#❛ ooc: shut up neg.

[madeimpact]

Hi guys, a lot of you might have seen my earlier post explaining my absence, but for anyone who missed it, my mother recently and very suddenly passed away of a hemorrhagic stroke. She was a huge role model to me and I'm extremely fortunate and grateful for the beacon of light and strength she's been for me. Unfortunately, she was the sole breadwinner in our family, and our cruel mistress of capitalism doesn't care about the grieving process.

My cousin was extremely gracious and set up a Gofundme memorial fund. Any contributions will help my family stay afloat while we figure out how to go forward from here, but even if you can't contribute, a reblog will help immensely. Thanks for your understanding and compassion. 💖

#❛ ooc: shut up neg. #death tw #death cw #family death tw #family death cw #ok to rb #non-rp blogs feel free as well

[mintypsii]

i wonder how zeff would've reacted to sanji's bounty poster changing to "only alive" and then later to sanji "vinsmoke" (well known former conquerors/royalty of the north blue)

whether sanji's told zeff about germa or not, zeff would be stressed OUT

#op #one piece #sanji #zeff #red leg zeff #vinsmoke sanji #black leg sanji #SHUT UP yeah yeah i copy pasted this from my twt DIE #idk i like to assume sanji never told him #because he'd be scared that word would get out and he'd be sent back #or like #zeff would kick him out #EVEN WORSE: sanji paranoid that zeff would kick him out because he agrees with why judge didn't want him 😭😭 #like that's 100% ooc for zeff to do but sanji is an overthinking paranoid traumatized little guy #mind you this is the same guy who thought luffy+the strawhats would be better off without him despite everything #not /neg btw i understand sanji he's just like me fr #ok but IF sanji DID tell zeff about germa ZEFF WOULD BE SOOO WORRIED #LLIKE. WHAT DO THEY WANT WITH MY SON???? hoping sanji's still safe but knowing that SOMETHING to do with his family definitely happened #germa 66 #min watches one piece

[godblooded]

so i’m pretty tired of feeling like i’m just supposed to take this and let it go because everyone’s busy but like. if i write you a meme reply here or on @clawsextended i’m asking you to at least like it so i know you saw it.

i don’t care if you want to continue it or not. i’d always prefer to, but i never expect it. it’s not out of the realm of politeness just to ask someone acknowledges that i wrote them something.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[like. when i drop someone like five paragraphs i was excited about and never get a response nor a like… well it feels a little bit like i #have no reason to be here. ‘Kat do things for yourself!’ yeah man i get it but shut the fuck up because rp is collaborative. like. at least #ACKNOWLEDGE that you saw it. otherwise?? seriously if somebody does this to me repeatedly im not answering shit for them. I’ve been here too #long and im genuinely exhausted of being taken for granted because apparently decorum no longer exists and there are no rules to #communication anymore. it’s absolutely absurd and im done with doing this ‘maybe im being too sensitive’. no. maybe i spent time caring #about something to do for someone else and it’s repeatedly forgotten.] #negativity / #[just fucking communicate.]

[7saith-moved]

not to continue but seek out people who cheer you on vs those who hold you back. people who mean well want to see you be happy and do what you want. like i've seen so much of this controlling toxicity and it doesn't belong in a hobby where we all write muses that bring us joy. no one should make you feel shame for interacting with others or being happy having multiple partners. please, see that this is a concerning red flag. you deserve to be happy and surrounded by individuals that lift you up.

#✦ ・ ooc ; shut up et. #as someone who was #tw:groomed #by someone it really took me years to not feel guilty for having partners #i don't care if this is “negative” posting #if it saves someone from being under the thumb of a nasty individual i'll say it everyday

[drachenblood]

the pattern i keep seeing over the past few days since the callout started circulating are people who feel extremely guilty for interacting with miles.

for what little comfort this can offer, please don't let him ruin your happiness or let him ruin your friendships. don't blame yourself for falling for his deceptions. he's very good at manipulating people.

additionally, a huge take away i've had from this is the importance of letting people be heard instead of shutting them down. it's disturbing the number of people who have come forward with their testimonials now that they feel safe to do so. people sharing their experiences with him as recently as the past month.

#ooc #drama cw #negativity cw #again not drama but for those of you who don't want to see this it's tagged as such #but the fact that i keep seeing people trying to shut this entire thing down #by saying “oh it happened years ago” #or “why are we dredging up old drama” #means you've all bought into another of his manipulation tactics #since he's still keeping to the same behavior right now #we as a community gave him the space for it while shutting down the people who were warning us the entire time #it's shameful but we can learn from this and help the people who suffered

[kuratm]

i don't rlly vent, mostly bc i dont want to bother my friends and mutuals w my irl problems, but man. i have to now bc today was not a good day.

so, we have an exhibition tomorrow at my college, some of my work was selected to be put up, and we had to come in earlier today and prep everything up bc why not make the students do all the fucking preparations for exhibition, right? well, my day started by me running around the whole city, printing out my stuff which was selected by our professor AND hurriedly write up an "artist statement", for some goddamn reason. that alr overwhelmed me enough but then, when i got to college (i was one goddamn hour late bc i was printing my stuff, btw), i realized that the prints WERE INVERTED, because I PUT THEM IN WRONG FUCKING COLOR MODE. that p much threw me in a panic attack :) my adhd kicked in, i was lost, confused and overwhelmed by all of this - didn't help that there were loud noises and ppl talking over each other - so much so that my friends insta noticed and were like 'oh shit, she's going thru a mental breakdown' :')

i was lucky enough that said college friends insta dropped everything and helped me put my stuff up bc i just, could not do it in the state i was in. that, and the professor...didnt seem to give a shit, but still...jesus fucking christ, this bitch was going through it. i felt bad later on, when i finally calmed down, that my friends had to p much do my work, but they told me not to worry abt it and just let them help me, which made me so grateful :') yall, if my homies weren't there, i would've ripped everything off and cry in a corner, p much

tldr; why do colleges love to destroy their students' mental state?

#♩ 》 ( ooc. ) // shut the fuck up pluto. #vent / #negative / #i guess? #in the end my friends told me to just ditch classes and go home cuz they could tell i was not there mentally lol #im doing fine now dw #but good god - today was a shit day overall #at least everything turned out alright? yippie? #anyway sorry to throw this all of a sudden - i dont want to seem needy for attention or w/e #but i just needed to let this out a lil bit

[madeimpact]

I'll probably be on semi hiatus to full hiatus for a while

I lost my mom to a stroke. So I'm really not feeling up to a lot of stuff, plus I'm gonna have to step up and be a functional, salary-having adult now bc she was the main breadwinner in our family.

I'm not sure what to say. I've been crying for a good 24 hours probably on and off. There were no warning signs outside of the usual headaches she got. She was on medication. No one could have seen it coming. She was decorating for Christmas when she started having symptoms.

I'm very close with my parents and she's probably my biggest role model. I'm trying to be strong, but I'm going to need time to figure out what to do with myself and my life.

Kudos if you read this far, and thanks. I'll make it out of this and be back to writing soon. Maybe sooner than I think. I'll probably need a creative outlet while we arrange for services and such.

#❛ ooc: shut up neg. #❛ ooc: hiatus notice. #death tw #death cw #family death tw #family death cw #vent tw #vent cw

[monstriiss]

personal under the cut 

today we find out if mums new chemo has done anything at all so I'm either going to be sparse or trying to distract myself idk, I hate that I can't go with her because of covid it, could not have had worse timing 😮‍💨 I don't have high hopes but she has been in less pain so maybe something has worked? but I'm not holding my breath anymore

#;; ooc. #;; negative. #tw medical #i hate to be posting so much ooc and negative stuff lately but it has low key been the pits these last few months :/ #between nanas dementia and mums cancer and now dad getting covid it has been ROUGH #im torn between shutting up about it because its heavy but also i want to keep you in the loop and know that im not TRYING to ignore people #it's just been a lot these days and i am 🤏 this close to an aneurysm #anyway ily and hope you're all having/have had a good day

[godblooded]

tfw i have heard ‘kat could talk to a wall’ my entire life and it sucks when sometimes it genuinely feels like an insult.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[if you ever wanna know how I feel it’s just… why can’t you shut the fuck up kat. like. I can talk to anyone about anything but genuinely it #is so isolating to feel…. so fucking annoying because I’m excitable and creative. #and yes I know I can get carried away. which is something I’ve stopped doing because… no one ever wants to match my enthusiasm. and this #isn’t about anything or anyone in particular I’m just being me and having immense rsd. idk. the problem is I just. feel. like a pain in the #ass. ah. kat who never shuts the fuck up because she has thirty thousand thoughts about dumb shit and she needs to dump it somewhere. and #the problem is by this point I don’t even feel like I want to vent. because it feels purposeless. even that makes me feel like I’m being an #inconvenience. I wish I wasn’t a fucking worthless type of introvert who loves company but very specifically. I mask so hard people #literally don’t think I have ENORMOUS social anxiety. I just… feel very alone and very sad and very much like I wish I was anyone else. #because if you think you want me to shut the fuck up you can’t imagine how badly -I- want me to shut the fuck up.] #negativity /

[arachnidiots-a]

good morning. please remember to be kind to each other out there. it doesn’t take a lot of effort, you don’t have to go out of your way to do something grand but just be kind to each other out there

#been seeing some iffy ness and some #negativity lately so todays good morning is just a reminder to just be nice #got nothing nice to say? then shut up! #rambling nonsense / ooc

[backto87]

take a shot every time someone puts Re.bornica art on your dash / lh

#༊*·˚ ooc #shut up paul #that artist raised me #and thats also a negative thing

[dreamsofalifeold]

((In the Star Trek universe, there simply H A S to be a fucking romcom/family comedy called Three Men and a Ferengi.

Also, I'm wondering why the fuck it took so long to realize that I most likely have OCD. I spent a minute and a half in the grocery store today just standing in an aisle because I was having an internal debate with myself over which way to go because there were two sets of people in the way, and was I only thinking of asking the women to move because they were already out of the way, or is that my internalized misogyny? Or am I going to inconvenience an older person into getting off the floor?

Seriously, I once stayed inside for an entire week because I had these constant intrusive thoughts that there was a mountain lion in the woods by my house and I was going to die if I went outside. And I've had intrusive thoughts since I was six at least. I had an irrational fear of the Jaws theme song as a kid and I used to perform weird, complex rituals where I wouldn't touch the sides of doors or step on cracks or walk on the seams of tiles.

I thought I suffered from nervous tics from age 7 and sporadically through my childhood but N O P E apparently those could also be considered compulsions! My mom, grandmother, and aunt all have it. It runs VERY close in my family.

Like...I am not officially diagnosed, but a lot of that is probably because A: I incorrectly assumed that this was just stuff that normal people did and everyone had constant thoughts about the worst thing they could do in a situation, and B: mental healthcare in my own is absolute ass.))

#out of the grave (ooc) #cryptie shut up (mun speaks) #NOTHING NEGATIVE I'm just rambling

[korinthiakos]

Sometimes I wish I could truly forget about my toxic ex-friend

#[ ooc. mun — i need a cuppa tea ] #negative tw #( just suddenly thinking about them-- the fucking yelling. the constant head pats to shut me up ) #( the constant s*cide mentions every fucking single day ) #( the force-shipping. more yelling. i have such a big dislike of skype now 'cos everything was mostly there ) #( i'm glad i got better friends but y'know a part of me is still afraid they'll return ) #( the awful amount of anxiety ) #( I'd like to completely forget )

[madeimpact]

Who can I bother for Quadratum threads

#OR LIKE. it doesn't even have to be in the purest sense of the word. #if you've got a muse that lives in “our” world i want to throw kh4 sora at them. #let him make your muse go “what the fuck” while he bonks a fuckin darkside and breaks every law of physics #❛ general: wishlist. #❛ ooc: shut up neg. #idk i just feel like it's a sin that i have a kh4 verse tag and no quadratum threads to speak of in it LMAO #they're all set after he theoretically gets back

[godblooded]

the overwhelming understanding that you do not matter and truthfully no one would care if you were not here.

#ooc. mikkelsen vc: this week on kat valentine's hannibal. #negative / #[idk man I’ll shut the fuck up and write but… I’ve never been this empty and you know what? it fucking hurts. I never figured I would be #this alone.]

[alcrescendo]

every day, i get more and more tempted to move back to norway

#* shut up kaja. / ooc. #especially with everything going on in the us right now #but alas i am in debt #and cannot afford to move #i can't even move out of my mom's apartment #so i am stuck #negativity tw #pls ignore me