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warwaged-archive · 3 years

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“Arator,

I have no doubt by the time this letter reaches your hands, I will be long gone. It is not within my right to ask that you forgive me for it, but I must begin asking for forgiveness all the same, my little ray of sunshine. There will be no peace for those who fell to orcish blades, or indeed, for Azeroth as a whole, until the threat is dealt with — and so, there was no choice for me but to join the Expedition. I have to do it for those I lost, and for you, as well.

Nothing wounds me more than having to leave you, but the hands I entrust you to are the best and most capable there are. In regards to this, there is no doubt within my heart that when you finally read those words, you will indeed agree that your aunts have cared for you as well as one can be cared for. If it hurts me to leave, I have no doubt they will be better for you than I could ever hope to be.

There is much I will not be able to give you myself. Much we won’t ever get the chance of speak of, or do together. Much I won’t be able to tell you. But my intent is not only to apologize for what we won’t share. Most of all, this letter is to be a reminder of my love for you, my son. There is nothing I have ever, or ever will, treasure as much as you. In the darkest times of my life, you brought to me light and hope I had forgotten existed. I hope this does not change, no matter how you grow, and that you continue to shine brightly and comfort others with your warmth, sunshine. Never forget I loved you more than the world or life itself.

I’m sorry I couldn’t stay.

From your mother, who loves you so,

Alleria.”

#this is old and brought from my previous multi iirc #it's been in the drafts for a while #do you ever just hurt yourself when writing #* muse: alleria windrunner / VOID TOUCHED.#* in character: alleria windrunner / A SUN NO LONGER.#* dynamics: alleria windrunner & arator windrunner / SUNSHINE ON HER DARKEST DAYS.#* dynamics: alleria windrunner & arator windrunner / ALL THINGS SOFT AND BEAUTIFUL AND BRIGHT WOULD BE BURIED WITH HIM. [ REDEEMINGSUN ]#it was originally a reply to chels so ♥

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warwaged-moved · 3 years

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Although canon timeline gets confusing, likely because they didn’t think it through decided to retcon things later, I don’t disregard Beyond the Dark Portal but I have a different take on how things go, especially when it comes to A.lleria’s relationship with Tu.ralyon. So, taking it into account, here’s my take on how things happened (spoilers: it doesn’t include A.lleria calling Tu.ralyon my love half a second after they’ve talked to each other and made peace, sorry not sorry @Beyond the Dark Portal):

A.lleria and Tura.lyon met when fighting in the Second War. Before that, she did not have contact with many humans, and if she didn’t necessarily look down on them, A.lleria didn’t really see them as equals either (their senses are not as sharp as the elves’, their lives are way too short, and they are still quite arrogant in spite of that, in her eyes). It isn’t until the war that she has a chance to get to know them better, and fighting beside the humans definitely changes her views on them.

Tura.lyon, specifically, does not mean much to her in the beginning. He’s obviously smitten with her, and she finds it way too amusing to waste the opportunities to tease him — but in the beginning this is all her actions are: amusement. She never seriously leads him on, and he’s quite aware she’s entertained by his reaction to her. But as time passes they genuinely become closer. A.lleria learns to respect him after fighting with him and following his leadership, and then her actions around him are not as much jokes as they were before.

She’s interested, but she isn’t in love. It is infatuation at most, she thinks, and it’ll pass soon enough (it isn’t as if she considers a serious relationship with him either: he’s a human still, his entire life until adulthood is only a fraction of her own and she’s bound to outlive him). In truth her feelings go a little deeper than she’s willing to believe they go, but it isn’t some deep, endless love. She’s falling for him, but on her part it is slow, and she makes it slower still with all the resistance against it she creates.

When they learn the Horde will target Quel.Thalas, A.lleria is immediately on edge (she grows restless, impulsively wants to run to her home ahead of the army, questions every single decision he makes just because). She’s worried about her home, her people, and the people she loves that are there and don’t know what’s coming for them. Arriving there afterwards and fighting to drive them back and still having to watch their forests burn wounded her very deeply, even more because of her previous concern. And then she learns most of her family died, including her little brother, and it breaks her in a way A.lleria hadn’t yet been broken.

She doesn’t love Tura.lyon when she goes to him. The logic is flimsy, and only really logical to her because of the state of absolute emotional wreck she’s in. She doesn’t want to be vulnerable in front of people she knows and loves and who look up to her, though, and she came to like and trust him well enough that she seeks him instead. It isn’t a well thought out thing – she’s barely thinking at all – but it feels like a good enough idea at the time: this way her sisters won’t see her breaking, because she has to be strong for them, and she won’t burden friends who have lost people themselves, and she won’t be vulnerable in front of those who look up to her as a leader.

It (obviously) wasn’t a good idea. It is something she’ll regret immediately afterwards. A.lleria would feel guilty she had used him to try to forget her hurt, because he obviously cares for her and she does not feel the same, at least not as intensely. There is no future for them, she thinks, and what she did would give him hopes of something that couldn’t be. Beyond that, she’s still hurting; she’ll continue to hurt for a long time, unable to process her grief, unable to let go and heal. As soon as it is over and he is asleep, she leaves. Afterwards, A.lleria is cold towards him purposefully, so he will know it was just one night, so he won’t think it is more than it is. Tura.lyon doesn’t take well to it, but A.lleria thinks it’s best that way. Let him live his short human life with someone who can love him better than she can. Besides, it isn’t as if he understands; he doesn’t like the path she’s taking and she cannot meet his criticism with anything other than anger.

A.lleria isn’t concerned with love, by then and after that. All she wants is revenge. For everything, for all the family she lost, but especially for her brother. Even after the war is over, she doesn’t stop hunting the orcs, and she revels in their pain. She wants each and every orc dead, but a thousand kills do not lessen her thirst for revenge, neither do they fill the emptiness within her. They do not make her feel less guilty for being alive while Lirath is dead. She won’t let go of anger and hatred for years still. And in the meanwhile between the night she regrets and the future in which vengeance is not her utmost priority, A.lleria finds herself pregnant.

It is kind of (very) despairing at first. Most of her family died, and she’s in a very dark place mentally and emotionally. She feels the need to keep it together for those around her, but she’s falling apart. She came to regret the one night in which her child was conceived, and it isn’t like she can exactly count on someone she pushed away to care for a child now. Besides, it is said the High Elves didn’t look favorably towards half-elven children, which is one more reason to be concerned for her unborn child. A.lleria doesn’t seek support of anyone else; she hesitates in even telling people close to her about it.

But she’s decided to have her child and to keep the baby with her regardless. Eventually she’d have to speak; but before it would be noticeable, she’d let at least Sylv.anas and Ve.reesa know (maybe some of her closest friends, but even that is uncertain; she might also have panicked and told Hal.duron at some point before even telling her sisters...). So A.rator is born in Quel.Thalas, and no matter what she feels towards his father, she loves her son from the beginning. And I think much of her love for A.rator, and how deep and important to A.lleria it is, comes from the place she was in at the time of his birth. To her, he was a flicker of love and hope in a world that was seemingly all devoid of it; and the fact he may suffer some prejudice amidst her people only made her more determined to give him love that would make up for it.

Contacting Tura.lyon to even let him know never crosses her mind as a serious option. She would have thought of it at times, especially when his letters arrived, as he explicitly mentions having written to her and never gotten any answer, but she would be angry at herself for even considering it. If someone said she should (I believe someone might have), A.lleria would cut them short. She doesn’t need him, he cannot help; A.rator is her son, and they’ll be fine just the two of them.

Except they won’t, because even though she’s wholeheartedly dedicated and entirely loving towards him, she’s also consumed with vengeance and hatred for what happened to Lir.ath. A.rator would give her happiness she wouldn’t have felt ever since the war, but immediately afterwards even the faintest glimmer of happiness, she’d feel immense guilt (how can she be alive, happy, laughing, after having failed her home, after failing to prevent Lir.ath’s death? her brother would never get to laugh again, he would never father his own children; why should she have all of this, when he would not?).

It would become a cycle, and it definitely pushed her away further: happiness makes her feel guilty, guilt makes her dive headfirst in battle and revenge. She makes herself believe that A.rator would be better without her, but cannot find it in herself to tell Tura.lyon about their son and leave A.rator with him. It is part of why she’s so eager to go beyond the dark portal, too: she wants vengeance, and to protect the things she loves, and to die fighting, to die in a way that can at least leave her sisters proud, to die and leave her son to be raised by those who could do it better than she ever could.

Is it immensely hard to just pretend nothing ever happened once she’s forced to interact with Tura.lyon again, especially considering she is well aware their one night resulted in the most precious baby boy in Azeroth and beyond? Yes, but their antagonism towards each other helps; anger does not leave much room for her to feel guilty for not letting him know of anything. Of course, once they are together again, and once she acknowledges her feelings for him go well beyond just infatuation, she knows the conversation has to happen — and it is only then that she tells him of A.rator. It is quite a mess that they made, so reconciliation isn’t by any means easy, and A.lleria is never one to just give herself completely and without wariness. To her, opening up to him again is a slow process; and if physical contact comes earlier and easier than verbal declarations, even that would be slow. She doesn’t shy away from him, maybe even seeks him at times, but more often than not, A.lleria would more likely wait for him to seek contact than initiate it herself —- and it would definitely take a long while for her to reciprocate I love yous.

#I forgot to bring this to the new blog but #here is a slightly updated version #because it's an important headcanon #especially when I keep asking for a tura.lyon but have a very specific idea of how their relationship developed #between tod and btdp and how arator fits with all of that #but honestly #this is still what makes the most sense with the fact they don't acknowledge ara.tor in btdp and he couldn't have been born later #‣ out of character { the mun } — ❝ THAT GLOOMY GIRL WHO SIGHS A LOT. ❞#‣ muse { alleria windrunner } — ❝ VOIDFORGED. ❞#‣ character study { alleria windrunner } — ❝ WILD AND WARM LIKE SUMMER. ❞#‣ dynamics { alleria windrunner & turalyon } — ❝ DEEP BLUE BUT YOU PAINTED ME GOLDEN. ❞#‣ dynamics { alleria windrunner & arator windrunner } — ❝ SUNSHINE ON HER DARKEST DAYS. ❞

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warwaged-moved · 3 years

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Contrary to popular belief, a.rator’s name was chosen as homage to an.duin lo.thar, last of the arathi, and not because of the land itself (which was called arathor). There’s a significance to it either way, and a.lleria was aware of it when choosing, but what prompted her choice wasn’t that arathor was the first human nation to establish a bond with elves, and rather that lo.thar was someone she and tu.ralyon both admired. even if she didn’t initially want him in her life, he’s still ara.tor’s father, and that isn’t something she’d ignore entirely.

there are many people she could have named her son after that meant more to her than loth.ar tbh, for all the admiration she has. I feel that even at her most unreasonable, that was still a form of compromise in regards to tu.ralyon and not erasing him from ar.ator’s life

if she had stayed instead of going to draenor, she would not deny arator of knowing who his father is. tbf, in an au like that, if tur.alyon didn’t get lost in the twisting nether I feel like? she might go back on the not letting him even know about ar.ator when their son was still young. doesn’t mean she’d change her stance on the fact 1. they’re fine without him 2. ar.ator stays in quel.thalas with her

#‣ muse { alleria windrunner } — ❝ VOIDFORGED. ❞#‣ dynamics { alleria windrunner & arator windrunner } — ❝ SUNSHINE ON HER DARKEST DAYS. ❞#‣ dynamics { alleria windrunner & turalyon } — ❝ DEEP BLUE BUT YOU PAINTED ME GOLDEN. ❞#'al.leria stayed on azeroth' au lives in my head #in part because I think staying with ara.tor is what she deserved

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@redeeming-sun said: draw! / SEND ME “DRAW!” AND I’LL DRAW YOUR MUSE

#remember when you sent that a thousand years ago before I had even moved blogs? aksjdnfkjasn #probably not but #I don't like it a lot bc #it ended up looking too much like the reference aksndfkjasfn #and what are backgrounds I don't know them #anyways #I did #my best #<3 #* dynamics: alleria windrunner & arator windrunner / SUNSHINE ON HER DARKEST DAYS.#* dynamics: alleria windrunner & arator windrunner / ALL THINGS SOFT AND BEAUTIFUL AND BRIGHT WOULD BE BURIED WITH HIM. [ REDEEMINGSUN ]#but hi have this because it's been forever since you sent that meme and this was my best try #ksdnfdskfnjsd #c':#* out of character: the mun / THAT GLOOMY GIRL WHO SIGHS A LOT?

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If Alleria had remained on Azeroth and had been present for the Fall of Silvermoon and its aftermath... would she have stayed as quel'dorei or become sin'dorei? How might other events have changed?

I believe that if she had stayed and survived she would have become sin’dorei. Alleria’s problem with the Blood Elves when she returns isn’t at all what they decided to do to survive in this case; her problem with them is their bond to the Horde. She is very much the kind of person that wouldn’t be beyond doing what needed be done for her people’s survival.

She was a High Elf who wasn’t particularly connected to magic, if at all — of course, she was still connected to the Sunwell, as they all are, but she also had a deep connection with nature and the land (seeing the forest of Quel’Thalas burning hurts her very deeply, back in the Second War, and even when they go to Draenor, the lack of life in the land itself is something that bothers her). And the wiki says the Farstriders were less affected by the magic addiction and withdrawal (which I believe to be connected to what I just said, though a canonical reason isn’t given).

I think she would have been able to follow the High Elves’ path, even if it is harder, precisely because of that. But while she could do it, Alleria would see clearly enough that it was a longer, more arduous path, and that not everyone would be able to follow. If they had time to recover, than she would certainly advocate for this path instead — but they needed to survive, and there was no time to do the noble thing if it would end up with her people extinct. It isn’t the best choice, and she would know it, but it is also the only one that would give them a chance to fight back, reclaim their land and survive; to Alleria, there isn’t really a choice to be made in that context. The survival of their people and reclaiming of their lands is more important than doing the ‘right’ thing — in fact, to her, that which would ensure they’d have a chance would be the right thing to do.

From an individual point of view, Alleria would have been wary of the magisters and the teachings they brought from Kael’thas, but she would put her people before herself and what she considered right. She wouldn’t look at it individually, but from the point of view that this was about her entire race.

That said, when it comes to the Horde it is a different matter. I mean, she’s fought demons for a thousand years and when she returns she still has no love or respect for the Horde, even though they were also fighting the Legion when she returns. And I don’t think that’s really hard to understand, because their attack on Quel’Thalas in the Second War hit her hard enough that she wasn’t only devastated, she was suicidal. She delighted in watching the orcs suffer because she thought they had to suffer like her family had — and even when they were in pain, it was not enough. She threw herself in battle, wanting to bring down as many orcs as she could, but part of her did this because she hoped to die as well. Her hatred and resent run way too deeply for her to ever be willing to work with them. To Alleria, that would be the same as someone suggesting they allied themselves with the Scourge: absurd, unthinkable and repulsive. Even after she’s finally grieved those she lost and let go of some of her hatred, the resent would always be there. She can’t forgive or forget, not completely.

(I do think she would have overcome it eventually, only in a different way from what Beyond the Dark Portal shows. If she stayed, it may have been harder because she’d be both falling apart and intent on keeping it together to be there for her sisters; but I think Sylvanas and Vereesa, as well as being home and with her friends, would have led her to healing with time. No, we don’t need Turalyon for that to happen. To be very honest, I don’t even agree with the drastic change the book portrays on that regard, but that’s a topic for another time.)

So that would leave her in a complicated position. On the one hand, she would be supportive of her people doing what they needed to do to survive. She would support Lor’themar’s decision in favor of the magisters, though she wouldn’t support his banishing the Farstriders that voiced their disagreement. On the other hand, when they need allies and the Horde offers them help everyone else has denied, she’d be conflicted — because well, they do need allies, but they shouldn’t ally themselves with the Horde. It isn’t the same Horde she fought, I know, but Alleria’s trauma would blind her to it.

At the same time, the Alliance turning their backs on them would be a hard blow for her to take. She’s fought with them, yes, as have many others of her people — but in their time of need, when her own king didn’t really believe their plight, Alleria brought them her rangers to help. No one sent her. She went because there was a real threat and she would honor their bond to the Arathi, called upon through Lothar. Yes, it was Anasterian who left the Alliance in the first place, so yes, she would be able to see how this was relevant in the Alliance not being willing to help, but she would be wounded by their denial all the same. I think she would have sought to go after them herself, though I don’t think it would have changed the outcome — she would be denied help for her people in their time of greatest need, and if it wouldn’t make a difference in the end, to Alleria personally it would have made a world of difference in how she views the Alliance.

So she wouldn’t look at the Alliance with good eyes, but neither would she be eager to accept the Horde’s aid. Honestly, I don’t know how that would have gone, because she isn’t the kind to shut up and accept things she disagrees with, no matter who she’s talking to, but Alleria herself wouldn’t really know what to do. Her disagreement may lead her to be banished all the same, since Lor’themar didn’t want his people divided and she may have caused division. What I believe more likely is that seeing that they needed help and wouldn’t get it elsewhere, Alleria would have ended up biting back her hatred and keeping it to herself, even if she would be hating every moment of having to work with the Horde. But it would be a means to an end, and she can submit to orders is she sees they are necessary, regardless of how unwilling, and that would have been the case.

So, what changes? I’m not sure, but I don’t think much changes as far as world state goes (minus Legion stuff, of course, and her role in it as well as in saving the ren’dorei). If she stays and survives, she’ll be fighting her damned hardest to save Quel’Thalas; but legendary skill and legendary weapon don’t make her more than just one ranger. If she survived, and she could easily fall alongside Sylvanas, Alleria would become Ranger-General after her sister’s death; she never wanted to, but she would have felt she had to, then. She would feel guilty for not taking on the mantle after her mother’s death, for it not being her who fought and died as General. It would be a heavy burden for her to carry, but I don’t think she’d be able to refuse it again because of how guilty she would feel. Not only that, she would want to do what needed to be done and honor Sylvanas’ sacrifice. It would hit her very hard, to the point I think the only thing that would prevent her from becoming suicidal again would be precisely that she would try her best not to let her sister have died in vain, and would fight very hard for the survival of the few who are left.

The world state is vastly the same, but Alleria herself would be heavily changed by everything. She would resent the Alliance and the humans in a way she doesn’t do now, and she would have been more willing to act beside the Horde than she is. There’s a good chance she would have grown closed off, harsher and even bitter, resenting of many things but mostly of herself — because she wasn’t able to save her home for a second time, because she wasn’t able to save her people for a second time, because she wasn’t able to save her family for a second time. It would be losing everything all over again; and this time, I’m uncertain she would be able to truly recover.

I do think there is one thing that might affect the world state somewhat, and that is that Alleria would not outright shun Sylvanas when she tries to come back. I do think she would have supported Lor’themar being cautious, as they didn’t know for sure Sylvanas was in control of herself, but Alleria wouldn’t ever simply refuse her like it happens in canon. What she would do is try to be sure her sister was still herself, and I’m pretty sure she would decide that she is --- and Alleria would not abandon her then.

The most amusing thing, to me, is that in this situation as much as in canon, I think Arator would be the one thing she would cling to that would keep her sane, and prevent that she fell to darkness completely.

#* muse: alleria windrunner / VOID TOUCHED.#* character study: alleria windrunner / WILD AND WARM LIKE SUMMER.#* dynamics: alleria windrunner & sylvanas windrunner / A SISTER IS BOTH MIRROR AND OPPOSITE.#* dynamics: alleria windrunner & arator windrunner / SUNSHINE ON HER DARKEST DAYS.#* general: queue / LINE OF SUCCESSION.

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A thousand years away from your son is a long time. During it, what memories of Arator are most precious to Alleria? Which memories did she think of when she missed him?

SEND ME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY MUSE !

It is. And she had way too little time with him before disappearing, so there wasn’t much she could hold on to. I think her memories would be less of one specific event, and more of things like, or how he laughed when tickled, or just, his smile, his laughter, how it felt to hold him close to her chest when he was still tiny, his first steps, carrying him to bed when he was exhausted, first words and blabbering nonsense; because she had so little, I think Alleria would try to remember all of it as much as she could, but specially the little things.

It’s always less about events and more about remembering him. For example, baby milestones like his first actual word, while of course significant, aren’t as important as remembering what he looked like, how he smiled or how it felt to hug him. Because well, if she was there those things might be routine, but she isn’t, and she knew she likely wouldn’t be for many years still, so it is remembering him and looking back on all the good moments they had and how happy he made her, and how happy he seemed to be.

I think she would probably look back even to the less pleasant parts, and that she’d do it fondly too because like I said, it is about remembering him, not specific events. So something about Arator making a mess of something and looking like an absolute baby angel even though he was caught, sleepless nights when she was just fretting over not knowing what to do to soothe him, I think she’d try to remember everything. This ones, though, I feel like she would be less likely to reflect on by herself; she would try to remember everything, but those are the ones I can really see her being sure to share with Turalyon too, because they’re about Arator, and they are some of which would make things feel more real, in a way, or at least bring him as close to the child he never got to meet as possible.

And after Xe’Ra allowed her that one vision of him as a child, that was definitely one of the memories that stuck with her, even if she wasn’t really there. It was the first time she saw him in years, and the last she would see before going back to Azeroth, so it was definitely something that stuck with her and that she would have tried to remember too.

Every memory she had of him is important to her. Each and every one, no matter what they’re about. So when she tried to think of him, when she missed him and tried to remember, she would have tried to remember him, much more so than specific happenings. It wasn’t always the same; sometimes memories would be not just about Arator alone, but about him and her sisters, for example (Sylvanas holding baby Arator with a gentleness she rarely displayed so openly, Vereesa playing games with two year old Arator, things both routine and very specific), or about him and other people who were important to her (uncle Halduron? yes uncle Halduron).

But when she missed him the most, she would remember when it was just the two of them, or that not really had other people involved in it, like, how he would always reach out to grab her hair when he was a baby, or how he smiled when she sung to him, how it felt to hold him, or smol Arator going to her bed because he wanted to sleep with his mama. When it was particularly hard for her, she would probably spend so much time remembering that she would eventually reach memories that are not as nice because of how she was at the time; those tend to be more specific, like the one time she received one of Turalyon’s letters and baby Arator reached for it as if he knew what it was and who it was from, or two year old Arator accidentally catching her crying but not really understanding what’s going on because he was too young to. Even those are memories she wouldn’t really push aside because it really is what I said before: she tries to remember him, as completely as she is able to.

#redeeming-sun #* muse: alleria windrunner / VOID TOUCHED.#* dynamics: alleria windrunner & arator windrunner / ALL THINGS SOFT AND BEAUTIFUL AND BRIGHT WOULD BE BURIED WITH HIM. [ REDEEMINGSUN ]#* dynamics: alleria windrunner & arator windrunner / SUNSHINE ON HER DARKEST DAYS.#* character study: alleria windrunner / WILD AND WARM LIKE SUMMER.

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* tag drop: alleria windrunner

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(For Alleria) - What's her relationship with Arator like these days? Has she found time to bond with him? What are their interactions like?

ALWAYS ACCEPTING QUESTIONS ABOUT THE MUSES!!

Complicated. There is a clear wish from both parts to get to know each other and grow closer and be a family, but something like that demands time; regardless of reason, Arator grew up without his parents, and Alleria never got to know him as anything more than a toddler. Then there’s of course the matter that shortly after returning to Azeroth, she went on to fight yet another war, so it’s not like she returned and was able to just chill with her son. Even beyond that, there are some very obvious divergences that can get in the way too, such as her ties to the Void and Arator being a big follower of the Light.

That said, in spite of the lack of time, Alleria does her best to make time for Arator no matter what. They both express a clear desire to be family, and I think that played a big part in them initially reconnecting, specially given the suggestion the two of them and Turalyon were all living together in Stormwind. Even if she was busy with leading the ren’dorei and playing her role in Kul’Tiras during the war, she would not be there the entire time, and would have seen Arator whenever possible (and otherwise kept in touch when it was not).

The way I see it, they start well with reconnecting and growing closer, but have to face some big issues all too soon and that I don’t think they’d be entirely ready to face with how little time has passed since she returned. N’Zoth’s visions don’t really help believing Alleria is capable of keeping things under control, and for Arator specifically, that is made worse by the fact his corrupted mother literally sacrifices him to an Old God. Even if we look at the ‘simpler’ things, Alleria has to make a big effort to be emotionally open, and Arator surely has to deal with having had his parents leave him behind and not contact him at all for so many years, that without touching any general family drama that is tied to Alleria and Turalyon’s relationship, past or present.

There’s a lot they don’t know about each other. Arator knows her as a hero, but he knows Alleria as a person not at all, and he’s bound to have some disappointments there because she’s very flawed. Alleria’s love for him is boundless, but that doesn’t mean they would be in agreement always or that things would go super smoothly.

On my part, I believe they did get to bond and grow closer, but there is still a gap to bridge, and it was widened by recent events. Their earlier interactions would tend to be rather unsure, as they were still figuring the other out and trying to know each other better. That said, they both seemed very eager to be reunited and to be family, so I think they warmed up to each other really fast, and Arator had the extraordinary circumstance of being someone Alleria was actively making an effort for, so he didn’t have to deal with her being distant or closed off nearly as much (everyone else probably had to deal with that eventually because it’s just the way she is), which also included answering his questions, even when this meant she had to speak of things she usually wouldn’t (though I’m uncertain how much Arator would have dared).

Still, Three Sisters makes it obvious Alleria felt very isolated and that both parts of her family were broken, so by then I don’t think they would have grown really close. There’s obvious affection, but most of all there’s a desire to make it work more so than a close bond per say. I think their interactions become more easygoing and genuinely open and less hesitant about the other given a bit more time, but not too long after Alleria gets caught up in Alliance stuff and the time they’re not together as often then; when they are, I’d still say their interactions are mostly positive, and that they are growing closer and interacting in general is easier.

When N’zoth stuff happens, that changes a bit. I think there’s an added distance, a shifting closer to not knowing how to approach the other, at least on Alleria’s part, and that she’d be more guarded and thus more distant than she was towards Arator up to then. Even after all of that is done and the war is over, Alleria isn’t in a good place. Everything related to Sylvanas is definitely taking its toll on her, and having to be personally involved in hunting her down did not help. Alleria isn’t doing great in a lot of ways, and her answer to that is to keep people at a distance. I think that would be noticeable in their interactions still, and that for the most part this is the first time she isn’t making an effort to make time for Arator because of all of that and how it’s been affecting her.

Ultimately, though, it depends a lot on how Arator responds to a lot of that. How does he deal with N’Zoth and the vision, if he’s capable of setting that aside as a lie an Old God was using against all of them, or if it genuinely causes him to fear his mother’s ties to the Void and what it may lead to, if he’s still invested in growing closer to her or everything made him more distant too, if he faces her distance by growing distant too or if he is persistent in his efforts to be closer to her. And that depends on how close and how open they grew to be before all of that, too, because if they were forging a bond that had a lot of openness and honesty in its foundation, even should Alleria grow more distant, she would make the effort to be open and honest if he sought to discuss things openly, which might led to them slowly easing back into a more familiar, easygoing way to interact again.

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But Alleria would approve of Anduin, wouldn't she? How would Tiffin feel towards Arator?

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Alleria would 100% approve of Anduin. Tbh I have a hard time thinking of anyone she'd approve more iahdiahdishd

Alleria isn’t one to respect authority for the sake of it. She confronted a king thousands years her senior when she thought he was being stupid, and a human who is still much of a child in her eyes when it comes to age, well, Alleria wouldn’t accept him as a leader if she didn’t respect Anduin, but she does. She respects him as a leader, and she is very grateful for him embracing the ren’dorei when their own homeland shunned them, and the way I personally see it, she has a degree of motherly affection for him too. Sure, they don’t see everything eye to eye, and Anduin is way more pro-peace and willing to work with people she would never see as allies, but even the fact Alleria continues following his leadership after he works with the Horde and Saurfang speaks in favor of how positively she sees Anduin. So she loves Anduin and she loves Arator and she thinks they'd be great for each other, actually. And Alleria wants Arator to be with someone who will make him happy and treat him well, and she knows Anduin would as much as she knows Arator would do the same.

As for how Tiffin would feel about Arator, like I said in the previous answer about how she’d feel about someone romancing her son, she'd be receptive towards anyone Anduin had a relationship with. She wants to see him happy and she's very supportive regardless of who he chooses. Arator is good, he is much like Anduin on certain aspects, and if they were together, he would be nothing of not devout to Anduin. Tiffin would be happy to see Anduin happy. And I think she'd like Arator a lot, regardless of him having a relationship with Anduin tbh.

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Maybe one little angsty question but Arator is dying, how far does Alleria go to save him?

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She would go really far, and definitely farther than Arator would be okay with her going. If she has to choose between his life and someone else’s, she will choose him, no matter who the other person is (even if, depending on who they were, she would never forgive herself for it). Alleria would gladly sell her soul if it meant Arator would be well — which means that she would risk Azeroth itself as long as she could save him (in a way that made sense, ofc, bc it wouldn’t make sense to save him and destroy the world andfkajdfn). If, for example, Arator was dying and a void entity offered to save him in exchange of her being bound to them? She would, if she thought they did have the means to save him. This might impact Azeroth on the long run, but it is an exchange she definitely would make. If she has to die, or let herself be corrupted, or become a slave, she’d be willing to do anything to save him, it isn’t even a choice.

The single hard limit I could think of is anything that results in direct world doom, because saving him seems kinda pointless if the world would be destroyed, maybe more due to how it’d feel for him than her being unwilling to make the sacrifice. Actually, this is the limit, and not a certain action: Alleria would stop at anything that would seriously hurt Arator, and that isn’t a personal sacrifice she’d be making. For example: if she had to sacrifice Turalyon to save him? Alleria would have, were the choice up to her alone; but considering how it would impact Arator well beyond how her son would feel about her, Alleria wouldn’t do it. At the same time, if she had to sacrifice herself to save him, she would do it even if she knows Arator wouldn’t be okay with it, because it is her life and her choice, and his life is worth more. It is the sort of thing she believes he can overcome, and it is a choice that impacts her alone. Arator will just have to deal with it.

Basically, she would easily be willing to do anything, but because of how it would impact him, there are some things she wouldn’t actually do, except this rule doesn’t apply when it comes to herself.

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