#‘isnt this romantic?? :(‘ ‘i guess but this is like a boys night right? thats also good :)’

[samarecharm]

wuji…..

#chattin #strikers liveblog #hes so SWEET #im wrapping up osaka in the theme park #and their convo is so sweet……wails. #‘whyre u sayin that like ur not one of us? ur a phantom thief too!’ #like ugh. the way he said it was so sweet and reassuring. #hes so good #also #i took the boys out to the tower; love that morgana agonizes over it lol #‘isnt this romantic?? :(‘ ‘i guess but this is like a boys night right? thats also good :)’ #love them sm…. #yusuke is so silly heehee

[nikrangdan]

lovestruck!enhypen x reader

pairing: lovestruck!enhypen x reader

genre: FLUFF fluff Fluff

description: how enhypen would be if they became lovestruck by the reader ☹️☹️ this is such an adorable request!!!! itll vary for each member ur relationships so you’ll either be strangers or already dating etc.

a/n: idk if all of them are lovestruck exactly bc i just got carried away with the fluff for some of them and idky maknae line revolves around sleeping BUT IDC sleepy!enhypen is the best 😁

———————

HEESEUNG

u worked at a pretty popular clothing store

and well well well heeseung had shown up dressed very much your style so u were like

Wow who is this guy....

he was alone just looking around

and there were like 10 other people in the store but u wanted to talk to him so bad so u went up like

“hi, welcome! are u finding everything okay?”

he was looking through a rack of shirts and turned around when he heard u but WOW

when this man turned around he looked even better in person u couldnt believe it 😫

BUT IT SEEMS HE FELT THE SAME BC U SWEAR HE BECAME SO FLUSTERED WHEN HE TURNED AROUND

his eyes got so wide u almost laughed it was so cute ☹️

he stuttered and was like “oh um im okay”

Aw man

but u said “okay then! let me know if you need any help finding anything or if u wanna use a dressing room!” and u sent him ur nicest smile u could give

his eyes were still kinda wide open and u gave him one last look before turning around😢😢

BUT THEN HE SAID SOMETHING

“w-wait! actually.. um....uh.. do u.. do u guys have sweatpants..?”

u giggled to urself on the inside bc u knew he just made that up on the spot

“we do! here, follow me”

while u were showing him the clothes u guys had exchanged names and had some small talk

and that was the start of something very Beautiful

and since then he has been coming almost everyday to visit u at work 🤗🤗

JAY

jay swore he found new things about u to love every single day

and today wasnt an exception!!!!

u knew jay had been really tired and just worn out from work recently so u had decided to make him his favorite meal for dinner

a nice little surprise for when he got home ❤️

and also the anime he was watching ready on the tv for u two to watch together :(

u had literally been preparing all day and u even decided to go out and buy dessert too

AWESOMEST PERSON EVER U ARE!

it was 8pm already and jay should be getting home now

u set the table all neatly and put on one of his sweaters

AND WOULD U LOOK AT THAT HE GOT HOME AS SOON AS U WERE DONE

Fate 🔥🔥

romantic stuff like this wasnt really ur forte so this was out of the normal for u

but u wanted to do something for jay because he did stuff like this for u alot

the table isnt in view when u walk into the apartment so he wasnt able to see his dinner yet

“hi” you smile brightly and go up to hug him and give him a little kiss

he had his bad slung over one of his shoulders and he was taking his shoes off in the doorway after he closed it

“hey.. it smells pretty good in here” he gave you a tired smile while one of his arms was wrapped around your waist

“really? it smells normal to me” you giggled before walking to the kitchen area together

he stopped and looked at u with LITERAL HEARTS IN HIS EYES when he saw the table

jay: ❤️_❤️

“y/n..”

“surprise!!! you know im not good with words but i wanted to show you that i can cook” you laugh “and that i love you very much and im so proud of you”

jay doesnt say anything but instead drops his bag on the couch and gives u the Biggest Hug Ever

ur face is practically smushed in his chest and his hand is resting lovingly on ur hair :(((

he loves u so much im so sad

JAKE

“layla!!! layla where are you?” jake was yelling quite loudly in the massive park he was in the middle of

yeah jake lost layla.. uh oh

quite a coincidence you found the cutest dog you’d ever laid eyes on

and she seemed to love u very much

the dog had made u topple over and now she was excitedly playing with you while you were sat on the ground laughing to your hearts content

after a minute of playing you had got up because you knew she was somebodys lost dog and her owner was probably looking all over the park for her

“okay.. lets go find your owner before they have a heart attack” you giggle

just as you said that though, you heard a boys voice yell “LAYLA!!!!”

the dog next to you looked in his direction, tail wagging and tongue out, but she didnt move an inch from her spot next to you

it made me you laugh out loud

as you were watching the boy run up to you, you noticed how cute he actually was

Omg..... ur heart started beating a little faster

“hi..” the boy hunched over with his hands on his knees breathing very heavily “you have my dog”

“uh yeah” you laugh “sorry about that, she ran over to me a couple minutes ago and i was just about to go find her owner”

“its okay, thank you..” he trailed off to find out your name and finally looked up to meet your eyes

“y/n” you told him

“y/n” he repeated with a small grin on his face “im jake”

“hi jake” you lightheartedly give him your hand to shake and he chuckles before taking the offer

“and it was nice meeting you layla” you crouch down to meet her level and she licks your face making you fall on your butt

you laugh and jakes quick to help you up

“layla! thats not very nice” he jokingly scolds her and pets her head

after u got up u bid goodbye to the two before jake invited u to continue walking around the park AND HE EVEN BOUGHT U AN ICE CREAM

Is This A Date, Jake? 😫😫❤️❤️❤️❤️😳😛😛

SUNGHOON

“you should be more careful” you scold the boy sitting with you standing between his legs

sunghoon had apparently gotten elbowed in the face by his friend and scratched by his friends cat on accident????

“it wasn’t my fault! he turned around and i just happened to be in the way. and i didnt even do anything to the cat!” he whined

“i didnt say it was your fault. i said to be more careful.” you tried to sound stern

u knew ur logic was making no sense but u just thought it was so fun to mess with him

he let out a sigh and gave up, slouching over again

you were stood between his legs, wiping the blood away and applying ointment

“im just kidding, you’re so cute” one of your free hands comes up to rub his hair

a small grin pops up on his face and his arms come to rest on your waist

he looks up at you while you focus on tending to his wounds

and u guessed it WITH LITERAL HEARTS IN HIS EYES

❤️_❤️

“you know y/n” he begins

you hum in response, letting him know you’re listening

“im gonna marry you one day”

you freeze in your place

it took you a minute to collect yourself because you felt like your heart almost leaped out of your chest

“who says?” you joke

he leans up to give you a quick kiss on the lips before sitting back down

“me.”

SUNOO

you noticed sunoo had been really tired lately and u just wanted to make him feel better :((

the boys were going out and invited you two obviously but you could tell sunoo was iffy about going

“uhh..” you trail off and look over at sunoo who was laying on the couch

“you know what guys? i think me and sunoo are gonna stay home today.. you guys have fun though!” you bid goodbye to the other boys and they all understood and left

you dont even know if sunoo knew they had left already because when you walked over to him his tired eyes were glued on the tv

“hey” you leaned against the couch and looked down at him

“y/n? are we going soon?” his eyes move to the top of his head to look up at you

you start laughing and he literally goes 🤨???

“silly, they already left! so what do you wanna do?” you plop down next to him and he was in the process of sitting up

“what? when did they leave...” his mouth drops open

“like 2 minutes ago” you giggle, leaning back to rest your head

sunoo had sat still, pondering for a moment

“why did they leave us?” he turned to look at you

your eyes met his “well i figured you didnt wanna go... you didnt, right?”

he slowly shakes his head “how did you know?”

you give him a sneaky smile and jokingly push his arm “because i know you so well”

he laughs at this and leans his head on your shoulder

“wow y/n.. im impressed” he grins, snuggling into your arm

your other arm crosses over to pat him on the head, leaning your head to rest on top of his

“but thank you y/n..” his eyes slowly close to rest “im thankful for all the little things you notice about me”

u literally go 🥺

your hand goes down to squeeze his and he falls asleep peacefully on ur shoulder ☹️☹️☹️❤️

JUNGWON

“y/n..what is that” jungwons eyes can barely open as he tries to comprehend whats going on while hes waking up

you haphazardly tap around the bedside table trying to turn off the new alarm you set last night

and that new alarm was jungwon singing 🤗

“its you, dummy” your eyes were still closed but you turned to face jungwon and snuggled closer to him

“wha- where did you even get that???” he was almost fully awake now, staring down at your half asleep figure

you yawned before answering in your i-just-woke-up-and-i-should-probably-drink-some-water voice “remember when you sang me to sleep last week? yeah i was secretly recording you. no biggie” you pat his chest twice and leave your hand there, content with life at the moment Lol

“y/nnnn” he whines “change ittt i dont like it”

“you’re kidding.” you deadpan, shocked he would say such a thing!!! “jungwon you sound like an angel threw up on a field of flowers full of puppies and kittens! okay thats kinda weird maybe not that”

jungwon giggles a little and sits up so he can sit against the headboard while your head rests on his lap

“you like my singing that much?” you can hear the smile in his voice as he asks you

you finally pop one eye open to look up at him, a goofy grin in your face

“i love your singing”

his hands run through your hair and you let out a sigh at the feeling

jungwon doesnt say anything

all he does is admire you

you can feel his eyes on you so you open your eyes again (both this time🙏🏼) and meet his eyes

“i can feel you staring straight into the depths of my soul, jungwon”

he laughs at this, bring his other hand up to pinch your cheek

“i’ll sing for you whenever you want me to y/n”

NI-KI

“shut up sunghoon, hes sleeping” you whisper-scolded the boy

ni-ki was currently asleep on you

literally SPRAWLED all over your body and you were basically mummified

by nishimura riki

his legs were tangled in yours, his head shoved into your neck, and his arms were bent around you in ways you didnt know were humanly possible

“you literally have an alien taking a nap on you y/n” sunghoon deadpans before walking out the room

“when you’re asleep sunghoon i will send you into a spacecraft for the rest of your life so you can go see aliens for yourself”

“wowww im so scared y/n” the boy remarks and shuts the door

you half laugh and half scoff before turning your attention back to the ipad screen sitting on the bed infront of you

well

kind of infront of you because ni-ki’s acrobatic position was basically blocking the view

you were having a decent time watching the show playing, definitely not the most comfortable person on the planet at the moment

until you felt the body on top of you.. rumble?

you knew that feeling

ni-ki was laughing

HOW and WHY the hell was he laughing ?!!?!!?!

“what the hell?” you look down at him and his face is shoved near your shoulder but you caught a glimpse of his big smile

his laughter gets louder and you still dont have answers yet

“why are you laughing???? i thought you were sleeping?????” you try to push him off you but he was persistent in laughing in your shoulder (??)

after a couple minutes of you just letting this happen

ni-ki finally speaks!

“you’re so funny y/n” he finally pulls away from you and wipes his tears

“what are you even talking about... and how long were you awake, you sneaky kid” you poke his chest

he leans down again to hug your waist and start cuddling you again

“10 minutes”

“so you’re telling me i could’ve freed myself from that god awful demon EMBRACE you had me in 10 minutes ago???!!”

ni-ki starts laughing again and looks up at you

“thank you for threatening to send sunghoon to aliens for me y/n” he grins

you laugh, finally understanding what the boy had been going on about

“sunghoon deserved it”

#enhypenwriters #enhypen imagines #enhypen #enhypen scenarios #enhypen reactions #enhypen x reader #enhypen drabbles #enhypen fluff #enhypen fic #enhypen headcanons #jungwon imagines #heeseung imagines #sunghoon imagines #ni ki imagines #sunoo imagines #enhypen timestamps #enhypen imagine

[izukult]

This is such a cute idea! I’m addicted to making weirdly specific Spotify playlists so this is perfect. I have an ✨eclectic✨ music taste but my favorites are usually bedroom pop (mxmtoon, chloe moriondo, khai dreams, etc), romantic classical (think Debussy and Revel), and indie (although I like some Megan Thee Stallion, AC/DC, Nirvana, etc when I’m hyping myself up). As far as my personality goes, I’m pretty insightful and like to support people whenever I can, even if I don’t know them well. I can be a little chaotic sometimes, but I like to think it’s a chaotic good. I love tea, blankets, philosophy, deep conversations, the outdoors, and writing. I’m also an INFP and a Taurus :)

Sorry if that was too much, thank you so much! Take care of yourself and stay well

- Elle ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

( @snoozless ) you don’t understand how bad i want to be your friend. 😐😐 ok so you kind of get bonus 😀 but it rly might not be bonus because akfjakdkw. so, i gave you matsukawa!! but he’s not always like revered about so if u want a character lmk!! i am. in love w him tho. you’re so sweet you would balance him out and yall would be equally chaotic together.

he would have philosophical questions w u!! he might just be a little blunt & might accidentally cut the convo short, but he would listen to everything you said.

he’s used to a wide variety of music bc i’m convinced the seijoh playlists are absolutely fucking cracked like so loud. so he really could sit there and listen to anything. and i mean ANYTHING. like if you wanted to put on christian rock he’d awkwardly try to tap his foot on beat for you.

but, that doesn’t mean he’s gonna geek over you i feel like he’d be pretty private about the relationship. he’s not like secretive but he’s not gonna post you every two seconds yknow? he wouldnt put prom photos, but if yall went to look at the stars or go on a little hike he’d take a pic and youre wearing baggy sweats and one of his shirts and your hair isnt brushed for shit and it’s way too dark to properly make your face out and he’d put that shit on his main absolutely 😒

this man would be the kind of mf to look up his “crush’s” zodiac just for shits & giggles, so if he randomly knows a taurus fact, don’t question it<3 (he looked up your compatibility and he will take that to the grave)

issei is an infp idc. so yall got that in common.

he’s genuinely so pretty.

bc i took so long, i’m going to put descriptions for all the songs i love you thanks for requesting sorry for taking forever i’ll link the playlist and list the songs<3

1. silly girl- chloe moriondo

okay while this song is actually kinda sad, i think tHIS is pretty cute. issei comes off as this intimidating guy, and the more you get to know him the more you forget ab this idea of him you had or whatever? like the lyrics “i made him perfect, cause i wanted him to be” are really prominent in the point i’m tryna make because like even tho the lyric is obviously sad bitch shit, music is up for interpretation and this is like “hello ok he actually a real mf and shiiit maybe he cool😁✊”

2. nice boys- TEMPOREX

kinda sad. i don’t care how unemotional he might act, everyone has shit that brings them down. PLUS HES A PISCES THERES NO WAY HES NOT SAD SOMETIMES. this song just really taps into insecurities for him, and the song just gets under his skin in like a very therapeutic way. also “because he’s a pisces” some of his emotions are super intense so the “because he cares too much” line hits him fuckin hard

3. IV. sweatpants- childish gambino

this is some shit he listens to more with his team, absolutely. no doubt they blare this shit during weekly practice. but, he really really likes the song. so, when you’re hanging out and he has the aux? it’s one of the first ones he puts on. you two jam to it together. he’ll come up w dumb little dances to fit with certain lyrics (stole some of them from oikawa and hanamaki, but he won’t tell you)

4. you get me so high- the neighbourhood

okay unfortunately i must say him and hanamaki get fuckin faded in empty fields at two am all trashy like. but they make it look good idc. and if you smoke, cool, if you don’t he does not care. he always associated getting high with,,, getting high and everytime he listened to this song it just was one of his getting blazed jams, but now he’s got like a different kinda “euphoric” feel with loving you? like i said this bitch is a pisces even if he doesn’t overwhelm you with affection, he thinks ab you 24/7

5. 80’s makeout session- dacelynn

thIS SONG IS SO CUTE. but it’s p self explanatory. in love and also spare a kiss pls

6. can i call you tonight- dayglow

i feel like actually coming to terms with genuine feelings for someone would be kind of weird for issei. like no offense, but he sees it as kind of a pain in the ass. i genuinely think he would be someone to put his all into work or a task in front of him. he’s super intuitive, and constantly uses it to be better. whether it’s in volleyball or like cremating ppl i guess (HE WORKS INA FUNERAL HOME POST TIME SKIP IF U DIDNT KNOW). and it’s the same in relationships, but it’s also harder because he can’t have this complete clear head because you make his brain go kinda fuzzy. so, this song is like his little way of expressing that even tho he was like ‘internally conflicted’ this mf chose to go for it and that’s how much u mean to him

7. clair de lune, L. 32- claude debussy

i’m gonna be fucking honest with you. even though he’ll listen to anything, i really don’t think this man is looking up ‘classical romance study tunes’ playlists in his free time. he definitely enjoys the music, but that’s only if someone points it out to him. and he’s listened to you talk about it before, and watched you as you heard the piano and gauged your reactions and thought u were pretty cute he’s not gonna lie😼. so he definitely just looked up classical romance and picked the first recommended song and added it on there. he’ll dance w you a lil bit, but it wouldn’t be that quiet, intimate slow dancing in the dark you think would come w this song. itd just be a little sway as he hugs you from behind while you get water, or he twirls you once randomly with a laugh UGH I LOVE HIM

8. like real people do- hozier

ok. this one was fun for me. idc. double meaning lol. so this song is literally about two dead bodies in a bog and ,,, and he works in a funeral home PLS LMAOFJAJDJA I THINK THATS SO FUCKING FUNNY AND SO DOES HE. but also this song literally is my idea of love. this is my idea of love. and yall listen to it, with your stupid little death joke, but he looks at you and he’s just like ‘oh’. yknow? YKNOW?

9. BS- still woozy

like i said, i think he puts a lot into work. and he literally plays for a powerhouse school there’s no way he doesn’t practice a lot. so that means there’s a lot of time where he’s physically not there and definitely can’t text, because he’s trying to improve. and while he wouldn’t stop volleyball for someone else, he understands that you are like super amazing for being so Cool with him not being the most available. the song just reminds him of how compassionate you are and also he does miss u when he’s at practice YKNOW?

10. i <3 u- boy pablo

this one made me so fucking soft ew. ok. this song reminds him of you so so much. he’s totally okay being vulnerable with you? and even though he has pretty heightened emotions, he’s never felt like so strongly for smth other than like ??? volleyball and caring ab his siblings (BUT HE FEELS DIFFERENT FOR U THAN HE DOES FOR A VOLLEYBALL AND HIS SIBLINGS PLEASE😁). HE LUVVVVV YOU

11. heart-shaped box- nirvana

so many reasons. for one, simply fucking JAM. yall would scream this on a drive. if you ever got drunk together, this would be the first song you play. also, little lyrics remind you of each other. (the pisces lyric in the first and third verse, and even tho the flowers aren’t being used in a sweet sense in the song he does remember talking ab flowers w u, and now any flower is mentioned and he’s like “ah yes. my girlfriend.”)

12. pluto projector- rex orange county

FUCK. FUCK THIS SONG. GOD. NO. LIKE HE REALIZES HE’S IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH THIS SONG. HE T E L L S YOU HE’S IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH THIS SONG. the first time, he just sends you the name of it like ‘pluto projector <3’ and you listen and it’s so sweet and ur like ayo turn this shit up. and he adds it to your playlist, which definitely gets a smile from you. and then one night like two weeks later youre just laying together, and he’s running his fingers through his hair and he pulls away for a second to grab his phone and he turns the song on and you just listen to it in silence and it’s so fucking intimate. and he’s just like “i don’t think i’ve ever related to a song more” and you think he’s making a joke so you tell him to shut up (also jokingly) and he just laughs and it’s dark in his room and he’s playing with your hair again and he just goes “god, if you’re telling me to shut up over that i don’t even want to imagine how you’re gonna react when i tell you i love you” and it’s right around 3:10 in the song i’m literally so gone for him. bye you cry and try to hide it but he can tell HES PERCEPTIVE

13. i wanna be yours- arctic monkeys

okay for one, it’s a good song. it’s a song he absolutely let’s play in the background, just to cover the static lol. but also? ALSO? THE TITLE APPLIES TO YOU THE FUCK? it’s as if,,, he’s whipped,,

14. supermassive black hole- muse

hanamaki prolly showed him this song, and it’s one of his vibe songs. he will do falsetto while singing it if he’s in a really good mood and it just makes everyone laugh, including himself. it actually kind of grosses him out, because this song used to literally just be a song he would aimlessly go hard to but NOW his little bitch ass is like “you set my soul alight”? i guess i relate and “oh baby, i’m a fool for you” well, surely i’m not a fool but yea i get you muse sing it. it’s so gross. at this point he wants one thing that doesn’t make him think of you, just to prove that he’s not that gone, but he struggling

15. desperado- rhianna

i’m sorry to say it but this song makes him feel like a bad bitch LMAOOOOO. like if he’s ever getting pregame jitters or anything, he will just play this song. whether it’s on the speaker or in his headphones, he puts this shit on full volume and gets a lil too cocky LOL. this is also on the main seijoh playlist no doubt. he wants to share his bad bitch song w you, so you can aLSO feel like a bad bitch?? dUH

IM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT BABES! IF YOU WANT ANY OF THE SONGS CHANGED (or even the character) LMK!! UR AMAZING ur so sweet it makes me ill

#haikyuu #haikyuu playlists #ikigaitooru playlists #matsukawa issei #mastukawa x reader #matsukawa playlist #haikyuu x reader

[dumdumyumyum]

Got what i wanted, got what i needed

This whole year has been crazy and i feel like im bringing in the new year the right way so much has been going on and i don’t even know where to start, i’ll start with Ali Marie so maybe two weeks ago i woke up one morning and i was on i.g laying in my bed and i came across this girl on her story answering questions and this is weird and im normally not like this but as soon as i seen this girl i just knew i had 2 shoot my shot there’s a hope in her eyes i cant put a price on, i assumed she never in a million would give me the time of day or she would reply nicely but not be interested in me, so i asked her could i be her sugardaddy and  i thought that even if she did talk 2 me she would be like all the other girls, just hella money hungry and she would instantly send me her paypal or cashapp like prove you’re serious but she wasnt like that and we just talked and got 2 know each other and i cant front i was completely blown away by her.

She’s 25 she’s a stylist and that is so fucking dope to me because i love fashion, her make up, her fashion sense is so me... she lives in Chicago she has her own place and car, she made it known to me that she’s very independent and prides herself on that she’s not even the type of girl 2 ask for things she’s so prideful and i like that a lot. with that being said she’s very pricey and knows her worth i asked her what she wanted for Christmas and valentines day and she told me she wanted dinning room chairs which wasn’t to much maybe like 550$ which isn’t bad she also wanted a computer for work too and i told her i would get that for her but i was testing her to see how she would react and i love how she wasn’t pressing me about sending her money or buying her things and then one week she left her lunch and i offered 2 buy her lunch so i gave her my credit card info just 2 see if she would spend more than she said and she didnt. 

I don’t trust anyone but for someone reason i trust her, we’ve been big on establishing trust and she’s been really honest with me for the most part but with that being said she’s not afraid to tell me things i might not wanna hear, i have a good feeling about her and not because i want us to work i just feel like she maybe she’s want i need, she’s the kinda girl i dream of she’s demure classy, stylish sexy, the only thing i’ve been thinking of is i am very mushy and romantic and Ali Marie isnt at all and she’s been very open about that but she’s made it clear that she likes me and im guessing ima have 2 have her ease up 2 me, i know that if she shows me any kind of affection its gonna mean the world to me i really wanna hold her in my arms and look into her eyes. i told her 2 catch me if i faint. Last week we kinda clashed because i was worrying and expressing myself too much i was asking her what if she doesn’t like me and she was like we will be fine you will come out here and see the city and we will have fun. she’s right i was over thinkin and i really want things with her 2 be perfect but i just have 2 be confident and beee myself. she threw me off tho cause i was telling her i’d fly out 2 see her when it gets warmer and she was like thats so long from now come sooner babe so i said feb like valentine’s day so the other night i bought my plane tickets 2 see her on valentines day and when i told her i thought she would be happy instead she flipped out and said i should have talked 2 her and she feels like i made plans without running them by her and i was like wait im confused because i thought we talked the week before so i was calm about it and i was like okay no worries i’ll change the dates and for some reason Ali thought i was mad and i wasn’t but she sensed that for some reason but i think the truth is she’s starting 2 like me and the thought of commitment scares her and its really clear to see and i get it because me falling for her scares me like what if she doesn’t like me or what if i wanna cuff her and she’s like no  which is what may happen but i plan on sweeping her off her feet i really wanna have a big impact on her i feel like that George Harrison song because i have my mind set on her i know i have 2 be patient i know ima spend alot of money i know i have 2 keep in mind who she is and what i have but i could be outta my rabbit ass mind but i think i have a fair chance i truly believe if i play my cards right things will be the way i want but i do know that i need 2 figure out when ima see her because before i spend hella money i need 2 know that we click in person ima wait for like 2 to 3 months just so it isnt freezing when i am in Chicago im such a california boy. so for the last week i was worried ali got covid but now she’s fine she’s in Michigan seeing her family so for the next few days we aint gonna talk but i feel like anything that feels like we’re falling into a relationship scares her and i think us talking so much spooked her so i get it ima take things slow but she’s truly something special to me and ima value and cherish her -lpc

[andrvgreens]

IN GENERAL: andré is an accomplice to kidnapping

**trigger warnings for child abuse, abduction, kidnapping, and arson

IN DETAIL: andré’s parents always wanted another kid. it’s not that they thought andre wasnt enough, or that their family was incomplete... they just wanted andre to have someone to run around with and grow up with. they loved children so much. but they were a bit older, and it was hard enough for them to have andre, let alone another kid. adoption was a long, hard process, and everything just seemed against them. when andre was 11, a new family moved in on their dingy little apartment complex. it was a man, and his son. the man was worn, and drunk, the boy wore tattered clothes, and was dirty most days. but he smiled so brightly, and genuinely, andre and his parents adored the boy. andre finally had someone to play with, even though the boy was 9- it was still nice, because andre felt like an older brother.  most nights, andre and his parents would sit at the dinner table and listen to the man next door yell at his son, throw bottles, or drink himself into unconsciousness. most days, the boy would appear with a new bruise or scar, but a smile nonetheless. even andre, young, and naive, realised something wasn’t quite right. andre’s parents began to call the police, and social services. it was hard, though. the police seemed to know the man quite well, and found there wasn’t much they could do, as they didn’t have any proof of abuse, and the boy didn’t talk much. social services always announced when they were coming over, and gave the man enough time to clean up his act for the day and act like a doting father. and andre and his parents had no choice but to watch for months as this little, sweet boy was abused and mistreated, and nobody was doing anything to help him. andre doesnt know exactly what happened. but one night, his parents shook him awake, in alarm, and said they needed to go right away. andre smelt smoke. he was confused as he sat up in the bed, and realised that their neighbour had drunkenly fallen asleep with his cigarette in his lap, and lit the building on fire. they were all going to die. as him and his parents sprinted out of the building, andre realised his mum was holding onto the neighbour boy. he seemed to just fit there, perfectly. that night was the catalyst. it changed everything. that was the night they all smelled like smoke, and knew enough was enough. their things had burned down, they had no insurance, but at least they had each other. they packed what little things they had left, bundled into the car, and left. and took the little neighbour boy with them. years have passed since then, and that boy- drew- is every bit a part of their family as ever. he’s andre’s younger brother. he’s their child. their son. their loved one. nobody ever came looking for him, nobody ever cared for him. but now andre and his parents do, and will, every day for the rest of their lives. they have no regret, they know they did the right thing, in the end. and andre will make sure he carries this secret, and protects his family, to the grave. 

DOES ANYONE ELSE KNOW THIS SECRET?: his parents, and that’s it. 

IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE YOUR CHARACTER HAS TO HIDE?: he’s a real romantic nerd.. but thats not even a secret ADKJKJBF. he also actually has a lil program he does (this is based off the perfect date dkjfnjdk), where he- u guessed it- is a perfect date for people. basically, he’s like the Boyfriend Project. when ppl need a date for a night, or want just someone nice, they can hire him. it’s strictly NOT sexual, it’s just that he’s a good guy and needs the extra money to send back home, so he decided to just offer his friendly boyfriend services to anyone who may need them. this isnt  that big of  a secret but i imagine a lot of his ‘clientele’ wouldnt wanna be revealed??

#kidnapping tw #child abuse tw #fire tw #arson tw #me : laughs awkwardly #anyways... #this is written terribly but thats showbiz baybee! #water:task #water:task002

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benke !!!!!!

u truly want me dead but ily so- BUT OK BENKE my meme child

What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?.2 seconds i hate him. if he HAD to sit still and he was feeling slightly more chill than usual he could prbly go five minutes. tops. he’s just rlly antsy. he needs to be doing smth w his hands

How easy is it for your character to laugh?EH not super easily but defo more easily than a lot of my other ocs from one to ten one being laughs extremely easily he’s prbly a 4. the key is to find him memes esp political nihilistic memes or fall in front of him bc he’s terrible

How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)he doesn’t sleep. e v e r. who do u think he is?? nah jk on a more serious note, he actually doesn’t sleep very easily so usually he just listens to music until he dozes off

How easy is it to earn their trust?gosh that’s. difficult to say. p hard actually?? surprisingly hard for how much of a meme he acts like and how relatively extroverted he is. from one to ten w one meaning it’s very easy to gain his trust i’d say 7

How easy is it to earn their mistrust?he doesn’t rlly attach himself to ppl easily so it’s p easy to get him to not trust u. like he’ll be chill w u but he wont trust u all that much it’s a weird dynamic w him. w one being v easy to get him to distrust and ten very hard, he’s a 5. p much in the middle not rlly too much to one side or another

Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?rules are great until they impede him from getting what he’s aimin for :) on a more serious note, he doesn’t rlly give a damn abt most laws like he doesn’t want to go to jail but at the same time if he’s not going to get caught he’s going to do it bc hey wtf yolo

What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?LOL NOSTALGia thats a joke he dislikes sappy things n nostalgia falls into that category but he will on v v rare occasions reminisce. certain musical pieces have that effect on him esp the classical ones as he’s grown up w music (being a practical prodigy on the piano and all). he guesses that sometimes it is kind of nice to remember. just once in a while tho. in a while being the key phrase here

What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child?I MEAN he’s sixteen he’s still technically a child but basically the most common thing he hears is stop slacking and work harder. being an asian kid getting As is? absolutely crucial he’ll be smacked upside the head by his parents if he doesn’t so they always tell him to stop slacking tf off n actually study for once (tbh it’s fine he’s a genius practically he gets As easier than u can say banana split)

Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?absolutely and he doesn’t rlly remember but he thinks it was “shit”

What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?once he set out twenty peeps just behind the wheels of his mom’s car and when she backed out the entire wheels got covered in peeps and when she came home saying there was all this weird gooey stuff on her wheels and looked pointedly at him. he just blurted out that it was god exacting judgement on her for her sins. it didn’t end well. he ended up washing the entire car by himself. it still haunts him to this day

How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?he’ll literally just say “what the fuck” and laugh

How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?whine about it until someone scratches it for him dependent on how comfy he is around the ppl he’s with. if he’s not comfy around the ppl he’s w he’ll just sulk internally or scurry off to the bathroom and like, rub his back (presumptively that’s where he can’t reach) against the edge of the stall until the itch is gone bc he’s high

What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?he thinks he looks best in all colors also he doesn’t rlly care abt fashion. he looks best in HM like purple or royal blue?? 

What animal do they fear most?he has this weird fear of armadillos and no one knows why it has smth to do w an incident at the zoo when he was six

How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?he honestly doesn’t say everything that comes to mind even tho it SOUNDS like he does but he also. basically says everything that comes to mind. it’s odd bc he ends up being rlly engaging in conversation anyways. however he isnt immune to being at a loss for words and when he’s under pressure he will stumble a lil thru what he’s saying. but most of the time what u hear is what he’s thinkin

What makes their stomach turn?ok he’s not SUPER big abt justice or anything like that but if someone’s being torn down he’ll get rlly uncomfy unless he’s the one who initiated it bc he’s like hey hey haha guys dont say that abt them. also he dislikes roly polys w a passion bc they remind him of armadillos :)

Are they easily embarrassed?on one hand he has no shame on the other he does get p flustered if ppl flirt w him and it hits a spot (in a good way)? like he does get embarrassed moderately easily but it takes him a few seconds to realize he should be embarrassed if u get me

What embarrasses them?flirting, if u get a well aimed compliment in that he didn’t expect. also realizing he’s made a fool of himself bc that oftentimes happens but he also rarely realizes it so if he REALIZES he’s made a fool of himself he will get flustered

What is their favorite number?420 duh

If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?he’d be like wtf why r u asking me this but if someone he does trust and is close to asked him he’d try his best to give a serious answer after a bout of awkward laughing to make sure they were serious. prbly like “familial love and platonic love are the same thing basically right? i guess platonic love is how u love ur friends so yk brofists and shit and then romantic love is more? special? idk it’s fucking great tho *fingers guns at sev*”

Why do they get up in the morning? his mom makes him get up for school otherwise what is leaving his bed when he can just pull his comp onto his lap while STAYING in his bed and game from there

How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? oh he’s very possessive. he’ll defo keep whatever he’s worried abt losing close by to start and if it’s a person- friend or s/o- he’s going to be touching them a lot more. a hand on the back, a hug at the side, running his hands through their hair casually. anything to assert that no back off ur not taking them from me. but if it continues, which it v well may, knowing him, he’s going to start getting snarky n verbally fighting the other person. basically Messy pls reassure him if u are the object of his affections and he’s getting side-eye emoji abt someone 

How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? he defo becomes resentful a bit. like he doesn’t get envious over most things- it’s mostly fear of losing the thing once he has it- but when it does he will get resentful and hole up a bit and generally just seem a little ticked

Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom?yeah he’s comfy talking abt sex. prbly a little too comfy. so basically anyone willing to engage him in the conversation topic will likely hear abt it but he’s calmed down ever since he got involved w sev

What are their thoughts on marriage?marriage is good? but far off and amorphous in his mind. for the most part he’s like there’s nothing wrong w it but it crosses his mind EXTREMELY infrequently   

What is their preferred mode of transportation? preferably in the back of a private plane, squirrel suit gliding or on a giant eagle, none of which he’s ever experienced in his life. but out of the things he has he is fond of sailing when it’s calm out bc he does get seasick a tiny bit. he likes fast cars too

What causes them to feel dread? his mother :) she may be small but she is Frightening

Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? he doesnt rlly give a damn so lie most of the time but at the same time if he cares abt the thing and he’s asking u abt it pls do urself a favor and tell him the truth. it’s what he prefers and it’s rare anyways that he actually asks after smth

Do they usually live up to their own ideals? nope. he wants to win a nobel prize, publish a meme compilation book, become a world class pianist, go to pluto- u get the idea. ya boi has many high hopes for himself which he’s not rlly meeting atm. he’s a little all over the place, so despite his many talents he isn’t quite living up to the ideal version of himself he’s seeking after and prbly never will it’ll be very hard to get him to admit this not bc he’s an edgelord or smth but it’s hard to get him to talk abt deeper things but he does sincerely want to be a good moral person which dependent on the day and his level of seriousness he may or may not be living up to in his own eyes as well as in the eyes of others. what can i say he’s kind of a hoe

Who do they most regret meeting? life…. when life’s hand touched upon his little heart and gave him the gift of herself he immediately was filled w Ragret- on a more serious note it’s prbly the armadillo from the zoo

Who are they the most glad to have met? sev? he also adores his piano teacher but good luck getting him to admit that w heartfelt sincerity 

Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? it’s honestly whatever’s the most recent thing he observed, heard or experienced when it comes to stories. he has no shortage of words to say and his fav sort of memes and jokes are politically nihilistic ones. so those are? in a way his go to?

Could they be considered lazy? yes. he only applies himself if he’s interested and for most of school he has no qualms abt being a lil sus and casually “accidentally” getting the answers to things so yeah that’s. that could be considered lazy. however, when he does care abt smth he will absolutely dedicate himself to it. he practices piano consistently and diligently day in and day out so it honestly depends on if he cares or not

How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? v difficult. he rarely becomes guilty for longer than .4 seconds but when it does he’s srsly going to internalize that bc if he’s feeling guilty he prbly f-ed up real bad. he also won’t rlly talk abt it to anyone so it’s even more likely it’ll just get internalized 

How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? that’s extremely dependent on who it is and what it is. if it’s sev he’ll b v supportive but sev is a VERY big exception in most cases also sev rarely gets visibly excited abt things so it’s usually a cause for celebration when he does. if josie (his bff) is excited abt smth? if he can relate he’ll be excited for her but if he can’t he’ll TRY his best but there will be some teasing involved bc that’s how he diffuses confusion. their other bff will get the same treatment but w slightly more effort bc she’s more sensitive but gosh if it’s someone he doesn’t know rlly well he’ll be rlly confused he’ll be like good for u ha?? or someone he knows casually. they’ll get teased so he tries but he also sucks at life. for such a great analyst he’s terrible at being socially delicate

Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap? tbh prbly actively seek it. he defo pursued sev before they got together

Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)? he doesn’t rlly give a damn abt ppl’s names but if it’s say a piano piece it’s honestly just cold, hard repetition 

What memory do they revisit the most often? he doesn’t reminisce often hes a p go go go type of guy but if he does it’s prbly abt sev. neither of them voice it often but they’re both rlly grateful for the other

How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people? see, he’s kind of oblivious he doesn’t rlly think abt these things but when something annoys him? oh it annoys him and he’s going to make no effort to hide it or ignore it. so he’s honestly rlly bad at ignoring other ppl’s flaws. he’s a bit of a b like that 

How sensitive are they to their own flaws?very

How do they feel about children? no particular opinion! he’s the younger sib by quite a bit so he’s always been kind of the baby. he thinks kids are fine and he’s actually p good w them but he’d prefer to not babysit or anything like that. there are better more enjoyable things he could be doing w his time. as for having kids he almost never thinks abt that so he’s got no opinion there either. what happens happens after all

How badly do they want to reach their end goal? he doesn’t particularly have One End Goal but he has many aspirations and if he cares abt smth he will do everything in his power to reach it at least within reason. so p badly relatively speaking? 

If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so? he’s bi so if someone asked him to explain it he’d be like “it means idc what someone’s gender is when it comes to whether i want to fuck or not ;)” yes i hate him too

QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS

A) Why are you excited about this character?MEME KING but also i’m excited to try and work out the balance between apathy, drive and subtle but very much present care for the ppl around himB) What inspired you to create them?i need a best friend for the main chara of the story benke is a part of! additionally, he shares a lot of character traits w an irl friend of mine so it’s a bit of a nod to themC) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?nope! benke was created for the purpose of filling a role tho honestly he’s spun a wild story for himself somehow looking @ u sevD) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?i must admit benke does NOT have a set appearance as of the present. he’s afab nb and does nothing to present as more masculine than he naturally appears. he’s indian, 5′4″ and he’s got short hair w highlights but beyond that i’m still working out his appearance E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?yes on a surface level to both. we’d meme together but at a deeper level we wouldn’t make good close friends. benke’s brand of caring for ppl is nearly opposite to mine and bc we’re already both unconventional in how we show we care abt someone we’d prbly both end up feeling neglected. there’d be a lot of miscommunication and honestly, ya boi would get on my nerves n i’d prbly get on hisF) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?TIRED he TIRES me but also a bit of pride bc he’s growinG) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?where do i begin. prbly how he’s unintentionally self centered. benke is far from uncaring abt his friends he will do crazy stupid brave things for them if it ever came to that but it’s hard for him to see why some of the things he says hurt other ppl’s feelings esp if they’re diff from him. he’ll be like ?? why u offended i didn’t say anything mean. he’s also RLLY bad at handling serious emotions even when they sometimes do need to be dealth wH) What trait do you admire most?HM prbly his knack for being a great conversationalist. ppl like him even if he isn’t the most popular bc he’s funny and p chill. he doesn’t have too much drama so it’s like hey there’s the meme guy even tho he’s kinda weird and tbh goals. being a good conversationalist can get u places and ease up SO many social situationsI) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?PRBLY but also i think he’d do rlly well in a sci fi universe eyes emojiJ) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?nah not rlly?? not yet at least ! 

#defenestrata #i decided it was smarter to do the read more up there like u alskjflj #benke #my ocs #triad #benke.... is. Smth indeed

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This is Not a Love Story: part 2

Check out or refresh with Part 1 here.

To tell a good love story on screen, scenes, dialogue, camera angles and shots are important. Usually you have lots of quiet "get to know you" moments. Or single shots showing one of the love interests reactions. You need to give obvious and believable reasons for them to be falling in love. Television caters to the lowest common denominator for exposition. Usually its the big plot twists and mastermind moments that are subtle little easter egg hints.

When you compare the scenes between Jon and Sansa in S6, to the Jon and Dany scenes in S7, there is a big contrast. And the audience picked up on it, and thats why we now have a lot of Jonsa shippers after S6. People speak in body language, and movie language helps audiences to pick up on that. If you surprise your audience with a romance that wasn't well built up, you're audience will be colder to the idea and it will not feel believable. Or, the love story will not be the main focus, instead perhaps the conflict and the repercussions of it will be. It would not be a love story.

I am not sold on really anything right now. Ive said it before and I'll say it again. Im not sold on undercover!Jon. I'm not sold on horny!Jon. I'm not sold on Jon being in or out of love right now, either. It could go so many ways. But, after months of doing research on how to write romance for my own books and stories, I know when I see a well written romance vs a bad one. And I sure hope this badly written romance isnt the victim of a rushed season or cocky writers.

I definitely got the feeling from S6 that Kit was given direction that he was slowly falling in love with his "sister" and super conflicted about it. I know Kit can do it. I know he can - so why are we not seeing it here? He could be fighting against the idea of a relationship because he has bigger things to worry about (See: Night King) but what would he be falling in love with?? Right now, the only conceivable answer would be "her looks" - which is just....infuriating. Enraging. Just... jaw droppingly maddening.

Looks can be a starting point - yes. But once Jon sees more and more of who Dany really is, theres just no way he would fall in love. They have totally separate goals. Old, pre-crow Jon would have looked at Dany and just laughed.

So have the scenes theyve shared so far shown us how they would possibly fall in love? Let's see.

Directly after the power-struggle cave scene, we have Jon and Dany exit the cave onto the beach where Dany gets some bad news.

She flips out. Jon and Davos stand awkwardly by while mommy Dany and daddy Tyrion fight at the dinner table. When Dany turns around to bite Tyrions head off, Jon steps several steps back. She is frightening everyone else on that beach. This is a display of Dany's temperamental behavior. She is angry and turning against someone who was supposed to be her most trusted advisor. Her loyalty and diplomacy is hanging by a thread. She is not as calm and level headed as everyone would want you to believe. She will turn against anyone, at anytime.

She accuses Tyrion of being too attached to his family. Who else thinks family is super important? Jon, of course. He sees Dany basically say "fuck family" and threaten Tyrion, her hand, for putting family over her. Apparently, the only one allowed to be sentimental towards family is her?

She is worked up in such a rage over starting to lose her war that she immediately goes into the "dark place". Fire and blood. Tyrion tries to calm her down but she bites his head off more.

Emilia says in the BTS, "Every time that things go wrong, more Targaryen comes out. More fire comes out."

She's being rude to Tyrion, embarrassing him in front of others, disrespecting his advice. We have seen this in the past - Dany DOES NOT like being told what to do. More often than not she completely disregards her advisors advice, does what she wants to anyway, and it comes back to bite her in the end. Every season highlights a direct piece of advice she ignores and how it fails horribly. Why hasnt she learned her lesson by now? Because she never admits when she fucks up and learn from her mistakes.

Then she turns her attention to Jon when Tyrion doesn't tell her what she wants to hear.

Dany has shown Jon little, if any, respect since he arrived. Being cold, distant, imprisoning him, not calling him by his appointed title, only offering to help if she gets something in return, etc. So why does she ask him for his advice? Its surprising and makes little sense. And Jon does not want to get in the middle of this. This isn't his war, thats not why he came, and he just saw how she treats her advisors. But she's insistent. She wants advice from someone different.

Back to the dragons. He uses them to take a stab in the dark about how/why she has so many followers. He makes that great speech that boils down to "don't be more of the same. Be different." He's also taking a little bit of his own story here. He came back from the dead, did something impossible, and is trying to be a different ruler for his Kingdom than what they've seen before.

What's odd is that Jon visually calms her. She doesnt bite his head off for saying pretty much the same thing as Tyrion. She's a little more receptive to his advice. She already likes him more than Tyrion. Her eyes soften, she doesnt yell.

But as we see later, she didn't really take the advice to heart. Yes, she didnt storm Kings Landing with her dragons and kill thousands of innocent people - but she does go off immediately to kills soldiers, burns loot and frightens people into bowing to her. Thats not what Jon said to do, either.

So we see Dany softening to Jon. He made it about her dragons - and *whew boy* is that a way to get to her heart. He praised her to be this savior she wants to be. So, this is another hint that Dany is coming to like him and respect him. But where are the signs for Jon feeling the same?

He is frightened of her when she has her tantrum. He only answers when she insists. He wants no part of this. He sees her basically say "fuck family", turn on her most trusted advisor, flirt with a dark place and do what she wants anyway. Not attractive qualities for Jon. They are still opposites. She is still preoccupied with her quest for power.

She flies off, and then we see Jon and Davos walking around on Dragonstone, probably relaxed because Her Grace is gone for the moment.

Davos makes a comment about how Jon has been staring at her "good heart."

1. What have we seen yet, that would make Jon think she has a "good heart"? Shes been cold, uncooperative, prone to anger and entitled.

2. When have we ever seen Jon look at her boobs? In the cave, he keeps his eye line at her face/eyes. On the beach they were too busy backing away from her yelling to even look at her chest. In the throne room, any attraction he might have felt when first seeing her was eclipsed by her personality and attitude.

3. This is weird exposition to try and force the audience into thinking Jon is attracted to her. You should not have to spell out a romantic attraction. Looks and camera angles and dialogue should do it for you. We're watching film, not listening to a radio show.

Maybe this was a way of the writers spelling out why Jon is avoiding an attraction? "Theres no time for that". He is single-minded with the fight against the Night King. He's not open to the idea of romance.

Then, Jon reenforces this idea that he doesn't trust Dany at all. He is hesitant to believe she respects her subordinates because that is the opposite of everything he's seen so far. He's a King and she has imprisoned him against his will.

But Missandei's response gives him a little bit of insight into why people love and follow Dany. He had not seen it himself before Missandei spelled it out for him. He's been imprisoned, he's seen her be cold when he asked if she believed him, and he's seen her turn against Tyrion. He doesnt necessarily believe it, but he listens to Missandei.

This is why his speech on the beach made no sense to me. Why have him give that speech before he talks to Missandei or another one of her followers? Where did he get that speech from? Its almost an identical speech to Missandeis. And if he believed that, and came to that conclusion before talking to Missandei, then why is he doubtful of Dany's "good heart" in letting Missandei leave or Dany giving hope to her followers?

It would have made more sense to have him talk to a follower first, before his speech on the beach about Dany making "impossible things happen." Unless he came to that conclusion on his own - but then why ask Missandei? Why look so reluctant to open up to her? It makes no sense.

Immediately following is the Theon scene. Honestly, the more I rewatch this scene, the more I realized I love it more than the LF crypt scene. Oh god, the nuances. Jon's quivering rage voice. His dead eyes, which are more expressive than we get to see lately. Holy crap I love this scene.

But this, I guess, is also important to show Jon what kind of rag-tag gang Dany has as her allies now. Theon was such a little shit - growing up and when he betrayed Robb. It speaks to the type of person Dany is that she has this guy on her side.

Kit says in BTS "I think he's willing to forgive anyone if they are willing to help fight against the Night King."

But Jon explicitly says he is only sparing Theons life because of what he did for Sansa. Theon helped her escape. He sacrificed himself to save her - to take her away from that awful place. I'm sure Sansa and Jon have had many conversations since her escape about what Theon did. And not only did Theon tell Sansa that he didnt kill Bran and Rickon - that he murdered two innocent farmer boys, instead - but they got the proof in Rickon on the battlefield and Sam seeing Bran beyond the wall.

But Theon still did horrible things. He's still a slimey person in Jon's eyes. And here he is, on Dragonstone, fighting for Dany. What does that say to the company she keeps? That shes allied with morally questionable people? Or that she's a forgiving person, with a weakness for "cripples, bastards and broken things"? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Theon asks where she is, and Jon does not look happy or okay with the answer.

So far, we're in episode 4 of 7 and there is no reason for Jon to be attracted to Dany. He has seen bad sides of her. He has given her a few chances to show any good side, and she doesn't.

Dany is intrigued by him. He's kind and different. She asks for his opinion. His advice seems to calm her. He's played to her good side. So we can see her starting to soften.

But Jon is not really intrigued by her. He wanted to go home. He's been held against his will. She is stuck on this quest for power. She is hot-headed, selfish, and short sighted. He has seen very little redeeming qualities to warm up to her. He just wants his dragonglass and to GTFO. So far, she has only agreed to help IF he bends the knee. She wont help simply to save people. She wont help because of her "good heart". She wants his power and his kingdom in return. Not what he was hoping.

So then we have Dany coming back to Dragonstone after scaring people into bending the knee. The Tarlys dont, so she burns them to a crisp. She aint playing around.

Jon is just standing out on a cliff, in his cloak, probably brooding some more? Waiting for her? Welcoming party? Why is he out there?

And then we have a moment between him and her dragon. This is a moment ONLY between him and her dragon. Dany is just a spectator here.

He is frightened of the dragon, but YOLOs and faces his fear. He is literally facing his fear. Testing his own courage. Proving his own strength to himself. This moment has nothing to do with Dany, but everything to do with him.

He is awestruck. Dragons were a thing of legend. And now he is connecting with one. His adrenaline must be off the charts. Its a magical moment.

Now Dany is very attached to her dragons. She believes she is the only one with a connection to them. Most people would scream or run away. Her dragons have reacted violently to those who have ever threatened her or wished her harm in the past. They are one with her. And here is Drogon, a dragon which is aggressive and unpredictable, acting so gentle and different towards Jon. And shes just an outsider to this moment.

Another check mark that would make Jon attractive to her. Her dragons didn't scare him. Her dragon liked him. And Jon seems to like the dragon. Thats different. Thats new. Thats on the same level as her. He's surprised her yet again.

Now, Jon looks up at her as if "this is yours? This magnificent beast is yours?" But as soon as she comes down, he's all business again.

His moment with her dragon warmed her up to him a little. She wants to talk about her babies with someone else who probably has the same unhealthy admiration for them like she does. But he's not quite on the same page. Now, what word was Jon thinking instead of "beautiful"? Frightening? Terrifying? This sets off another one of Dany's "fire and blood" looks which scares Jon back into submission. She's a firecracker just waiting for a match. Dont want to get on her bad side. She's mama dragon - and hes seen that quite a lot.

Now, here is The Look(TM). Arguably the only time Jon seems to really look at her without thinking. In the scripts, the stage direction is "He watches her watching her dragons and wishes that he could keep looking at her and forget about the world events weighing on his shoulders." And dear god, was the impact lost.

In contrast, look at how Jon gets lost staring at Sansa in S6.

honestly, this scene is just ripe with Jon looks.

Focus shifts, single shots, close ups, and lingering on him lost in thought with no context. If you want to point out a look or reaction - THIS is how you do it. There are focus shifts, to highlight Jon's face. To bring attention to it. You can't miss it.

Him watching Dany in 7.05 is actually so subtle you might miss it. Its not the focus. We arent supposed to be honed in on his reaction. If it was oh-so-important, there would have been a single close-up, or a camera shift for us to see that he was distracted watching Dany.

Also, this is related to her dragons. Her relationship with those dragons is important to Jon. Jon only seems to show thought and softness when her dragons are involved. And it is over before you know it.

Back to business. He brings up what she left to do. And it's not good.

He's conflicted. She did the opposite of what he hoped she would do. He can understand why, but it's disappointing. Not a turn on. Not an attractive quality. Not something that is winning him over. Another chance she had to show him she was good, and she chose not to.

She has dragons. And shes not afraid to use them.

Then we move on to the talk and walk. He is still acting reserved. Shes in charge of the "get to know you" talk again. Shes standing closer. She's warmed up. She's talking much more like an equal and not like a cold ice-queen.

And she grabs his arm. But there’s no close up. ;)

Then she tries to get more acquainted by asking a more intimate question, in a more intimate way. Why is she so stuck on this knife in the heart line? And why is he still so insistent on not telling the truth? He still doesn't trust her. He is still on the fence about her. He lies to her face. And she just wont let it go.

This is not level playing ground. This is not "getting to know each other". Dany is trying but Jon is resisting her getting to know him any better. Why?

It looks like its about to get uncomfortable - that he is upset by lying and she might press the issue. But thankfully Jon is saved by Jorah. Dany looks so happy she might cry. Jon is confused by her sudden change in attitude. Who is this guy shes much more agreeable towards? Thats not the Dany hes seen in his time there.

Then she introduces him. Jon knows who he is.

Now, some say Jon looks "jealous". Um - why? Why would he be jealous? He trying to avoid a connection between them, as evidenced by his lie right before. He's simply clicking the pieces in his head - figuring out her relationships.

He sees her embrace and welcome this man who he was raised to think as a traitor, a bad man. Someone who his father had sentenced to death for doing unspeakable things. A coward who ran from his sentence. And here Jorah is, acting noble and completely loyal to this girl who has been cold to him and her other advisors the entire time he's been there. He sees more of her misfit rag-team, first Theon and now Jorah, and how she treats those who are loyal to her.

He's only clicking the pieces and starting to figure her out. His "good heart" line would have fit better after this scene, too. It made no sense where it was before.

This is the first time we see any hint that Jon might be able to warm up to her. The way she cares for her dragons. The company she keeps. How warm she really was to Jorah. But thats overshadowed by her action towards her enemies. Her look when he almost dare speak ill of her children. The fact that he still wants to keep his own secrets from her, whatever his reasons may be.

Its now episode 5 of 7 - and just now his side starts to come into play in this "supposed epic love story", and it's shaky at best. He is still wary of her.

Jon is staying very mysterious. Honestly, ever since he showed up in Dragonstone we are not shown much of his POV. We see a lot of Dany's POV - her talking with her people a lot. Her talking in her war room with Tyrion. We don't see a lot of Jon talking with his people, or talking about his wants and plans. He is staying a big mystery. Davos and him talk a little about how "theres no time for that." Jon and Theon have a Sansa moment. Gendry and Jon have a bonding moment. But do we ever see him talk about his plan for bringing Dany to his side? We really only see his actions through Dany's eyes or someone else's.

These non-focused looks are very mysterious. Why does he get lost staring at Dany? Why does he keep lying about dying? Theres no exposition. Which is really odd, because Dany has quite a bit of it.

This romance is shaky, forced, rushed and confusing at best. I mean, it helps explain the backlash and the disappointed fans. How viewers are confused by this outcome. Why everyone is desperate to think there is something else going on besides "true love".

I think everyone can agree that this relationship is doomed in one way or another. But the big question right now is - does Jon actually love/have feelings for her? What evidence is there for that? What has been shown on screen to support a mutual romance? Not much, so far.

I'll do the rest later. Tumblrs mobile update might ruin my current work (it only lets me tag one hashtag at a time because I have to use the mobile browser- blah) - but I'll get onto it! These take a lot more work than I'd expected, and coding from a smart phone is a bitch. Part 3 and (maybe?) Part 4 coming soon.

xoxo

edit: and it keeps fucking up on me. T.T I hate formatting on Tumblr so much...

#meta #jonsa #anti-jonerys #episode analysis #spec #jon x sansa #hints in the middle #original #me

[joslynleilani]

Skating Fiasco - Jack Avery (part 1)

(Should be studying rn but..f it) (regretting my decision soon)

You had a strange dream the other night. You dreamnt that Zach and Jack were skateboarding in their house backyard pavement. The funny thing was that Jack was teaching Zach on how to use the skateboard and Zach was failing badly, in a good way though since it made you laugh.

You've actually had a liking on the both of them, well more to Jack honestly. He's caught your eye ever since he showed his sassy side and made you laugh the hardest when he starts roasting people back.

Now you're laying in bed, overthinking the dream you had last night. It felt intriguing thinking about it. If only dreams could be recorded and played on a screen for you to see clearly. Now it just seems vague and you're just adding details to the scene instead of letting it play out like how it's supposed to be.

The dream also made you wonder about all these feelings you have building up. Truthfully, you weren't close with guy friends. At least not yet. Being friends with guys always seem awkward to you. Unless your girl friends are around.

Zzzz zzzz

Your phone buzzed. You picked it up to find a notification from no other than Jack himself.

😱😱

You quickly shot up and checked the message. Your vision was actually still a blur. Wait..is this actually a text from him? Its probably homework related. Or maybe its a notif for the group chat.

Nope. Thats a personal chat. 😱

Ok breatheeeeee. Its just another casual chat. Only a 5 second feeling of excitement and you will move on as usual.

After waiting a few minutes before reading the message, cos you don't want to sound desperate and all especially due to the early time (its 9 am), you finally open the chat.

Jack:

Hey

R u free today?

Your breath hitched for a moment, not knowing how to feel. This sounds exactly like those cute romantic asking people out on a date situations. Except this isnt really like that. Oh well. A girl can dream.

You:

Yeah i think so.

Whats up?

Honestly inside you wanted to write longer. Somethin like.."omg yes i am definitely free. Why? R u gonna finally ask me out on a date? Not that u would but that would be amazing"

But your hands beg to differ.

Okay. Gotta stay cool.

He surprisingly replied fast, despite the 5 minute delay it took for you to reply.

Jack:

The gang is planning to hang at the house. You know which one;)

Oh gosh the wink emoji. You could honestly just die rn. What is this world..? Its too early to feel this way😭

You:

Oh suree. Same time as usual?

Jack:

Definitely👍

And that was the end of it.

Small talk.

You dont know if that small talk was enough. It was short but felt amazing. But that was it. It just sounds like two people awkwardly replying to each other in a cold tone. Friendly at first..but then cold.

Maybe you could've tried better in making the texts funner rather than tryna be cool and casual. But that would end up in him raising suspicions that you were flirting with him. (Well that would be his problem right? What if you werent actually interested in him?)

As usual whenever this situation happens, you text your best friend.

You:

he texted😭

😓its sad when you're feeling this way and your friend isn't active yet. So guess you have to wait.

The thing is..you dont want to lose the feeling. And when texting later..feelings start going away😟. Oh well...i mean..you could aways spam.

Nah.

You'll wait.

You decided to take a shower since you were supposed to be at the hangout spot by 12. And you probably need a lot of time to figure out what to wear because of this unscheduled plan. You were actually happy there was something you could do, eventhough you planned to study today. But you can study later.

After the shower, you picked out what to wear. Short pants would be nice on a hot day like this. But...that would seem..i mean..around boys. Yeah you've never felt comfortable. Or you're just not used to it. So u decided to wear leggings. It's easy to walk and run around with anyway. And a plain white shirt for the top. Does that sound too boring..? I mean you could wear a croptop to look cute but...yeah.

You decided whether or not you should use makeup due to your tired looking face. Actually there was that glow. That glow that showed everytime you experienced a shock of joy.

Well now you know the reason behind it.

The glow looked good on you. It made your skin shine, but you know that the glow would not last an hour. So you decided to put on makeup anyways.

Then again...you always felt paranoid when you wore makeup and noone talks to you. Okay maybe a little eyeliner and foundation. And blush. Ok that's it. 😫

When you were almost ready, your best friend finally replied to your text.

Best friend:

What happened????

You tempted whether or not to tell. The feeling was gona already and you didn't feel like saying anything. So you screenshotted the text you had with Jack and sent it.

Best friend:

Oh. Wow.😂👏👏 niceee. I got the message too from the gals.

I'm outside. Lets gooo.

You sighed at her short response. It's all she has ever given. Anyways you're not going to let that get into your head. Instead your mind started thinking what your other friends were gonna wear, especially your best friend. You bet they are wearing clothes that could get the boy's attention..or maybe not.

You sighed. Well...lets just get on with the day.

#whydontwe #jackavery #jackaveryimagines #fanfic

[sevenhexagons]

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged.

Yoooo @dreamyleofangirl thanks for tagging me this looks fun :D

LAST:

Last drink: W A T E R 

Last phone call: I’m so cool my mom

Last text message: "You got this” received from my gurl eunice she aint here today but shoutout to you hun! (idk if she has tumblr tbh)

Last song you listened to?:The Eden Project : Chasing Ghosts (i know im indie af)

Last time I cried: If you know please tell my therapist, we have been trying to figure that one out in a while

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice: no lmao ive dated once ever period

Been cheated on: I hope not haha

Kissed someone and regretted it: my first kiss was the worst eugh. kissing in general is weird 

Lost someone special: nope which means when i will i will be a trainwreck

Been depressed:hahahahahahaha

Been drunk and thrown up: oooooh boy do i have some stories (once im a nerd)

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

Made a new friend: i know like one or two people who like me (i hate them though) (jk i love my friends)

Fallen out of love: yeah kinda? it still hurt when we broke up though

Laughed until you cried: i love when this happens

Met someone who changed you: pretentious douchebag alert: i think every person changes us a bit. and i am greatful for that cause i was a dick at 14

Found out who your true friends are: idk the idea of true friends is stupid. i just hang with people i like till one of us doesnt want to hang anymore. people move on.

Found out someone was talking about you: yeah and boy it sucks

GENERAL:

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: like 2

Do you have any pets?: i wish i did but i myself am in need of too much work

Do you want to change your name?: I used to want to be called “lily” or “stella” now i love it!

What time did you wake up this morning?: hahahahaha what is morning (12pm)

What were you doing last night?:  playin sims being super awesome 

Name something you cannot wait for: south park “the fractured but whole!” i cant fucking wait

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: hmmm, only thomas. tom isnt a usual nickname here

What’s getting on your nerves rn?: i am always on my nerves

Blood type: B positive baby B-)

Nickname: Dragon (hell yeah) or Gaga (still hell yeah). also my high school nickname was Big Mac which is like super hell yeah

Relationship status: hahahahahahaha 

Zodiac sign: Aquarius (hit up my aquarius tag for more me!)

Pronouns: she/her or they/them or idk ask me again in a year

Favorite tv show: Rick and Morty (not in a weird way), gumball! and princess sophia (she is awesome what do you mean its a kids show shut up)

College: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA 

Hair colour: brown/ whatever wig i buy next hahahahaha

Do you have a crush on someone: not telling (its complicated okay)

What do you like about yourself: I am the personification of perfection and i quote memes all day long what isnt there to love???

FIRSTS:

First surgery: at 18 (havent stopped since lmao)

First piercing: I got my ears pierced like 4 more times at 13

First sport you joined: Soccer i think

First vacation: to the grandparents probably 

First pair of sneakers: idk if i ever owned sneakers

RIGHT NOW:

Eating: wish i was

Drinking: W A T E R

I’m about to: Clean my room (i finished like half wohoo)

Listening to: Edeeeeeen

Want kids: if i want a puking loud diaper wearing douchebag in my house ill get someone who can pay rent at least

Get married: i love the idea of getting married but like platonically

Career: I want to be a Starbucks Barista when I grow up :3

WHICH IS BETTER:

Lips or eyes: Eyes probably but thats a tough one

Hugs or kisses: hugs aaaaall the way

Shorter or taller: both are equally amazing

Older or younger: since im only 20 anything below me is almost a child so rightnow older

Romantic or spontaneous: i have actually no idea what they mean

Sensitive or loud: with what? i am so confused what? in what way do they relate?

Hook up or relationship: neither hahahaha (i am weird okay but i guess relationship)

Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker tbh but like not mean just up for stupid shit

HAVE YOU EVER:

Kissed a stranger: yeah ugh

Drank hard liquor: (i lied about the water its vodka) (im kidding) (yes)

Lost contacts/glasses? during a theme park ride i lost my glasses haha i was blind for two days! that was fun!

Sex on first date: noooooooo

Broken someone’s heart: that would require someone liking me in the first place lmao

Been arrested: no but I wish though

Turned someone down: again that would require someone liking me

Fallen for a friend: idk not really. i do get crushes often though

DO YOU BELIEVE:

In yourself: i would love to say yes but im not quite there yet. But i believe in myself to one day get there!

Miracles: probably

Love at first sight: I fall in love with 3 strangers on the subway each day so yes

Heaven:idk i wont fuck with it though

Santa Claus: he is real shut up

I am tagging @sonotsiobhan @detectiveinspectorme26 @thelasttitanslayer and ofc @ashy-le-mashy

i dont know more people hahahaha

#me #personal

[lazyfaeriee]

92 truths game

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag!

i was tagged by @poeets and @undertcw!! thanks! i love you both!

LAST… 1. drink: milk 2. phone call: my mom when she was on her way to pick me up from school 3. text message: replied to my project partner telling me to print my outline (i just texted back “oh yeahh” because i almost forgot) 4. song you listened to: oceans by frank iero and the patience, i think 5. time you cried: like an hour ago because my mom was giving me a hard time about wanting to go to panda express for my birthday because it “wasnt fancy”

HAVE YOU EVER… 6. dated someone twice: no 7. been cheated on: no 8. kissed someone and regretted it: no 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: yes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12. mustard yellow 13. pastel pink 14. pale blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 15. made new friends: yeah! a lot of them 16. fallen out of love: i guess so 17. laughed until you cried: multiple times 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah and that’s always crazy 19. met someone who changed you: definitely 20. found out who your true friends are: i hope so 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: i dont have facebook so no

GENERAL… 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i dont have a facebook 23. do you have any pets: my puppy sadie and we’ve also got my sister kaitlyn’s monster of a goldfish 24. do you want to change your name: no not particularly 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went to the mall with some old friends who were never really my friends at all (but this answer is gonna change tomorrow  !!  ! !) 26. what time did you wake up: 6:30am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleepin 28. name something you cannot wait for: seeing my friend jason again! 29. when was the last time you saw your mother: like 20 minutes ago 30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: wish i didnt have anxiety 31. what are you listening to right now: nothing 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: this is oddly specific but i feel like i may have 33. something that is getting on your nerves: mean people in general 34. most visited website: tumblr for sure, i live here 35. elementary: mediocre 36. high school: boy it’s been An Experience.. freshman year was Bad, sophomore year i learned a lot about about who really cared about me and who was using me, and this year is the year i realized i dont need to rely on other people as much as i used to. i only need myself. 37. college: bich we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it 38. hair colour: ive been told it’s honey blonde 39. long or short hair: it’s long ig 40. do you have a crush on someone: not anymore , , , i guess. wait like 3 days and ask me again 41. what do you like about yourself: my eyes i guess 42. piercings: ur standard ear lobe piercings, but i cant wear earrings because i get an infection or som shit like that 43. blood type: i dont know tbh 44. nickname: i have a million of them,,, meg, meggie, mehan, glitter girl 45. relationship status: ive always been single shdfjsdjk 46. zodiac sign: pisces 47. pronouns: she/her or they/them 48. fav tv show: uhhh i like the goldbergs 49. tattoos: dont have any 50. right or left handed: right handed

FIRST… 51. surgery: i... dont think ive had any surgeries 52. piercing: in like 2nd grade at claires i got my ears pierced 53. best friend: this girl named anna who lived across the street from me 54. sport: I did ballet and cheerleading, not into either of them anymore 55. vacation: to the beach 56. pair of trainers: white keds (i know these r more of sneakers than trainers but im american so ‘trainers’ isnt really in my normal vocabulary)

RIGHT NOW… 57. eating: nothing 58. drinking: nothing  59. i’m about to: write my gratitude letter for today 60. listening to: veins! veins!! veins!!! by frank iero and the patience 61. waiting for: someone to text me 62. want: a heart shaped balloon?? thats really specific but 63. get married: perhaps 64. career: honestly theres not one job i think id actually be decently good at or enjoy in the slightest but im going to be a journalist

WHICH IS BETTER… 65. hugs or kisses: i wouldnt know, never been kissed 66. lips or eyes: who says i have to choose,,, im a fucking artist theyve both got aesthetic appeal to me,,, 67. shorter or taller: short people are cute, im one of them, but tall is cool too 68. older or younger: idc 69. romantic or spontaneous: why not both 70. nice arms or nice stomach: i cant honestly say i have a preference 71. sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. hook up or relationship: relationship for sure 73. troublemaker or hesitant: theyve both got their appeals

HAVE YOU EVER… 74. kissed a stranger? no 75. drank hard liquor? no 76. lost glasses/contact lenses? yeah i drop my contacts in the carpet or in the sink all the time 77. turned someone down: yeah :( 78. sex on first date? no 79. broken someone’s heart? i hope not but i think i may have 80. had your own heart broken? definitely 81. been arrested? no 82. cried when someone died? oh god yes 83. fallen for a friend: i do this like 3 times a week

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84. yourself? hell no 85. miracles? yes 86. love at first sight? im not sure 87. santa claus? i believe in the magic of santa claus 88. kiss on the first date? whats a date 89. angels? yes

OTHER… 90. current best friend’s name: kyle 91. eye colour: brown 92. favourite movie: the breakfast club

i tag: @extraterristial @heartbreakiero @knifedoge @partialmeme @sleepy-prinsessa @whitecrosses @babylynz @kettersdam @frankierosghost @denialriver @tornadoz @vampirefrances @angeliero @phantomcat94 @vengefulfrnk @liifeu @dawnisgone @rosecallaway @petrichovr @blackvelmaa @lilacsmile @akaia @cosmicchero @frnkieroandthepatience @glittergothz

#am #long post //

[theday]

hide and seek, fireworks, my style, coloured, your love, dream might (romantic or platonic? i love options), i'll be there, because it's you ((((:, you smile, with you, and better with you!!!!

thank you so much for aksing falen i love these and it also got super long lmao rip

Hide & Seek: what’s the first thing you notice when you meet someone new?

in real life, its probably their shoes/socks?????? LMAO and then their appearance but im trying 2 not let their appearance stop me from becoming friends with them :-o

online, i usually??? read ppl’s abouts first???? but idk like when it comes to actually talking to them i guess itd be their typing style?? and their use of emojis/the gif function (jenny) helps me to assess them although i do know that the way they type =/= how they are as a person but thats just what i notice first

Fireworks: name something astro’s done that has made your heart explode

falen u rly had 2 do it to me? ????? but hrm…. whenever they post selcas and when they just laugh every time myungjun laughs thats the shit that gets me the most bc its so/???? pur??e??? i love them a lot theyre always so happie and theyre all smiles every time they do a vlive it makes me happie

My Style: what do you usually wear out?

clothes not 2 sound like a loner but. i rarely go outside bc i only go outside when my family eat out and thats only on like weekends and if im hanging out with pals so i always get the chance to wear the same shirt, shorts and shoes lmao 

but its a black cat shirt (used to be a button up thing but singapore is 2 hot 4 me) and blue shorts and white converse 

Coloured: favourite MV aesthetic? 

ok real talk all of their mvs are so pretty and everything??? but my favourite has to be baby or csc

Your Love: top three astro songs

o w0rm

again

confession

every minute 

Dream Night: describe a dream date with anyone

idk?? smth ive always wanted 2 do with anyone is just walk through a park or just walk when the weather is not 2 hot or 2 cold (ike what binuki did in their recent vlive) 

if we’re getting more romantic mayb just??? cuddling???? idk i rly cant see this happening tbh 

I’ll Be There: fave astro vlive you’d watch over and over again?

but theres so many :-( but possibly all of eunwoo’s just 10 minutes with binnie :-0 the shrek vlive with the ice cream made me laugh so hard though mmMM

Because It’s You: why do you love your astro bias?

ur rly gna make me do all 6 members falen??????? ill try 2 keep it short

myungjun; binnie said he was sure mj wouldnt make it into astro and im assuming its because he was the one who was a trainee the shortest but??? look at him now with his strong vocals and even stronger personality!!! astro mightve done fine without mj but listen.. their vlives, appearance on variety shows, etc. would never be able to be as funny because mj is the reason for everyones laughter and it makes me so happy??? mj has that ability to crack anybody up with his laugh and the shit he says and does is so funny too pleaseth and i just?? appreciate mj for being there so fucking  much because he really resolves any tension in the atmosphere so easily and as the oldest member im so glad to see he doesnt find anything awkward AND despite the age gap between him and sanha, theyre like the closest?? lets not forget on that one radio thing yesterday they (astro) were asked who they were most comfy with in the dorm and 3/5 answered myungjun :_) im just happy myungjun exists? thank u mj i love u mister 777

PARK JINWOO; jinjin is the one of the sweetest leaders out there and i know every group has a great leader but jinjin is really that leader to me because as the rest of astro have mentioned before, jinwoo really buys them shit and they have said that he is the sweetest?? remember in the fan made fanmeeting i dont know what its called but i linked it and just??? jinjin is literally an angel!!! the one vlive he did with dogs? my heart melted off!!!!!! he really went and learnt the names of all the dogs present in the dog cafe!!!! he stopped the black dog which was biting hard on the table bc he was scared it’d injure itself/get in trouble and just??? jinwoo is so fucking nice just ??? if u look in the dictionary park jinwoo will appear as a synonym believe me ok and jinjin is part of dance line everybody lets not forget that he dances to release stress and that amaizng intro to again he did with rocky for their dream pt2 showcase because that was fucking so ?? i love talent and! AND i will never shut up but as a leader jinwoo takes care of his members so much and he also knows how to have fun with them and he jsut!!!!! i love him a lot

cha! eu! nwoo! (dongmin); i know 4 a fact that this will get so long lmao rip but first i just wanted to say that i am so proud of dongmin and how far he has come as a dancer and vocalist in astro ok so obviously i dont know the real hard facts tm and i can never tell the difference in anything so i dont know how accurate i really am but last year (and even now) i know eunwoo had a lot of personal schedules and he barely had time to practice? ?? i really dont know but im p sure that was it???? idk but dongmin has had to work so hard the whole of last year with the amount of comebacks astro did and i jus??? im so proud of eunwoo for being able to work hard for astro and still attend all those other schedules at the same time??? like i said idk how much time he did have/didnt have but i know it mustve been little with how late it would be whenever he arrived back at the dorm after his stuff and??? eunwoo had to practice his lines and the dance (astro’s choreography looks hard as shit and its tiring too) in time for their comeback promotions ??? and!! dongmin used to be that member (now its all of astro) who would constantly do vlives for arohas and lets not forget his just one 10 minutes where he would do vlives that were always over 10 minutes where he just talks to fans im eternally grateful for all the work dongmin puts in for astro and arohas and im sure he puts in more than 100% effort when it comes to his personal schedules too!!!! dongmin deserves the best and ive seen someone say b4 that he’d probably feel bad if he had more lines bc he was already “stealing” the spotlight by being a “face genius” and i just!! youre righ??t???? eunwoo is incredibly selfless and its easy 2 assume these kinda things tbh lee dongmin is so much more than his face and visuals he is a hardworker and!!! he loves his members and fans so damn much im !!! i love eunwoo so much i hope he knows how much we love him 

binnie; god with bin there isnt somethiing that made me love him??? all he did was go :) and my brain decided i was gonna love him forever ok but……hrm….. i guess i love him because hes such a dork?? like. .. when he laughs he just snorts and its so funny lmao i believe bin’s a good friend too well no shit ?? uMMm moon bin has a cute smile yall…… whenever he smiles my heart explodes hes just that powerful and also!!! bin has been a trainee for 7 years now and im just !! he made it!! like what the post i reblogged earlier said, he probably had other dreams but he still stuck with being an idol ??? in the end and that !!! im sad he didnt get to pursue the things he couldve liked better but im also happy hes managed to find a dream he likes and that hes basically living the dream right now??? and im so happy for him because 7 years may not be a lot to some but bin’s still young his childhood was basically training??? im just!!!!!!!!!!! so proud of him and now hes on the same kind of music shows his faves are on too nd it makes me rly proud (idk any other words my vocabulary is so fucking weak oh my god) he is having the time of his life with astro and arohas right now im so glad i forgot what i wanted 2 say im sorry bin i did u dirty im2 tense rn but i love u and i love bin bc of how much hes done and the amt of scarifies he has 2 have made in order 2 get 2 where he is tdy 

rocky swag (minhyuk); minhyuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love him because !! hes so awkward but he tries his best for arohas!!!!!!!!!! in that first vlive he did alone he was so nervous but he managed to warm up and in the next vlive he did alone he did something that he was comfortable with (dance) and im glad he’s able to do vlives normally now even if there isnt any recent solo vlives i can see how much more comfortable he is on vlive now !!!!!! my love for minhyuk is similar to bin’s bc all he did was smile and suddenly????? im in love???? its the swag lmao but seriousy tho after finding out rocky did all sorts of dance i found him really??? respectable??? because he was able to learn so many types of dance and isnt that the coolest thing ever???? lets not forget how well he can sing???? im happy and so proud (jesus) that he sang on the recent album since previously he said that he didnt hvae any plans of singing in the albums so!!!! now!! hes singing!!!!!!!!!!! although the songs dont do him justice tbh its ok we all know how lovely he sounds when he sings especially in the binuki vlive where he sang wyls i swer my ear drums were blessed?? park minhyuk can do anything get urself a legend like rocky so basiclaly i love rocky aka park minhyuk bc hes just!!!!! outstanding???? hes handsome, he can dance really fucking well, he can sing and rap !!!!!!!!!!!!! and?? hes just a fool??? he’s warming up to doing vlives and just being himself and its the greatest thing ever i love him a lot

sanha; YOON SANHA!!!!!!!!! Love of my LIFE the baby i will protect for the rest of my LIFe??????? he is DAT boi .. the boy i love so much with my whole heart!! sanha is so cute and he just!! hes always making fun and bullying the older members i love it so much but ofc everyones weak 4 sanha bc b*tch is 2 cute honestly can relate if sanha punched or stole my money ill let him off bc hes just that cute . lets not forget he learnt how 2 play the guitar all by himslef jae is shaking ok and sanha is such a nice voice?????? every time he screams i lose my hearing its ok id do anything 4 this boy???? and to think hes only (1) year older than me is kinda??? wowie???? sanha is rly out here being a superstar and a student @ the same time and hes doing an awesome job @ being amazing !!! sanha is so cute and just?????? he loves his other members and family so much i love sanha a lot and i hope nobody will ever make him cry (sad tears) bc i will personally go to that person and we’ll have a nice chat :-) i cant think of anything atm but sh loves arohas so much and hes always doing aegyo 4 us idk its just . … thakn u young prince

You Smile: name three things that have made you smile in the past week

ok easy

mx comeback

daily astro vlives (its okay if they dont do vlives everyday they have 2 rESt)

becoming friends with lovely mbbs :_) 

with you: talk about a mutual without using their name

how long is this answer gonna be oh w0rm.. but here we go this is abt someone who ive never talked about but do talk 2 p often and theyre the other online person i am most comfortable with talking 2!!!!! 

theyre great tbh and rly good @ art and i know theyve gone through so many shit things in their life but im so glad theyre still hanging on even if their sleep schedule is totally wack still love u tho lmao at least theyre getting more than enough sleep!! theyre cute when they see sanha and it makes me soft seeing them go soft bc theyre never that warm??? when it comes 2 other ppl (kihyun crying) and im just so glad i managed to help them get (further) into astro!! being able to talk to somebody about astro has helped me so much and then i became friends with jen but im still so thankful to have a friend like [redacted] and im happy we’re friends!!!!!!!! i love them so much and i hope their days are filled with happiness even if it doesnt last for long i hope they have at least (1) happy time each day bc they deserve the BEST!!!!!!!!!!! 

even when i was still a young myday they helped me by providing links and everything just telling me where everything was and i was so :_) bc!!! they !! a bigger account was helping me someone who didnt even have 20 followers at that time and without them i wouldve never found anything tbh!!! even now when im the one whos been into astro longer, they still manage to find things so much faster than me and imlike?????? wow thats amaizng???? theyre amazing and i appreciate their presence on my tl/dash and in my dms so much thats one of the reasons why i thought they were older bc of how mature and just?? the older vibe they gave off was strong with they way they help people and whenever they comment on my tweets or someone else’s tweets im like !!!!!!!!! you’re doing amazing sweetie 

theyre so easy to talk to and even though our humor was something i thought was very different we manage to make each other laugh so much and i jsut!!! happiness!!!!!!! 

ok this was abt bell and i dnt think they’ll ever see this but if u do i love u a lot bell thank u for being alive ur so funnie and cute just thank u so mch!!! for everything

better with you: your favourite memory related to astro?

every time i watch them on vlive live i get so happy and thats my favourite memory

#once again if u read all of these thank u so much have a lovely day!!!!! #softshouyous #asks

[spicy-boots]

my intention is to have a totally free place to write bullshit that no one will see, just for me

so yeah on that note......... I think my relationship is heading down a shitty fucking path. our arguments used to get us somewhere, now they just feel redundant. he's always asleep, its like pulling teeth sometimes. I really am so messy, but usually before I leave or before bed I will tidy up at least. he never does shit - and when he does he wants hella credit. I really don't feel like fucking him anymore because he doesn't even initiate it anymore. I want to fucking leave. he never wants to move. I want head and I wake him up, trying everything and he's back to sleep going on 13 hours. 

the other night I was so so deeply depressed and kind of suicidal even, and I had been trying to tell him like WOW I am anxious I am really going through it I am depressed blah blah. he legit did not get it until 2 days later when I broke down in the car crying and even then it was like...... what don't you get?? but yeah he totally came home one night late, drunk as fuck, and dirty and reeking of alcohol fell asleep next to me snoring. I was so fucking disgusted by his presence I had to build a pillow wall around me with headphones in, daydreaming about moving to Montana and meeting a beautiful man who my head named Rex, and idk if this became a dream or a dazed out fantasy, but we were in an open relationship and experimented with sex and drugs and I was loving every fucking minute of my weird daydream. since then I've realized my depression definitely causes some cloudy judgement and I'm not disgusted by my boyfriend and I love him to fucking death - he talked me out of my depression the other day once he got it. but it still doesn't feel like enough. I still think my romantic love for him is slowly fading. I can't imagine a life without him, but I also can't imagine suppressing these feelings every 6 months. but is the grass just greener? I am borderline and I guess I'm bipolar so should I really trust myself? 

today this guy came in to return a whole bunch of shit from a photoshoot. he was kinda dazed out but cute and quiet and he asked me all these nice questions about what I do and graphic design and thanksgiving. at first I was like ok, this guy wants to chat and I'm not in the fucking mood. he said he was from Maine and we got talking about Acadia and like man, I could  about some campground and I totally lit up and thats when I was like damn I wanna talk to this dude he seems really chill. but I had to do math for the return so I had to focus. I reallllllllllly just miss talking about things I wanna talk about. I can't fucking remember the last time I really had a conversation about art or nature where it didn't feel forced. I named him Rex because he was pretty much exactly what I was dreaming about. I mean I don't know this guy at all but I was like shit - I was attracted to him. he just seemed like a really sweet guy and who clearly had a chill job in production.

so here I am, trying to figure out my life and live more out in the open and my ass just created another secret Tumblr to talk about my secret crushes. I even bought a pack of cigs because I just felt like old me. I felt overwhelmed, and also like I wasnt in a relationship. old me. 

I fucking love the shit out of my boyfriend. but this is not my journey right now, this isnt it. this is not my path. I have another 11 months left on my lease smh, and I'm in $5k debt so who the hell knows whats gonna happen. I should have gone to work on a farm and not renewed it but you know what? im not ready yet. I will know when I'm ready. it feels like cheating, keeping these thoughts a secret. my boy knows I feel this way and im ready to get the fuck out of here, its definitely caused a little rift. I really hope we can navigate through it instead of break it off completely, but he is more jealous than me. we could never do open relationship. I don't fucking know. the house is gross and I am gross and my dirty ass face is going to sleep bc this is all too much for me. I hope Rex comes back into my life lol 

[ollie-otter1]

Some thing I found

The meaning behind my url: I’m ollie, otters are cute ;3

A picture of me: um no

How many tattoos i have and what they are: none but I want so many so bad

Last time i cried and why: Like last night because of my every dying social life and inability to want to move on in life

Piercings i have: industrial right ear, two lobes left ear and my nose

Favorite band: Scouting for girls / Mayday parade

Biggest turn offs: Manipulative people can go fuck themselves

Top 5 foods: Icecream, burgers, waffles, 

Tattoos i want: Literally all of them but only black and white

Biggest turn ons: Masculinity for dudes and just a nice chick for gals

Age: is just a number ;)

Ideas of a perfect date: Stargazing, not too conversational so anxiety isn’t too bad, and enough depression to lighten the mood while also being hella romantic

Life goal: The perfect bae <3

Piercings i want: Idk I always change my mind with this but rn I love the idea of getting my nose pierced again

Relationship status: Single af <3 :’(

Favorite movie: Hate this question, next

A fact about my life: I hate it in a first world problem kind of way

Phobia: The dark

Middle name: Jon

Height: 6ft

Have u had sex?: Whaaaaat, totalllyyyyy ddude (no)

What’s your shoe size? Like small, idk

What’s your sexual orientation? I like girls, I really like guys, and sex isnt on my agenda so like bi/asexual

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs? Whisky is what I live for but the only drugs I take/smoke is our lord and saviour jesus christ can I get an amen

Someone you miss: Idk, I’m a moving on kind of guy

What’s one thing you regret? Not coming out sooner and being a pathetic piece of shit all my life

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: CHRIS PRATT

Favorite ice cream? Literally all of them, but rasberry ripple is the go to bae

One insecurity: My body/personality and how it looks to other people

What my last text message says: Kek

Have you ever taken a picture naked? Not sober at least

Have you ever painted your room? Only watched, im too lazy for that shit

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex? Like as a dare in primary

Have you ever slept naked? Like 90% of the time, its so much better than pjs I swear

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror? I hate dancing 

Have you ever had a crush? Literally everyday of my life I love too easily

Have you ever been dumped? On christmas as a lil baby lmao I cried so hard

Have you ever stole money from a friend? I havnt payed back this one guy for like 2 or so years so I guess

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met? Ew no im not a slut

Have you ever been in a fist fight? Lol ye

Have you ever snuck out of your house? Im too good to sin

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? Well Seeing as though masculinity is a turn on, literally every straight guy crush ever

Have you ever been arrested? Lol nope

Have you ever made out with a stranger? Like 99.9% sure I havnt

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yeah, I do have SOME friends wow

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents? I ran off one time with 2p because of my step dad

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor? Theyre all like 80 and dying… so no

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun? Nah

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Like a sleepover thing yeah, but never that far

Have you ever seen someone die? Myself in the mirror everyday

Have you ever been on a plane? Yeah

Have you ever kissed a picture? Lol no you can miss me with that gay shit

Have you ever slept in until 3? Nah, I wake up way too early 

Have you ever love someone or miss someone right now? Literally all the time, love that is

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Literally my whole childhood… my only friends

Have you ever made a snow angel? Like once and it was shit, never again

Have you ever played dress up? Omg yasssssss <3

Have you ever cheated while playing a game? Literally all the time I’m such a tryhard omg I just like winning board games im way too competitive 

Have you ever been lonely? Literally my life in one question

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school? Not until sixth form, then all the time

Have you ever been to a club? As a school thing yeah, but nah in general

Have you ever felt an earthquake? Slept through all the minor ones we get lmao

Have you ever touched a snake? Yeahh boi (the animal and the hoes)

Have you ever ran a red light? Lmao I hate driving, and barely un-stall enough to reach lights

Have you ever been suspended from school? Nearly but nah

Have you ever had detention? Lmao constantly in lower school

Have you ever been in a car accident? My step dad nearly span off the road once when it was icy and beat me up for laughing at him lmao so kinda

Have you ever hated the way you look? Like all the time, yeah

Have you ever witnessed a crime? I stole a pencil from a friend once, and he stole one of mine the next day and I watched, so yeah pretty hardcore

Have you ever pole danced? On a bus, like all the time

Have you ever been lost? Lost in life, yes, lost at tesco, all the time, lost in general, thats the only reason I have a phone

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country? Probably, I dont get out much tho

Have you ever felt like dying? When the depression hits hard ye

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Lol too much 

Have you ever sang karaoke? Like once as a kid and it was the witch doctor and I ran off the stage crying but got a certificate fuck yeah

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? I’m still alive :^)

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Probably 

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger? Not sexually, but I’ve stayed round cousins houses before so suppose so

Have you ever kissed in the rain? Miss me with that gay shit

Have you ever sang in the shower? Every damn time boi

Have you ever made out in a park? Bringing up relationships every other question hits me real hard

Have you ever dream that you married someone? Lol nope I aint that much of a faggot

Have you ever glued your hand to something? Itself I suppose

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? Nah, 3 spoopy to even try 

Have you ever ever gone to school partially naked? Like only underwear yeah in primary bc I lost my clothes after PE lmao

Have you ever been a cheerleader? I would love to be but nah

Have you ever sat on a roof top? Think I have, probs

Have you ever brush your teeth? literally kys, someones running low on questions huh

Have you ever ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? All the time, and theres never a better time to get a cheeky hug out of someone and snuggle up to them because I love that gay shit

Have you ever played chicken? Lol yeah, bring me death

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Nah, dont like swimming bc body issues and that shit so dont even go near

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? Lol nope, for that you’d have to be hot

Have you ever broken a bone? Nope

Have you ever been easily amused? Literally all the time, I used to laugh at the word spoon like the fucking retarded child I was back in ye old days

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? Idk, doubt it

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone? Yeah hahaha

Have you ever cheated on a test? Every language test ever hehe

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name? Im so bad with names, these two guys I knew as mario and luigi (from the mario games) because they looked just like them for literally 3 months before getting to learn their real names

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real? Every one of my crushes hell yeah

Have you ever give us one thing about you that no one knows. Idk ask away lmao I love giving away random personal info so as long as its not toooooooo bad like real bad then I’ll pretty much answer anything 

@darkcove