres no wonder he’s not cut out for the vampire life. after all, even before they became vampires, our three main vampires were not exactly the most sane humans. nadja, for one, burned down her school because they rejected her. nandor was a blood thirsty ruler whose entire persona is based on his killing and pillaging of all those that he comes in contact with. he was also known to not have been particularly caring to any of his tens of wives. laszlo, lastly, was known to have fathered and abandoned many children, not exactly the nicest thing to do. guillermo, however, has a modern morality. he sees the things that the vampires do to be, in the most part, wrong. probably he expected that once he got rid of his humanity, his morality would go with it. but, unable to feed on a human, he realizes that his moral code is fully in tact. we even see this when he finds that he cannot kill derek, and then goes to revive him.

im not sure if any of this made sense, but my point is that guillermo is human, and he is meant to be human. if they turn him back into a vampire, there better be some damn good story to back it up.

ps. to all of the people saying that them not confirming nandermo on screen is queerbaiting, please understand what queerbaiting is. like, please, a show in which the majority of characters is queer is not where we should be focusing on the topic of queerbaiting. are they baiting nandermo specifically? absolutely. are they queerbaiting? no fucking way. there are so many other things you can criticize about this show, please focus on those other criticisms instead.

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roboyomo · 2 months

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YOMOOOOOO hai :] im back 2 enable u again. i Gotta know what th hell is going on btwn yaku and kenix, what is their Deal. what is their Problem(tm). ilove hearing abt Little Beasts adn their Issues igotta know th lore...

JUST SO YOU KNOW I ACTUALLY STARTED HITTING MY LEGS IN EXCITEMENT WHEN I SAW THIS ASK BECAUSE. OHGOD DO THESE TWO HAVE A LOT. BUCKLE UP I AM ABOUT TO EXPLAIN MOST OF THE LORE THESE TWO HAVE (NOT GETTING ABOUT THEM INTO THE NEXT STORY ARC BUT IF YOU WANT TO, I COULD ALWAYS TALK ABOUT THAT AS WELL :33)

RANT ABOUT THESE TWO UNDER THE CUT!!! ALSO WARNING FOR MENTION OF MURDER YEA,,, THERE IS A LOT OF EXPLAINING

So for little bit of context for the future parts of this rant: Sanguis Vitae is almost vital for the Warriors, but their bodies cannot accept it right away as it is still a dangerous thing. So what do they get?? They get their bodies 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘦𝘥 to fit their Sanguis Vitae! While the process of reformation is still ongoing, the person is also allowed to change their physical appearance and ONLY during the period of the process, but that only explains how others look either the same as their past selves, similiar or completely different. Wanted to explain that part but the crucial condition of the reforming progress is it is not allowed to be disrupted. Any sort of injury that has occured more than once will be considered a disruption to the progress and the process will be terminated immediately, no longer able to be started again for that person so they will be stuck with the current state of their body. I am telling this because Yaku got that exact situation from the start, therefore his body was completely unable to accept his Sanguis Vitae, leaving his body almost empty and far, just MUCH MORE weaker than his coworkers, so far beyond them in ranks. Who was in fault of causing his reforming progress to be terminated? Just guess. This will make more sense once you read this to the end i swear.

ANYWAYS TIME TO GET TO THESE TWO.

Dear lord, Kenix and Yaku. like my two probably second to third oldest characters,,, and they have a lot to unpack between each other but i will try to make this not too long. First of all, just a bit about Kenix (his curse and backstory specifically!)

Kenix is not from the original timeline as i mentioned, he has never been from there originally and never will be. He is an alternate version of Yi Dal (The real name of both Kenix and the man, who went by the fake name "Ken" amongst his coworkers) from the original timeline, the man who is supposed to be the employee with be Blessing of Time. Kenix pretty much mirrors most of Ken's mannerisms, but still clearly being him, as they are the same person. While Ken had a good childhood, Kenix mirrored his childhood and. just got to grow up in probably one of the worst households. The middle child always left out of the frame, treated like nothing more than a servant by both parents nd the two siblings. He eventually escaped when he was 17, being able to feel freedom for the first time in many many years - only to be somehow tracked down by his siblings and get murdered at the age of 33. Now, I did mention that he is part of the AT crew consisting of 7 members total and that his Deadly Sin is Lust with its own interpretation.

Lust is more like an immoral desire for something, not particularly sexual like the original version of Lust. The desire for something specific that is so deep, the person swallows their own morals to achieve that something specific. For Kenix, due to the unfair and tormenting treatment he got for half of his life before death, he wished to know how it felt like to be a higher-up like the rest of the family even after his death, only for it to be twisted into a desire for power to have his vengeance. With this interpretation of Lust, his mind started to slowly rot in some way over the desire for power, to be higher-up and worshipped like a god. Just like he wanted to, right? But with the process of getting such power and title was taken to extreme levels. Swallowing down his morals, his etiquette and manners, to grasp onto that desired concept of being in power, to feel superior over others just to see how it was for others around him when he was as helpless as them now.

But a crucial condition to the curse is that he must take over the life of that version of him that mirrored everything to his life. The timeline where he was living a much better life, and Ken was the perfect candidate. So it is just "Hello, I am you from another timeline! Unfortunately, you are doing way better than me, therefore i must forcefully replace you in your own body and keep your soul trapped so you will not interrupt me :) Also i will replace your arms with mechanical ones as i favor them more" "excuse me 𝘞𝘏𝘈𝘛."

So that is how now Kenix is actually in the company, it is not like he wants to be here but oh well. Another part for his curse is that he fucking 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘴 part of Nahara's powers to adapt to his own powers of time, dooming the safety of Ortu Lunae by enraging her and making her create laws and policies against Ortu Lunae and its people and ensuring that everyone else in the company is pretty much suffering because of it (fucking HELL cursed kenix why.)

All of this also happened between Yaku's arrival to the company. And a note that Yi Haneul (All three of the siblings - Yi Haneul, Yi Dal and Yi Aera are employeed here and are all very close, so Kenix basically replaced the middle sibling) has just. adopted Yaku (why care that he is 20 years old! Boom, that is now your son, even if you are 37 years old!). This just brings us to the question - 𝘏𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘒𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘹 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘠𝘢𝘬𝘶 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺??

Since Kenix is biologically the same exact person as Ken, he is still considered Yi Haneul's younger brother and if Yaku is adopted by Haneul, then well fuck Kenix is now his uncle (Haneul, stop adopting your coworkers in their 20s. you have adopted 4 of them already. fucking stop i swear–). Anyways, that is out of the way and finally actually talking about them. (HOORAYYY WE FINALLY GOT ALL THE CONTEXT!!!!!!)

I will just say this here, Kenix is in fault for Yaku's body reforming process being terminated so now Kenix, probably the strongest employee (he has FORMED HIMSELF INTO AN ACTUAL FUCKING GOD OF TIME WHAT IS HE DOINGGG) in the company, is stuck with this boyfailure who is struggling to get at the same level as his coworkers. But it is obvious that Kenix's curse is not letting all of this go well. It does not only make him hungry for power, but also hungry for others' misfortune. It feeds off others' misery and pretty much only causes Kenix to go even more insane for his desire. One of the only choices Kenix had to somewhat suppress the process of losing his sanity is to give in, stop resisting, 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘮. It did mean that Kenix never got to experience empathy for others, he is never able to feel regret over these actions of his - the poor attempts of resisting it all did not result in anything. He has long accepted that he may never go back to what he was before, reduced to nothing but a merciless, cruel god. Being guided by what is left of his mind now, Yaku is now just but a guinea pig of some sorts. Kenix has repeatedly hurt him and reverted back all the injuries, just tormenting him verbally and physically. To the point of making Yaku cling to Kenix's words of validation. There has not been a instance where Yaku managed to handle someone reassuring him his worth without breaking down into years, yet Yaku still holds hope.

The hope that Kenix can change, and he still holds understandment for Kenix and his past (even though he has only the small pieces of the story). That is what baffles cursed Kenix the most. Yaku, who is just being tormented by Kenix, the same way it was for Kenix during his life before death, is still able to forgive him for his actions and attempt to see the best in him. Yaku did not have a better childhood either, having pressure put onto him, making him act so much more maturely at only 10 years of age as a way to "compensate" for whatever Yaku did (it was the fact that Yaku was born at all. i swear almost no one here had a good childhood). But he still had hopes for the world, unlike Kenix who has only been nothing but hatred to everyone because if they are so great, where were they when he needed their help? Their comfort? Those same words of validation, that he needed to get through it all?

Kenix had tried to create a facade. He, who has no problems, no regrets, no sorrow, with his past discarsed - only he who focuses solely on himself and his desire. But he cannot keep it up, it can, shall, and will fall through the cracks and show how much he is struggling to avoid the inevitable. He is aware that once he will finally go fully insane and let the curse fully take over what is left of his mind, there will be nothing even remotely recognizable of what he was as a person and there will be nothing that others can do about it.

It is not like he can keep up the look of being normal to his standards, continuing to last as he drowns himself in his problems until he reaches insanity and everything comes crashing down. And Yaku always notices it. Growing up in a complicated household where he was denied having a normal childhood, Yaku has a way of noticing a lot of details about others to memorize their patterns. He wants to believe that Kenix could become a better person, and he keeps on trying to make their relationship better

And Kenix hated that someone has this much hope that he can be helped. He doesn't want to be loved this way, because he doesn't believe himself that he will ever get better. In Kenix's relationship with the AT crew, they all are on the same level to him. They all have committed sins that have brought them here, gathered together in a circle of what they all just perceive as 'Hell'. They show appreciation for each other, acknowledging that they are sinners and will never get better. They learn to live where they accept that they are bad people (well, maybe except for Artemis, she is just a kid who denies change and the future, not like a fucked up person like Kenix) and there is nothing they can do about it. Just letting sorrow drown them until they reach their end with insanity right beside them and disappear into nothingness to be forgotten.

Their dynamic is like "I have hurt you, and i will hurt you again. I am a bad person so you should not try to fix me. Leave me be" "I know you have it hard, so i want to help you because i believe that there is still a happy end for you." "How dare you try to show me love and appreciation. Get hit with the thing and stop trying to be kind to me". Kenix even had Yaku be a lab rat for an experiment whether Yaku's body was able to accept the Sanguis Vitae of Time, despite his body never even finishing reforming halfway through. (Which was the reason for Yaku's resurrection in the halfway through the story and that. accidentally merged the powers of Thunder and Time for Yaku which was just forced on him IT IS CONFUSING RIGHT NOW WITHOUT CONTEXT OKAY). Even despite all of that, Yaku still holds hope, the belief that everyone can become a better person even if they think that they are beyond saving. He wants to believe that they all can, why wouldn't they be able to? It is all a possibility, no matter if there is a non-zero or a huge chance. He wants to help everyone catch that possibility and change their path, change their future by changing the present. Yaku still has no confidence in that he is worth loving, that he is worth being paid attention to, but he still holds the hope, the wish that everything will be better for everyone - and that is what pushes him to go forward.

In short, Yaku will not be giving up on Kenix any time soon, he will continue to attempt and help him. Afterall, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺, and Kenix fucking hates that he keeps trying it.

#basically. both are traumatized. INCREDIBLY #and their relatonship is fucked. how can you say that this is a normal dynamic for an uncle and a nephew #i would say get them therapists but you know. i don't think that will help either of them #ALSO HOLYSHIT I THINK THIS MIGHT BE LONGER THAN THE EXPLANATION FOR THE SETTING?????@@$&@-#yomo ocs?!#yomoposting #ocs

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brucespringsteendotcom · 11 months

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your tags on the post about mourning memories where you said something along the lines of gently holding and admiring your memories was so impactful and i will be taking that forward with me <3

aw :) im glad <3

actually let me talk about this for a minute because it's something i think about a lot, especially having lived very very far from home for almost two years now, and reflecting constantly on all that we lose as we move through time and the world....these are not new thoughts by any means in fact they might be the oldest thoughts in the world but. i think it's easy to get stuck on everything is gone and i can't get it back. childhood is over and you can never go back. that post thats like i cant let it go = i drag its dead weight forward. woah. how do you grapple with that. it haunts you! keeps you awake keeps you stuck keeps you paralyzed. i am always getting stuck on my past experiences. and clinging to every moment i've felt truly alive. i talk about it a lot on my journal app (peach) (journal that your friends read) (lovely app) and i am aalways thinking oh my god i sound like taylor swift (notoriously has never gotten over anything in her life) but i think that like. and i dont know how to put this but im doing my best. i think that when someone is struggling with the grief that comes as a byproduct of living it's easy to jump to Let go and move on. you can't stay stuck in the past because it will kill you and it's not coming back and when something breaks your heart you have to completely leave it behind or it Will Kill You. and i DONT think that's true because i've found that there's much beauty in allowing it to walk beside you. rather than shunning it. ghosts are about love!! the killing you part happens when you try to bridge the gap when you refuse to let ghosts be ghosts and try to keep living like they are tangible. they aren't going to change and things will never be the same again but the ghosts can passively accompany you. i think they are supposed to

#looks at this paragraph. well this doesnt cohere. post it

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peachiime · 5 months

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Op may I ask for details about Tgirl Shinya? (<- Excited)

OKOKOK SO WHAT IF THIS REALLY FUCKED UP ANNOYING ASS PIECE OF SHIT GAMER BOY....... WAS A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!

there is no actual reason for the headcanon's existence, it was just a thought i had once, brushed off, and then it slowly expanded over time and literally just last night (i think) i decided. fuck it. girl shinya

but as we all know, the random ass thoughts are the best ones!

being the absolute name nerd i am, i've decided that maya could be a potential chosen name because it uses the exact same kanji as shinya. just. said different (真也) though usually i'm not one for calling a character by an entirely different name so she's staying shinya in my head and in future posts

her and futaboy are obviously jokers little siblings and therefore each other's siblings. shinya tries to give futaba tips on looking more masculine while futaba does the same for shinya on looking feminine. but a lot of their advice is fashion-oriented and. well. they dress like they had nothing but fabric scraps and plastic to piece together

and i think about torasojiwai family all the time!! we all know this. and i can't keep calling them torasojiwai family because i don't think that's a fitting name

but shinya and KAORU siblings. lets think about that.

"hey kaoru if you give me one of your dads model guns i'll give you money" "uhh no?? im not even allowed in his shop, i cant do that" "MISOGYNIST!!!!!!!!!"

kaoru isnt even the oldest of this sibling squad (futaba and ren are his brothers as well. remember that) but hes the most responsible out of all of them and god now that shinya has a minority card it is impossible to shut her up

tbh all of them would be teasing kaoru as the token cisgender. but this is not about kaoru this is about GIRL SHINYA

obv tora and sojiro are her dads as well. but iwai especially. gun dad gun daughter

i think he's ready to beat the shit out of anyone who messes with her in the slightest. tora is such a huge trans ally in my opinion. and sojiro uhhhhh......... he tries? ("NOBODY talks to MY SON that way HE is a GIRL" energy)

also im working on a design for her and its basically the same as before but with slightly different hair and also......

ok. maybe i can show you drawings right now.

get hrt

i made this as a joke but also like. lowkey might draw my own designs for some of the non-party confidants soon and this helps me imagine things

yeah basically the only major change to the design is the bottom half of her. because as much as i want this girl to look nice for once we also have to keep in mind that said girl is SHINYA ODA so. we cant have everything :/

blurry ass photos

you probably didn't want this post to be so long! but i am very passionate about girl shinya! my apologies

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idiotthatdrawsakaartist · 11 months

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sorry for the crappy quality! my dumbass overrode the original file with just his naked body. ( this is a doll, the body is reusable. I do this all the time when redesigning, just helps me not stress about the body and just allows me to focus on designing their clothes XD) so I had to download a smaller version I sent to one of my best friends.

Any who crappy quality aside, I decided to redesign Ogron's past look. ( dw I'm keeping his main outfit, just with some color changes. simply put I don't like how all the wizards have the same color pallet so im giving them individual accent colors. Ogron is obviously purple but idk about the others just yet XD )

So his past look is based on the Mesopotamia civilization and their fashion. mainly because in order for magic to have disappeared in everyone's minds by the time that Bloom got their, a SIGNIFICANT amount of time had to have past. So why not pick the oldest civilization we know of XD also it gives me an excuse to show his chest off.

let me be gay okay ):V

Also yes I did paint his nails, I'm aware that its probably not historically accurate but hey this is a show about magical fairies, complete accuracy isn't what I'm aiming for XD

plus the fact that purple is even possible here makes no sense but again it doesn't matter bc M A G IC uwu

#winx club #art #fanart #winx club fanart #the wizards of the black circle #redesign #winx club redesign #artist #artwork #design #concept art

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merakiui · 2 years

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Hi hi hi Mera!! I wanna share this one idea i had of the SAGAU that I think no one has written/published(?! I really havent seen anyone write this concept before so--)

Its basically where after the Reader is revealed as the true Creator/God, so everyone is begging for forgiveness and crying and begging and some have even instantly turned on the Imposter and attacked them and forced them onto their knees to make them bow before the true God and

Reader just looks at them, repulsed.

For months theyve been hunting them down like a pest, torturing and degrading them, and now just because a little bit of stardust in their blood they're falling over themselves trying to earn their favor and love? And how easily they turned on the Imposter to. At the very least, if they had remained consistent to the end they wouldnt feel so disgusted but no, they really just change at the drop of a hat. Its sickening. These arent the characters they fell in love with- just crazed syncophants in a cult.

So Reader cuts off their prayers and pleading and tells them that they shouldnt apologize. After all, "they" are not their god right? Just a filthy, sinful imposter who dares to wear their face and bear their name, right? And the one they just attacked and forced to the ground is their beloved "Creator", right?

So that Imposter should become the new god of Teyvat.

And as if some ancient, powerful spell had been spoken- Teyvat rumbles. The earth and the skies shake and the stardust in Reader's blood glows bright and hot like a heavenly glow before dimming to a light aura around their body while the Imposter screams. Screams as their body starts to age and wither and drain of life before they collapse to the ground as a barely breathing husk- more corpse than person as everyone becomes frenzied.

Reader disappears then, amongst the frenzied screams from immortals and mortals alike.

The month after the event leaves Teyvat shaken and spiritually broken and scared. The Archons had gotten on their hands and knees and prayed frantically for the Creator to return for an entire week straight, but when their prayers went unanswered they took the body of the false god and took it away somewhere. Some say to desecrate the Imposter, some say to figure out what the Creator's ominous last words meant.

It is exactly six months to the day later that everyone feels the first wave of consequences upon them.

Everyone awakens to a fractured grey sky, like someone had taken a picture of it and shattered it and hung the mismatched pieces to pretend nothing happened. The plants all start to wither as if they have been poorly treated despite the farmers best efforts otherwise. Plagues and pedtilence devastate the animals and meat becomes a luxury so expensive that only the absolute richest of the nation could afford.

The people clamor for answers and in turn the archons look to the oldest amongst them in confusion and desperation, and Zhongli ventures to Celestia for an answer.

The Celestial gates are open, but the heavenly palace is left bereft of anything. Only the God of Heavenly Principles is left, and she too looks weak and wretched. When Zhongli asks for answers, the Heavenly Principles coldly answers:

"Teyvat subsisted off the grace of the Creator. Now that they have abandoned us completely, and the life force of the Imposter has completely run dry, Teyvat will fall into nothing.

If you want this doomed world to continue, then you must sacrifice people in substantial amounts to even match a fraction of the Creator's power for Teyvat to subsist on. Otherwise, we can all face the collapse of this world together. For this is the judgement of the highest of the Heavens, and I will not allow any sinner to escape it."

That became a story at the end im sorry i got too into it asdfgjklakgsha

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:O that’s so interesting!!!! Your concepts never cease to amaze me. They’re always so creative!!

#chit chat #self aware genshin #scorpiris-sideralis #i love this idea because it’s so grim and has a feeling of helplessness #*chef’s kiss* it’s so good aaaaa!!

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apompkwrites · 1 year

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I wanted to continue off of my Mei!Al-Asim idea with appearances, but anon asks dont allow images… *disintegrates*

So instead I’ll go over how their power works, since TWST and Honkai are VASTLY different in terms of how magic works. I’ll just go over how they got them, rather than how they use it and how powerful it is- so this’ll be in parts bc i don’t want to write an essays worth of words today.

I’ll try to go without spoilers since you said before you hadn’t played honkai before, and I wouldn’t want to spoil it in case you ever wanted to try it out. Btw, I had Mei!Al-Asim being the oldest in mind while writing, since I feel it works better.

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When people conceptualise Yuu overblots, I’ve seen people say things like “Yuu absorbed some of the blot from the characters who have previously overblotted”. Kalim’s family is very rich and well off, and to my knowledge has to have safety measures to prevent kidnappings and assassination attempts. Mei!Al-Asim was kidnapped when they were either a child or very young teen. They were taken to an abandoned research facility and were to be used as a hostage to exploit as much money as possible from the Asims. The building wasn’t in the best shape and was the base for many unethical experiments. Mei!Al-Asim, being in close proximity to the toxins absorbed it. The experiments were likely trying to introduce foreign chemicals into the body to make it compatible with a serum that was supposed to enhance and bestow new powers to the subject. Mei!Al-Asim coincidentally was compatible with one and was able to take it in with no major side effects, but being a new compound(?) in the body, it had to be housed in a new part, which manifested itself as a stigmata (it’s what it was originally called in Honkai. I just have no idea what to rename it to). It on their back but is not visible unless its power is being used.

Mei!Al-Asim was deemed ‘unfit to be the heir’ of the Asims by their parents. They were shunned by their parents and the servants, who thought “If the Asims do it, who cares if I do it too”. This led to Mei!Al-Asim having to learn basic skills like cleaning on their own since no one would do it for them anymore. Even so, they developed a hobby for cooking, and enjoyed doing it.

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And I will end it there, since I will have to introduce a Kiana into the idea (Kiana is Meis best friend. They go way back). This was just me taking Mei’s original story and trying to fit it into the twst world, so it’s subject to change. A quick question: do you mind me making an OC to fit the role of Kiana? I just don’t know who I’d use to fit the role. I’m open to suggestions. Also I’d definitely recommend playing Honkai. The characters and story are amazing and it’s rlly fun too. It can be confusing at first and the lore is a bit tough to understand, but I’m happy to explain things (im Lvl 75 i the game). If not, thats fine!

Anyways, I’ve talked long enough. I’m gonna end it here. Take care!

-🦋 anon

interesting :OO

im probably gonna try out honkai impact soon :DD but i really like this idea! love the overarching theme in black sheep of really unprofessional servants being mean to them </33

i dont have much input in terms of who could take up kiana? so i'll leave that up to you guys who have more experience in honkai :))

#a pompk answers #black sheep #a 🦋anon's rambles

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selkiecoded · 2 years

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where does one read orv? i've started reading on novelowl, but it seems like the translation was made by a person with dyslexia or something, so yeah. would much appreciate if you shared the knowledge <3

AHH okay firstly: this is the website i used when i first started reading orv. + this is the carrd that allows you to download an epub of the novel (ive downloaded this file, its safe haha) + this is the official webtoon english translation of the manhwa

explanation of translation differences below (youll probably want to read this)

lovely! now that thats out of the way, id like to clarify that there are (at minimum) three commonly accepted translations of the story. the webtoon manhwa, but more prominently: a translation of the first 362 chapters by user RainbowTurtle, and a translation of the remaining chapters by user A_Passing_Wanderer.

RT's translation is.. well, i very much appreciate them translating what they did, but its oftentimes hard to parse, especially when youre just starting it. this is why i, and a lot of other fans, recommend the webtoon alongside it. the webtoon very much helps clarify ideas that RT doesnt do well. its something you get used to, and its never too terrible imho, but its clunky enough that i cant tell whether the website youre using sucks, or if its just RT's translation that sucks 😅

APW's translation is a lot more clear and concise, but, again, that doesnt start until ch.363. AND, a big reason people drop off despite the translation being of better quality is that APW changes name romanizations (ref: kim dokja -> kim dok-ja; those with the family name "lee" -> "yi", etc) as well as some general terms for some things (one youll see occasionally is the term "oldest dream" vs "the most ancient dream". same concept, just different translations). thats what youll get reading via the website. not bad or anything, just a little confusing and frustrating. the epub in the linked carrd, however keeps most of RT's names and terms throughout the entirety for consistency.

tldr: it might not be your site, it might be the translator thats confusing you. if its bugging you that much, the webtoon will help clarify things. if you decide that its wonky enough of a translation you dont think you can continue reading it... ill be sad, but i understand! i dropped reading it for a couple of months bc it was hard for me to get into it at first. OH AND if you ever need explanation of anything, feel free to ask. im not scary and id love to talk abt orv.

#yeah the translation being kind of odd on top of attempting to introduce you to this whole new world is frustrating #however i promise that it is a fantastic story. both you and the translator eventually manage to get into the swing of things enough that #by the time APW takes over - even if youre reading the epub w consistent naming - youll actually miss some of RTs turn of phrase haha.#ask me no questions and ill tell you no lies #SORRY for the wall of words but translation and the difference between translators always gives interesting context methinks.

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sflksjlksflksj · 8 months

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personal entry idk

i am doing alot better. currently watching my boys playing in the yard from a picnic blanket. they have barely touched any of their lunch but its fine. my oldest has been on a meal strike since yesterday so i am not surpised at all. i cant believe he is turning three next month its psycho to me. my halloween baby. our vacation to the beach was alot of fun. fought with my husband once we got there but it was due to my issues about the place. i have addictions and the place was a dry place and we brought nothing and i was pissy. i am an awful person i know. my husband tried alot with me and was on the verge of leaving but i snuck off at midnight to smoke and the power went out and i got to see the sky out there and it was so beautiful it made me go wake up my husband and show him the sky and apologize. he forgave me and we made up, i dont know why he puts up with my damage and attitude. from the point we started dating i was just weird and toxic and very self destructive and hes never told me he needed a break or just wanted better or different. hes always just wanted me as i am. of course he hates the fights and he tries his best to understand and help me but i think i could maybe benefit from medication or serious help but hes not for that at all. which i understand because the american healthcare system is very reliant on people needing pills and creating addictions. between a wall and a rock idk what the saying is but i feel that way. my mother has been getting all types of mental help lately and thinks i may suffer some type of PTSD with the way i was raised which i dont agree or disagree with i just simply dont know whats wrong with me. i know i have issues for sure though. my youngest has made him sleeping in his own room pretty difficult these past few weeks but i am going to try a trick where i make his bed feel alot like the bed we make them when they sleep in our room so that he doesnt get out and cry at his door like he has been. maybe its the music too in his room, maybe we need to think about putting a little tv or changing up their night light hookup because i think hes smart enough to know the difference and ambiance sounds between the rooms. i love my cat phobis he has been hanging around me and the boys while they play outside just beinga cool cat. my leg is still doing the weird thing and i have yet to actually log in to my meetme to set the dates for shit because im lazy about my health. i am going to ask my husband to set the dates for the boys dental and health checkup, i know they both probably need shots and blood screens so thats gonna be a mess but i think they are allowing both parents in to appointments now so ill be able to bring my husband and he can help me juggle two upset babies. i am going to put these two down for a nap in the next hour probably. update later

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artific3r · 9 months

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who're your ocs???

THIS IS A LONG POST IM SO SORRY

okay its been like two weeks now and i only just now finished writing a very long rambly response about everything about my regency ocs. I apologize in advance i am not making it shorter. I was going to originally but if i dont post this now i will never post it. heres the post about my ocs from Beasts of the Peerage:

OH SHIT i dont really remember the context but i think this was my regency thing so. im not going to give any names because this story used to be a fanfic for a show and i never bothered to change the names even thought like all of the characters are different.

also i just had the thought like today (okay now like a week ago) that im going to make them all animal headed people, ill just be calling them by what animal i think im going to go with, but any and all of these are subject to change and there is no deeper meaning to the animal choice beside vibes. fae will be plant people instead of animal people, and individuals who are not fae but highly magical will be bugs

the idea for the story is 3 stories (maybe 4) that are all happening at similar times from the perspectives* of 3 royals (and maybe a knight), the first two are primarily regency romances, the third and fourth are not. The forth might have a romance in it, i haven't decided yet, if i want it to be there at all. the fourth might be a bonus/spin off thing.

*Okay maybe not perspectives so much as the royals are sometimes the perspectives, as it kind of bounces around between the characters a little bit but you know what i mean

the order the stories would come out in is eldest, middle, youngest, knight.

Also i dont WANT this stuff to be only romance but thats the stuff that sets my brain on fire so. The only stuff i have so far is romance stuff for the most part.

Crow

the eldest is a prince who I'll call Crow. Crow has the burden of the crown on his shoulders, he always has. He's much older than his two younger siblings. And he has to get married before he turns 35, or the crown will automatically pass to the second oldest, Starling, who is 7 years younger but was already married and as such will automatically become the heir.

Crows story starts with his 34th birthday. He has one year left to get married and secure his spot as heir. There are three people he's considering, they're all really good options and he doesn't know who to pick. none of them are the actual end game though, so i dont really have plans for them yet.

During a ball of some kind, he has to pick someone to dance. People are only allowed to dance once one of the three siblings has danced with someone. Which ever sibling dances with someone will be automatically assumed to be romantically courting them, saving exeptions ill get to in a second. Starling isnt going to do it for reasons that will be obvious when i explain their story, and Sparrow isnt going to do it because she's asexual and doesn't want to get trapped courting someone she's not into. So it has to be Crow, and it has to be one of the three, but he can't make a descion, and the night is wearing on, and no one has been able to dance, when all of a sudden an exception happens.

Lion is engaged to a man much older than her, but because she's engaged, and her engagement is quite public knowledge, she wouldnt be seen as courting if she asked someone else to dance. maybe a little odd, but not courting. And she's fed up of waiting, everyone is, and she's not a duchess or a marchioness, she's a baroness marrying a baron, they're low level in terms of the peerage, so she's not too worried about her reputation.

So she marches right up to the royal 3 and asks one of them to dance with her, because frankly everyone is tired of waiting and because she's engaged, a dance with her means nothing more than a dance, but it would allow the ball to actually begin.

And Crow, partially intrigued by the gall of this woman, and partly relived at a way out of having to make a choice for just a little longer, he takes her up on her offer. So the two dance, and the dance floor opens up for everyone else to start dancing, and the night continues as is, with gossip of "can you beleive the prince still hasnt made a descion" and "the gall of that Lion, I mean, what business does a baroness have doing something like THAT? demanding the royals around like that"

And afterwards, Crow privately sends Lion a thank you letter. Lion sends him a letter back, and then they continue writing letters back and forth.

Then theres some stuff in between about them becoming closer.

Then the day of Lions wedding roles around. And Lion, well her mother basically has total control over her, because if Lion doesn't do what her mother says, her mother will leave her destitute.

Lion was going to marry her childhood best friend and promised since when they were like 1. but then he died, and so the deal that marrige was supposed to seal never ended up going through.

Things were fine for a while, but then her mother decided that if Lion couldn't get married soon, then they were going to move to [other kingdom] so they could be closer to the rest of Lions terrible family.

So Lion did what any reasonable(ly desperate) person would and asked her dead friends father. He was (reasonably) apprehensive at first, he was like a father to her, but she conviced him by getting him to realize that she would be out of her mothers control if they got married.

So now she's marrying this older man instead. And Lions mother wants this wedding to go well, so to make sure, she puts a love poison on both of them, to make sure no one objects or calls the wedding off.

And Crow is asked to be part of the bridal party, partly because he's friends with Lion, but also partly for the clout having a prince at their wedding will give them.

So he goes to the wedding, and because he notices something is off with Lion and the way she's behaving. And he figures out they've both been love poisned. So he gets them both antidote, and so the wedding is called off.

Then more stuff happens. They fall in love and have confessed, but circumstances haven't really allowed them to be together.

Then its the day of his 35th birthday. All three of the really good marrige canidates are no longer available, so now Crow has to marry anyone who will have him. And because its his birthday, it has to be him that does the starting dance.

Not only that, but Lion's mother has decided that, now that the wedding is off, they are going to still go to the other kingdom. So she's leaving THAT night. They are packing and getting ready to leave, when Lion decideds she's going to the ball. If for nothing, than to say goodbye to Crow.

So she shows up, and the dancing hasnt started, and in a reflection of how they first met, she storms up to him and says that she wanted to say goodbye. And this time, he asks her to dance with him. And then he asks her not to go, and she says she has to unless she could get in engaged like right then and there, and so he says "bet" and proposes to her.

And then they're together :)

Starling

Starlings is the one i have the most planned out. Its also probably gonna be the longest. Admittedly the character Wolf is more of the main character than Starling but. I dont care its my silly little guys.

the middlest is a prinxe we'll call Starling. He fell in love with a prince from a neighboring kingdom, Elk, and the two of them got married. One day they were attacked by monsters, and Elk was killed, and their personal knight was so badly injured she was forced into early retirement. Soon after, a new personal knight called Wolf is hired.

Starlings story starts with the one year anniversery of the death of Elk.

Theres sort of a period of Wolf and Starling getting closer, and of Wolf beginning to fall for Starling. Im kind of debating having them fully fall in love with each other in this period but idk.

Then its revealed that Elk is not actually dead, he was turned into one of those monsters, and had to leave for Starling safety, and Starling knew this. (think like werewolves but not because. they're already animals. Im going to call it lycanthropy and being a werewolf for simplicity). They've been trying to find a way to help him, but have been entirely unable to find anything. And they don’t even know where he is.

Wolf is invited to his sister Hound's wedding. Its in the woods, in this enchanted grotto protected by a witch named Tarantula. She protects those who are cursed and otherwise ostracized from society, and they all live in this grotto, as their curses are lessend here.

At the wedding, Wolf meets a man that seems very familiar. Stuff happens and Wolf realizes that this is, in fact, Elk. Elk remains here in the grotto because the effects of his lycanthropy are lessened here, and if he does end up werewolfing out, Tarantula has the power to end the rampage before it becomes a problem.

(There's probably going to be a gap between the Elk is alive reveal and the Elk is here at this wedding reveal)

I might flip the Elk is alive reveal and the wedding arc chronologically so that Wolf can put together the pieces of who that familiar stranger was by himself. Idk I’ll see.

Wolf decides that he needs to get Elk and Starling back together, despite any feelings for Starling (and maybe Elk) he may have. So he finds the cure for lycanthropy, and gets the cure into Tarantula’s hands so she can help them.

Then Elk gets to come home and be with Starling again, and everything is fine and they all live happily ever after!

Except i lied lol theres still more

Um some more stuff happens and more time passes and then all three of them catch feelings for each other.

But Wolf is a fucking idiot when it comes to his feelings but he only just now realizes that he’s got big feelings. So he tells his like… bosses? Idk military words. Captains? Majors? Sergeants? Don’t look at me. And he tells them and they tell him “okay if you tell Elk and Starling you will lose your job and never be able to work in the castle or as a guard again, so what going to happen is you aren’t going to say shit and you are going to start training a new guy under the guise of ‘hey Sparrows guard is getting kinda old’ and then once that guy is done you can explain whats really happening to Elk and Starling. This will probably ruin your life.” and Wolf is like “yup got it sounds good”

And so that is what happens, and eventually Wolf is moved to be Sparrows guard to get him away from Elk and Starling.

And Starling is bummed and Elk is pissed cause theres stuff that’s being hidden from them and they like Wolf but whenever they’re like “no wait we want Wolf back” the guard. boss. people are like “no lol protocol or whatever”

So eventually they get Wolf by himself and ask him whats up and he’s like “I could pretend nothing was wrong when I could avoid you, but i cant do that anymore, and i cant lie to you, so the truth is i am down BAD. sorry.” And Elk and Starling are like “oh thats fine. The feelings are mutual.”

So then its the three of them. But Wolf is still facing job loss, and Elk and Starling are like “dont worry bbgirl we gotchu” and they all get married together.

And then thats the end for real

Theres also a reveal in there of HOW Wolf found the lycanthropy cure when Starling, someone with way more resources, was unable to. He used a thing called a “Seer Wish” that i will explain in the “Moth” section.

Sparrow

the youngest is a princess called Sparrow. this is the first not romance story, as she's aroace, and i wanted to explore a regency story not focused on romance. unfortuneately, i... have no ideas for this part. i dont even know what major event is going to be the start of this story. This story is also going to focus a lot more on Moth the Seer i think but i have very few plans.

Bull

the personal knight of Crow. im going to imply through Crow's story that Bull is in love with Lion as a red herring, and more subtly imply that Bull is in love with Crow, which is actually true. The reveal will happen at the end of Crows story.

the sort of plot of Bulls story is that he keeps butting heads with this fae, who we'll call Sunflower. Sunflower makes an appearence a couple times across the first three stories i think. I dont have a lot of plans for this one either.

I know that Bulls older brother was kidnapped by a fae, and so Bull made a concentrated effort to study up on effective ways to fight them.

Moth

this section is mostly to explain Moth and Wolf's relationship, and to explain seer wishes. there will probably not be a full story about moth.

Not everyone gets a seer wish, its completely random, but you know because of a symbol somewhere on their body. If someone dies with their seer wish, it gets passed to someone random, so you can also get one later in life. A seer wish allows someone to ask the seer one question about anything at all, and will get back the information they asked for. Using your seer wish is, unsurprisingly, a BIG deal, as not everyone gets one, its very rare, and those who do get one only get one.

Moth's powers manifested when she was 20. the powers are a curse, a curse that supposedly can be broken if she's with her true love. She met Wolf when she was 17 and thought he was it. when she turned 20 and her powers manifested, she broke up with him. They were still in love with each other, but she was so fixated on the idea that he was her "true love" that when he wasn't, she couldn't take it. In retrospect, she regrets it, but they've both moved on.

SO THATS IT

Thats all ive got so far for Beasts of the Peerage.

I don't know if it'd be a comic or like a visual novel or a regular novel or a novelette or some other thing I haven't thought of. Idk man.

also i think the animal thing is going to be like metaphorical, they arent actually animals. again im still in the planning stage so its all sorta meh

#Beasts of the Peerage #oc posting #long post #uh if i need more tags let me know please thanks

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so when i was young i had this oc right her name is Kitten and ive had her since Middle School like 5th grade forward she is my MOST ICONIC oc to date but but but not my point

she, in her beginning, had two alter egos, one was an angel, and one was a devil, which explained why her tendencies were never... consistent

these two alter egos were ALWAYS at war with one another, and somewhere along the line i moved them to ANOTHER character's story but as wolves (not cats) who were Gods and they were in love but they kept fighting and hurting each other bc well that's just what happens when you're polar opposites

and man the... the ms paint edits i made of them...

their names were Kuza (dark) and Miaan (light) and they were literally just,,, i dont even have to explain

it was so edgy and i loved it so much

but then i revamped them AGAIN, bc... well idk i thought they were cringe before

but i gave Miaan a y in her name bc who cares In this rendition i made them both "entities" of the parts of the world they had control over, Miyaan controlled the heavens and the skies, and Kuza controlled the earth and the underworld

Both of them had equal domain over the after life but they were more so judges in death, that would decide where the soul would go (heaven or hell) or dole out a punishment that was purgatory, but for the MC they were like "no you've committed too many crimes you're not allowed to die :) but your friends? your loved ones? they will die. And we'll make sure you're there to witness it"

but then i made Kuza literally want the WORST for MC and ruin her life and possess her and stuff, then i scrapped that and tried to give them their own world

then i dropped it for other ocs

BUT NOW we've come full circle

im changing their names, or ill just make characters inspired by them, or subcharacters of them idk, i get attached to variations of my ocs :(

but Kuza is now Evermore, and Miyaan is now Dinah, they are cats and they've returned to being alter egos of Kitten

(this is Kitten btw)

and she hasn't had any like story type of relevance for a while bc she's just my oc that i put wherever i want, but we're gonna give her back to the roots

and my oldest AMV idea for her was The Pheonix and i just realized today that i am CAPABLE of scripting that AMV and bringing it to life, so i did that

Evermore is, resentful of Kitten bc she believes Dinah chose Kitten over her (to watch over her, rather than spend eternity with her, and yeah she's jealous), but bc they're all the same person, Dinah is Kitten and Kitten is Evermore, but Dinah isn't Evermore, they're... they're scorned lovers again

bc Dinah and Evermore spend so much time in Kitten's like,,, not headspace but like between worlds , her mindscape maybe? idkyet i dont really care for location, but they can make the world whatever they want, but Dinah has been so focused on keeping an eye on Kitten because Evermore's chaotic tendencies have been getting the best of her, and Evermore, barely aware of this, starts to fight with Dinah about it, which drives her away MORE

And then there's Evermore, left in the Realm alone to brood and fester her hated, so the world turns hostile and volcanic, and Evermore is just destroying the land because she feels so betrayed and alone (think Catra but not... not really)

so she brings Kitten to the Realm during her sleep, not every time but frequent enough, and Evermore's like "im actually going to kill you" and she KNOWS that Dinah is watching and technically present, and Kitten IS Dinah, but she's so upset that she's taking it out on both of them

in the script i had written, Dinah takes over Kitten's place in the Realm and fights Evermore, but its too much for Kitten bc while Kitten has magic, she doesnt have nearly a quarter as much as Dinah and Evermore do, so she's like losing her grip in the battle and growing weak, but Dinah pushes on, and the fight continues

it doesnt have a clear winner, bc they're destined to fight for eternity at this point bc of how their priorities have changed, but yeah

:) those r my ocs of the night, i like them

#kitten #oc #oc lore #for once #got #i dont talk at all im so confined to discord #who wants my axel notes while im here #kuza #miaan/miyaan #dinah #evermore

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