#<- everyone else in my class i mean.

[fallowfield]

i think that the mom IMMEDIATELY asking dw why she wants to freeze a snowball is the funniest shit like. she knew better than to just say yes to her daughter who loves tormenting her older brother wanting to freeze something that can later be thrown at him

#crops #it rminds me of the novel where a kid throws a snowball thats partially melted and it hits his teacher in the head #and almost kills him like. that book fucked me up when my third grade teacher read it to me #that and the one about the autistic girl with a dead older brother who was in boyscouts #i understood her fully and i had no idea why everyone else made fun of her and called her weird. three years later i was diagnosed. #<- everyone else in my class i mean. #the books are Because of Mr. Terupt and Mockingbird but the latter uses asperger's. jic anyones uncomfortable w that term

[bonefall]

The really sad thing about the narrative of DOTCs is I can legit see Bumble and Grey Wing becoming Friends. Instead the authors put Grey against her because in the distance future Firestar has to be the special lil guy and break the kittypet bloodline weakness curse or something (still love ya Fire.)

I'm not sure... I think the Gray Wing they wrote is so nasty and spiteful that he was always going to hate Bumble, because she "took" his romantic interest from him. I think to like Gray Wing, you have to like a completely new character.

He isn't wise, at all. He's actually completely oblivious. To Clear Sky, to his partners, to his adopted children's feelings. He has a couple nice interactions with Pebble Heart and that's about it.

His emotions are constantly clouding his judgement. Spite towards Bumble, adoration for Clear Sky, frustration at Turtle Tail coming down from heaven because she can't stay (???)

Complete misogynist. Judges female characters much more harshly than male characters around him, even going so far as to feel happy that Wind Runner has no ambition while she's nursing her kittens.

Tried to "comfort" her when her baby passed away by telling her "we can't save everyone and maybe it's for the best it died. Anyway it would be easier for you if you believed in Jesus."

This isn't even getting into the constant ridiculing of fat people and Chelford cats.

He's everything that sucks about male WC protags in a little bundle. Sad boy who has to get rewarded for all his "romantic suffering" with a womb to incubate his 'real' children after being a moron at best and a jackass at worst for 6 books.

I just can't see the character they wrote maintaining a friendship with Bumble. He seems like he'd come up with some stupid reason to dislike her and smugly cap it off with, "and that's that!" like he did when he was berating Turtle Tail for even thinking about going to live with her. And then the writers make everyone clap.

#which is why I decided to write the guy I wish he could have been #I think there's a good story in how badly his judgement gets blinded by Clear Sky #But you can't have that unless you commit to Clear being a villain. #If he's not a villain and you TRULY can just beg someone enough until the Goodness Deep Down springs up like a geyser-- #--Then Gray Wing was correct to keep pumping for it when everyone else gave up #the narrative Rewards this incredibly destructive behavior #i mean giving them enough credit to even string two thoughts together lmao. according to the arc it was actually too much responsibility #(and then he never has less responsibility Ever) #no same dude. i also remember becoming class president and ripping out my friend derek's kidneys with my teeth #been there #dotc hate #tw child death

[mihai-florescu]

#you could do this for adonis & midori but i dont care about that as much #i think its funny enstars has characters with the same birthday it makes it feel surprisingly realistic #this one guy in my class having the same bday as me who always overshadows me will pay for his sins one day #well its not his fault. its everyone elses fault for forgetting i exist #but in 3 months ill be freeee either ill graduate or i wont but they all will #didnt mean for this to be a rant lmao

[27treks]

putting the kids in time out while I go be nice to an orthon

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #wyll #shadowheart #astarion #i dont min/max my builds or classing or items use #but i absofuckinglutely min/max my approval ratings #nothing a little reload and sending everyone away while i go do whatever i want with 0 repercussions cant fix :) #“wyll disapproves” I think NOT #i have to send astarion and laezel away when im nice to people #and everyone else p much when im mean #because im nothing if im not desparate for these grimy little pixels to love me :) #also the steam deck screenshots are so deep fried i miss having my actual computer #my bg3 things

[bunibelles]

Good morning guys!! :D Guess whose making breads today 🍞

#by breads I mean I’m making both banana bread and focaccia! #hopefully #first time making focaccia bread! #the 2 banana breads is in the oven rn #also my 9 am class got canceled today which is nice! #got up early anyway tho cause I did not want to bake thru the night again #anyway I’ve been looping amoeba by clairo while baking #and my friends convinced me to get this app called airbuds where they can see my spotify music history #I’ve looped this song 30+ times already #sometimes while doing a task it’s just easier to loop songs for me #hope everyone else has a nice morning!! #bella rambles #bunibelles bakes

[mariana-oconnor]

So strange watching other people in the BG3 character creator going 'I need my character to be super hot' and almost always choosing elf or tiefling. I just went GNOME! I AM A WEIRD* LITTLE GNOME WOMAN!

Then the Guardian section and again, everyone going 'Needs to be HOT' and my process was 'I want someone who looks like they would legit tell a god to fuck off then show them the finger' and made a grumpy old dwarf guy with one demon eye.

...I feel like I am doing this wrong.

*weirdness is separate from gnome-ness, but a vitally important part of my character creation.

#Baldur's Gate 3 #Ooh #I have found some statistics #Apparently Half-elf is the most popular race and Paladin is the most popular class #Interesting #Half-elf is not surprising but Paladin kind of is #Playing a gnome means the camera angles are hilarious #Just my character's face and everyone else's crotch #Why are none of the origin characters dwarves halflings or gnomes? Would it have made the animations more difficult? #Qd

[cinnabeat]

the idea that teachers would make new transfer students stand up and like introduce themselves or whatever is soo fake bc i had a friend who transfered mid semester into my school and specifically one of my classes and not only did the teacher not force her to introduce herself but i didnt even know she transferred at all for like a good couple months of our friendship

#i also didnt know her name bc she kind of just appeared #but i wasnt the most observant in high school mostly bc i didnt care #and i was kind of dragged into a well established friend group so i was just like yeah ok i guess we're friends #i was too embarrassed to ask what her name was #tbh at this point i couldnt tell you if anyone actually told me her name like explicitly #her name was mentioned many times in front of me of course but like. i need to consciously be aware to remember something #and a name drop in the middle of a group convo is not a time my for my brain to get out of autopilot mode #i mean i also dont remmebe much of high school either #hilariously enough the most i remember abt highschool is incidents ive had with teachers #shout out to my one teacher that gave me a zero in a lab report bc i 'plagiarized' it #cuz no eleventh grader can write that advanced #and i was like ive literally written like that all my life you can literally check my essays for english class #why would i plagiarize this #and then when she was like fine ill believe you for now (bitch??) and gave me a B on it anyways #i hated her #ohhh and my chem teacher #she was so rancid i hated her so much #ooh who else did i hate......MY SPANISH TEACHER #i will never forgive her for giving me a D in spanish. bitch im a native speaker #and then had the audacity to ask me why i wasnt aware of homework and i was like cuz you never post it online AND im not the only one who fo #forgets why arent you bitching at everyone else #i swear i hated someone else who was it........ #i had a geudge against the new peincipal and his horrendous graduation plans but it ended up not mattering anyways cuz of covid #drivethru graduation lmao ✌️ #michi tag #not to talk abt highschool again LMAO

[panspy]

hmmmmmm.................vent post under tags...... feel free to give advice or dont¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#i think this is an autism related thing #but i genuinely feel like i wasnt made right for the world we live in #like something is just missing from me that ive never seen ppl talk about #and i know this is going to sound entitled and privileged and i KNOW i know i promise and im so lucky i can even be thinking about this but #it feels weird to have the privilege to be scared #this is specifically in regards to working #like having a job. like going to work #i feel like im missing an extremely important part of my brain or my BEING that is capable ot going through the motions of participating #in society. i never felt that switch of wanting to get a job in high school to make money for myself and get that experience #i feel like there's something i MISSED where everyone took a class on how to apply and go to interviews and write resumes and not be scared #like i NEED to be walked through every SINGLE step because i dont know HOW #and i see my peers and the literal entire world around me participating in this atmosphere and i dont know where to start #im fucking twenty three years old and ive only ever been an intern and an assistant #not even a full year of working #i cant drive and i probably wont ever because thats a whole other can of worms #and that means i have to rely on other people to even get to wherever it was i needed to go #i feel like a fucking child because im missing this knowledge that everyone else seems to have #ive tried i really have but none of it seems simple and its all so much and there arent steps to follow #i mean there ARE but its like 1) look up job 2) apply 3) interview 4) yay you're employed #and im talking about each micro step inbetween #what am i missing #and then theres the fucking demand avoidance that slaps me across the face whenever my mom brings it up to me like i KNOW youre being #supportive and encouraging and its not your fault my brain turns off and decides im full of shame bc i cant CONFRONT ANYTHING #jesus christ #manf i know u can see this maybe dont bring it up to mom i can do that on my own maybe #i WANT to help i just want to help at my own pace but unfortunately the world isnt built around individual paces and nothing revolves #around me. i know this #i want to help my mom i want her to never be stressed about money and to retire and never work or help me pay my student loans but i #genuinely feel like theres a switch that never turned on in my head and im being left behind and i genuinely dont know how to. like be alive

[harryforvogue]

as one of the only pocs in my program, i’m allowed to say stuff that my classmates are afraid to and today we were talking about this book’s UK cover and nobody wanted to say it so i said “that’s literally the aladdin font and lamp like that’s cheesy as hell” about a book about djinn and everyone immediately agreed

#wish there was even just one brown person in my classes #i just feel out of place #it’s just all #you get what i mean #like one time we were all going to this play right #but we got there too early so they told us to go to the bar next door #it was raining and it was in the financial distract at 8pm so nothing else was around #district #so we went #and everyone’s ordering drinks and they’re like sarah what do you want #and i was like #what. what do you mean what do i want

[abrahamvanhelsings]

van helsing rolling up to one of the maybe 10 catholic churches in amsterdam in 1897: my brother in christ i need your most sacred item the body of christ but i can't tell you why

the priest, apparently: on god we gonna get you some hostis brother

#fyi we call the wafers 'hosti' (plural hostis) in the netherlands #from latin hostia which means sacrficial victim according to wikipedia #lmao #went to catholic school and we didn't even get these in church. but we did drink grape juice and ate matzah for easter #i think 3 kids in my class were actually catholic everyone else (me included) never even took communion #dracula daily

[pansyfemme]

-_-

#what do i even take next semester... #im going into a program with a lot more of an interdisciniplary focus. but that means i have to. decide more #as much as i'd love to take figure III right now i think i should slow down a bit #i love my precious 6hrs a week of model time as much as everyone else but i have to take other things #i legit i think i enjoy that figure class more than anyone else in that class. i may not be the best but im havin such a good time

[gu1lty-as-sin]

genuinely why are people mean :(

#like i love my friends they are the best #but literally everyone else in my class is so mean for no reason?? #and like it wasnt like this #but one person left and now everyone is a bitch to everyone #like were all human please just make our time here as nice as possible #even if it is all a joke #juno.txt

[jikigo]

you ever just see a post and just

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.⬅️🫀⬅️

#Worst emoji combo ever but it’s gon be such big depression hours down here so scroll if you want im on the brink of throwing up #don’t you just bloody love it how over the past 3 years you’ve only seen people the large total of…. 4 times!!! An average of seeing someon #outside of school 1.3 times per year!! What a bloody fantastic way to spend your teenage years! #Don’t you also just love it when people talk right to you about how they all went out together over the weekend and like did some stupid #shit like your average high schooler would do and you’re just like “oh. I went to my 1 and a half hour long dance class and got ignored the #entire time and when you did try to talk they just spoke over you” oh my fucking god I hate that place so much even the teacher fucking #ignores me once we were going in a circle and she was asking everyone what they got for Christmas and I was in the middle of the circle so #thought hey maybe someone will actually acknowledge my existence but she fucking ignored me and went to next person like why the fuck #And now I’m debating staying in that shithole bc I was invited to a gc for that class and I stupidly thought that someone might want me #There. I wasn’t even invited I secretly scanned the qr code to join over someone else’s shoulder #everyone else there is the best of bloody friends and I’m just there talking to one friend who I don’t even think is my friend #“Hey man I’m really fucking sad rn can I talk to you” “womp womp have you heard stupid fact no.3848594 about my ocs while I ignore you when #you talk about anything else about me” oh my god shut up literally no one else sane would see someone like that their closest friend rn #At least someone wants to talk to me #Like what is it that makes people not want to see my please just tell me I’ll change I’m amazing at changing my personality to fit others #promise me on that I’ve done it my entire life #Even just messaging me more than once every year and I’d consider you my best friend this is how bad I’m getting #What is so bloody bad about me that no one else likes I don’t care how badly you fucking word it just something #It shouldn’t be normal to wish death on people you call your mates bc you heard about them all going out together without you #Oh dear did the gc’s without me in it there’s one for every friend group I’ve ever been in why isn’t there one for the main group I’m in rn #Idfc anymore just tell me what I’m doing wrong I keep asking people if they want to go out or how far away they live from some place #And it’s always met with ignoring me talking over me or immediately changing the subject #Please if you’re someone I know irl what the fuck am I doing fucking wrong I can’t fucking do this anymore be as mean as you like #Why the fuck does no one ever want to be around me why do I hear so much about stuff others are doing together but never me #It shouldn’t be normal to prefer being in a toxic relationship than what I’m in rn #I fucking hate everything

[doyeons]

i think maybe there’s a bit of misery swirling around in me

#bella.txt #like.. idk no one i talk to here besides classmates who r younger than me and i don’t spend time w/ them outside of class #and like in my head i’m like ‘i wanna go home’ but then j go home and my loved ones r all spread out #i either see my parents + hazel but im isolated from everyone else #or i go where i can see my friends and do more but i have to be in my sister’s space which is suffocating 😭 #um not to mention my childhood dog is dead and i feel her absence all over again when i think abt going home #i hate to be overly dramatic but i rly miss her i can’t believe such a big piece of my life is gone forever #like we got her ashes back while i was home and i was just holding the box like. wtf do u mean my babygirl is in here. #i just UGHHHH i feel weird and impermanent rn. i don’t have a place i belong

[loverdude]

My senior show is also so stupid lol like I am never again in my life gonna put my artwork in a gallery setting that's just not something I enjoy at ALL or aspire to do but I have to do this whole big terribly stressful thing in order to graduate and it's SO DUMB

#💭 #i may be a studio art major but like. not... actually LOL #like i am but uh. i'm just like. whatever idc... #i don't necessarily regret going to college i wouldn't have met some important friends otherwise #including my bf lol he didn't go to my school but he was a friend from high school of a friend i made at school #and a lot of the actual things i've gotten to try in studio classes have been fun and cool opportunities #like quilting and ceramics and oil painting etc... #and some stuff i learn in classes like art history and other stuff can be really interesting to learn #but the like... expectations side of it... #not everyone is gonna go above and beyond in class and also like #go on to grad school and eventually make a living off of like solely being a gallery artist or whatever else #i'm gonna like. idk hopefully get some diagnoses soon and mayyyybe get some government benefits that eventually and like #work a calm part time simple not-physically-exhausting job and do commissions or shop stuff or sell crafts etc on the side #ideally speaking etc but. i just wanna have a calm warm cozy healthy life with my bf and family and friends that's all i care about #the world of art school is not really for me lol just bc art is the main thing i do with my time doesn't mean like. #thats the kind of path i'm gonna go down... #i always feel like no one in those settings thinks my main art i make is professional or original or my full capability anyway lol #cuz it's fanart or cartoony or whatever #i make lots of other art too and can do all kinds of styles but i shouldn't have to do it to like. prove myself #no one should #sorry so much rambling lol #i'm just frustrated and stressed

[illuminatireject]

I’ve just fucked the most beautiful trans woman

#this isn’t true I fucked her yesterday but still #well she fucked me but still #I mean she literally picked me up and threw me around like it was nothing #I’ve had 2/3 people I’ve fucked do that I didn’t know it was like A Thing #sorry everyone had to share (brag) #‘don’t you do anything other than have sex? post about something else’ I just fuck and study ok? I don’t have time for much else #we’re going to continue meeting up as fwb #like actual fwb and not just hookups #AND she was in my major (or a very similar one) and gives me tips on my classes :) #⭐️ #mdni #tmi