#;; — ocd cw

[gin-juice-tonic]

since im awake and talking about ocd again - something not a lot of people know is compulsions can be completely mental, it doesnt always manifest in a way another person could notice from the outside

you’ll have an intrusive thought; you’ll try to analyze it and logic it away, mentally reassuring yourself. “I would never do [x thing]”, “[y thing] would not happen”, “[other person] wouldnt do [thing]” or even just “don’t think about that”. things like that.

but no matter how much logic or reason you use, it doesnt go away, ‘cause thats not how it works. So you keep repeating whats now become like, a frenzied mantra of re-assurance unable to think about anything else. 

and this can go on for hours. or on and off for days (or even longer, unfortunately)

here’s more examples of mental compulsions for the curious: 

#cw ocd #ocd cw #one of those #i like to think i might help even one person by making people more aware of what this disorder can look like lol #long post #one of the earliest extended bouts of ocd i can remember for myself was prayer related #imagine a 10 year old constantly and fearfully praying in their brain all hours of the day for like a month #no one else knew cause it was just up there #in my head and all

[susiephone]

can we put “intrusive thoughts” on the ever-crowded shelf of “words the internet can’t use until they learn what they actually mean” please? because it is genuinely INFURIATING to see tiktokkers be like “oop shaved my head, the intrusive thoughts won!!” or “my intrusive thoughts are telling me to call my ex a cunt and tbh they a point”

but then when people talk about intrusive thoughts that involve violence to themselves or others, sexual assault, bigotry, animal cruelty, abuse, or any other genuinely horrifying thing, then suddenly it’s all “omg if you even have that thought you’re disgusting!” and “you wouldn’t think it if you didn’t mean it on some level!” and “ok FINE maybe you can’t help THINKING it but do you HAVE to post about it?” (and i’ve seen that last one commented on videos where people simply mentioned HAVING intrusive thoughts about the topics i just listed. not describing the thoughts in detail or saying what they entailed! just mentioning “i have intrusive thoughts about [x topic]” and suddenly everyone in their comment is jumping down their throat for making them uncomfortable.)

the point of intrusive thoughts is that they are thoughts you do not like, do not want to have, and do not believe in your logical, thinking brain. “swerve into traffic” “you could stab them” “what if you poisoned the coffee you just gave them and somehow repressed the memory” “what if you secretly want to hurt them, so secretly even YOU don’t know it” “what if you ran someone over and didn’t notice” “what if you don’t actually love your mom you’ve just fooled yourself into thinking you’re capable of love but really you’re just faking it”

intrusive thoughts are upsetting, scary, and often objectively ridiculous.

they’re not fun.

(on a similar note, it is genuinely creepy to realize how many people believe in thoughtcrime, even if they don’t realize it.)

#ocd #instrusive thoughts #hocd #harm ocd #mental health cw #vent post #vent cw #ocd cw

[chetungwan]

"El, do you want to just dump all the info you learned about OCD while on a weeklong research binge, desperately trying to understand what was going on in your brain?"

Why yes, I do. Did you know it has a very high co-morbidity with Tourette's, and a slightly lower co-morbidity with ADHD. One research paper I read posited that they might all spring from a dysfunctional impulse control, though that was pretty much the scientific equivalent of wild guessing, since it was in the conclusion instead of the focus of the research

#ocd cw #intrusive heartbeats #brain feels

[muutos]

me when I see the psychotic baddie with ocd doing his rituals: just like me fr fr 😍🥰❤️✨ finally representation for my mental illness

#like yeah boy you got rituals me too ❤️ #this is like a joke but also I do actually have diagnosed ocd #ooc. #ocd cw

[luaminesce]

I don't like men. I don't want to fuck them, date them, kiss them, marry them.

So why does my brain keep on popping in with intrusive, "what if" thoughts?

#fuck intrusive thoughts man #ocd cw #lesbian

[jupitisms]

Chronic eczema sucks ass. Especially when you have sensory issues. Especially especially when you compulsively pick at/scratch uneven or dry skin. It’s only recently I realised how much of a lingering effect it’s had on me, I’ve had this since I was maybe 8 years old, it’s my normal, and as it’s seen as such a trivial thing if it’s not intensely severe, you just don’t think about it. It’s just another thing to deal with.

#self portrait #vent art #eczema #ocd things #sensory issues #cw: eye strain #ocd cw #cw: skin picking #cw: blood #sort of it’s meant to be more like lava or fire #but also the feeling of being stained or diseased #like touching another person will curse them somehow #give them the fat ugly weirdo disease as someone so kindly put it #doesn’t help that it makes personal hygiene harder either #CW: skin condition #cw: vent

[robobee]

in other mental illness news I have this thing where at least ONE Bad thing has to happen in the day & whenever that doesn't happen (like today) I get so sick and anxious even though it's a GOOD day

#i dont want bad things to happen but if there's not a fuckup in the day it means its Coming #anxiety cw #mental illness cw #ocd cw #<not me but pls take care of urselves frnds

[queerhawkeyes]

I only have two more sessions with whitney, my therapist, since my student health insurance ends this month (and she’s at the student health center--when I decided to go with someone at the university I didn’t think I would end up staying in the city after graduation). we talked yesterday about whether I want to immediately look for a new therapist once I have health insurance through my job or not, and also maybe finding a therapist who specializes in OCD, since that’s always kind of been on the back burner but has gotten worse over time. like I don’t want to go home to visit next month for a variety of reasons but one of the biggest is because I can’t touch anything there without getting anxious, which is an understatement actually, and my family has never taken my anxiety about this seriously or even tried to do the bare minimum to accommodate me. I am really only relaxed about contamination in my own apartment, and even then a bunch of new compulsions and issues have cropped up, including not wanting anyone to touch me at all ever because of contamination. I’ve also gotten more anxious about smells but have tried really hard to shut down those thoughts because I really don’t see a way to counter that anxiety other than extreme avoidance of like literally everything. anyways it’s potentially an actual problem now rather than just being another thing to work around, so maybe it’s time to do something about it.

#human crap sack tire fire #got really upset thinking about this during therapy yesterday #and I don't know if it's because the specific worries that cause the compulsions are so intense #or if the idea of changing things is too overwhelming #but idk 60mg of prozac isn't cutting it and tbh never really has #so maybe exposure therapy is worth a shot #ocd cw

[romanarose]

The ocd won tonight and I don’t have eyebrows

🧍🏻‍♀️

Anyway this is a chunk of the reason I have my brows microbladed on so we’re good 😭 just frustrating

#romana personal posts #ocd cw #cw ocd #ocd

[thejugheadparadox]

compulsions bad whatever blablabla but they're telling me to do a quick apology to all ppl I took fucking ages to follow back bc I get weird about following ppl back + sideblogs confuse me GOD BLESS.

#ocd cw #? Maybe. Idk how to tag this

[gin-juice-tonic]

#cw ocd #OCD cw #one of those #long post #if anyone needs this tagged as anything else lemme know

[susiephone]

love it when ocd makes me ask for reassurance but things so trivial and obvious that i have to add a thousand "for the record i am aware i sound crazy right now" caveats lmaoooo

#ocd #ocd cw #mental health cw

[ceruleansol]

I forgot to wash my arm a bit above my wrist bc a napkin brushed it during dinner

And I’ve since lain in bed, worn the cardigan I keep on my bed, etc., everything in my safe zone

I just now realized this and I’m trying to ignore that the napkin touched the countertop, which the cats sometimes lay on, and the cats lay on the floor, which gets walked on with shoes that carry who knows what from outside

So basically, my arm has been caressed by the floor when I put on my cardigan, and now I want to burn my arm off and everything in my room

#it’s 2am #I don’t even have the energy to follow through with the compulsion to clean everything and myself #just agony #ocd cw

[screechthemighty]

Sidebar, I'm close to posting the second chapter of "ripe and ruin", but I don't want to PROMISE that will happen tonight, but soon, also here's an excerpt:

“I’m not…delusional, all right? I just…” He couldn’t look at her as he spoke. “I get these thoughts in my head and if I don’t do something about them, they don’t go away. Even when I do, they don’t always go away for good.” They never did, really, but he was sure this already sounded bad and nonsensical. No sense in making it worse. “So I know. I know he’s gone.” Saying it still made him feel sick, but at least he could say it. “It was just…either the floors or I lose my mind.”

“...Wow. That sounds…”

“Hard? Terrifying? Yeah, welcome to my life."

#fic blogging #god of war spoilers #ragnarok spoilers #god of war ragnarok spoilers #spoilers #god of war #ocd cw

[ilthit]

You can opt out of the Game, actually. And step on the cracks. It'll be fine.

#ocd cw #I think that's appropriate #ocd trigger cw

[invizigothx]

my other hypothesis is that there's little to no upside to having OCD. i've seen those "autism/adhd is like a superpower!" "how to use ur adhd/autism to your advantage" posts/business scams. and I'm really not sure how you could market OCD like that......

#ocd cw