stormsandrainbows

[stormsandrainbows]

i haven't written here for a while, but reading these make me smile. they make me remember the carefree days that are long gone, but i can't cease to remember.

i don't miss the old me  i don't miss the crybaby i used to be but i missed the projects we used to do before i started discovering the new you.

when the world gets confuddled and we all struggle to understand the past is what keeps me sane; even if i tell myself i know i have to move on.

wrote this quite some time ago, but i still tear up whenever i revisit

[stormsandrainbows]

we see stuff like "their broken leg hurting doesn't mean your sprained ankle doesn't" all the time on instagram and twitter and tumblr

but does it really-

i feel so deeply that it cuts straight to the bone but then at the same time,

when we all feel such different measures of pain i really just feel like i don't deserve to complain about the miniscule things i feel when i see people going through so much more

#poetry #words #this is hard #hurt #pain #cut #deep #measure #its so hard #how do we all cope #relationship #i feel so deeply

[stormsandrainbows]

I know how everyday I drink my memories

I know how toxic it is to me

I drink to not see tomorrow

Or my sorrow

And yet again I take one more sip

Poison only tastes like poison until you have swallowed it

[stormsandrainbows]

drowning in a 10-meter sea is the same as drowning in a 100-meter ocean don't let anyone invalidate you or your struggles

#words #hurts #this ain't a fairytale #drowning #sink #validation #don't we all struggle

[stormsandrainbows]

it all feels like it shouldn't have happened

Why can't I let the memories go?

[stormsandrainbows]

when i'm "jealous" and everyone looks at me weird does that mean i can't be because i always have to be that perfect true genuine person, and so suddenly i can't feel anything but it's fucking painful because i'm just always the displaced friend and i'm not your "main", not the first one you look for in a crowded room and it hurts me so much but you will never know, because i can't bear the thought of hurting you with my own stupid words

#i tried to write something positive #it just comes out better in words #this sounded better in my mind #words #emotional #poetry #love #friendship #pain #hurt #perfection #i'm genuine #i miss you so much

[stormsandrainbows]

i think the days melting into nights and the flowers wilting; bare branches bearing no fruit are the signs of us growing up but we never know when we see the last cherry blossom fall - and then it all slips away and we can't grasp it anymore...

#growing up #i might cry #shut up #words #poetry #words words words #this is random #slips through my fingers

[stormsandrainbows]

don't say you love me until the sky turns black and we whisper in caverns of dark promises i'll never forget - because it was really just a goddamn stupid lie

#poetry #words aren't just words #love is deeeeep #original #words #i just type random stuff and call it a day #i love you and you'll never know

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are we not just empty shells at the beginning of life and every other part is what we fall in love with in others?

#humanity #what is this #i think i'm a puzzle that can never be solved #for that funny trend that says i am everyone i've ever loved because it's so true

[stormsandrainbows]

sometimes i just sit stare at the stars and hope somewhere out there you look up at the sky and think of me

#i miss you #i love you #hopelessly in love #i might have a problem #thread #i'm interesting #love #what even is love #there is an obsession