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#i adore this photo with all my heart #we are so much less than what we think #and so much more

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Spangled together

Sitting in bed and chills rippling up and down

The feel of tousled sheets on bare legs

A bedside stack of wobbling books

Your smile shaky as you peer up

Your teeth milky and sharp

All these contradictions

Make you a whole

As I splinter

Beneath

You.

#my poetry #i wrote this in june i think #i don't know what this is #poetry

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I will hold you: everything’s going to be fine. I will whisper: It won’t always be like this.

Franz Wright, from To Myself (via violentwavesofemotion)

#this is lovely #poetry

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The main thing is to write for the joy of it. Cultivate a work-lust that imagines its haven like your hands at night, dreaming the sun in the sunspot of a breast. You are fasted now, light-headed, dangerous. Take off from here. And don’t be so earnest.

Seamus Heaney, Irish Poet of Soil and Strife, Dies - NYTimes.com (via thelifeguardlibrarian)

#note to self #write

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The Book Thief (2013). X

#the book thief #i am so excited for this #favourite book #i wish i could talk to markus again #i would love to hug him again

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#nyc #i really like this #i hope i get to do this one day

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sexuality is(not) a big deal

i'm so frustrated i could cry. one of my best friends has just moved to nyc and is having a crisis in the sense that she's never felt so much for a girl before. she's one of the most open-minded, confident, intelligent, loving people i've ever met and the fact that she's been freaking out makes me so upset because no one should be freaking out about their sexuality.

the whole situation has just reinforced the fact that we still live in a heteronormative society irrespective of the progress that's been made. gay marriage is still not legal here in australia, nor the majority of the world. love is love and if people can't love they hate. i am so angry that sexuality is a concept where crisis is almost unanimously linked in when that sexuality is not heterosexual. the confusion that arises over it when someone finds they're not attracted to the opposite gender - i find it absolutely devastating because it isn't necessary, or at least it shouldn't be. 

this whole sense of pride that i'm feeling for her for telling me at all - i think she is so brave and yes, this is positive, but there shouldn't be that sense of pride at all because sexuallity should not be so focal. 

i can't wait for the day when there is no need to "come out" and sexuality isn't such a source of anguish when it deviates from the "norm." 

#personal #sexuality #i am upset #why haven't we progressed #when will we progress #love is love #this is not as coherent as i would like it to be

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#childhood #summarised in a gif #wouldn't it be lovely to sit above the clouds

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#audrey hepburn #take me back to this era

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on my father

it's father's day today (or was one hour ago, but technicalities) and i didn't want to say it. say happy fathers day with an empty voice and empty eyes. i am so angry with him and most of the time i feel that he is my father only in the sense of biology. is this too cruel? he doesn't care - i don't think he knows how to. he's sending mum to an early grave and as a child i remember wishing with all my heart that they would get a divorce so we could move on and be happy. i still want that - there is no love left in my parent's marriage and my mum being in this situation for years is beyond devastating. 

i'm not sure if this makes sense. this "celebration" has brought out the worst in me because i didn't want to say false words to a man who does not care or love, and thereby live. 

#happy fucking fathers day

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we are all made of star dust

#we are all made of star dust #because flesh and blood doesn't have quite the same ring to it #a step above head in the clouds

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the day america got what it fantasised about

#i am endlessly fascinated by 9/11 #seeing it like this devastates me every single time #i don't even remember it happening

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August 13, 2013

"and God knows I’m not dying but I bleed now"

#poetry #this is gorgeous #inspiration #i have to constantly remind myself that people are real #there are real people #people are real #note to self #this has some link to routine #to monotony and blandless #and forgetting the very nature of existence is to live and not be alive

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Scheherazade

Tell me about the dream where we pull the bodies out of the lake

                                                           and dress them in warm clothes again.

     How it was late, and no one could sleep, the horses running

until they forget that they are horses. 

              It's not like a tree where the roots have to end somewhere, 

       it's more like a song on a policeman's radio, 

                     how we rolled up the carpet so we could dance, and the days

were bright red, and every time we kissed there was another apple

                                                                                           to slice into pieces. 

Look at the light through the windowpane. That means it's noon, that means

     we're inconsolable. 

                                          Tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us. 

These, our bodies, possessed by light. 

                                                                Tell me we'll never get used to it. 

                                                                                              Richard Siken 

#favourite #potentially my favourite poem ever #richard siken #potential tattoo #i've read this a thousand times and it still gives me chills #our bodies possessed by light #scheherazade #poetry

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AFROLINDAJOYAS

#i find this kind of wonderful #i am so fascinated with the heart #and the fact that if someone says point to you people point to the heart #and not to the brain

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I think that whatever I do is my business. I do it because if I don’t I’m finished. I’m selfish: I do it for myself to save what is left of myself.

Charles Bukowski, from Fame (via violentwavesofemotion)

#this this this #my feelings in a nutshell #saving what is left of myself #because i've given so many pieces of myself away #charles bukowski #one of the greatest poets

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the first post

this blog is for me. i've become so accustomed to writing and doing things for other people that i'm forgetting it doesn't have to be like that. there are times when i want to ruin people, things, cities, myself - and times where the phrase bursting with happiness seems as though it could become a reality. i always wanted to become a writer and dismissed it, but here i am proving myself wrong. i can write for myself, then look back on it and laugh or cringe or weep and maybe even regret, but that is better than never remembering at all. 

note to self: i can be personal - i am a person - hence personal. all those barriers i've built up need to be broken down a little because i'm scared of giving too many pieces of myself away, but i'm more scared that the walls will build up so high that i don't even have the option. 

this vaguely makes sense. if not, fuck it. post one this is. 

#the first post #to remember #dear universe